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While I admit a vacation involves privilege and is a completely predicable catalyst for detaching from life’s stresses, our summer escape to Michigan represents a significant unpacking of feelings for me every year. I call it my annual “defibrillation of soul” where I recalibrate my intentions and desired habits, shedding unpleasant behaviors that accumulated by the end of the school year–things like morning hustling and slapdash dinners–and restoring routines and rituals that connect us and keep us grounded in purposefulness–the art of lingering, big breakfasts on the back deck, nature walks, book reading, hammock naps, crafting and cooking and setting the table with pretty dishes. I think a lot about how much I want to keep the calm restorative vibe alive back home as we emerge back into reality early August, but it’s amazing how easily the hustle sneaks back in. The demands of schedules, home and back-to-school responsibilities are jolting, but I know that I can create a home where both halves of our life can peacefully dwell together–Motivation & Responsibilities with Rest & Rituals.

A great way to keep our intentional dinner commitment alive was setting up a Blue Apron delivery for our first week home. There are a good handful of Blue Apron posts on this blog, so it’s not the first time I’ve talked about it, but if you’re new here, here’s what Blue Apron is…figuratively, it is an invitation to the table, an all-call to the kitchen for chopping and simmering and sitting together to enjoy a good, nutritious meal. Literally, Blue Apron is a service that delivers all the farm-fresh ingredients you need, right to your doorstep, in exactly the right proportions (no grocery store trips! No waste from unused ingredients!), to make a delicious meal for your family from chef-designed recipes. There’s no commitment–you can skip or cancel service at any time, and there is a large selection of recipes to choose from. Blue Apron adds new dishes to their menu every week with vegetarian options and plans for different family sizes. 

Our favorite thing about Blue Apron though, is that it encourages us to cook together as a family, slow down and enjoy the process, and it gets us out of the rut of our same old meal repertoire. We’ve introduced so many new foods and spices and ways of preparing things to our kitchen because of Blue Apron, and this week one of those was the most delicious Lo Mein sauce. I am all about the sauces in life, and this one is now a favorite. And, can you believe I’ve never made Lo Mein before? It was so easy, and the added marinated cucumber and scallions made it interesting and flavorful.

Dash helped me make our meal this time, and with the easy-to-follow how-to steps with beautiful accompanying photos, Blue Apron recipes are a great way to teach kids to follow recipes and get involved in meal prep.

We cooked our chicken in a pan (you can also grill it) and added it to our cooked pasta with broccoli, but the secret to this meal’s amazingness is in the sauce.

We added together (all proportioned and provided in our Blue Apron delivery): the white bottoms of scallions, tahini, sesame oil, soy sauce, rice vinegar, hoisin sauce and 2 tablespoons of water. That’s the magic Lo Mein sauce. You know the secret now, you’re welcome.

We tossed our sauce with our pasta and broccoli, added our chicken, chili sauce and marinated cucumbers, and behold, the result:

Best part? The entire family loved it, especially the kids (“Can we have saucy noodles again?”). From the cooking together to the gathering at the table to enjoy our meal, our Blue Apron night was exactly what we needed to remind us that even amid our new busy schedules, our home base is what matters most.

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The most important rule with the craziness that is back to school? Don’t forget to nourish yourself!

Happy Monday! With school beginning for so many of us (we start this week), I thought it would be a good opportunity to share a little bit about sending kids with special needs to school and what we’ve learned these past few years through supporting Nella in school and advocating for her education. If you are a parent with a child with special needs getting ready to send your sweet nugget to school for the first time and you are anything like I was, you’re terrified. In fact, from the moment Nella was born, sending her to public school was my biggest fear. One of the most powerful things I’ve done to help support Nella though is changing my perspective about what sending her to school means.

When she was tiny, my perspective was rooted in loss, scarcity and fear. I saw it as sending my child who needed me more, who might get made fun of, who might feel different, who might have trouble making friends, who might struggle to fit in, into a big sea of kids for seven hours where I’m not there to help her or protect her. Just reading that sentence makes me tense up. And while all those things are understandable real fears, this is how I look at it now, and–let me tell you–this perspective has ignited a fire in me and made me so excited to send her off into the world: I get to share this amazing child with this community. I get to walk her into school and introduce her to new friends who I know are going to learn so much from her and fall in love with who she is. I get to see the power of inclusion again. I get to be part of educating her teachers, her peers and their parents about Down syndrome and the incredible ways people with Down syndrome learn and contribute to their world. I get to learn more this year and work with all these educators on the best ways that Nella learns, and we are going to be stretched in beautiful creative ways in doing so. And here’s the exciting part…we have target goals! In years past, educating kids with Down syndrome involved fuzzy instructional outcome goals because educators didn’t believe they’d be able to read or go to college, their futures mostly meant living with their parents, and their education basically involved keeping them busy. But now we know differently. We have specific instructional goals–target bulls-eyes which means our arrows aren’t flung willy-nilly into the void. I get to walk my child into school every day so that she can learn and build relationships for all the same reasons her classmates show up–to prepare them for their futures and to open up their world of opportunities. This is exciting!

Feeling scared and worried is totally normal, but so many things I worried about never ever happened. In fact, out of all three kids, Nella is the one I don’t worry about this year. She’s most excited about going back, and walking her into school never fails to comfort all those scared little voices inside and has brought me to tears many times because of how much she is loved. Students run to hold her hand–students I’ve never even seen before. “NELLA!” She is known, she is seen, she is supported, she is damn near getting a big head from all of this because sister gets so much attention at school.

The success we’ve experienced at school didn’t just land in our lap though. It has come from a commitment from both me and Brett as well as her team at school. It’s come from consistent communication, attention to behaviors, a willingness to try new things when current plans aren’t working, access to and implementation of resources, and lots of patience. And it will continue to require that commitment and communication. A few things I’ve learned that have helped and some reminders as we start the new year:

Stay Open and Let Your Child’s Needs Always be the Focus
One of the greatest things about the special needs community is that it forms a village–so many great voices sharing advice, support, sharing resources, etc. But remember, what works for one child might not work for your child, and you know your child best. Special needs forums and Facebook groups can be helpful support for navigating the educational world, but don’t get so lost in following advice and checking off the “shoulds” that you don’t pay attention to the specific needs and behaviors of your own child. You will write your own book, and you will write it well!

Request Homework
This didn’t pertain so much to kindergarten for Nella, but in first grade when other students had homework, Nella noticed and wanted it too. Even if it’s a different assignment from what the other kids are doing, the routine of doing homework is an important one, and Nella took great pride in being part of it. We also found that getting a jumpstart on the next day’s activities worked well for homework. So if we had the opportunity to read the guided reading book and talk about it at home the day before she was going to read it in class, it paved the way for a more productive lesson for her the next day.

Educate the Community about Capability
I love to share stories about the capabilities of adults with disabilities with Nella’s team, and it’s a great reminder of what we are all working toward. I want them to know about the college students I’ve visited who have Down syndrome, about the girl with Down syndrome who has a part-time job with benefits working at the front desk at a doctor’s office and about the stories I’m reading and hearing about that involve opportunity and high standards. You’d be surprised how many professional educators I still meet who “love, love, love” kids with Down syndrome but still refer to them a bit patronizingly as “precious little angels” and talk about their goals only in terms of life skills.

Get Involved in the Special Needs Classroom
Nella’s regular inclusion classroom where she learns next to her peers who develop typically is vital to our goals for her and the ultimate goals of inclusive education for all kids; but her pull-out classroom where she receives one-on-one instruction and learns next to other kids who have special needs is important too, and those educators and classrooms often don’t have the same kind of community and support that regular classrooms do. To be honest, I was so gung-ho inclusion in the beginning partly because the special needs classroom scared me. I didn’t want Nella in there. I didn’t give that part of her education the love it deserved. I’ve realized how much both classrooms are so important for her learning. At our school, parents are very involved in the typical classrooms, room moms to go the moon to make things special, and teachers are so well-loved in terms of gifts and support during holidays and class projects. Because of the smaller class size and logistics of the special needs classrooms, I’ve made it a point to commit to helping create that same kind of community and celebration in Nella’s other classroom where there aren’t as many students. I want that teacher to feel the same love as the other teachers in the school and for that classroom to feel the same kind of community and celebration.

Educate the Kids
This is my favorite part, and I think it’s been very influential in creating Nella’s amazing community of students and friends who love, support, include and understand her. We advocate for communication about differences and we want Nella’s class to know about Down syndrome and specific ways they can help her. Adults sometimes assume that kids are naturally good-hearted and inclusive and think they are doing a good thing by not talking about obvious differences because “why point it out if they don’t notice,” but here’s the thing–they do notice. Kids notice skin color and hair color and scars and wheelchairs and the fact that some kids have trouble speaking. They notice at a very young age who can read really good, who has trouble, who’s super fast in P.E. and who is last to finish. They are observant little sponges, perhaps far more aware of the world around them than their grown predecessors who are staring at their phones. When there’s an obvious difference and no one is addressing it, kids can interpret the silence as “it must not be something we talk about because it’s shameful.” Knowledge is power, and presenting my child’s difference in the way I want them to be perceived–which is exactly what it is–a few things that make her unique among a sea of things that make her like everyone else (see also: humans in general)–leaves no time or space for kids to form their own misconceptions or to assume, by no mention of it, that the subject of disability is something to be whispered about in private, and it’s not.

Get your mitts on, moms. You’re going in. Schools will naturally protect confidentiality regarding your child’s disability, so if you want it talked about, you’re going to have to ask. I go one step further and actually write out an entire script and hand it to Nella’s teacher–all the things I want the kids to know like what Down syndrome is, why Nella leaves the classroom sometimes, what Nella’s good at and how they can be great friends. We ask that this be done on the second week of school (after a week of getting to know her), and we have Nella out of the classroom during this conversation (we might have her be the one to lead it someday, but for now this feels right). This year, we are having Nella’s resource room teacher be the one to talk to Nella’s regular classroom because she knows Nella so well and is so passionate about advocacy and inclusion. Every year, this conversation leads to friendships, better support and a whole classroom full of little advocates who feel lucky to be her champions.

I’m reposting the script we wrote (we adjust it a little every year) if anyone wants to use it as a springboard in creating your own conversation in the classroom.

There are several children’s books that deal with disabilities and differences. I personally love the non-specific themes of acceptance and different-is-rad such as Not Your Typical Dragonand Elmer—fantastic springboards for expanding into themes of acceptance and compassion–but you can find some great lists of books on specific disabilities such as these Children’s Books About Disabilities or this Goodreads list on children’s books that introduce specific special needs themes.

We also know that maintaining friendships and encouraging social growth will take extra efforts on our part for Nella. Providing play opportunities after school, inviting people over, etc. is important. My friend Stephanie, several years ahead of us on this journey, hosts a backyard movie night every couple weeks to foster her teen son’s friendships.

If any of you have any great ideas on introducing these themes to classrooms or tips for fostering friendships and making connections at school, please share in the comments!

This is all a work in progress. But as Nella’s mom, I’ve got three jobs every day that I know I can do: show up, speak up, and dream up. Onward, friends.

I’ve written before about “Mom’s New Year”–the fact that August is a much better starting point for fresh start enthusiasm because January doesn’t really work for me with all that resolution hype. Given the schedule of our life right now, January feels more like the middle of the year. There’s still half a year of school left then, our “We got this!” attitude only has five more months of steam left (let’s be honest–we are surviving off reserves in February), and setting new goals is the last thing I want to do when I’m still mourning the twinkle-light tear-down and the fact that I won’t be able to watch The Family Stone for another year (personal rule). But August? Oh, I’m there. The kids are going back to school, our schedules are shifting, and there’s an ever present momentum you can’t help but feel, especially if–say–you stop to inhale the deliciousness that is a box of #2 pencils, right there in the middle of the Target back-to-school aisle, while the parent who’s frantically searching for a yellow 3-prong, 2-pocket folder walks past you, staring at you because You Crazy. Hell yeah I’m crazy. This is my new year. Put me in Coach, I’m ready to play.

It helps that I’m excited about the new year, and thinking about goals and changes for myself this month is, actually, more fun and motivating than intimidating. But I also think taking time to step back and purposely create a to-do list just for me (that doesn’t include setting orthodontist appointments or buying backpacks) before the school year starts is vital for survival right now. Because those first few weeks back to school–back to dance schedules and soccer practices, homework help and library trips–can damn near snuff out your own soul, with so much time and attention focused on everyone else that you lose what fuels you in the first place. Have you been to the back-to-school aisles in Target lately? Or attended a middle school orientation? It’s like a plane dropped oxygen masks, 250 kids are grabbing for them, and there’s none left for you. Hold your breath. Or...before this all begins, stop and think about what intentional things you can do to make sure you are fully fueled, cushioned from the stress that will try to bring you down, and holding a good grip to your own goals–those “when the kids go back to school, I’m going to–” statements you’ve been telling yourself. Don’t let them slip.

While I know that making a list doesn’t necessarily translate into getting ‘er done, list-making is a powerful intentional action for me that starts the momentum needed to get things done. So, while I have a separate to-do list hanging on my wall right now with things that pertain to school and a few supplies I need to buy to make sure the kids are ready, this is my list just for me. My Mom’s Back-to-School list. Feel free to take any of these for your own list.

1. Organize a “Me Space”
It can be your bedroom, your office, a breakfast corner in your kitchen where you sip coffee and look at catalogues every morning, but you need a designated space that’s just for you–a place that inspires you where you can retreat to write, read, take a nap, paint–whatever. Before the kids go back to school, take some time to make this place special–rearrange it, tape an inspiring quote to the wall, open up the light. This week, I did a thorough clean-out of my office, cleaned up my desk, threw a bunch of paperwork away, bought a few organizational helpers, moved some artwork around. The new space makes me so excited to work and write and get some new things done with more time in the day without kids.

2. Find a Workout Partner
After a summer of pleasure, I’m looking forward to focusing more on keeping my body healthy and staying active. To make this goal more fun at the beginning of the school year and to keep me accountable, I’m sharing it with a few friends. I’ve set up one day a week to run with a friend after kid drop-offs, signed up for a workout class another evening of the week and have designated what part of the day will be for running (if you don’t designate the time, it’s not likely to get done). Want to take it one step further? Find an upcoming race, invite a friend to join with you and train together.

3. Adopt a Water Drinking Plan
Say what? A water drinking plan is a new school year goal? YES! Because I am the worst at remembering to drink water, and it’s such an important part of feeling good and staying on track with how I want to take care of my body. There are a few simple things you can do to help keep yourself drinking water throughout the day, and it can be as simple as buying the cutest water bottle you can find to carry with you throughout the day. Download the Daily Water or Hydro Coach app to track your water intake and ping you with reminders to stay hydrated. And a great motivator for me is making a big jug of infused water in the morning to keep in the fridge (add grapefruit slices or cucumber and mint leaves).

4. Treat Yourself
Just because I’m out of school doesn’t mean I’ve lost the excitement for back-to-school shopping. While you’re getting the kids set up with school supplies and new gym shoes, splurge on something for yourself to go into the new year as well. I bought new candles–a few of my favorites–last week because lighting them in the morning while I’m hustling around the kitchen making lunches and guiding the kids through their out-the-door routine helps keep me centered and makes me happy.

5. Book & Journal
One of the goals I try and always keep, especially when schedules are more demanding and staying centered is important, is making sure my morning ritual does not begin with my phone. Having a really good book I can’t put down and a clean journal helps me keep this goal. I just picked up this book after a friend said she tore through it in one sitting.

6. Pick a Date Night
Demanding schedules and monotonous routines are prime opportunities for relationships to suffer. Brett and I made a lot of intentional efforts this year to stay connected and have fun together, and I don’t want to lose that. It can be as simple as picking some calendar dates to go out to lunch together (I forget about this opportunity a lot!), booking a babysitter for a Friday night out or designating a night to stay up and watch a movie together after the kids go to bed. But put it on your list so that you make it happen.

Honorable Mentions: I kept my list pretty short and doable so that it doesn’t get overwhelming, but I have two honorable mentions I’d like to make happen this year–hiring a housecleaner, even just to come once a month to deep clean and taking lessons of some sort–picking up some long lost childhood piano lessons, learning a new language, cooking…whatever it is, it will be just for me.

Bring it, school! I’m ready for ya.