I’ve been writing a lot lately…going back into those first weeks and digging as deep as I can get. I write late at night. Or early in the morning. And it’s a cathartic experience, one that often has me crying at my computer, taking breaks to relieve my emotions. But it’s so good…to get it out. And, for a moment, it’s like entering back into that person I used to be and reliving all of it. Still trying to figure out a way to leave it at the computer and make sense of it when I’m done but, in the meantime, there are weekends. Beautiful weekends that invite us across pinecone paths for a picnic in the woods and ice cream cones that drip their sticky puddles on the garage floor on a hot Saturday afternoon.

My grandma always, always had vanilla wafer cookies and fig newtons in her cookie jar when we visited her house. And so, I will have them too.
After Brett caught some fresh snapper last week out fishing with his buddy, he put every effort Friday night into preparing a fish fry for the family. His excitement was that of a little boy…studying recipes, taking his special trip to the grocery store for all the fixin’s, and how proud he was to deliver each plate to the kids. And he says things like “Get out of my kitchen” while he’s working. And I think that’s adorable. Dude, you can have it. Beats me havin’ to cook.
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Nella and her boyfriend, Rocco:
He loves her. Even kisses her hand to let her know.
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And Sunday was Brandyn’s birthday, and ain’t nothin’ like candles in your pancakes. So, the little sister saw to it…
And she proudly marched into his room carrying them, shy-smiling and singing, “Happy Buht-day to Bam-bam.”
And festivities followed later in the evening when Grandma & Grandpa and the boys’ mama and her fiance came over and Maria made the most amazing Mexican feast for all. And, once again, I was reminded how much I love a good meal around the table…even if the kids wolf down their food and beg to leave to go play. And even if we make them stay a bit and “enjoy” the boring adult conversation. I so remember what that was like. Rite of passage through childhood, if you ask me. And once you realize someday that you actually are enjoying that conversation, you know you’ve arrived. Kissing childhood goodbye.
I like when we secretly catch Austyn & Brandyn lovin’ on their sisters. It melts me.
And later, when all had left for home, we slipped into the pool again for a swim under the stars, under the colored camp lights…and then whispered our babies to sleep.
Digging back into the past may be a bit cathartic…maybe even uncomfortable at times…but woven together with this beautiful present–with weekends of candles in pancakes and root beers on a blanket in the woods–it tells of a great big beautiful story.
And we each have our own. Our stories. And, no matter what challenges I may be facing for the present moment, I’m always exhilerated at the idea that I make the choices for my story. And I’ve always liked adventurous stories. So, that it will be. An adventure. Where little girls bring happy days and tomorrow is always waiting.





































































