More to come later tonight…
My favorite party yet.
Enjoying the Small Things
By Kelle
By Kelle
It was her day today.
Initiated by a family breakfast celebration accompanied by her brothers who got to skip out on a couple morning classes in exchange for challah french toast and watching the birthday girl blow out four candles on her Mickey Mouse pancakes.
She milked it big time. Kept asking us to say “Happy Birthday, Lainey” and smiling when we did.
If there is a heaven, then someday when I cross over there, I’d like to think my moment of entrance will be experiencing again those precious minutes when I became a mother. To do it again–to transform from wanting, hoping, and trying to imagine what it’s going to be like to actually experiencing it–reaching out my arms to cradle her perfect body, pulling her in to kiss newborn skin, feeling this gutteral lurch of a new love I couldn’t quite explain–I’d go back a trillion times to feel it again if I could. I’d take the pain, the pushing, all of it just to remember again what it was like to be changed so instantly. To be overwhelmed by love in that way.
I told her the story of her birth tonight as she fell asleep spooned in front of me, and in the faint light of the moon, her little silhouette looked just like it did four years ago.
I told her about the day she made me a mama, and how she stopped crying as soon as she heard my voice. That’s her favorite part of the story. Every time I get to that part, she smiles.
My, how she has changed.
This year, our shy girl has braved a medley of new experiences–from ballet to human sling shot rides–and her confidence continues to soar, hidden at times but pulled from the reserves when she needs it most. Resourceful and intuitive, funny and free-spirited, she has grown into her own personality which, while predictable and undeniably hers, still renders surprises that leave us sighing with the bittersweet recognition that she’s simply growing up.
I love her faces.
There are times when I worry she feels lost in the cloud of special needs attention, but I think this less and less as I trust my instincts and they tell me she is fine. Because there’s a whole lot of special that comes with the one who makes someome a mama, and I know she knows this. After all, she is four.
So tonight, we celebrated appropriately, whipping up her meal of choice–Mac n’ Cheese, of course–and listening as she dropped the phrase “my birthday” into every other sentence.
Her one birthday wish was to go to Walmart with Brett to pick out her own birthday cake (she’s eyed them the last few times we’ve been there). Sending Brett to Walmart with Lainey though is like giving a mouse a cookie. They came home with a cake. And Dora jammies. And Tic Tacs.
She was thrilled with her new scooter. Had to try it out with her new jammies and worked very hard to conceal her satisfied smile.
My first born is growing up, and it is a wonder to behold.

(Lainey turns two, Lainey turns three)
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I so enjoyed reading about all the qualities you love most about yourselves in the last post. They made me smile and think a bit more about things I’d like to change in my own character. Thank you for sharing.
The winner of the $100 Little Lesiw Gift Certificate: Comment #54, theenglishgirl: Love the sisterly hug, so real and tender. Must have melted your heart to see that. I wonder how many moments like that we actually catch??? Hopefully being present, not too many!
My ability to be a good friend. Even with my crazy road life, my friends mean the world to me and I carry them in my heart. Happy Birthday Lainey and Happy Birth Day Mummy! Congratulations, theenglishgirl! (do you have a British accent? because I love them.) Please send your contact info to kellehamptonblog@comcast.net, and a nice box of accessories will soon be at your door.
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My Pensive Sky wall (Behr paint for a couple who asked)
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Happy Wednesday!
By Kelle
The new paint hue that’s been rolled onto our office walls is a color recommendation from my sister whose brilliant suggestions of Intimate White, Romance and Buff have already scored in our home.
Pensive Sky, this new one’s called–a pale, dreamy blue-gray combination that is both warm and cool, serious and yet whimsical. I cannot help but smile when I walk into this airy happy hue and think of its really cool name every time.
The sky was indeed pensive this weekend, rendering a rare and most delicious Sunday morning shower that woke us with its rumbling thunder early, while it was still dark, and continued its comfort with torrential rains that lulled us back to sleep. By daylight, sun and rain made some sort of compromise and so it was–we enjoyed that fine middle ground of pleasant but dewy, warm but breezy, and a pale, dreamy blue-gray pensive sky.
Which is what our home seems to be the past several days. Busy, a bit messy, lots to do, coffee table littered with tissues and aspirators, to-do lists half-crossed off…but nothing that would alter the response to the proverbial “How are you?” with anything but a genuine smile and an honest “We’re fine.”
Chaos–the good kind–comes naturally to our home because we subconsciously torment ourselves with giant projects at the most inappropriate times. Like, I swear, every time we have company–the kind of company I want to impress with a clean house, candles, and a bathroom that, for once, smells like lemon and verbena–Brett decides to clean out the refrigerator twenty minutes before guests arrive. This has happened at least four times. I’m lining up wine glasses and fanning cocktail napkins at the same time he’s stacking Rubbermaid full of moldy taco meat and rancid Shepherd’s Pie next to the sink.
I digress.
So there are projects and snotty tissues and lots of things to do before company arrives late this week. There are cunning canines who wait for openings in the front door for their quick escape.

Let me tell you about Sophie. She is a very good dog, but a rebel dwells within. She runs away about twice a month. And when she does, chaos ensues. Neighbors calling that they saw her flash past their bouganvilla bushes, boys chasing her on bikes, Brett taking one side of the neighborhood on scooter and I, the other half in a mini van. We holler her name and shake Milkbone boxes. It’s quite embarrassing. But she runs. Like Marion Jones. And, I swear, every neighborhood dog is rooting her on, their snouts pressed behind living room windows, dreaming they are with her. They cheer her as she runs and runs and runs. Go, Sophie. Run.
Needless to say, this happened this weekend. Her escape. And it added to our chaos.

Pre-sprint warm-up. She doesn’t want to blow a hammy.
But at least the mad sight of us all going crazy to catch her is really, really funny.
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The hot glue gun is gettin’ some action with a birthday party coming.
And, like digging out old leftovers seconds before company arrives, how about we throw some house-painting into the mix?
Fingers crossed, by the end of the week, things will be completed, house cleaned and maybe–just maybe–lemon verbena candles flickering.
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We had a birthday party this weekend at Gymnastics World. I actually remembered to get a gift the day before the party as opposed to five minutes prior. And we had a card but we forgot it. And there was no tissue paper in our bag. So I did this sorry presentation of “Hey, see that doll in that pink bag over there? Yeah, that’s from your neighbors with the really messy house.”
It wouldn’t be so messy if I wasn’t hot-gluing rootbeer labels all week.
My girls loved Gymnastics World.
And I loved glancing over to check on them on the tumble mat and seeing this completely unscripted moment.
Little Sister belongs at Gymnastics World. Her flexibility is just begging for parallel bars and balance beams.
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I could talk more about the chaos. The colds, the mess, the funny things that have gone wrong this week. But I’m over it. I’d rather swoon over the fact that a trip to the grocery store in the rain early Sunday morning to fetch some coffee cream granted us the bonus of coming home with fresh-baked donuts. And up there with Central Park in the fall or family reunions or holding a newborn close to your chest late at night came this perfect moment. A rainy Sunday morning dunking a glazed twist into an “I Heart NY” mug filled to the brim with hot coffee–swirled to milky perfection.
I’d rather remember that after that silly fit of hers came a heart-felt apology and a bout of infectious enthusiasm.
I’d rather focus on the fact that, beyond the temporary distractions in life, there are constant joys.
My dreamy blue-gray world of both warm and cool, serious and whimsical.
Wednesday will be the anniversary of the most blissful moment of my life.
Her Birth Day.
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