I’ve shared the words of my friend Amy before, and I’m so honored to have her here again with the perfect words for this Easter, especially considering all that our world is going through right now. My friends all have unique gifts which provide me with quite a buffet of wisdom and support to choose from for any and all situations in my life. Amy is my Empathy & Understanding girl. She’s also wicked smart. She can hold the most vulnerable of stories and wisely extracts meaning from them. Her heart beats for the hurting in the world–anyone who knows her feels that.

She and her husband wrote the most beautiful parenting book that will be out in the world this June (you can preorder it here!). The book is a loving friend who makes you feel normal and a parenting compass all in one. I’m lucky to have her love in my life beyond her words and am always thrilled to share her gifts and heart with you.

This is Amy and her family…

And this is her Saturday gift for us…

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As we live through this moment in history, I’ve been thinking a lot about the stories we tell. We humans want to make sense of things, so we look for a narrative that helps us understand what we’re feeling, especially when our feelings are intense. This can make us write endings to our own stories too early. And the endings we allow ourselves to believe in our darkest moments usually aren’t true, even if they feel like the truth. Life’s best stories rarely end at their worst, most desolate points. There are truer, better endings to come, but we have to travel through trouble to get to them.

On the Saturday after Jesus was crucified, there was no story of Easter. The truest story of the day was that Love had been defeated and death had won. Jesus’ friends and family were likely heartbroken and terrified. The story was over and their ending was written. They didn’t know there was anything more to come, so they had to wait in the darkness with death for a while.

Right now the whole world feels like it’s suffering through a long Holy Saturday. The grief and stress levels for many people are high, and you may be struggling, too. Interpersonal conflicts can escalate when we’re stuck together. Rates of domestic abuse are on the rise, as are our feelings of fear, insecurity and sadness.

If this is a hard time for you, what story are you telling yourself in this moment?

We will never recover
There is no escape
They will never appreciate me
This is too broken to heal
I will always be lonely
I am a terrible parent because of what I did to them
They are a disappointment

And on and on …

If anything like this sounds true to you, will you try to focus your thoughts on this different mantra instead?

This is not the end of my story.

This moment is hard, your experience is valid, and it’s important to acknowledge the pain of it. But I’ve seen enough death and resurrection in my own life to know that, in time, our stories can be transformed. The darkness of this moment does not need to be the end for you.

On resurrection Sunday, women gathered burial spices and went to Jesus’ tomb, doing what was needed to prepare for death. Like them, we must keep moving forward, even if we can only see darkness ahead. Easter proclaims that God is not dead. Love is alive, and Love is with us wherever we go.

Like the woman at the tomb, I pray you’ll be met by a transformative love so good and surprising that you won’t recognize it. May you experience love so far beyond what you have known that it shatters injustice and turns every final story of death into a lie. May Love hold you and calm you, equip you and guide you until, over time, it transforms your pain into joy.

 

PS You may be interested to know that there is science behind our human tendency for telling our stories about ourselves too early. My husband and I write about this science in our upcoming book, and I’ll share it here too, just in case it helps:

“Sadly, the human mind is very biased toward information that confirms our emotional hunches. If it feels true, we look for evidence to prove that it is true and resist evidence to the contrary, especially when we feel strongly about something.

The best long-term strategy to help children expand their thinking is to help them look at all the evidence both for and against their thoughts. When we take this approach to our inner thought lives, we often find that the evidence for any one conclusion is mixed. I’m not all good or all bad, and neither are others. Sometimes people are happy with me; sometimes they aren’t. Sometimes I get the answer right, and sometimes I get it wrong. Sometimes I succeed, and sometimes I fail. Sometimes the scary thing I thought would happen happens, but more often it doesn’t. And if the evidence is mixed, it means the extreme thing I tell myself can’t be true.

Helping our children understand this information is often enough to help them forgive themselves and others and keep moving forward with hope and bravery.”

—Dr. Jeffrey Olrick, The 6 Needs of Every Child: Empowering Parents & Kids Through the Science of Connection

If you need someone to talk to someone today, please consider calling one of these numbers:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1–800-273-8255
National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1–800–799-SAFE 
(1–800-799-7233)
The Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network 
(RAINN): 1–800–656-HOPE (1–800-656-4673)
Childhelp, a nonprofit dedicated to the prevention of child 
abuse: 1–800–4-A-CHILD (1–800-422-4453)

 

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You can find Amy and Jeffrey Olrick on Instagram, Facebook and GrowingConnected.com.

 

 

 

Hi friends, it’s just Amy writing today. It’s been a joy to be here with you through this parenting series. Jeffrey and I have loved considering your questions, following your conversations and learning from your wisdom ourselves. We’ve also noticed something interesting about what people are looking for when they click over from here to our website, GrowingConnected.com. We can only see numbers, not individual behaviors, but about a third of the people who visited our site from this series also clicked over to read Jeffrey’s answer to one particular question, the question of “How do I know whether or not I’m depressed?”

We think there’s a story behind all those specific clicks. It’s the story of how many of us don’t know what to do with the sadness and stress we’re feeling right now. We wonder if there’s something wrong with us or our lives—are things supposed to feel this hard? So today, we’re going to do something a little different. We’ll link directly to that question about depression, but first I want to share a bit about I’ve personally learned about pain and sadness and looking for beauty along the way.

Several years ago, the phrase “beauty will save us,” began rolling through my mind, unbidden. The words wouldn’t leave me alone, so I began to explore the concept of beauty, wondering what it might have to teach me. These lines from Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn captured my imagination:

“If the too obvious, too straight branches of Truth and Good are crushed or amputated and cannot reach the light—yet perhaps the whimsical, unpredictable, unexpected branches of Beauty will make their way through and soar up to that very place and in this way perform the work of all three.”

We are living in a time of great and growing ugliness. People are dividing and entrenching over what we have all decided to be Good and True. It’s easy and understandable to feel demoralized. But beauty can point to us different, more real reality—the reality of love, and of hope.

So Jeffrey and I pull out board games and light candles some Friday nights, creating a “coffee shop” game night for our guys. We put up Kelle’s summer bucket list and wear yellow and play hooky sometimes. I do a lot of baking. We hang pictures on our walls and create cozy spaces and spend so very much time teaching our kids how to love others and each other. We pray that we’ll love them well, too. Because if our homes cannot be havens, then where else do we have to go?

We don’t savor these small things in an effort to shut out or numb our own pain. We don’t look for beauty because life isn’t hard or heartbreaking sometimes. We look for beauty because that’s only way to find it. We create beauty because we were born to be creators of things that are good. Connecting my heart with my little boy’s smile, enjoying the taste of food that I love, and taking time to drink in the color of flowers fills me with strength to keep going. It allows me to see the mom sitting parked in her car next to mine, eyes full of tears, and tap on her window to ask if she’ll like to grab coffee. If I train my mind to seek beauty, I remember to turn on some music instead of yelling when I’m making dinner and the kids start fighting again.

If I live looking for beauty and seeking ways to create it, when I read a statistic that says 80% of little brown boys will be bullied at school, I can whisper to myself, Well now, that’s not the world I want to see. And then I can open my heart to people who don’t look like me and support them in creating a world that is beautiful for their children, too. When I learn that a baby has been pulled out of her mama’s arms at the border, I can close my eyes and picture that baby laughing and back in her mother’s arms again, and think, Yes, that looks better. That’s the world I want to work to make true. And then I can make calls and speak up and join my tears with that mama’s tears, connecting myself to her pain. Because I’ve seen beauty with my own eyes, so I know there’s a different way. That’s the way I’m going to speak out for, and work for, and believe in.

Sometimes life just feels like too much. And sometimes our own brains work against us, misfiring. The deep, choking sadness of clinical depression is real and crippling. It does not allow you to see anything beautiful. But there are truly hopeful treatments and people who can help. If you are struggling, please believe that this feeling you’re feeling today is not your forever. The best thing you can do right now is hang on and seek help. If you’re looking for support or don’t know whether or not you need treatment, this post may be able to point you in some concrete directions toward recovery:

If you are not clinically depressed, but simply feeling the weight of the world we’re living in, then please be kind to yourself. Sometimes we weep because there are things worth weeping about. The world needs us feelers. Or at least I hope it does, otherwise I’m really making everything unnecessarily difficult. Listen for where you pain may be pointing you and what your insides are trying to tell you. What is the hardest thing about life for you right now? Can you make one small shift today that might make it easier? Could you set a boundary, let go of an expectation that’s holding you in place, or reach out to a group of people who care as passionately about something as you do? Can you think of something beautiful and release yourself to love it?

Beauty can save us, and beauty will lead the way.

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You can connect more with the Dr. Jeffrey Olrick and Amy Olrick on their site, Growing Connected, and follow them on Instagram @growingconnected or Facebook. If you have a parenting question or issue you’d like Amy and Jeffrey to tackle, feel free to leave it in the comments. You can also sign up for their newsletter where they share more questions, answers and encouragement for any parent seeking more connection with their kids.

As my kids have grown and I’ve talked to more parents who are ahead of me, I’ve learned one important thing–bigger kids mean bigger problems. Figuring out a way to get a 7-month-old to sleep through the night does feel hard and heavy at the time (and it is!), but when parents are struggling to understand their teens or find ways to support them through social issues, most would probably say they’d trade those challenges for baby sleep issues any day. Part of the problem is that it’s harder to talk about a teen’s issues with friends and resources than it is to, say, throw out a social media all call for advice on buying a sippy cup that doesn’t spill. With growth comes more complicated issues, more social stigmas, more responsibility to protect kids’ privacy and, for many parents, less support and resources because less parents are talking about things. We’re still in the sweet spot of three young kids, but I’m gathering as much information and listening to so many stories of friends who are raising teens so that I can be prepared for harder days.

My friends Dr. Jeffrey Olrick and his wife Amy of Growing Connected are back today in their series addressing some of the tough parenting questions that many face. Tough questions require so much compassion and understanding, and my friends are always so good at that.

 

For the last several months, my 15-year-old daughter has been acting withdrawn and secretive, and getting upset whenever I ask her what’s wrong. She’s also only been wearing long sleeve shirts, even in this warmer weather. Yesterday she opened up enough to show me her arms, which have multiple scratches and cut lines on them. She’s been cutting. I still don’t know why. I told her we’d get through this together, but I feel terrified. I don’t know how got here, so how can we make our way out? — Heartbroken Mama

Dear Mama,

Most of us have had or will have punch-in-the-gut moments as parents. Moments when something so unexpected or full of pain happens with our kid that it takes the air right out of us for a bit.

In moments like this, it helps to get still and catch your breath. Catching your breath means reaching out to a partner or a few trusted, close people for support. It means gathering facts about the situation before deciding how to move forward. For us, it also means centering ourselves in prayer—expressing our desperation into the quiet and listening for wisdom and love big enough to carry us through even this pain.

For now, know this: Few things in life are as scary and overwhelming as discovering your child is intentionally harming herself. But you are not alone. Approximately 1 in 4 teenage girls and 1 in 10 teenage boys report a history of self-harm behavior. That’s a huge number of kids and families affected by self-injury. So your daughter is not an abnormal, forever-damaged kid. She’s a child struggling to figure out how to manage distress and finding relief in an unhealthy way.

Most adolescents who self-injure are in intense mental or emotional pain. They may suffer from anxiety and depression. For some teenagers, cutting focuses the mind on physical pain, which temporarily interrupts overwhelming thoughts and feelings. For those kids, self-injury is a form of psychological pain management. It works in the short-term by trading one form of pain for another. Other young people self-injure for a different reason: to feel something, anything, because otherwise they feel numb and emotionless. These kids are often at greater risk for increasingly dangerous episodes of self-injury. Their symptoms can be signs of serious trauma and longstanding depression.

Adults generally do not self-injure because adult brains have developed enough to manage their thoughts and emotions more healthily. Adults also tend to have more options for getting out of stressful situations. But adolescents are stuck with their developing brains and often have limited control over their circumstances.

Young adults who have recovered from the urge to self-injure consistently report that having caring, calm and understanding adults in their lives during their healing process was key to their recovery. So it’s going to take some courage, but you can help your daughter work through her pain as her brain develops and grows. This punch-in-the-gut moment could be an invitation to enter into your daughter’s life in a real way and ultimately grow closer.

After you’ve caught your breath, work to create a place of safety for your daughter. About half of kids who self-injure also feel suicidal, so it’s essential to find out whether she feels like she wants to die, and not to shame her if she does. If she reports suicidal thoughts, tell her you love her, praise her for her bravery in being honest with you, and assure her that you will do whatever it takes to help her to feel better. Call 1-800-SUICIDE or go to your local ER if you are concerned about your child’s immediate safety.

Because thoughts of suicide can be a form of fight-or-flight, make sure to ask her if there is anyone in her life who has harmed or threatened her. If she shuts down when you press into this question, or reveals something upsetting, seek professional help to determine how to keep her safe.

If you do not believe that your daughter is in immediate danger, begin to create space for connection and unhurried conversation. Spend some time thinking about how she could feel your love in ways that are particular to her.Does she have an activity she loves to do, or do you have good experiences going out for lunch, shopping, or watching a favorite tv show together? Try to enter her world by facilitating things she enjoys that are anchored in real, not virtual, life.

When our kids are struggling they need us to be brave enough to listen to their experiences with an open heart. As you create opportunities to talk, ask questions to clarify your understanding of what she is going through, not to challenge or correct her. Ask her explicitly if she feels like you make it harder for her to manage her world, and take her seriously if says you are contributing to her pain.

Discussing all these things can feel scary or threatening, for both of you. Seek professional support if these conversations feel too hard, and continue to express your love for her in the midst of it all.

Once you’ve begun to understand the pressures and pain your daughter is facing, you can start problem-solving situations together. A shared plan for moving forward will include removing unnecessary stress in her life and equipping her with strategies to better manage her own thoughts, feelings, and behavior. As you do this, remember that some kids cut because they don’t feel any control over their lives, so carefully consider what decisions you can start opening up for her. This may mean shifting some things in the life of your family, so please be compassionate to yourself during this process, and reach out for the support you need, too. Give your daughter unconditional love and a commitment to walk through this with her, no matter how long it takes. And picture us sitting here breathing right along with you, believing that you’ll make your way through this, together.

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You can connect more with the Dr. Jeffrey Olrick and Amy Olrick on their site, Growing Connected, and follow them on Instagram @growingconnected or Facebook. If you have a parenting question or issue you’d like Amy and Jeffrey to tackle, feel free to leave it in the comments. You can also sign up for their newsletter where they share more questions, answers and encouragement for any parent seeking more connection with their kids.