in the midst of another cozy (i’m-pretending-it’s) fall day down here the other day, i perused through comcast’s free movies for a little background noise while i cleaned…and turned positively giddy when i found a jewel hidden between kindergarten cop and the mighty ducks.
little women, my dears. a delicious movie chocked full of petticoats, quill pens and yes…bonnets.

there’s this part in the movie i just love…and always have. jo, who travels alone to new york to foster her independence and persue her writing dreams, is having a discussion with a group of lawyers. after debating a subject quite impressively, one of the lawyers turns to her and says, “you should have been a lawyer.” she humbly smiles and replies….”i should have been a great many things.”

…and that line just gets me every time.

i should have been a great many things.

i’ve felt that feeling so many times as my interests have pulled me in different directions over the years. i wanted to be a writer. i wanted to go into advertising. i wanted to design things. create things. be a teacher. be a mom. be artistic. speak at events. take pictures. help little chidren. volunteer. be a homemaker. heck, i was pre-med for two years.

i wanted to be a great many things.

but, here i am, almost thirty, and you know what? i have no regrets. no discontent. i’m purely happy and right where i want to be.

i am a great many things.

i am a mother to the most amazing thing that walked the planet and i am showing her that women can have it all. all those other things? i’ve crossed off some, and the others i’m getting to…slowly but surely. with her right by my side.

but, for now….my little great-many-things is fulfilling everything i ever wanted just beautifully.

and her trillion expressions are like watching the northern lights to me… i am humbly awed by her beauty.

she danced today…like, literally picked her feet off the ground and threw them around.

yeah. she’s gunna be a bootie shaker.

and this may get redundant, but all i can say at the end of the day is….

i love her. i love her so very much and feel so honored to belong to her.

seriously.

…enjoying the my-heart-is-full things. ~k

p.s. kudos to my sister who today took being a great-many-things to new levels.

the way she runs to the bathroom when she hears daddy turn on the shower…

…and pounds her little hands on the foggy door, begging to climb in…

…the way she tries to undress herself, panicking that if she can’t get out of her jammies fast enough, she might miss her chance to take her morning shower with dad…

…the way she melts into a trance when the warm water rains on her back…

…and cries “mo-mo” when you pull her away from the water stream.

…the water beads that stick to her perfect little cheeks before i dry them…

…or the feeling of could-anything-be-cozier-than-this? when i scoop her littleness up into warm terry cloth and kiss those drippy eyelids.

yeah. i’m gunna miss that.

i don’t have anything miraculous to say today other than…

i’ve been feeling discontent. and anxious. and so run down by all this economy talk. disheartened with the housing market and gas prices and knowing that things are just bad. disappointed with circumstances.

and then, my guilt moves me to tears.

i think that discontentment is ugly. certainly a little discontentment is good because it nudges us to do something about it. but it rides a fine line near being ungrateful. and, well…i am just so grateful for everything we have.

so, when these days come, i find so much comfort in the little things….

with no further ado…

enjoying today…

1) my crock pot which happens to be the place where magical things are happening these days. magical, in that dinner has been made every night and it’s done by noon. and i still can’t help but love hearing “babe, that was delicious” after dinner.

today’s magic: stuffed green pepper soup (courtesy of my sis, where all my kitchen magic comes from)
2 lbs. cooked beef
3 green peppers chopped
1 can tomato sauce
2 cans diced tomatoes
2pck. onion soup mix
3 tbsp. apple cider vinegar
garlic, salt, pepper
at least 2 cups water
1/2 cup basmati rice, cooked.

throw it in the pot and simmer all day.

2) the light from my flickering friends which sit upon a bed of leaves on my kitchen counter.

they watch me cook and make me happy.

3) the arrival of lainey’s ebay halloween costume today. still working on bits of it, but i dressed her in what i have so far and…well, i couldn’t get rid of my smile. hmmm…should i give it away? alright, a hint:

let’s just say the yellow brick road hasn’t seen this kind of cute since…well, ever. sorry, judy.

4) watching cubsy wash the car with daddy. she had this impish little grin the whole time, but every time she caught me watching her, she tried (unsuccessfully) to quit smiling…like she was too cool to smile. she knew she was doin’ something special. oh, i love her.

5) being able to be a stay-at-home mom. the most precious gift i could ever have and something i hold so dear to my heart. …and being able to do the same for lily. i feel honored and important and lucky and so responsible to be what these girls need every day…and more.

6) our little moments together…today, it was real hot-cocoa in tiny cups with heaps of marshmallows. her smile was so worth the stained t-shirt and sticky floor. it always is.

7.) my almost-finished photo wall that is amazing considering the crazy little money i spent on it. pictures to come when finished. and thanks to carin who can stretch a dollar like stretch armstrong and inspires me to do the same.

8.) randomly finding her with a hat on…don’t know where she finds them or how she manages to put them on so perfectly, but she loves them.

9.) the way she’s mastered drinking out of a cup. not a bottle. not a sippy. but a real grown-up cup. and she does it flawlessly.

10.) realizing that, by the end of writing this post, i forgot why i was discontent.

with this….

…how can i feel anything but blessed. happy. grateful.

…ready to vote next month. passionate about being a part of conquering our country’s problems.

…but in the meantime, i’m…

…enjoying the small things. ~k