Nella Fantasia (translated from Italian)
In my fantasy I see a just world,
Where everyone lives in peace and honesty.
I dream of souls that are always free
Like the clouds that float
Full of humanity in the depths of the soul.
In my fantasy I see a bright world,
Where each night there is less darkness.
I dream of spirits that are always free,
Like the clouds that float.
In my fantasy exists a warm wind,
That blows into the city, like a friend.
I dream of souls that are always free,
Like the clouds that float
Full of humanity in the depths of the soul
Cordelia: Dorothy Cordelia, my dear loving grandma, who taught me more about life than she could have ever known.
This is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write in my entire life. The hardest and yet the most beautiful. As I even just begin to type here, late, in the dark in my room alone with my girls sleeping next to me, their little faces barely visible from the glow of the the same candles that flickered in a very special room one week ago, my heart starts aching thinking of where I was at exactly this moment last week.
A week. How can it already have been a week? I’ve thought a million times what I’m going to write here and how I’m going to begin and what order I’ll put it in and I think I’ve been so afraid to come back here…so afraid of not doing justice this very precious night…of leaving something out…of attaching simple words to an event that is so far from simple, it might just not be possible. But I need to get it out. I don’t know how it’s going to come or if it will make sense, but I’m just going to write. And when I get stuck, I will pick up this tiny blessed life beside me and hold her tight. I will breathe her in and remember…
Oh, here it goes.
The story of our daughter’s birth.
This is Nella’s Story.
I turned 31 on December 29…exactly a month ago. We went to dinner with friends the evening before and as we left, we saw the new bookstore nearby welcomingly lit up. I had told Brett I didn’t need anything this year for my birthday as Christmas had just passed, but at the sight of the bookstore, I remembered a book I had read about from another photographer. As we walked by, I told Brett I changed my mind. I wanted a book, and I wanted it…tonight. So we ventured in, and he played with Lainey downstairs while I wandered up in the self-help section, thumbing through titles until I landed on the only copy of the book…A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller.
Later at home, we put Lainey to bed and I drew a bath and climbed in with my big pregnant belly, my new book and a highlighter. And I read. And read. And read. Underlining, highlighting, starring paragraphs and quotes and words that moved me hard. I warmed the water about a trillion times and pruned my skin to raisins, but I could not stop reading. It turned into a three hour bath followed by another hour or so of reading in my bed. By the end of the book, I was inspired. Inspired to write a new story for our life…inspired to face challenges and leave my comfort zone and go through hard things because that is what turns the screenplays of our lives from boring to Oscar-worthy. And, to be honest, in my mind, our uncomfortable challenge was the changes in our life with Brett’s job and having him away from home. Little did I know.
Fast forward.
Last Thursday, Brett & I teased all day that we were so ready for this baby, she had to either come Thursday or Friday. Every time he called me from work, he told me I should be out jogging. I didn’t jog, but I did walk like crazy, trailing Lainey through the streets of our neighborhood in a stroller, thinking, “These might be the last moments with my only daughter alone.” And Thursday night, the pains started coming…nothing horribly uncomfortable but some significant cramps that were semi-regular and popped up several times through the night. By morning, I had several that were 15-20 minutes apart, and my doctor, convinced I would go fast once I was in full swing, suggested I go to the hospital within a few hours. I remember getting off the phone and it hit me. Today was going to be the day. It was surreal. I texted my friends. Called my family. And began the last steps in the ever long process of saying goodbye to my ‘only child.’ She wanted her face painted like a kitty and, although I was excited to pack up and head to the hospital, I savored every brush stroke of those last moments with my big girl.
I called my friend, Katie, in Fort Lauderdale. I met Katie the night Lainey was born as she was the delivery nurse…and we have since been forever friends. She promised me she wanted to be present for all my babies’ births, so she high-tailed it over I-75 after my call to get there in time.
It was strange. It seemed so real and yet I had dreamed of this moment for so long, it seemed a bit like a dream as well. It all just hit me…we had waited for this. Wanting a second child. Losing a pregnancy. Getting pregnant. The horrible night I thought it was all ending and the trip to the E.R. where we saw that little heartbeat. Waiting and preparing and finally, these last weeks, having everything just…perfect. The birth music ready to go, the blankets I had made packed and ready, the coming home outfit, the big sister crown for Lainey, the nightgown I had bought just for the occasion…what I would wear holding my daughter the first night I rocked her to sleep. Even the favors I hand-designed and tied every ribbon on were lined and stacked in a box, ready to pass out the moment the room flooded with visitors. My heart could hardly hold the excitement, and I will never ever forget what it feels like to long for your baby being handed in your arms the last few days of your pregnancy…it’s so real, you can touch it.
We said goodbye to Lainey as we left her with Grandma and headed to the hospital where I was quickly instructed to drop trou and gown up. I slipped the white ruffled skirt and black shirt I wore into a plastic belongings bag. Days later, just the sight of these clothes–the ones I wore during my excitement and happiness…during those last ‘happy’ moments before my life was changed–would bring pain. I think Heidi finally hid the bag because it made me cry every time.
The early stages of labor were perfectly beautiful. Nothing hurt that bad, I had the anticipation of this eutopian experience ahead of me, Brett was chill, and my girlfriends started trickling in the room. We actually played a game…the “if you could…” cards I had packed in my bag for this very purpose. I had it perfectly planned, and it was going just as I had imagined…but better.
By 2:00, my water had been broken and my contractions were in full force. The room was full of excitement and laughter. I chatted with my girlfriends until a contraction came on where I shifted gears, “ow-ow-ow-ow-ow’d” my way through it (and cursed), and came out of it as fast as I went in, picking up the conversation where we left off. I checked to make sure Brett was okay. Several of my girlfriends were headed out for a birthday party but, with news of my status, they all huddled into the room, dressed to the nines, before their night out to check on me. I liked the commotion…I loved the anticipation. I loved the feeling of people waiting anxiously for our baby. It felt special. …and we were so ready.
Two hours went by and I was off the wall in pain, begging for anesthesia to get in with an epidural. They were tied up, and so I cursed them too. Little did I know, I was a 9. This is where things begin to get hazy. It all just happened so fast. I remember anesthesia walking in to give me an epidural, Brett getting uneasy, girlfriends talking me through it, my pediatrician stopping in to say ‘hi’ during her rounds, and my obstetrician walking in and gowning up. This was it. With Lainey, it took forever and here I was, just hours after walking in this place, and they were going to tell me to push. They were going to tell me ‘just one more’ and then suddenly my life was going to change.
I couldn’t grasp it even then. It was all just happening so fast and I wanted to savor it. I looked around the room and tried to take it in…the candles, the music, the lavender oil I brought that wafted through the room and calmed the tension. And then I remember just speaking to myself. You are about to meet your daughter. You are about to be changed for good.
At this moment, I heard the sounds of our birth song begin to fill the room…When You Love Someone.
And I began to cry.
My husband, my friends, my dad, my nurses…all of them smiling…cameras flashing…
One more push.
Oh, this is so hard…
I pushed. I pushed and watched as the tiniest little body came out of me, arms flailing, lungs wailing…and then, they put her in my arms.
…and I knew.
I knew the minute I saw her that she had Down Syndrome and nobody else did. I held her and cried. Cried and panned the room to meet eyes with anyone that would tell me she didn’t have it. I held her and looked at her like she wasn’t my baby and tried to take it in. And all I can remember of these moments is her face. I will never forget my daughter in my arms, opening her eyes over and over…she locked eyes with mine and stared…bore holes into my soul.
Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.
That was the most defining moment of my life. That was the beginning of my story.
I don’t remember a lot here. My friends have filled me in, but I feel like I was in a black hole. I know I held her. I know I kissed her. I know I begged every power in the world that this wasn’t happening…that she was normal, but I knew in my soul exactly what this was.
She was scooped off my chest and taken to the warming bed where nurses nervously smiled as they checked her over. I wanted someone to tell me what was going on…I kept asking if she was okay, and they told me she was fine. She was crying and pink and just perfectly healthy. I wanted to say the words, but couldn’t. So, I asked why her nose was smooshed…why she looked funny. And because she came out posterior and so quickly, many people in the room honestly thought she’d look a little different in an hour or so. But I knew. I cried and cried while everyone smiled and took pictures of her, like nothing was wrong. I kept crying and asking, “Is there something you aren’t telling me?” …and they just kept smiling.
At this point, I have believed until recently that the pediatrician came in right away and told me the news. But because I was so confused and emotional and haven’t slept much in a week, I am told it wasn’t right away. The nurses apparently called my pediatrician in for ‘D.S. suspicions.’ And during this hour, I was handed back my daughter as if everything was okay.
When I think about this time later, I have cried and cried wondering what I did. Did she feel love? Did I kiss her? Did I hold her and tell her ‘happy birthday’ and smother her with happy tears? My friends in the room smile when I ask this and promise me I did. They said I couldn’t stop kissing her. And while I held her, the room went on. Someone popped champagne and poured glasses and a toast was raised…”To Nella!” while I sat, confused, trying to take it in.
…and I am so very blessed my beautiful photographer friends, Laura and Heidi, were there to capture every single moment. They never stopped shooting…there are over 2000 images from the delivery and they have helped me relive the beauty. This photo is so beautiful to me…because it speaks with emotion. This is how I felt while everyone carried on for me.
I remember feeling….nothing. As if I literally left my body for a bit.
But they said I kissed her. They said I loved her. They said I was a mama.
I remember my pediatrician suddenly walking in and my heart sank a bit…I knew. “Why is she here?” I asked. And they told me she was just checking the baby out. Which she did. And then the room grew quiet and everyone was asked to leave. I started shaking. I knew it was coming. The tears. The twisting in my stomach that they were about to rock my world.
Brett stood behind me, stroking my hair and my nurse friends, Dot and Katie, stayed on either side of the bed. And it happened.
My pediatrician snuggled Nella up in a blanket and handed her to me…and she knelt down next to my bed so that she could look up at me…not down. She smiled so warmly and held my hand so tight. And she never took her eyes off mine. We had been through a lot together with Lainey’s jaundice and I have spent many tearful conversations with her over the course of these two and a half years. She is an amazing pediatrician. But at this moment, she became more than that. She was our friend as she beautifully shared the news.
I need to tell you something.
…and I cried hard… “I know what you’re going to say.”
She smiled again and squeezed my hand a little tighter.
The first thing I’m going to tell you is that your daughter is beautiful and perfect.
…and I cried harder.
…but there are some features that lead me to believe she may have Down Syndrome.
Finally, someone said it.
I felt hot tears stream down and fall on my baby’s face. My beautiful, perfect daughter. I was scared to look up at Brett, so I didn’t. I just kissed her.
And then, Dr. Foley added…
…but, Kelle….she is beautiful. and perfect.
I asked for my dad to be let back in the room. And when he walked in, I cried again. They think she has Down Syndrome.
And he smiled as his eyes welled up with tears and he said, “That’s okay. We love her.” He scooped her up and I asked him to say a prayer. And there, in the delivery room where moments earlier she entered the world, we huddled around my bed…Brett still stroking my hair, Katie crying on one side, Dot on the other and Dr. Foley kneeled down beside my bed. He prayed and thanked God for giving us Nella and thanked him for the wonderful things he had planned for us. For our family. For Nella. Amen.
Dr. Foley hugged me and told me she got to hold her for her examination, but now she wanted to hold her just for some snuggles. And she did. I will always remember her compassion and know there is no one else that could do a better job sharing this challenging journey with us.
Katie asked if I wanted to nurse Nella, and I did. Another dreamy moment I had always anticipated and yet it felt so different this time. But I remember her latching right on and sucking away with no hesitation and looking at her, completely accepting me as her mama and snuggling in to the only one she’s ever known and I felt so completley guilty that I didn’t feel the same. I felt love, yes. I just kept envisioning this other baby…the one that I felt died the moment I realized it wasn’t what I expected. But the nursing…oh, the nursing…how incredibly bonding it’s been. The single most beautiful link I’ve had to falling in love with this blessed angel. And, look…I smiled. I don’t remember smiling, but…I smiled.
The hallway was still filled with everyone who was waiting…and there are stories from our other wonderful friends and family of what happened behind those walls while they waited. All I know is that there was more love in that birthing center than the place could hold. As anxious eyes re-entered the room, I held my baby and told them all, crying, what we had been told. I knew there was a stream of friends ready to come and celebrate and I wanted them all to be told before they came in. I couldn’t emotionally handle telling anyone and yet, strangely, I wanted people to know as soon as possible because I knew I needed the troops…I was falling, sliding, tunneling into a black hole and I needed as much love as possible to keep me up.
I just remember happiness. From everyone. All of the blessed souls in that room celebrated as if there was nothing but joy. Everyone knew…and there were a few puffy eyes, but mostly, it was pure happiness. More friends trickled in. More smiles. More toasts. And hugs with no words…hugs like I’ve never felt. Ones that spoke volumes…arms pulled tightly around my neck, lips pressed against my forehead and bodies that shook with sobs…sobs that told me they felt it too…they felt my pain and they wanted to take it away.
And Brett…well, he never left our girl’s side. He was quiet through this all, and I’m not sure I’ll ever know what he felt, but I know the daddy of our babies, and I know he knows nothing but to love them with all his heart. And he did from the very start.
As soon as the epidural wore off, I wanted my own nightgown. They were going to take me to our new room upstairs, and I was ready for a new start. Everyone carried our stuff up and waited for us. And then…the moment I always talk about…the moment they put you in that wheelchair and place the baby in your arms…and stroll you through the hallways to your room while onlookers smile and wish they were you. It’s so strange, but I barely remember it.
I remember arriving to our room and being told Lainey was on her way. And I cried new tears…I hadn’t even thought about how this would impact Lainey…what she would think…how her life would be different…how every beautiful vision I had of two sisters growing up together, grown-up phone calls, advice-giving, cooking together, shopping…everything would be different. Numbness started leaving my heart and sheer pain started settling in.
Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry when Lainey gets here.
…and then I’ll never forget her face…her cute outfit someone put her in…her eyes when she walked into that room, and the way she tried to hide her excitement with her shy smile.
I will never forget the day my girl became a big sister.
I will never forget the moment her little sister was placed in her arms. I watched in agony…in tears…in admiration as my little girl taught me how to love. She showed me what unconditional love looks like…what the absence of stereotypes feels like…she was…
…proud.
…and that was one of the most beautiful moments of my life. I needed that.
As darkness set in that night and people started trickling out, I felt paranoid. So completely afraid because I knew with darkness…with the absence of everyone celebrating…the grief would come. I could feel it coming…and it hurt so, so, so very bad.
I wanted Lainey to go home with Brett. My heart was in a million pieces and wanted to be with her, and if I couldn’t, I wanted him there. And so he left…with the little girl that completed my world, and I was left in the hospital with my two amazing, wonderful friends who will never ever know how special they are because of what they did for me that night. And they heard and saw things no one else will ever know, but I could have never made it through the night without them.
I think I cried for seven hours straight. It was gut-wrenching pain. I held Nella and I kissed her but I literally writhed in emotional pain on that bed in the dark with our candles and my friends by my side until the sun came up. I remember trying to sleep and then feeling it come on again…and I’d start shaking, and they’d both jump up and hug me from either side, Nella smooshed between the four of us. I begged for morning, even once mistaking a street light for sunlight and turning on the lights only to find it was 3 a.m. and I still had to make it through the night.
I can’t explain that evening. And I suppose it’s horrible to say you spent the first night your daughter was born in that state of agony, but I know it was necessary for me to move on to where I am today. And, knowing where I am today and how much I love this soul, how much I know she was meant for me and I am meant for her, knowing the crazy way our souls have intertwined and grown into each other, I can say all this now. It’s hard, but it’s real, and we all have feelings. We live them, we breathe them, we go through them and soon they dissolve into new feelings. So, here I go.
I cried out that I wanted to leave her and run away. I wanted to take Lainey and my perfect world and this perfect love I had built with my two-year old and our cupcake-baking days and our art projects and our beautiful bond and I wanted to run like hell. I wanted to be pregnant again. I wanted to be pregnant so bad. I wanted it to be the morning she was born again…when I was happy and excited and when I wore the white ruffled skirt and black shirt and put it in the belongings bag knowing joy was to come. I wanted to go back. I wanted to go back. I wanted to go back.
I moaned in pain and through it all, this little breath of heaven needed me. I cried while I nursed her. I cried while I held her. I cried while I pulled my nightgown off just so I could lie her body on my naked skin and pray that I felt a bond. I literally writhed in emotional pain for hours. And Heidi and Katie saw parts of me no one else have seen. My eyes were so swollen, Heidi said I looked like Rocky…like someone beat the hell out of my face and then cut little slits for eyes. It was that bad.
…and then morning came. …and with it, hope.
There is so much more I could write…and I will…in chapters of our book.
My sister arrived the next day and revolutionized the place with her “I Have a Dream” speech. She told me I swallowed the blue pill. She told me I could never go back. But that I held a key to a door that no one else does. And, with tears in her eyes, she excitedly and passionately told me how lucky I was. She told me that I was chosen and that it is the most special thing in the world. She told me it was going to be just fine.
And she was so right.
The day after Nella was born, I fell in love hard. I knew she was mine. I knew we were destined to be together. I knew she was the baby all along that grew in my beautiful round tummy…the one I thought I almost lost…the one that I proudly rubbed when people told me how beautiful that belly was. It was. It was Nella all along.
A huge turning point for me was when my sister published my blog entry and an outpouring of love turned on. I had no idea. None. I had no idea you all were out there. And the words you all said…I believed them. And maybe I believed them all along, but to hear them when I needed them…you all empowered me. And my friends and family…oh, they’ll never ever know how special they are to me. I’ve never felt so loved. You all truly gave me your hearts to borrow while mine was breaking. And you loved my baby. You loved her so good. You’re not her mama and yet you washed her with tears when you held her. You kissed her. When she cried in the middle of the night and I needed some blessed sleep, you rigged up the jaundice lights against the nurse’s orders, put your sunglasses on and took turns sleeping in a chair just to hold her.
You promised to be there on this journey and that alone means more than we can ever tell you. To be loved…is the greatest feeling one can ever feel.
Over the course of the next several days, things just became beautiful. I cried, yes…but they soon turned to tears of joy. I felt lucky. I felt happy. And I felt that I didn’t want to run away with Lainey anymore…and if I did, I was taking my bunny with me.
When Lainey was in the hospital with jaundice, I remember hugging Brett and crying. I told him if God would make her better, I’d do anything. I’d live in a box, I’d sell everything we had, I’d be happy with nothing…just make her better. When she did get better, that feeling of raw gratitude was real, but it wasn’t long before real life set in and I was complaning once again about the dirty grout in our cheap tile and how much I wanted wood floors.
I’ve often thought about how quickly that feeling left because we have a perfect, healthy little girl running around that erases all the painful memories of when we thought something might be seriously wrong.
I felt that feeling again last week. And as the pain has slowly disipated, I’ve realized…I will always be reminded. My Nella, my special little bunny, my beautiful perfect yet unique girl will be my constant reminder in life. That it’s not about wood floors. No, life is about love and truly experiencing the beauty we are meant to know.
And so, we came home…happy. In fact, walking out of the hospital with our new baby girl and our proud new big girl, all crowned up, gripping the handle of the carseat with Daddy…it was just how I had imagined it.
Life moves on. And there have been lots of tears since. There will be. But, there is us. Our Family. We will embrace this beauty and make something of it. We will hold our precious gift and know that we are lucky. I feel lucky. I feel privileged. I feel there is a story so beautiful in store…and we get to live it. Wow.
The story has begun…
Page by Page…
(First “Well Baby” Visit…Dr. Foley, we love you.)
I cannot begin to tell you how much I love her. I wouldn’t trade her for the world, and y’all can have that heart you let me borrow back. My broken heart has been healed…and if you held her, you’d know what I mean.
photographed by my dear friend, heidi
My Girls. I am complete.
There’s been so much wonder I’ve wanted to share…but I knew I had to tell her story first. More to come…we’ve been taking lots of pictures and loving the beauty of life…and the funny…and the hectic…it’s been crazy.
…but beautiful.
I did it. I told our bunny’s story.
Laura says
I LOVE you SO MUCH. My heart is so full for you and Bunny, Lainey, Austin, Brandon and Brett! I am so proud of you!
gerry murphy says
she is such a beautiful little lady, and will be so loving
JANE says
What a beautiful story. I can’t believe how lucky Nella is to have found her way to you and your family & how blessed your lives will be because she did.
❤
Melissa Butler says
I have probably read Nella’s birth story a hundred times through the years. Each time I cry…not tears of sadness but tears joy. My Emma was not what I expected. She was beautiful yet unique. She changed my life forever for the better. I have always loved your honesty and how you have shared your truth. You will probably never truly understand how many lives you have touched and changed by sharing your and Nella’s story.
Poppa says
Oh, sweet hot tears of joy. She is our Baby Love. Thank you Jesus. My heart is stretched for my Nella Cordelia. Beautiful beginning to a beautiful story…I am blessed to be part of her cast of thousands!
Anonymous says
I’ve never read a better birth story. Nella is beautiful, and lucky. Thank you for sharing.
mrc-w says
Just beautiful, Kelle! You should write a book! I love that one of you and Nella (like 3rd to last or something) where you’re both smiling – so perfect! Love you all! 🙂
Adrienne says
Beautiful story…can’t wait to hold her. My favorite shot is the one Heidi got of you in the braids with her smiling-such an angel!
And come on with the cute decorated champagne glasses from one detail lover to another…love it!!! (love is in the details)
xo
Heidi says
oh kelle! this is the most detailed and amazing birth story. i hung on every word and relived it all over again with tears and butterflies.
feeling so grateful that nella chose you to be her mama because… we just love her and she has taught us the most amazing things about life.
feeling so blessed and lucky to be apart of her life and what a big, beautiful life it will be. i can’t wait to watch her grow up with lainey!
love you…and little ‘ice cream!’
Elissa says
I am crying as if I were sitting in the room with you. I can “hear” the healing of your heart in just this short time. Thank you for sharing it all…not just the happy and pretty parts. So good to see her precious face…and to see you smiling!
Nicole says
Oh Kel,
I’ve been waiting for this….for a week and one day. I lie…I’ve been waiting for this since you first posted the news that Nella was coming. The most beautiful thing I’ve ever read…crying my eyes out with a big old smile on my face. What is most beautiful I think…is the transformation you’ve made. When I saw the first pictures of you last week…the black and white ones….I sat here, huddled with my husband, because he wanted to see Nella too (he may think I have a bit of a problem feeling so near to someone I’ve never met, but hey, that’s his problem…) I could just feel that look in your eyes…the “rocky balboa” one, as soon as I saw your face, I said out loud, “oh, honey…” but as the days go by in photographs…you’ve come back to life with love, and it’s simple beautiful. I’m so-so-so-so-so happy for you, that you’ve found your peace, and that you’ve fallen head over heels in love. And, oh, this is just the beginning..I can hardly wait to see more of “your girls.”
Even more love to you,
~nicole
(and I guess I have to finish that Donald Miller book now, huh?)
Poppa says
Allow Poppa to provide the postscript to explain “ice cream.” Heidi’s sweet son Beckham, hearing that this new baby’s name is Nella confused it with Vanilla and therefore now refers to her as Baby Ice Cream. She is delicious! Oh, I love Kelle’s friends like my other daughters and their children like more grandchildren!
Anonymous says
Kelle,
Thank you for your beautiful story. I don’t think I blinked once while reading it, It was like reading a really great book or watching a really good movie and wishing it wouldn’t end so soon:) You tell it so beautifully, you really have a great gift! I introduced my mom to the blog today, she was speechless by you and your family. You’ve got yourself another fan from NY:)
Honestly if every child would have a parent like you, a world would be a different place. Once again you just keep inspiring our family. Looking forward to more of your beautiful stores and photos.
Love,
Inna
P.S By the way you look GREAT! Hot mama!
Kulio says
I just sobbed my way through this post. Such different tears from last week. Happy and dear. But last week’s tears were dear too. Last week’s tears knew that the first days were going to be such a journey, and wanting to spare you the process. But you came through so beautifully.
This must have been so hard to write, but what a treasure you have now!!
The photos are true art. Nella is blooming and Lainey is smiling like such a happy cat. I think besides the words, the power of these photos, what they’ve captured, is what is so completely moving.
I love your life. You make my heart smile.
The Manrings says
oh kelle…i am crying and crying….your beautiful words and pictures describe such an amazing birth story so full of hope and love…and to think its just beginning to unfold. what lucky girls nella and lainey are to have you as their mommy. i keep saying that but its so true. you inspire and lift us all. thank you for your friendship kel. love, linds ps. the second to last pic of both girls….heavenly. really. xo
jen says
sitting here with a new baby squished against my chest … and his poor lil’ head is covered in tears.
her little story radiates love.
what a beautiful life she’s gonna have.
and that little lainey. wow. she is going to be an amazing person. you can just tell.
Bernie* says
Kelle –
I have been reading and reading….absorbing what you and Carin have shared since last weekend. And so many wonderful comments from so many wonderful people.
Your story is one of truth and love. Your tears have touched all of us to our inner core…..and after one week, you are settling in with this precious little girl. You DO have a story to tell, and we will all be waiting to read each new post, every step of the way.
You are a very special young lady and I am so very proud of you.
Your wonderful husband, incredible family and friends are gifts to you because you are such a loving person to all those whose lives you touch.
Just think – Nella will be a part of our lives, just like Lainey has been. How blessed all of us are, too. Thank YOU!
Love to you and yours from Michigan
Lucy says
Very inspired… you are blessed beyond measure. Lots of love from me and my family.
Lucy Nyaga from Kenya.
Malissa says
Hey there Kelle, looking good girl! You and Nella look gorgeous in the black/white photos. Your birth story is riveting. Lainey looks so tentative but yet very proud in all of the pictures. She is going to be such a great sis. Many thoughts, not good at putting them into words but just want you to know I say many prayers for your little family and I think a lot of you for what it is worth. 🙂 Your little Ice Cream Bunny Princess has a place in my heart. She is so sweet. xo M.
cjs says
Touche.
You did it.
I love you.
Heidi Lee says
Thank you Kelle. This was outstanding.
I felt like I was there. I couldn’t get my eyes any closer to the computer. I wanted to read more and more.
This was beautiful.
I love you! I so wish I was there. I wish I lived closer…I wish we were closer. You have a beautiful soul.
Justine H says
two words – THANK YOU
Justine
Malissa says
oops, I meant I Iove the pics of you and Nella where you have braided hair..they are not black and white! Have reread your amazing story several times and realized they are in color. Anyways, they are great.
TRB Holt says
Kelle and Nella, I just happened to check on you…and there you are, WOW!…I skimmed the photos… I need to READ & think.., all I can say for now is… BEAUTIFUL! I will be back.
xo, Bug’s and Ruby’s Gram
Anonymous says
The pictures of Lainey holding Nella for the first time. The look on her face is priceless. You can just see her saying, “she is MY little sister!” She sees no difference between herself and Nella. With you and Brett as her parents, they will grow up with the closeness that you so wished for. They are two lucky little girls.
Brooke says
What an absolutely beautiful birth story! Your writing, the photographs, the music, you, Lainey, your friends and family and most of all Nella Cordelia…just beautiful. I know I will read this many, many more times. Thank you so much for sharing!
Dorothy says
My dear friend Kelle,
I didnt think your stories or photos could be anymore beautiful, but Nella has added a whole new dimension! I see such big things in the future for u all! I am so grateful that I have been able to a part of your story…you have truly made me a better person…I love u…xoxo
carie says
After reading your words my face is wet with happy tears. You and Nella both have reached inside my chest and opened my heart in ways that you can’t even imagine. Your love for her is so pure and magical…and after reading your words, witnessing your actions and seeing the evidence in your beautiful eyes…I am humbled. You simply amaze me dear friend. And I can’t wait to keep reading this wonderful, wonderful story.
The Toews says
Kelle,
I don’t know you, but I happened upon your beautiful blog and have followed it for a year or so. As I read Nella’s story I cried and cried, not because I was sad, but because it is beautiful and God breathed. Thank you so much for sharing, with such raw beauty this journey that you are on. I know God has amazing things in store for your family and Nella. One of the reasons your story touched me to my core, is that I too, just turned 31, and 8 weeks ago gave birth to my 3rd child (my first is in Heaven, miscarried at 12 weeks). I had the same struggles of saying goodbye to my “perfect” life with the light of my life, my 3 yr. old son Bennett, and knowing it would never be the same again once our daughter, Juliette was born. It’s been a hard 8 weeks as she has struggled with eating, reflux and sleeping, but at the end of the day, she brings so much joy. Thank you for sharing your story. It has helped me see the beauty in my own story with my little Juliette.
Take care and know that there are people you may never meet, many miles away that are thinking of you and praying for you.
Anonymous says
You are an inspiration. I only hope that when I become a mother that I can be half the Mama you are to your littles. Thank you for sharing Nella’s first chapter with us. Your family is truly blessed.
Sage says
Kelle,
This was so beautiful. Your words, your heart, your soul are so so beautiful. To see the transformation… it is riveting and awe inspiring. You truly look like a new woman.
I have to share with you, that just before Nella was born I had my second miscarriage. The second in just a short 6 months. I was feeling so devastated. So unsure if all this reproduction business is worth it. I thought to myself. I don’t know if I can keep doing this. I don’t know if the pain of losing all that is so hoped for is worth it. I don’t know if I could do what Kelle is doing, I don’t know if I have the strength.
Tonight, after reading Nella’s birth story and seeing these pictures. I know now I could. I could, because you have opened my eyes to the possibilities. To the love that lies beyond the fear and pain. That truly there is always hope for a new day. A brighter day. And it can be what we want it to be, no matter what.
In a world that seems so full of pain, loss, and fragility, I think I want to keep looking, keep trying to find my missing piece. I don’t know if the universe has in store for me another child, but I do know that the pursuit of beauty and love is worth it.
much love to you,
xo
Sage
Anonymous says
Bravo
Kelle
Bravo.
I cannot say more. I’m all cried out.
Jen says
Bella storia!
I see that photo to the left of you and Nella smiling on the cover of a NY Times best selling novel, you are inspiring.
And the last photo a peaceful, happy, LOVED Nella!
XO–Jen
Mrs. J says
This is exquisite–the writing, the photography, the sheer redemption. Thank you so much for sharing.
teresa says
Dear Kelle,
You did it. Thanks for writing and sharing Nella’s birth story. I had to pause many times while reading to wipe the tears so that I could continue to read and see the beginning of your journey. Thanks for sharing the pain right along with the awesome blessing of supportive family and friends. Others with their own pain are already relating to your grief. Your good, healthy, healing grief is a process that is making way for a beautiful journey filled with hope and possibilities. Continued love and prayers for you & Brett, your girls and your boys.
Nicole Hahn says
i realize that you do not know this but we are friends…we sit together on my heating pad every few days…i check in with you and see what is knew in your world…through your eyes…:)
as i heard the news of nella i was bombarded with so MUCH. i realized as i have ached with you my stranger friend i feel like i have been given such a gift in knowing your world..watching you weave this beautiful story…i think we discover actual beauty in the imperfect the messy…and as i read nellas story as i sobbed on the couch (with my husband coming in from the other room to make sure i was ok:)) i feel like i have encountered such profound BEAUTY…and grace and undeniable humanity. Oh how I love that i found you last year and that i have lived life with you and lainey.
i ache with you stranger friend…i bleed and i pray and i beg for you to be filled with ALL that you need…for God to remind you of his intentional ways…
thank you for letting me be your friend.
Anonymous says
This was brave and honest and beautiful. Thank you for telling us your truth. This post will make it easier for the others that follow to be this real with what they feel. May God bless you and keep you.
Anonymous says
Dear Kelle,
Thank you. That was so powerful.
You have touched my heart. Your family has touched my heart.
I feel so honoured to be able to know you through your blog, and am so very proud of you.
You’re an inspiration!
Take care Kelle,
Linda in New Zealand.
Sarah W. says
You are so lucky. She is so beautiful! YOU are a beutiful soul.
Marsha Colbert says
OH. MY. You didn’t just do it… you nailed it!! Way to go Mama! I know that was hard, and I’m sure you shed some serious tears trying to get it out. What an amazing story. Thank you for being you and thank you for sharing this with us. Oh, and that very last picture might be THE most beautiful newborn pic I’ve EVER seen. Can’t wait to see you both later today!
Stephanie says
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Stephanie says
YOU did it. You did it beautifully. Nella’s story is beautiful, sweet, pure, amazing, and so full of love. Just like Nella.
I, too, feel blessed to be a part of Nella’s life. I can’t wait how her story/your story unfolds. For now, I will just go back and look and admire the beauty and love in these pictures, love that pours through my computer screen.
~xoxo to Nella, Lainey, Austyn, Brandyn, you, & Brett
amanda says
lots of tears. beautiful tears.
thank you for sharing your heart.
Anonymous says
Tears, tears, wonderful joyous tears! You told your story and it is such a beautiful journey that has so many more chapters. I can’t wait to read them all. I love her. She is so perfect it makes my heart swell when I see pictures of her. Your words are amazing and have touched me. As I lay in bed on this lazy Sunday with tears rolling down my face, I am inspired by you. I don’t need to read the book “A Million Miles in a Thousand Years” because I have my inspiring story right here, in my friend and her beautiful girls! I love you!
Samantha
Anonymous says
Congratulations to the whole family. A beautiful new daughter who will make your family complete and bring so much joy to everyone who is lucky enough to meet her.
Her birth story is an inspiration to all and one you should share with other new mom’s. Your honesty and frankness will be a forever reminder of your love for your children and family.
Blessings.
Jackie Elmer
(Sammy Mac’s MIMI)
TRB Holt says
You did tell it Kelle, and you told it so well… I think Nella has changed many of us and all for the better. She has touched a place in my heart that I didn’t even know was there.
I look forward to watching her bloom with your love and strength.
I have just one question….how much did she weigh?! 🙂
xo, Bug & Ruby’s Gram
Poppa says
Our Nella weighed 6 pounds of pure love, and was 19 inches long. So tiny–how did she make such a big splash in our hearts?!
Renee says
What a beautiful way to start a Sunday—what a beautiful birth story! Thank you! Thank you for showing your strength, your weak moments, your love, your honesty—what an inspiration!
Renee says
What a beautiful way to start a Sunday—what a beautiful birth story! Thank you! Thank you for showing your strength, your weak moments, your love, your honesty—what an inspiration!
Barb says
What a moving story. Thank you so much for sharing it. Your courage and resilience are amazing. Nella is going to have a fabulous life, I’m convinced of it.
~Barb
Lena says
Dear Kelle,
What a story – I am in tears – so so so much love! Your story is SUCH an inspiration to so many (including my sister, Inna, and my Mom). I am not saying anything that has not been said to you a million times already but you simply amaze me by your grace, your bravery and your love…
And Lainey – what an amazing big sister she is – reading your prior post about the puppy and seeing pictures of them together bring me to tears. She DOES look so so proud of her little sister!
Nella is absolutely beautiful – seeing her pictures make me want to give her a million hugs! I am sure she will bring so much more love and joy into your lives.
HUGS and KISSES and many many WARM THOUGHTS from New Jersey:)
Lena
Anonymous says
Thanks for sharing your story. I was just listening to a song you might enjoy. “Sweet Sweet Baby” by Michelle Featherstone
Anna Ruth says
Oh the love that pours through your words. What a beautiful memory of Nella’s birth.
katie says
thank you kelle.
Tisha says
beautiful. profound. just amazing. Nella’s story is one of love and one of such strength!
one of my favorite pics is of you and brett and nella. you are trying not to cry, but brett is smiling at nella with his hand on your head, comforting, giving you his strength. i think i’m a little in love with your husband after reading this.
and lainey love. she was proud. it gave me a glimpse of what a wonderful big sister she will be. there Will still be shopping trips, phone calls, and all of it.
i keep re-reading because i feel so inspired.
nella – you are an angel! a beautiful little bunny! gorgeous pics of your 2 little womens!
dig this chick says
Haven’t read yet, but, wow those photos! The two Heidi took! The last one! Amazing. love you.
Malu says
Dearest Kelle,
Beautifully written, as ever.Praised be the Lord who heals us with his unconditional love,teaching us to love too.I am so proud of you . God bless you and your precious family.
dig this chick says
It’s Lainey’s reaction to her little sister that just kills me…every time you’ve told me how she just loved her unconditionally. It is so perfect. We learn so much from our children. What a beautiful story, sweet friend. What beautiful daughters you have.
Brit Girl says
Oh my goodness, Kelle. That is such a moving story. Brave, beautiful, honest, real and inspiring – like the incredible woman who wrote it. The photos are incredible too. Seeing Lainey meet her little sister Nella for the first time made me cry even more than I already was. Sending love to you and your girls. It’s going to be a beautiful journey.
CATA says
Kelle, as you know I have been following your blog since you captured the beautiful moments of my family and me in those wonderful 2008 Christmas pictures. Your story and your family have been a true inspiration for me and many others that I have referred to your blog. Nella is such a beautiful girl and I have a feeling that God has sent her to change your life so that you may write about it and change the life of others. All I can say as I am thankful to have this connection with you because when I am down and need some encouragement to move on, you, your blog and now beautiful Lainey and Nella are there for me. Thank you so much and thank God for having met you that day at Tin City. Keep writing, keep inspiring us, we need you and your words. Looking forward to making that line at Barnes and Nobles so that you may autograph my copy of your book.
Veronica says
Kelle,
I want to thank you for sharing your beautiful stories. I just found out about your beautiful blog and photography a few days ago and read everything going back to the begining. Your stories, your pictures, your family..just love every bit of it. So many parts I have balled my eyes out in tears of happiness and really feeling your love for your children. Your birth stories from your view are the most beautiful I have ever read.
I am a mother of 2 and just love how you tell feelings taken deep from the heart of what a mother feels. The best feeling the world!
I am a pediatric nurse and took care of your Lainey when she was in the hospital at 3 days old. I always remembered you for some reason. Something about you that reminded me of me. It has been such a joy to see how Lainey has grown since the last time I saw her as an infant. She is such a beautiful child, and your newest addition, Nella, absolutely beautiful.
So happy for you Kelle. Can’t wait to continue ready and seeing your beautiful stories.
stephanie howell says
you don’t know me, but i think i’m in love with you. you are beautiful, and strong, and brave. and nella? is an absolute gift from god.
thank you for sharing this story. i’ll be following along every day now.
Jennifer says
Just sitting here, soaking in the words of her beautiful story…
my face soaked with happy, grateful tears…
like I just watched one of those movies that take you on the biggest emotional journey of your life…
and change you forever.
I love this story.
and I love baby Nella.
how lucky I feel to know her…
and blessed to witness her story unfold into volumes of beauty for us all.
love you.
xoxo
jc
PS…this story is a masterpiece!!
Kelle says
Oh, smiles. Honestly, these words from all of you…I am floating on the support of wonderful people I don’t even know. If I’ve learned anything through all of this…and I’ve learned a lot…but I have learned that when I think the world is going to pot…it’s not. There are so many good, loving people. Oh, there is so much good. And we’re just so blessed to be the recipients of so much of it right now. We will pay it forward.
Rick, April, Matt says
OMGosh. Kellie, this was absolutely beautiful. The emotions that you relayed through words was just beautiful. I cried happy tears myself. The love that is shown through the pictures is just breath taking. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have found an inner peace with in myself from reading your story. The last picture of Nella is just priceless. As always, looking forward to the next post.
April (Elissa’s cousin)
Kelle says
Veronica…tears, tears, tears. Thank you for taking care of my little girl so long ago…I’m sure you saw a very forlorn and hopeless version of me based on my memories. But thank you for remembering. And thank you for caring once again for our new girl.
We just feel so, so, very loved.
they keep me laughing says
the pictures are priceless! i loved each and every word in your story. i was doing fine until i saw the picture carin holding nella and crying happy tears. 🙂 so now my eyes are puffy and swollen. the pictures heidi took of you and nella outside are so beautiful! especially the one where nella is smiling. just as sweet as the last photo of her smiling.
Poppa says
And Poppa must say something about Brett. Were I to stand in his living room and shout “First Down!” the man would salivate….and run to the room staring at the large flat screen tv there….or if I were to call and say, “We’re coming down!” He would be overjoyed–he loves family so much….but this Down he cannot utter…he cannot say. He will not write a blog. He will not receive friends. He will…as he did the other day…do something. He was cleaning the garage when we stopped by. The parade of friends continued as others came to see Kelle, to hold Nella, to love on Lainey. He cleaned the garage. Later we knew, he was also looking…to find a small space heater. He brought it into the master bathroom and warmed it up…like a sauna…and went and got Nella…and gave her a bath. It will come…with tiny steps and a very clean garage. It will come. If she places last in a relay race there will be one father still standing at the finish line, shouting his praise and pride…it will be Brett. I have no worries. God also chose a father supreme. I know. I love him too.
Brett, you rock!
Randall and Heather Cleckler says
Hampton Family,
I’ve read this story more than once. It’s like a good book I can’t put down, but so much better because I know you. Kelle I searched all night for the right bible verse for what you went through. I knew what I was looking for but didn’t know where to find it. But I knew God wanted me to share it with you, because He wrote it…..just for you. With a little help from my hubby, we found it.
Psalm 30:5b
“weeping may remain for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.”
Never feel bad. You were mourning the life of what you imagined for Nella. When you released that life, you opened up to this new, better life that lies ahead. Now we REJOICE!!!
Heather
amyc says
You told it. And you rocked it, girl!
Leah says
And you did it so well. And it was raw, real and the most beautiful story I’ve ever read. Kelle, you are going to be the most incredible mother to this beautiful child. She has no idea how lucky she is… but she soon will.
Leah
Steph C says
Kelle,
You did it! How beautiful and perfect. Go write your book now because girl it is going to be a best seller. I love you and love Nella with all my heart. She is beautiful in every way.
And just so you know you loved her the moment she was set in your arms. All of this… all the emotions happy and sad… that was all you loving her…being her mama
xoxoxoxo
And Poppa your words are amazing too. You couldn’t have said it any better about Brett. He rocks! He too is a great dad just like you. Kelle is so blessed to have such a wonderful father and friend.
Steph C says
Kelle,
You did it! How beautiful and perfect. Go write your book now because girl it is going to be a best seller. I love you and love Nella with all my heart. She is beautiful in every way.
And just so you know you loved her the moment she was set in your arms. All of this… all the emotions happy and sad… that was all you loving her…being her mama
xoxoxoxo
And Poppa your words are amazing too. You couldn’t have said it any better about Brett. He rocks! He too is a great dad just like you. Kelle is so blessed to have such a wonderful father and friend.
Domestic Diva says
This story here, bunny’s story, reached out and grabbed ahold of me this morning. I had five kiddos running around and a hubby trying to sleep in, just a tad, when I stumbled upon your new post. What can I say, the littles had a free-for-all for quite some time while I soaked up this wonderfully told story of your newest little miracle.
Thank you so very much for sharing it with all of us! Sending you {and your loves} a heap of lovin’ tonight. Sweetest dreams …
(Oh, I almost forgot to tell you – after G woke up, guess what I caught him doing? Uh-huh, he was reading bunny’s story!! LOVE. IT.)
SWF says
Love you!
Anonymous says
Kelle,
I believe tremendous things happen when we speak the truth. Love is at its fullest when we speak the truth. The world changes when we speak the truth.
Your truth is beautiful–raw and powerful and lovely. Kudos to you for not allowing yourself to skip the hard parts just to get to the sweet parts. Your trusted your story, and you inspired us all.
The truth does set you free. Free to love more deeply. And girl, you and yours know how to LOVE.
My best to you!
Anonymous says
Dear Poppa,
I’ve never said this to anyone in my life, but YOU ROCK! 🙂
Take care,
Linda in New Zealand.
Madisyn says
Kelle,
I really want to write you something. Something long again. Something touching. Just like with you writing this story, it will come. For now, I am absolutely SPEECHLESS. Honestly. Your beautiful, your life is beautiful, your writing is beautiful, Nella’s story was beautiful, and your girls are absolutely gorgeous. You did it!
You will hear from me soon.
Love always,
Madisyn
Poppa says
Madisyn, you are such a precious soul…you must have been here before! I always relish your insightful words. And I agree, my daughter is a keeper.
And Linda in New Zealand, you are the Zeal of your homeland…thank you for caring for my babies!
And Stephanie…I know Joseph C is also a SuperDad…”Joseph C—-, Joseph C—–“.
Elisa says
I’ve read your blog for awhile now and I’ve enjoy the stories about Lainey because I have a two year old little boy. I know you dreamed of the girls being close and I want you to know that they will be. In May I will be married for 5 years. In my wedding party were two junior bridesmaids – sisters – close friends — and one has Down Syndrome. In this situation the older sister has Ds but they are about two years apart and I have fond memories of the little sister being the “big” sister when she needed to be. Nella’s birth story touched my heart. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sara says
Oh my oh my oh my. So, so beautiful. Thank you, Kelle, for sharing your story. I so admire your strength, your honesty, and your overflowing love. Goodness…pure goodness!
Your two girls are going to make a big, powerful mark on this world….I just know it!
And Poppa, you are quite amazing, too!
Madisyn Andrea says
Thank you Poppa! 🙂
You boost my self esteem!
And she is a keeper! Most definitely! I can’t wait once things settle down to do more photography with her whenever she can! I do want to spend time playing with the littles too (:
Haven’t thought of what to write yet!
Although I do check back to see if you or Kelle say anything all the time!
Thoughts revolve around your family constantly!
Love is in the air!
Meagan Harris says
I love last picture of Nella. She is so at peace, smiling because she is dreaming of her incredible future!
Madisyn Andrea says
The way your mind, soul, heart, and spirit put together the love and formation of your life is absolutely pure and beautiful!
Madisyn Andrea says
I read Nella’s story sooo slow and took in every word as if I was there for it all. I literally felt like it was the end of an awesome book where after you read it you just feel great and want to put the book up for a nomination! And its hard to believe, that this awesome beginning, is only the BEGINNING, and not the end of an amazing book. Kelle you are one lucky mommy! (:
Melissa says
your story brought me to tears as well. so beautifully told; your truest ( and best) self revealed. amazing. much love to you and your family, and many deep breaths along this path. your story thus far–and the way you have captured it–with such depth, raw honesty and grace– is so incredibly inspiring. isn’t it funny how we don’t even realize the things we are capable of doing? yet here you are, barely a week later, filled with acceptance and love and strength. and your lainey? wow. your bunny (i love that nickname!) is such a beauty, too. such beautiful photos of all of you.
Gillian says
again, just beautiful.
again, thank you for your honesty.
that sweet little smile – she takes my breath away.
Keri says
Kelle,
You don’t know me and I don’t quite remember how I came across your blog. Maybe it was a link I found on a friend’s blog during a day of procrastination. It doesn’t matter how I found it, I’m just so glad I did indeed discover it. I have come back here from time to time over the past year and I must tell you that your vulnerability and openness and honesty resonate loud and clear in my heart, in my soul. I believe that realness changes people. It builds relationships, opens doors, breaks barriers. It heals. Your truth is changing people. I am not a mom, although I desperately hope to be one someday. I am not a gifted photographer (although I would love to have those skills too!). You are obviously beautiful and talented and loved and supported. And I want to be like you. But not for those reasons. I want to be like you because you are REAL and full of JOY. And these are the exact reasons you are the perfect mother for Nella.
I have been so moved by the last couple of posts that I made my sister sit down and read them. I made my husband read them. I think everyone needs to read what you have written. The world would be a better place. Thank you for encouraging all of us in the journey of becoming the best versions of ourselves. Thank you for reminding us that pain and hurt and hard stuff and change has to be a part of creating something beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story.
I’ll leave you with a quote from one of our favorite authors:
“And so my prayer is that your story will have involved some leaving and some coming home, some summer and some winter, some roses blooming out like children in a play. My hope is your story will be about changing, about getting something beautiful born inside of you, about learning to love a woman or a man, about learning to love a child, about moving yourself around water, around mountains, around friends, about learning to love others more than we love ourselves, about learning oneness as a way of understanding God. We get one story, you and I, and one story alone. God has established the elements, the setting and the climax and the resolution. It would be a crime not to venture out, wouldn’t it?”
-Donald Miller
God bless!
Kim Breitmeyer Dana says
Like many others who posted here, we have never met. Your extraordinary dad married my husband and I almost three years ago and pointed us to your blog long ago. We now have a 17-month-old daughter. My husband left his job to stay at home with her and shoot wedding and family photography on weekends. As a teenager, he volunteered caring for infants with Down Syndrome. I am a lawyer and writer (technical and creative), so we both admire and relate to your blog for many, many reasons.
Tears are falling for you and your family for many reasons, as well. I have no doubt that the many stories that flow in the months and years ahead will prove even more inspirational and explore even more layers of human emotion, understanding, compassion and, most of all, love.
Your loyal readers and friends in Michigan,
Kim & Chris Dana
Kelly says
I read this out loud to David on my phone while laying in bed before falling asleep in our dark room illuminated only by my phone and I can’t tell you the number of times I had to stop reading, collect myself and regroup from the deep gutteral cry over and over.
What a beautiful retelling of such a miracle that has shown this world so much love already in just one week. It is hard to believe it’s only been 1 week because it seems like she’s been here our whole lives.
I don’t know who is luckier; Nella, for entering into such a loving family or us for getting to experience the love of Nella and all the magic surrounding it.
I love you and your family. xoxo
Kendall Bethy says
Kelle-
What a treasury of beautiful photos you have of this amazing event. I’m glad you let yourself fall into your grief because it is when we do that, when we reach rock bottom, that we can scrape ourselves back up. You can only keep going up from here. I believe you and Nella will do great things together, no, extraordinary things together; whether it is just sitting and loving one another the way no one else can lover her, or showing the world that she (and ALL babies like her) deserve life, love and laughter. This is a beautiful story and you tell it so well. Congratulations.
Kendall Bethy says
Kelle-
What a treasury of beautiful photos you have of this amazing event. I’m glad you let yourself fall into your grief because it is when we do that, when we reach rock bottom, that we can scrape ourselves back up. You can only keep going up from here. I believe you and Nella will do great things together, no, extraordinary things together; whether it is just sitting and loving one another the way no one else can lover her, or showing the world that she (and ALL babies like her) deserve life, love and laughter. This is a beautiful story and you tell it so well. Congratulations.
ralphnmonica says
My son is now 7 years old (almost 8), and it is amazing how those memories come flooding right back! Your words are so honest and accurate. I now must teach the rest of my classes with red swollen eyes, but it was well worth it! It’s funny, how similar the feelings are that we go through. I believe we must be chosen, because we have so much in common.
It sounds as though you have friends and a sister just like mine! She had her words of wisdom for me when my Eli was born.
Thanks again, for sharing. SO BEAUTIFUL!!!
Marissa says
Beautiful. Doesn’t do your journey justice but it’s the only word that is surfacing right now. Soak up that beauty and all it entails.
Marissa says
And just to encourage you, I was so full of joy and beauty from your story, I wanted to share it with someone! However, I live in Costa Rica and am in my house with only a sweet older woman who speaks only Spanish. Therefore, I did my darndest to explain, quite inadequately, the beauty of your story and then showed her the stunning moments you’ve graciously shared with us. She sat quietly until she saw all of the pics and then said that God has given you a blessing and he will help you like you’ve never known help before. So, I’m sorry for my inadequate translating but I hope that you feel the embrace from Costa Rica.
Kristy says
Anything I might say would never do this post justice.
Beautiful.
And thank you.
xo
Kelly says
I forgot to check the box to get follow up comments so I’m back to take another look. This time with music. Oh dear. I can’t stop crying. Happy tears this time and everytime I think of sweet Nella. She does something to my heart every time!
PS I wasn’t ON the phone with David reading it to him, but read it ON my phone to him out loud if that makes any sense. It was dark, but I know his “eyes were sweating” too 🙂
xoxo
Tammy B says
Kelle, your raw honesty is nothing short of amazing. Thank you so much for sharing. I keep coming back, reading, waiting for more 🙂 I can’t get enough of this little angel. Her story, your story, your family.
Miranda - Eureka,IL says
Kelle
You aren’t the only one crying. Tears well up as I read this over my lunch hour. How you have touched so many hearts. I do have a short story for you that I felt like passing along to you. My Dad’s cousin has down-syndrome, and their family is very good friends of our family. She is now in her 40s and when one of my little silblings was born she gave them a little bunny that when you push its tummy it says “hey somebody loves you” This came back to me as you call little Nella your bunny…and oh to think how many love your little bunny. May God richly bless your family in the days ahead.
Love,
Miranda
Nicole S says
Kelle, what a beautiful story! I feel so very lucky to be privileged enough to read it! I’m in constant awe of your courage and talent. I know of no one else who could pick and choose the words to tell this story as well and perfectly as you did as you always do! Your photos inspire me to pick up my camera and your actions as a Mother encourage me to be more present. You are an inspiration . . . how lucky Lainey and Nella are to call you theirs! I would wish you good luck with everything, but I think I can say with full confidence that you need no luck. You’ve got this new dance down pat and you’re making it look effortless and beautiful! Thank you, thank you so very much for letting us in on “how you do it”.
Lurky Mommy says
Before Nella was born, I think the reason I kept coming back to your blog is that I really appreciated the transparency of your heart. It is more evident now than ever. This story is beautiful, honest, healing, heartbreaking and redemptive all at the same time. It made me want to cry and sing and kiss that little squishy nose your bunny has. Is that creepy coming from someone you don’t know? I sure don’t mean it to be. I just really like knowing there are fantastic moms out there with hearts that are true. Thanks for letting us in on it all! I love love love your Nella’s smile. Aren’t you dying to know what she is thinking about?
Probably the great family she got!
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your heart and being so transparent. Our world needs more people like you who are not afraid to tell it like it is, no matter how raw and tender the thoughts, feelings, emotions. I had to stop, collect myself and reread many parts of this beautiful story as the tears wouldn’t stop. (definitely tops any book at the bookstore! I expect your name on a book cover one of these days.) The pictures themselves speak volumes. And your emotions put into words…wow! Simply a beautiful, moving chapter. Yes, you did it and you will do it like you do everything else–with such passion, love, and transparency. What a beautiful bunny, your little Nella! And Lainey looks so proud of her big sisterhood! Kelle, you look fabulous for just giving birth last week! I can’t wait to meet sweet Nella. Blessings to you and your family, Leslie Lewis
Steph C says
I can’t stop coming back to read this over and over again. I can’t stop scrolling down and looking at all the beautiful pictures you have captured of Nella. I can’t stop thinking of all the beautiful things life has in store for Nella…I can’t stop thinking about how blessed she is to be a Hampton. Most of all I can’t stop thinking about how amazingly inspirational you are. I love you and I am so proud of you and so proud to call you my dearest friend.
Ah and that sweet Nella she is going to have more love than she will know what to do with.
Love you so much and I can’t wait to be a part of this beauitful journey.
xoxoxox
Kendall Bethy says
i keep coming back…i think each time i do my heart gets a little bigger. nella is gorgeous. i love the last picture of her in absolute newborn baby bliss. it’s so obvious how happy she is!
Anonymous says
The pics are exquisite. The ones of you and little bunny, with her smiling are just too much. I cry and laugh every time I see it, it’s so special! Your story is written from the heart, and yes, you did it and told it the way it needed to be told, with pure, raw emotion. I hope your husband is doing okay-he appears to be just a wonderful guy and men process these things so very different. Please check in on him…… 🙂
Heidi says
Kelle…
Thank you for sharing your story. It is beautiful and perfect, just like your precious daughters. You do not know me, but my sister reads your blogs and passed it onto me. My tears wouldn’t stop flowing as I read your story. God has chosen you for one of the most special gifts of all.
Yesterday in the gym I listened to a podcast by a pastor from out of state that I listen to weekly. Today I realized the message wasn’t for me, it’s for you. Please listen to it, your soul will be so blessed!
Here is a link:
http://www.elevationchurch.org/sermons/joygenome/part4
May the joy of Jesus surround you and your blessed family.
-Heidi Bolt
Morton, IL.
Joan says
i am so moved by your story. so blessed by it. thank you for sharing your heart. i can’t wait to meet little bunny for myself. xoxoxo
JennyCB says
I held her. I know what you mean. The moon and the stars, and eons and eons of knowledge and learning and understanding and acceptance and truth and beauty and innocence and love were in my arms yesterday. Five pounds, 14 ounces of the very very best that this universe has to offer…
Maureen says
Kelle,
Thank you for sharing your honest birth story. It is beautiful. And Nella is beautiful. She is so darling, and your family will never be the same now that she has come into your world. Your lives have all changed for the better. She is just the daughter you wanted, and just the sister Lainey has been anticipating. Your words are so beautiful and I haven’t stopped thinking about this story since I read it the first time the other day. I know you have so many people around you and so many comments to sort through, but I just wanted to add another one to your pile here. Thank you, thank you for writing this story.
abbey bernardi says
so i was so anxious to read this, i put bayley to bed a little early and poured myself a glass of red wine. it was more exciting than getting a stack of brand new inspirational magazines (VERY exciting for me) I read and read slowly and couldn’t take my eyes off the screen and i didn’t cry like i thought i would because i am just so very happy for you, Brett, Lainey and Nella. a very blessed family who inspires everyone who reads about them. I can’t help but feel that that story helped heal me as well on some level. Reading poppa’s comment to Brett made me smile as my husband too cleans the garage while thinking and coping.
Great job on Nella’s story Kelle, you knocked it out of the ballpark!!
much love
Abbey
Brit Girl says
Just had to come back and re-read this. And you know what? If I was a millionaire, I would book a flight to Florida right now so I could deliver a hug to you in person. Even though you’d be like ‘Who is this crazy British woman I’ve never even met?! Security!’ And while I was there I would simply have to steal a cuddle with Nella as she is just beautiful, and with Lainey as she is a wonderful, wonderful little girl. And her Big Sister crown? Just way, way better than that old thing our queen wears! Kelle, I am so proud of you. And happy for you.
Leslie says
Wow! You are amazing and Nella is so precious! I can’t wait to see the blessings that God has in store for you and your family! I look forward to watching Nella grow and also her big sister!!!
Your pictures are stunning!
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
You will be in my prayers!
Caterpillar Creations says
Oh this was such a wonderful read. I don’t think I took a breath until I was finished.
I, too, have that special little gift. A little girl with Down syndrome. She is my joy, my love, my life.
I have added you to my favorite blogs list so I can continue to read your wonderful stories.
Thank You!!!!
*hugs*
~~Ann & Chloe~~
Jenny Clark says
My friend Marissa Hess told me about your blog and she was right. Your story is absolutely beautiful and I praise God he helped you tell it. When you shared about how difficult your first night was, this verse came to mind immediately:
Psalm 30 verse 5, “Weeping may tarry for the night,
but joy comes with the morning.” That entire psalm in the Bible is really awesome I think.
A little about me – I spend my weekends in louisville talking to moms who are headed in for abortions.Its awful and painful and sometimes when women don’t go in, joyful. I often hear from women “you don’t know my situation”, and I wonder what that means. I wonder if it means that the doctors have diagnosed them with what they think might be a baby with a genetic disorder, or something else, and I just want to scream at them and tell them that every single baby that God has created deserves love. Every single one. Your blog is a beautiful example of that love that God gives us for our children, we are his special creation, created in his image, unlike anything else. I look forward to seeing just how God uses you and your family to bless and encourage other families in the future. Congrats on your adorable and healthy baby girl!!!!!!!!!!
Anonymous says
I can’t get enough of your sweet story and reading all the comments. There are a hundred and 10 things I should be doing, but just can’t leave! I just read your daddy’s comments about Brett and cleaning the garage getting a heater for sweet Nella. Tears are flowing again! He is such a great daddy and husband. I love how he just welcomes us with open arms, even offering us cold beers:) Like your wonderful daddy said, he will always be at the end of the finish line supporting his girls. What a great daddy and mommy Lainey and Nella have! Love you guys!!
Samantha
The K Family says
What a beautiful story of your precious Nella. Such a wonderful read. You are truly blessed with a wonderful family.
Kristen says
Kelle…I know we are strangers, but I am so utterly and completely in awe of you and your beautiful family. I have followed your blog since you started photographing my niece, Lucy. Your daughters are gorgeous and your spirit is inspiring. You speak from your heart and I hang on every word. Your girls are so blessed to have you, and you them…Savor every moment with your babies. You are an extremely special woman and I look forward to one day meeting you and sharing these sentiments face to face. xx
Anonymous says
I am a stranger to you … but I am touched … in the deep places by your honesty and your willingness to accept the deeper realities of a God who does things differently than we had planned because He knows a better way … I am thankful to Him that He is helping you find it … your whole life will be richer because you have.
Emmers says
I’m also a stranger, but I can’t thank you enough for your amazing story. I cried through reading it (despite my husband’s odd looks) and fell deeply in love with your beautiful family and your amazing friends. I have a sister in law who has downs and my brother is mentally handicapped so I think your story touched me on a few deeper levels. Enjoy your beautiful girls. Nella is lucky to have such awesome people surrounding her.
Anonymous says
Congratulations on your beautiful little Nella. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. You don’t know me, but someone sent me a link to your blog and I am so happy they did. I am currently pregnant with my first baby. I am excited and scared to death all at the same time. We opted not to do any of the screening tests and to accept the baby we are given no matter what. I tell myself that no matter what, I love this baby with my whole heart, but deep down it’s hard to know what I’ll really feel if things don’t turn out as we expect or hope. I am so fortunate to have come across your story and I appreciate your honesty in sharing it – even the truths that are painful to remember. I am comforted by Nella’s story and the reality that a mother’s love has no limitations or exceptions and that even the most difficult circumstances can turn into something beautiful. I hope for all the best for you and your family.
CLewis says
Another stranger, led to your page because it has moved so many people. Thank you for sharing this beautiful story and such a deep, personal part of yourself and your family. What an amazing reminder of what it is all about. Wishing you and your family many blessings~~
Laura says
I read your beautiful story with tears streaming down my face. Nella is beautiful and the perfect addition to your family. Thank you so much for sharing.
Follow Your Art Photography says
I found your blog from a birth club I am on. I am also a photographer I am 34, with a 3 year old daughter, I am also 20 weeks pregnant. Your story hits close to home for me. Thanks you for sharing your joy with all of us, my heart is full today. You are a beautiful person, God has chosen you to take care of your beautiful special spirit because of that. You are such an inspiration to me. Your birth story will always be in my mind as one of the most beautiful, amazing, triumphant birth stories I have ever read. God bless you and your family, and God bless your perfect little angel.
..Jenny says
I am also a stranger, but am so grateful that you’ve shared your story. Thank you! I am due in June and recently got the news that our baby might have downs syndrome. I to have gone through all the emotions and to hear your story put so much hope in my heart that everything really will turn out okay. God bless!
Nicole says
Your story is touching and amazing. Your honesty and courage is an inspiration.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your story. I love the honesty and love that shines through.
You and your family are beautiful.
JLewis says
What a truly honest, loving and amazing journey you and Nella have already experienced in the short time you’ve been blessed to be with her already. She is a beauty outside and I know she will be inside too with a momma as loving as you are. This story needs to be published. It is amazing!
Anonymous says
What an incredible journey for all of you. Nella is beautiful and your story is so honest and wonderful.
Felicia says
Kelle,
As Im sitting here, holding my belly 5 months pregnant with my fist baby, I am stunned. Stunned at your courage, your beauty both inside and out and your ability to recognize the blessing in your baby girl. I was so encouraged by reading this, as I said I am a first time mom, and the anxiety of this whole thing has gotten to me plenty of days and nights. I stay up wishing, hoping and praying that all goes well with my baby, but never really taking time to realize my little man is my blessing. Thank you for sharing your story, thank you for being brave and thank you for Nella.
mbl says
Beautiful story, beautiful baby, beautiful heart. Thank you for sharing. God is using you…
Andrea and Isaac says
This is THE most beautiful story I’ve ever read. Tears were streaming down my face as I read this. I hope you’ll keep writing about your journey with your new family. So many people would be blessed by your story…
Many, many blessings to you and your precious family.
Anonymous says
Found your story via BabyCenter. Deeply moved me, so much that I am weeping from that remote place in my heart that doesn’t get touched too often. My little girl (4 years old) just asked me why I was crying. I said I’m sad because I’m reading a story about a little baby who’s sick. But her Mama is such a good mama … and you know what, that makes me really really happy because everything will be OK.
You were born for each other. May God continue to bless you with good things.
Anonymous says
I was directed to your blog from Babycenter. As I sit her sobbing, I realize that your story has reminded me of something we tend to forget in the hustle and bustle of planning for the futures of our unborn children: no matter what happens, we are so blessed to have them and they are perfect.
Nella is incredibly lucky to have you as her mom and I can only hope and pray that I can be half of the mother that you are. She is beautiful, as are you! Though I don’t know you personally, I send you and your family bundles of love!
Anonymous says
Nella Cordelia, beautiful name, beautiful baby, beautiful story. Thank you for your courage. Your have spoken perfectly what Mom’s of DS babies know – they are gifts and you were chosen to receive this amazing gift.
The Yarbros says
I found your blog from a link on the message board i am on in Ivillage.. And I am so glad I did.. You have truly moved me more than you can ever know. I am so touched by your entire family and what a beautiful one it is. You are so empowering, and you will never know how many people you have given strength by sharing your story.. You are truly an incredible mother. As well as having some incredible baby girls. You truly are blessed and you have touched my heart. Being a mother is the most incredible gift that there is. Congratulations on your 2 wonderful little girls!
EIEIO Photography says
inspiring, amazing, beautiful…
Sandy says
That is without a doubt the most beautifully written and most inspiring and honest birth story I have ever read. I have been blessed by your sharing your love story. Thank you! ♥
Anonymous says
We have never met. But your story touched my heart. Nella is a beautiful gift of God. The pictures, the words. It was amazing. God bless you–He has prepared this journey for you. She is something special.
Carrie says
Lovely, and moving… thank you for sharing your beautiful girl’s story with us. It really is amazing, what our children teach us. I’m looking forward to reading more from you. (Also, wanted to direct you to the forum at downsyn.com where there is wonderful parent support.) Blessings to you and sweet Nella
Anonymous says
You are such an amazingly strong woman! Sobbed my way through your beautiful story just like everyone else. Thanks for your honesty, and your courage to not only write it all down, but share it publicly!
Anonymous says
Kelle,
I’ve not followed your blog prior to this post…it was shared on my “birthboard” on Babycenter as an “amazing birth story” and, truly, it is!
My son was born 10 yrs ago with Down Syndrome. I had no prenatal diagnosis. I found out the same way you did. I looked at him and I knew.
Kelle, not only did you write your birth story, you wrote mine. You took me right back to that day…the good, the bad and the truly wonderful. Thank you for your honesty. Thank you for your courage. Thank you, Thank you, THANK YOU!
I can’t even begin to tell you the joy and the light that my son has brought to my life, but I don’t have to, because you’ll find out for yourself soon enough!
Nella is absolutely beautiful! Congratulations to you and your amazing family.
Rachelle Heppner says
That is an amazingly beautiful story. Thank you so much for sharing it.
one_plustwins says
Kelle, I was led to your blog by a fellow mom of a child with Down syndrome.
Your raw emotion is so overwhelming. I am so proud of where you are today. Nella is gorgeous and I must admit, I see your face in hers. Thank you for this story. Truly beautiful.
Angela says
What a LUCKY, Lucky, little girl. Thank you for sharing your story. You have everything you need, deep inside you to raise your two perfect little girls. I wish you love and peace and so much health and happiness.
Leah says
Over the last 13 years I’ve read a lot of birth stories. This is the most beautifully told story of them all.
I started reading those stories, a little obsessively, when my daughter Angela Faith was born 13 years ago, bringing with her the surprise of her diagnosis. No, OUR diagnosis, because our entire family became enmeshed in this amazing community that is Down syndrome.
Things are still so raw for you. When you feel like it, have a look at my post of Angela’s 13th birthday, written for new parents.
http://gardenofeagan.blogspot.com/2009/06/13-years-ago.html
Yo Mamma Mamma! says
Thank you for posting this beautiful birth story. I know, I understand, and I hope you enjoy a little “two years later” snapshot…
http://yomammamamma.blogspot.com/2009/06/2-years-with-violette-2-years-with-down.html
You have no idea what a big, wonderful group was toasting your beautiful baby’s birth – there is a picture of a few hands that were in the room when she was born celebrating that is beautiful, but really, there were hundreds more of us ready to say YAY WELCOME to the world, cheering for you, cheering for your little one…knowing how special it will be for all of you to be a part of our wonderful world…
stumble-tripping feet says
I am crying at how beautiful your story is. Wow, what a beautiful baby and amazing journey you went through emotionally as you were unexpected thrown into this love.
Anonymous says
I’m still sitting here sobbing at how amazing this story is. I have 3 wonderful, brilliant children; and it’s stories like these that make me realize so much is fleeting, and that I should just gather them up and love them, forgetting about the little irritants that each day will inevitably bring. Your daughters are both beautiful, and they are so lucky to have someone as lovely as you as their mother.
Anonymous says
I am 29 wks pregnant and up w. insomnia after celebrating my daughters 5th birthday- and read this..and feel remarkably changed. It was the most beautiful,real, raw story I have ever read. You are wonderful for sharing- and inspire me. Thank you
Erica says
I just want to let you know that your story is truly amazing and I read over every word with tears streaming down my face. When I was pregnant with my son in 2008, I found out that he had some kidney issues along with Agenesis of the Corpus Callosum (a rare birth defect that does not allow the tissues in the middle of the brain to develop and connect both hemispheres together). So, I knew that my son could have some potentially serious medical problems while I was still pregnant. I still remember the day that my husband and I were given the news, and the doctor didn’t have once ounce of compassion in his body. I never wish that moment on anyone. We went for several follow up ultrasounds and everyone hoped it was a mistake, but I already knew in my heart that it was not. I had the next couple of months to play it all over in my head and think about the unknowns. I also had a 4 year old at the time and immediately wondered what this would do to her. It was a hard time, but I realized that this little guy was given to me for a reason. And, I vowed to do everything in my power to love him and provide the best life possible. His delivery was complicated and I was sedated and he was born via emergency c-section. Before I was put out, they had lost his heartbeat completely. I remember waking up in the room and not hearing a baby and my heart sunk. Little did I know, he was already out and cleaned up. I will never forget when they brought my beautiful baby boy to me. I couldn’t get over the amount of love that I already had for him and he was just perfect. We later found out that he also has Trisomy 8 Mosaicism, which is also a Chromosomal disorder. The fact that I was prepared and knew ahead of time changed so many things for me. It gave me time to feel ever emotion possible and be prepared for when he actually got here. My little man is doing amazing and is truly the biggest blessing in the world. I just wanted to let you know that I have pretty much been through every emotion that you have and your story really touched me. I only wish that I could write so beautifully and convey all of the feelings that I have inside me. Congratulations on your new baby girl. She is absolutely beautiful and looks like she is going to be a wonderful addition to your family. I wish you and your family nothing but a lifetime of happiness.
Serial Mommy says
i came across your blog through a post by a mom on a forum i belong to…your post spoke to me…while my oldest son doesn’t have down’s, he has asperger’s, i understand that heartache and pain and feeling like the floor is falling out from under you and you have no idea when you are going to land…and i wanted to share this with you..it’s a post i made, but mostly it’s the essay that i want to share…prayers and blessings for all of you
http://serialmommy.blogspot.com/2009/06/i-really-needed-this-right-now.html
Anonymous says
I know that you are probably going to say that you are the lucky ones to have her. But both of your girls are lucky to have such wonderful parents. Those girls are so loved and she will have a beautiful life. Best of luck to you and it was beautifully written..
Googsmom says
You have been Blessed. Welcome to the club. {{{{HUGS}}}}}}
Laureen says
wow…what a beautiful baby girl you have, and what an amazing story you’ve shared…
I love your honesty and raw emotion…what a lucky baby girl to have such a wonderful loving family, and what a lucky family to have such a gorgeous baby girl! I LOVE her name, and am so looking forward to following your blog and watching her grow.
Congratulations to your family!!
Laureen says
wow…what a beautiful baby girl you have, and what an amazing story you’ve shared…
I love your honesty and raw emotion…what a lucky baby girl to have such a wonderful loving family, and what a lucky family to have such a gorgeous baby girl! I LOVE her name, and am so looking forward to following your blog and watching her grow.
Congratulations to your family!!
Laureen says
wow…what a beautiful baby girl you have, and what an amazing story you’ve shared…
I love your honesty and raw emotion…what a lucky baby girl to have such a wonderful loving family, and what a lucky family to have such a gorgeous baby girl! I LOVE her name, and am so looking forward to following your blog and watching her grow.
Congratulations to your family!!
Laureen says
wow…what a beautiful baby girl you have, and what an amazing story you’ve shared…
I love your honesty and raw emotion…what a lucky baby girl to have such a wonderful loving family, and what a lucky family to have such a gorgeous baby girl! I LOVE her name, and am so looking forward to following your blog and watching her grow.
Congratulations to your family!!
erin says
beautiful, beautiful. thank you for sharing your amazing story. so very real and honest. and tears are streaming down my face, and i am thankful for having been a part of your story if only through reading it.
Ciara says
When I started reading this I got this feeling like you and your family were close to where I live. Then I kept reading… and come to find out we both live in the same city. I am 30weeks and will be delivering at NCH as well off immokalee. I’ll have to look up Dr.Foley since I do not have a prediatrician yet. You sound like a GREAT mom and you can get through anything. God chose you for a reason. Many blessings to you and your family.
Kate says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story. My heart broke for you…but then turned to tears of joy for you. The pictures really helped bring across a lot of emotion. thank you again.
Haley says
This is so beautiful, raw, honest, amazing.
I never been to your blog until today…but I will be back.
This has touched my heart.
Your zest for life is so inspiring.
Your girls are gorgeous.
Congrats on the birth of Nella!
Valerie aka Mamalovelock says
What a beautiful birth story! The pics are beautiful and so is sweet little Nella. Thank you for sharing with us.
Sidnie says
It’s 9 AM in Germany. I’m sipping my 2nd cup of coffee… I followed a link on twitter to Nella’s birth story…
I’ve read and cried and loved and felt your hurt and your joy through your words. I sit here and watch my beautiful boys run around this tiny apartment and get into things they shouldn’t get into.
I am blessed to have read her story, blessed that you ahve shared.
This life is more than enough- my boys & my husband are more than enough. Thank you for that reminder.
Blessings & Prayers.
meghan says
another stranger here…
what a beautifully written story. what a beautiful family you have! and what a beautiful future is in store for you! <3
Krystal says
I clicked on a friend’s link to this on Twitter. It is by far the most beautiful, raw, honest, amazing blog entry I’ve ever read. The photos are brilliant and tell so much of the story alone.
This, my dear, is an award-winning piece of journalism right here. And it’s YOUR LIFE. Your beautiful, incredible life.
ASDmomNC says
Just a stranger and another special needs mom who was so moved by your story that it brought me to tears also. Your Lainey and your Bunny are beautiful girls, and their mama has a beautiful soul. Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful new baby girl! A new journey now begins.
Muslim says
I am a complete stranger to you, but your story brought tears to my eyes. It was absolutely beautiful and very real and empowering. Thank you for sharing.
Ann says
I jumped over from a link on my community…Babycenter’s Down syndrome group. I shouldn’t have read it when I have a cold. There were tears and a major runny nose…not a pretty picture. Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughters and Nella’s birth story. I too have a key to the same door that you have. I had fraternal twins, Caleb and Maggie, on 4/16/08. We got Caleb’s official diagnosis about a week after they were born but they shared their suspicions about 2 hours after they were born. It’s hard to explain to other people what is through that door that we’ve been given the key to. All I can say is that on the other side is….truth. A truth so raw and beautiful that it will bring you to your knees and lay your soul bare but the most important thing is that I would never turn around and walk back through that door again. Whatever life was there behind me, I don’t want it. I want Caleb. I’m so glad I’m on this journey with him. I look forward to hearing about your journey with your gorgeous family as well.
Anonymous says
I don’t know you or your family but I found this link to a friend. As a mama of a special needs child, this made me cry in such a beautiful way. What an amazing gift you have with words. Your daughters are beautiful and God is good. Always.
Hugs to you
Amblin
Little Liam says
I have never read such a beautiful post, and can’t help but think that your little angel has inspired her mama to write words with such passion and pure emotion. Thank you for sharing your story.
And from one mama to another…welcome to this new- and very special chapter of your life!Kristin
http://www.littleliamburns@blogspot.com
Adina says
I jumped over from the down syndrome babycenter site. I am pregnant with a little boy that has down syndrome we have known since week 16 and I am now at week 25. I can’t wait to meet him. you made me cry like crazy, but I loved reading about your journey’s begining. Your story was beautiful and you and your family are amazing. I hope you join our board and share your journey with us there.
Tara says
Welcome to the wonderful world of Down syndrome! We are a close group of wonderful people on the same journey. Thank you so much for your beautiful story with amazing pics! Nella is gorgeous and you are very blessed to be her mom. Our little guy with Ds turned one on 1/29 and it has been a beautiful year! As you continue on this road and read the stories of so many others, you will really come to appreciate how amazing your pediatrician is! So many of us got “I’m sorry” when really, all we wanted was a hearty congratulations! Snuggle your baby girl. Enjoy your babymoon. There will be time for research and connection with others. For now, though, bond with your baby.
Btw, I LOVE Donald Miller! 🙂
Michelle Vandepol says
amazing beautiful story
and fabulous writing
your pictures are so touching and beautiful.
i cried, cried, cried
and smiled.
you are encouraging a lot of people and making them rethink the down syndrome stigma
gerry murphy says
what stigma,
there is none, only extra special loving people
Michelle says
it has been 11 yrs since my daughter was born. You just wrote our story, too. In all of these years, I have NEVER read another story that so exactly matched my emotions that day. I, too, was the first one to notice. You are a part of a sisterhood that you will never ever regret gaining. Your girls are so beautiful. And you are, too. THANKS for allowing me to relive my own story through yours. You should add “wonder” by natalie merchant to your list. have you heard it yet?
OMG…I want to go read this again. Congratulations on your beautiful new life.
Michelle says
adding a note so I can get followups.
Rachel says
She is beautiful. Congratulations! I wish her and you years of bonding and only happy memories to cherish.
Jenny says
I too found this birth story from a link posted on babycenter. I cried reading it, knowing the exact feelings you were going through and knowing the moment you saw your child, even though no one else would dare say. Your family is so beautiful and so honest. Nella truly is a lucky little lady to have you to love her and to teach her everything she needs to know. Thank you so much for sharing your amazing story and beatiful pictures.
Bennett fam says
Thank you for writing your beautiful story. My eyes are swollen and my face is splotchy! I am approaching my son, Elliot’s third birthday Feb. 16.- that is the day our world changed forever. And I wouldn’t take it back for anything! I felt so many of the same things you did – it was like reliving my experience when I read your story. Your children are both precious, but your little bunny – I just want to eat her up 😉
Yvonne Mahoney Richmond says
What a beautiful story! Thank you for sharing this. You and your family are on a journey that you never expected, would not have actively chosen, but now that you are on it, you will not wish it to be any different. You have joined an amazing extended “family.” My family joined this great family and began our journey 9 months ago when I gave birth to my youngest son, who was diagnosed with Ds at birth. Nothing has been more beautiful. I know that Nella and all of you will write many love-filled, exciting, life-filled chapters full of revelations, triumphs, and moments of precious humanity. Welcome to the world, sweet and beautiful Nella!
Anonymous says
I am humbled and so very inspired by your honesty and strength. You truly are a beautiful soul. I wish you and your family a lifetime of love and happiness.
Carrie says
She is perfect. Your post is so beautiful. Congratulations.
Tereza Crump aka MyTreasuredCreations says
I just read your story and cried my eyes out. I am having a baby in 3-4 weeks. It’s a baby girl. 🙂 Nella is gorgeous and I can see she is the sweetest thing. How blessed you and your family are! Enjoy your baby. I can’t wait to hold mine. 🙂
Yo Mamma Mamma! says
Stopping by again to point you toward someone who I think may become a kindred spirit! This photographer (whose style seems to be as beautiful as yours!) has a child with DS and specializes in photographing children with Down syndrome!
http://connywenk.com/blog/2009/11/laura-bruckmann.html
http://connywenk.com/blog/2009/01/tamara-guiliana.html
Tricia says
Thank you so much for sharing your heart-breaking, heart-healing, heart-warming story. I can’t hope to match your eloquence; I just have to tell you how immensely your words moved me, how you made me take another look at my daughter and the baby boy I’m carrying with a new pair of eyes– eyes filled with tears for you, joy for you, and wonder at the miracle that we all are so blessed to experience as mothers. Thank you for sharing your pain and your joy– Nella is so precious, and I’m sure she’s already aware of the love surrounding her in your beautiful family. Congratulations on your beautiful, perfect baby girl!
Maggi says
Ohh, I’m sitting here crying. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and your beautiful girls!
Malika says
I thank you for your honesty. Your story is amazing and so real. With your words, I could feel your emotions as you carry me step by step through this remarkable experience. Your words, the photos, the music, your family, friends, doctor, your girls… all so beautiful. Your story has really touched me, thanks for sharing.
~*Radonna*~ says
My son with Down syndrome is 15, I cried through your entire story feeling your pain and your joy as strongly as I felt my own. What an amazing story. Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful little girl.
April says
Thank you for baring your heart. I am newly pregnant, and have been battling fears about this baby… We don’t know each other, but I feel like I was right there, sharing in the pain and the love, and you gave me hope that no matter what, I will love. What a beautiful life you have with your girlies. <3
sasbolton says
Your story is beautiful. Your pictures are gorgeous. Thank you for being so real, so honest. Thank you for publicly sharing the journey of having a baby with DS. Enjoy every minutes with your precious little girl! I know she is very blessed to have you (and your huge circle of loved ones) to guide and love her…
Anonymous says
Wow…this is the first post on your blog that I’ve ever read. And just…wow. Moved to tears, because it was so beautiful and so sweetly true, so honest and so trusting-in-Him.
Beatiful pictures of you and Nella and of Nella and Lainey at the end.
Mandi says
I’m yet another stranger who was just blessed enough to have a friend share a link to this post. I cried through the entire story. That beautiful, emotional, wonderful story. And it was hands down, the best birth story I have ever read in my entire life. Thank you for sharing it. Thank you for being real and honest and raw and so filled up with love that it can’t help but overflow. What a beautiful story you are writing with your life.
annofthejungle says
Congratulations on the birth of the amazing Nella! Thank you for sharing your story so honestly. It brought back many emotions from a day seven years ago that started and ended very similarly to the day Nella was born. I’m so glad you’re enjoying her. I spent so much time worrying and wanting to get to the next milestone that I don’t remember much about my son as a baby. Hopefully you already own the book “Gifts”. If not, buy it! My story is in it along with those of many other mothers of kids with Down syndrome.
Anonymous says
Kelle, my name is Jackie and I have a 2 1/2 year old son named Asa who was born with Down syndrome. You have described the emotions so perfectly, I too, like so many others shared the exact same experience – no one knows those feelings like us. You do feel like you lost the child you were expecting to have, you lose those dreams and expectations, but what God has decided to give you instead is something very few are granted. It is so hard to describe, you have done it well. Your story has been posted as a thread on downsyn.com “extra chromosome, extra family”. You should stop by if you haven’t already and meet this ginormous family of wonderful people from all over the world, we are all parents of children with Down syndrome (and have many pictures posted in our threads, I remember wanting to see pictures of other babies and kids with DS). Nella is absolutely beautiful – congratulations and ENJOY YOUR JOURNEY…
Samantha says
I found your story by a link posted on BabyCenter..
Congratulations on your blessing. Your story made me cry, it’s so beautiful! Your family is beautiful.
Shannon Ainsworth says
Being 6 months pregnant with my second son, I could not stop crying as I read your beautiful story. She is a little angel from heaven. Thank you for sharing her with us. She is truly wonderful.
-Shannon in Oklahoma
Karen says
Kelle,
You don’t know me, I came to your blog through a link a friend shared and I was blessed to be pushed emotionally to read it. I am pregnant with my first child after trying for almost 2 years after a 3 year break after trying for 9 months. It was long and emotional for me, depressing and stressfull, but I’ve finally gotten my angel and I’m 14 weeks pregnant.
Everyone asks me what I want (boy or girl) and I just state that I don’t care. They often say “as long as it’s healthy, right?” And I respond, “no, I just want my baby”. And this proves exactly why! I believe that no one is EVER given more than they can handle. I want a baby, I have dreamed and longed for my very own little version of my husband and I long before I even knew who my husband was. If my baby has health issues, down syndrome, anything, I will love that baby, because it’s mine, a bond between my husband and I.
Thank you for your confirmation of my beliefs and feelings. I love the way you write and will continue to read. Your girls are beautiful and amazing and your story is inspirational. Thank you again for sharing such a personal and emotional time in your life.
Karen says
Kelle,
You don’t know me, I came to your blog through a link a friend shared and I was blessed to be pushed emotionally to read it. I am pregnant with my first child after trying for almost 2 years after a 3 year break after trying for 9 months. It was long and emotional for me, depressing and stressfull, but I’ve finally gotten my angel and I’m 14 weeks pregnant.
Everyone asks me what I want (boy or girl) and I just state that I don’t care. They often say “as long as it’s healthy, right?” And I respond, “no, I just want my baby”. And this proves exactly why! I believe that no one is EVER given more than they can handle. I want a baby, I have dreamed and longed for my very own little version of my husband and I long before I even knew who my husband was. If my baby has health issues, down syndrome, anything, I will love that baby, because it’s mine, a bond between my husband and I.
Thank you for your confirmation of my beliefs and feelings. I love the way you write and will continue to read. Your girls are beautiful and amazing and your story is inspirational. Thank you again for sharing such a personal and emotional time in your life.
Jennifer H. says
First off I want to say congrats on your little miracle. I love your honesty and raw feeling. When i received our diagnosis of down syndrome I felt just like you did but I was too afraid to tell anyone. I wish I was more like you, as strong as you are. Thank you Thank you Thank you
The Fluck Family says
our stories of emotions are the same even if the circumstances of our births were different. there will be struggles in your heart but the love that you feel for this baby will far outweigh anything you have ever felt before. congratulations on the birth of your beautiful baby girl.
heather says
What a beautiful birth story and absolutely INCREDIBLE pictures!!! I have a 7 year old daughter who has Down syndrome. She is such an amazing gift to our family and her 5 siblings. I look forward to following your journey!
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for your story! I recently gave birth to my second daughter (4 months old)with Ds and in a strange way I felt like I was reading my own story:) Nella is absolutely BEAUTIFUL! Congratulations to you and your family!
Tina says
You are simply amazing. The last picture of your sweet girl makes my heart sing.
Qadoshyah says
Congratulations Kelle!! Your baby is beautiful and should bring you much joy, love & laughter! Your story was beautiful.
My little man with DS is 5 years old today. I just wrote a small blog post of the last 5 blessed years we’ve had – http://gotdownsyndrome.blogspot.com/2010/02/five-blessed-years.html
kim says
This is the most beautiful honest thing I’ve ever read. Congratulations on your gorgeous, perfect, daughters.
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Scarehaircare says
Oh, my dear, sweet kindred spirit. I almost miscarried my baby. I knew she had DS the minute she was born. The rest of the world firgure it out the next day. I had to explain it to my three sons while I grappled over grieving the baby I didn’t have and the beautiful daughter I had in my arms. My father’s first words, upon learning that The Love Magnet had DS was “Well, we love her. That’s all that matters”.
I cried all night. By morning I was ready to face all the challenges and appreciate all of the joy.
Reading your story made me relive that whole first 24 hours again. I sobbed and smiled through it all.
God bless you and your family.
Dani, momtoAlyse in Nebraska says
Kelle and family what a beautiful account of the birth of your sweet daughter Nella. I relate so well to the overwhelming emotions of those first few moments and days post diagnosis. My daughter Alyse will be turning 8 in a few short weeks. Your story brought me back to a place I had not thought of for such a long time.
Unlike you we had our diagnosis while I was still pregnant I think those feeling of being suddenly lost and struggling to find yourself again are common to parents of children with a set of designer genes.
This I can assure you, your life has been blessed expotentially. You will see things in a new light. The essence of your days will have become that much sweeter.
I can not imagine what my life would be like without my sweet Alyse, she is my heart…
Dani
Tracey says
Oh my, you should see my tears… A friend sent me the link to your post, and I must say that Nella must be the luckiest little girl in the whole world. She has such an amazing mom, who, faced with this unexpected part of life, is already loving her more than words can describe. I can’t imagine what you felt, in those few hours after giving birth. But to see the love in your eyes in the portraits of you & Nella shows me how you feel now…
What a wonderful story. I wish you all the happiness in the world!
Scott and Gwen Hartley says
Someone passed this link on to me, and I just bawled my eyes out reading it from top to bottom.
You have PERFECTLY explained my thoughts & feelings with such great details, emotions, and love.
I am the mom of TWO little angel babies… Claire is 8.5 years old & Lola is 3.75 years old. Like you, we have a typical child who is 11 (a son), and we SO did not expect any “surprises” when our Claire was born. We had a “normal” (what IS normal!?!?) sonogram at 18-19 weeks & sailed thru the most glorious, perfect, naive, wonderful pregnancy only to have our lives/worlds shattered here, too when Claire was born with microcephaly (small head/brain).
We too had an agonizing time initially — but in the past 8.5+ years have realized like the quote says, “Some luck lies in not getting what you thought you wanted
but getting what you have, which once you have got it you
may be smart enough to see is what you would have wanted had you known.” ~ Garrison Keillor
Life is good… fast forward… waited 4.5 years until we were gutsy enough to “go for it” again… knew we had a 25% chance for recurrence, and yet, to us, we were meant to experience whatever came our way. And that was little Lola, also microcephalic (diagnosed at 26 weeks in utero). Another tough 24-48 hours & then UTTER PEACE & knowing that all was right & perfect STILL in our worlds…
THANK YOU for putting it all into words so beautifully. Love the website, the many gorgeous pics, and the music. (writing down songs I need to download frantically… hahahah)
Hope to continue to follow your journey & would love to keep in touch! Hugs from Kansas…
Gwen
hartleyhooligans@att.net
Kimberly says
Oh my goodness, I am in tears here reading your story. You don’t know me, but I learned about your story through a forum online. I can identify with your story and your birth and grieving experience because my daughter was born with a chromosome abnormality as well and I went through a very similar experience. You put into words what I never could about what I felt at her birth. You are an amazing mother and your daughters are both very happy to have you. God bless your family!
Grace says
Kelle–A friend of mine posted a link to your blog on her Facebook page. Your story is amazing and I had to fight through the tears while reading it. Your baby is beautiful as is your family. I look forward to reading more about your journey through motherhood with your little bundle of joy. Big hugs to you 🙂
Sara says
I found your story via babycenter as well on a birth board you are on. I have a sister with Downs. She is 6 and I remember meeting her in the hospital for the first time. The pediatrician had not checked her out yet, however the nurses had been acting odd. I remember holding her sitting in a chair across from my parents and looking at their faces which were trying so hard to be happy, but were clearly hiding something and I had her all swaddled up in my arms and I looked down at her and I remember knowing something was wrong and crying on her. I keep repeating, its ok, its ok. It did not feel ok at the time. I used to feel guilty for crying over her beautiful little face. I wondered if she too felt the grief we felt while we tried to adjust to what had just happened. 6 years later, she is the charming, witty, smart, beautiful little carbon copy of her sisters (there are 4 of us) and she is the light of my parents life. Now I am pregnant with twins, one of which has a clubbed foot. I feel so prepared for what is coming due to the fact that I have been through this experience with my sister. I know its ok to be upset, to grieve, to take some time to adjust and to take the time to educate yourself about what is happening. I wish you the best of luck with both of your beautiful girls! Take care of yourself and congratulations!
Amy says
wow. what an incredible, beautiful, breathtaking story. thank you.
Jessica says
This is one of the most amazing things I have ever read. I am choking back the tears and sending you and your beautiful perfect family all the love in the world!!
Nella is a very lucky girl, and she is going to grow up with the most amazing mom (family) in the world!
Lots and lots of love,
Jessica
Megan says
Aww! Congratulations to you and your family. And welcome to the club. 🙂
Love,
Mama of Audrey (4) and Stella (almost 2, Ds) and newbie (EDD 7.13.10)
Adrienne says
“I knew” at 18 weeks through amnio (although I had feelings before then) but I went through the pain you first went through when Nella was born. Looking at her face brings me to tears because I have grown to love the features of Down syndrome. My son is only 8 months old but I can spot it instantly now and those almond eyes-although they may look different to most, are gorgeous. My son has them too, of course and I just love them. Your writing is beautiful, honest, pure-thank you for sharing your story.
Cate says
oh, wow. What a beautiful post, and a beautiful family.
My daughter was diagnosed with DS at birth too. It’s a tough thing to hear, but it really does get better. Your post took me right back.
Tiffany says
Kelle,
I was linked to this post by a friend of mine. You will be SO thankful that you took the time to write such a beautiful and detailed and raw birth story. Nella is absolutely beautiful and perfect. CONGRATULATIONS!!!
I have a daughter, Etta, who is 20 months old. She also has Ds and is so full of life and light abd love and laughter. She is my heart outside my body.
I wish I could time travel back to the day she was born and tell myself that everything is going to be okay. Better then okay. She makes me a better person and I have met SO many wonderful people because of her.
After I got over the (short) initial mourning process, I loved looking at photos and watching vieos and reading about people with Ds. PLEASE feel free to visit Etta’s website. There are lots of photos and videos there. http://www.etta.aboutmybaby.com
Once again, congratulations on the birth of your newest daughter!
Tiff Wenzler
Cheri says
Oh boy….I cried body shake cries while reading this. Congratulations, baby Nella is beautiful, and I just love her name! You wrote that so beautifully and what a beautiful moment with your friends and family the night she was born…a raw yet beautiful beginning to a beautiful new chapter…and a new you. I found that my little Reid made me a better person and instantly grew my heart 5 times it’s size with his birth.
If you are interested I recently wrote a blog about if I was able to have a conversation with myself back on the day my son was born with Down syndrome with the me now 3 years later…and what that would look like…. When he was born I craved to have so many questions answered that there was just no way I could have had answers to unless I began walking forward, which was really hard for me to do at first. You can find that here: http://raisingreid.blogspot.com/2009/12/conversation-between-me-then-when-we.html
….thank you for sharing your absolutely adorable family and pictures. I just love the pictures of you holding Nella with your braids, so cute!!
Jethro says
Thanks for sharing. Our first daughter was born with Down Syndrome, and she is three now. Katya is a bundle of joy and there have been way more blessings from her syndrome than there have been inconveniences. I’m sure you can already say that, and you will for the rest of your life.
Lisa says
Reading your story brought back a flood of emotions–some of them tough, but most of them overwhelmingly beautiful. I am touched beyond words (that doesn’t happen often :)!) You have just been given the gift of a lifetime, and it seems like you already know it. You already have a wonderful, large group of loving family and friends to hold you all close and to love & learn right along with you. You have also just entered another wonderful, large group–the Down syndrome community. There are a lot of us out here, now reading along, sending warm congratulations and welcoming you into the fold.
I have a three-year-old daughter with Down syndrome (Bridget). She’s the youngest of our five children, and she is every good thing wrapped into one tiny package. Our lives did change the day she entered the world–for the better. She is honestly the best thing that has ever happened to us.
I blog about Bridget and our life together at http://www.bridgets-light.blogspot.com. Please visit when you have a chance!
Congratulations!!
Andrea says
I found your blog from a link on babycenter. Just wanted to say thank you for sharing your beautiful story. It reminds us all about what love and life is all about. Your daughters are both beautiful and perfect just as they are.
Caden says
What an amazing and beautiful story. I cried so hard and feel deeply moved. Nella is truely your gift. What in inspriring story. You are lucky to have such a beautiful family and friends. Those pictures are to die for. You write very well and with such truth, this story should be published or perhaps one day you will write a book?
Inspired, moved, touched!
I don’t know you but I know you are blessed.
Anonymous says
My son with DS is 9 years old – he has an older sister and a younger brother. I re-lived my experience by reading yours – except you are way more photogenic than I! The thing I need most in life is laughter and God gave me that with my son — he is so darn funny. He is extra everything: extra chromosome, extra stubborn, extra loving, extra funny and, sometimes, extra annoying! Yes,life with DS has its challenges but it will enrich you in ways you never expected. Seems it already has. Enjoy.
Anne says
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter! I admire your honesty, and remember exactly how the emotions and thoughts you so poignantly describe felt.
You see, my oldest child, Archie, has Down syndrome. He is my best work.
Emily says
I stumbled across your blog… and I am so glad that I did! What a beautiful birth story that was. You are an incredible person! I have a little boy, Justin, who is 21 months with Down syndrome. He is my angel here on earth. Congratulations!
Stevenson Family says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I know exactly where you have been and where you are headed. Our birth was a little more tramatic but we had the same feelings. To just run away. Now I look back and wonder what was I thinking. He is such a blessing. I can’t wait to watch her grow.
Marla says
Oh my word. This has to be the most beautiful blog post I’ve ever read. And the photos are just perfect, each and every one of them. I remember all those emotions too, though my came at the 20 week mark of my pregnancy when my first son was diagnosed with Ds.
I can’t wait to follow your journey with your daughter. She will amaze you. It sounds like she already has. 🙂
Kayla says
Wow. Thank you for sharing your story. Nella IS perfect!
Molly says
Wow. What a beautiful story. I believe someone already said this, so I’ll echo that person’s comments – your story was almost exactly my story this past August. I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl with DS as well. It’s been an amazing blessing. What struck me, especially, was your sister telling you how lucky you are that you’ve been “chosen.” Truer words were never spoken.
Cole says
Congratulations on your precious Nella! She is lovely and your telling of her birthstory is heartwarming. It brought back alot of my own emotions from a year ago. My dear Quail will turn one next month. Our oldest was also 2 1/2 when she was born. The love that our children share is so beautiful. Feel free to come over and meet our family.
Georgiadee says
wow… I am speechless. I have been so sad since my OB told us that our numbers indicate our baby has Downs. Your story is beautiful and I am now more determined than ever to welcome my baby home and feel happy and blessed with my baby.
Nella IS beautiful and you are an inspiration-thank you for sharing your journey. God Bless you , your family and sweet baby Nella.
kecia says
i just found your blog from another fellow blogging friend, another mother of a sweet angel and I just loved your story! You have a great way with words that express so much of what I felt and feel. Bree is almost 3 and what you said about holding your baby and being complete…it is still true. Being a part of this experience is something I never knew I wanted to be a part of but now that I am, I am so glad I was chosen. I look forward to reading more of your journey.
amy flege says
i too was once in your shoes…. my little one is going to be 4 in 2 weeks and she is the best thing that ever happened to our family….
your Nella is beautiful. we are so lucky to have been blessed with a child with DS, aren’t we?
Ashley says
She’s just gorgeous. Congratulations. I can already tell that you’re going to be a wonderful mother to Nella… you’re so lucky to have each other.
kyouell says
My son w/Down syndrome was diagnosed at 3 or 4 days old (ha! I can’t remember!). He’s 4.5yo now. I heard of your story thanks to a retweet by @SHetherington. I loved what you wrote and LOVED THE DOCTOR, OMG. That’s too great. I have 2 little ones and no time to read the jillions of comments, just wanted to say “Hi!” and “Welcome to the club” and that those are the best.damn.photos to accompany a fabu birth story EVAH. Luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurve. Go Mama!
Joyce says
The most beautiful birth story I have ever read. Congratulations!!! and God Bless your entire beautiful family.
*Miss Cake* says
She’s gorgeous, just gorgeous! Thank you for writing such a beautiful and honest account of her birth. God has wonderful things in store for your little lady, and your family! Bless you all.
Lexi Lago says
Kelle,
Wow what a beautiful baby and her amazing birth story. The world has gotten such a wonderful new addition! Cant wait to see how she blossoms into a beautiful amazing girl. Until we meet…
Brent & Jodie says
Oh my goodness. I am overwhelmed by the love you have for your beautiful, perfect girls. Nella’s story has touched my heart so much! Welcome to the amazing world of raising a child with Down syndrome. There is nothing so special, so incredible as the love you will have for this perfect little angel. Nella is just beautiful! Thank you for sharing her story with all of us!!
Sheyenne says
This is absolutely beautiful. Nella IS perfect! I remember the day I thought a DS diagnosis would be the worst thing in the world. We’d had an abnormal u/s and were waiting for the results of our amnio. It wasn’t Downs. It was much worse. It was fatal. What we had once feared, we were begging for. But that’s not the journey God had for us. Thank you for sharing your story… you’ve given me hope as I prepare to deliver our daughter who will only be with us a very short time.
Michelle says
Congratulations on the birth of your daughter; she is beautiful and perfect! How blessed you are to have such loving family, friends, and that pediatrician who knew exactly what to say.
Your story brought back so many memories of my own daughter’s birth. Looking down at her face the moment she was born and just knowing, and I kept asking the midwife, “she has Down syndrome doesn’t she?” The first night being alone in the hospital room and just finally breaking down and crying and crying…feeling like I was looking down on someone else’s life, like this wasn’t my baby I was holding. Not sure I was bonding with her, just not knowing anything and going through the motions.
Thank you for sharing your story so beautifully.
heidi @ ggip says
What a beautiful baby. And she is perfect.
You have a wonderful doctor.
Thanks for sharing.
Kylie says
Thank you for this – your birth story is absolutely inspirational.
Anonymous says
such a beautiful story – we all need to remember how blessed we are, and what is truly important – family and friends 🙂
Kevin Hayden says
Thank you for a beautiful portrayal of a beautiful moment.
Kevin.
Jenny Jardine says
What an amazing journey you are on! Thank you for having the strength to write this and share you and your family with everyone.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your daughter’s beautiful birth story. My second son was born just three days after Nella. Like her, he has Downs Syndrome – a diagnosis we only just received today. Reading your story has given me hope about the unknown road that lies ahead. Thank you!
Anonymous says
I was just waiting for my tears to dry and “my heart is in a million pieces” in order to comment. I don’t have children so I have never had the experience of giving birth. Your story has helped me understand what that must be like to have this experience. These pictures are breathtaking! When you first see Nella my heart lept out of my chest. She is beautiful. This story touches me on so many levels. I know all of you will enjoy your journey.
Christina says
I am touched by your incredible honesty. Your story brought me to tears many times.
I am not sure where you live, but “Dr. Foley” was one of my many OB’s during my second pregnancy. She is incredible.
Thank you for your touching story.
FreshFromGod Photography says
Holy amazingness! Your story is so real and precious. Your girls are beautiful and God did bless you abundantly. Thank you for sharing!
Anonymous says
I don’t know you. A friend emailed me a link to your blog. I have never shared my story, but reading yours has made me want to share mine with you:
My twin boys were born a little over 2 years ago. By 2 months old, I knew something was wrong with one of them. I tried telling my family, doctor, and husband, but no one believed me. I spent 16 months severely depressed because I was alone in my grief. I listened to people gush about how lucky I was to have twins. They would be best friends, share a secret language, and always have a playmate. I endured all of the advice about how to get my son to finally sleep or stop crying 20 hours/day, as if it was so easy.
Finally, when he was 18-months-old, I had him evaluated by three separate agencies. All confirmed what I had already known- Autism. Finally, finally I could move on! I wasn’t alone in this struggle anymore. As everyone dealt with the news, I was able to take the next steps and figure out what this meant for him, his twin brother, and us as parents.
My boys may never have a secret language, understand each other, or be best friends, but they are both so lucky to have each other in their lives. We have already learned so much from my son, and he has learned from us. We are all better people for loving each other.
The Sanchez Family says
I am so deeply touched by your post. The words, the photos, the honesty, the beauty, the perfection. You are a gift and you have been given a gift. And it is PERFECT!
I have had “When You Love Someone” playing in my car for an entire week, this past week we committed to adopting a baby girl with DS in Eastern Europe and that song is my song for her. I have a 2 year old son Joaquin, the light of our lives, with DS who has taught me more in 2 years than I could possibly teach him in a lifetime.
Enjoy your new, brightly lit life. It will be richer and deeper than you have ever imagined.
With love,
Jen
Crystal says
I dont know you or your family but i love you. Your story touches so deep. Your bunny is sooo adorable and precious. Your oldest will undoubtedly be the best big sister and love you even more then you could imagine. I hope you nothing but the best in life and your journeys ahead.. Congrats!
Anonymous says
Wow–you managed to describe so perfectly the exquisite pain of that first day and night. I wish I could write about it–maybe it would help. My daughter with DS was born 15 months ago, but I didn’t have all the support from friends and family that you have. I’m so happy for you. And Congratulations on your beautiful girl!
Jenny says
What an amazing story and she is just beautiful! You have 2 gorgeous girls 🙂
Anonymous says
She is beautiful and perfect. I enjoyed your story; thank you for sharing. You have such a beautiful family.
Amy says
You put into words what so many of us have felt and feared. Thank you!
Oana Hogrefe says
So raw, so magical, so alive; your journey continues, in awareness and in love. Thank you for sharing! Wishing you continued closeness, growth and warmth.
Kelle says
From one Kelle to another (I don’t see THAT everyday!)…thank you for touching me. Thank you for making my heart smile and my soul grow.
Kelle in TX
Korin says
This was my first visit to your blog, and what a visit it was! Than you for sharing your story, your honesty and your heart. I am raising a special needs, autistic daughter who brings me more joy and challenge in the course of a day than anyone else could in a lifetime.
This song really sums it up. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQJaZO2nfGg
congratulations on being changed for the better.
ECinked says
Nella is so beautiful. You SHOULD feel blessed. Your story is amazing and very moving. I could read it over and over. Good luck mama!
Christina says
I know just how you feel.
We were told when our son was 3 days old that they suspected DS and then my world fell apart. I thought. But it really did not. It sounds so cliche, but I promise, it is not bad at all!
Vincent will be 4 in May and he is the funniest kid ever. I love him to bits and pieces.
Best wishes,
Christina
Mom to Vincent (May 2006, DS), Edgar (Oct 2009)
joyq says
I am so happy I just read this. Amazing. Thank you for sharing. God bless you and your family- joy
Renee says
You are an amazing woman, and the perfect mother for Nella.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Halina Veratsennik says
You are beautiful – you soul, your family… this story made me cry and also fall in love with my daughter again and again! Thank You!
I think you are perfect. Because you love and you are loved!
Jen says
Nella’s story has made it around the globe to Australia. So amazing, so beautiful and so much love.
Wishing you all so much joy and a long wonderful life with your two amazing girls.
hawkeye23 says
I am so non-maternal it’s not funny, but I’m sitting here in Melbourne, Australia, with tears running down my cheeks. What a beautiful birth story. Your daughters are just gorgeous. There are no words to say what I want to say…
E says
Your story is so beautiful. God bless you and all your family, and thank you for sharing.
Amanda says
Congratulations!! Your such a clever girl having two beautiful daughters like you have!
I am another stranger who was lucky enough to be sent here, your story has brought back such vivid memories of my own, you know it’s taken me to many years to admitt those very same feelings. But what I really want to tell you is, you will do great honey! Nella will bring you such joy, more joy than you can ever imagine! Look at her sweet little face, she’s a peach!! You have such amazing family and friends who will support you all the way, and don’t worry about Lainey, she will always be that proud big sister and they will adore each other and play together just like in your dreams! 🙂 xxx
Debbie says
So amazing and beautiful. Your story is so precious – and the pictures – oh thank you for sharing your journey in pictures. I could just hug you and your little ones.
Anonymous says
This is so beautiful and real with such raw emotion. I shared my daughter’s first night with her after finding out her daughter, Kiera, was microcephalic. We were told she may never walk or talk. We cried for hours and hours and still have moments when it is too tough to handle. But then there are moments when you just look at this beautiful child with a gorgeous smile and know she has a purpose in this world and she will touch people like no one else. God has blessed you tremendously. Enjoy!
Anonymous says
You don’t know me, but I loved reading your story. I’m a nurse and have been present at meetings where the doctors have to tell the family that their baby has Down’s. This was such a great story to read from a parent’s perspective. As a nurse you know that very likely the family’s whose world has just been destroyed is going to get the point where they love that baby like no other, but it hurts to know how much pain there is going to be until that acceptance and love comes. Thank you for telling it honestly and with such great accompanying photos! Good luck to you and your beautiful family.
Anonymous says
I love your story..it is LOVE!!! Love is not always easy but love is also the most powerful force on this earth!
Thank you very much for sharing…
The last photograph is absolutely enchanting!
Lee says
My friend shared your blog with me. And I am writing as the big sister of a little girl who has ds. Your girls will be best friends, and there will be a bond like no other. I love your story. It made me bawl. She is beautiful and what a blessing.
Amanda Eller says
“I’ll love you forever. I’ll like you for always. As long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.” I am so inspired that you were courageous enough to tell your story. Brave enough to open up to the “world” and let your heart be on display. You have a gift for telling your story. I hope your family continues to be blessed beyond measure and you reach deep for love beyond words. God Bless you, your husband and your sweet girls.
Rob says
Congratulations on the birth of beautiful Nella. Enjoy every moment of the blessed journey that your family has just begun.
mpomph says
You have an amazing story to tell! you ae a very strong and wonderful mother. I would love to read more about your story. I am a special education teacher and I wish my parents were as involved and eager as you are. Please consider writing a book!
Thank you so much!!
Sarah says
Motherhood is always surprising, no matter the details. Your story is wonderful, and Nella is gorgeous! Blessings to you as you walk this road together.
Anonymous says
I found the link to your story on a message board. This beautiful story of your family is just amazing!! You have an awesome way with words that touch the heart. I truly felt the love reading your story. Congrats on your beautiful family!!
Joyce in the mts. says
Oh gosh… she’s a beauty! Her smiles are like precious jewels. What a wonderful big sister.
You are SO lucky and I feel so honored that I got to read such real and honest feelings in your words. Surrounding you and yours with joyful peace as the path unfolds to you all.
Blessings… Joyce
Kelli-Sue says
I just found your blog thanks to a find linking to your daughters birth story. This is the most beautiful, raw, honest thing I have ever read. I was in tears by the end. No one has ever been this honest. My neice has special needs, she was born with Spina Bifida. They told us she would not live, she will be 5 next month, they also told us she would never walk, She took her first steps when she was 2 at physical therapy. B/c of her I am in graduate school for special education. I am very interested to see where your story goes. Thank you for sharing, I feel blessed to have read that.
-Kelli
Anonymous says
God has blessed you greatly. You have a special gift, and you know it. Thank you for sharing her.
Anonymous says
WOW, this made me cry. My wife is in the last month of pregnancy with our second child. What a beautiful story! I wish you the best and will remember this story forever.
Anonymous says
Congratulations! You are one of the lucky few to have been given one of God’s angels to love, cherish and learn from right here on earth. Your daughter will bless you and your family beyond your wildest dreams! She will teach you so much! We are so very happy for you! She is beautiful! Enjoy!
Rebecca says
I’m pregnant and due in a few short weeks. Of course reading your post brought tears but I am just so proud of you and of the beautiful way you told Nella’s story. You are an amazing person and beautiful mother. Nella and Lainey are blessed to have you and your husband and all your friends and family. The photos captured so much love and I wish you all the most wonderful journey full of blessings and light.
God Bless.
Sara says
Kelle,
I don’t know you but a friend of mine posted a link to this beautiful birth story on our mommies forum. My first thought was, “I love good birth stories”…however I had no idea the impact that reading your story would have on me. I’ve been struggling with post partum depression since I first got pregnant with my second daughter. however didn’t realize it until a few months after she was born. I’ve been struggling with so many emotions over the last year and have been afraid to talk about them. Thanks to your beautiful amazing story and your amazing little angels I’ve been inspired & moved. I now feel that its ok for me to share what I’ve been going through and how I’m feeling. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You’ve helped me realize and reconfirm how precious my daughters are an how beautiful and precious life is. May god bless you and your amazing family and friends. and Thank you again. Enjoy your amazing new daughter. Nella is beautiful. 🙂
Anonymous says
Thank you for your story. I have a Nella, her name is Ella Grace. She is my world, and I love her so. I wept uncontrollably reading your blog, I’m not sure why, perhaps for the first time since Ella Grace’s birth nineteen months ago. Downs children are simply angels. They are the sweetest, kindest, most loving children and Ella has touched my soul in ways I will never know. I hope Nella will do the same for your family. It seems she already has.
Congratulations. All my best to you, Brett, Lainey and Nella. May you all have a wonderful life.
Amanda says
What a beautiful and truthful account of your beautiful daughter’s birth! I know she will be such a constant source of joy for you and your family! Good luck as you embark on your new journey together.
Anonymous says
You don’t know me but thank you. From one mom who has had to learn to redefine perfection to another….she is beautiful and she is perfect. Enjoy!
Ange says
I came by via a dear friend of mine. My story is very similar to yours. Our precious Emily was born with Down syndrome and we had no clue until about four hours after her birth. Reading your story I found myself nodding and thinking “yes, I remember that”. Emily turns three in one month. I will tell you this; it only gets better as the days go by. She is the most wonderful gift I have ever been given and I thank God every single day that he choose us to receive such a beautiful child.
Megz says
Like many others who have posted I came across this blog by accident, just happenstance. I am so moved by your story. This was so touching to read and like others I have cried many tears to hear your beautiful, painfully honest, and deeply loving story.
Thank you for sharing this, I will share it with others because we can learn so much about unconditional love from you. Thank you thank you thank you.
Congratulations!
Smile! says
You are an amazing person. Honesty is often the hardest thing to show to others. Thank you for writing your story for all of us to share. Your sister was right…God chose you for a reason. He knows what an amazing person you are and that you will be the most incredible parents that Nella could have found. Keep smiling. 🙂
Christina says
A beautifully written experience.
We are a very lucky few. 🙂
Anonymous says
Wow. What an amazing and inspirational story. I myself am pregnant and due in the end of March and have been told our son could possibly have down’s. Your story has brought me to tears that won’t stop. You have truely inspired me. Bless you and your beautiful family.
Emily Davidson says
I heard from a couple of different people that I needed to read this. It took me a little while to work up the strength to do so since reading your story is like reliving my own. So difficult and so joyful at the same time. Emotions that only mothers like us can completely comprehend. My amazingly perfect Lexi was born in July of 2004. She is now a gorgeous 5 year old and my huggable bundle of sunshine! Even as I read this every time that I started to tear up she climbed into my lap and held my face in her hands and smiled at me. Life will never be the same…but I have learned that I would never want it to be! Congratulations, she is indeed perfect.
Sharon says
Someone forwarded your blog to me today and I’m so glad they did. What a beautiful, beautiful story and what an amazing journey you have begun. And how very fortunate you are to have such an amazing pediatrician and such loving and supportive friends and family. You and your sweet Nella are SO loved. All my best to you and your wonderful family.
Cyndi says
Everyone should be so lucky to get to have the love of a child who isn’t like all the other children. Your family is truly blessed with the addition of sweet Nella and I wish you many years of happiness!
Tricia says
This is a most beautiful tribute for a most beautiful little girl. You will surely found that the DS “world” is a small one, but a close knit one. I know because I, too, am the proud Mama of a little gal with DS. She just turned three.
In fact, reading this, I couldn’t help but cry. I had a different experience in many ways, but oh…not entirely. Georgia, seeing my tears, came over to me and patted my leg and then climbed into my lap and wrapped her arms tightly around my neck. I never knew a little over three years ago what that could possibly feel like. She is my first child and boy did she turn me on my head! (She now has a little brother who turns me on my head for other reasons!)
Welcome to the world, Little Nella!
And congratulations to your whole family!
Brooke A says
As I sit here with tears streaming down my face I cannot begin to tell you how moved I am by this story. I love how strong you are and how brave you to be so honest on how you felt. It so amazing how much someone you don’t even know can move your soul and that is exactly what you did with your amazing story of love! Congrats on your family and I hope that you continue to be as strong as you are.
Amy says
Good heavens. I’m a mess after reading that.
Our second son was diagnosed with Edwards Syndrome (Trisomy 18) at my 20 week ultrasound. Unlike DS, T18 is “not compatible with life”. We chose to carry him to term and he beat the odds and was born alive. We were blessed with a short time -much, MUCH too short- with him.
That first night though… that first agonizing night. I’m not sure if I wanted morning to come at all. I wanted to die that night and not have to face the heavy, heavy grief that was ready to overtake me. But, for my husband and 2 year old, I did face it. It’s a journey.
Thank you for your story.
Nomi says
Beautiful. Thank you for sharing and reminding us all of what life is all about. You have two beautiful, perfect daughters.
Team Carter Jay says
Perfect story!
It mirrors my little guy, Carter’s story very much. He doesn’t have DS, but he does have a chromosomal disorder. I look forward to watching Nella grow 🙂
Deanna Momtchilov says
As a birth doula and a mother of two with #3 on the way, your story melted my heart. My tears flowed freely. Not tears of sadness. It was as if I could FEEL your love through your story. Bless you and your family!
Heather says
Here via a link from a board on babycenter. Your writing is gorgeous and your story is so, so moving. I didn’t even stop to wipe the tears from my face, I had to keep reading.
Congratulations. It’s wonderful to have two amazing, perfect daughters – I have them too. 🙂
Anonymous says
Hi – congrats on the new baby and lovely blog and pictures. Not to spoil the surprise, but according to our own little one’s schedule, here is an idea of where you will be with Nella in about 14 months.
You will love it if she would stop tipping over the trash cans and magazine holdder everyday in order to find more paper to eat. Rails will go up to keep her from plunging down the stairs as she may have a thing for heights. If she throws her bottle on the floor one more time you will think you might lose it. You will be eagerly waiting for her to be old enough for a spa day – even though that is still years away. You will catch the little kisses she blows and make a funny sound each time they land on your cheek. You will be busy picking out cute hand-me-downs from big sis to take on vacation. You will be thinking that she is so, so cute that her diagnosis, which mattered so much in the beginning, is really not an issue after all. You will wonder what you would do without her – because she will someday be the fourth to your golf foursome. You will wonder how old she has to be for your family to apply for the family version of the Amazing Race (the tv show…) You will realize that you were right in your supposition that your life will be different from what you expected with your newest addition, but different does not mean worse, and in most cases it means much better. You will pull yourself away from the blog world to get back to work. Again, congrats!
Alicia says
Thank you for sharing your beautifully honest story. What a beautiful girl you are blessed with. Congratulations
Anonymous says
Beautiful! Thank-you for sharing your story with such honesty. What a blessing that beautiful little girl is!
DC's DIVAlicious DIVA says
Oh my! What an amazing story and it really made me cry really hard at work. You are truly brave and I wish you and your family the best!!!! Congrats on two beautiful daughters 🙂
Anonymous says
Normally, while my two children nap, I sleep too. Today, my best friend sent me a link to your blog and told me I had to read it. I am so glad that I did. What a beautiful story teller you are and how lucky your girls are to have a mama like you! The part that brought me to tears was when Lainey came to visit and her sweet, proud smile. I remember that same look on my daughter’s face when she met her brother, and I remember wondering how I would ever love someone as much as I loved that little girl. And, somehow, I did. Thank you for sharing your story. I can’t wait to hear more. Kiss those girls from a stranger in Michigan!
Chrystal says
I always wondered what it would have been like if I had chronicled all of the emotions of my daughter’s birth and learning of her diagnosis. While painful, it was the beginning of a journey. You are very fortunate to have such loving friends and family…in addition to your two wonderfully beautiful girls. I wish you all the best and I envy your freedom.
eclaireskaggs says
What a sweet, sweet little bunny you have! I’m so proud of you for taking time to write that down- pouring your whole heart into it- and leaving out nothing. You’ll never regret it. On May 1, 2008, we had a surprise with the birth of our son, Seth. I knew the minute I saw him, before anyone else did, that he had DS. I felt everything you felt and cried all over again in reading your account. I echo what so many have commented to you- you are so very blessed to have sweet Nella in your life. She was chosen for you and for Brett and for Lainey. I’m excited to see her grow up…..here’s a snapshot of our little guy at his first birthday. I could talk to you for HOURS about how much we’ve enjoyed him, but it’s all in the blog. Enjoy your precious girls!
http://skaggsportal.typepad.com/my_weblog/2009/05/seths-birthday.html
All the best- Emily
Samantha says
Your story touched me…… That is my fear… to have a baby with DS but I feel I would have the strength as well to get through it just as you did…. I am due March 4th 2010 but thankfully she doesn’t have down syndrome…… God bless you for your courage and your hope and your love for her and the love of others around you….. GOD BLESS YOU AND NELLA ( what a BEAUTIFUL name)
Anonymous says
Congratulations on the birth of a beautiful little girl! She is truly lucky to have you as her mother 🙂 your story is very touching, i cried while reading it. May God bless you and your family!!!
Anonymous says
I sat at my computer and cried and cried when I read this. Your story is absolutely beautiful. Your daughter is so lucky to have you as her mother. Congratulations to you and your family!
Michelle
Lisa says
This is just so beautiful. Thank you for sharing, I started crying with the very first words of your post and with that last picture just have the biggest smile.
Congrats!
Sanchez says
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. You are such a beautiful person who is mother to two of the most beautiful children I have laid eyes on. I have never met you, but I love you and my prayers are with you and yours.
Amber says
I just got a link to your blog today. What a beautiful story. Thank you! You have a perfect, beautiful family. What an amazing woman you are and what an amazing husband you have! You have two beautiful daughters! Congratulations! May God bless you in your journey through life! Thank you so much for sharing your story!
Kelly says
The photos are absolutely stunning! Congrats on the birth of your little beauty, that was an amazing story, I am totally inspired (and in tears).
Mel says
Wow. What a beautiful story and even more beautiful story. I wish you and your family as much joy as we have had from our Luke.
MommyTwo2 says
That was an amazing story…It touched my heart, I cried with you as I read your story! Thank you for sharing!
Ellie... says
Wow what a beautiful story! You are amazing and your family is beautiful! Thank you for sharing! I shed tears when you wrote about your daughter coming in and showing you unconditional love, that was powerful!
..Soo.See.. says
Wow.. this is just beautiful. Nella is beautiful and so is Lainey. What an amazing story. Congratulations on your lovely daughters.
attached2mykids@yahoo.com says
Oh, my word. I have not cried at a birth story harder than I have at yours. What beautiful words! God bless you and your wonderful family!
Kelli says
Thank you for sharing your “story”…I cried my way through your entire, beautiful post. I felt like I relived my entire birth moment with my son Colin because I could FEEL your words. As I sit here and type this, I have this chill that runs up and down my spine because I KNOW, I UNDERSTAND your words…
…Your daughter is so absolutely beautiful…
Someone stopped me today that I have never met and told me that Colin was special like her Johnny. She said…”you know, special babies are born to very special people” and touched my face and moved on. She “touched” me today in more ways the one, just like your words have also touched me today. I feel it…
…I look forward to following your story…
I’m on a very similar journey and share it at http://loveforcolin.blogspot.com.
Kelli says
Thank you for sharing your “story”…I cried my way through your entire, beautiful post. I felt like I relived my entire birth moment with my son Colin because I could FEEL your words. As I sit here and type this, I have this chill that runs up and down my spine because I KNOW, I UNDERSTAND your words…
…Your daughter is so absolutely beautiful…
Someone stopped me today that I have never met and told me that Colin was special like her Johnny. She said…”you know, special babies are born to very special people” and touched my face and moved on. She “touched” me today in more ways the one, just like your words have also touched me today. I feel it…
…I look forward to following your story…
I’m on a very similar journey and share it at http://loveforcolin.blogspot.com.
Anonymous says
Congratulations on the birth of your perfect baby girl. I have never felt so moved and inspired, and wish nothing but the best for you and your beautiful family. You are an amazing mother.
*TaraB* says
Beautiful
Thank you
You have two amazingly sweet babies!
Anonymous says
Your story is amazing. Your girls are beautiful and what a beautiful Mama they have.
I’ll go wipe my eyes now.
Congratulations!
Momma V says
I’ve never read a blog that had this much emotion. You have the most amazing story and Nella is absolutely beautiful! Congratulations to you and your family!!! I wish all of you nothing but the best!
Anonymous says
You’re the reason why I know that there is a God. You’re honest, pure, sweet, kind, and you’re a wonderful mother! May God bless you! Your life will be great!
Rochelle says
Beautiful story, thanks for sharing.
Welcome to the world Nella you are amazingly beautiful. We look forward to seeing you grow.
Jill says
I’ve never seen so many comments on a blog post before! Wow what an amazing and beautiful story! And you’re right, I do want to leave a comment, even though you have hundreds of them and may never see this one or know it’s here. But in case you get to this one comment…I just want to put in writing what you probably already know…that all of us out here in blog-land love your little bunny. oh her sweet and lovely little face just took my breath away! Those last few photos….ahhhwwww-sweetness!
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MTGrace says
You don’t know me, but I found this link from BabyCenter.com. What a beautifully sweet story! You are truly lucky to be the mom of a Down Syndrome baby. I had the privilege of growing up with two kids with DS. They are the sweetest, most loving children you can ever meet – the closest things to angels we get here on Earth.
I had an interesting sensation in reading your post. I realized that I am fully prepared to hear the words “Your baby has Down Syndrome.” I had always believed that my sister would have a DS baby. Sadly, she passed away without being able to have children. If the Good Lord chooses to send me a DS child on her behalf, I will feel completely privileged. So at this point, I’m actually jealous of you. 🙂
All my love to your beautiful little Nella.
The Paskins Family says
Hi Kelle,
Thank you so much for writing this. I am really crying after reading it as it very closely relates to my story. The part that is so different for me is that I did not adjust nearly as quickly as you. You are a strong woman!
I have 2 boys – my older is 3 and the younger, Nate, is 13 months and has Down syndrome. I adore them both!
Welcome to this very exclusive club! You will meet some amazing people and will grow in ways you never expected.
If you’re interested, my blog is: http://www.foreverbetter.blogspot.com
Thanks for sharing your story!
Danielle
tumbleweed says
I just lost my dear, sweet dad two days after Christmas. I am also carrying our first child, a baby girl.
I have been so overwhelmed with grief that I have barely noticed her kicks, the ultrasound photo’s I used to be excited about or progress since he passed away.
Although I still have a long way to go before I am able to live without my daddy, I know I am heading in the right direction.
Thank you for inspiring the healing to begin.
What a beautiful beginning.
Love, Christene
ETS says
She is breathtaking! Congrats!!!!
Michelle R. Slape says
Thank you for sharing your story. You have warmed my heart. My (now) 3 year old has Down Syndrome also and he is the best blessing in my life.
Anonymous says
Beautiful inspiring!
Faith says
Today is my daughter’s birthday. Three years ago was the worst day of my life. Those who are in Italy don’t understand, but for us who’ve landed in Holland (http://www.our-kids.org/Archives/Holland.html), we can identifiy with the loss of a dream.
Thank you for your honesty and bravery by sharing this story….it’s just what I needed today.
Here’s to Windmills 🙂
Jen 🙂
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. Congratulations on the birth of your gorgeous daughter!
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. Congratulations on the birth of your gorgeous daughter!
Emily says
I truly loved reading this and honestly it was like an answer to a prayer for me at this time. My sweet girl Macy (with DS) was born a bit over 2 years ago, and tomorrow I will deliver her little sister. As I prepare to welcome MY second girl, many of the difficult memories of her birth have come flooding back. Your story was mine in so many ways.
I know that you will be just fine, no WAY better than fine. The love that you have is so strong already and will continue to grow and grow as your sweet baby does and shows you more each day who she is.
Thank you for being brave to share your Nella. It has been passed to so many and really opened a lot of hearts, especially those who fear having a child like ours. You are already a voice to many! A club that rarely anyone wants to join but if you happen to do so, find that it is a great place to be.
I hope you don’t mind if I continue to share your story to my own friends and family!
Angie says
What a beautiful family. Thankyou for sharing your story.
Clare says
She is beautiful. They are beautiful. And so is your story. Thank you so much for sharing it.
Anonymous says
She IS beautiful and perfect! My daughter has Down syndrome too and you are so blessed, your life will never be the same in the most wonderful way. Thank you for sharing and congratulations.
Anonymous says
You are an incredibly wonderful mother. Your girls are beautiful. This story made me cry tears of joy. there is nothing like a mother’s love… and nothing like the love of your baby to make you realize what really matters in life. May God bless you all! you will be in my prayers!
Anonymous says
That was so amazing to read. Congratulations and thank you so much for sharing! My fourth baby is named Lainey, your daughter is the only one I’ve ever heard of 🙂
Emily says
That was so amazing to read. Congratulations and thank you so much for sharing! My fourth baby is named Lainey, your daughter is the only one I’ve ever heard of 🙂
DownTownDan says
I would very much like to know you. Please visit my blog. Send me an email. I think we would have a lot to talk about:
downwithoz.blogspot.com
Mommy Gator says
Your story is absolutely amazing! Thank you so much for sharing this with the world! Nella is beautiful! She is so blessed to have a mother like you! I love how honest and raw this was! My eyes were filled with tears! Thank you again! God Bless you all!!
Anonymous says
I’m yet another stranger, incredibly blessed by your beautiful story. Thank you so much for taking the time to give this gift of your love, and your hope. I’m currently 17 weeks pregnant and your story touched me deeply. Like so many expectant mothers I’ve struggled to fend off worries and fears for my baby and for our future life together. Your story inspired me to love – deep, desperate love for my unborn child. And tonight I cannot wait to meet our little one … just as he or she is. Thank you.
no1pearlgirl says
Hi, You don’t know me, I found a link to your story.
Thank You immeasuarably for sharing your journey.
I cried and dried, cried and dried, sobbed, and smiled throughout your retelling. It is perfectly raw account many wouldn’t dare express, the first moments of grief or loss or nothingness before you come to terms with your precious perfect treasured cargo – and love her you do!
Even the way you treasure your pregnancy is something special I only dream about having as time goes on (5.5 months now)
Thank You sincerely.
Today I grew
Anonymous says
She is so beautiful, you are one lucky momma!! both your girls are just so precious! I am sure you have read this before but this (taken from a down syndrome site) has helped me many times over the years….
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this……
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away…because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
Anonymous says
She is so beautiful, you are one lucky momma!! both your girls are just so precious! I am sure you have read this before but this (taken from a down syndrome site) has helped me many times over the years….
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this……
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away…because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
Colton's Journey says
WOW. I cried while reading that amazing-raw-honest-beautiful story. We don’t choose our children they are chosen for us. The photography is awesome. what great memories and the way that your friend captured the moment is breathtaking.
my family says
Thisis the most beautiful post I have ever read. I have been crying (ok really sobbing) more than half way through…my family wants tok now what is wrong ha ha.
You have 2 beautiful little girls and they will have such a special bond as they grow older.
Your little one is a doll and you are all so blessed to have one another.
Shauna says
Beautiful!!!!!!
Anonymous says
this is one of the most beautiful things i’ve ever read.
Anonymous says
Congratulations on your beautiful family and thank you for this amazing story that brought tears to my eyes.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your story. Your daughters are beautiful!
Shawna says
You don’t know me, I don’t know you…but your story touched my heart and soul. I sit here crying tears of joy for you and your family. Congratulations on your precious miracle and your beautiful perfect family. God bless!
Anonymous says
Your story is probably the most raw, honest, and beautiful stories I have ever had the priviledge to read. Both of your daughters are perfect and beautiful. Thank you more than you’ll ever know for sharing your story. You are an amazing woman.
Anonymous says
You, your daughters, your friends & family, your story…it is all beautiful. Thank you for sharing this.
Sarah says
My sister just emailed me a link to your blog and prepped me to grab a tissue. But oddly I didn’t cry, I smiled. I smiled while reading the entire post because I felt there was something wonderful happening, and there was. Your baby bunny is absolutely beautiful and perfect in every way! As a nursery RN and IBCLC I’ve had the privilege of working with many moms who have stories similar to yours. Please know that you are in my prayers. God has entrusted you with an angel. If you ever need to talk I’m just a click away.
God’s blessings today and always,
Sarah 🙂
Lisa says
What a wonderful story, I am touched! I, too, am a mommy to two girls (2 and 9 months). Congratulations on your sweet Nella’s birth and may your heart continue to grow with love for that precious baby. You, and your daughters, are beautiful. Enjoy this special new time as a family of four!!!
Morgan says
Reading your story ripped open an old wound, one still freshly healed. My “Bear” (Barrett) is 14 months old and is the most beautiful and precious gift I’ve ever been given. You are right to say there are still a lot of tears to come but there is joy unbounded…love and joy I never knew I could feel. I grieve in stages for the child that could have been, but I rejoice daily for the child that is. Thank you for sharing your beautiful pictures and your honest experience.
Busted says
Thank you so much for sharing this…such a beautifully written memory. Congratulations on you beautiful, sweet little Nella. You’ve made me fall in love with her too.
Anonymous says
Congratulations on your sweet little girl! You have a gorgeous family, and what luck that four souls found each other perfectly in this world. I wish you a lifetime of only good things.
Anonymous says
You took me back, back to the day we welcomed our “bunny”. The fear, the desperation, the redemption. My god, it was like you lived in me and wrote my very experience. I thank you thank you thank you for putting into words what I never could. For reminding me where we started and seeing where we are now, for your honesty and true love for your daughters. God bless you and your babies. The best days are yet to come, honest.
Belly says
A friend posted the link to your blog and this was my reply:
I am a freaking MESS. What a beautiful, heartbreaking, life-affirming, PERFECT beginning.
Your friend’s friend has many gifts, Mandy. Nella, of course. But oh, her ability to share her deepest heart this way, to wrap her own heart and words around me and wring me, a stranger, into tears. Wow.
And that photo? Of a smiling bunny? I want to frame it and hang it in my own home, own life, own heart. She is Heaven, smiling.
Kristine says
I honestly think that is the most beautiful post I’ve ever read. Thank you for sharing her with us.
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Angela says
Oh. My. Goodness.
I honestly can say that I have not cried that hard about a birth story other than my own. It is so eerily similar to my second son’s birth that I just still cannot stop crying. I am due w/my third son in seven weeks, and all these emotions and memories are just still amazingly fresh.
Wow. Just wow.
From one blessed mama to another.
🙂
Karen says
What a beautiful story and a beautiful family. Thank you for your honesty and courage to share. Congratulations! Both of your girls are so perfect, so loved, and so lucky to have such a wonderful mother with such a lovingly unconditional heart.
stephanie says
Someone passed this post on.I’m thankful they did.
Welcome to the club! The club no one asks to be in, but once you’re in, you can’t live without.
Keep writing your beautiful story.
Nella is a gem!
Ana says
Amazing story. I have felt everything you did when my daughter was Dx’d with a neurological condition that makes her blind among other things. Keep your chin up, Mama. I can’t promise it will be easy, but it will always be rewarding.
I have a couple of stories that got me through my rocky parts. If you’re interested, look up “The Special Mother” by Erma Bombeck and ‘Welcome to Holland.”
Enjoy that little girl!
Emily says
What a beautiful, true, and honest story. Blessings to you, your family, and your beautiful Nella.
~Em~
Jennie says
Kelle, that’s the most beautifully-written birth story I’ve ever read. And though we had a prenatal diagnosis with our sweet Micah (25mos old tomorrow), I remember those days in bold color.
Micah has a big brother, who was a bit over 2 years old when Micah was born. I had miscarried twins in between them and then endured a long 11 months before we conceived Micah. For many reasons, I know that he, specifically, is the child God wanted in our family.
Micah is also a big brother to another boy (surprise!) who turned one yesterday. So Micah is sort of like the inside of a sandwich that someone else made for you. It’s much yummier than the sandwich you were planning on making. Doesn’t a sandwich always taste better when someone else makes it? 🙂
Anyway… I grieved the loss of all the plans I made in my mind about our family. And it took time for me to see how much of my desires were based on our society’s views of perfection.
Micah lights up a room. You can’t help but be drawn to his infectious smile. I wish I had known about that part of him a long time ago. But then, it wouldn’t have been the same journey, would it?
Nella is absolutely beautiful. I look forward to reading more of your journey.
Anonymous says
Such a wonderful memoir you have written. I loved reading it. You put into words so beautifully how I felt when my son was diagnosed with Autism. God bless you and your family. You’re precious daughters are so blessed to have you as their mother!
Casey says
What a truely amazing story. You are amazing. Your daughters are amazing…..Thank you for sharing your story.
Grateful for Grace says
This is truly the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. It defines motherhood. It defines love. It defines family.
You persevered through the self… to the real love. Congratulations.
On that successs. And on the beautiful daughter that you truly were chosen to raise.
It’s obvious why.
Anonymous says
Congratulations on the birth of your darling little girl! I am a fourth grade teacher in a small school in Indiana. I have had one student with Down syndrome in my classroom. Believe me, he taught me and my class so much…how to accept; how to love unconditionally; how to enjoy life just for the pure sake of enjoying it. We have a group called DSANI (Down Syndrome Association of Northeast Indiana). Each October, we walk on the first Saturday to raise funds for research, etc. It is the most uplifting experience for me and my students. They see that people with Down syndrome are people first and people with Down syndrome second. My little guy’s mom came in and spoke to our grade level about how much more alike he is to them than different. This spoke volumes. Just remember, you were chosen for this gift…that makes you pretty special indeed!
Anonymous says
Your story is beautiful. Thank you for sharing. I read it with tears streaming down my face.
Stacy
Salem, OR
Trish says
This is the most amazingly beautiful, honest, brave, wonderful birth story I’ve ever read.
Thank you so much for sharing your story, her story and the amazingly beautiful pictures.
Anonymous says
Am I the only one who thinks this is one of the most horrifying things I have ever read? Here I was thinking…oh no, oh no, she’s lost her child. Her child died during labor or shortly thereafter. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I read that it was Down Syndrome. Not death. Not life threatening. Not a death sentence…
This is a slap in the face to those of us who have walked the road of pregnancy and FULL TERM STILLBIRTH. When we thought we would be taking our children home with us, we left without them.
I am just completely flabbergasted that you would build up the beginning of the post, I really thought your child had died.
And now, you have her home with you. What grief is worse than the death of a child?
I’m sorry she’s not what you expected and you probably are grieving the loss of expectations.
Seriously, though, this was such a slap in the face to those of us who walk the road of infant death.
I’m truly disgusted.
Anonymous says
Am I the only one who thinks this is one of the most horrifying things I have ever read? Here I was thinking…oh no, oh no, she’s lost her child. Her child died during labor or shortly thereafter. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I read that it was Down Syndrome. Not death. Not life threatening. Not a death sentence…
This is a slap in the face to those of us who have walked the road of pregnancy and FULL TERM STILLBIRTH. When we thought we would be taking our children home with us, we left without them.
I am just completely flabbergasted that you would build up the beginning of the post, I really thought your child had died.
And now, you have her home with you. What grief is worse than the death of a child?
I’m sorry she’s not what you expected and you probably are grieving the loss of expectations.
Seriously, though, this was such a slap in the face to those of us who walk the road of infant death.
I’m truly disgusted.
amig says
Your daughters are beautiful and so are you. Thank you so much for sharing.
lauren morrison says
I was so touched by your story. That was my story last April. I am so thankful that your were brave enough to share this! It helps to know that we are not alone. I thought your story was beautiful. I can truly empathize with you. I feel nothing but joy now. Thank you again for sharing!
Sean and Sierra says
To the anonymous person who wrote the HORRIBLE message a few post up: you are a sick and horrible person for writing what you wrote and you obviously have ZERO sympathy in your heart for other people. You disgust me!
To Kelle,
I think you are wonderful for being so honest. Your post brought tears to my eyes and joy to my heart. Thank you for talking about this. I work in special education and my special needs students bring me great joy and I know that Nella will forever bring happiness to your home!
Veronica says
Thank you thank you thank you for sharing this. You are truly a lucky and blessed woman. Your daughter Nella is so beautiful. I am just bawling right now.
Rachel says
What amazing and beautiful honesty. Your courage has moved and inspired so many.
Eve and Milo's Mom says
What an amazing birth story. Your daughters are so beautiful.
Kara says
This was one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
Mandy says
I found your post from a friend. I needed your story tonight. Thank you so much for sharing. You have two beautiful daughters.
Anonymous says
You are AMAZING with your honesty and rawness and your GIRLS are BEAUTIFUL! Congratulations on your new addition!
Wendy says
Your words are beautiful, as are those photos, but especially your family!
Much love to you all.
x
Cameron says
I don’t know you and I’ve never even been to your blog before, but I came here tonight after seeing a link on Twitter. I sobbed my way through this story and just had to thank you for telling it. It is brave and wonderful and beautiful and true. Congratulations on your beautiful girls and your new journey!
Anonymous says
I think you are one of the most beautiful, amazing, and graceful women if ever be blessed to know of. You were chosen to take on this challenge because you are so strong. This post has been more of an inspiration to me that you can ever possibly know.
Many prayers and blessing to you and your perfect family for years and years to come.
Happily Ever After says
“Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
Your whole birth story moved me to tears but those words I quoted above are what really stood out. What a blessing this little one will be to you and your family and what a lucky girl she is to have you for her mama!
You have such a way with words, thank you so much for sharing such a sacred experience with the many hearts you’ve touched.
Happily Ever After says
“Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
Your whole birth story moved me to tears but those words I quoted above are what really stood out. What a blessing this little one will be to you and your family and what a lucky girl she is to have you for her mama!
You have such a way with words, thank you so much for sharing such a sacred experience with the many hearts you’ve touched.
Brandi says
Thank God for people like you Kelle. Nella is so beautiful and this story of her birth is still making me cry. I have never felt such an amazing feeling before. It is the sheer love of God, and that is exactly what you have in your life… His love. I hope you feel that always! Thank you for having this open to share with everyone! May your life always be filled with sun and joy.
Much love,
Brandi Pitts
Anonymous says
Thank you thank you thank you.
Donal Miller and my pastor are friends so he comes to our church in Hollywood a lot. All the girls love him.
And I love you and your girls and the old friend who passed your beautiful story to me. My son Gideon was born Dec 15, and when I read it as I held him, I cried and cried.
There are no accidents. This is happening FOR you , not to you (I know you know that now).
Anonymous says
I wonder if the way you felt is the way my mom felt when she gave birth to my sister? Thank you for your words. I am the big sister like Lainey is, to two amazing sisters who show me everyday what strength is. It will be ok Thank you for sharing your words…so real,raw and beautiful.
Sanchez says
The anonymous poster who ridiculed Kelle is a dispicable person! How could you say such a horrible thing? The shock of having this new special baby may not be the same grief as losing a child, but it is still grief worthy. How shameful of this person! No wonder that person posted anonymously. Kelle, you are wonderful, and how you told your story was just perfect! Having such a publicized story will have some backlash! And that is why I am so proud of your bravery!
arealriotgirl says
I cried all the way through this! Sad tears, happy tears, lots of tears. Nella is a beautiful gift. She’ll teach you to see life in an entirely new way. Your pictures are beautiful! I love the portrait of the two of you smiling! I saved it so I can look at it whenever I want. I wish you and your family a long, happy, healthy life together!
Anonymous says
wow beautiful story! Beautiful family. Loved all the pics and how they went with the blog! You are blessed!!!
Anonymous says
Your daughter is the most beautiful baby girl I have EVER seen! I wish I could just squeeze her she is SO cute!!
kimsueellen says
love your baby’s story. srsly, thank you for sharing. you are beautiful…nella is beautiful.
thank you for sharing her perfect beauty with us.
Beverly says
oh, what a beautiful story. i cried reading it. congrats on you sweet baby girl. thanks for sharing your story.
love says
oh, she is gorgeous.
both of your precious, perfect, little girls are!!
when i read that part about “if you could hold her” i’d understand….i can SEE that in your beautiful pictures. i can see how you could snuggle that sweet baby girl all day long and fall in love. she is precious.
thank you so much for sharing this.
Anonymous says
God bless you all. Thank you, I am so inspired by you.
Annie says
First of all, a selfish comment: THANK YOU. Just, thank you. I envy the inner and outer beauty of a person like you, and I strive to meet the standards. Looking at the simply amazing photos, my heart MELTED a million times over! I could go on forever with praise and thanks. Congratulations on everything. Your story and words prove you are more than deserving of such divine happiness!! And your girls, OH your beautiful, precious, amazing girls . . . perfect in every way. Take care and enjoy!
Erica says
I have never in my life read anything to bring me to so many hard tears. Bless you in your honesty and pure emotions. Thank you for your strength to write this. Although I am not a Mother, I think I understand the anticipation or crescendo of pregnancy leading to the birth. We have 9 months of planning, dreaming and admiring the person that will be born of our form and flesh. When the dream becomes reatlity and reality is so different than the dream…it is hard. In any life situation the dream to reality it is hard. But YOU obviously have the strength and love your little girl needs from you. You will carry on watching out for her and loving her in the way she needs to be loved. I wish you great patience and love. Congratulations on your new little love.
Anonymous says
Wow! What an amazing story, start to finish. Beautiful story, beautifully written and photographed. I don’t remember the last time I read something so heartfelt and purely honest. Your girls are gorgeous and perfect. Enjoy, and thank you for sharing such a deeply emotional and personal experience.
Monica says
Really , really an amazing story! She is absolutey precious and so lucky to have been placed in your hands by God. I bet she knows she has a special place to fill 🙂 You can see it in her eyes…she has alot to teach people. Totally and completely! God Bless you all!
Michelle says
to the person grieving a miscarriage, sometimes that kind of pain clouds our thinking and makes us say and do things outside the pale. I will grant you the courtesy of believing your cruelty stems from that pain. BUT, you have a choice to read here or not to, and you obviously made that choice. Now you have a choice to step outside your own loss and recognize someone elses. Just because you dont know this pain doesnt mean it is not incredibly vibrantly real to those of us who’ve lived it. In fact, Kelle’s story was SO real for so many of us that a week later the comments continue to pour in from people who HAVE been there and do know it. By the way, her post is not whining or crying or depressing, it is celebrating the journey she is on. Im sure you can respect that getting a DS diagnosis is not easy. Again, my condolences for your loss. Because people like you have posted their experiences and I have read them in the past, I know that this loss for you was “not just a pregnancy” but the loss of the baby you imagined for 9 months, the loss of a dream, and the loss of something both tangible and intangible. I would hope you would find it in your hurting heart to recognize that for kelle.
Jem says
Oh my goodness, I am lost for words. What an utterly amazing birth story. And those photos of your beautiful girls. You are an amazing woman!
Vinca Leaf Quilts says
Thank you, thank you, thank you for posting your story. This is just what I needed today. <3
Mountain says
I stumbled upon your story this morning, and find myself typing to you with tears streaming down my face. You are a beautiful woman with a gorgeous, perfect family; and your sweet little bunny is so lucky to have you.
When my older, very disabled sister (blind, cerebral palsy) was born my mother felt the very same way you did. A good friend gave her an article written about how she was ‘chosen’ to raise that special baby, and to cherish that responsibility. My mother embraced the challenge, as you are, and that baby is now a 31 year old with a job, an apartment, and a dog. She is living the dream, and no doubt little Nella will too. . .cheers to you and your family.
Gisela says
Thank you for sharing your daughter’s beautiful story. You and your family are blessed!
Jennifer says
Your story is beautiful. I just can’t express enough how wonderful you wrote those words. I know God is honored to have given you such a special gift. What a wonderful mother you are. She is so beautiful. What a lucky little girl!
Anonymous says
I am in your older daughter’s shoes… and have been since I was 5. My precious little brother has down’s syndrome, and he has a piece of my heart forever.
Our lives together have been different than other brothers and sisters… I have been his protector, and I have been able to understand him and his needs better than even my parents at times.
Yes, your daughters’ sisterly relationship will be different.. but it will be deeper, more meaningful, more wonderful than you can imagine.
My little brother, Aaron, has taught me more than I could ever teach him.
Emily says
Wow, thank you for your honesty. And thank you for sharing this beautiful story of your family. This impacted me in a way words cannot convey. May God continue to bless your family! Congratulations. :o)
April Swenby says
This is a beautiful and well written story. I love your bravery at sharing your true, true feelings. I lost my son to a fatal birth defect – I remember praying for the gift of Down Syndrome – just so I’d be given the chance to keep him. I too, remember being taught unconditional love through the eyes of my other children – it was as if Jesus was in the room with us. Beautiful story and thank you for sharing.
Lisa says
A friend sent me the link to your blog. I just spent the morning reading about your new life with your girls. Thank you for sharing this beautiful story! I wish you and your family all of the happiness you could ever imagine.
Kerri says
Wow. Just wow. No words will ever do this post justice. What a beautiful woman you are, and what amazing daughters you have.
Wow.
Stacy Ann says
I have heard that ds children are the most innocent and loving children of all. You are truly blessed! Congratulations:)
Anonymous says
What an amazing story. Congratulations on your beautiful family.
Kathy McCreedy says
My daughter sent me a link to your blog and told me to hold on, I’d need some kleenex. She wasn’t kidding. You’ve documented your story beautifully and honestly, and I’ve got a pile of kleenex next to me. My heart goes out to you, I cannot imagine anyone handling this so graciously, and I know you worry you didn’t. But you did and I’m confident you will continue to. Sending you lots and lots of love,
Kathy
Kathy McCreedy says
My daughter sent me a link to your blog and told me to hold on, I’d need some kleenex. She wasn’t kidding. You’ve documented your story beautifully and honestly, and I’ve got a pile of kleenex next to me. My heart goes out to you, I cannot imagine anyone handling this so graciously, and I know you worry you didn’t. But you did and I’m confident you will continue to. Sending you lots and lots of love,
Kathy
Kathy McCreedy says
My daughter sent me a link to your blog and told me to hold on, I’d need some kleenex. She wasn’t kidding. You’ve documented your story beautifully and honestly, and I’ve got a pile of kleenex next to me. My heart goes out to you, I cannot imagine anyone handling this so graciously, and I know you worry you didn’t. But you did and I’m confident you will continue to. Sending you lots and lots of love,
Kathy
Kathy McCreedy says
My daughter sent me a link to your blog and told me to hold on, I’d need some kleenex. She wasn’t kidding. You’ve documented your story beautifully and honestly, and I’ve got a pile of kleenex next to me. My heart goes out to you, I cannot imagine anyone handling this so graciously, and I know you worry you didn’t. But you did and I’m confident you will continue to. Sending you lots and lots of love,
Kathy
The Psycho Mama says
I know you know this now,but I just have to tell you myself. Nella does not look funny. She is perfect. She is absolutely beautiful. And not in the way that all babies are beautiful, that all people are beautiful. She is really, truly a breath-taking beauty. Honest.
Jenny says
Hi Kelle,
Thank you for sharing your story. I love the pictures. I found your blog through a suggestion made on Reeces Rainbow yahoo group (down syndrome adoption ministry). These children are perfect and many of us there have adopted chidren who have DS and many advocate for them because we have been touched by their wonderful spirit. God Bless a big hug!
Anonymous says
Your story is so inspiring and it really touched me. Congratulations on having two *beautiful* girls. You’re an amazing woman.
Anonymous says
I am so moved by Nella’s birth story. This is the most beautiful, inspirational, emotional thing I have ever read. May God bless you and Nella. You are very lucky.
Peggy says
So beautiful. As someone who went through the same emotions 5 1/2 years ago, it once again validated my feelings at the time. I too thought about just running away from it all. I just treasure the picture of you with everyone toasting. I remember having that same feeling as the look on your face. That look of shock and trying to look like all is perfect while everything else goes on. You have come to terms much more quickly then I did but somehow, while some take longer then others, our perfect children show us the way.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your birth story. Both of your daughters are beautiful and perfect.
Ps. You look so pretty even after giving birth =)
What a beautiful family!
Beth says
Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl! I love your honesty. I admire your strength.
You have a gorgeous, perfect family!
Anonymous says
Beautiful! Thank you sharing this. I felt like I was reading my story, only I could have never said it so well.
Amy, queen of the world. says
I’m sure, 440something comments later, you won’t actually read this. And that’s okay. But I just had my sweet angel with Ds on December 29th (your birthday, apparently!). We knew about the Ds beforehand. He also had to have surgery the day after he was born, and we knew that was coming too. In the month that we spent in the NICU, my husband and I often talked about what it would have been like if we didn’t know about the Ds before our son’s birth. How we would have coped if all these things were thrown at us as a surprise. You painted a beautiful picture of what it would have been like if we didn’t know. We don’t know each other, and in fact this is the first time I’ve ever visited your blog, but I feel happy that we’re both going on this journey at the exact same time.
Your daughter is beautiful. Congratulations, mama! 🙂
Summerstarr says
Your story is wonderfully well written, and full of so much raw emotion – so moving! Thank you much for sharing. I have tears of pain and joy streaming down my own cheeks as I respond here….
Congratulations on your beautiful little girl!
She is a blessing and as she grows you will continue to recognize all the simple beautiful moments of motherhood that our precious babies present to us.
Nella will be a challenge, of that I have no doubt, but with those challenges you and she will both find pride like you have never experienced before. The simple little accomplishments will be even more of a celebration.
As the artist you are (both your writing and appreciation for photography in this post show me that you are) you are probably used to looking at the world in different perspectives – striving to see things in a fresh new way, grasping what your senses present to you. This will not change, it will be no different with your little Nella and the observations will bring a smile to your face.
Thank you again for sharing your story, and best wishes on the amazing journey you and your family are traveling!
Amy, queen of the world. says
I also wanted to add that there’s a most definite grieving process when you find out your baby isn’t going to be typical. And you don’t understand that unless you’ve been there. So I wouldn’t worry about any anonymous person using up their energy to criticize your grief. God willing, their children will all be perfectly healthy and they will never have to go through that grieving process. 🙂
You should submit your story to the next edition of “Gifts: Mothers Reflect on How Children with Down Syndrome Enrich Their Lives” by Kathryn Lynard Soper and Martha Sears.
amymulder says
Such a beautiful story and a beautiful about the special children that God blesses us with. I have a daughter with a learning disability and sometimes still struggle with the challenge that it still is at age 18 but God is good all the time. He gives me the strength for each new challenge and I know He will, too, for you. And you will experience exceeding joy in many, many things.
God Bless
Amy
Suzanne says
Kelle, Thank you for sharing your amazing story. God never makes mistakes, and your beautiful Nella and your loving family are a perfect testament to that.
Anonymous says
What a beautiful story, thank you so much for that! Your daughters are absolutely perfect, you are blessed!!!
Sarah says
I know that there are already 4 hundred and some messages already on here for you, but another can’t hurt – right?
I wanted to tell you that your blog is so beautiful. It is honest and it is real. I am in tears after reading it. I have a cousin with down’s syndrome and she is truely a blessing. She doesn’t know what hate is. She is full of love and kindness. You are amazingly lucky to have such a precious family. Your daughters are so beautiful.
Melissa says
Tears are streaming off my face. I needed this. I’m 16 weeks pregnant and have taken this pregnancy for granted. I’ve been complaining through the morning sickness and aches. How selfish I’ve been. I’m so ashamed. But reading this story has restored a new joy in my heart. I’m forever changed… I’ll never take this pregnancy for granted ever again… thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story.
Kristin says
This is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. I so appreciate your honesty and openness. My little brother was born with special needs so this really hit home for me. I am also 13 weeks pregnant with our first child 🙂 Thanks so much.
Jaimee says
So honest and real. You are a loving Mother. What beautiful little girls you have.
I am a Mother of 5 daughters. I have my own story of disconnection from a premature birth and the journey to loving her. I’m sad and ashamed I missed months with her.
Thank you for posting your story.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your life with us like this! I have honestly wondered how I would react or what I would feel in a similar situation. I feel now that if it should ever happen to me that I would know it was ok to mourn the loss of what I had dreamt up in my head but would know that great things are to come! You had me when you said “Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me” From there on I knew you would be ok and that I would be too! Congrats! She is just absolutely beautiful as is the rest of your family!
Linnea says
What an amazing, beautiful story. Thank you so much for sharing this with the world.
Anonymous says
Oh my goodness, I have never met you, but your inspiring blog was posted on the bump. I have tears streaming down my face at your beautifully written story. I dont think I will ever forget you. Thank you for blessing me!
Anonymous says
Oh my goodness, I have never met you, but your inspiring blog was posted on the bump. I have tears streaming down my face at your beautifully written story. I dont think I will ever forget you. Thank you for blessing me!
KittyKat says
Thank you so much for sharing your story and your beautiful daughters! My friend posted the link on her facebook, and warned not to visit it without a tissue handy. She was so right, your story is so beautiful and moving. I know it must have been so hard to lay everything out there, the beauty and the pain, the joy and the tears, but thank you!
Nella’s story is already blessing so many people! It’s incredible how someone so small can touch so many lives, and not even know it. Who knows what she will do as she grows? No one knows yet but anyone can see she is going to be amazing, spectacular, and fabulous in ways nobody could predict.
~gretchen~ says
this is such a beautiful story you shared and it has really touched me. nella is absolutley beautiful and amazing and you are so lucky to have her in your life and lainey will be such a good big sister to her! i can see it in her big girl eyes!
i had my son at 26 weeks. he weighed 2 lbs 6 oz. and he didnt cry when he was born. they wisked him away without even telling me if he was alive and i didnt see him for over 12 hours after that. he was tiny, sick and not breathing on his own. i felt like the worst mother, the worst WOMAN in the world. my body couldnt hold him any longer and didnt allow him to grow into the healthy baby i imagined him as. they told us he may not make it through the night and all i could think was, it was all my fault. over the days as he got better and than worse i spent many nights writhing in emotional agony also and when you described the night your daughter was born, it brought back so many memories. i was grieving my third trimester and my baby who could come home with me and who had some meat on his bones and who didnt need to be on a vent. it was the hardest time in my life but i soon was filled with the same happiness and joy and all the feelings you described here and isnt it just the most amazing feeling? we ARE lucky. we have these beautiful children and this amazing story and journey ahead of us! i feel like a better mother than i may have been if i didnt feel those feelings. i feel like a different person in a very good way. you are so strong and you are going to have a VERY fun life! you just wait and see! it will be breathtaking!
Anonymous says
Beautiful, beautiful story. Thank you for sharing. You have amazing friends and family. You are blessed.
Anonymous says
This is absolutely beautiful. Congratulations on your beautiful family and its newest addition.
Caroline says
I’m yet another stranger who was told about your blog entry on a mothering website. Your love and honesty are an inspiration to me. Nella is so very blessed. I know that someone told you that Nella was given to you for a reason, reading this entry nothing could be more true. For such a special child, well I can’t think of a family and a network of friends that will love and support her more. She is a lucky girl Thank you for sharing your story, tears and all, with us.
Tara Marie says
Welcome to our world Sweet Nella Cordelia ~ Thank you so very much for sharing your beautiful birth story…..you have touched me on so many levels.
You have begun an amazing journey ~ enjoy the many gifts that will be presented to you in many quiet and unique ways.
Peace and love, Tara Marie [Proud Momma to Emma Sage and her siblings.
Anonymous says
again, one-handed. i woke up thinking of you and nella and my friend liz and her beautiful and perfect boy, atlas, who was born with ds when liz was barely 30. she is an amazing woman- a singer with a bluesy voice (friends with sufyan stevens!), a christian, an artist, a great mama.
if you want her info, please email me.
shaunak22 at yahoo dot com.
KittyKat says
And just because I have now read the spineless anonymous comment, and cannot keep silent any longer:
I lost a baby boy. He came feet first, after having been head down for weeks prior. There was no way to know, no way to prepare. Due to complications during his birth, his brain was damaged, and though we prayed and begged for a miracle, that he would stay with us, no matter how many special needs he might have, it wasn’t to be. The day we should have been resting happily at home, getting to know our new baby, we spent talking to the funeral home about caskets. The day we should have been celebrating his first week of life, we put him in the ground. Each year on January first, while the world celebrates a new year, we remember his birth, and cry, and our hearts break all over again. It’s just another year he’s not here to make handprints on the walls, proudly bring slimy frogs in to show us, draw smudgy perfect “I love mommy and daddy” pictures, learn to ride a bike, write his name, drive a car…
Yes, there is no grief like the grief of burying your own child, but life is not about some sick *whose pain is worse?* contest. It’s about finding joy through the pain. For me that joy came in the birth of another child after our painful loss. For Nella’s family it is seeing the beauty and perfection of her, just the way she is. Perfect.
The week my youngest child was born, a friend of mine was also welcoming a baby girl, Lily is also a perfect, gorgeous baby girl, but in the weeks following her birth her parents began to have some questions, and found out Lily has DS. They went through the same grief-mixed-with-joy described here. Because they had to take all the hopes and dreams they had for Lily’s life and learn to accept their unexpected trip to Holland.
Is the pain of knowing your child has Down’s Syndrome a different pain than the death of a child? Absolutely. But it is pain nonetheless and rather than setting my own loss up as some paragon of hurt which accomplishes nothing and makes me less able to “weep with those who weep” I choose to recognize the hurt others go through, and the courage it takes to bare their very soul to the world.
I know all too well the pain of losing a child, but it is not an excuse for me to be cruel and hurtful in turn to others whose pain, while different from my own, is no less real and poignant in their own hearts.
Anonymous says
through heartfelt sobs, thank you. so much.
Anonymous says
Wow!!! I can tell you are a planner, a dreamer and yes, a perfectionist! Not to mention, you are one heck of a story teller…I have been blessed, like you, with what I affectionately call our violet, Patrick. I am ten years into the journey and it is a gorgeous one. 🙂 You are indeed blessed by both of your darling girls; but Nella will truly show you the way. She will allow you to make peace with the imperfect. And by that I mean, the “imperfect” as the outside world sees it. You will be blessed to get an insider’s view of the messy, unpredictable, breath-taking life of loving someone with Down Syndrome. And won’t Lainey be amazing as well!
Congratulations to your whole family! And if you haven’t read it yet, you might want to try “Roadmap to Holland” I think you and Jennifer might become fast friends. Looking forward to following your journey! Beth
Anonymous says
I don’t know you but you just touched my soul in a way that few people ever have. Your family is beautiful and I wish you all the happiness in the world!
The words that made me cry at my desk here at work were:
“I will never forget the moment her little sister was placed in her arms. I watched in agony…in tears…in admiration as my little girl taught me how to love. She showed me what unconditional love looks like…what the absence of stereotypes feels like…she was…
…proud.”
I too have a daughter and the way she loves her little brother is an inspiration.
Thank you for sharing,
Lotta
Lauren says
What a beautiful baby, beautiful bond, beautiful family, beautiful story and beautiful pictures!! My face is soaked in tears. Thanks for sharing.
Rachel says
this is the most beautiful thing I have ever read.
your little girl is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen because I have seen her through your eyes and your heart
to love unconditionally is the greatest gift we can give and receive and it all happened with your children
everyone should have such a loving and gorgeous and strong mother such as you
and everyone should be so lucky to have a child that opens up a whole new world that so many will not ever be able to see
congratulations on your sister girls….and thank you for reminding me that the family you build, the story you tell and the children you love are the most sacred thing bestown upon us….and what is different about all of our family units is what makes it special – because it was designed just for us.
you are so lucky to have been given this exact little soul to love..and she is so lucky to have you
PhotoMom says
…your bunny is BEAUTIFUL !!!
Anonymous says
I can’t even say how much this post has moved me. This is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read on the internet. Congratulations on the birth of Nella. She is beautiful, and you are all so lucky to have each other. -Becky
Poppa says
Such beautiful comments, supportive messages and heartfelt encouragement–I know Kelle and all the family are sustained and lifted by them. And the sole comment that came from a wounded heart–that person is not a horrible person, just a hurting person. Our own grief is our own–while feeling it, we cannot really understand another’s. To one whose arms are empty and whose heart weeps, it is hard to hear the cries of another who still holds a child. My prayers are with that one whose crib is empty.
I know Kelle heard what you were really saying–and cries with you.
I know because I am her dad.
Jaime V. says
Oh, how wonderful. God is so good, thank you for the reminder! My science teacher in 9th grade told me something I’ll never forget. She said babies with Downs Syndrome are God’s special angels. They are born with His capacity to love that the rest of us can only envy. Love her up good now, because pretty soon, she’s going to be giving more love than you (or me or most anyone!) could ever hope to give back. I am so happy for you and Brett and Lainey. Even though I don’t know you, I look forward to keeping up online! Keep up your amazing mothering, and thanks for your honest story.
Shell says
That was beautiful.
Anonymous says
My special girl is now 23. How fast the years have gone by. She too is my 2nd girl. My oldest being the blonde darling as yours is. My little Kendall, with her fiery red hair–and her precious face with Down syndrome.
I felt those raw emotions you felt. I was handed her in the delivery room, to have the exact surprise and reaction you had–and before anyone else noticed. I felt sorry for her older sister, who wouldn’t have a ‘normal’ sibling. And–was saved by utter dispair by a husband’s strong words and love–and our pediatrician who also told me my baby was beautiful–and needed her mommy to love her.
At 23–our Kendall is still our joy. LOVE. That’s the word that describes her. She’s caring, funny, resourceful–and beautiful.
Those first few days of her journey of life was hard on me–my ego, my emotions. But–as the days grew on, that journey was quickly turned to joy and love. Nella will change your life in many ways. But it’s a journey that will fill you with such love and compassion that you never knew you had in your soul. Even still–23 years later–I wouldn’t change this amazing journey we’ve been on. Kendall is loved by her siblings (her older sister–and a younger sister by 4 years), adored by family–and treasured by me.
Enjoy Nella. Love her. Show her off. And get ready for a lifetime of love that you have never imagined possible. All for having your sweet Nella. Congratulations to your new baby.
Bless you all—Peggy Giacalone (CA)
~ jessica says
Your honesty and candor are so beautiful to read, and so appreciated. Your daughters are gorgeous. Blessings on your family.
Mindi Fried says
Thank you for a beautiful birth story – I’m crying, sobbing in fact as I read your journey and Nella’s story. Thank you for sharing it. Your family is beautiful and perfect.
Jen Pinch says
Well now… I don’t know what my co-workers will think when I come out of my office after lunch with puffy eyes and a red nose, but I don’t care one bit! Your story moved me to tears (unashamedly sobbing, to be honest). Sharing such raw emotion and such a real journey. Thank you for being brave and honest with your story. Your beautiful daughters are so very blessed to belong to you. What a joy your bunny will be!
Love,
Jen
Jeremy and Mindy says
I’ve cried beautiful tears for you. Thank you for writing this. I will be following along your story. Nella is gorgeous.
Jeremy and Mindy says
I’ve cried beautiful tears for you. Thank you for writing this. I will be following along your story. Nella is gorgeous.
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Laura says
She is beautiful & so lucky to have you as a mom! When the tough times come, remember how you feel now :0) And I must say, you looked great right after having a baby! Thank-you for sharing your story.
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Bridget says
I came to you through Dig this Chick.
Nella is beautiful and will light your world up!
Your story gave me insight into what my godmother may have felt when her son was born. I admit I never thought about it before- because I was 10 when he was born and was too young to have ever seen anything but happiness over him. I am sure she went through what you did – and I love her even more knowing what an amazing mom she turned out to be.
I am so excited for your journey – it’s going to be a fun one!
Stacey says
this is the most beautiful and emotionally moving thing that i have ever read on the web.
Anonymous says
Thanks for sharing your amazing and beautiful story! Nella is very blessed to have you as her mom.
Anonymous says
I have never read something so beautiful and honest. You are such an amazing mother and your daughters are so incredibly lucky to have been born to you. Your girls are gorgeous (as are you!). Thank you for sharing your story.
M and E says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful journey of yours, it truly gives me hope and peace.
harris family journeys says
Wow. All I can say is wow. I found your post through a DS support group on yahoo for parents who adopt and rescue children with DS from other countries (www.reecesrainbow.com) Your post is beautiful, raw, honest and inspiring. On December 7th, 2009 I arrived home after 24 hours of pure hell traveling from Ukraine to Birmingham, AL with our two new baby boys, both with Down syndrome. We have three biological “healthy” children that are wonderful and beautiful and most everyone I know thinks I have lost my mind to seek out this for my family. Let me tell you, I feel sure that my reaction would have been similar to yours had this “happened” to us with one of our birth children. But, as I sit here reading this post snuggling my precious 4 year old with DS and kissing his little flat nose and his fat little toes while his beautiful baby brother with DS naps all I feel is blessed and also “chosen” albeit in a slightly different way. Our lives have been so enriched by extra chromosomes the past couple of months and I cannot wait to live this life with these two beautiful children. You truly are blessed more than you will ever know. Thanks for sharing.
Jolie Harris
http://www.harrisfamilyjourneys.blogspot.com
All 4 My Gals says
My 2nd daughter has T21 too! She is now 10 years old, and they have been the best 10 years of my life. We call her our medicine. We went on to have two more daughters after Tarenne.. so we have a house full of 4 little girls. She is by far my easiest child, very independent, funny, intelligent and so loving. She is the best teacher. I see Nella already is teaching and producing miracles all around her.
You truly have a beautiful family! I look forward to following your journey!
Nicole ~ Mom to Tarenne
femimystic says
I don’t have the pleasure of knowing you personally…I actually read your story through a friend’s facebook post, and then I reposted it on my own for all my friends.
What a beautiful, honest telling of an emotional journey-raw and true.
She chose you to be her mom for a reason, and you both will learn so many wonderful lessons together.
Blessings on you and your family.
Marcie Macari
Author of: “She Births: A Modern Woman’s Guidebook for An Ancient Rite of Passage”
http://www.shebirths.com
Creator of:
Bloomin’ Belly Soaps
http://www.bloominbellysoaps.com
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Jennifer says
Thank you, thank you, thank you for your honesty. Nella and Lainey are so lucky to have a mom who isn’t afraid to be brutally honest — or maybe is afraid but does it anyway. And I wish I could have even a fraction of your clarity just a week after birth. It’s been 22 months and I’m still not sure I could put into words what I felt when my son was born.
All the best to you and your family.
Jennifer in Texas
Anonymous says
This is an amazing story. I am 33 weeks pregnant with my own little girl and your story reminded me that whatever she is like she will be perfect, just as your girls are perfect. Thank you for sharing it all.
Anonymous says
Amazing Congratulations for you and your husband. Your little girls are beautiful and so very lucky to have you both. There are not enough words for me to express what reading your story did to me. I am so moved and feel so much love for my family, from reading about yours, that I feel lik my heart wants to burst out of my chest. I had forgotten what that felt like. Thank you for the reminder. Thank you so much for sharing your story – wishing you all the best. Thank you again –
Carrie says
Beautiful. Overused? maybe. But definitely not any less true. I haven’t stopped thinking about Nella since I saw this blog yesterday. Her little smile has melted my heart. If I’m ever blessed with a daughter, I hope she’s even half as wonderful.
Anonymous says
This is such a beautiful and touching story! BOTH of your girls are absolutely adorable! You are so strong and Brave. Your little one is so lucky to have you for a Mom!
FBF Rothkopf says
Beautifully written, gorgeous pictures, wonderful LOVE.
Welcome to “The Family” – this amazing group of people around the world who all share the best secret, the secret of how wonderful it is to have someone with Down syndrome in our family.
My own princess is almost 5 years old now, but your story brought back images of our own birth-story, different but still with the same love.
Enjoy both your girls.
Francine
2 Pirates & a Princess
http://fbfrothkopf.blogspot.com
Anonymous says
Your story and family are so beautiful! Congratulations on your gorgeous daughters.
Jessica@The Southern Belle Baby says
This was so heartbreaking and so beautiful at the same time. Congratulations on your beautiful little girls.
danyel says
just beautiful
all of it
Anonymous says
thank you for sharing such an honest and lovely story. I’d love to introduce you to another truly amazing mom…
http://www.trisacharm.blogspot.com
http://www.savingsofia.blogspot.com
xo Joslyn
http://www.soIwasalllike.com
AimeeTheSuperMom says
She is stunning. It seems, as mothers of children with special needs (two of mine are very Deaf), we are blessed with an emotional armor and hearts that can withstand the stretching to wrap around and protect the angels God blesses us with. A good friend shared a quote with me that has stuck: “It doesn’t take a special family to raise a special needs child. It takes a special needs child to make a special family.” Your Nella is shaping you and molding you into the majesty you were born to become. May you be blessed.
Rebecca says
Nella is beautiful and perfect. Thank you for sharing your story.
Jena Allison says
Thank you, thank you for sharing your story. I turned 31 in October myself and thought I had 4 more “safe” years of pregnancy ahead of me. From 4 months on with this baby we were told we had a higher risk of the baby having Downs, though they wouldn’t be sure unless we did an amnio. We opted not to and decided to wait and see when the baby was born. 5+ months of worry is not good on anyone, and I spent most of the pregnancy expecting the worst. She was born 1/27/10 and I didn’t want to put too much hope in the pediatrician when he was certain she didn’t have Downs. After more than a week of sleepless newborn nights, which I am sure you are just as familiar with, I was feeling rather sorry for myself today. Poor me, first-time Mom, worn out from lack of sleep. Then I came across your Blog. And you gave me a healthy dose of something I desperately needed: a TRUE example of love. I can’t thank you enough for sharing your story. I applaud your strength, your honesty, and your heart. May Heavenly Father bless you and your family as you have mine. 🙂
Tina says
Thank you for sharing your story. Your daughter and your words are beautiful. I can see the love in the photos of the two of you. Just lovely.
Marcie says
What a beautiful soul you are…she is amazingly beautiful.
Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing] says
Congratulations!
Teresa Howard says
Your special bunny has a special mama indeed. How courageous for sharing the true feelings- and what an inspiration to others who walk your journey. I had a son who was born with special needs and 16 operations later is a strong, grown man now. I remember my journey- the tears- the fears. Bunny will remain special but she will make your life more full than any other little girl would have done… yours and your Lainey’s and your Brett’s.. and the village of friends you have holding your arms up- keeping you strong along the way. My prayers will remain with you!
Lorena Sims says
I don’t know you. And you don’t know me from Adam. But I feel compelled to comment that this was the most beautifully honest, touching birth story I’ve ever read. Congratulations on your beautiful family.
Fyreflie1980 says
I’m an RN in Labour and Delivery, and I forwarded this to all of my friends after reading it! It’s such whirlwind of emotion and sound and sometimes we all forget to stop and take a breath and remember that we are all exactly where we are meant to be.
My mother always reminds me that a Crisis is a “Dangerous Opportunity” and it seems you have found the opportunity in your crisis–thanks for the reminder that hearts know better than minds. I’ll continue to share your story and continue to follow your beautiful pictures of your girls. Congratulations on a beautiful, perfect family!
Monica Crumley says
Thank you for your honest and warm story. I cried real, deep, emotional tears reading your story because it reminds me so much of giving birth to my 4th child, John Michael, 2 years ago. In such a short time, you’ve already come so far. I loved your photos and reading your journey. Your girls are beautiful… what lucky sisters to have each other! Come visit us sometime… http://www.monicacrumley.blogspot.com and see our busy blonde boy.
Midwest Girl says
A friend of mine put your blog as a link on hers, I clicked and read the whole thing. I am not a mother (am hoping to be one some day) but I know love and beauty. You have it all.
I’ve also worked with a lot of Downs children, they are the sweetest kids on the planet. Not a bad bone in their body. They are so lovable, endearing, honest, funny.
Congratulations on such a gorgeous family. Both your daughters are stunningly beautiful.
And you, I don’t think I’ve ever seen another mother look as ravishing as you did in your birthing photos. Well done!
And every day remember, it only gets better from here!
The Sanchez Family says
Beutifully story, I still remember that feeling of wanting to run away, to take it all back. I remember lying with my two older sons in their bed reading a book to them, the words coming out of my mouth but my mind in a deep hole of pain and loneliness. Our diagnosis didn’t come until 3 month after Joaquin’s birth, but we knew. How can something that hurts so bad turn out to be the most amazing gift? God is wise! Thanks for sharing…
Lee of MWOB says
You are so right. This baby is a gift. I am crying my heart out over here after reading your beautifully honest and real account of when Nella entered your world. And now she has entered all of ours. Because that sweet face of hers and the pure innocence of her soul has touched me deeply.
What a family you are.
Congratulations….you and your gorgeous family will teach many. About life, love, and why dirty grout means nothing.
🙂
Thank you for sharing…
Anonymous says
Wow…what an absolutely beautiful story. Thank you for sharing the amazing story of Nella!
She is such a beautiful little girl and is so blessed to have such a wonderful mom, dad, and big sister.
Your story touched me in such a profound way…God has blessed you with your sweet little baby girls and you are about to embark on such a wonderful adventure.
Thank you again for sharing your story.
Megan and Drew says
Happy Birthday, sweet Nella! How lucky you are to have a mom who loves you so much!
Danielle says
What a beautiful journey that you have started and a real inspiring story for its beginning. Thank you for sharing. This is not one I will forget any time soon……
Charla says
This is so beautiful. Thank God that Nella is also blessed with you for a Mother, thank you so much for sharing your precious daughters birth story with us.
melissa says
Nella has been born to our world for a reason. She is a beautiful little girl with the whole world her of her with you and your family by her side.YOU have been chosen to be HER mother LUCK YOU!
brandi hamerstone says
That was amazing, that was magical, wonderful to read, thank you for your honesty and for sharing, it means more than you’ll ever know.
brandi hamerstone says
That was amazing, that was magical, wonderful to read, thank you for your honesty and for sharing, it means more than you’ll ever know.
Jenny Rebaldo says
Your daughters are so beautiful. What a lucky momma you are to be trusted with such precious gifts!!
Leendaluu says
Beauty, pure beauty. In words, in pictures and in love. May you all have many, many happy years ahead of you and I look forward to the telling of your tale.
drawingcowboys says
She’s absolutely beautiful, and its lovely to see Lainey dote on her. Congratulations!
Anonymous says
I cried as I read your story last night. It was filled with so much love. Your daughters are blessed to have you as a mother. I was thinking about you all day and I send you love & prayers. You are an inspiration!
Linda Devlin says
Absolutely beautiful story and baby!! It brought me happy tears.
Extremely moving!
Congratulations on your little miracle 🙂
Perfect little daughters.. you are so very lucky!
thank you for sharing your story.
Susan the Singer says
Wow. I think this is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever read. It’s honest and raw and lovingly beautifully perfect.
When will the book be published?
Thank you for allowing humble wanderers like me to stumble across your story.
Your girls are growing up wiht a marvelous mom.
Anonymous says
I am a mommy in Florida, and I was given the link to your blog. First, congratulations.
Second, thank you…you have renewed my faith in humanity.
Third, your little one is perhaps the most beautiful child I have ever had the privilege of seeing. Thank you!
Anonymous says
Thank you for your story! It was beautiful! Both of your girls are precious!
Anonymous says
Thank you for your story! It was beautiful! Both of your girls are precious!
Anonymous says
Thank you for your story! It was beautiful! Both of your girls are precious!
DereknCindy says
This is a beautiful birth story with amazing photos, your family is gorgeous. what a wonderful support system you have!
Anonymous says
you and your family are gorgeous. congratulations on the birth of your new little girl and thank you for sharing this amazing story.
Jaurne says
You sound really happy. What i like about your story is that you wrote exactly what you thought and how you felt with all honesty. You didn’t lie and said “i fell in love the very minute i saw her”. Reading someone being honest about their first reaction, fear, pain, rejection, and how they slowly yet fast learnt to love that baby, is the real beautiful thing about this story.
Congratulations to you and your family, wish you the best.
Anonymous says
You are an absolutely amazing and gifted writer. You are an inspiration, best wishes to you and your entire family.
Cathy says
Wow! What an incredibly touching story. And to have someone close to you to capture every moment in pictures. “They” say a picture is worth 1000 words. The pictures you shared certainly were worth more than that. May God’s Blessings continue to pour out on you and your family.
Amy says
Thanks so much for writing this. My friend and I were pregnant at the same time last year(her second, my third). Her birth story is your birth story. Her grief, growth and acceptance of the amazing blessing that is her daughter is the same as yours. God bless you and your family as you embark on your journey as a family of four.
kaciewor says
I don’t even know you, but that was truly one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. Thank you for sharing and may God bless you and your family ♥
Amy Julia Becker says
Dear Kelle,
Thanks so much for sharing your beautiful story. I have a 4-year old daughter, Penny, with a similar story. She is the greatest joy I have ever known. And yet, after she was born, I did need to grieve those earlier expectations. It was an ugly grief because it exposed all sorts of things about me that I would rather not know. And yet those things have changed. My grief has turned into joy. My mourning to dancing. Dancing with my daughter, my gorgeous, talented, smart, wonderful daughter. If you ever want to be in touch, I blog at http://www.amyjuliabecker.blogspot.com, and you can email me at amyjuliabecker@gmail.com. You and your family have just been unexpectedly admitted into a very exclusive club of people. Welcome.
And blessings to you,
Amy Julia
Heather says
Your story is beautiful. Thank you. You are truly an inspiration. Your honesty is gut-wrenching, and refreshing, and wonderful. Nella is one VERY lucky girl.
BlessedMom62 says
I was warned to have kleenex on hand… I loved this! I didn’t even read the whole thing, I read bits and pieces and started crying! I would love to share this story on my blog page! I plan on sending the link to my friends also.
Alaina says
You don’t know me, but I feel grateful to now know just a tiny part of you. My newly pregnant belly is now covered with tears after reading your story. I hope that if we are blessed with a second child as beautiful and special as yours, that we are filled with the same love and compassion. You are a beautiful person on the inside and out. Wishing your family all the happiness in the world!
Kyrsten says
Beyond beautiful… amazing post.
I am the mommy of three– one angel, two living. And the birth experience, and the love that flows between parent and child, never ceases to amaze me.
Blessings to you all on this amazing journey.
The Byrds says
This is one of the most beautiful, heartfelt, & gut-wrenching things I have ever read. And I can connect with every single word. I know exactly how you felt in those first hours of uncertainty and I know how it feels to fall in love hard as I sit here watching my beautiful perfect son. I wish your beautiful family all the best from us here in Maryland!
Irene says
Oh she is just absolutely GORGEOUS! I have a daughter with an extra part of her 17th chromosome. I knew prior to birth due to the fact she had a lot of issues. She wasn’t supposed to survive birth. She was diagnosed in utero with a severe heart defect that required 3 very risky operations upon birth. She is going to turn 7 years old this year. She has never had any heart surgery. She is different, she is severely disabled, she has changed my life in so many ways and I wouldn’t change one single thing. You are so blessed! And the photos? Absolutely gorgeous! You are so lucky to be able to capture those moments.
Trudy Johnson says
Thank you for writing this. Beautiful. Nella is a blessing.
CeeJay says
You’re an amazing writer – I hope you write a book some day!
Congratulations on a beautiful, sweet, baby princess. I’m so happy God sent her to such a perfect mother – one that will appreciate all of her gifts.
Sarah says
Oh my 🙂 This is the most beautiful story I have ever read. You made me cry, laugh, smile and made me want to jump through the computer and hug you and your perfect little daughter.
Congrats to you and your family and here’s to the start of a happy, fulfilled life 🙂
Trudy Johnson says
Thank you for writing this. Beautiful. Nella is a blessing.
Trudy Johnson says
Thank you for writing this. Beautiful. Nella is a blessing.
rlw says
Thank you for sharing. Incredible.
Sarah says
Congratulations on your beautiful daughter! Her birth story is the most beautiful one I have ever had the pleasure of reading.
Lily says
This is the most amazing thing I have ever read. Your strength and courage are something I have never seen portrayed through written words as much as I just read above. I will be praying for you as you and your family start down this new path. Blessings to you and your beautiful little girl!
Marisela says
I’m a special mom too, your words make me go back 3 years ago, when my Sebastian was born and changed my life. I know how you felt, i lived the same experience too, I have each of your memories. The same pain, the same happiness…a lot of tears, confusion, guilt, fear, resignation, understand that anything was wrong. I started to write my diary too, it was my best therapy, write about my perfect baby, just write and write what i couldn’t explain in simple words. I would like to meet you, and talk about how lucky we are…I’m sure that all down people who i know are involved with beautifull stories…it’s not a coincidence, they are with us because we need them…Thanks GOD for choose me to be a special mom, thanks for each tears, thanks foy my special son….Thanks you, to know how to say in words exactly what we felt…your dougther is beautifull, she’s simply PERFECT!!!!
GOD BLESS!!! and welcome NELLA!!! !!life is perfect!!!!
Anonymous says
You don’t know me, I surfed on here from a link on Babycenter, but your little girl is so beautiful and you are an amazing mother. Congratulations and thank you for sharing your amazing story. I can’t wait to hear updates in the future.
Anonymous says
A truly inspirational story. Your family is beautiful! Absolutely beautiful. P.S. I went through a box of tissues.
Anonymous says
I was reading this when my 4 year old came running by. She saw the pictures from right after Nella was born and said “Aww.. She is so beautiful!” And she really is.
Christy says
This is the MOST beautiful birth story ever ! Your girls are beautiful !! And from one special needs child’s mom to another…. he picked the perfect Mother for both your girls. You have found the meaning to life….your heart. This is going to be a wonderful journey for you. I am 14 years into my journey. I am so glad God chose you.
Christy ♥
Christy says
This is the MOST beautiful birth story ever ! Your girls are beautiful !! And from one special needs child’s mom to another…. he picked the perfect Mother for both your girls. You have found the meaning to life….your heart. This is going to be a wonderful journey for you. I am 14 years into my journey. I am so glad God chose you.
Christy ♥
Meredith says
Hi Kelle,
Thank you for painting us such an incredible picture of your journey both in pictures and words. I work with an organization that helps kids with special needs realize their potential. This is the experience of another mom of a child with special needs. It’s called “Welcome to Holland.”
Welcome to Holland
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this……
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay. The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away… because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
Emily Perl Kingsley 1987
Anonymous says
reading this has forever changed my life. your sweet baby girl is so beautiful, and your family is so precious. thank you for writing this.
Fiona Johnson Photography says
Thank you for sharing your amazing story. Your honesty and passion really shine through. Your girls are gorgeous, and you are an amazing mother!
Meghan, Gary & Sophia H says
“I will never forget the moment her little sister was placed in her arms. I watched in agony…in tears…in admiration as my little girl taught me how to love. She showed me what unconditional love looks like…what the absence of stereotypes feels like…she was…
…proud.
Reading that makes me feel your pain & love all at the same time. As a mother to an almost 2 yr old I see my daughter in your daughter. I see & feel your mothering in my mothering. Moments like those are what make us mothers. What make having children so important. They are here to teach us what no other person, education, experience could ever teach us. They are here to teach us the true meaning of love.
You are so blessed to have your two beautiful girls. More importantly they are blessed to have you as their mother. Because no one else could be so deserving than you. I wish you & your family a lifetime of happiness.
Thank you for letting me into your world & allowing me & everyone to meet your family.
Anonymous says
Your story defines hope and love and motherhood and all things that are good in the world. Thank you so much for sharing.
Owen Michael says
Thank you!!! Thank you for sharing your incredibly personal & moving story. Thank you for sharing your amazing pictures of your beautiful family. Thank you for being real. Thank you for reminding us how precious are children are. Thank you for showing us what really matters.
Anonymous says
What an amazing and beautiful story. You are an amazing woman, and Nella and Lainey too are so lucky to have you as a Mom. Nella is adorable, thank you for sharing your story, makes one want to slow down and enjoy the small things in life. I know I will definately be sqeezing my son much tighter in the morning. Thanks
Clay says
My wife and I have a very similar story. The difference was that our Emma had fluid built up on top of her lungs. The doctors told us every day the new thing that would cause her to not make it. We knew in an instant upon birth that she had Down’s…I could write a book on the emotional rollercoaster. We prayed…And prayed…That if God took her then she was God’s, and if He left her then she would still be His. And if it was all the same to Him to please give us the chance to raise her. To love her unconditionally. She is seven years old now. I could write another book on what she means to us.
MFA Mama says
Oh what a beautiful, gripping, honest and inspiring post! Your girls are beautiful, and congratulations!
Duck's Mom says
Nella is blessed to have you as her mother. She will learn from your strength and beauty as a human being.
This story is what being a mom is all about.
trustandobey says
Thank you for putting your story out there. It will, no doubt, bless untold numbers of people. Welcome to a deeper side of life. Anytime something happens to our children, we are transported there. We are invited by God to lean on Him and not on our own understanding. He promises to walk with us and He is faithful to His word. Little Nella , at one week old, has already touched more people than most of us do in a lifetime. Congratulations!!!
Lisa
Emily says
Hey… I hope you read this, and I hope I hear from you. I cannot tell you HOW EXACTLY your story mirrors mine… My daughter was born exactly one week earlier, on January 15, with Down syndrome. Her 2 year old sister, Luciya, wore the same Big Sister shirt the next day. We didn’t know, but my husband knew right when he saw her come out. I haven’t been able to write much, especially since Mirabel spent the first week of her life in the NICU. But I want you to see my pictures, because not only were our 2 year olds dressed the same, but I dressed Mirabel in almost exactly the same tan striped outfit the other day.http://picasaweb.google.com/shemmy/Mirabel#
You’ve inspired me to (finally!) update my blog. I need to get on it! I have started a separate one for Mirabel but haven’t gotten too far.
Please contact me if you can. Blessings to you and your beautiful family. I feel truly grateful and amazed and I hope you do, too. shemmy@gmail.com
corrin says
You have a beautiful family.
IndieBambino says
I am another stranger, a mother of a baby boy who died in the car on the way to the hospital, his head was trapped inside of me, we had to wait in traffic. Life is beautiful still, you’re so right, it’s hard to find sometimes, but then it hits you in the face and spreads over you like warm butter. She is beautiful, perfect. I didnt want to come here at first when a friend told me to, because you got to keep your baby, but I’m glad I did, there is something here that has heartened me. Blessings to you and your family.
Ladyaylena says
A better story of love has never been told. Congratulations to you and your perfect little family!
Cassy says
This is one of the most beautiful stories I have ever read. Your words so eloquently and honestly tell this story-it is absolutely amazing. I was truly sobbing while reading this-not out of sadness but just from the true beauty of it. (As well as the pictures-she is SO beautiful and like your pediatrician said, “perfect”.) As I’m sure you realize now, you have been sent an angel in the purest form. And your other daughter is blessed to have such a loving sister-because trust me, you will never find a more loving soul than a person with Downs.
My little brother has Downs and was a surprise for my parents as well. While I am sure they dealt with many of the same emotions as you did, I know that they could not be happier now. Your life will be more of a challenge, but Nella will also show you the wonder of life that you may otherwise miss.
Thank you for sharing your story with the world, and enjoy your 2 wonderful daughters!
Crystal Renae says
This is the most amazing thing I have read. Your story is so moving and so well written. Thank you for sharing this with the world and congratulations on your beautiful girls.
Anonymous says
This is just an amazing story. I really hope that you someday publish your life because so many people could be, would be inspired by you. You have an amazing talent for writing – I felt like I was right there with you. Blessings to you and your family!
Nicole says
You inspire me to be a better mother. What an amazing, beautiful, precious gift you have been given….
MV says
Such a heartfelt story to the beginning of your new life. Thanks so much for sharing. Your daughters are precious and beautiful indeed.
God Bless,
Mary
christenandjames says
Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful story. Enjoy those gorgeous little girls!
Brian Z. says
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter! She is absolutely precious. My wife brought your story to my attention and I am so thankful for her sharing. Your writing is thoughtful, honest and inspiring. Thank you for having the courage to share your innermost thoughts and sharing Nella with your readers. The world became a better place the day she was born. When Nella is older, please let her know that she has inspired this reader to remember what’s important in life, be a better man, and be the best Daddy he can be to his own little girl. Thank you again. PS – she is cute as a button!!
Kelly B says
This is beautiful, as are you and your sweet girls. I ache and celebrate with you. Thank you for sharing your family’s story. May God bless & bless you.
Katrina says
This is beautiful. She is beautiful. God bless you and your family 🙂
Tasha says
Kelle, you don’t know me, but a friend of mine sent me your blog. I loved your story because it reminded me of mine. First, Nella is a beautiful little princess. Every word you wrote felt like it was coming from me. I still have tears just thinking about it. My little Jaxson just turned 3 months old this week, and he is doing amazing. We had a few speed bumps along the way due to the fact he was born with a congenital heart defect and had to have surgery at 6weeks old. I just wanted to send you a note to let you know your story touched my heart, may God bless you and your family…Tasha
Nicole Thibodeau says
Kelle…
My best friend shared your story with me through a link (I sobbed, a good solid cry)…she would know how much your story would touch those hearstrings in my soul…she was there, just like yours were there for you. She still is…eleven years later!
I am 31 as well and my Michael…eleven years old, he came to me…looking at me with a “smooshed” nose, he still does it! He makes my eyes water with the unconditional love that he gives not only for me but all of those around him! Thank you for your story, it brought me back to that day…not that I have ever forgotten it but those admissions that you don’t want to reveal for fear of believing that you are actually human. What a gift! You your family and friends have been blessed with an angel. Congratulations!! Welcome to our worldwide family! ~Nicole xo
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughters with us and your beautiful story. My story is similar and yet different but my sweet special baby girl is now 21 years old and still the light of my life…Your sweet girl will bring joy so special I can not even begin to explain…
~Angie says
simpley BEAUTIFUL!
Meg Sexton says
Wonderfully candid story. Thank you for sharing.
Cara says
What an amazing story!! You are a beautiful writer…I am in tears over the love I can FEEL you have for your daughter…wow…
Mary says
I so enjoyed your honest, raw, beautiful story! The photos are so precious and show an outpouring of love. I am a nurse and used to work with your dad Rik when I lived in MI. I can see you have his loving and compassionate soul. Thank you for sharing and God bless your wonderful family~
Mary Sayler
Lovelina says
I don’t know you. I don’t know your beautiful girls, but I came across your story. I am sitting here in tears…feeling soo much. I love your story. We are trying to conceive our first, and this is such an inspiring story. Thank you. Thank you for sharing. Blessing and peace for you and your gorgeous family.
Celina
Stephanie says
I can barely find the words to describe how your story…her story touched my heart. Thank you for sharing that. I am in love with your family and I don’t even know you.
deborah says
Congratu;ation to you all, to a wonderful family and terrific friends, tis a beautiful gift you have been given, cherish every moment… I am a community nurse, and one of the most special patient i had to nurse in the community was the cutest lil DS boy i have ever met, he was born to a loving family, two lil sister’s, Mom and Dad… One of the first things they told me was they knew nothing about DS, and yet they did not want to know anything about DS, they wanted their boy to teach them what DS was … I was touched of their words, and it warmed my heart that they held this outlook, I in return held my tongue and my knowledge and said nothing, but I felt so much love in this home and with this family, just as i have felt reading your words, you and your girl’s are most beautiful, please keep us updated with such beautiful pic’s they are exceptoional, thank you so much for sharing …deborah
Julie Harward says
SHE IS GOD’S “GIFT” TO YOU..SHE IS PERFECTLY BEAUTIFUL…HIS MOST PERFECT LITTLE TINY ANGEL. MY DEAR FRIEND HAS A BOY..SAME WAY..SHE SAYS HE IS THE GREATEST BLESSING OF HER LIFE! YOU ARE THE BEST MOMMIE SHE CAN HAVE..THE BEST!
Leslie says
I loved reading your beautiful story. I identified with much of what you wrote. Our beautiful little girl with a little something extra turned 3 recently and is pure delight to our family. I know you are blessed too!
Blessings
Leslie
Lauren says
My sincere hope is that you do make it through all 600+ comments and that you know how much this one blog post has meant to so many. 2 hours after starting my second reading of this story, I am still looking through the comments with the tears flowing. From one special needs mommy to another, thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing the story of precious Nella. It got deep down in me, and I think perhaps brought me through another stage of grieving for who my 11 month old little girl was “supposed to be.” It’s just so nice to see someone else sharing their very human feelings on this journey. Nella and Lainey are so very blessed to have a wonderful mommy like you.
Michelle says
Thank you sharing your story with everyone. Your strength, your unconditional love is beautiful. This is my first stop at your blog, but certainly will not be my last.
My son was just recently diagnosed with Autism. My heart broke into two, but we’re moving forward.
I hope I can be as strong as you and your gorgeous family.
Congratulations on your newest bundle of joy!!
Submommy says
Our daughter was born without an ear. No ear canal, and a simple bump of cartilage where a “normal” ear would be. She didn’t pass her state-required newborn hearing screening on her “normal” side, and so for the first three weeks of her life, we thought she was deaf. She’s now seven years old, and the light of our lives.
One night, in the darkest of the darks, my husband was helping me change her diaper and he looked up at me and said, “God chose us to be her parents.”
The grief is overwhelming, but necessary, because the loss of a dream is grief-worthy. But then, you flesh-out the new normal. Your life, PLUS.
I wept through your entire story because I remember feeling all of those feelings. Hurting all those hurts.
You are blessed. Challenged, certainly, but blessed.
Thank you for finding the words that for seven years I haven’t been able to pull out of my head.
Anonymous says
So touching. Thank you thank you thank you for sharing your amazing story. I can’t stop crying it’s touched me in so many countless ways.
Submommy says
P.S. Our daughter’s name is Kelley. (and she’s not deaf – hearing impaired, but not completely deaf)
tim says
I know you don’t know me but my friend is a friend of yours and shared your story. I couldn’t stop reading it. It was very inspiring. God Bless you and your family. Your daughters are beautiful!
jmdk311 says
Nella is beautiful! You are so lucky to be her mother. You have a long, beautiful, exciting, trying journey ahead of you. You know when something just feels right and you are blessed to witness it or hear about it? I feel blessed to have heard your new beginning. Baby Nella was meant for you, she will be everything you’ve always dreamed of and more <3
Sarah Carroll says
In reading this, you’ve helped me.
Thank you.
Melany says
I don’t know you and I’ve never read your blog but this has touched me so. Congratulations on the birth of your daughter. You have been so honest in this post. It’s beautiful.
Michelle says
Absolutely beautiful. There are no other words that I can think that fit your family.
Congrats on your beautiful new bunny.
And know that I am hooked on your blog. Nella’s birth story is the first post I have read and I am excited to read about your girls growing up together, as sisters.
God bless.
Lacia says
Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl. Your post brought tears to my eyes as I remembered having all of the same feelings you expressed when my own daughter was born 5 years ago. I was so sad and scared, yet so full of love and adoration. Now I look at my blossoming, amazing 5 year old and wonder why I wasted so many tears. She is beautiful, and perfect and a true blessing in our lives.
Sheli - Indiana says
I just wanted to take a moment and say thank you for sharing your beautiful story with us…I will anxiously follow your blog! This has to be the sweetest thing I’ve ever read…so poignant…so honest. You are a pure soul and Miss Nella is just a blessing for you…your family and “us”…again I say thank you for sharing her and your story. Sometimes we just need the littlest thing to bring us back to reality back to how blessed we truly are. For me today it was your story. May God continue blessing you! Big Hugs!
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. It was so moving, it brought me to tears.
Your 2 girls are beautiful and perfect.
Kim says
Thank you so much for sharing your blessing with us. I look forward to watching all of you grow.
Vinicio & Karry says
Thank YOU! for sharing your experience, for putting to words the very things that lie in my heart and are part of my experience with my beautiful Selah Jane who was born on 8/14/09. I wanted to share something with you that God revealed to my husband years ago before we had children and brought to mind when we were in the hospital awaiting the confirmation of the Down Syndrome diagnosis. We too, have a precious 2 year old little girl who is big sister to our angel. I look forward to reading more of your journey. It has brought me to tears reliving my journey. I cannot thank you enough. I hope you enjoy the following:
The Angels
God was in heaven watching how the men were acting on Earth. Desolation reigned.
More than 6 billion human beings are not enough to reach the divine glory of love! The Lord sighed. The father saw so many humans at war, husbands and wives who did not complete his spirit, rich and poor living separately, healthy and sick distant separate, free and slave.
One day God met an army of angels and said: Do you see the humans? They need help! You will have to go down to earth. Us? They asked the angels excited and scared, full of faith.
Yes, you are the chosen ones. No one else could accomplish this task.
Man was made in my image, but each with special talents. I allowed differences among them so that together they would make up the Kingdom.
Some will have riches to share with the poor. Others will have good health in order to care for the sick. Some will be wise and very simple in order to show feelings of love, admiration and respect.
The good should pray for those who act as if they were bad. The patient will tolerate the neurotic. Finally, my plans must be fulfilled for man to enjoy from Earth, eternal happiness. And to do that, you must go to them.
What are you talking about? Asked the angels. Since men have forgotten that I created you with differences to complement one another forming the body of my beloved son, you will go with obvious distinctions and special assignments.
You will have excellent memory and concentration, you will be blind!
You’re will be eloquent and very creative in expressing yourself, you will be deaf!
You will have deep thoughts, write books. You will be a poet! You will have cerebral palsy.
I will give you the gift of love and you will be your own person, there will be many others like you across the Earth and there is no distinction among races because you will have the face, eyes, hands and body as though you were blood brothers. You will have Down syndrome!
You will be very short in stature and your kindness and sense of humor will reach the sky, you will be little people.
You will live on Earth, but your mind will remain in heaven. You rather hear my voice to that of men, you will have autism!
To the last angel He said, you will be as able as any, you will be without arms and do everything with your legs and mouth.
The angels were happy with the distinction given to them by the Lord, although it caused them great sadness to leave heaven to fulfill His mission.
How long will we live without seeing you? How long we will be away from you?
Do not worry, I’ll be with you every day. Besides, this will only last a few years.. All right, Father. It will only be a moment on the eternal clock.
Excited, they went to Earth. Each one went into the womb of a mother, where they developed for 6, 7, 8 or 9 months …. At birth they were received with profound pain, fear and distress. Some parents refused the task, others were angry, others laid blame which dissolved their marriages and some cried and loving accepted their duty.
Angels continue to come to Earth in limited bodies with higher spirits and will keep coming as long as there is humanity on the planet.
As the angels know that their mission and their virtues are unity, faith, hope and charity governed by love, they have managed to forgive and with great patience pass illuminating life to anyone who has desired love.
Karol says
Congratulations on the birth of another daughter and congratulations on Down Syndrome. You’ve embarked on what will likely be the most incredible journey of your life. My beautiful Down Syndrome daughter, Jalayne Grace, was taken from us in a horrific accident just 5 months ago. She was the most beautiful thing in our life. All joy and sunshine. I miss her and DS with every ounce of my being. You will have some small bumps along this road, for sure, but nothing that great love cannot conquer. My guess is that she will give to you, far more than you will ever be able to give to her.
Hold that beautiful child close to you. Cherish ever moment of her, life is so very fragile.
Rejoicing with you, aching for my own sweet Laynee
Karol
Anonymous says
Congrats! This is definitely a story of love! You have such a beautiful family.
Anonymous says
An absolutely beautiful story. You have been truly blessed with two beautiful daughters. Wishing you and your family years of happiness
Sam says
Nella is beautiful and so are you! Thank you for reminding us what being a mother is really about… unconditional love.
Anne says
This is the most heartwrenching AND heartwarming birth story ever. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. And she IS absolutely beautiful and perfect.
Welcome to Holland, Kelle.
Judi says
I am new to your blog and certainly regret that I haven’t followed it until today. I was touched by your honesty and vulnerability –gut-wrentching but so real and beautiful.I applaud you as a mother,writer and truth-teller. I was there with you all the way praying that the power of love would help overcome the challenges that had come your way. I hope you feel bolstered by the collective love from your readers turned friends. And the photographs told their own story of uncertainty,pain,love —and with the love, the transformation comes. The latter pics of Nella show such contentment,peace and and joy.(It’s almost like she’s saying”YES,I’ve won her over!!!”)
Thank-you and I will tune in to hear how the book of your life plays out!!!
ds.mama says
Thank you so much for sharing your raw heart with us. Your words and these pictures are beautiful.
Anonymous says
I had our fourth baby, a third girl, three weeks ago. I can’t stop crying as I read this page. When I saw the picture of your little girl’s face and the part where you heard her begging you to love you…I just broke down. I don’t know that I have ever read a more profound, pure witness to the power of love in a broken world. You prove what my husband and I believe about “disabled” children: they are given to us for us, to make us more loving, more forgiving, deeper. More real.
Congratulations and may God continue to bless you.
sevemama says
Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you.
Also: Love.
— J
Hilary says
That was beautiful. As is your family. Congratulations.
Coco says
I was sent this link from a friend. It is Saturday morning and I am crying in my coffee. Happy tears.
Your sister said it best, “you were chosen.” And what an honor that you get to be Nella’s mother.
A perfect name for a perfect child. You are about to start an AMAZING journey and I can’t wait to read about it!
MaMaSiBs says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are an inspirations to Mama’s everywhere and your daughters are just BEAUTIFUL. I have a little girl who is 2 and a baby on the way, so my heart goes out to you. I felt so moved by your words that I blogged about you and Nella and included your story. If you don’t want me to share your link please let me know and I will remove it. But I felt it so important to share it with my fellow Bumpies that I could not resist. Please know God has a special place in his heart for children and He has truly blessed you in ways you may not fully understand yet, but you will. Your family is just inspirational and I thank you again for your courage and strength ❤
Abigail says
I’m pregnant with my first child…and tears are streaming down my face…your story is a beautiful one and I thank you so much for sharing it. I can’t tell you all of the things I worry about these days – but from now on, when I begin to worry, I will remember what really matters – loving this child with everything I have.
Derek Andrjeski says
your story is an inspiration – please keep sharing. I cried shallow tears first. But they became real as I read and felt your honesty reach out to your readers. God bless you – thank you reminding me of Christ’s love here on earth.
Brandy says
Thank you for sharing your story. When I was pregnant with my son Ben, I was told that he might have Downs and I went through a tremendous amount of fear, anger, guilt and countless other emotions. I was never sure how I would handle his birth until he was in my arms. He was born healthy and does not have Downs, but I know now that I could not help falling in love with whoever he was. Indeed you were chosen for this journey; your children are so fortunate to have you as their mother. I pray the greatest joy for you and your beautiful family. God bless you every day; wait, he already has.
Karen Chatters says
That is so beautiful. Nella is so fortunate to have such a wonderful mother, full of love and passion and understanding. Lainey is going to be a great big sister, who’s never going to know Nella anyway than the beauty and wonderful younger sister that she is.
Thank you for sharing your story, in all of your honesty. That can’t have been easy for you.
Anonymous says
I don’t know you, but a friend send me the link to your story and I have just sobbed my heart out. You are a very special, wonderful person. I wish there were more people like you in the world. Nella and Lainey are very very lucky girls. Congratulations on your beautiful baby daughter. xxx
Chickenbells says
Your story made me hold my breath with tears in my eyes…and then fall totally in love. Your family is truly lucky to have you…congratulations.
Anonymous says
Amazing..Bless you and your family!
Laura Bruen says
Kelle,
You are amazing. One of the most powerful and beautiful experiences I have ever read about and seen. Congratulations on the birth of your sweet angel!
~ Laura
Mauzy says
Beautiful story. Beautiful photographs. Congratulations and welcome to our wonderful club!
Anonymous says
Kelle,
I was moved to read your story. I cried as I began the very first paragraph. I am jealous of your ability to write your experiences so poignantly. You are blessed and I hope you can hold onto that fact through any difficulties you may face ahead with your precious, beautiful daughter.
The first third of your tale could have been mine–it seemed so familiar. Early in 2007 I had the same anticipation and preparations going on. But the end of my story was different. My baby didn’t come home with me; instead, we laid her in her permanent bed 2 miles up the road in the cemetery. You talked about the baby you thought you were having as though she died, and she did for you. But your arms are filled with a more perfect gift. Don’t take that for granted. At least your arms are full. At least your love can continue to grow instead of being thwarted and limited to 9 months in utero and one precious, precious night of holding your daughter to your breast. I didn’t get to nurse my baby! And I want you to know that I would give almost anything to have her still with me, even with any so-called physical defects.
Just thought you might want another perspective…
Mommy2two says
I am in tears reading your story. Your girls are beautiful! {{hugs}} from NH.
Katie says
Kelle ~ Your story is as beautiful as your daughter. God bless you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing.
As a mother I share your heartful tears of joy and happiness.
Much love,
Katie
Amanda says
I think your story is a foreshadowing of things to come. It may not be exactly what you expected, it may take a little longer for some things that should come naturally, but what a glorious reward awaits where you aren’t expecting it. God bless.
Anonymous says
I am sitting on my couch, this cold winter day, with large tears rolling down my cheeks…I was half way through your story when I got up, ran to my children playing on the floor and squeezed them harder than I ever have. Your story is beautiful. Your daughters are beautiful. Your family is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this and I am really looking forward to keeping up with the rest of Nella’s amazing journey. I literally feel warmth in my heart when I see her photo’s. Oh those bright eyes!!! And SMILES! What a doll. You are an extremely lucky woman to have her. God Bless you and your family.
Anonymous says
What a beautifully written story and what a beautiful family you have. You are an inspiration. Wishing you every happiness for the future x
Michele says
Stopping by from Noelle’s blog.
She is beautiful. Just breathtakingly beautiful.
kara says
I can’t stop coming back to your blog and looking at the beautiful pictures and reading your birth story (made me cry yesterday and again today!). I have three boys and my youngest has DS (Henry, 5 months). You captured so much and were able to articulate what so many of us have felt and experienced. Thank you a million times over for sharing this with the world. I tweeted about it twice and put a link on my blog, because I think it is just a work of art (as are your beautiful girls!).
Kara
http://threelittlekings.blogspot.com
Anonymous says
Thankyou for sharing your story…
I am a Mummy too though we almost lost our second child at birth and soon after again, she has been healthy and there are moments that I forget the gift that God has given us with who she is growing up to be. Thankyou for the reminder to cherish everything! I needed that today, and will think of your family…
Anonymous says
Thankyou for sharing your story…
I am a Mummy too though we almost lost our second child at birth and soon after again, she has been healthy and there are moments that I forget the gift that God has given us with who she is growing up to be. Thankyou for the reminder to cherish everything! I needed that today, and will think of your family…
Darcel says
This is one of the most beautiful birth stories I’ve ever read.
Your daughters are beautiful, and so are you.
Thank you for being so honest.
Josie says
Thank you for sharing your story 🙂
You are so brave.
I just wanted to say how gorgeous your family is and the pictures youve put on here are so lovely.
Good luck to the 4 of you in the future.
ferfischer says
From one special needs mama to another – welcome to your new normal – and this journey where you will meet people who will renew your faith in humanity, and meet the best friends. Welcome – and congrats on your beautiful girls!
Heather says
I am amazed by your honestly and love! I strive to be more like you. The raw truth and emotion in this story had me becoming dehydrated from loss of tears. I love your family and I dont even know you!
Amanda says
What a beautiful story and you ARE a beautiful family. The pictures are so precious and I just want to hold your sweet little Nella. She’s gorgeous! As is her mother! Oh my, you are just beautiful inside and out!
Jessica says
This is the best birth story I have ever read. I sat on the edge of my seat, hanging onto every word. Your words were so filled with love and beauty. The pictures are beautiful. I don’t know you and I actually cried reading this. You are so brave and filled with strength. Both of your daughters, Lainey & Nella, are absolutely gorgeous. I wish you so much luck with everything. I wish you and your family happiness and may your lives be filled with love. Congragulations!
Anonymous says
What a beautiful and honest birth story. Thank you.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your precious, beautiful story with the world. You are brave and inspiring. I know I will be able to love my baby girl that I am expecting in a few months time just as fiercely and truly as you love your Nella. Bless you and yours.
Bethany
Las Vegas,NV
Sarah says
That was such a beautiful story. I cried my eyes out. Thank you for sharing. I wish you years and years of happiness with your sweet girls and your amazing friends and family.
The Jones Family says
Thank you so much for sharing your story of Bunny.
She truly is beautiful. You are all so very blessed.
Anonymous says
Wow what a story. Came across the link posted on New Zealand Trade Me message board. As a mother of 2 girls (3.5 and 15 mths) I felt those emotions reading that as if it were me. Thank you for sharing, you have 2 very lucky girls to have you as a mum.
Anonymous says
You are the most gorgeous family, and the most amazing Mother your wee girls could hope for. What inspiring words, and the pictures tell an even better story. May your girls give you joy, and hope. All the best in your journey together. Remember- the destination will stay the same, it’s just that the path has changed a little. Kia Kaha
Kathy says
You do not know me but I too have a wonder child. I am thankful for your lovely out pouring of thoughts and feelings you are wonderful and you will always be a special mom with a child that is so unique… that love is never strong enough to tell how much you care about your child.
From one mom of a wonder child to another love and hugs… you are amazing
namastemom says
She is absolutely perfect. Thank you for sharing Nella’s story.
Niknok says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful birth story of Nella. I cried the whole through it, but they were tears of happiness that God gave Nella such an amazing Mommy. Your family is beautiful- Congratulations!
Sarahbeth says
Your story delved into the most incredible human emotions in such a raw, honest, and incredible way. I’ve come back several times to re-read and just look at those photos. There’s so much here, I don’t know where to begin.
You don’t know me at all, but I wanted to say something about your thoughts on your daughter being the sibling to a child with DS. Both of my brothers are disabled – mentally and physically. They have congenital myotonic dystrophy and were affected from birth. And yes, it was a strange childhood. It’s only been as I moved away from that nuclear family and created my own (I now have 3 children), that I understand how much that experience really meant to who I am.
What I wanted to express to you, though, was that it was much, much more positive than loss. I look to that experience and know that I am a better, stronger, more loving, more open person than I ever could have been without them in my life.
Some might look at that situation and feel a loss. It’s not a typical sibling relationship, that’s true. But it gave my life a sense of purpose and power I wouldn’t have had the same way. I want to experience life for myself…for my children…and because I was given a constant reminder that everyone is given different things in life.
My heart has so many more layers than I could have created without my brothers. I remember very few times when I was openly embarrassed of them, although that did happen. And it might to your daughter, too. I also remember being embarrassed of having parents too, in my teenage years. That’s part of the human experience. But there were many more times when having brothers with special needs were developing my sense of love for humanity, for differences, for seeing that incredible thoughts and feelings can come from people we don’t expect. I have learned so many things from my brothers.
There’s a book called “Special Siblings” that I read a few years ago and loved. She talks about traits that come from having special needs siblings.
My strong feeling is that it’s about the parents ability to tune into their child’s needs – both typical needs and special ones. The love just poured out of your blog post. Creating that environment for both daughters will just happen for you. Even if there are rough days along the way, your daughters will feel so much love.
Sending hugs as you journey through the grief…and the little griefs along the way as your family moves along. There will be new losses or realizations. That’s one thing I found in my Special Family. Loss comes incrementally in bite-sizes, and then other times in jarring thuds. But in the end, you won’t choose anything else…because you’ll love the person you became because of the special elements. And that flavor of family will just feel like home…not an aberration from what it was *supposed* to be.
Love to your family. Nella is beautiful beyond words. I wish I could hug that sweet little baby and tell her thank you for growing my heart even more. Your writing was such a gift to the world…let me know when you write the book. I’ll stand in line. 🙂
Gillian says
My god, that was beautiful.
pacblue says
Thank you so much for sharing. As I sit here tearing up, I think of my own story. Today would have been my son Travis’ 18th birthday! I was so lucky to have him in my life no matter how brief it was and you have just reminded my why! He was a gift from God and a very special baby! God bless you and your perfect family!
Leah says
Thank you.
Katy says
Wow- that was amazing. Your girls are beautiful and so lucky to have you as their mother!
Sarah says
Thank you for sharing your story. I was moved to tears. Your family is beautiful, inside and out, every one of you.
Anonymous says
Your story is beautiful and so heartfelt. I wish you many millions of precious memories for you and your deightful family.Hold tight to the things that are precious.
Love from Melinda in New Zealand
Anonymous says
Honestly, that was one of the most beautiful stories I have ever read. Your baby girl is beautiful, and you all are blessed.
Terri
kp Libretto says
As I sit hear reading your story, I am sobbing for you, with you. But I know the joy that comes from your precious little girl will far outweigh the tears. God bless you!
Anonymous says
You are such an inspiration. I love how you were able to be so honest, with yourself and with any and all blog readers. So many people would want to hide the fact they were not instantly in love with their child or that they cried when they were not what they expected. You are showing true beauty and vulnerability. I have a friend and co-worker with a 2 year old granddaughter with Down Syndrome. She is her favorite person in the world and I love hearing her tell stories about her. She loves her honesty and humor and her life revolves around that little girl. Nella is such a beautiful baby. Thank you so much for sharing her. Congratulations!
The Hansen Family says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. I cried tears of sadness and joy because I can relate to all of the emotions you experienced. Your daughter is beautiful, simply beautiful. Enjoy her.
Ali (Allison) Shenk says
Thanks for sharing your story. We have a 2-year-old son, Cole, and a 9-month-old son, Dean. Dean has Prader-Willi Syndrome. Our actual birth story was not similar, and yet I have never read anything that so accurately described the process of grief and joy walking hand in hand the way this does. I watch Cole with his brother and he does not see PWS, he only sees his little Deano. We have been given an extraordinary, intimate lens on the seemingly ordinary things of this world. These babies are such a gift. Thank you. Ali
shenkinators.blogspot.com
Stephanie says
I just wanted to say thank-you. Your story & family are beautiful…and Nella is just perfect.
Anonymous says
That was one of the most beautiful stories i have ever read i could not stop crying i have two kids and i had two give each one a hug soon as i was done reading you must always appriciate the small thing
CJ Sprout says
Very moving story. God Bless you. Your girls are so beautiful.
Wife to the Rockstar says
Well first – CONGRATULATIONS. She is so precious.
Second – this is one of the most beautiful posts I have ever read. Thank you for sharing it.
Marissa says
A beautiful story. Beautifully written about a beautiful girl. Thank you for sharing your story and your honesty… you brought so many tears to my eyes.
Courtney K. says
It’s hard to express in words what you have just beautifully shared. I can feel the passion in your heart…the joy in your soul. I live it everyday…my Julia is my world. I am forever changed, forever grateful that she chose us. We are in awe of her…and just when we think life can’t get any better…we wake up the next day. We get to do it all over again. Lucky us…living, loving, laughing every moment of every day. No one can tell you how great it will be. You have to experience it. She’s certainly not what we expected…she far exceeds anthing we ever could have dreamed! Simply amazing…thank you, Julia. Thank you, Nella. The world is a better place…
Jerri says
I feel so touched reading your story. Your emotions and details are such a gift of honesty. Thank you for giving that to everyone who reads this. Your strength and love are inspiring.
Anonymous says
What an incredible birth story. Thank you for sharing it. Nella is gorgeous! Congratulations!
In Nevada says
Kelle, Almost a year ago we shared the same story. It is amazing how hard it is in the begining but, than it is wonderful. You can read about our story and others at http://www.downsyndromebutnotout.com. I would love to connect with you and share some resources. Jenny
Anonymous says
Congratulations on your beautiful new daughter! Bless you for posting this. You captured every single emotion that I went through the day my child was born and I no longer feel that my reaction was unique. I’ve carried a lot of guilt over how I felt in those first hours and reading this has brought me peace. Thank you.
Leslie says
Thank you for sharing the beauty of your daughter’s birth. My “baby” is 10 now, but I could still feel every contraction with you, along with your hopes and dreams. Your photos are honest and gripping and breathtaking. Your daughters are beautiful. Many blessings to you and your family on your wonderful journey. I will be watching your blog to see how your beautiful Nella grows.
A complete stranger,
Leslie
Anonymous says
Your story is so beautifully and honestly written. I cried through the whole thing. You are an amazing and strong woman. Your daughters are so blessed to have you as a mother.
Katrina says
Oh how well I remember so many of those raw emotions you described so eloquently in this post. Our precious son, Brant, is now 6 1/2 years old but yet, as I read this, it feels like yesterday. Many congratulations to you on the birth of your beautiful baby girl! And I have to say that you have the most wonderful doctor – so many parents have had negative experiences with medical staff and it is refreshing to hear that you had such a positive and caring one.
Katrina (BC, Canada)
Mr. and Mrs. says
This is probably the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. Your daughters are beautiful and perfect. Thank you for sharing this. Congratulations.
Dana says
You are meant to write a book. Not soon, because it’s now time to love on the bunny, but when the day comes, yours will be the book that becomes the Million Miles in a Thousand Years of what it is to be chosen by God to bring an exceptional bunny into the fold.
Just plant the seed of the idea and let it grow in that shadowy corner of your mind that will see sun, again and again.
D
Jennie says
This is beautiful. You have reminded me of what life is all about. Your little one is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I will keep in it MY heart forever.
kymberli q. says
Beautiful, honest story. Thank you so much for sharing. Your family is beautiful – inside and out! God bless all of you! Congratulations on your new little bunny. 🙂
amelia says
Your birth story is so beautiful, as is your new baby girl. Congratulations to your family on the birth of Nella.
the Spunky Stork says
i have never sobbed this much reading something in my whole life. i am your age, but i have no children and am only imagining how you are feeling during the moments you recounted here. your family is beautiful, and i am in awe of your honesty, bravery and courage. it is overwhelming how touched and inspired i am by your story. your little bunny, nella, is beautiful in every way.
Angiev117 says
I am 8 weeks pregnant and was terrified of something being wrong with the baby that’s growing inside of me. I even thought I had made up my mind that if my baby did have this i would terminate the pregnancy. I was selfish and felt like I would never get all those things i dreamed of, first days of school, high school graduation, wedding, grandchildren. But you, you have changed my mind. Just because my baby could turn out different doesn’t mean their quality of life would be any less, it would probaby add to mine. Thank you for sharing this. Thank you for making me realize that even if something does happen and i am disappointed that it’s ok to have those feelings and feel them also. But my baby does deserve love none the less.
Anonymous says
I first discovered your amazingly honest and beautiful story and blog on thursday and have watched all the comments continue without knowing what to say but knowing I had to say something as your story and your life has affected me and the way I love my son. So, I think I will let my favorite song do it for me. It always provides perspective whenever I feel like I am lost.
Isn’t it strange
How we move our lives for another day
Like skipping a beat
What if a great wave should wash us all away
Just thinking out loud
Don’t mean to dwell on this dying thing
But looking at blood
It’s alive right now
Deep and sweet within
Pouring through our veins
Intoxicate moving wine to tears
Drinking it deep
Then an evening spent dancing
It’s you and me
This love will open our world
From the dark side we can see a glow of something bright
There’s much more than we see here
Don’t burn the day away
Is this not enough
This blessed sip of life
Is it not enough
Staring down at the ground
Oh then complain and pray more from above
Greedy little pig
Stop just watch your world trickle away
Oh it’s your problem now
It’ll all be dead and gone in a few short years
Just love will open our eyes
Just love will put the hope in our minds
Much more than we could ever know
Don’t burn the day away
Come sister my brother
Shake up your bones shake up your feet
I’m saying open up
And let the rain come pouring in
Wash out this tired notion
That the best is yet to come
But while you’re dancing on the ground
Don’t think of when you’re gone
Love love what more is there
We need the light of love in here
Don’t beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There are bad times
But that’s ok
Just look for love in it
Don’t burn the day away
Look
Here are we
On this starry night staring into space
And I must say
I feel as small as dust
Lying down here
What point could there be troubling
Head down wondering what will become of me
Why concern we cannot see
But no reason to abandon it
Time is short but that’s all right
Maybe I’ll go in the middle of the night
Take your hands from your eyes, my love
Everything must end some time
Don’t burn the day away
Come sister my brother
Shake up your bones shake up your feet
I’m saying open up
And let the rain come flooding in
Wash out this tired notion
That the best is yet to come
But while you’re dancing on the ground
Don’t think of when you’re gone
Love love what more is there
We need the light of love in here
Don’t beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There are bad times
But that’s ok
Just look for love in it
Cathal's Mammy says
What a beautiful birth story. You’ve taken me back 2 years to when my son was born. All those feelings of loosing that “perfect” child has come flooding back, when in fact, he was perfect all along.
Your daughters are beautiful…
Laura says
Hello Kelle
Laura Here from New Zealand. i couldnt hold back the tears reading your story. we have a 10mth old adopted son who has DS and that quote “Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.” took my breath away for so many reasons but when we got our son at 9 weeks after fighting infertility i felt the same way. what an amazing gift you have been given and i wish you all the love and happiness in the world. god bless.
Augusta says
What a beautiful, honest, hope-filled story. Thank you for sharing with all of us. I pray that this new journey you’re on will be filled with peace, joy, love and laughter.
Poppa says
Oh my little Nella love…where are you taking us? In your precious purity you sleep in a world that needs to be reminded of the power of perfecting love–a love that perfects the broken, changes perception and opens the heart to everyone. I read these comments and weep onto my keyboard and stare in your soft smile…your expression that almost suggests you know. Oh, angel baby, take me to your light. I love you so.
Sheri says
I really doubt you will read this after nearly 700 comments, but in case you ever go back through here, I wanted my voice here too.
Yes, you are physically beautiful, as is all your family; however, the true beauty here is in your willingness to recognize a life less than perfect holds treasures reserved only for those able and willing to go through what it takes to have them. You have a knowledge now that few are ever ready to receive. I lost my oldest child to cancer three years ago; he was 13. I know the grief you felt (and will still feel from time to time through the years – that is okay) when you realized the life you planned on, trusted to happen, counted on wasn’t going to be there. It is painful. But it is also about choices. You can become crippled by this kind of hardship and bitter – or you can rise to what it finds within you, learn to live with and push through and triumph as a human being. You are setting a great foundation to do that and I take my hat off to you. It will not be easy; it will, however, be worth it, for you, your husband and your girls.
Congratulations on Nella’s birth and many blessings for the future.
Sheri
Anonymous says
Wow….that was beautiful, im sitting here in tears. And the last black & white pic of your girls…they’re stunning. Well done on your gorgeous family ♥
Shabby Chic Mom says
Honor.
What an honor it is that Nella has chosen you.
What a beautiful little girl.
Mary says
I have never read a more beautiful birth story. The love you have for both of your daughters seeps through your post. It is simply gorgeous. Thank you for sharing
your story. I hope you have many, many, more happy tears.
Mary
Rachel says
Your story and your beautiful family are an amazing inspiration. I was moved to tears (ok, sobs) while reading your words, so raw with emotion. God bless you and your family. Nella is clearly bound for greatness.
Anonymous says
You don’t know me either, but I feel compelled to say something.
I don’t know that I have ever read anything more raw and beautiful. Your and Nella’s story has touched me in a way that I’m not sure I can even begin to describe. All I do know is that God gives angels, like Nella, to very special mama’s, like you. Not everyone deserves to hold, love, cherish such a perfect, little bundle from Heaven.
Thank you for blessing me with your story. You make me want to be a better mother.
Congrats to you on a little slice of Heaven. May God continue to bless you, Nella and your entire family for the rest of your days.
A.G.
D says
Tears streaming down my face because I know this story so well, My angel is now 20 years old, and is the light of my life.
Kristen Heatley says
What a great story…. wow thank you so much for being so open and for sharing your journey. It is going to touch MANY MANY lives. Your daughters are SOOOO cute, and you are very lucky to have such a wonderful family, and other family and friends who so obviously rock. The pictures are wonderful 😀
Anonymous says
Thank you! Your girls are beautiful! To have a child with downs is a gift and a blessing, but also a challenge. You have been chosen, you have been given this precious gift. God bless you!
Anonymous says
I have cried all through this. Cried with your pain, and cried with your happiness. Thank you for your honesty. You’ve brought three great gifts to the world: your daughters, and this story. May God bless you with continued joy.
Once Lost says
Kelle, I am a soul who is and has been lost for the last little while. My husband and I have lost, tried many times through in-vitro and lost again. We then became so blessed to have looked after my sister’s baby off and on for four months and experienced a bond, an attachment and a love like I’ve never felt for any other thing or person in my life, and never knew I could. We experienced so many of his “firsts”, ones that my sister will never be able to experience or to get back, ones that I will cherish for the rest of my life! And then he was gone…… she was ‘ready’ and took him back. I felt like a part of my heart had been and still is ripped out, to never be replaced or fixed. We were going to adopt before all of this happened with my nephew, but we haven’t been able to go on, or even think about emotionally giving ourselves to someone else only to have some kind of disapointment…again. I think we are terrified, somehow like you were, but for a different reason of course. I have been trying to find ways to help me figure out what my purpose is, where my journey of life is suppose to be taking me now. Your story has somehow helped give me some hope of seeing that maybe I can find a way to love again, I need to because I feel so lost, like something is missing, and that is being able to love and care for someone else’s baby. For someone who is on their own journey and is in a situation needing to be helped for their own reasons. I can help; I can give the love to their child in so many ways possible. I thank-you for sharing
your story of your incredible journey, without it, I would have still been floundering and feeling lost to this day. I hope you will be able to continue adding chapters of your story once and awhile, I’m sure it would help myself and many others who are having their own ‘moments’ and need that little bit of inspiration. I wish you and your family nothing but lots of love and happiness throughout your lives together, but by looking at your incredible pictures it looks like that won’t be a problem.
Thank-you!
Anonymous says
You don’t know me. I had a friend post your blog on a board we belong to. Your story is beautiful. Your writing style is wonderful. Your little Nelle is GORGEOUS. I can feel your love, and though you don’t remember, we all see it in your eyes looking through your labor and delivery photos. You have such a pure heart and amazing friends and family. You are blessed, and the best part is how obvious it is that you KNOW how blessed you are. I feel so much happiness that your little soul found her way to her perfect momma. Thank you for sharing!
Mama Byrd says
OMG I can’t stop crying tears of JOY she is beautiful and PERFECT! Such a blessing.
sarahmarie0730 says
What a beautiful story and a beautiful baby girl! She is absolutely perfect.
A friend of mine shared your blog with me this morning. I have been hooked ever since. Although completely different situations, I have been going through similar emotions and feelings as you and it is nice to know that I am not alone. I lost my brother, who was one of my best friends, in a tragic motorcycle accident. He died on January 22nd – the day that your sweet girl was born.
Thank you again for sharing your story. I look forward to following along. I have a little girl, who is 7 months old. Check out our blog sometime…
http://www.patrickandsarahlynch.blogspot.com
sarahmarie0730 says
Oh, and I wanted to add that our daughters’ name is Nelia:) Very similar to Nella!
Kevin & Beth says
I’ve never read anything so beautiful, so raw, so touching. Nella is so lucky and so are you.
LadyNova says
I am moved to tears with Nella’s story…you have a beautiful family and she’s lucky that you were her chosen Mommy…may your journey be a happy, healthy one full of love and triumphs! Thank you so much for sharing the story of your family.
Jolene - EverydayFoodie says
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. Thank you for sharing your little bunny’s birth story. What a precious angel she is.
Pt's Bible Stuff says
I have a 12 yr old daughter who was born with a genetic condition – we lost her 2 yr old brother many years ago to the same condition. She’s beautiful and smart and compassionate and full of the love of God, and after that initial mourning of the “perfect” child that never was, I am certain that she is where and who God meant her to be. I am so blessed to be her mom. Thank-you for your amazing story – praying for your family and all other mothers who are blessed enough to care for a piece of God’s own heart.
W.L.Kruesel
Kate Wicker @ Momopoly says
I am in tears after poring over your beautiful words and photos. This is the most lovely birth story I have ever read. Thank you for sharing, and thank you for being such a strong witness to the power of love.
Congratulations on your two, perfect, and beautiful girls. My prayers are with all of you.
Amy says
Congratulations on your newest little blessing. She is perfect. She is beautiful. Your joy will only grow and you will reach places you never knew before – I know 🙂
Elizabeth Williams says
This is a beautiful storyAnd reminds me so so much of the day my sister Natalie was born. Nat has DS. My mom’s story is very similar to yours. She had no idea what was coming. At all. And that was baby number 7 after 6 very normal and healthy births of “normal” babies. Natalie is 17 now and as amazing as the day she was born. She has changed our lives a million times over. God bless you and your family. You ARE forever changed:)
Anonymous says
Hi Kelle,
I don’t know you personally but I feel like I know you so much better than I know many of my friends. I came across your “birth story” yesterday. I couldn’t get my eyes off of the computer and I couldn’t get any closer to the screen. I cried and cried and cried and believe me I don’t cry easily. You write so well that I could imagine myself being there the whole time. I read it 3 times yesterday. I looked at your previous posts and marveled at your ability to write and capture all the beautiful moments with your darling daughter. Lainey is one beautiful girl. I hope that one day when I have a child I could be half of you…
You’ve totally moved me, changed me since yesterday. Your story is very powerful and real. When my husband came home last night I told him that I feel so much calmer and “different” because I had spent all day reading your blog. The dirty stained grout of the kitchen tile that I haven’t been able to clean didn’t matter anymore. And I didn’t care if our utility cabinet doesn’t get finished this weekend….I came to realize how much more I love my family and I do want to start a blog myself…
I don’t have a child myself yet. I do have a developmentally disabled sister who I’ve care for all my life. Often I wonder what if one day I give birth to a special needs person also? how would I feel? what would I do? Well you’ve answered it all for me in great detail. Now, I don’t worry about it and will welcome anything.
I woke up this morning and the first thing after checking my email was to go to your blog and see if you posted anything…you’ve really influenced me in a way no one ever has. I admire you a lot and look forward to reading more of your stories.
Thanks for writing.
MrsKeller says
This is the most honest, sweet, amazing story I have ever read. It is so raw, and so emotion filled.. the outpouring from your friends and family, and their wonderful words give me hope. They give me hope for the world, and hope for the future.. a future where your daughter will be embraced with the amazing joy, love, and life that she deserves.
I’m blessed to have read this..
Anonymous says
I think your daughter is gorgeous, and your beautiful story has inspired me to take the difficult times in life and turn them into wonderful experiences. Thank you so much for sharing this!
Noel says
you have two beautiful girls and this birth story was just amazing! Thank you for sharing!
Angie says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story about your daughters. I pray they will always be the best of friends as I am with my sister. I also hope and pray for the same for my two little girls age 6 and 3. You are an amazing writer and I can’t wait to hear more from you. Not many are willing to share such deep emotional feelings with the world, and I praise you for that. I am sure you and your girls will bless many lives. You touched mine. Thank you!
They are both adorable and perfect little dolls! You are a lucky mom and I can tell where they get their good looks!
Gail - Fort Rock Glimpses says
Thank you for having the courage to share your story. I know you and your family will be fine. You were chosen to be the Mamma of a very special girl.
Sarah says
Your story has blessed my heart. Thank you for being so honest, and taking us through this beautiful journey with you. Your little ones are so beautiful. New follower 🙂
Anonymous says
Thank you thank you thank you. Give those girls kisses from me!
planeangel says
Through my tears I thank you for writing your story. Your honesty is truly a gift and your hope will see you through these amazing years! Much love, Sara
Anonymous says
You told your story so well, I was in tears you drew me in and I felt your pain but most important, I felt your love,,,The love you have for your girls and your family, You are a beautiful and wonderful woman. May God continue to bless you and yours always.
Sue says
Nella is Beautiful!!! She is a blessing from God 🙂
Lana's Blog says
That was beautiful, thank you so much for sharing.
You Paid More Than Me says
and now I have hot tears streaming down my face. I thank you for sharing your story, what a blessing you are, God bless your family!
abbigail says
I dont know if you’ll ever read this because soooo many people left comments. The first picture on the blog of Nella I thought was one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen! She is a doll and what courage it must have taken to accept all of this suddenly. How inspiring you are. And may your life with your bunny be wonderful!
Jen says
What a beautiful, honest story. My son has special needs – and you put words to the feelings I felt when we found out. May the Lord bless you and your beautiful family.
sippy cup mom says
What an incredible and life changing story…my friend, I feel I know you, and thank you for sharing this part of your life with me. You are such a lovely writer, it makes you put everything into perspective. She is perfect.
Amanda says
just touching. how else can i say it? this literally brought tears to my eyes. i will def be looking forward to reading about the rest of your journey!
Anonymous says
Oh my goodness, I haven’t cried like that for a long time. It takes me back to the birth of my little boy, Peter, who is now 6. He has Down Syndrome as well, but I didn’t find out till a day after he was born.
I couldn’t love anyone more than I love Pete. I had the same worries that you did about how life would be for his big brother. But my 9-year old, Griffin, loves Pete more than life itself.
You have 2 absolutely beautiful girls. Thank you so much for sharing you story with us.
Bridget
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/peterpirie
Anonymous says
I dont even know you, or your perfect daughters.
But your story has touched my heart more than I ever thought words could.
From the deepest of deep parts of my heart/body/soul thank you.
Tina says
Hi Kelle –
It is nice to meet you through your story. Your blog post was posted on the down syndrome network here in the Bay Area by another mother touched by your story. We are a group of mothers who have all felt exactly what you felt last month. Unfortunately, we have not all had such wonderful pediatricians to help us get through that very first night. I’m so happy to hear that yours had such a positive message to leave you with.
Now, you will begin the journey of raising this beautiful baby girl. I am almost seven years in and can tell you that the emotions of the very first day stay with you forever as your love for your child grows more everyday and you learn more about down syndrome.
Please know that there will be other moments when tears flow – both happy and sad. You will celebrate this daughters first steps like you’ve never celebrated before. You will watch her work so hard to accomplish the things that came so easily to you’re first daughter that throwing a party will feel in order for each new accomplishment. Some days you will cry when she just tries with every inch of her energy to do something that she is just not ready to do yet. Know that it will come.
I sit here writing this with my sweet 6 1/2 year old daughter with DS sitting next to me pretending to be my doctor and I can’t believe how long it’s been since I spent that eight hour night crying my eyes out. It feels like we’ve already lived a lifetime with her. There have been moments of joy and moments of complete frustration but now that I have her 4 1/2 year old “typical” brother – I know that you have this with all children.
You are at the very beginning of your new life. Know that you have a huge support group out here who know exactly what you’re feeling and that your never alone in your feelings and thoughts. There will be so many questions that we can help you answer or just listen when you need it.
I am sure you have down syndrome network in your area and I urge you to join it. It makes a world of a difference. Or feel free to reach out to those of us who have responded to your blog. We have a world of knowledge between us that no doctor could ever have. The National Down Syndrome Conference will also be in Orlando, Florida this July but that may be to much information at this point in time.
If I could recommend one more thing, it would be to by the video about the first 18 months on this site http://www.woodbinehouse.com/main.asp_Q_product_id_E_0-9748071-0-9_A_.asp .
Good luck on this adventure. You look like you’re already off to a good start. If you ever have questions or just want to chat with someone who’s been there – email me at tashamalla@hotmail.com
She’s beautiful!
Tina
Leanna says
Thank you so, so much for sharing your story. I am confident that I will never forget these words.
Right now I’m kind of speechless, but I wanted to say that you are a beautiful soul, and both of your wonderful daughters are so blessed to have you as their mama.
mommaquincy says
It sounds like she came to the right family! I wish you joy in the journey!
momto6kids says
CONGRATULATIONS on your perfect little girl! She is so beautiful, so precious! Our 6th baby has Ds and he is 9 months old. I can say every day holds more beauty and treasure than the previous day before it. ENJOY this journey! It is a sweet and wonderful journey indeed. Debbie
Andie says
That is one of the most amazing stories I think I have ever read. I read it during my lunch at work and had tears running down my face. I admire your courage to share it with the rest of the world and believe that your story will help others who face a similar situation.
Your daughters are gorgeous 🙂
Mary says
I sit here with tears in my eyes reading the story of your miracle Nella. You are truly blessed to have been chosen for such an honor, to be your little girls mother. May God be with you as you walk this journey. It’s going to be fantabulous!!!
The Forscheins says
Congratulations!!! A friend of mine posted this on FB and I’ve had tears of pain AND great JOY running down my face as I read it. What beauty captured here!! MUCH LOVE!!!
Rebecca says
Absolutely beautiful. The story. You. Your family. Your daughters. God Bless.
Anonymous says
I am speechless at the sheer power and beauty of your story. May God bless you, your family and your blessed little angel! She is a gift of love from above!
Veronica says
Thank you for your story…your honesty…your recovery…your open heart…your blessings.
Mary Margaret says
What a beautiful family you have! Your birth story was very touching. Thank you for sharing with other!
The Dugan's says
Thank you for sharing this. My son was born 2 years ago with Spina Bifida, which we didn’t know about until after he was born. In so many ways I relate to your birth story. I have come to realize that I am the proud mom of a child with special needs for a very specific reason. Every day I do thank God for the small things.
Dara says
Kelle– I don’t know you, and probably never will..and if I ever get the chance to actually talk to you, I will feel VERY blessed. I just got done reading this story, and I will tell you I’m STILL crying my eyes out. Someone on CafeMom.com posted it, and that is where I got the link from. Lanie, AND Nelle are both VERY VERY beautiful! I’m due with my first little girl March 13, 2010…and I’ve been TERRIFIED that something is going to be wrong with her when she is born…Reading this story has opened my eyes, and let me know that NO MATTER what happens, and whether she has issues or not I will…and I repeat I WILL love my baby regardless!!!! I commend you for posting this, and I thank you for sharing!!!!! You’re truly an inspiration to MANY MANY people, and your little girls will grow up knowing they’ve also touched someone as well…well touched MANY MANY people! Thank you SOOOOOO SOOO much for sharing!
Stephanie says
What a beautiful story. Thank you so much for sharing it.
Victoria says
this blog was linked to some birth groups in babycenter. some of those birth groups are full of women waiting to hear if they are having a DS child or not, based on daunting initial tests. i am one of those women. i have a 1 in 5 chance of having a down’s syndrome baby. my husband and i go in tomorrow for an amnio to find out for sure.
you have no idea how much reading this tonight has meant for me…i will take this story, the pictures of your exceptionally beautiful nella, your honesty, your acceptance…all will come with me into that cold room. and i will smile, though may be in tears at the unknowing, at either possibility.
thank you for sharing this. without the darkness in the honesty, it wouldn’t have impacted so deeply. i wish you and nella a happy journey achieving all of the milestones you plan on and bunch more she’ll surprise you with.
Lisa says
What a beautiful story and what an even more BEAUTIFUL BABY!
Congratulations to you and your family.
Regan Anne says
What a wonderful story. You are lucky to have her, and she is lucky to have you. I wish your whole family a life of happiness.
Amy says
She is so beautiful. So is your honesty. Thank you.
Anonymous says
A friend posted your story on Facebook. After reading it, I remembered this quote from Chuck Colson’s Breakpoint on 2/4/2010 entitled “Who Belongs”. “…While she was speaking metaphorically, for some children the threat of actual violence is all too real. And it’s because our culture is increasingly unable to imagine sharing this world with people like them.
These are children with Down syndrome. As the Weekly Standard once put it, they have been “targeted for elimination.” The combination of genetic testing, abortion, and pressure by both physicians and insurance companies has resulted in an estimated 90 percent abortion rate for fetuses diagnosed with Down syndrome.
All of this has happened despite the fact that people with Down syndrome can, with the proper assistance, live lives that are “strikingly normal.”
I once heard a Priest say that people like Nella are so very essential for the rest of humanity. They teach us how to be fully human; compassionate, empathic, and giving.
God bless you as you raise up one of the chosen. She has already begun to fulfill her reason for being.
Julie M says
From those of us that have given birth, adopted, had a Ds child come into their family, you have received an angel from God. When you are ready come join us at Downsyndrome Adoption Group Group at Yaooh.com. You will find birth moms that had kept their Ds babies, moms that have surrened their baby for adoption, moms that have adopted, individuals that work with Ds individuals and somethat just love our kids.
We adopted 2 boys and a girl. I wouldn’t trade a day for each of them for anything.
By reading your post, Nella has the best set of parents she could have received. Enjoy her.
Scarlett says
Thanks you for sharing you story about your beautiful family. Your honesty and raw emotion literally had me in tears. You reminded me to be thankful in all the perfect blessings in our lives.
Lindsay says
I am completely speechless and sobbing at this most beautiful story. Her beautiful face took my breath away. Your words were piercing and were perfection to any mother who has been in a similar experience. Thank you for your words.
lisa says
You have beautiful girls! Thank you for sharing – it totally made my night!
MP0807 says
What a beautiful and honest story. I know how difficult it was for you to put your heart and soul out there for everyone to see. Thank you for sharing.
Indigo says
I found the link to this entry on some parenting board. I’ve been sitting here for well over an hour, reading and reading again, with tears flowing nonstop. My little boy doesn’t have DS, but he does have severe autism. You have no idea how badly I needed to read this right now. The journey with a special needs child can be a very lonely one, no matter how many people are around us, and scary and heartbreaking.
But it’s also a thrilling journey that takes us to places we never imagined, that moves us and touches us in ways that can’t be described because they are just too wonderful for words.
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful girl… and as they say… “Welcome to Holland”.
Indigo says
I found the link to this entry on some parenting board. I’ve been sitting here for well over an hour, reading and reading again, with tears flowing nonstop. My little boy doesn’t have DS, but he does have severe autism. You have no idea how badly I needed to read this right now. The journey with a special needs child can be a very lonely one, no matter how many people are around us, and scary and heartbreaking.
But it’s also a thrilling journey that takes us to places we never imagined, that moves us and touches us in ways that can’t be described because they are just too wonderful for words.
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful girl… and as they say… “Welcome to Holland”.
Aubrey says
That is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read! The story was beautiful, the pictures- beautiful, and your darling girls-just BEAUTIFUL! The Lord must think so highly of you and your family to bless you with such magnificent daughters!
Shirley Casey says
A friend of mine passed along your blog address and told us to read your birth story…What a beautiful story! Thank you for sharing. Nella is truly blessed to have you. Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl!
Rina the Mama Bear says
I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, for tearing your heart of your chest and showing it to all of us. This is one of the most beautiful pieces of writing I have read in a long time – I was smiling, I was shocked, I was moved to sudden tears and finally, I was so happy for all of you.
When my son was born, we went through much of the same. He’s two now, and still does not have a specific diagnosis. When he was placed in my arms, I felt much the same as you, and oh my goodness the guilt and shame.
Your story, your family’s story, is wonderful and lovely and needs to be read. I do hope that you publish a book!
Congratulations to all of you. Nella is so beautiful and perfect. 🙂
The Lehnick Family says
Beautiful story…tears are streaming down my face…congrats on a beautiful gift from God…I have 3 children and our youngest has Down syndrome… he is 21 months old and I thank God every minute of the day for him! So happy for you!
Anonymous says
Congatulations!! What a precious gift you have received from the god. Your girls are adorable.
Anonymous says
A beautiful, poignant story that touched my very soul. Nella a one lucky girl to have a mother like you – God bless you & your family
~*Michelle*~ says
Tears streaming down…..thank you for sharing one of the most beautiful stories I have ever heard. Thank you for sharing your raw truth, and most of all…..thank you for sharing Nella.
Domestic Goddess says
I’m so glad I followed the link to your post! Congratulations! I have children with special needs (and a brother-in-law with downs) and you sum it up beautifully. You said it perfectly. I wish all Mommas thought as you do.
There will be many, many ups and downs. But the ups are so sweet and make the downs (no pun intended, I swear) worth it.
Your family is so beautiful. How awesome you have those pictures! Congrats!
Anonymous says
That was like hearing my own story being told by someone else. My baby Cole was born 7 weeks premature and the next morning the NICU nurses told the doctor they felt he had Down Syndrome. When the doctor hit me with that news, all the air left the room. I prayed with all my heart that the genetics test would come back negative for Trisomy 21 – but God answered my prayer differently than I expected. The geneticist let us know Cole had Down Syndrome, but in the 3 days waiting for the results I fell absolutely in love with this little boy just the way he was. God showed me the rainbow after the storm. Kim Quintela
Holli (and Mark) says
I am speechless. This was posted as a link on babycenter where I belong to several boards. I like many was on the floor sobbing with you as you sobbed and then rejoiced with you as your daughters brought you new love. I too have found an unexpected burst your heart wide open kind of love in my twin boys. They were born severely premature at just a pound and a half each and have been through a tremendous rollercoaster in their young lives. One of my sons was also born with spina bifida. He has challenges now and ahead and I had to go through the period of grieving when you want EVERYTHING for your child and then some and don’t want to imagine having them struggle with ANYTHING. (which is crazy, because we ALL have struggles, thats how we grow). But you no know what I mean. I wish I could express myself half as articulately as you have. You have described this journey as I have lived it. Thank you for speaking so honestly, so lovingly. You are an amazing writer and even more so mother. I have shared this link with my family and friends because I find you so inspirational. Your daughters are beautiful!!!!! Thank you for sharing them!!!
Holli
ourdoubleblessings.blogspot.com
Rebecca says
What a beautiful story. And she is a gorgeous little thing.
Cris says
You don’t know me. I am a mom of 4 and a physical therapist who has worked with “special” kiddos – incredible kiddos – for the past 10 years. Your story moved me beyond words as both. Thank you for reminding me what our parents face and being an awesome example of allowing yourself to heal and look forward. Enjoy your beautiful baby girl!!!
Jenny May McKim says
This seriously is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. I experienced all the emotions I feared all over again when reading your story from my own story.
Our stories do not end the same, but as I sit here reading the story for a second time my little twin girls are looking at me wondering why their mother is crying… How beautiful is all I can say!
Misc Jenn says
I’m just a random stopper-by who wanted to say Thank You for sharing. This touched me so much. I am so thankful for God and for your daughter’s health. Blessings upon you.
Amber Morrisey says
Congratulations!
Your daughter and love for each other are beautiful.
This post was very much needed, and I thank you for posting it.
What a great way to start my Monday morning, I hope everyday you share together you feel how lucky you are.
Warmly,
Amber Morrisey
The Super Seven says
Wow!!! What a beautiful story. A friend had linked this on her blog and I’m so glad that you shared this moment in your life with all of us, some who you don’t even know. I cried as I read this, I felt that heartache even though I don’t know how you felt but at the end I could feel the overwhelming love that you have for this sweet angel you have been blessed with. She is just beautiful and will touch your life in ways that you can’t even imagine. I’m sure that it won’t always be an easy road but with you and everyone else by her side she will do wonderful things in this life. Enjoy all the moments you can with your girls, they grow up fast!!! Again, thank you for sharing this touching story with us all…..
ET @ Titus2:3-5 says
Your raw and beautiful story transported me back to the delivery room, almost 12 years ago, when I saw my firstborn child – a boy – and saw that “something was wrong.” It wasn’t until he was 5 years old that we had a diagnosis of cerebral palsy (and epilepsy). Each new milestone in life brings joy, and yet another season of grief – for he is exactly who he always was, who God intended for him to be, yet he is completely different from who I expected him to be.
Have you ever heard the story, “Welcome to Holland?” Speaks to the heart of a mother with a precious, beautiful, special child… http://www.our-kids.org/Archives/Holland.html
Beth says
Your daughter is so beautiful. I just read your entry and all of the emotions of my sweet Sarah’s birth came flooding back. She will be turning 9 on Feb. 22 and she has brought such love and richness to our family. My older three children have become much more grounded, loving people with their priorities in place because of their baby sister. Your Lainey will be a much deeper person because of Nella. Thank you for your candor. Your words are beautiful and honest. I ask the Lord’s continued blessing on your wonderful family.
Linda says
Beautiful, beautiful girls. Thank you so much for sharing this story.
Anonymous says
What a wonderful and beautifully told story! Such touching words and pictures you have shared with us. Nella is absolutely beautiful little girl.
Denise says
She is beautiful, your family is beautiful and Nella knows that she is loved completely.
Anonymous says
I just wanted to Thank You. Thank You from the depths of my being. My husband and myself have had conversations about the what ifs of DS and what we would do. I felt a terrible sense of not knowing and that I would be a monster and give up, rather than give in. Your story cemented for me, I know exactly what and who I would be, I’d have another angel to love, like I love my son. Not a sacrifice, a blessing like any other child. Thank you. All the best to you and your family. You’re touched many with your experience, for myself.. thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Blessings From Above says
This is the most beautiful blog post that I have ever read. Seriously, the BEST.
Congratulations on your gorgeous, perfect, daughters!
Rebekah says
Beautiful story! May God bless you and Nella and your family as you all grow together.
Becky in Birmingham, AL
Jackie Blue says
Wishing you all a beautiful, blessed life…..May the Lord be with you, always!
Sean says
CONGRATULATIONS and Welcome to the Club. My son is 16 and still amazes me daily. Thank you for sharing your beautiful baby wonderful writing and incredble pictures with us all.
This Heavenly Life says
What a beautiful testament of love! The words and pictures are gorgeous…but how could they be otherwise? Your blessings are so apparent, and they shine through. Thank you for sharing this.
Kandie says
I love your story. Your daughter is beautiful and God blessed you with this special little girl because he knew that you and your family had the love and the ability to take care of one of his special angels. My aunt had Down Syndrome. She lived till the age of 54 and was amazing. I loved every min of being with her teaching her new things as her neice younger then her I knew so many different things. But she knew more than I ever thought one could know. LOVE — Unconditional love GOD — the love and power and friendship of God. Along with my aunt my brother has Cerebral Palsy, Cerebral Hemorrhage, Epilepsy, and he is blind. This man is the light of my life! I am a proud little sister. I love him more and more each day and he taught me the truest meaning of unconditional love.
I my self am pregnant with my very own lil man. It is a blessing that I even fell pregnant, I have endometriosis. I am 20 weeks and the Dr.’s all wanted me to do the testing to see if my child would have any of the “deformities” — as of now he doesnt but to me it wouldnt matter if he did.
I am so proud that you were able to share your story. It gives hope and aspiration to many other mothers and mom-to-be’s.
Anonymous says
Your story is the most wonderful honest thing I have ever read. You my dear are an AWESOME Mom. Nella is so beautiful and lucky! Thank you so much for sharing your story.
Anonymous says
This was my birth story exactly with my sweet baby daughter, Jayma Lani. I cried because it brought me back to that moment and then brought my heart such joy to know who she is now. She just turned 2 and we could not be more proud of who she is and what she has accomplished in her short life.
She is just such a blessing and you and your family will know love and acceptance and joy like you have ever known because of her. In our DS group it is a common thing to hear people say they have never known love like they do now.
Praise God for her and we will pray for you and your family and your journey. God bless you! Cari and Kamau Canton
Elijah (Proud 4 year old brother) and Princess Jayma Lani
Lauren says
Twenty six years ago, I was the big sister in this story. Hers was a home birth and I was so excited. I even cut her umbilical cord!!
I just wanted to tell you that sometimes is was hard being Leah’s big sister. But i would NEVER trade it for the world. She made me grow up with such a better, open view of life. She gets on a plane by herself and visits me for Sister Weekends.
Thank you for sharing.
Heather Colletto says
Thank you so much for having the courage to share your story. You are letting Nella touch people in such an amazing way.
Crystal says
You are an *amazing* mother! Thank you for sharing a page of your life. Such honesty, emotion and, more than anything, such an awe-inspiring display of unconditional love. Congratulations on both of your beautiful daughters!
Kelly says
Your story of Nella’s arrival was so similar to mine. The knowing the moment baby was handed to you. The terrible first night and the sunrise that brought such hope and love.
God bless you and your beautiful family. The world really is a better place with Nella here in it. 🙂
Katie @ Heart Gone Walking says
That was unbelievably beautiful, moving and so honest. Thank you for sharing. Your daughters *are* gorgeous and perfect.
Laura says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful, beautiful story. God bless you and your sweet little gals!
Adventures In Babywearing says
Wow. Oh my goodness, what a beautiful story. And what a beautiful family you all are.
Steph
The "Skis" says
I just stumbled upon your blog. I cried as I read it and it brought me back to 12/14/08 when I experienced something similar. Except the fact we had some idea that our sweet girl (Abby) might have DS. She had a heart condition that is typical of DS and I spent 20 weeks praying she wouldn’t have it. Your Nella’s birth story brought back many of my emotions. How I felt the hours and days afterwards. The pictures you have are beautiful. Your girls are beautiful. Your sister’s words are wonderful.
I felt the same wonder – we have another daughter, how will her life change and how will ours. There is so much I want to say to you. You are right. You are a family and things will be great. Nella will amaze you and teach you things that you thought you already knew about love. She will teach people – even strangers – and you will be amazed. There are books (if you haven’t been told already there is one called “Gifts” by Kathryn Lynard Soper that is wonderful).
I will enjoy reading about your journey (and seeing the beautiful pictures). If interested my story (which ended very differently from yours) can be found in a few places but linked in my blog: http://www.upanddowntheskislope.blogspot.com
Thank you for sharing such personal feelings – you have touched many people already.
Jennifer
Sarah@EmergingMummy says
I’m another stranger to you. But here, in Vancouver, Canada, I’m weeping at my desk, rejoicing and full of prayer. This is beautiful and so is your sweet Nella. Grace and peace be with you always.
Lora Lynn @ Vitafamiliae says
You and your girls are so beautiful. Thank you for being brave and sharing your story.
Joann says
Thank you so much for sharing this. You have a gift for writing and to write about something like this and be so transparent is a breath of fresh air. May God bless your family and grow and stretch you all!
6dimits@embarqmail.com says
Beautiful story, beautiful baby and a perfect ending….
Congratulations to you and your family and thank you for sharing this most beautiful story through not only your words but your photographs as well.
mary jo says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful, amazing inspiring story. I wish you and your family all the happiness, peace and blessings you are so deserving of.
Lindsey Smith says
The 1st picture I saw of Nella I cried so hard, I honestly LOVE her so much. I think she is one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen. Congratulations, you have an angel in your midst. Thank you for sharing you story with me, I loved it and I will think of you and your beautiful Nella often.
hayley says
a friend emailed me the link to your birth story, and told me to be prepared to need the tissues. i immediately thought “oh no… she must have a stillborn, or a baby that dies from some horrible complication after birth!” i steeled myself and read on. as a mother of two little ones myself, i have a hard time reading about that kind of devastating loss.
i did indeed need the tissues, but i was overjoyed to discover that this story was not about the death of a baby…rather, a fresh new life that gave death only to ideals. what a beautiful journey you have shared with us all so honestly. you’ve spoken real words to the fears and doubts that live in the backs of ALL of our minds when we decide to bring a child into this world, knowing the risks and pretending it couldn’t happen to us.
but it COULD happen, to any one of us. thank you for showing us that, not only is there life on the other side, but that life is a beautiful, blessed one.
all the best to you and your precious gift.
justine says
Just beautiful <3
Jeanne says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful family with the world.
I read your birth story about baby Nella about 5 days ago. The beauty and grace of your family has not left me yet. I think about your little family and I just smile. I was in awe of your honesty and sharing of your story. It was a beautiful story. Your two daughters are really blessed to have such a creative and wonderfully loving mom as yourself.
Thank you for opening up my soul and letting your family’s beauty warm my heart.
Anonymous says
Like so many others on here, I felt like I was reading my own story. Especially the clothes- the maternity clothes were a bitter reminder of the joy and excitement that I found hard to find in the early days. I take such comfort in knowing my feelings were normal, and can tell you 11 years later, I wouldn’t want know life without him and his Down syndrome. It has brought many wonderful people into our lives and helped me to become a better mother to my other 3 children. You have written “our” story beautifully. Give Nella a kiss from her fans!
Debbie says
Kelle, I came across your blog by accident. I have yet to begin my life story but I am absolutely in love with yours. I come to work and read Nella’s story everyday and cry everyday… I cry because God is so perfect that He decided to pair you guys up and He knew exactly why. I have so much to say but I really don’t know how to express it. I wholeheartedly believe you should write a book so others can have the pleasure of hearing your story. God Bless
Rick says
It has been a long time since I cried like I did when I read Nella’s birth story.
I invite you to visit my Facebook page to see pictures of me and Leah, the light of my life and the person who taught me how to love.
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1453203799&v=feed
Malia says
I don’t know you and I’ve never read your blog before. I followed a link that I saw posted on Twitter and I’m so very glad that I did. Nella’s story, your story, is inspiring and beautiful and so raw and honest. I am humbled and moved.
Nori Coleman says
Your story is one of great love and honesty.Your daughters are both so beautiful. The pictureas are absolutely gorgeous. I would love to see them up in an ob/ gyn’s office to help other women who may be pregnant with a baby with Down Syndrome. Nine out of ten women are being coaxed into aborting their precious babies with Downs. What a tragedy they won’t get to experience what true love is as you have. I hope there will be stories published in magazines like the one you have blessed us with showing us how to perfect the love within with God’s grace. You are on to something big here with your new baby and your family is so special in the world today! Congradulations!!!
Miss-buggy says
I know you don’t know me from a bug on the screen but I am so glad I was directed to your blog. The post was beautifully amazing. You have great family and friends. You are truly blessed. Such a special angel sent to you that God feels like only YOU would do well raising her. Loving her.
I have always feared that I would love my d.s. child and my family won’t. But if God decides to give me that blessing then I will remember you and what you have written. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for accepting this gift and the challenge that lays ahead. BEAUTIFUL! she is adorable and so sweet.
Melissa, Multi-Tasking Mama says
I am in complete tears reading this. Thank you for being the type of mama every child should have!
Lucas Barrientes says
Love… is patient, love is kind. Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails.
Thank you for sharing this miracle story with us all. The world has been filled with so much more love through the birth of your angel…
-Lucas
MelissaNJ says
The greatest stories are written from the heart – and this one is epic..a masterpiece.
I have spent days reading and rereading your blog…. taking in each picture…. each word…
The amazing thing is how much your pictures capture your story. I started reading from the begining – and your pictures let me into your world. I could see your families joy, excitement, passion, and love for your life. Your family is beautiful inside and out.
After seeing your pictures it is clear why God gave you Nella. You have such a gift to capture the beauty in everything you see – including Nella. Some people see the glass 1/2 full, some people see the glass 1/2 empty, and you simply see the beauty in the glass.
Your words are moving….. touching…. inspirational. I have no doubt that one day your story will be on the New York Times Bestseller List. You have a gift – share it with the world.
I will continue to follow your blog because it reminds me of the beauty that is still in the world. It reminds me to hug my daughter extra tight at night, because every moment matters – every moment should be etched in my heart.
Thank you for inspiring me – for reminding me that beauty can be found in every situation.
Melissa in NJ
may says
I sobbed. And then I told my husband about it and showed him the pictures and even he cried a little. You seem like a great mom and a good, honest person and a terrific writer. Your daughters are beautiful, and I love, love, love that last picture. SO sweet. Your love is a beautiful thing.
Sarah, Addison and Lillian says
Look at what Nella has already done…she has touched so many lives!
There is no limit to LOVE. You are continuing to learn that and are sharing it with the world. Thank you.
OConnellFamily says
beautiful.
Alexandra says
I am sitting here with tears of joy running down my face. She is so beautiful.
Anonymous says
Thank you for your story. I was amazing to read, as my little boy was born with Down Syndrome in October of last year. Thank you for putting into words some of the same feelings I have felt. I feel so blessed to have this little boy in our lives and feel he is a gift from God. Thank you again for your story and for sharing your life.
Julie says
I just found your blog today . . . I wanted to tell you that your story is absolutely beautiful! God entrusted this beautiful baby to you and your husband! Congratulations!
Jessica says
Thanks for sharing, I am crying as I write this. I am 5 months pregnant with our 1st girl (we have two little boys) and it just makes me think that you never know what is around the corner. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of real life with us.
Kendra says
I just want to say THANK YOU. I’m 24 weeks pregnant with my very first and scared to death. But so in love with this little being in me that I can’t even express it.
I cried several times reading this for reasons I’ve yet to accept in my own life. Perfection isn’t textbook…it’s love and life intertwined…
Anonymous says
Oh Kelle, you have the most beautiful family. I can’t believe how I felt while reading your blog. That is truly one of the most amazing birth stories I’ve ever read. I felt like I was right there with you every step of the way! You are amazing, momma. Never forget that. And so are your special angels. They are the luckiest little girls in the world. I don’t even know you and I love you for every beautiful word you wrote. Thank you for sharing the story of Nella. Amazing. Thank you.
Mandie
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for telling your beautiful story so truthfully. As an expectant mom of my second, I appreciate it so much and feel your joy and pain.
Blessings to you on this journey.
Betsy
http://www.betsykingphoto.com
Megan says
Beautiful and honest and resfreshing and moving. You’re daughters are both stunning.
Scary Mommy says
I don’t know that I have ever read something more beautiful. You, your girls are a gift. It has been an honor to share them for a moment. Thank you.
Sarah says
I was given the link to your blog today, and have only read the birth of Nella, but plan to read previous posts as well.
Thank you for sharing, and baring your soul so we could all have a glimpse of the reality of what you went through. I will never forget your story.
I have an NT scan next week, and I have already told the dr if this peanut has DS that they better NEVER mention termination, because it is still my gift from God. I am so glad Nella is healthy and was given such a special mom. She will teach you all something great about this world.
God Blessed you and I am so pleased you can see it.
S,E, & J's mum says
Kelle, thank you for sharing your amazing story & beautiful photos. Our little treasure wasn’t diagnosed till he was nearly 4 months old, what a shock it was & I can remember praying for God to take him back. Jonah is now 7 months old & the most perfect thing we’ve ever ‘done’. We adore him, extra chromosome & all, and his big brothers think he’s the most perfect little guy ()& he is!!!). Look forward to hearing more of your journey. Blessings, Ange xoxo
Insomniac Mummy says
This is the most beautiful blog post I’ve ever read.
Congratulation to you and your family and welcome to the world Nella.
She is beautiful.
xxx
Manic Mother says
She really is beautiful! It really can be scary when we realize we can’t control our fate, but it is also freeing.
My 2 year old was diagnosed with leukemia last May. It shook all of us to our core. But now that we are past the shocking reality, we somehow feel wiser, stronger, luckier. As I am sure you already know having a special needs child will change you, but for the better, and in ways you never even imagined.
Congrats again!
Jaidey_Girl says
You’re story just made me cry. I felt all your pain, and all your joy. My friend posted a link to this page on Facebook, and I’m not sure why I clicked on it but I’m glad I did. You’re story is empowering and raw and real. It shows humanity and humility, and I’m so thankful you decided to shared it with the world! And you’re right… Nella is perfect, and beautiful, and you are blessed! She will no doubt face challenges, and trials, but I’m sure you and your family will be there to give her all the help and love she needs to battle through life’s journey.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story, and family, and photos! Stay strong! Love hard!
Anonymous says
What a beautiful family, and beautiful soul you have! You must read the poem Welcome to Holland!
Sara Plays House says
Beautiful and amazing are much too small of words to describe your family.
Nothing about this road will be easy–nothing but the love. That shines through perfectly.
You are so blessed–congratulations!
Cara says
What a beautiful, breathtaking story you and your little girl and your husband and your little big girl have, Kelle. Thank you for sharing it with the world. God is being glorified in you.
Suzi says
Such a lovely tribute and testimony to your lovely daughter. You are beginning an amazing journey. I just found your blog tonight and it’s touched me so warmly–you’re an amazing photographer as well. Take care and love on that beautiful family.
JRS says
Beautiful. Just beautiful. Congratulations on the birth of your gorgeous baby girl and welcome to the club. It’s a pretty great one.
—Jen (& Sophie)
Anonymous says
Your family is beautiful. Thank you for writing this, and thank you for sharing the wonderful photos. How blessed you are!
Melissa says
She is just precious. What a beautiful birth story.
Christy says
a friend shared your post with me and I’m so thankful that she did. You wrote a beautiful love story about your beautiful little girls. Your sister is correct when she told you that you are privileged & blessed – God choose YOU and your husband to give this perfect gift to 🙂 how amazing!
Thank you for sharing your story…it’s simply breathtaking
Katina says
Your baby is so lucky to have you. God knew what He was doing. I am so deeply moved by your love for this baby. I am praying for you on your journey. Enjoy every minute of your blessing.
Nicole says
Your story is amazing. You are an amazing person with an amazing family. The love that you have for your girls…… That is love, real love. I wish you all the best in this world.
Angela says
This was such a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing your heart honestly and lovingly! Both of your daughters are beautiful and you were chosen to be their mother. What a precious gift!
Stella says
This is quite possibly the most beautiful honest piece of writing I have ever read and the pictures are just wonderful.
Congratulations on your gorgeous new little girl- she is perfect in every way! And congratulations to her new big sister!
Dena says
This is the sweetest birth story I have ever read. Remarkable. Nella is darling…and oh so perfect, just how God intended her to be. What a lucky little girl to have a mama like you and what a blessed mama you are.
Jesica says
the only thing my 5 year old daughter had to say as she was looking intently at your beautiful photos of nella and your family was “awwwwww that baby is so cute!” and she is, and she is so loved.truly loved.congratulations and thank you for sharing your beautiful story.
ExtraordinaryMommy says
Simply beautiful. So honest, so touching, so REAL. Thank you for opening your heart and soul and sharing something so deep – it will only serve to inspire – I am sure of it.
I have never been to visit you before, but am so touched – your girls (and you) are just gorgeous….what a perfect angel smile…..
Griswold Fun says
Beautiful!
Griswold Fun says
Beautiful!
Shelly says
These words were Heaven sent, just like your little Bunny.
This is such a beautiful story. thank you so much for sharing this – you have no idea how many hearts this will touch and for what reasons.
God has a plan. A beautiful plan.
God bless you and your beautiful family!
moplans says
Kelle this is so beautiful
thank you for sharing your girls with us
Sarah says
Wow. I just stumbled across your blog tonight and as I read the story of your sweet daughter’s birth, I was so moved. I found myself crying and feeling the love you have expressed so deeply in your writings. Such a beutiful, touching story- I won’t forget it!
Heather says
Beautiful – too many tears to type. God bless you and your family!
Leah says
Thank you for sharing your story so honestly and beautifully. Congratulations on your sweet baby girl!
Jamie says
I have read this birth story about 5 times today and it has so profoundly affected my day and my thoughts. I cannot even imagine the way you have touched others who have experienced similar situations. You have a gift both in your daughters and in your way with words. Please do write some sort of book I think you could touch so many, but until then I will just continue to read your blog. Thank you to you and to your family! I sit here 23 weeks pregnant and hope I can maintain the change I have felt after reading this.
♥emma stormy♥ says
What an absolutely beautiful and gut-wrenchingly honest post. Both of your girls and your family are totally beautiful. I look forward to following your journey ahead. What an amazing family you are. Blessed by God.
Nicki McFadden says
Congrats to your family on the birth of your precious little girl. Your story was extrememly touching and I can’t wait for your book. I also have a daughter with Down syndrome, she turned 5 in January and I couldn’t imagine life without her.
Anonymous says
I have never read such a beautiful birth story. It has stuck with me for days now. Thank you for sharing this. Many congratulations to you and your husband.
Anonymous says
Just beautiful! Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful and perfect daughter! I know from experience (having my own special needs child) that there are challenges ahead, but there are also joys unlike any other! Prepare to have your heart grow in ways you never imagined!
Laurel says
Thank you for telling Nella’s birth story. It’s one of the most touching things I have ever read.
Anonymous says
Thank you. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
elle says
as i started to read, i told myself i wasn’t going to cry. i’m going to be strong. and here i am, a sobbing mess. the way you told your bunny’s story (omg that name just makes my eyes well up with happy tears) was just so perfect and beautiful – you really took me with you through that walk as best as i think you could have being that it was your experience and never will be mine. no matter what happens, i can’t ever know exactly what happened that day … or night … or next day. what i know is that you are a beautiful mom with two perfect and beautiful children. and how truly blessed are you to have the sister you have to tell you those things so quickly and to have a doctor who would hold your sweet love like that and not judge. not hold any opinion. just love. love YOUR bunny. your special, beautiful, wonderful, angel babe. oh… i cry more and more to think of the love that was poured out on you and your family. i think your little gift has taught me something too. my heart feels bigger and my love deeper. thank you for sharing so honestly the story of sweet nella’s birth. i am forever changed.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing this. It was beautiful.
Restless Housewife says
I just found you through a link on Twitter from Scary Mommy.
Your new baby girl is just absolutely beautiful and adorable. The post is just captivating, heart-wrenching, yet inspiring. Thank you and Congratulations. You have a gorgeous family.
Anonymous says
Your little bundle of JOY is Beautiful, and a precious gift from GOD! Although u brought tears to my eyes I am glad that u are strong enough to share this story. Many babies are born rejected with D.S. This is your baby, a precious gift with or without down syndrome…
Anonymous says
i’m moved to emmense tears in reading this lovely story… knowing that MY precious bunny, my baby sister, my Kelsey has overcome higher mountains than we may know. she has down syndrome, but she has never allowed that to define her. she is strong. she is beautiful. she is graduating from highschool in may. my dear, know that your Nella will bring the same BRILLIANT light into this hazy world like my Kelsey has done. it’s more beautiful than you could ever imagine.
Eileen says
Kelle,
First of all, congratulations to you and your husband on the birth of Nella. She is absolutely beautiful.
You have done such a wonderful job writing this story, I felt like I was in the birthing room with you!
My precious daughter with DS was born a little over 11 years ago. Our experience was similar in that she “told” me through her eyes. I just knew. Even though I had never seen a baby or even a small child with DS before, I just knew. So when the OB told me that’s what they suspected, I just said “I know.”
I did not go through the grieving that you did; I seemed to go into reality mode pretty quickly. But I think that your experience is more common, and I think grieving is so important if that’s what you are feeling.
Please be assured that you will absolutely adore your baby! You will come to understand, if you haven’t already, that God has given you an amazing gift. It’s a special Love that He doesn’t share with just anyone. You will be amazed at what your baby will be able to do. You will experience unspeakable joy, and you will try to tell people what it is like, but not be able to find the human words to do so. (Just as I am now.)
God bless you!
Jana says
Oh my, I can’t really put into words how I feel reading yours and your little bunnies story. My heart is filled with so much love and joy for her. She is beautiful. How you felt, I honestly think I would have felt the same at first, then realize that God had gave me a beautiful gift. I can’t imagine how I would begin to feel. My husband and I talked about such things, no matter what happens, whether our baby is perfect, or maybe is ill. Our baby will be perfect to us no matter what. There may be tears shed, but those tears would turn to joyous tears soon enough. I wish you and your family lots of love. God is wonderful and gives us little blessings to cherish forever.
Andy and Ellen Stumbo says
You have many comments, so I am not sure you will get to read this.
Congratulations! “You will experience shades of color that you never knew were possible.” After 2 years, I still am amazed at the beautiful shades we discover, the sight is breathtaking!
I too have girls. My oldest was 2 when Nichole was born with Down syndrome. We have a picture much like yours, with big sister loving on her new baby. Singing to her, stroking her face.
My girls are great friends, and I burst with pride when my oldest proudly announces to anyone who says the words “I am sorry” that her sister is fun and she gives the best hugs, and that Down syndrome is not bad at all, maybe they should come and get to know her sister because they will see Down syndrome is a good thing.” Sweet words coming from a 4 year old.
Melissa says
Beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your story. May God bless you and your family.
Trev and Rebekah says
Wow! You really should write a book. Thanks for being honest and sharing. I know the pain of wanting a second and losing a baby but for us we don’t know if we’ll have another child or not. She’s beautiful. May God use your story to encourage many others.
Anonymous says
One of my friends on Facebook posted the link to your story. I started reading it at work but my eyes kept filling up with tears! I just finished reading it tonight. What a truly amazing story. Thank you for sharing your heartfelt journey with Nella and your beautiful family. I hope you do write a book – I will be 1st in line to buy it. Wishing a lifetime of blessings on your family!
– Katie L. in CA
Elizabeth says
Kelle- thank you for sharing this. Your life will be so filled with Grace by Nella, as hers will be filled with Grace by you.
Naomi says
“My sister arrived the next day and revolutionized the place with her “I Have a Dream” speech. She told me I swallowed the blue pill. She told me I could never go back. But that I held a key to a door that no one else does. And, with tears in her eyes, she excitedly and passionately told me how lucky I was. She told me that I was chosen and that it is the most special thing in the world. She told me it was going to be just fine.”
Wow. You are so brave and Nella is so lucky that she has you for a mother (and your husband, family and support network). I hope you do write a book about your adventure.
Karrah says
I dont know you , i just came across your daughters story .. but from one mother to another *hugs, congratulation on your perfect little bunny* May all your lives be filled with nothing but happiness.
graphics_queen says
Your story is beautiful. A friend posted a link to this on Facebook and I’m so glad I clicked it. May God bless your family in the days to come as he already has.
Tammy says
Your story is one of the most beautiful and well written I have ever read. I am the mother of a handicapped daughter and you captured so very well the trauma when you first realize things are not what you had planned. I went to bed thinking of your story and woke up knowing I had to write to you and tell you thank you. I also want to cheer you on. This new journey you are on will be so very challenging but also one of the most rewarding. You will forever have moments when you look at this child and know deep down in your soul that THIS is what God wants you to be like. THIS child is a beautiful expression of our Father’s love and you must now aspire to be just like her. The handicapped have a way of showing you pure, unconditional love…and in the end, that is what it is all about.
By the way….my oldest daughter was three when our gift was born and the bond between them is deep and full of sisterly fun. The gift of Nella will reach far and wide! Hugs to you and yours and a little kiss on your angels head.
Tammy
Anonymous says
This is a wonderful story of how a mother feels when having a child with down syndrome. My sister has it and it has been a long, hard path, but all wonderful at the same time. I know like my sister Nella will love everyone and will be a kind gentle person filled with compassion. Thank you for sharing your story! God Bless you and your whole family.
Nina says
Oh my goodness, I cried all the way through reading this! What a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing.
Nina says
Oh my goodness, I cried all the way through reading this! What a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing.
Mother OfMany says
As I read your story- it came to mind a belief in my faith that those with severe mental handicaps come to this world simply as a state of progression-that their spirits are perfect. I don’t say that to be trite- I really do believe it. Perhaps in some ways you’ve prepared yourself to be ready for a special gift from God. I appreciated reading your real emotions- which I think mirror many individuals in parallel situations… your words might just bring the understanding another parent needs. Wishing you the very best with your beautiful children- with all the delights and excitement they will be sure to offer!
http://www.knowingmother.blogspot.com
Ko says
What a beautiful, honest, moving story. You are a beautiful family with 2 gorgeous girls. The love you have for each other shines out from the photos.
I am sure you can face whatever life throws at you, with your wonderful friends and family and the love of God.
joan says
Beautiful. just beautiful….God bless you all..
Molly says
This was absolutely incredible. Thank you for writing this!
Molly says
This was absolutely incredible. Thank you for writing this!
Loukia says
She is absolutely beautiful, and so are you. You’re a wonderful mother. You have two amazing daughters, and your story has touched the hearts of us all!
susan says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. I had a Beautiful baby girl in June of 2008. We also did not know she had Down syndrome until she was born. Reading your story was like reading my own. We felt so many of the same feelings. Thanks again. So beautiful and touching. I can promise you that your beautiful daughter will bless you and your family in ways you could never imagine.
God Bless you
Jerm. 29:11
Anonymous says
I know I don’t known you, but your birth story made me sob tears. I too had a baby girl born with down syndrome on Dec. 30th 2009. We didn’t know she was going to be born with down syndrome so it was quite a shock, it has been an emotional journey ever since, but a great one. Your story was perfect and it so comforting to read your words. Our Elinn Hope was meant to be our perfect second daughter, just as your Nella. Thanks for your story, I will try to follow your blog. You can find us at monkeytimes-ehook.blogspot.com God Bless you and your perfect family.
IvyTrueValues says
You look so perfectly happy holding your baby girl against your skin. What a blessing! Thank you for sharing your story.
From one mother to another 🙂
Catina
Mommy Lisa says
That is very very very beautiful. You will be amazed at the joy you will find in your girls…we are blessed to have a friend whose oldest daughter has down’s syndrome. Isabella is the most fun of all the little girls in our group of friends children…she still lets me pick her up and snuggle while the others say they are “too old” at 3 and 4.
And now Isabella is the big sister to a “normal” child. I know she will be great!
dana says
your blog link was posted on facebook thru the “teach preschool” page. i hope you don’t mind that i passed your link on. i think you have a beautiful story that should be shared with many, many people. i love how honest you were about your daughter’s birth and i admire you for being able to find the beauty in her. you have two gorgeous little girls and i am happy that you had such a great support system of friends and family.
i hope that you all are able to find joy and beauty in each day. i wish you all a very happy life. congrats again on your newest addition and the completion of a beautiful family.
Aggie says
Kelle… I don’t remember a story ever hitting me as hard as yours did. I recently gave birth to my 3rd daughter and while reading your story I was reminded of the many concerns I had while being pregnant and thinking “what if there is something wrong? How will we handle it?” I don’t think I am strong enough….etc. You are amazing for writing this story and sharing with us. I can’t stop thinking about you and Nella…she’s so so beautiful. I keep praying for you every night. I remember hearing a saying somewhere that ‘You’ve been given a gift, you were entrusted with this beautiful soul’…it’s so true in your case. YOU were chosen to be Nella’s Mama…how blessed she is! And if you ever write that book…I will be the first to buy it. God bless you and your whole family! <><
Erin says
That was absolutely riveting. Your sweet bunny is beautiful, and so is her mama.
Joan says
A friend forward your story since I have a 27 year old DS daughter who holds down a job and lives in her own appartment. She got engaged a month ago. Last week we were on Capitol Hill and she had a face to face meeting with Nancy Pelosi to lobby for the Eunice Kennedy Shriver Act on behalf of Special Olympics and the Best Buddies program. She has been in school since 4 months until 22. Just have high expectations for her and you will be amazed by that new little one. God bless. Joan and Lindsay Mibach
Amy says
Thank you, Kelle, for sharing your moving birth story and your beautiful family with us. Your sweet dear little one will have differences from what you have expected and imagine, and some will be serious challenges, but some of these will be unbelievably sweet and precious opportunities of grace. May God bless you, your husband, and your children!
nonpromqueen says
Beautiful. Thank you. 🙂
And Poppa, you’re awesome.
Julie says
A truly beautiful story it is. Thank you for sharing it. I hope you don’t mind me following your story from now on.
Lisa says
What a beautiful, heart-wrenching, amazing, inspiring story. I cried my way through it. You have a way with words, keep writing, keep surrounding yourself with amazing people who support you, and keep your chin up. Thanks for sharing this amazing journey with us.
Katie says
Your sweet Nella and her story have touched me this morning. She is gorgeous. You are an inspiration.
Hello says
“I remember her latching right on and sucking away with no hesitation and looking at her, completely accepting me as her mama and snuggling in to the only one she’s ever known”
Beautiful. Just beautiful…
Congrats on your amazing family.
Michelle says
Congratulations! What a beautiful story. Welcome to the DS club. We have enjoyed our journey and met wonderful people. I know you will do the same.
Anna-b-bonkers says
Beautiful. It was like reading your soul and I don’t even know you! You are beautiful and you have inspired me and quenched deep fears. Thank you. Just beautiful. I don’t even have the words.
iryn says
this is the most wonderful story i’ve ever read. nella is such a beautiful girl 🙂
Mary Galvanoni - IL says
My friend Katey sent me this link. I am always reluctant to read blogs, here I am- my first response.
First off- Thank you for making me feel normal. Our first born, son arrived September 09 and I found out minutes after his birth that he also had DS. Your story brought me back to that first night where I felt so much pain & fear and felt so guilty afterwards for feeling that pain. I can close my eyes and remember exactly what the clock on the wall looked like- I watched every minute go by! I remember wondering if that had been the same baby I carried for 9 months. Aside from the chaos…..Once I looked in his eyes, all I saw was him saying “love me” and that’s all I needed.
Fast forward – 5 months. I still get scared and slip into insecure moments. It is also hard sometimes to know that things WILL be different. I have a tough time showing and explaining how hard this is sometimes. I always remind myself that there are so many others out there with way more difficult challenges in life. I always give myself the “Get over yourself Mary!” comment and I snap back into reality. I know that we have a friend & son for life. I hope that Henry knows and later understand how much we love him. I swear- I can’t kiss him enough! He makes our lives a happy place even after a tough day at work!
As for blogs, books and misc- I try not read too much in fear of creating expectations. We just want to enjoy everything with him. Our family, friends and neighbors have been wonderful- we are so blessed. I love that our friends with and without children don’t treat Henry or us different….and if they do feel uncomfortable, they don’t show it. Thank you for letting me….making me emotionally vent.
deb says
I feel closer to Heaven as well.
and will every day as I carry this story in my soul.
love to Lainey, you , and all of your family and friends.
hizzoze says
Your story is amazing. So honest and real. You really put things into perspective. It made me sit back and apprecite more things…esp. the small things. You are an amazing person with a beautiful family. Congrats on the birth of your sweet little girl. She is so lucky to have such a loving/caring family!!
Anonymous says
Oh my goodness, what an incredible story of love! I was hanging on every word you wrote. I cried so many times and I am a father of three. May God bless your family! You are an inspiration and you have made me want to go hug my kids and wife tighter today. Thank you!
Dave T.
Lori says
Kelle
My daughter Colleen, three years old, also has something extra inside like Nella and I just started writing a blog last October called The Smile That Fills a Room. I never knew I needed such a gift. Thank you for sharing your story in much more eloquent words than I possess. I always feel bad that I wept like I never wept before when I was told she had DS, but knowing others have been through the same just helps me know that it is just about being human. Your photographs are amazing. Enjoy the journey and it sounds like you are blessed with wonderful family and friends.
Carebear says
I cried through the whole thing. Your story has begun!
I too had a child with disablity. My son had severe cerebral palsy. I remember the day the dr’s told us he would never walk or talk. He was tube fed.
He would of been 13 a few days ago….he went home to Jesus at the age of 9. He touched so many people and so many lives. He challenged us all to live deep, purposeful and with meaning. Your daughter will do the same.
They are gifts.
YOU WERE CHOSEN. Just like me. We are chosen by God, I’d like to say “to take care of these precious ones” but they teach you so much, that it’s the other way around.
My Caleb was an angel. He gave us more than I could have ever imagined…..
Anne says
I have heard amazing stories of DS babies after being treated by cranial osteopaths. A good friend of mine is an osteopath and he has buddies who do amazing work. May God reward you for your love and sacrifice.
Jessie says
my children and I (age 5, 8 and and 9 weeks) all sat together as we looked at the pictures and I told them your story. We had tears in our eyes, and mommy was crying. What a beautiful story. Thank you so so much for telling it. You have a beautiful family, we are all so completely blessed. Enjoy your little girls
Laura says
That was the first time I’ve ever read a story like yours.I cried all over my desk. Your honesty is amazing and beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing. What perfect little ladies! I love the pictures you are all very beautiful.
kelly ens says
kelle, i’m not entirely sure I remember how I found your blog, but this is SO BEAUTIFUL. your realness and honest, your vulnerability is incredible. your daughters are STUNNINGly beautiful.
my heart has always beat a bit faster when i see a person with DS because my limited experiences with them in high school were awesome. they love passionately and are more joyful than you can imagine. This journey with Nella will be abundant.
congratulations!
Hula says
Beautiful, thank-you for sharing and reminding us all about unconditional love and that materialism isn’t what’s important. Bless you and your family, lots of love, Steph UKx
Misty in VA says
Kelle, your story is going VIRAL on the Internet. I am seeing it being posted by everybody, everywhere. And people are just in love with your family and your story, and your Nella. It is incredible…it is changing lives and you have no idea the number of people who are sitting before your pictures and words and just sobbing in pure, raw emotion that gives way to pure, raw awe at the beauty and love your fears melted into for your daughter. I have personally been back to read the whole story SIX times in the past four days…I have taken to hiding the computer from my husband and daughter, who asked last night, “Are you on there AGAIN?” 😉 I think your words and images have indelibly etched themselves on my heart and mind and I will NEVER forget them. I am a writer and English major and have always been addicted to good literature, but your bunny’s story has touched me more than just about anything I can ever remember. God bless you and your family!
Dawn says
Kelle, just wanted you to know that I showed the pictures to my 8 yo daughter, who wanted to know why I was crying so hard. I tried to explain to her what Down’s Syndrome was…and she kept looking and looking at the screen and saying, “I don’t understand…she looks like every other baby. She’s adorable.” I was so happy that I am raising children who will look at people like Nella and see nothing but the beauty God has created in them. =)
tattooedmomof3 says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story! I admire your strength and the love you hold in your heart. I do not know you, but it is quite apparent that you are a wonderful, strong, loving, proud mother! I wish you, Brett, Lainey and Nella all the best that life has to offer. I feel honored that I was able to read this post.
Stacy Lou says
What an incredibly brave and beautiful piece you just shared with the world. What a lucky girl sweet Miss Nella is to have you as a mother! I am just in awe of the honesty and raw emotion you were not afraid to include – thank you so much for truly baring your soul. Many blessings & much love upon you and your whole incredibly beautiful family (and seriously, you were ridiculously gorgeous moments after giving birth!) – your girls and your husband are very fortunate to have you!
Amber says
Beautiful post…beautiful pictures. I especially love the one where you are both smiling, she has your smile 🙂
Anonymous says
This is the second time I read your story, listened to the music and absorbed the photos. My heart broke for you the first time and I cried for you ALL. The second time, my tears continued to fall but as I looked at the pictures again and read all the comments from your friends and family, I am more peaceful knowing you will be alright. You will continue to live your very, very beautiful and bright and shining life. It’s gonna be better than alright!
Kelle, you are an amazingly singular woman. Complete in every way, so courageous and beautiful! God Bless You All!
Tammy (Mom to this crazy bunch) says
Your honesty inspires me…
Thank you for telling this story.
As the mother of 8 amazing darlings… I felt I needed to hear your story. What a blessing!
Patm says
Hi, came in through Happy Catholic. God bless you and your beautiful family. Thank you for writing this. I am blessed for reading it.
Candace says
Your little girls are absolutely STUNNING! I have ready your story many times and have sent it to my mom and best friends..we have called each other while reading and sobbing and thanking God for little blessings!
Michelle says
Nella is gorgeous. Her birth story is beautiful and she is a very special little girl, indeed. Her sweet little face makes me smile. May God bless her and your family with joy.
Mrs. Hardaker says
A member of my online mommy group shared this with us all. There are about 200 of us and in turn we are each sharing it with our friends. We laughed and cried and remembered what it felt like when each of our children were born like it was just last week. We each wonder if we could walk the journey you have taken and still be in one piece on the other side. You are an inspiration to moms everywhere.
When I was 12 weeks pregnant with my second daughter we were told there was a chance she had Down Sydrome and for 8 weeks I walked around in a cloud, wondering how I would manage, what I would do, what did it mean for my oldest daughter, all the questions each parent has. Until I held her in my arms I didn’t know the answer. My family and friends were very supportive and without them I don’t know how I would have made it to delivery day. The test was a false positive and Olivia did not have DS.
I would like to think that I would have picked myself up like you have after falling apart a bit (which I would have). You are an inspiration!
Much love to you all and I look forward to reading all your stories and being inspired everyday and to live each day as a blessing to my children.
nbgardner says
My cousin gave me the link to your blog. -Anyway, your story was all too familiar. My baby boy has mosaic down syndrome. Basicaly not all of his cells have the extra cromosome.
His doctor gave us this poem, which I really like…but you’ve described the experience amazingly. Hope you enjoy.
WELCOME TO HOLLAND
by
Emily Perl Kingsley.
c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this……
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away… because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
Anonymous says
Thank you. The world needs more mothers and families like you and yours.
La Tempête says
Your daughter Nella is beautiful! Beautiful, new and so, so loved; it’s obvious.
I wish you blue skies and fair winds for your journey ahead!
La Tempête says
Your daughter Nella is beautiful! Beautiful, new and so, so loved; it’s obvious.
I wish you blue skies and fair winds for your journey ahead!
La Tempête says
Your daughter Nella is beautiful! Beautiful, new and so, so loved; it’s obvious.
I wish you blue skies and fair winds for your journey ahead!
Persuaded says
My wonderful princess-ballerina who also happens to have Down syndrome turned 17 right around the same time your little angel was born. I want to tell you that you are in for the most wonderful amazing ride of your life. You have received a rare and precious gift… only a very few families are so blessed as to have a child with Down syndrome, and your family is one of those fortunate few!
Rejoice♥
Jackie Boyd says
What a wonderful story! You put it in the words I could never muster up to describe the feelings. My daughter will be 20 next month. It is hard to remember her being a baby anymore. My sister sent me the link to your blog and told me to get the kleenex ready. I needed the box! As you described your feeling I just sobbed, it brought everything back, and you describe so clearly what my feeling were. Thank you! love and hugs, Jackie
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing. My son was born September ’07. He also has Down Syndrome, and it was a surprise to us.
Your words about the truly awful pain that came after the initial news followed by the blissful joy of falling in love with your baby are so true. Not many people can truly understand that journey.
Just like the pain of labor, the pain of adjusting to the unexpected fades with time and you are left with your beautiful and perfect children and all of the love that comes with them.
I wish you and your family much love and joy.
Abbie
PS
I was really impressed by the sensitivity and warmth shown by your pediatrician. She sounds like one in a million.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing. My son was born September ’07. He also has Down Syndrome, and it was a surprise to us.
Your words about the truly awful pain that came after the initial news followed by the blissful joy of falling in love with your baby are so true. Not many people can truly understand that journey.
Just like the pain of labor, the pain of adjusting to the unexpected fades with time and you are left with your beautiful and perfect children and all of the love that comes with them.
I wish you and your family much love and joy.
Abbie
PS
I was really impressed by the sensitivity and warmth shown by your pediatrician. She sounds like one in a million.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing. My son was born September ’07. He also has Down Syndrome, and it was a surprise to us.
Your words about the truly awful pain that came after the initial news followed by the blissful joy of falling in love with your baby are so true. Not many people can truly understand that journey.
Just like the pain of labor, the pain of adjusting to the unexpected fades with time and you are left with your beautiful and perfect children and all of the love that comes with them.
I wish you and your family much love and joy.
Abbie
PS
I was really impressed by the sensitivity and warmth shown by your pediatrician. She sounds like one in a million.
Anonymous says
Oh, what a beautiful story and a wonderful family. Thank you for putting this where strangers like me can read it and be so blessed.
Anonymous says
I have never met you but I love you and your precious daughters. Nella is such a beautiful precious gift to us all and Lainey is so proud and wonderful. Nella will truly bring out the best in all of you and all of us. God bless you and your wonderful family. Lots of love and hugs, The Donovan Family, Kevinn, Janine, Hope, Madison, Emma Rose, and Cooper.
Jennifer says
What a beautiful story. Thank you so much for sharing. God bless.
Kerri Brooks says
Thank you so much! You have described exactly how I felt. My Jacob with DS is 8 now and he has made me a better woman and mom. I can’t imagine my life without him and you are truly lucky as we are. I love my boys to the Moon and your story helped me revisit how much I love them. Thank you!
Kerri B. – Norman, OK
Susie, Cocoa Beach says
What a very powerful thing you have done, Momma. I am so profoundly affected by your words, your pictures, your story, your heart. This line, ‘Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me. ‘ it will resonate in my heart forever. I would say that I don’t know how anyone could so eloquently, so perfectly phrase something so enormous, and yet I know, because you are the mommy, that is how. Absolute beauty, absolutely beautiful. I cannot thank you enough for sharing this, for sharing your family, your heart, and your love. I admire your courage. Congratulations on the birth of your little bunny. Welcome to this world, little one, we are so glad you are here.
Erin says
I couldn’t not comment. What an amazing birth story. Congratulations mama. <3
Katie says
Kelle,
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It truly is beautiful, the love you have expressed. Your daughters are beautiful!
I am Allison says
Wow. Amazing. Thank you for sharing this.
Cottage Cozy says
Thank you for sharing your precious story…my daughter shared it with me!
Love, Carrie
Erika says
What a beautiful, incredible story. I am moved to tears. God bless you & your beautiful, precious Nella. Congratulations!
Jennifer says
I just went through a box of kleenex reading Nella’s birth story. You write beautifully. I think Nella (and Lainey too) are just gorgeous! I will continue reading your blog as I am hooked by your boldness and honesty as well as your beautiful family.
Jennifer in CA
Anonymous says
What a truly beautiful story. I read your post with tears streaming down my face. Your little baby girl is absolutely beautiful and perfect! Congratulations to you and your family. You should be one very proud Mumma – what a beautiful family you have!
Amber Black Creative Photography says
I just stumbled across your beautiful birth story tonight through a mom site and it has brought tears to my eyes. Your new daughter is so beautiful and precious. I hope you do write a book. You have a true gift and you have such a beautiful story to tell and like you said, it is just the beginning.
Elaine A. says
I found your blog today through a tweet, I believe. I’ve been reading off and on throughout the day and basking in your GORGEOUS photos. WOW!
And I keep smiling because I have a baby girl born in October who has the same floral body suit collection! 🙂
You and your family are beautiful and you’re an inspiration to all of us mothers. Thanks for sharing your stories and life with us…
Reba says
i found your blog through a link on someone else’s blog. what an absolutely amazing story. you write so well that i felt like i was living it, and it was beautiful and terrifying and heartbreaking and wonderful. congratulations on your miracles and best wishes on your journey.
Anonymous says
Someone in my What to Expect When You’re Expecting group posted a link to your blog – what a truely blessed moment in time. Thank you for sharing!
Robin says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. You are embarking on a wonderful journey only a few lucky parents are chosen for. Your little angel has so much to teach you and everyone around you. Best wishes!!
Amy says
Wow, what an amazing story. Congratulations on your bundle of joy, she’s lovely.
Anonymous says
Although I loved my child (and still do!) there were so many emotions to work through in those early days/weeks/months – shock, guilt, anger, bitterness, depression – after all, it is a huge shock and shakes you to the core of your being, to discover that the life you had envisioned with your new baby is not at all the life you are about to begin with her. I cried for 7 weeks, not 7 hours. Honestly, as the mother of a child with Down syndrome, I went through all the stages of grief – although I was holding my very much alive baby, I was grieving for the baby I had pictured in my mind – the “perfect” baby I did not have.
An inspiring story, but not realistic to think that you sorted out this grieving process overnight. Those of us in the real world need time to sort out major life-changing events – time, and lots of it, to think, pray, cry, pray some more, and eventually wrap our minds around what has happened. Your amazingly quick transition from the depths of despair to complete happiness in 1 day or so makes for a nice snappy blog post, but not an authentic one.
heather says
i got your blog from a link a friend sent me… this is truly an amazing story that brought me to tears.. my son was in the nicu for breathing problem for 5 days and the pain i had with that was awful.. i needed people around me like you had to help deal with the dream the was taken when i was told mins after having him something was wrong.. thank you so much for sharing your birth story.. i look forward to following your blog.. your girls are beautiful.. congrats…
Albie says
Simply – Thank you! May God continue to bless you all as you walk together this journey called life.
Anonymous says
I came across your blog from the Bump. And, boy, I am glad I stumbled upon your blog. I am going to bookmark it and follow your story.
I have never read a more beautiful birth story than Nella’s. You captured everything so beautifully. Lainey and Nella have two amazing parents who love them unconditionally. God Bless your beautiful family.
Jaimi says
Nella is a Gift from God. She will bring you more Joy than you can ever possibly imagine.
find joy in every journey…
mrsz says
truly amazing, I don’t think I’ll ever look at life the same way again, your story and little, beautiful baby Nella has touched my heart in ways I can’t put into words.
You are such a lucky woman and I can’t wait to read more of your incredible journey. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us.
Tiffany Dunn says
Your story has touched my heart! We always have in our minds what we ‘think’ God’s plan for us will look like! And when the blessing arrives, it is always more beautiful than we could have ever imagined! You little Nella is absolutely beautiful. I have read your story over and over. To remind myself of why love is so important!
Tongue-N-Cheeky says
Thank you. So much. So very, very much you dear girl. Thank you.
Anonymous says
Truly speechless…as I type through streaming tears. Like so many others, we did not know each other before this evening. I feel like we are now best friends. Your birth story is so parallel to mine that I had to write to you and say thank you. Thank you for writing the words I have always wanted to, for saying the words I have kept inside for so long. From the out of body experience to the photos of celebration taking place around you, I have been there. I also have a daughter who was 3 1/2 at the time of her sister’s birth. I have that photo, the one of total “big sis” pride with me looking on and a tear streaming down my cheek. My youngest has changed our world with the words “Down syndrome.” That special girl is now 5 1/2 and to this day, brings joy and happy tears to all who meet her. Congratulations on the birth of your “bunny” (which by the way, is what we call our daughter too). May you continue your journey knowing you are strong and so deserving of your angel. And please, I beg you, write a novel. I can’t wait to walk in that book store and see “our” story continue..thank again, Leslee from Oklahoma
Kell1976 says
This is the single most beautiful thing I have ever read. Thank you so much for sharing Nella’s story. I have tears in my eyes from reading and send you and your beautiful family all the love in he world.
Anonymous says
I love your story and I think your daughter is absolutely perfect. Watching you hold her is truly amazing, Nella is very blessed to have you.
Anonymous says
What a beautiful story!! I am so happy you have 2 sweet little girls who love you very much. Thank you for sharing so honestly and openly, what gorgeous photos too. All the best with your family!!
MH
Laurel says
What a BEAUTIFUL story! So well written … with such wonderful pictures.
You will be BLESSED by this new little one.
mama of 13
Christal says
thank you for sharing such a beautiful story! I cried most of the way through! My brother has DS, and he is now 32 years old… I am 28! I can honestly say that growing up with a brother with DS is an amazing experience! Lainey will be an even more amazing person because of it… they have so much love to offer, so much love to give. You will be forever blessed, and it takes a very special person to raise someone with DS! good luck, thanks again for sharing!
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m a speech pathologist who works with children and adults with DS. The sky is the limit! Expect that she will achieve and provide her with all the opportunities for therapy as early as possible(PT, OT, Speech). I know she’s going to knock your socks off! What a blessed Mama!
Len says
What a story! What a writer! What a woman!
Thank you and God bless you all.
Len says
What a story! What a writer! What a woman!
Thank you and God bless you all.
Len says
What a story! What a writer! What a woman!
Thank you and God bless you all.
Anonymous says
What a story! What a writer! What a woman!
God bless you all.
Anonymous says
Beautiful words, beautiful baby….
What a lucky little girl Nella is to have you as her mum. Enjoy!
xxooxx
Congratulations…
….from a mum in rural Australia.
Bri says
This is probably the most beautiful thing I have ever read. I am in tears, not because I am sad for you or because I pity you but because of the sheer beauty of your family. Not just physical beauty (although there is plenty of that!) but the beauty of love and acceptance and hope. I wish you so much for your future with Nella.
Ahmed says
I am from Saudi Arabia, my American wife is pregnant in her 7th month. Doctors suspected DS after seeing a white dot in my baby girl’s heart in sonogram. After we saw a specialist, she told us that our baby girl is fine, but we have a follow up appointment this Sunday.
I cried while reading your story, it prepared me for whatever is coming. I had fear that I will love my first daughter more than this coming baby girl if she had DS 🙁
But right now, I know everything will be fine.
Thank you very much for inspiring us.
karla@westernesse.com says
I just had my 2nd baby in November, 2 days after my little girl’s 2nd birthday. I was right there with you and your excitement and anticipation. Having rH disease we never know if our babies will have brain damage, and so far God has blessed us with two healthy children… but we talk about how we would ever handle something else, and wonder if we should limit the number of kids we have. Your words were beautiful, raw, honest – I cried and cried. Just being a women, a mother, I feel your pain… and your love. My husband says Downs children are God’s angels – and that’s what you have, an angel. The pictures are gorgeous. Thanks for sharing your soul.
karla@westernesse.com says
I just had my 2nd baby in November, 2 days after my little girl’s 2nd birthday. I was right there with you and your excitement and anticipation. Having rH disease we never know if our babies will have brain damage, and so far God has blessed us with two healthy children… but we talk about how we would ever handle something else, and wonder if we should limit the number of kids we have. Your words were beautiful, raw, honest – I cried and cried. Just being a women, a mother, I feel your pain… and your love. My husband says Downs children are God’s angels – and that’s what you have, an angel. The pictures are gorgeous. Thanks for sharing your soul.
Betty says
A big hug and congratulations to you and your dear baby! I have a daughter with Ds also (age 7), and she has changed our family for the better and filled our home with love and laughter. There will be challenges ahead but also amazing joy and blessings!
Stacey says
Your story is absolutely heart-wrenching, beautiful, honest and real…you put into words so eloquently that I found myself sitting here, feeling every emotion you expressed. The photos are amazing and tell a story in and of themselves. I wish a lifetime of happiness for you and your family. God bless.
The Nicolai's says
Congratulations on your beautiful girls!! Your story is an inspiration!!!
Anonymous says
Congratulations! God DID choose you specially and entrust you with this precious precious gift.
God bless & enjoy!
Emily
xxxxx
Anonymous says
“When you have come to the edge Of all light that you know And are about to drop off into the darkness Of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or You will be taught to fly” Patrick Overton
K~
Anonymous says
Beautiful. I believe that Down’s children are pure love sent from heaven to heal a broken world, what an honor to hold true love.
Debi Rohr says
Such an inspiration….She is perfect and beautiful. Congratulations!
ambparrish says
A friend of mine shared your blog with me. So so beautiful, honest, sincere. I love the way you describe with complete honesty (to you yourself and others) your raw, untamed emotions. You have a beautiful heart and I love that you were able to overcome this bump in the road with such grace. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Your girls are BEAUTIFUL. Not just as an outward appearance but your hearts as well. I hadn’t read your blog before, you write with such eloquence, you have a new fan. Thank you for sharing your story – you have left a footprint in my heart for sure.
me says
What a beautiful story. And what a beautiful family! Thank you for sharing both with us 🙂 Your girls are very blessed to have such a mommy as you.
in love.
amy
Proverbs 31:25, “Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she smiles at the future.” (NASV)
A Happy, Jolly Girl says
What a beautiful story! You are truely inspiring. Thank you sharing such beauty with us!
The Kazmaier's says
One of the most beautifully written stories of life and love I have ever read. I have read it at least 6 times over and everytime my heart swells. She is perfect in every way…what a gift. Hold her tight…God thinks your family is beyond special and has blessed you in immeasurable ways…and you have now blessed all those you have graciously made a part of your story…Nella’s story. Thank you!
Secret Sloper says
This story has touched me so deeply. I don’t know you at all, and yet I feel love, and pride, and happiness for you and Nella and Lainey and Brett.
I have felt so sad these past few months about my miscarriage and uncertain of what God has in store. Your story–and your generosity in sharing it–gives me hope that good will come.
Barbra Ann says
Oh my….praise GOD for HE truly knows what is best for all! Nella needed YOU to be her mommy…….you are brave beautiful, and REAL. your story is one of LIFE, trial, and faith in God. I am a mother of ten…..I can not have anymore children……Reading this made my heart smile, my eyes pour with emotion, and my arms crave to hold your beautiful new baby girl. I will share this with everyone I know…..it has been a PLEASURE to read about you and your beautiful story……thank you, thank you so sincerely, for sharing this. I am truly touched with amazing love and joy for you and your whole family! May Our Holy Mother Mary always have her arms around you as you embrace your GIFTS of LIFE, from God! My love and prayers……<3
Megan says
Congratulations, you have a beautiful family!
Linda Powers says
I don’t know you from Adam, but your story should be published. A beautiful raw picture that only a mother can see.
Blessings of peace and happiness to you and your 2 little angels.
Go tell it on the mountain.
Linda Powers says
I don’t know you from Adam, but your story should be published. A beautiful raw picture that only a mother can see.
Blessings of peace and happiness to you and your 2 little angels.
Go tell it on the mountain.
Anonymous says
I came across your blog via a message board I belong to. As someone who doesn’t know you, I felt a little bit awkward reading such a personal account of your birth story but I just couldn’t help myself from replying to you.
Last year a very good friend gave birth to her baby and was also shocked to realize that she too, had DS. Your openness and honesty has given me such an insight into what she must have struggled with those first few moments of realization that her daughter was not going to be exactly who/what she anticipated. Thank you for helping me to see that.
I think Nella is one of the most fortutate little girls on the planet. She has you for a mom. A smart, open and honest woman who will forever make her feel special.
Blessings to all of you.
Amy
Anonymous says
I came across your blog via a message board I belong to. As someone who doesn’t know you, I felt a little bit awkward reading such a personal account of your birth story but I just couldn’t help myself from replying to you.
Last year a very good friend gave birth to her baby and was also shocked to realize that she too, had DS. Your openness and honesty has given me such an insight into what she must have struggled with those first few moments of realization that her daughter was not going to be exactly who/what she anticipated. Thank you for helping me to see that.
I think Nella is one of the most fortutate little girls on the planet. She has you for a mom. A smart, open and honest woman who will forever make her feel special.
Blessings to all of you.
Amy
Anonymous says
I came across your blog via a message board I belong to. As someone who doesn’t know you, I felt a little bit awkward reading such a personal account of your birth story but I just couldn’t help myself from replying to you.
Last year a very good friend gave birth to her baby and was also shocked to realize that she too, had DS. Your openness and honesty has given me such an insight into what she must have struggled with those first few moments of realization that her daughter was not going to be exactly who/what she anticipated. Thank you for helping me to see that.
I think Nella is one of the most fortutate little girls on the planet. She has you for a mom. A smart, open and honest woman who will forever make her feel special.
Blessings to all of you.
Amy
kessia reyne says
I think this single blog post did more to show me the beauty of motherhood than anything I’ve ever read in my life. And I needed it badly. Thank you.
Your family is beautiful and just perfect. Just perfect. Congratulations!
Anonymous says
What an amazing, honest birth story! It is filled with such raw human emotion and brought tears of joy to my eyes.
You have been blessed with a beautiful family.
Bookmom says
You have a beautiful, beautiful story and a beautiful, precious baby in Nella. Thanks for sharing it with me; I wish your family the very best!
the mom~ says
Amazing birth story! You are so blessed to have 2 perfectly, beautiful daughters.
Anonymous says
I have an older sister with downs syndrome and I wouldn’t trade her for the world. Me and my two younger brothers love her. She is 30 years old. Downs syndrome babies are so cute!!! My brother says if he doesn’t have one of his own he’s going to adopt one!
Mandy says
Hi Kelle. You don’t know me but I found your link from a friend on Facebook. I just want to say that your story and especially your summary at the end, has touched me and given me hope and strength for the future. I have a little girl turning 1 on Saturday and I’ve been struggling with some heart problems myself. I was having a huge pity party today, feelin sorry for myself and for my daughter, that her first years are not as I envisioned them. But reading your words, I realize that things aren’t always as planned, but love and hope are all we need. If my daughter doesn’t get to go outside every day, or get to attend a lot of activities, or play hard with mommy, we are still OUR family. And we are all blessed to have each other. Thank you for that.
Mandy
Amanda says
Beautiful, absolutely beautiful. Congratulations on two perfect little girls.
allison says
I can’t thank you enough for sharing this amazing story that took a little piece of my heart with it.
adelev says
Your birth story is amazing, from the way the words and pictures work together to how heartfelt and moving it is. Very inspiring. Thank you for sharing.
K~ says
Stunningly Beautiful! From one Special Needs Mom to Another, your love and Dedication has just began but it will become so much stronger like no other love you can imagine.
God Bless you & your family!
Anonymous says
She is beautiful! Congratulations!
Jess and Krissy says
Just amazing. Congratulations on your beautiful addition.
lisa says
Your story left me with tears in my eyes and love in my heart. I really think what Nellas said to you the first time you ever held her and looked into her eyes says it all.
“Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
What more in life is there than that.
lisa says
Your story left me with tears in my eyes and love in my heart. I really think what Nellas said to you the first time you ever held her and looked into her eyes says it all.
“Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
What more in life is there than that.
Kaz and Amy says
This is the most special, encouraging story I have ever heard. Thanks so much for sharing this and for your testimony. Congratulations on your new sweet little girl! She is precious!
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Katie says
Kelle – you don’t know me, but a friend linked to your blog post on Facebook. This is absolutely the most beautiful story I’ve ever read – so honest that both your pain and joy are palpable.
Congratulations on your new beautiful little girl!
Katie says
Kelle – you don’t know me, but a friend linked to your blog post on Facebook. This is absolutely the most beautiful story I’ve ever read – so honest that both your pain and joy are palpable.
Congratulations on your new beautiful little girl!
Jamie says
Simply breathtaking…
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us.
Jamie ~ Alabama
Stacy says
You captured the moment just beautifully both in photos and words. As a mom to 4 year old identical twin boys both with Down Syndrome I appreciate reading Love Stories such as yours 🙂 Congratulations, she’s absolutely beautiful and perfect!!!
Marianne says
Forgive me please for commenting so late (I’ve just come across your blog). BUT … this is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever read. Thank you for sharing your story and Nella with “the world.” And mostly, Congratulations to you and your family on your beautiful addition!
Issas Crazy World says
I’d never been to your blog before, but someone just linked here. Have now read for the last 20 minutes and plan on adding you to my reader.
This is one of the most beautiful, real, honest, raw birth stories I’ve ever read. Nella is absolutely beautiful. As is Lainey. I have to agree with your sister, I think you were given a gift. The fear, the worry, the tears…all okay. I think all of us have an idea of what our babies will be like and it’s okay for it to take time, when it isn’t what we thought it would be.
Congrats on your new baby girl.
elaine says
AMEN!!! AMEN!!! AMEN!!!
You & your family have been truly blessed & now I hve been too by reading the story of your ‘little bunny’
Mama Insomnia says
I just stumbled on your blog and it’s beautiful. And the pictures are amazing. Thanks for sharing your beautiful story. It is an inspiration.
carolynmarier@yahoo.com says
Congratulations on your beautiful little girl! I feel your words as if they were my own and cried tears of sadness and joy while reading your story. Two years ago tomorrow my life changed unexpectedly when my second son was born with a rare genetic condition. I felt like my life was divided between BEFORE and AFTER. It is a different path than I imagined, but it is the path of my family – one I wouldn’t change. We are blessed to be surrounded by love from family and friends, but most of all, from our special angels. Best of luck to you and your girls.
carolyn
Sabrena says
your story is so beautiful…I cried…thank you so much for sharing your heart. I love that you have such good friends to love you through it…
Ashley says
This might be one of the MOST beautiful stories I’ve ever read!!! I have tears of JOY!!! Thank you for sharing!
beyondbeauty1127 says
Wow as i sit here crying and rereading this story and birth was difficult for you as i can see but well worth it. Im pregnant now and you never want anything to be wrong with your baby, but GOD has a plan for everyone. You are a very strong individual and she will thank you for that.
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Joe says
my wife and I too have a daughter, Macy, born with DS on 12/29/09. And she had a wonderful big sister, McKenzie (2 & 1/2). Your strength is amazing and so similary to my wife’s. Thank you for sharing your life with us!
MommyNamedApril says
beautiful story. and just the beginning.
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Emily Jean says
Precious, precious words I will never forget! You honest heart has touched mine to the uncomfortable center and I THANK YOU!
Many Blessing to your perfect family.
From your fellow Daughter of the King ~ Emily
Emily Jean says
Precious, precious words I will never forget! You honest heart has touched mine to the uncomfortable center and I THANK YOU!
Many Blessing to your perfect family.
From your fellow Daughter of the King ~ Emily
Davie says
I found this through the XT3.com website. Really enjoyed reading it and your have quite a lot of beautiful photos of your girls. Thanks for sharing the story with us all and God bless you!
Anonymous says
My brother found out four years ago he and his wife’s fisrt baby would be born with Down’s. We felt ALL of the same feelings you have so honestly shared. We now see why God gave Luke to us. He is a wonderful gift of Love and joy and it really ends up being the life you planned-you just didn’t know it-it’s better! Congratulations on the birth of you beautiful baby girl.
Michele McGraw (ScrappinMichele) says
Thank you for writing this honest story and for sharing this with us all. Congrats on your beautiful family.
LLG says
That was one of the most beautiful heart felt things I have ever read. You have a beautiful beautiful family.
Chris, Kristin, and Emily says
you don’t know me. i was given your site by a friend who was touched by your story. as i am a labor and delivery nurse, she thought i’d love it. and i did. i am so happy for your sweet little family…there may be differneces in what you thought would be and what will be, but those memories will be untouchable, i just know with joy and pride. the photos are gorgeous and i especially love the one of you holding nella when she has the slightest of little grins! thank you for sharing your beautiful story. god bless you and congratulations!
Sarah says
beautiful. your story, your daughters, your heart and your family. simply beautiful.
cjjaffe says
Kelle, thank you for sharing this wonderful and uplifting story. I loved the way you incorporated the photos of your beautiful daughters.
I have a 2 1/2 year old son with DS, and I can relate to so many of the details that you have shared.
Beth Berry says
What an incredibly beautiful and inspiring story!
Very dear friends of ours have a son with trisomy 13. He is 5 years old now. One year ago they had another child. Their sweet little boy, Benjamin, was also born with Down Syndrome.
These boys are such a precious addition to their family and the obvious and overflowing love they have for each other reminds me of your story here.
Blessings ❤
Anonymous says
I have found being around people with down syndrome that they are always happy. It is amazing to be in their presence and feel that overwhelming peace and happiness that they give you. I believe they teach us more than we teach them. I also believe they can speak and listen directly to God.
Angie Higa says
Thank you. Unknowingly, from wherever in the universe you are – have snatched ahold of my heart from cyberspace. I have been challenged with life in the recent days, and you’ve given me the reassurance that we can do it. Thank you.
You’re beautiful, and amazing. I’m a nurse, a photographer, a mom to three, and your story is of the most beautiful stories I’ve ever had the pleasure to read. Nella. I sit here with a welled up chest, a tear in my eye, and a sigh for you, as though I can feel and believe that it will all be ok. It will 🙂
The Cross Family says
Kellie,
I just wanted to tell you that you are so very blessed. Those girls are beautiful and you are a great mom. Your story is so touching, thank you so much for sharing it. May God Bless you and your family.
Lambreni Waddell says
You don’t know me. And I don’t know you. But I wanted to thank you for your honesty. Your story has touched my heart. I am a mother of three. And from my own experience, I know that my love for my children is not the perfect love that God has for me. But I too am on that journey towards unconditional love for them and all their ‘imperfections’. Thank you for blessing all of us with your story. You are an amazing woman and I’m sure a terrific mommy. Your daughters are blessed to have you. May God continue to bless you beyond what you can even dream of!
Lambreni Waddell says
You don’t know me. And I don’t know you. But I wanted to thank you for your honesty. Your story has touched my heart. I am a mother of three. And from my own experience, I know that my love for my children is not the perfect love that God has for me. But I too am on that journey towards unconditional love for them and all their ‘imperfections’. Thank you for blessing all of us with your story. You are an amazing woman and I’m sure a terrific mommy. Your daughters are blessed to have you. May God continue to bless you beyond what you can even dream of!
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful story. Your writing, your photos, they are amazing. But I am in awe at your strength and the love you feel for your little girls. I have cried more reading your story than I have in a long long time. Your girls are so so lucky to have you as their mother. I am not religious at all, but I believe in God and I know that you were CHOSEN to be a mom to this very special little girl. As a mother of 3 little girls, I am reminded to be so grateful for what I have and to teach my girls about acceptance for all. Thank you so much
Heather Kemp
St. Albert, Alberta, Canada
Adelle says
What a beautiful story. I can imagine the heartache mixed with the joy you felt. My cousin is severely disabled and my family felt similarly when he was born several months ahead of schedule. Everyone loves him for who he is today and your daughter is thousands of times healthier than he was. While there may be challenges, you’re also so lucky to have such a beautiful, loving family and group of friends to help you through things. Thank you for sharing your story. It was truly beautiful to read and really made me question how I would handle a similar situation. I only hope I can handle it with as much grace as you did.
Your photographer is amazing, by the way. Absolutely stunning photographs – so lucky to have such talented friends!
🙂 <3
Carol says
Thank you so much for sharing such a beautiful and true moment with anyone blessed enough to read it.
Just last January my husband and I found out we cannot have children without the aide of In-Vitro or adoption. Devastation does not describe the darkest emotion I fell into for months on end.
It was my mother who told me I was destined to be a mother, but obviously there was another path I had to take and I would know why later.
I have yet to take that path, but I am ok with being a mother to anyone, biological or not, with disablities or not. They will be my child and I will love them unconditionally and happily until I have no more breath in my lungs.
Your story has resonated with a complete stranger and I thank you for being so brave and so honest to share such a deep and private moment.
Your daughters are lucky to have you and I’m sure they both have much to teach you in their beautiful future ahead.
Thank you.
Missy says
Just.Wow.
Your honesty is breathtaking and courageous. Thank you for giving voice to the feelings many of us have had, but were too ashamed to even think loudly.
Thanks also to Domestic Goddess for sharing this link. You are awesome.
Blessings to you, your gorgeous girls, and your family and friends.
*MrsMartinez* says
Beautiful well narrated story! xoxo
mojita_yanipot says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. There really is nothing like unconditional love. Hugs to you and your family, especially your beautiful daughters.
God Bless,
Dianne
Anonymous says
Thank you for telling your family’s story. So many people will learn and grow from your willingness to let them share your experience. I am an administrator of a vocational training facility for adults who have intellectual disabilities. Nella’s story and the grace and courage you’ve shown will become part of my curriculum for staff training. I can think of no better example than you. Peace and joy to you and yours.
Anonymous says
As I read your blog … I wept. It was both beautiful and so, so true. My 4 year old princess who too has Down syndrome stood beside me pointing at the pictures of your precious angel saying “Baby, Momma … baby!”. This journey will challenge you in so many ways … and make you a better person for it.
Katie says
What a beautiful post, and beautiful baby! My second daughter was born with cerebral palsy and cortical visual impairment, she’ll be turning 5 this summer and she’s amazing and perfect. I love her so intensely.
Archna says
This is the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. Thank you so much for sharing such an important part of your life with us. I hope my birth story in a couple of months is as love filled as yours is! Both your girls are gorgeous, perfect! Wishing you the best in your new life together.
Anonymous says
You don’t know me and we will probably never cross paths but i just want you are an inspiration to us all. Your words come to life and touch our hearts so deeply-and make our eyes fill with tears. You have a beautiful soul and i’m honored to have read your blog.
Krista says
I was forwarded your blog by a friend that knows I appreciate these experiences. I read your story and it brought me right back to that moment our family had 4 years ago when our son Owen was born with DS. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for your honesty. I have never been able to express my thoughts through words like you do so I create montages of what our life is like from year to year. It has always helped me to see older kids with DS. It gives me comfort to see that normalcy. I hope this too will help you see what life can become.
http://www.onetruemedia.com/shared?p=1914463d8df3b17500a406&skin_id=601
Shannonigans says
What a beautifully true and transparent story of your life you share! I was moved, my children were moved, and many friends have been blessed reading about your family! I had to pass your blog on because you share with such honesty. What a blessing to see that God doesn’t always give us what we expect but he walks with us on a new adventure! Blessings to you and your family as you cherish such a special gift…EACH other!
KttyKt30 says
I have never posted on a blog before, and I was told to have a tissue to read this birth story. I didn’t listen which I wish now that I had a tissue. What a beautiful story and amazing pictures of your new journey. My daughter was born without a left hand and shortened forearm( we did know from the ultrasound). It was a scrazy journey waiting for her to arrive and when she did I never realized how perfect she was. She has brought this amazing joy into my life as I am sure Nella has brought to yours. Thank you so much for sharing.
Erin B says
Congratulations on your beautiful family. You have a beautiful soul and your daughters are blessed to have you as their mommy. I am moved by your honestly and the power of your words. God bless you.
Amber Fraser says
I don’t know you, but was forwarded your blog link through a Mommy website I am a member of. What a beautiful birth story. I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face smiling from ear to ear. Nella is a beautiful little girl and you are all so lucky to have her to learn from, to watch grow and blossom into a beautiful woman.
Your writing is honest, heart-felt and gut-wrenching all at the same time. Your pictures capture all the highs and lows in such a beautiful way.
I wish you and your beautiful family all the best. Thank you for sharing your personal journey.
–Amber
klarefamily says
Thank you for sharing your story. I am so incredibly moved by your story and the love you have in your hearts. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Becky says
This was amazing…I am so happy that you have shared lovely Nella’s birth story with us. You truly are amazing people and parents…I hope you don’t mind, I posted about your story and the link here on my blog. May your family and beautiful girls be truly blessed from here and for many years to come!
Erin says
I’ve just been linked to your blog to read your beautiful story. Such an amazing story full of such true emotion. The pictures are gorgeous. Your daughters are beautiful. You are a beautiful family. I work with special needs children and will tell you that my DS kiddos are my very favorite. I am truly lucky to have them in my life and to get to experience the joy they bring. Wishing you all the best.
Erin says
I’ve just been linked to your blog to read your beautiful story. Such an amazing story full of such true emotion. The pictures are gorgeous. Your daughters are beautiful. You are a beautiful family. I work with special needs children and will tell you that my DS kiddos are my very favorite. I am truly lucky to have them in my life and to get to experience the joy they bring. Wishing you all the best.
Texan in UAE says
dear Dear Kelle,what an amazing story. I surely did have my box of tissues besides me. What a gift from God. Such a heartfelt story. She’s beautiful. Thanks for sharing. I’ll be following you.
Anonymous says
what a trully wonderful story – God bless you all!
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story with us all, it is a story that will be forever etched in all of our hearts!!! you have the most beautiful family 🙂
Olivia says
One of the best love stories I’ve ever read…
Sara says
Thank you so much for sharing the things that mothers like us feel. My beautiful baby boy suprised us as well, and we went through a similar grieving and bonding experience. Thank you for saying it just right.
Melissa Wilson says
I am moved by your words, eloquent and very real. Thank you for sharing what is only the beginning of Nella’s story. Thank you for reminding me what life is all about….living.
All the best to you and your beautiful family,
Melissa
erinphyllis says
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Your words, images, and children are heartbreakingly beautiful. I have renewed faith and hope for the world when looking at Lainey’s pride in her little Nella. ♥♥♥
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Anonymous says
Sarahleigh23
Congratulations on your two beautiful girls. You truely are blessed. Your story made my cry so many tears, not sorry tears but tears of love. This is such a wonderful story and I thank you for sharing it with all of us.
Anonymous says
Anonymous
This is the most touching story I’ve ever read. Your family is beautiful and blessed. I am honored to have been able to get this peek into your life. God bless!
Anonymous says
I learned of your blog from a Mom on a message board I belong to. This is such an amazing and touching story — I feel a little guilty reading it and not knowing you. Thank you for sharing such a personal story so I (and so many others) could be a part of something so precious. Your family is beautiful! God bless!
Janica
sk says
Hi there-
Someone sent me a link to this blog post and I just wanted to say thank you thank you thank you, you brave, strong, beautiful mama, for sharing your honest story. This is truly a gem. Your family is gorgeous, and I wish you all the happiness in the world. Also, I just LOVE the name Nella.
I’m a subscriber now!
-sarah
p.s. I’ve heard that, from a parenting perspective, having a child with DS can be extremely rewarding, because a lot of DS kids are naturally incredibly sweet and caring. 🙂
Bunny says
This is really one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read in my life. God bless you & your precious family.
Regina says
Congratulations on your new bundle of joy…
You are an inspiration.
-Regina from California
Julie and Kirk says
I was fine until “She showed me what unconditional love looks like…what the absence of stereotypes feels like…she was…
…proud.” Then I lost it and started choking back the tears.
I’m so glad I read your story. <3
Just Breathe says
I couldn’t stop reading. Your words, oh how the words flowed with so much emotion. Your honestly was felt deep within my soul. This is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your story, your bunny with me. I read stories almost everyday, stories of the women who have lost their babies. I know that if they had a choice they would love to be you.
I send out handkerchiefs to women who were not blessed by God like you were. Your daughters are beautiful works of art from God.
Bernadette Llaga says
there’s nothing more to say… you are so blessed because you are a beautiful person.
Bernadette Llaga says
there’s nothing more to say… you are so blessed because you are a beautiful person.
The Dyreng's says
Thank you so much for being so honest in your writing. I have been going through a turning point with something that I was not expecting either, and it was a true answer to a prayer to have you talk so honestly about the way things really are when you deal with something like this. Your daughter is beautiful and she is so special. She has touched more peoples lives in her first week then many people will do in their whole lives.
Lore says
Perfectly encapsulated for eternity. Extremely well said. This part truly spoke to me:
We live them, we breathe them, we go through them and soon they dissolve into new feelings. So, here I go.
I cried out that I wanted to leave her and run away. I wanted to take Lainey and my perfect world and this perfect love I had built with my two-year old and our cupcake-baking days and our art projects and our beautiful bond and I wanted to run like hell. I wanted to be pregnant again. I wanted to be pregnant so bad. I wanted it to be the morning she was born again…when I was happy and excited and when I wore the white ruffled skirt and black shirt and put it in the belongings bag knowing joy was to come. I wanted to go back. I wanted to go back. I wanted to go back.
Go on, keep enjoying this blessed journey and don’t forget to always hold their hands, hold on to them tight.
Mandy says
The post was sent to me by my sister-in-law and after reading this wonderful, wonderful story…I spent the next few days reading all your entries! Your love for your beautiful girls (and your family) is so touching. This story is so raw and honest and you can’t feel anything but admiration after reading it.
Moose says
hi sweet heart i so love u and your family they are so absolutely BEAUTIFUL i need to let u know how real your story is to mine . I so thought my life was over much to my surprise it just began i would not change it for the world my little girl’s name is Kyrie’ which means “Lord” in Greek. I had that name picked out for my son if he was a girl he’s 12 and his name is Kieffer and my oldest is Paul, he’s in college and guess what… Kyrie’ is 4 and very aware that her big bro is in college. It is so cute for the longest time she still thought he was still in his room. Teenagers you know spend a lot of time by themselves. They’re so funny ha ha.
When I was reading your story in my living room all by myself my Kyrie’ entered the room (oh by the way she was in her room watching Jonas Brothers, she so loves them its so cute to hear her say their names)…. as i was saying she entered the room, sat next to me, and she saw me crying my eyes out as I was reading your story she reached over to get me a tissue and wiped my crying eyes. I told her how much I love her and how happy she makes me. Kyrie’ has been getting therapy since she was 1 month old and continues to receive it in pre k: gets speech 4 times a week ;ot 2 times; and pt 3 times. She’s a busy little girl and i wanted u to know that I spend time being her advocate (my new title) and also spend time brain storming new ideas for the down syndrome group. One of my ideas was put into motion. I created a dance group just for kids with ds. My girl is the youngest in her class. Their recital is in May. I am so proud of this program. I just want u to know that anything is possible with hope and drive and I so see this in u and the wonderful people that surround u and support u. You are an awesome mom.
-with all of my love paula
soph1218 says
First off I have to say like many who have posted comments here, you don’t know me I just happened upon your blog today because my friend thought I would like it. I did. It was almost as if someone had written my story, the story of my precious little bunny (her name is Sarah-Rose she has DS and is 5 years old).
There are so many similarities in our story… We were expecting our second baby girl, they would be very close in age and we had visions of how close these sisters would be. All the same stuff you mentioned, baking cookies, all those happy joyous moments you feel like you’ve lost and have died all those memories of the tears and the grief came flooding back.
It’s been five years since our birth story happened. There were slightly different details, but a lot of the same emotions. You are oh so new to this new world that is DS, but I have to tell you – you have gained more than you lost. And some of the things you think you lost you didn’t lose at all. My girls are so very close the best of sisters, and they love each other one as much as the other. They are practically inseparable. Its been good for our younger daughter’s development to have an older sister so close in age.
I had so many fears – fears of the worst that DS could bring, but what I’ve learned is that my daughter is just herself, and isn’t going to be stereotyped into your average DS mold. I thought she’d be riddled with constant illness she’s been a picture of health. I thought she couldn’t do this or that and she would prove me wrong. I thought she would be dumb, but the girl is SO smart!
I am doing with my girls all the things that I thought were lost on that dark day of her birth. We are baking cookies and other sweet goodies, tying hair up in pig tails, polishing finger nails, we’ve played all the same games, had all the same fun. It’s the same and yet it’s different but somehow it’s better.
I have 5 children and she’s my youngest and yet I feel somehow a closer bond with her. She’s my baby and always will be! She’s my heart and my joy!
You will see that Nella will be yours too. Life will never be the same it will be better and you will not regret one moment and you will never be able to imagine what your life would have been like without her in it!
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter!!!! May God shower blessings down upon you. Thank you for writing Nella’s story and bringing back the precious memory for me of my own special birth story. ~ Soph
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andielika says
God always has a purpose. just lift everything up to him. offer it all up to him and everything will be fine. my friend once said, take care of the things that is important and loved to God; and in return he will take care what is important and loved to you.
congratulations. you have a miracle. 🙂
HillTopStar says
Thank you for sharing your story. I can’t begin imagine the depth of your feelings as you face your new life, your previously unimagined life. I hope you know that by sharing your experience you are changing lives and giving hope. I just had to share your story, and hope you don’t mind.
http://hilltopstar.blogspot.com/2010/02/hope-when-you-need-it-comes-in-small.html
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Lynn says
Thank you. Truly.
I now know what my grandma has tried to express to me all these years about how she felt that first night when my mom’s baby sister was born with DS……exactly just one year before me.
Unbeknownst to my grandma, my grandfather prayed to the Lord that if He would allow one more child to come to their family (my grandma had been pleading for another child, but none would come) that he would accept an “imperfect”, but special child. A child that would come and teach more to them, than they ever could to that child. He promised that that child would be so loved.
My grandfather’s desire was granted. And he kept his promise. My grandmother and my grandfather couldn’t have loved a child more.
Since my Aunt was only a year older than I, we grew up together. Went to school together. Played together. Got baptized together. When I got married and had babies, she loved those babies with all her heart.
My grandfather and my Aunt passed away within only 6 months of each other….my aunt just 4 weeks before my 6th child was born. My grandfather just when my baby was 5 months old. That was almost 12 years ago.
I miss them both. A lot.
I know I will see them again someday on the other side. And I look forward to that day.
Thanks so much for sharing your beautiful story.
Your baby is perfect. And she is SO beautiful. I KNOW that Nella will bring the same joy to your family as my aunt did to mine. The Lord has sent you a perfect spirit. Her only mission here is to love and be loved.
Just Me says
that..this..your girls..you are amazing. Congratulations on two beautiful perfect ladies.
Jacqui says
Thankyou for yor wonderful story and the beautiful pictures. I was 19 when I had my first son. He has Down Syndrome and is now 23. All I can say is he is the greatest gentleman I have ever met. He graduated High School and got to walk with his class in 2008. When he accepted his diploma he did a little dance and held it up for everyone to see, so much character, so much grae, it’s unbelievable!
I just wanted you to know I am now 43 and lived 23 years of those with my awesome Brandon, I can’t imagine my life without him. I am sure I had some of the sentiments you had at first but honestly it’s been so long ago and like you I was in love with my baby right away and all the hurt and dissapointment were replaced with a fierce love for him.
Your daughter is truly blessed to have such wonderful parents and a big sister. You are all in the right place, together.
Jennifer says
Wow!! What an incredible story! You have inspired, touched, and enlightened me. I cried and smiled along with you as you recounted your journey. This is one of the best birth stories I have ever had the pleasure of reading. God Bless you and your beautiful Nella, your precious Lainey and your wonderful husband, Brett.
Anonymous says
I was directed to your blog from a link of a forum … how open, how touching, how honest and beautiful. Huge congratulations on your beautiful family!
Tina says
You have such a beautiful story to share and you are so brave to write about your true, raw feelings. I understand wanting to rewind your life back to when you were still pregnant, happy and naive. I lost my twin daughters in April and even though our expereiences are very different, I have felt some of the same emotions you so beautifully described here. Your Nella is beautiful and perfect and is so lucky to have you as a mother. xx
Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend says
That was beautiful…I could not stop reading….and now I must share this post….
Blessings….
The Bookworm says
I found your blog after someone posted it on another website.
Your writing is so powerful, so raw, so painful yet joyful & beautiful!
What an amazing family you have!
neva says
this is such an amazing and empowering story. thank you so much for sharing it. all the best to your beautiful family!
b!@n says
I was searching for a different kind of love story to feature in our radio program here in the Philippines. My friend, Cheryl, sent me the link to your blog and told me it’s the perfect love story I was looking for. And she was right! Your story is the love story any girl, any mother, any family would wish to experience. I was deeply inspired and moved that I wish you lived here so I may invite you to share and enlighten more hearts. I’m sending you, Nella and your whole family all my love. I will remember you in m prayers. Congratulations for having a beautiful Nella and an adorable Lainey. Thank you and may God continue to bless you.
With tears of love and joy,
Bian
Veronica V Photography says
Such an amazingly beautiful and raw story that I truly appreciated reading. Your daughters are beautiful.
Rachel says
What an amazing birth story. Thank you for sharing…
Christine says
Thank you so much! Your story is awe inspiring.You and your family really are hereo’s
Kellie (a.k.a craftyk) says
How beautiful! you are all so lucky to have each other. I was lucky enough for my daughter josie to have chosen me for a mom. she was born 4 years ago with apert syndrome, and she has taught me more than i could of ever imagined! god bless
Natalie Catherine says
This was amazing to read…brought me to tears. you sound like an amazing strong woman and God has blessed you with your sweet little girls. and the doctor is so right… she is perfect and beautiful.
pt says
thank you for sharing! i wish you and your loved ones the best in life — a very amazing and fulfilling life.
Kristin Bradford says
What a beautifully written story. The honesty and raw emotion is refreshing and just so real. Congratulations on your sweet baby girl.
Tara says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful and honest story. I cried from the very beginning. We are expecting our third daughter with in the next couple of weeks. We know that she has down syndrome & it was very hard when we first found out too. Bless you, your husband and your two perfect & beautiful daughters.
Vicki says
THANK YOU for putting your story into words, I feel as if you are living the exact same day I had when my little girl was born. Good luck to you and your new family, Nella will bring you so much love. My girl is 3 now and such a joy and such an important member of our family. It’s different, hard sometimes and utterly perfect. good luck
Anonymous says
She is special in every sense of the word. A blessing is who she is. My youngest brother is ten, turning eleven this year, and has Down Syndrome. He is a joy.
He is the funniest and wittiest person I know.
Everything will be alright. 🙂
Anonymous says
She is special in every sense of the word. A blessing is who she is.
My youngest brother is ten, turning eleven this year, and has Down Syndrome. He is a joy.
He is the funniest and wittiest person I know and I AM SO PROUD OF HIM. My parents, my four siblings and I are his biggest fans.
Z says
I wanted to thank you for sharing a beautiful story. I am a mother of 4 and a labor & delivery nurse. I applaud you for realizing your feelings and accepting all of them and foremost for reminding people including me of the glorious gift that God allows us to do –raise his children, to be loved by them and to love them in return. You have touched my heart and soul–I love when God speaks to me thru others–again Thank you—may God continue to watch over you and your family always. You will always be in my heart!
Jess says
Your story is so beautiful and brought tears to my eyes. Congratulations on your two beautiful daughters.
jenhiatt says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Like many others I cried my way through it. Welcome to this journey that we as moms were chosen for. It is amazing.
I am excited to follow your blog and your family. I have an awesome 5 year old boy with Down syndrome.
http://www.thehiattkids.blogspot.com/
Nella is gorgeous!!!
Mrs.Andrews says
someone posted this link on the Dec. 09 birth board on bbc… and oh wow! I am so blessed to have read it. I read it out loud to my husband and both of us are all smiles and sooo proud of you! Yes we are proud of a total stranger. For having the courage to admit your true feelings, for having the courage to tell the whole story, and for truly embracing that amazing little bunny! You will have a beautiful life and you have such beautiful stories to share. THANK YOU for sharing this. Thank you so much. I hope to read more of your familys beautiful journey…
e. says
This is probably the most beautiful touching birth story I’ve ever read. Your girls are gorgeous. You are gorgeous. Thank you for writing this. Love love love to you and yours – <3
Sarah says
I have tears streaming down my face. I saw a link to your blog on my facebook page (all the way over in New Zealand) and not knowing what it was about I clicked over. And then I realised. So beautiful and honest and just incredible. All I can say is I have a little sister with Down Syndrome. She is 11 years old and so gorgeous, funny, clever, beautiful and rascally. They open the doors of heaven to people with their openness and love. May God be with you so close through this time. Nella is such a sweet name. God will use her so much.
Blessings from New Zealand.
Sarah
P.S On my blog are some pictures of Briar, my little sister. =)
Kristi says
I don’t believe I have ever read a story that moved me like this one did. I understand the pain you felt upon learning the baby was born with Down syndrome, but I knew that ultimately in the end you would be so in love with her that it just wouldn’t matter; motherly love is cool that way. I have never ever seen a newborn with Down syndrome, and your little pumpkin tugged at my heart strings like no other baby I have ever seen. She is so incredibly precious. You have truly been blessed.
Dorinda Bordlee says
Your soul-bearing writing ability is as beautiful as your perfect beautiful little Nella. Thank you for sharing this gift. You are an extraordinary writer. And I write professionally . . .
Anonymous says
Turn off the TV. Put down the book. Bring all your cares with you and a big box of kleenex. And then, just sink into the most incredible and moving words and pictures I at least have ever seen. I had stopped some of my prayers, and, restarted one since I found the most beautiful prayer here, “love me, love me, I’m not what You expected, but oh, please love me.” Yours is the true “Pro Life” story. I get so tired of sugar coated pictures of life. This is real life. As Blessed Elizabeth of Trinity called our Lord, “Light, Life and Love.” It is all here. God bless you!
CATHEE says
Ms. Kelle,
I stumbled upon your blog through facebook. You have an amazing gift for words. It was heart wrenching to read your birthing story.
I could feel the love you have for little Nella and obviously, she has loved you from the moment she opened her eyes to the world.
Being a Mom is one of the most difficult roles a woman could have but when we see the sweet smiles of our children, everything becomes so worth it.
God bless you! Thank you for being an inspiration to Moms all over the world.
Kitty says
hi Kelle! you’re sooooo blessed! Nella is such a cutie… both your girls are… just always remember your kids are your treasures no matter what… just hang in there…
Laurie says
An absolutely beautiful and honest birth story. I am always amazed at the human condition and how similar everyone’s stories are.
I have 3 boys- my middle child has Ds, and it was only 3 years ago that this was me.
You have so many new doors open ahead of you. Embrace it 🙂
The Dixons says
Your daughter is beautiful…and a blessing. Congratulations to your family. Another blog I follow… thought it may be interesting to you… http://www.lovinglaynee.blogspot.com/
Heather says
Wow, that was such an icredible share! Thank you! I love your honesty, insight and story.
immi87 says
thank you so much for sharing this. what an amazing story 🙂 your girls are so beautiful and perfect xx
Jacquelin says
What a beautiful story…you had me in tears. Nella is a special gift to you from God, how lucky are you! I can’t wait to follow along on your journey.
Anonymous says
Those were the most beautiful and honest words I think I have ever read. Amazing. I, too, welcomed my second daughter into the world this past December, and I cried happy tears when you wrote about your girls meeting for the first time…I vividly remember that same moment in our family and it will live with me forever. God chose you to be Nella’s mama for a reason…you are special just like she is.
Elizabeth says
What a beautiful story!
I was reminded of a story my friend told me. Her daughter Ella had Downs. She described a lot of the same feelings you had.
On Ella’s first day in the world, my friend’s roomate in hospital kept looking at Ella and bursting into tears. My friend got madder and madder each time she did it and had finally worked herself up to say something when the woman burst out with “You’re so lucky! What a beautiful little girl!”. She had four little boys and was really hoping for a little girl.
My friend told me that it was then that she realized that Down’s didn’t define Ella.
I love that story, too.
Congratulations on a beautiful family.
Anonymous says
Kelle,
Your story is mine. Thank you for giving voice and honesty to the amazing emotions that each one of us felt when we gave birth to our precious babies with Down Syndrome. It’s hard to describe to people that this is not a tragedy but a journey that few of us chose to take but one that none of us would change. I felt each emotion right along with you, but overwhelmingly, what I felt was love. Thank you.
-Allison, Bethesda, MD
Anonymous says
What a beautiful story! A testament on how much God loves us. We may not be “perfect” but the love He has for us is stronger than any bond we can imagine! He holds us so tight and calls us HIS children…no matter what! That is love.
Becky says
Welcome to the World, Bunnykins! Sounds like you had a great entry with lots and lots of people loving on you. You’ve got some great days ahead of you. With a wonderful Mama and Daddy and the sweetest “Sissy” to fill your life with joy and happiness! May the Sun, the Moon, and all the Stars shine down lovely moments all the days of your sweet life!
Destined2Reign says
Wow. This is a beautiful story. Kelle, you definitely did justice to your precious Darling Nella with your story. Your message is very empowering and thank you for sharing. You have been hand picked by Our Awesome Father in Heaven to watch over this precious child and I know you will be the best Mum to Nella like no other. May the Agape love of Jesus always fill your family into overflowing. With love, Michelle in Nashville, TN.
HiddenMiracles says
our once hidden miracle is now 16. she is a freshman in high school and swims on the high school swim team. youngest of 6. surprise to us all. shared tears with you now, remembering the loss once felt. sending hope that your road will grow brighter – and assuring you His hand is there to hold along this unexpected journey we both now share. she rides horses, goes off to Girl Scout camp, looks forward to her own apartment someday – and wonders if she will ever be a bride… She’s had visits to heaven while i’ve slept – and has seen His face, asking Him, “is that really you God?” “yes, I am.”.. and He assures her that she is never alone and He never leaves her…
full of wonder, we watch her grow…congratulations to little Nella for the family that loves her so!
lovingmysoldier says
I do not know you, but your story is beautiful, and real and emotional. You have BEAUTIFUL daughters! I wish you nothing but the best with your life with your 2 gorgeous little girls.
sheng says
You made me cry, this very morning when I woke up, I realized, life is beautiful and it is because you accepted such sweet taste of fate, and you accepted it with all hopes. Congratulations!
MissyCarson says
Dear Kelle,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of Nella. Your feelings are so true and I remember feeling similar sentiments when my daughter Bernice was born October 3, 2007 and gifted with an extra chromosome at 30 weeks gestation with severe heart issues. Bernie is the youngest of 4 sisters ages 2-6 currently (twins, age 5) Our story is on our care page which can be accessed through HealTheBern.com. Your photography is fabulous. I love hearing how these dear angels arrive in the world. In case you have not been gifted the following readings (yes, they can be read in a flipping through :), I pass them to you and your followers:
Creed of Babies with Down syndrome
My face may be different
But my feelings the same
I laugh and cry
And I take pride in my gains
I was sent here among you
To teach you to love
As God in the heavens
looks down from above
To Him I’m no different
His love knows no bounds
It’s those here among you
In cities and towns
That judge me by standards
That man has imparted
But this family I’ve chosen
Will help me get started
For I’m one of the children
so special and few
That came here to learn
The same lessons as you
That love is acceptance
it must come from the heart
We all have the same purpose
Though not the same start
The Lord gave me life
To live and embrace
And I’ll do it as you do
But at my own pace.
WELCOME TO HOLLAND
by
Emily Perl Kingsley.
c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this……
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away… because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
I’ve directed and produced a photo montage of some of our local kids and adults in our area who have Down syndrome. You can find it on Youtube at
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KmtURAmAkg0
Enjoy the tulips and the Rembrandts…truly spectacular.
Missy Carson Smith
peetiesmith@yahoo.com
“Bernie’s Mom”
Melissa says
You make beautiful babies! What a gift you have been given. What lucky girls to call you their mama. What an amazing life you have to look forward to. God bless you and your beautiful family. Thank you so much for writing this. I look forward to watching your family grow! Congratulations!
Netsmom says
Wow, you captured all of your emotions in this story of your baby bunny. You’ve inspired me to write about the birth of my daughter, also has Down Syndrome, born 23 years ago. She’s my joy, my love and my only child. She’s smart, she’s healthy and is very much loved by all. THANKS.
Trish says
Brilliantly written. I can feel your love for her. <3
Continue on that beautiful journey called life.
KarmaPearl says
Amazingly beautiful. That’s all that I can say. Your family is gorgeous.
MamaBiz says
This blog touched my heart in more ways that I can explain. You have a beautiful family. You are truly blessed! You have a gift for writing and your pictures are amazing. God bless you!
Snow Bunny says
I’m just a stranger, but I came across your blog and I just wanted to tell you how deeply you and Nella and Lainey have touched my heart.
I’m sitting here with tears streaming down my face (which is waking up my baby son, sleeping on my chest) from reading your story.
Nella and Lainey are so very, very lucky to have such a wonderful mother. I wish your family the very best. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us.
Ashley says
Your girls are beautiful!! The pictures are gorgeous and made me feel your words even more. Thank you for sharing your story.
Mommy Ward says
Your story was beautiful and you have two beautiful daughters…..You are so lucky and blessed. She is perfect in every way.
Anonymous says
Truly the most beautiful, courageous words I have ever read. Thank you.
CatKiki says
I don’t even know you but by the end of your story, I was in tears. God has given you a precious gift in Nella. God bless you.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Our story is only a few years ahead of yours with a different diagnosis and an unfortunate limit of years we can expect to have our Sweet Doodle here on earth.
What an honor it is to be a Special Child’s mom. As a Warrior Mom, I’ve experienced that my love is allowed to go so much deeper for this wonderfully and perfectly made special gift/child. I see that in your eyes and am so excited for you.
I did not have a glimpse in my early shock and grief days (it was a prolonged period of diagnosis) of what a supernatural treasure I had given birth to that morning. He has changed every life he has touched. I call him our Community Baby because in 2.5 years he has impacted so many lives in such powerful ways. For every day he is with us, and for every day we will be separated between earth and Heaven from him, I breathe a more precious air. I never could have predicted the gift of a special child and I am so humbly thankful for it.
You have so much to look forward to with Nella. I am so excited for you. It is life in the “other lane” and it is so different, and so full, and so blessedly incredible. Remember to share her, no life will be the same post Knowing Nella.
Congratulations on being a Special Mom, Dad and Sister, Granparent, Aunt, Uncle, and Treasuer of a Special Child.
Anonymous says
What a blessing to be in such a family graced with friendship and love.
Sanny says
Beautiful. The pictures, the words, the honesty of your emotions, and your whole family, including the ones who loaned you their hearts. Much love to you all.
Sandy from Minnesota
Anonymous says
thirty one years ago i was blessed with a special son the tears were many but joys will always over rule god bless patricia
Melissa Stover says
oh i cried through your story. but it was so beautifully told. so beautifully photographed and such a happy ending!
Rachael says
This is absolutely amazing, and so, so beautiful, real, and honest. Congratulations on your beautiful new daughter.
evrfwd says
a beautiful story, written with truth. welcome to your new world little one. you are very loved. oxox
carlamaldita says
very well written birthing story. emotional. touching.
thank you for sharing.
Southern Gal says
You touched my heart. Thank you.
elishamdorsett says
Oh Kelle…I fealt as if I were reading my own story. The feelings of sorrow in the beginning and the overwhelming joy that comes and makes you wish you had never had to feel that way about your perfect blessing. I cried and cried as I read your story and remembered the day our daughter was born and they too told us of their suspician of Down Syndrome. Now 6 years later how much she has completed us and how much joy we would have missed without her and just how much we all love our little Downie Brownies.
Blessings to you and little Nella and may she be your life changing package of joy just as our little Macailyn (Or Kay Kay if you ask her 🙂 has been to us.
Frances says
Oh, my comment is going to sound so shallow but I just love how beautiful you were when you gave birth! You didn’t look swollen or sweaty at all! And your family and friends looked so glamorous. The photos were amazing. Now I want my own family and friends to dress up, hire a photographer and get myself a blowdry and makeup, too, when I give birth! =D
And of course, your story is even more lovely and your family and friends’ love and support are incredible and your daughters are precious. Congratulations!
Anonymous says
Dear Kelli,
You do not know me. I live in Texas. I received the link to your blog from a Down Syndrome support group online.
Your story is amazing. I felt like I was there with you in more ways than one. I too have a baby girl that was diagnosed at birth with Down syndrome. Your honesty and sharing of such raw feelings described mine exactly. The way you started the story with how you felt so much but how you wondered how you would ever put it into words…I am there. I have started my Olivia’s story and am still writing about the pregnancy. I have not even gotten to the birth yet and I have felt feelings that I have never had.
I loved how you described how other loaned you their hearts as yours was breaking. I know how that is. We had such a big support group of people surrounding us at the hospital and I had nurses loving Olivia with all their hearts as they watched my breaking, yet growing stronger. These same nurses will be some of the closest friends that I will ever know.
Oh, and your Poppa! His words bring tears to my eyes! I love the comment “at 6 lbs. and 19″ long, how did she make such a big splash in our hearts!” My husband cried with those words.
Your story has resurfaced all the emotion from my Olivia’s birth. I look forward to following your blog and seeing all the new experiences that Nella will bring to your life. I am looking forward to the same. Olivia is 6 months old now and I continue to experience emotions that I never knew were there, including fears. But oh such joy!
Thank you for baring your soul and at the same time ministering to mine!
Together in this journey,
Tina
tdb@signalpointsolutions.com
Marcus & Lindsay says
Thanks for sharing your inspiring story with the world. WE all need a little of this. ANd your doctor is right, she is beautiful and perfect!
Natalie says
Your little Bunny is one of the most beautiful, precious little angels I have ever seen! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. Your honesty is beautiful and I pray you and your family continue to be blessed in this world with as much love as you are feeling today.
Jennifer Eastland says
Wow. I’m speechless. Beautiful writing…beautiful story…and absolutely beautiful daughters. BOTH of them. They must take after their sweet mama. Thank you for your honesty. I loved your post. Amazing.
BTW, I found you through Kristen’s “We Are THAT Family” blog.
Jennifer in New Orleans
mamabto6 says
I loved your story. By the end of it my eyes were red and swollen. I just had to go find my 14 year old son with DS and give him a big hug and tell him again how much I love him and how special he is. He’s usually very concerned when someone is sad, but he instinctively knew mama’s tears weren’t tears of sadness but of joy and he just patiently let me cry and hold him and love him. I never cried BECAUSE he had DS; he was 4 months old before we found out for sure, and I cried for a day, but my tears were for all the babies who are aborted because the parents are told their children have DS. My tears were for them. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story.
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Melissa R says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story.
Alie says
Beautiful. Thank you.
Alie says
Beautiful. Thank you.
Anonymous says
I dont know but I read your story and cried.My daughter is 5 months old and I love her so much but reading this makes me love her so much more.congrats on your new little girl she is so cute.Thanks for sharing and making me remeber the important things in life.
bk grew-zen-ski says
Your raw and unconditional faith is incredible. The process of loving has never been easy, but you have made it so beautiful. I don’t know where you are, but there are people who want to share this love with you. The world needs to know the joy of this beautiful soul. I have been able to find the deepest love in working and growing with children and adults with D.S. Please check this out and when she is 4… Send her to us! 🙂 http://recreationcampoc.com/
mamabto6 says
My eyes were swollen by the time I finished your story. I just had to go and find my 14 year old son with DS and hug & kiss him & tell him how much I love him & how special he is. John’s usually very concerned when someone is sad, but this time he instinctively knew that mama’s tears were of joy, not sadness. He patiently let me love on him and pray and thank God again for giving (I should say loaning) him to us. I never cried because John had DS. He was 4 months old before we found out. I cried for that day, but my tears were for all the unwanted babies who were aborted because they had DS. I cried for them. Thank you again for sharing your beautiful story! Your girls are precious! Your family is indeed special!
BCC says
What a beautiful baby! Congratulations Nella, welcome to the world baby girl!
ybbil06 says
Three years ago my extended family was blessed with a beautiful baby girl and experienced many of the emotions you have shared in Nella’s story. While I was able to empathize with my family’s feelings of shock and sadness, my experience in working with kids with DS allowed me a sneak peek into the overwhelming joy and love we’d all soon realize.
We couldn’t be happier in Holland!
Both of your girls are beautiful; enjoy them.
The Halbert Home says
I stumbled across your blog today randomly through someone else and was so blessed by your story. Your daughters are beautiful! Thank you for sharing.
Anonymous says
Kelle, Your blog was sent to me by a dear friend. I am so touched. I am a nurse and while teaching nursing students in a college of nursing,I had opportunity to describe children with Down Syndrome. I would explain that as a group they are the most loving human beings on earth. As they love unconditionally, I believe this is how the Lord wanted us to love. Maybe the rest of us have the syndrome. God bless you for your faith and for sharing your wonderful story.
Ari says
oh wow, what a story with a happy ending! Thanks for sharing it with us, to make us cry and be filled with joy too.
Ari says
oh wow, what a story with a happy ending! Thanks for sharing it with us, to make us cry and be filled with joy too.
L.C.T. says
Such an utterly beautifully written, inspiring, incredible story. And without doubt and with complete honesty, your littlest girl is one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen.
Jeana says
Wow, thanks so much for sharing such a beautiful story. Almost a year ago we found out that our little girl Kaelyn had Down syndrome. I’ve cried the same tears you cried, and I’ve felt the same love that you feel. As I read your story and held Kaelyn in my arms I felt a special connection to you. After 8 months with my little girl I have learned more about love and life than the previous 25 years. We are so lucky to have such sweeties in our lives and I truly feel so blessed to have her. I can’t wait for her life to unfold and for her story to continue to write itself. Your girls are beautiful!
feistykaelyn.blogspot.com
mrshojo says
Thank you for letting me see into your life and your heart. I admire your ability to share your thoughts and feelings in a way that makes me feel like a close friend. I find it hard to do that, but I’m learning! I’m so glad that you are planning to write a book. You are blessed to be a blessing! I am blessed to have found your blog and will continue to follow your story.
Leah says
I’m sobbing. Beautiful story. Although it was 3 years before I found out my son had autism, I still went through all those emotions you did. It’s the darkest feeling in the world. Begging God to just let it be that morning…when you were still happy and blissfully unaware.
Thank you for being so open and honest about your story.
Tara. says
You have two beautiful, perfect girls. Yes, one isn’t “normal” but who is?? Your story brought tears to my eyes and love to my heart.
Amazing.
Suzanne says
Thank you for telling your story and sharing your beautiful photos with the world! I came upon your link as I was browsing the special needs board in BabyCentre because my sweet girl, Olivia, also has Down’s. She is 3 now and I went through many of the same emotions as you but never so eloquently put it in words. Olivia was also a preemie with cardiac issues etc and my heart was broken when she was first born but now I could not EVER imagine life without her. I’ve never followed a blog before but I just may have to follow yours-a kindred spirit 🙂 All the best to your beautiful family.
Kathleen@so much to say, so little time says
My daughter Julianna turned 3 years old on Feb. 2nd. I did NOT know when I first saw her that she had Down syndrome. Neither did my husband. But everyone else in the OR knew, and the air changed palpably. We cried all weekend. And then we went home, and we loved our daughter, and she wound her way into our hearts, and she is absolutley the most precious, beautiful thing that has ever happened to us. Not easy, but always, always beautiful. If you need to hear from someone who’s been there (I haven’t read the 1100 comments, so I’m sure this is not the first time you’ve had this offer!), email me, or just look at the multitudes of blog entries I’ve written about Julianna, which are all linked here:
http://kathleenbasi.com/down-syndrome/
God bless you on this journey you are beginning.
Kate Basi,
Columbia, Missouri
Bombtastic Belle says
This is the most amazing birth story I have ever read. You’re amazing, Nella is beautiful, and you have a great family. God bless. 🙂
Wander says
So very beautiful! Your story and your sweet family!
I can’t imagine the condition of your heart and emotions. Only God can.
Thank you for being so bold and so open about your broken-ness. Your story is special. God knows exactly what He’s doing and it must be an amazing feeling to be chosen to be Nella’s mommy!
God bless you beautiful lady!
Rachel says
You are amazing. Thank you so much for sharing your life story. I cried when reading your blog post and when my 7 year old daughter told me to stop reading what it was that was making me sad…I had to tell her that I wasn’t sad I was touched. I wish you and your beautiful family a wondeful life.
Anonymous says
Dear, You are a beautiful and a sweet, loving caring mom. I have been praying to god while reading…Jesus we all love you. Thank you for this wonderful mom and lovely baby and lovely family. God will be with your family at all times. LORD ALL MIGHTY LOVES YOU A LOT..I am sure he does…
I love you so much MOM…Praise Lord!
-Raji
Anonymous says
One more important note is that GOD ALMIGHTY JESUS CHRIST IS ALIVE. We lost our 28 yr old wonderful brother recently at US and my sister and entire family was praying to god continuosly at India. It took for us about 1 week for me to send my brothers body to India. They prayed so much and finally after 4 full days of praying they heard god’s voice like “MY NAME WILL BE GLORIFIED” God said this 3 times and everyone in that room heard gods voice…trust me this truly happened. GOD LOVES YOU A LOT and IAM SURE. YOU ARE A GREAT MOM. GOD is always watching and taking care of your little baby girl. Leave things to our living god..he will take care of everything.
-Raji
Crystal says
I found a link to your birth story from another blog I follow. She said it was one of the most beautiful birth stories she has ever read.
I was not prepared for the tears. The uncontrolled crying. As I sit here reading this, with four of my five children tearing up the house and calling my name, I can not stop reading and I can not stop the tears.
Your story is absolutely beautiful. Amazing. Raw.
How brave you are to share so honestly. The truth. The bare of it all.
God bless you. Your family. Your girls. Your beautiful story.
The pictures are amazing. With your words, it all tells the story-making it real.
This is a story I want to follow forever.
Go move mountains!
Kim Porter says
Just amazing. You and your girls are AMAZING. I wish you all a beautiful life that you deserve. Thank you for sharing your birth story.
Anonymous says
Your birth story brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for writing it, it’s wonderful.
And congratulations on such a beautiful family 🙂
jen chilli says
Reading your blog tonight took me back just two short months ago to when my little boy was born…All the emotions you felt and everything you described touched me so deeply because I felt the very same things and in that moment my heart broke the very same way…thank you for your honesty and sharing your story, its a comfort to know I am not alone in some of the things I have felt and struggled with…I am so glad I by chance came across your story. Your daughter is beautiful, congratualtions!
Anonymous says
I have never read such a beautiful birth story. I cried many tears during it, for you, your daughters, the love that the young daughter unconditionally showed and shared with your new precious Nella. It is so special, and touching. Thank you for sharing your story.
divine_viva says
Hi Kelle,
I’m from the Philippines and I just have to tell you that you have such wonderful, beautiful daughters. Nella is absolutely beatiful and perfect!
Your story is so beautiful and an inspiration to many. I deeply admire you and your family. I know you’re the perfect mom for Nella. You’re both beautiful!
I have 3 daughters and I love them too, so dearly.
God bless you and your family.
Vivian
vvaguilar2003@yahoo.com
Janell says
beautifully written and beautifully photographed. Thank you for sharing your feelings honestly – it was enlightening to learn of the raw feelings when your second daughter was born.
Kam & Amy says
What a beautiful birth story!
Breitenstein Blog says
This is an amazing story, thank you for sharing it. Your family is beautiful and precious. So Many Congratulations!!!
Kate says
What a beautiful, heartfelt, emotional birth story.
Thank you for sharing your heart with us.
God is so good to have put you and Nella together. She is beautiful, perfectly beautiful.
Congratulations to you, sweet girl.
Gracie says
my eyes are puffy & swollen with tears. this is the most beautiful birth story i’ve ever read.
congratulations! your Nella is beautiful & perfect.
genae says
this is one of the most beautiful stories i have ever read. you are a courageous and beautiful mother, and my heart feels so much joy for your families journey.
Lynn says
God Bless you all on this very special Valentine’s Day. Your two girls are just precious. I’m so very glad that I found your blog today.
Bethany Littrell says
A friend of mine sent me the link to your story and I have to say, this is easile one of the most moving and honest stories I’ve ever read. She told me to have a kleenex handy but she didn’t warn me to have a whole box ready. We have DS in our family as well as other handicaps and there are challenges, but also many, many rewards! How blessed Nella is to have been born into your family! Congratulations and thank you for sharing your story!
Poppa...again says
Alright, maybe because it is Valentine’s Day, maybe it was just to savor the sweet strength of all these comments, but I read our story again today and just thanked God for the incredible energy of LOVE. It certainly can empower the weak and arm one for any battle…gently and with grace. I cannot wait to get my hands on our sweetypie tomorrow night…I just might take one of the night feedings if you have a bottle ready…
Meghan says
Your story is so amazing and powerful. I loved reading of Nella and Lainey and your gorgeous family and look forward to following your story! Simply beautiful.
heaf says
Hi Kelle
Another stranger here, all the way from New Zealand!
I saw this link on a baby website I belong to, and it is the best birth story I have read, and your children are just soooooo adorable!!!!!! Congratulations on your girls, they are amazing and you are very blessed.
I hope you dont mind if I follow your blog, your photos are awesome, you have an amazing gift and you write so well. You are an inspiration.
xxxx
Chris says
Hi, I have started reading your birth story numerous times, and I have had to stop because I can feel the tears welling in my eyes, and my breath catches. It brings me back three years when my little guy (who is also sporting a little something extra). The love, the grief, the wanting to run, the wonder. Just wanted to say hi, welcome to the club, and congratulations. Your little bunny is beautiful.
xo
Christine
Phaedra says
I have tears in my eyes reading this. I identify so much with your words. We didn’t have one moment of realization that our world was changing, but a gradual adjustment as Brianna has grown older that things aren’t quite right. I have some days that I can’t quite believe it’s real, but then I’m overwhelmed with love by my tiny daughter who is beautiful and perfect.
Thank you for saying the words that many of us are sometimes to ashamed and scared to admit, both the beautiful and the sad.
Stephanie says
Kelle, Your story was shown to me by a friend of mine. She told me it reminded her of my daughter Riley, who also has Down Syndrome. I didnt have my grieving process til the day i got the results back but i knew from the moment i saw her that she had it. But i did my hardest to put it at the back of my mind. I had enough on my plate, as my Riley and her twin sister Alayna were born at just 28 weeks. My mom thought she had it too but just thought maybe its becuase she was premature, maybe she’d outgrow those features. But at 5 weeks old, the reality set in and the whole world changed once again.
My daughter Riley is now 3 years old and thriving and i would not change a thing. this is a great birth story, sad but encouraging and very truthful. I loved it. thank you!
Stephanie.
Anonymous says
I am trying to think of something to write…but the truth is…there really are no words…one thing is certain, I am going to read this to my daughter who is 3 and a half and my son who is 14 months one day when they are able to fully understand, so I could explain to them what the human spirt is all about and what true love is really is. God bless you.
Anonymous says
Your daughter is beautiful!
Just you wait…the journey gets better every day! Enjoy it!
MommyOfAPuppy says
Hello there. I just read your entire blog since your baby was born. She’s beautiful. Both of your daughters are. After reading all of this, I was reminded of something that I read long ago. I looked it up, and felt like I should share it with you. It was written by a woman whose daughter was born with Down Syndrome as well. I just want you to know that you guys were chosen. I can’t even imagine how hard it is, and the emotions that you are going through, but your special baby girl was given to you and, like you said, she’s going to be doing big things! *big hugs*
HEAVEN’S VERY SPECIAL CHILD
by Edna Massimilla
A meeting was held quite far from Earth.
It was time again for another birth.
Said the Angels to the Lord above —
“This special child will need much love.
“Her progress may be very slow,
“Accomplishment she may not show.
“And she’ll require extra care
“From the folks she meets down there.
“She may not run or laugh or play,
“Her thoughts may seem quite far away.
“So many times she will be labeled
“‘different,’ ‘helpless’ and disabled.
“So, let’s be careful where she’s sent.
“We want her life to be content.
“Please, Lord, find the parents who
“Will do a special job for you.
“They will not realize right away
“The leading role they are asked to play.
“But with this child sent from above
“Comes stronger faith, and richer love.
“And soon they’ll know the privilege given
“In caring for their gift from heaven.
“Their precious charge, so meek and mild
“Is heaven’s very special child.”
Anonymous says
Yet another “stranger” who is touched beyond words by this story. What you have written is absolutely beautiful and written with a transparent honesty that brings tears to my eyes! I know this story, because I have a story of my own. My amazing daughter is 4 1/2 years old and she is beautiful, bright, independent and full of spunk. She is an indescribable joy to our family. God bless you as you begin this wonderful journey.
The Writer Chic says
One, two, three blog hops from random links….I can’t even tell you how I got here, but I’m so glad I did.
I’m currently 26w pregnant with a daughter, and part of me wants to shy away from your words, as is they are a harbinger of a thousand imagined maybes….but yet, I feel blessed that I know your daughter’s story, and I am blessed for YOUR telling of it.
Thank you, Kelle. Thank you.
Lisa Russell says
Kelle, I read your story a few days ago and came back today because I just couldn’t stop thinking of the irony. You have such a “thing” for beauty and in one moment, when you least expected it, when your beautiful plan is at its peak, you almost didn’t recognize it. Beauty caught you unaware, knocked you for a loop. Redefined itself in one instant. You are so gifted. The way you weave words and beautiful images together is astounding. Today I read the more recent posts on your blog. This birth story is at the bottom of the page and I love all of the recent images you’ve shared. You’re right that our children teach us a lot about love. I think you’ve taught me a lot about beauty. I never knew a picture could have such soul. I need a better camera 🙂
Marika says
What a beautiful story! Congrats on your little addition to your family!!
Anonymous says
What a wonderfully told story!!! You truly have a way with words, and you and your girls are sooo lucky!!! My MIL recently told me the story of my SIL birth 22 years ago, she was born with DS as well and I will def be sharing this story with her. Thank you
Pat Grace says
Hi Kelle!
I found the link to your blog through an e-group. I read it without noticing it was about one mom’s birthing story to a baby with DS. I was so moved and my eyes were filling up with tears. I’m not a mom with a special needs child but I grew up with an aunt who has DS. I never really knew she was special until I was already around 12 years old. All I knew was that she was the one aunt who always had time to play with us.
God bless you and I’ll be following your journey.
– Pat
Justine says
I don’t know if you’ll ever read this but I wanted to let you know that you are an amazing woman and definately an inspiration. I cried reading your story because it really hit home. Now I haven’t had to go through your situation but when I was pregnant with my son I was afraid of the very outcome you were so blessed with. And reading how you reacted and ended up falling so deeply in love with her gave me hope. Hope in knowing that if any of my children are born with DS that I will love them just as much as you described loving your daughter. And even if I go into a dark place right after the birth that that would be normal but to keep in mind that I was blessed. That I was meant to mother the child I carried in my belly for 9 months and show them more love than anyone could think possible.
Thank you so much for your story.
Tammy says
You have a beautiful story and an even more beautiful daughter. She is blessed to have you for a mommy, as you are having her for a daughter.
Katie says
Hi Kelle,
You don’t know me, but I feel moved to let you know how I’ve been touched by the birth story of little Nella. It is raw, honest, heart-wrenching, beautiful, and powerful. I can relate to so many of your emotions, even though our stories are very different. A friend sent me a link to your blog, I assume seeing the parallel to my unwanted Cesarean after planning and dreaming of a homebirth. Blessings to you and your sweet Bunny.
Anonymous says
i couldn’t help but cry. there is so much love in here. your little bunny is so lucky to have you and the love of your family and friends. congratulations to a beautiful daughter.
Roberta says
I can only say, like somebody has already said…my heart has streched because of Nella Cordelia.
Not many people will have had that said about them by the time they come to die. Made me wonder if I would ever be one of them. Your priceless newborn daughter has got by most people who are pleased to call themselves succesful adults.
“And a little child shall lead them…”
Jen says
What a beautiful baby. Your story made me cry, but has opened my eyes to what true beauty is. God bless your beautiful family. You are going to have so much fun with your girls!
Mama Bowen says
Your story has touched me deeply. Congratulations on 2 perfect little girls. My hears is fuller because I read Nella’s story.
Carmel says
God bless you and your beautiful family.
familyofgirls says
You daughter is just beautiful and her story brought tears to my eyes. In some of those last photos she looks like she is smiling already. She looks like she is very at peace and feels very loved in your family 🙂 Congratulations to you all.
Anonymous says
Kelle, I just wanted to say thank you for posting such a wonderful birth story. I started reading it and as I filled up with tears, my 4 year old son Joseph who has Down’s Syndrome too, came and sat beside me and pointed at my tears and gave me a cuddle. I told him that I was reading about a special lady who had a special baby just like him and he enjoyed looking at all the pictures and saying “mummy” and “baby”.
Thank you for not only posting your story, but for giving me another precious memory of a lovely moment with my son 😀
Karon
Nicolian says
Thank you for being honest and sharing your story. Nobody can fault you for grieving the loss of what you were expecting.. I’m so happy you realized that what you got is even better. Welcome to the world beautiful Nella. You’re a lucky girl to have so many who love you so much! <3
Melissa says
God Bless. What an AMAZING story. Thank you so much for sharing this. I cried.
Dorene R. says
I loved reading your story; thank you for being so open. I cried, too, the night my Katie was born and diagnosed with Ds, except I think I was the last person in the room to know. But it’s all SO OK now. She’s two, and every.single.person who meets our little Katie just adores her. She’s warm, friendly, outgoing, content, and a bit of sunshine in our family’s every day. My husband said, “what does it matter, as long as she’s happy.” He’s right. Just wait until you get to see Nella’s first little smile. It may take a couple of extra weeks to emerge, but it will be there. I needed that first smile badly, and couldn’t wait to capture a picture of it, too. (Katie smiled at 9 weeks.). You can see a couple of video montages at my link. No blog, just the pics/video to share (brag about).
Advice: spend the first year getting a grip on the medical situation (get a good geneticist to compliment your pediatrician). Be medically proactive so Nella’s cognitive development won’t be impeded (e.g. glasses, wax cleaned from ears periodically, etc). Look to DownsEd USA (Sue Buckley internationally) for the latest info on education for children w/ Ds. They are the most progressive. Take matters into your own hands because you can do this. I truly feel lucky to be Katie’s mama. Lucky, lucky, blessed me.
Jamie says
Your story, and daughter, are beautiful. My child also has special needs, though she has spina bifida. We found out when we were 22 weeks along. Though I was surprised, I realy wasn’t. I always knew I would have a special needs child, and that that child would need me, but also that I would need her. Madi is now 1 and such a huge blessing on our life. There is a poem, welcome to holland, that says you will experience loss of a dream. I don’t feel like that at all. I feel like my dreams have just gotten stronger for her. Keep fighting for your little one!
Life with Kaishon says
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. I will pray that you will find much happiness and joy on your journey. I know that you will! I just know. God bless.
Anonymous says
This is such a beautiful story, well put and full of emotion, I was crying as I read it. I have spent the morning with my coffee reading many pages of your blog. I have to say when I read Nella’s middle name, I thought of Anne of Green Gables and then read on your profile it was one of your fav movies, mine too! Congrats on 2 beautiful and perfect babies, they are lucky to have a mother like you.
Omaloriann says
A beautiful birth story. God chooses special people for special babies. He never makes a mistake. You have beautiful daughters, you are indeed blessed. I know your pain, my 3rd granddaughter was born with a cleft pallet & cleft lip – we had no idea until she was born. We were in shock, but she has truly stolen our hearts.
kris... says
One of my very best friends delivered a baby with downs two weeks ago. My heart aches for her… and I hope I can get her to read your story! Beautiful.
{ K } says
This story is soul touching and absolutely beautiful!!
I am so glad your little “bunny” was born and has completed your family!
I can’t wait to continue to read the story of your family!!
My birth story was very similar and it wasn’t met with even a spec of the love that your sweet Nella’s was met with.
I am so happy that God placed Nella in your care and with your family so that she grows up knowing the complete and true love of those that God trusted to take care of her.
Marla says
I’m a first time visitor that has been touched by your story. Thank you for sharing.
I will be back, I promise.
Congratulations.
Marla says
I’m a first time visitor that has been touched by your story. Thank you for sharing.
I will be back, I promise.
Congratulations.
Faithypooh79 says
What an incredibly wonderful story, thank you for sharing and being honest, your daughters are both beautiful, God never makes mistakes, he chose you for her, beautiful.
Anonymous says
My son was born with a rare birth defect 4 years ago. Reading your story brings back many wonderful and painful memories. We are different in many ways, yet the same with a bond of raising a child with a disability. I look at my son now and every day is a gift. I feel blessed that I was chosen to be his mom. Have you ever read the poem “Welcome to Holland”? If not, do so. Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl!
Anonymous says
I can’t stop crying. My beautiful first daughter (now almost 9) has DS too and it was a surprise. I have a happy story too and while I didn’t grieve like you did – I am so very very moved by your beautifully told story. THANK YOU SO MUCH for sharing this with the world. You will change lives and move hearts.
I am now the mother of 3 beautiful little girls. I wish you a life time of blessings for your family.
Heather Carley
Sidney, BC
http://www.facebook.com/excludenone
Tanya says
My best friend said I had to read this post and she was right. I also have a new little one in my life with Down Syndrome. We received the surprise at birth and I have to tell you, it sounds like you are handling it amazingly. I’ve had a hard time, but thanks to my wonderful community, family, and friends, I feel like everything is going to be alright. Thank you for your beautiful words.
Feel free to read Connor’s story-
http://www.thisthatandalittleextrachromosome.wordpress.com
Tanya says
My best friend said I had to read this post and she was right. I also have a new little one in my life with Down Syndrome. We received the surprise at birth and I have to tell you, it sounds like you are handling it amazingly. I’ve had a hard time, but thanks to my wonderful community, family, and friends, I feel like everything is going to be alright. Thank you for your beautiful words.
Feel free to read Connor’s story-
http://www.thisthatandalittleextrachromosome.wordpress.com
McTeach says
This is an amazing, beautiful honest account of your daughter’s birth. I think it has the potential to help other moms in your same shoes. I have shared it with everyone I can think of and cried and cried while reading. Just beautiful!
J says
Congratulations! Such a beautiful story.
crystal theresa says
Nella is a absolutely adorable baby girl. what a beautiful addition to your family.
thank you for sharing your heart, the bad and good of it, with complete honesty.
The Woodin's domain says
Thank you for sharing your story. It is inspiring and gives us all hope and courage. Keep smiling and loving that’s all is needed in life.
Natasha says
Such a touching and honest story. Thank you so much for sharing and congratulations on the birth of Nella Cordelia. She is as beautiful as her name. xoxoxo
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your story. It touched me in a way I needed to be reached today. Nella is beautiful and she is indeed, perfect.
Thank you.
Jo says
I loved your entry as I too have a daughter with DS I hope that you can view the link as I made a photo montage of her celebrated life. She has taught me to much and opened up doors to a new world and true frienships that are worth valuing. Nella is gorgeous
http://www.onetruemedia.com/otm_site/view_shared?p=88b31728ac885d830e7be&skin_id=0&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=image
Eyeglasses & Endzones says
I’ve never seen your blog before. I was sent by a friend to read this post and let me just tell you, I feel truly blessed to have read this. Your daughters are absolutley gorgeous and God will bless your family in soo many ways. Thank you for sharing a “REAL” story. Such amazing photos along with this post. Your friend Heidi is very talented as well as all the other photogs at the hospital!
CONGRATULATIONS NELLA, on being born with an AMAZING family!!!
susie says
Kelle, you are so very brave for sharing your story. And it is such an inspirational one. You have been given a gift.
The Noisy Ninja says
Congratulations! Thank you so much for posting your birth story – a friend of mine linked me to it. My daughter was born last year extremely premature. While I’m sure some of our experiences were quite different, much of the sentiment is the same. Your story is beautiful, and you have two very sweet, adorable, perfect little girls.
Nancy says
This is a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing with the world. My 17 year old son with DS has brought more emotions into our family than you could ever imagine and you darling baby girl will too.
Kathleen says
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful baby girl… and the beginning of a wonderful life with her! She is so lucky, SO LUCKY, to have such a strong and amazing woman to call her mother. And such a great and loving man to call father. She is also lucky to have such a proud big sister. Lots of love to all of you… from all of us who THANK YOU for sharing your story.
Kathleen says
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful baby girl… and the beginning of a wonderful life with her! She is so lucky, SO LUCKY, to have such a strong and amazing woman to call her mother. And such a great and loving man to call father. She is also lucky to have such a proud big sister. Lots of love to all of you… from all of us who THANK YOU for sharing your story.
Lydia Brown says
Thank you for sharing the story of your beautiful Nella. At 35, I fear the thought of having another child at the risk he/she may be born with d.s. Your story has been so encouraging to me. Nella is just as amazingly beautiful and perfect as Lainey. And God did select you and Nella for each other. You are so blessed to have her and she to have you. Thank you for sharing.
Annette says
She is an absolute angel! Pure joyous love!!! Congratulations and thank you for sharing your story:o)
Joyeful says
I was directed here from a blogging friend…and I am stunned.
Stunned by the beauty and the heart wrenching honesty. Thank you for being so real, so unafraid. Nella IS truly beautiful. Her little life has already touched so many!
Wenona says
I found your blog through my friend who posted the link to this amazing birth story. I’ve read through it a couple times now, and my shirt is literally soaked with tears when I am finished reading. You are amazing, your family is amazing and beautiful little Nella is absolutely perfect and amazing. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for being honest. You have such a gift with words and you have touched the hearts of many, many people.
God bless you and your family.
PaisleyJade says
Beautiful story – thank you for your openness and honesty! Have shared this on my blog today.
D 'n' D 'n' M says
I feel so blessed to have shared your story. Your honesty, love, friends and family – it’s breathtaking. And your daughters are both so beautiful. Bless you.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for writing this. I can not even put into words how this story made me feel. It was beautiful! I wish you and your family happiness and endless love! You have two absolutely beautiful daughters. Congratulations! xo
Jen says
I thanked a friend for directing me to your beautiful story. You are so beautiful. I liked your crown. You have a beautiful family
There is a grieving process that one goes though when you first realize that your baby/child is not “normal”. While my older son has a learning disability and is quite different to your wee girl. I wouldnt change a thing. In fact when I was preggy with my younger son and was offered the choice to have some tests to see if he would be “normal” I declined them. I would have gone through all the difficulties and more if Id have had to. All children are a gift from God. All children are special and unique.
Angela says
Kia ora from New Zealand. Thank you, thank you for sharing your story. It touched my heart in so many ways. I’ll be an older than average age mom and have always wondered, would I have a child with Down Syndrome? I don’t know. But I do know that if I do, I will take courage and strength from you. Thank you.
Hege in Norway says
Thank you for this beautiful story – for sharing the love and pain. Your girls are so beautiful, and I’m so glad they are with you and your loving heart. Me – I’m the proudest mommy ever to a 10 year old boy who is an autist. I know the road you have been travelling – and the road ahead. Go in peace and love. I hope it’s ok for you that i take your story with me – in my heart. Thank you.
Frau says
She is a beautiful gift…your story is a amazing thank you for sharing.
Anonymous says
Congratulations! What a beautiful story. You are not alone on how you felt. I was there eight years ago. My husband and I have a beautiful boy who has DS. There will be many challenges. However, the joy, love and laughter will exceed the challenges. Your family is beautiful, enjoy them to the fullest.
Anonymous says
Your story and your life are AMAZING. You have been blessed with a beautiful gift.
Can’t wait to meet you one day at DR.Foley’s waiting room.
People in Argentina are reading your blog!!!
Thank you for touching my heart!!!!
Anonymous says
Wow! This is inspirational. Thank you for your honesty and sharing your story. You have a beautiful family. Kirstin (Cape Town)
Stefanie says
Thank you so much for your honesty, your transparency. What an incredible tribute to the amazing little one you are proud to call ‘daughter’.
As a new adoptive mom to a child with dwarfism, you helped me shed tears over sadness I didn’t even realize was there.
Many blessings as you walk this ‘new’ path with your sweet little bunny 🙂
Shari says
This touched me so much. Thank you for your honesty.
Anonymous says
I just wanted to say that you have a beautiful story and a beautiful family! I have wanted to reach through the computer and hug you and hold your beautiful little girl throughout the whole time reading…and tell you that life will be more amazing than you will ever imagine! I come from a family of 11 children and number 10, our little Matthew (meaning “gift from God”), has Downs. He has taught us the trials and joys of life. But there are no hugs like Matt’s, there is no laughter as contagious, and there is so much more to life than I could have ever known, if I had not been given the gift of his love! God Bless you all!!!
Jaime says
Kelle-
A friend posted your blog on facebook- we work in a pediatric hospital and see perfect little angels like Nella all the time. You are amazing, beautiful and inspiring. You made my eyes well up. Thank you for sharing your story, and your PERFECT daughters. Good luck!
krmccord says
One of the blogs I follow linked to your blog, so I just discovered you today. Your story is amazing. Congratulations! I look forward to following you in the future:)
Anonymous says
Your family is wonderful and so blessed. Not only do you have a special talent for writing, you have been given such a gift from God. Enjoy the ride. It’ll be one you’ll wish everyone could experience. (And maybe you will write that book) 🙂
It Feels Like Chaos says
What a beautiful baby girl and even more beautiful story! What a gift your story is to women who have an will walk a similar road!
Carole says
Wow, what a story. I am a stranger, a link to this story was send from my DS group. I am in my office with my door shut with a half hour left in my lunch hour hoping that my eyes clear up before I have to get back to work so that no one can tell that I was crying. I went through an entire box of tissues.
God bless your family. I hope that your family’s journey is as happy as ours has been, and that your kids are as close as ours are (our Son with DS is 6, our Daughter without DS is 4. So far they are inseparable.) Thanks for the story!
bonniekate says
Thank you so much for your beautiful words. I’m a personal care attendant for a 3 year old with Downs. He is a joy! I pray blessings on you and your family.
~Kate
Jill says
You are a healer…thank you for being generous with your life…
Samia says
Congrats on the birth of your beautiful daughter and thanks for sharing such a beautiful and honest story, you are truly blessed.
NotAMeanGirl says
I’ve never heard of your blog before today. Someone shared this post with me in my reader. I’ll be back.
Your beautiful story touched me more than I can say. Your beautiful baby girl did even more so. Congratulations. Love each other well.
Such The Spot says
I was you. Ten years ago I was you, lying in a hospital bed 2500 miles from my home. It was Thanksgiving night and I’d just delivered my third baby girl. I was 22 years old and universes away from ready to hear the news they would deliver when I least expected it.
We think your baby has Down syndrome.
Oh I thrashed. And I, too, had Rocky Balboa eyes. My heart had shattered into pieces and, unlike you, I didn’t have the love of family and friends to help me put the pieces together. It was just me, and my Army husband, and our two little girls. And then came a nurse who knelt by my bedside and prayed prayers in an accent so thick I could barely understand her. But even though her words were blurred, I felt the love in her hands–the desperation in heart as she plead for God to cast my baby’s Down syndrome into the sea. It was only after she left that I began to feel my toes and fingers tingle back to life again.
My baby Cassidy celebrated her tenth birthday this past November. And oh have we struggled. But we’ve also grown–in more ways than I ever thought possible. She brings light to the darkest corners of my life. She frustrates me to no end. And most of all she’s opened my eyes to a love so fierce it could bring down mountains. In fact, it has–a time or two.
Congratulations on your little Nella. She truly is a beautiful little soul. May God wrap His arms around your new little family and give you peace.
Wreaklamation says
I’ve never read your blog before (came via We are THAT Family), and I want to thank you so much for writing such a beautiful account of your lovely Nella’s birth. What a gorgeous baby. What a beautiful mama; what a great family. You ARE lucky. You get to bathe and be bathed in the pool of unconditional love that your family is. God bless you as you journey.
Anonymous says
I just read your blog for the first time today and was brought to tears by your beautiful story and the pictures of your gorgeous daughters. It reminds me of a story my neighbor tells of 32 years ago when her son was born with D.S. and how hard it was for her. A relative of hers recently gave birth to a child with D.S and when she asked her son with D.S what she could say to her to comfort her he said “Tell her… CONGRATULATIONS!!” So simply put, but what a beautiful gift straight Gods arms to yours…
Anonymous says
This is a touching story!! I am a 29yr. old mother of 4. Doctors told me I couldn’t have children. God proved them wrong!! 🙂 They thankfully were all healthy other than jaundice. Your story is amazing, inspiring and just beautiful. Thanks for not being ashamed of your true feelings.. not too many people will admit their negitivities.
I sent your story to Oprah. You should write a book! God has gifted you with words and experience. Use those gifts for the good.
~Giving God all the glory, praising him for you and your precious family.
Oanya Jennings
Virginia,USA
~Babychaser~ says
I’ve never been here before. I found your birth story through a link, but thank you for sharing your grief and for being so real! I don’t know if I would have the same courage.
the Lola Letters says
Wow, I am sobbing. Tears streaming down my face. What a beautiful story. I am 15 weeks pregnant with our second child, and I’ve wondered if things would be okay if this baby was different. I’ve always THOUGHT it would be okay, but now I KNOW that things would be okay. Better than okay.
You are beyond amazing. Thank you for sharing your journey.
Anonymous says
You have a beautiful family. Nella is gorgeous. This world is wonderful because of the differences in it. Thank you for sharing your story!
Anonymous says
You have a beautiful family. Nella is gorgeous. This world is wonderful because of the differences in it. Thank you for sharing your story!
Anita says
Your daughter has THE most wonderful and beautiful smile! Thank you for sharing your story…it has brought tears to my eyes…congrats to you and your family on the newest little addition to your family! Thank you for sharing with us!
Kim K says
Congratulations! As you can see, by the # of comments, you have joined a very proud and exclusive club of families with a precious treasure!
Our son, Will is almost 3. He brings us pure joy.
Nella is absolutely beautiful. She will bring love, joy, peace, and so much more to your life. Congratulations that she is healthy. That is a gift.
Welcome Nella, we are so glad you are here.
Amanda says
Your story was forwarded by a friend of mine. I too have a daughter, Grace, born as a surprise with Down Syndrome. She is four and a half months old now and a pure joy! As I was reading your story, it brought back so many memories. I had a very similar experience and almost the exact same thoughts as you did. It’s nice to know I’m not crazy and that this is a normal thought process. I’m sure you have probably read the The Beauty of Holland by Emily Pearl Kingsley. Just in case you haven’t, I have included the web site…http://homepage.eircom.net/~moylanfamily/Holland.html. Thanks for sharing your story. I am so excited for the journey of life in “Holland”…
Richard Bailey says
Just beautiful!
Just wonderful!
Our daughter, Billie-Jo, is 10 now and in the moments after she was born I had no idea how we would live with her. Now I have no idea how we would live without her.
If you have as much fun with your daughter as we do with Billie-Jo and if you are as proud of your daughter as we are of ours, then you will have all the luck in the world.
I am a photographer and curate a touring exhibition of images concerning Down’s syndrome which you can see here:
http://www.ds2008.co.uk
and here:
http://www.richardbaileyphotogrpahy.co.uk
Good luck and have fun.
Richard x
Tara says
What a beautiful, heartwarming story with such powerful images!
You have a gorgeous family, and the two most perfect little girls – you must be very proud.
Best wishes x
Cat says
Kelly
you are so blessed…thank you so much for sharing this amazing journey with everyone…there needs to be more voices like this for all children born with special needs.
close friend of our have a son…now 11 who has DS…I can not express how blessed I feel by him when he calls me Aunty Cat…it has been a journey for my girlfriend and her family…but they would change nothing…they have 4 children and Zach was their second. People thought they were crazy to have more, but it was the best thing they ever did for him..they followed their hearts and won…as will you.
love and light
Life in Peradise says
Kelle,
You have such a way of expressing yourself through writing. I can’t begin to tell you how much I can relate to your story of precious Nella. What a blessing our little angels are to us! Thank you for sharing!
Love, Ami
Angela says
My friend warned me to grab to the tissues for this post, and i should have listened! This is such a deeply touching story, and I am so hapy for you and your family. Thank you for sharing!
Michelle says
Thank you for sharing this amazing birth story and the photos of your beautiful family. I feel blessed to have read Nella’s story and looked upon her adorable face. I believe that wonders are in store for your perfect family…
Michelle says
Thank you for sharing this amazing birth story and the photos of your beautiful family. I feel blessed to have read Nella’s story and looked upon her adorable face. I believe that wonders are in store for your perfect family…
Michelle says
Thank you for sharing this amazing birth story and the photos of your beautiful family. I feel blessed to have read Nella’s story and looked upon her adorable face. I believe that wonders are in store for your perfect family…
Gaijin Wife says
I found Nella’s birth story last night and have since read it several times. I was at a loss as to how to comment but have since realised a simple congratulations to you and your beautiful family and thank you so much for sharing. It was so extremely powerful.
Tamara says
Your story brought me to tears as I relived the birth of my perfect angel, Shelby, who is just like your perfect angel. I want to tell you that your Nella will be the joy of your life. No one could’ve told me that the night I cried all night holding Shelby and wishing for the morning, praying that Heavenly Father would take this “difference” away. Shelby’s sisters loved her from the very beginning, cared for her with tenderness and still care for her now so unselfishly. Shelby is now 19. She is a beautiful, active, intelligent, participating angel. She brings joy and happiness into everyone’s lives. We are all blessed to associate with her.
Laney says
This is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read, and I look forward reading your story as it unfolds. Congratulations on your beautiful, perfect girls.
Silver says
All I can say is…wow. Thank you for sharing – this is so powerful, and will be a blessing in so many ways…
And I can say, with certainty, that you were chosen to be with your beautiful girls. As they are a blessing to you, you are such a blessing to them.
Congratulations.
Anonymous says
Someone posted a link to this on their Tumblr blog & I don’t know what made me click it but I do not regret it in the least.
I am 20 years old, that’s two years older than my sister who has D.S. as well.
She seems to have two sides of her that are constantly at war. The side that has the understanding of a 6 yr old & the side that is just like any teenaged girl, wanting to have a boyfriend, wanting to be stylish, thinking Hannah Montanna is awesome.. haha.. things aren’t always easy or great but I love her more than I love anyone else in my life. & have never wanted to, nor would ever want to trade her for a “normal” sister if I could. We hang out & we talk & we share things just like sisters should. She’s proud of me. & I’m proud of her.
Reading this made me more conscious of my mother though. I don’t really ever think about what it must have been like for her because I was two & too excited to be a big sister to know my mother struggled as much as you did.
It made me think a lot about what if I end up having a child with special needs..
Anyways thank you for getting the courage to write this all down & allowing it to be viewed publicly. I sobbed. & was blessed & moved. I wish you all the best!
-the sister 18 years later, who’s still proud & blessed to be not only a big sister but to be her big sister.
Nicole D says
Kelle –
What a beautifully triumphant love story! I cried, laughed, cried again… and I can only imagine with this piece you have shared with us, how it has been for you!
I have a dear close friend who has been blessed with a beautiful daughter diagnosed with DS. She is such a treasure! She sees through eyes I only wish the rest of the world could see through!
I am excited for the adventure, the beauty, the purity that your bunny will teach you throughout life! And you truly do have beautiful, perfect, little girls!
Cole
Anonymous says
Here I am a 67 year old PopPop…crying like a baby. What a beautiful story and how wonderful the God has chosen such a loving family for the “least of these”. We serve a loving and Sovereign God who knows just what we need and plans it so are hearts are filled. May He bless you, your little ones and your loving husband.
Anonymous says
LOL
Anonymous says
So beautiful
So perfect
God Bless
Blaine says
Heaven’s Very Special Child
A meeting was held quite far from earth,
“It’s time again for another birth.”
Said the angels to the Lord above,
“This special child will need much love”.
Her progress may seem very slow,
Accomplishments she may not show,
And she’ll require extra care
From the folks she meets a’way down there.
She may not run or laugh or play;
Her thoughts may seem quite far away
In many ways she won’t adapt,
And she’ll be known as handicapped.
So let’s be careful where she’s sent,
We want her life to be content,
We ask dear Lord, find parents who
Will do a special job for you.
They will not realize right away
The leading role they’re asked to play.
But with this child sent from above
Comes stronger faith and richer love.
And soon they’ll realize the priviledge given
In caring for this gift from Heaven.
Their precious charge, so meek and mild
Is Heaven’s very special child.
–Author Unknown
It looks like you have already realized how blessed you are. Thank you for sharing your story. Our special day came 17 years ago and his name is Bobby. We love him so.
Shelagh Howard says
I stumbled across this randomly on twitter (posted by @mmcgovern), and as a woman, a mother of two girls, and a photographer, I can honestly say that I’ve never been so moved, inspired, or proud as I was reading what you wrote, and seeing the beautiful photos that you shared. Proud may seem a strange word to use, but everything about this piece – your honesty, your love, your willingness to share, and the amazing strength of the men and women around you, are an example of human beings at our best.
Much love to you and your beautiful family. And thank you.
S.
Molly says
This was such an inspiring story. I’ve always had this fear of having a child with down syndrome. I’m only 23 and we won’t be having kids for a good 5+ years. But it is always in the back of my mind. Reading this and seeing the pictures of your beautiful daughters… it made me realize that it wouldn’t be so bad, it wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world. Your daughter is perfect, just like you said. And your story has really put to rest the fears I’ve had about pregnancies. I cried when I saw all the pictures of your family. And I think the thing that I love best about your story is it is the story no one ever tells. God bless your family, I hope you’ll post pictures as your daughters grow.
kat says
this was amazing. thank you so much for sharing. please someone pass the kleenex.
Hiroko says
Nella is such a beautiful girl. Congratulations, and God bless you and your family.
Jenny D. says
I stumbled upon your blog through a random late-night bout with a sinus infection that led me to blog-surf. We have never met, but immediately when I saw your mention of the Donald Miller book, I knew wanted to read your story, since I, too, just received the book for Christmas.
As I’m sitting here, 4:00 in the morning, sick, and a stranger to you, I must tell you what an amazing story you’ve shared with me in the silence of my living room. My husband and I have been married for almost 5 years and are not yet in a place to have children, but my heart has started stirring as if God himself knew I needed some extra preparation time. Hearing the authenticity of your words, the tenderness of your feelings, the sheer emotion that you share – I pray that you know that, in this moment, as your precious daughter is now a little older, your story is still being told and still inspiring others – a stranger in Texas whom you may never meet but have eternally impacted. Thank you for being open enough to share your story of a precious life joining your family.
Bryn in Japan says
Thank you.
Under a Green Roof says
Wow. I have never been so moved by anything in my life. Thank you for sharing your beautiful, amazing, perfect girl with us. I just know that the most incredible adventure is ahead of you. Thank you!
BloomingtonBaby says
Thank you so much for sharing this. If only you knew how many people you’ve touched.
O'Malleys says
Dear Nella’s Parents,
I completely understand what you are going through. Almost 10 years ago we were met with the same surprise. Our 7th child Sarah was born with DS. I remember the tears and still experience them at times. Our Sarah also had open-heart at 12 days old. Not only were we trying to accept the newness of her diagnosis, but then we were faced with almost losing her. She has had a few medical issues since then and each time it brings you back to what is important. I believe that God makes no mistakes, and you are so blessed to be trusted with one of God’s special children. Your life will never be the same and you will appreciate it in time. Nella will help you to focus on the important things, relish in the milestones she makes and love her unconditionally. I would love to talk if you feel the need. Congratulations! You are blessed!
Blessings, Tracy
christina grandstaff says
A friend forwarded your blog entry to me. I have sat here and cried reading this little story about a family that I do not know. I thank God for that precious little angel he has trusted you with. Bless you. Bless your entire family. Thank you for pouring out your honest, gut wrenching feelings, thoughts, and moments. I can’t wait to see where your story goes…it will be a wonderful ride. This I know!
cityhoot says
That’s an amazing story. Nella is beautiful, and she’s lucky to have you as her mother. The pictures in your post are just awesome. Congratulations!
Anonymous says
You and Nella are strangers to me, my story isn’t known to you, but this touched me right where I need it. Thank-you!
Thanks for letting me feel that honest grief and pain is ok and that pure joy comes in the morning.
Anonymous says
Kelle
What an amazing story. I can completely understand the “bargaining with God” aspect of your story. The “I will do anything” train of thought. Nine years ago I also was expecting our second daughter. Our first was only eighteen months old and I was so excited to be giving her a little sister and a best friend to grow up with and to love. I was thirty weeks along when I just knew something was wrong. I felt huge, like I couldn’t get any bigger. I felt like I had to deliver this baby or I would “POP”. I ended up in the hospital to have an ultra sound. They told me that my baby may have DS, possible clubbed foot, clubbed hand, and more. I was in a daze. They flew me by helicopter to a bigger hospital. The whole time I could remember just praying and asking God to just keep her alive. I didn’t care if she was going to be a “Special” child, I would love her no matter what. I just wanted her to be with me, to live. Once at the new hospital, they again hooked me up to fetal monitors. Her heart beat would stop, nurses would jump in and try to shake my belly to adjust the monitor. I couldn’t comprehend what was happening. But finally as they wheeled me into the oporating room to deliver my baby early, I finally gave my baby to the Lord. I asked him to have his will, not mine. I knew in my heart that His ways were far better than mine. Because who am I after all? I prayed that the Lord would help me through whatever was to come. I remember an overwhelming sence of peace. They delivered my baby via c-section. I asked to see her. They held her up for a brief second and she was whisked away to the NICU. I hadn’t really seen her. I couldn’t remember what she even looked like. It all happened so quickly. They sewed me up and took me to a recovery room. The NICU doctor would come in and give me updates on my babies status. She didn’t have DS, she didn’t have a clubbed foot or hand. She was perfect……..except, her lungs were too immature. there had been water around them and they didn’t have room to grow. She was loosing her battle with trying to get enough oxygen. The doctors finally came in seven hours after her delivery to take me in to see her before she would lose her battle. I had never seen anyone look so purple, so swollen, so …..scarey. To see someone so tiny, so helpless, I just wanted to hold her before she left this world. They took everything off of her, wrapped her in a blanket and handed her to me. As I looked at her, she took her final breath and the tears started to roll down my cheeks. They wheeled me back into my room as I held my baby. Our eighteen month old daughter was waiting to see her new baby sister. She jumped up on the bed and I handed her the baby. She looked down at the baby and so excitedly stated “Baby happy!”. I looked and truely, my baby looked happy. I reassured her that the baby was happy because she was with Jesus.
I can’t say that it was an easy recovery or that I didn’t have periods of meltdown emotionaly, because it was the hardest time of my life. But I thank the Lord that He was faithful, faithful to help me through, to be by my side when no one else was there. When people would say things that would tear at my heart even though they were trying to be encouraging. To hold me up when I would hear other babies cry and I realized that I never heard my baby cry. He was there! And He continues to be by my side every moment of every day. Reminding me that I am His “Special” child and that He loves me.
Thank you for your story, you are an encouragement to all the mothers who have had their dreams changed..to a better dream. One that is less about “Self” and more about others and life. Real life. God bless you! God bless little Nella!
Anonymous says
Kelle
What an amazing story. I can completely understand the “bargaining with God” aspect of your story. The “I will do anything” train of thought. Nine years ago I also was expecting our second daughter. Our first was only eighteen months old and I was so excited to be giving her a little sister and a best friend to grow up with and to love. I was thirty weeks along when I just knew something was wrong. I felt huge, like I couldn’t get any bigger. I felt like I had to deliver this baby or I would “POP”. I ended up in the hospital to have an ultra sound. They told me that my baby may have DS, possible clubbed foot, clubbed hand, and more. I was in a daze. They flew me by helicopter to a bigger hospital. The whole time I could remember just praying and asking God to just keep her alive. I didn’t care if she was going to be a “Special” child, I would love her no matter what. I just wanted her to be with me, to live. Once at the new hospital, they again hooked me up to fetal monitors. Her heart beat would stop, nurses would jump in and try to shake my belly to adjust the monitor. I couldn’t comprehend what was happening. But finally as they wheeled me into the oporating room to deliver my baby early, I finally gave my baby to the Lord. I asked him to have his will, not mine. I knew in my heart that His ways were far better than mine. Because who am I after all? I prayed that the Lord would help me through whatever was to come. I remember an overwhelming sence of peace. They delivered my baby via c-section. I asked to see her. They held her up for a brief second and she was whisked away to the NICU. I hadn’t really seen her. I couldn’t remember what she even looked like. It all happened so quickly. They sewed me up and took me to a recovery room. The NICU doctor would come in and give me updates on my babies status. She didn’t have DS, she didn’t have a clubbed foot or hand. She was perfect……..except, her lungs were too immature. there had been water around them and they didn’t have room to grow. She was loosing her battle with trying to get enough oxygen. The doctors finally came in seven hours after her delivery to take me in to see her before she would lose her battle. I had never seen anyone look so purple, so swollen, so …..scarey. To see someone so tiny, so helpless, I just wanted to hold her before she left this world. They took everything off of her, wrapped her in a blanket and handed her to me. As I looked at her, she took her final breath and the tears started to roll down my cheeks. They wheeled me back into my room as I held my baby. Our eighteen month old daughter was waiting to see her new baby sister. She jumped up on the bed and I handed her the baby. She looked down at the baby and so excitedly stated “Baby happy!”. I looked and truely, my baby looked happy. I reassured her that the baby was happy because she was with Jesus.
I can’t say that it was an easy recovery or that I didn’t have periods of meltdown emotionaly, because it was the hardest time of my life. But I thank the Lord that He was faithful, faithful to help me through, to be by my side when no one else was there. When people would say things that would tear at my heart even though they were trying to be encouraging. To hold me up when I would hear other babies cry and I realized that I never heard my baby cry. He was there! And He continues to be by my side every moment of every day. Reminding me that I am His “Special” child and that He loves me.
Thank you for your story, you are an encouragement to all the mothers who have had their dreams changed..to a better dream. One that is less about “Self” and more about others and life. Real life. God bless you! God bless little Nella!
Anonymous says
That baby girl is lucky to have *YOUR* friends & family in her life. There are many others that would not be able to give her the love/support that this baby needs. You are her guardian and for that you should be so proud of yourself.
I pray that God continues to give you/your husband strength through this difficult journey. But always remember that at least you have the means to be able to make the most of something like this.
You’re an inspiration to us all.
Anonymous says
Oh how I loved reading this!!! I was in your shoes just 8 months ago. Your words and feelings pinpoint EXACTLY how I felt. After you wade through the beginnings of early intervention and get through all of her medical testing if she needs any, the lingering sadness truly goes away. I too have a toddler daughter and watching her love for her special little sister blossom has been the most wonderful thing. Enjoy your beautiful girls! One thing that has really helped me is a passage from John 9, verses 1-3: 1As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. 2His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”
3″Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.
God has big and wonderful plans for your little one! May He bless you always!
CourtneyBolling says
Your words are beautiful! Only the love of a mother can paint the picture that you did. God has designed your family and your family is beautiful!
Kimberly says
Thank you-for sharing your heart, your tears, your love.
Kimberly says
Thank you-for sharing your heart, your tears, your love.
Kimberly says
Thank you-for sharing your heart, your tears, your love.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful and touching story. I wish your new family a lifetime of happiness.
Jenny says
Kelle,
I love your blog. I received it on my Hanna’s 12th birthday. 12 years ago I experienced so much of your story. Hanna has a sister 1 1/2 years older, Julia. I went through so many of your same emotions, throughout the first year especially. Hanna make us smile, laugh and see unconditional strength and love each and every day. My girls are Best Friends and just yesterday Julia said she prays and hopes she has a child with down syndrome. WoW. I love them both so much. I will continue to pray for you often and read your special blog. Lot’s of Love and Hugs for you all.
Blessings,
Jenny
Terra says
This is a moving story and I am glad I took the time to read every word and savor each photo. The story cries out LOVE!
You, and the people around you, show so much love, and you worked through the pain to grow.
Thanks for being brave enough to relive it to share with us.
Terra
cait says
You are an inspiration and your family is beyond-words precious – each and every one. Congratulations on your beautiful, PERFECT little darlings.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your story. Its beautiful. Your girls are amazingly beautiful and so are you. Congrats and God Bless!
xoxo
Kristi says
Kelle-
You dont know me but my friend had shared your link with me. It brought back so many memories I felt like you were describing my birth story and all the emotions I went through..I just cried and cried while i was reading it. You were very honest and it was a beautiful story. Your little girl is absolutely beautiful!! Congrats and enjoy your baby!!! My sweet little girl is almost three and I thank God every day for blessing me with her.
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mothers womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” -Psalm 139:14
Cori Lee says
One of the most beautiful and real stories I have ever heard. I am sitting here at the office tearing up to hear this wonderful story of love and life. I wish the best for your perfect little family and know you will be the greatest mother for your girl!
Tracy says
This is the most touching story I have read in a long time. You had me in tears! Both of your girls are beautiful. May you & your family be blessed! {{hugs}}
Nadine says
Kelle – your family is so beautiful and so blessed. While we all know the road ahead might not be what you had imagined, it has to potential to be absolutely spectacular. My roommate and close friend, Ben, has severe Cerebral Palsy but you know what? He went to UC Berkeley and now is about to graduate Law School at the University of Texas at Austin. The only limitations are the ones we impose on ourselves and upon others. I am so excited to read about your new journey and chapter in your life – I have a feeling Nella is going to change the world. Congratulations and thank you for sharing your lives with us – we are all better people for reading your blog! – Nadine in TX (from South Africa)
Anonymous says
Your family is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing this.
Anonymous says
I know I don’t know you, but I had to write and say this is the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. I wish you and your family all the best. Your girls are sooooo lucky to have you as their mama.
Angela says
I wish I could tell you how much your story touched me. I have three beautiful, perfect children. I’m not sure I could identify and sob over your words if I were not a mother. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful, perfect story. Bunny is certainly blessed to have such an amazing mother. I’ve told everyone I talked to today about your precious Bunny. Thank you again…I feel blessed to have read your story.
Kate says
What a great birth story. Though I do not know you personally, a friend told me to read your story and I’m glad I did. I have an aunt and two cousins with down syndrome. She is beautiful!
Amanda says
kelle- what a fantastic start to an amazing story! sending lots of love and prayers your way!
jss says
The most beautiful post I have ever read anywhere. Thank you so much for sharing yours and Nella’s story. I can’t even being to tell you what this post means to me. Thank you.
Anonymous says
You are an inspiration to so many you won’t ever get a chance to meet. You defined the meaning of unconditional love, a true Jesus revelation. Nella is lucky to have a mother as loving as you. She will grow up to be the greatness she was called to be. And, we can expect nothing more. God bless all of you.
Holly says
Such a beautiful story
meeso says
I am so happy to have seen the link to this… Nella is beautiful, absolutely adorable! Both your daughters are perfect! Thank you for sharing your story!
Lisa says
wow! I found your blog by accident and read it with tears in my eyes. Beautiful pics to go with such a beautiful story. Things happen for a reason, I firmly believe that. You have a gorgeous family. Congratulations!!!
Lisa says
wow! I found your blog by accident and read it with tears in my eyes. Beautiful pics to go with such a beautiful story. Things happen for a reason, I firmly believe that. You have a gorgeous family. Congratulations!!!
Amanda says
I have finally been able to dry my eyes enough to post a coherent comment to this amazing post.
Beautiful. You are so brave, and such an amazing mother.
Congratulations on your perfect, perfect daughters and your perfect, perfect family.
Much love!
Anonymous says
wow. This story was one of the best stories i have ever read. I have always wondered to myself what i would do if i were ever face to face with that situation. your story has made me realize, it would be a no brainer. This child was givin to you becuase god felt you would be perfect for her! God knew you were going to be a great mother to little Nella. I look forward to reading your book!
Sherri D says
A friend of mine just sent me a link to this post, and I have literally had tears running down my face while reading it. THANK YOU for telling your story….your daughters are beautiful! Congratulations!
Sherri D says
A friend of mine just sent me a link to this post, and I have literally had tears running down my face while reading it. THANK YOU for telling your story….your daughters are beautiful! Congratulations!
Sherri D says
A friend of mine just sent me a link to this post, and I have literally had tears running down my face while reading it. THANK YOU for telling your story….your daughters are beautiful! Congratulations!
Heidi says
Dear Kelle,
You don’t know me. I was forwarded this by a girlfriend who said she thought of me. For years, I have been the little sister of a very handicapped sister. I love her fiercely, devoutly, and unconditionally. Now I am the momma of three, my oldest with Autism, and I feel my love for my sister with the heart of a sister and a mother. I admire my mother’s strength and character that was burned in the crucible of having a sweet bunny of her own, but in the 60’s. Thank you for exposing your heart to me. I’m also a pastor’s wife, and have had the privilege of walking with several families who have discovered at birth that they were blessed with a lovely D.S. baby. You’ve given me a broader appreciation for their experience, and your story will produce good fruit for generations to come. Blessings. ~Heidi F.
Ali says
I loved your story. My son is 14 months old with DS. Before having Carter, I had every detail of our families life planned out, I never imagined having a child with DS. I realize now, he is my blessing. I was meant to be his mommy and he was meant to be my baby boy.
I look forward to reading more about your journey. Some days can be tougher than others but you will surprise yourself. Your little lady will give you super mommy power, you never knew you had!
pusakat says
Beautiful, touching story which brought tears in my eyes. You have a beautiful family and you’re a wonderful Mom. Nella is such an Angel.
pusakat says
Beautiful, touching story which brought tears in my eyes. You have a beautiful family and you’re a wonderful Mom. Nella is such an Angel.
Anonymous says
wow,this is so beautiful~ i honestly cried for an hour ~ the music you picked is so fitting~i think you are such a strong amazing women… i can say ive walked in your shoes.I gave birth to my daughter at 24 weeks,she had trisomy 18…her condition was fatal… we had to give birth to her at 24 weeks:( She passed away inside me 2 days before hand… for months I prayed she was down syndrome~prayed that god would give me at least a year with her… i would have taken anything~ your facial expression in these first few photos,brought back the same emotions i felt.. without saying a word,i know what you were thinking~
i am so happy you got your little girl~ she is such a true gift from god~and you are so lucky she picked you for her mother:)may you enjoy all the years to come with your special little girls~
god bless~
Tasha Perez-Rye says
i didn’t know i could feel more love, what with mine already overflowing because of my son jaeden and all – but i did feel it, and i discovered there’s soooo much more room. 🙂 this is the most beautiful birthing story i have ever read. thank you for sharing it. congratulations on your beautiful girls. sending your babies love across oceans. 🙂
Julie says
Thank you for sharing your story. You write so beautifully. I am sitting here with tears streaming down my cheeks…I so understand the emotions. Little did we know last May that our lives would be changed forever by one special little girl.
To make a long story short…we still don’t have a diagnosis, but our sweet Bella has some vision problems, low muscle tone and developmental delays. Chromosome testing is probably our next step. I’m still grieving…I keep thinking I will wake up and this will be a bad dream. As hard as these last few months have been-there are no words to describe how much I love this precious girl.
I never dreamed we would be one the journey we are currently on…thank you for sharing your story.
Leah says
Oh my God she is the most beautiful little girl I have ever seen. You are such an amazing woman and obviously just a wonderful mother.
Your little girls are blessed to have you as much as you are blessed to have them.
Well done. All the best for a wonderful life with your beautiful family.
Penny Green says
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful little girl and thank you for writing such an honest piece about your feelings. It took me back to August 1989 when my second son came along unexpectedly chromosomally enhanced like Nella.
You and your family have begun an incredible journey and you will meet many wonderful new friends along the way.
Anonymous says
Congratulations and thank you for sharing your story… Your girls are both beautiful, and your strenght is inspiring. Cliched words, i know, but so true. The last photo of Nella smiling wamred my heart.
Jessy (Australia)
Kelly says
My god. I got up early this morning and followed a link to your blog, and the next thing I know,I’m soaking every paper product near me with tears and snot and more tears. What a beautiful, amazing story. Amazing photos, but mostly, what a wonderful daughter your little bunny is. I know she feels love, because I can feel it in your writing. Lainey looks just beautiful too, and I know she will be a great big sister. You have a way with words and photos – keep it up, this is a story that needs to be shared. Thank you for sharing everything – the love, the rawness, the pain, and back to the love.
Gill - That British Woman says
wow……….that is beautiful, just like your daughters.
Gill in Canada
mlberger says
Stranger here as well….. can I be your friend? – lol. Have you ever stumbled across a blog and “bonded” with someone without having met? (eek, that sounds stalkish / creepy / and all those other things it’s not supposed to sound like).
I won’t repeat what the others have said – you’ve moved emotional mountains here that can never be undone. A mere thank you seems trivial. But then again you enjoy the small things, so I’ve got that going for me.
Anonymous says
same as my Dan my dad said we will love him and we have for 41 yrs in may he is a joy
love to you and yours
eileen xx
Bec Maguire says
Your two daughters are the most beautiful and perfect little girls ever. i loved your story and you are a beautiful mum! well done on your gorgeous family and your girls are going to have the best life because YOU are their mum!! xx
Mel says
Amazing. Amazing. Amazing. Greatness in a tiny bundle. She will change the world. You just wait and see. She is going to change the world. Your Lainey will be right there with her. They will change the world together. One shopping trip, cupcake day and late night giggle party at a time. You just wait and see the magic unfold.
Anonymous says
Amazing Story! I could feel your emotions throughout!
The cycle of emotions is so similar to mine as I realized my son has autism, but drawn out over the course of almost a year. The weeks that I “knew” myself, the friend who works with autistic children who concurred with my fears, the medical professionals who confirmed the diagnosis… And eventually the realization that I was given a gift in this special child. I see life in a whole new way, a way that not everyone GETS to see life. I see what is really important and what we can easily go without. And finally, seeing the world through my son’s eyes and realizing he has been given a gift himself. The gift of life-long innocence and freedom from the pressures of life that the rest of us deal with day to day. He lives in his own little world where everything is funny and good.
I wish you, Nella, and your family/friends peace and luck on this wonderful journey you are now embarking on!
Courtney
Andrea says
Congratulations, Kelle, Brett & Lainey! I have lived your story, Kelle (except for the wonderful girlfriends and photographer being present). I too have 2 girls, the youngest has Down Syndrome too. She is now 11 years old and middle school. She is beautiful, smart and incredibly loving and pure of heart. Good for you for writing your story while it is all so fresh. Your photos are absolutely remarkable. Congratulations, you are all going to have very rich life!
johnjeni says
This was the most beautiful birth story I have ever read or have been a part of. I am a labor and delivery nurse and could only dream of being part of something so beautiful and precious. You are amazing. Nella/Bunny is gorgeous. Your friends and family are just fabulous! Please write a book of your story. Everyone should read this!!
Crystal Strickland says
Your story made me cry. The gut wrenching sobs and pain that you felt and experienced was what I felt the night my son Joseph died last November. After everyone had gone and I sat alone in the hospital holding my son lifeless body, I felt THAT pain. And your baby didnt physically die but the baby you envisioned had died. You had to grieve her loss to realize you had truly gained so much more. An appreciation of the little things and knowing that you have given birth to an angel.
Karen says
As I sit in my quiet house, crying over your writing and amazing story…I am reminded how the Creator makes all things beautiful. Thank you for your honesty, for your heart and for sharing the story of your two beautiful daughters with us.
Heather says
Simply a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing your pain and joy! She is beautiful.
jonashpdx says
thanks for this. i’m late to this party, but felt the need to comment, just because I related so much to this story and how it compares to our own birth story. I remember so vividly the first few days of anguish, and how my wife and I talked about how we were so removed from our son emotionally at first after we were told of his (surprise!) possibility of Ds.
oh, and you have a great pediatrician — though we were lucky enough to have one from the same school of thought. Ours was the first person who came into the room and just looked at our boy like a baby, not a diagnosis.
and look at us now! full of life and joy and love. ain’t life grand? and completely off its rocker?!?
lovely pics, too, of course.
Anonymous says
Wow… I have honestly never read anything more beautiful. I am expecting my first baby any day now and reading this has changed my whole perspective. I feel so ready for anything after your beautiful honesty. You and your family are inspiring.
Sarah says
your birth story is beautiful and so honest. thank you for sharing your honesty. you have a beautiful baby girl.
Anonymous says
Many congrats to you and your family on the birth of your precious daughter.
I’d like to suggest a WONDERFUL organization full of support.
The Up Side of Downs
http://www.theupsideofdowns.org/
Blessings!!
Dee says
Thank you for sharing your honesty, your pain, your hope, your strength and for sharing your beautiful girls with me. I feel honoured to have read your birth story. xx
Anonymous says
Wow, my friend forwarded me this story at work and I probably shouldn’t have read it here as I now have tears streaming down my face, tears for the rollercoaster you have been on and tears for the motivation and hope you have put into other peoples lives by sharing your story.
I’ve always had the fear of not being able to be pregnant or having a child with a disease or being unhealthy, but your story has awakened me. I am not afraid of these things anymore as you so bravely shared your story with the world and showed that even though things may happen that you do not expect or wish for, it happens for a reason and God lets things happen that only you are strong enough to handle, although you may not understand it at the time.
I thank you for sharing your story and instilling strength and determination in all the women out there who have had the same fears as yourself.
You have a beautiful family and are so incredibly lucky and blessed.
All my best to you and yours.
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Shannon says
I normally don’t post comments on blogs written by people I don’t know but I am compelled to now. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I have never cried so many tears of both sorrow & happiness for someone I don’t know. Your words are captivating. As is Nella’s beauty. Thank you for reminding me of the awesome beauty that often hides in our trials. God bless you & your family.
Karina says
wow, beautiful!
Karina says
wow, beautiful!
Deb says
I read through your story with tears in my eyes. I was there 24 years ago. Today, I have a giggly 24 year old young lady in our home. I can’t say enough about her. She is a JOY to our family and continues to be forever our Kaela Rebecca “Joy” She lights up our life and those around her. Everyone wants her to come and stay with them. Some days I wonder what life entails for her, but if the past 24 years are any indication, this young lady will bless all those around her. That is what God has given her to do. Just to be HIS light in this difficult world.
Thank you for sharing your experience in photo and words. It will forever bless others who go through this difficult time.
May the Lord continue to Bless you through your little one.
Deb
Jenn says
What an honest, beautiful story. Nella certainly has a family that loves her, beyond a doubt.
Anonymous says
I found your story from a link a friend posted on FB. I’m sitting here with a pile of wet tissues…your story is beautiful. The emotion you’re able to get on the page…what a blessing. What a gorgeous family!
~Rebekah
Tina says
Deeply touched forever! Thank you for sharing one of the most life changing beautiful experiences any person could face. Blessings to you and your wonderful family…
Tina says
Deeply touched forever! Thank you for sharing one of the most life changing beautiful experiences any person could face. Blessings to you and your wonderful family…
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Kristi says
Oh she is gorgeous!
Jay says
She is just beautiful…just gorgeous…you know, congratulations mama. What a blessing! What an amazing blessing she is: she will bring you SO much joy. My friend has a little one with downs, who is now three, and is just the most adorable, beautiful little one imaginable.
So yes, congratulations mama! :)XXXXX
Maggie says
I haven’t actually read the story yet, but I have had the page open all day just listening to your playlist. It’s beautiful. We have the same taste.
lifeandrhythm says
You’ve heard this a thousand times, I know. But I will say it for you once again:
You are a blessed woman. Your Nella is a blessed little girl to have her mama’s love – unconditional love.
This mama was moved to tears (sobs, really) reading your words. Thank you for difficult honesty, for unpolished truth. Thank you for letting us know *it’s okay* to feel what we feel, and we can move through those feelings to a place of healing and contentment.
I wonder if you know that this story will live forever as a pro-life anthem for the people. Because, you have shown the world that Nella’s life is perfect and valuable beyond measure.
lifeandrhythm says
You’ve heard this a thousand times, I know. But I will say it for you once again:
You are a blessed woman. Your Nella is a blessed little girl to have her mama’s love – unconditional love.
This mama was moved to tears (sobs, really) reading your words. Thank you for difficult honesty, for unpolished truth. Thank you for letting us know *it’s okay* to feel what we feel, and we can move through those feelings to a place of healing and contentment.
I wonder if you know that this story will live forever as a pro-life anthem for the people. Because, you have shown the world that Nella’s life is perfect and valuable beyond measure.
lifeandrhythm says
You’ve heard this a thousand times, I know. But I will say it for you once again:
You are a blessed woman. Your Nella is a blessed little girl to have her mama’s love – unconditional love.
This mama was moved to tears (sobs, really) reading your words. Thank you for difficult honesty, for unpolished truth. Thank you for letting us know *it’s okay* to feel what we feel, and we can move through those feelings to a place of healing and contentment.
I wonder if you know that this story will live forever as a pro-life anthem for the people. Because, you have shown the world that Nella’s life is perfect and valuable beyond measure.
Anonymous says
A beautiful story, thank you for sharing this with all of us. You’re one amazing Mama.
Sol Tamargo says
Your story is told with your heart, your photos are something to cherish forever!
Your baby will be SO LOVED 🙂
Thank you for sharing such an intimate and life changing moment in your life., it is indeed an inspiration to enjoy life!!
Jen says
the most amazingly beautiful birth story I have ever read. Thankyou for sharing, I wish you continued love and happiness with your family.
Anonymous says
Your birth story has inspired me beyond words. I cried as I read it and I can’t stop crying now. I am pregnant with our first child and you made me realize that I can do anything to love this baby, no matter what.
You are blessed and your family is amazing. What an incredibly honest story.
Lallee says
Wecome, precious Nella, angel of God. Thank you for sharing her with us.
♥Lallee
Anonymous says
Thank you, thank you for sharing this beautiful story. I was touched by your honesty and was left with an uplifted spirit. Your daughters are gorgeous and are indeed blessed to have you and your husband as their parents. God bless.
Anonymous says
Thank you, thank you for sharing this beautiful story. I was touched by your honesty and was left with an uplifted spirit. Your daughters are gorgeous and are indeed blessed to have you and your husband as their parents. God bless.
Anonymous says
such beauty in your words. love.
Anonymous says
such beauty in your words. love.
Anonymous says
such beauty in your words. love.
RoBecky says
I have found, in my 21 short years on earth, that life is always bittersweet. Beautifully, perfectly bittersweet. Thank you, thank you for sharing Nella’s story. For sharing your story. You have a beautiful, blessed family. Thank you for your honesty. I cried for you, but not simply out of sadness. No, Nella is so lucky to have you three, just as you are lucky to have her. I cried tears of happiness for all of you because you look so perfect together. So meant to be.
Anonymous says
You and your Nella have forever touched my heart.
Anonymous says
You and your Nella have forever touched my heart.
M says
my friend just sent me this post and i just fell in love. it was so beautiful and honest and sad and hopeful all at once. i wish nothing but the best for you and your wonderful family!
meg says
you are so blessed! thank you for sharing this story. i’ve had the pleasure of working with children who have mental disabilities, and always thought that it would be an honor, such a gift, to get to be the mama of a child with special needs. you are a chosen one, that little angel had her pick and she chose you. i’m brimming with joy for you, kind stranger. i wish you and your family all the best, forever. x meg
Dawn says
Wow! what a wonderful tribute to your daughter!
And, were you EVER on the ball with the gifts and the outfits and the wonderful picture taking friends! You were gorgeous after giving birth! I looked like a train wreck!
Angie Davis says
thank you, thank you for sharing so honestly. this was my first visit, and i am undone. i even had a little meeting with god while reading, and it was beautiful.
Ali Caudill says
oh my goodness. what a beautiful, perfect story. i bawled my eyes out and felt like i was right there with you. your words, the photographs, you told your story perfectly. i don’t know you, but you amaze me. nella is lucky to have you and she is the cutest little baby – and i photograph a lot of babies too 🙂 she is perfect. i said perfect a lot but that’s the word that just keeps coming to mind. she looks so wise, so sweet, so serene, so at peace. sending so much love.
Anonymous says
You’re story is amazing & your daughters are BEAUTIFUL. Your story is a true inspiration. Congratulations!
Anonymous says
Thank you so much!
Anonymous says
So many comments! What’s one more!
Thankyou for sharing. I could feel your anguish even with love and then the outpouring of love, acceptance and bonding. It is beyond beautiful.
Christine says
Hi Kelle. I’m just a random blog reader which stumbled upon your blog. And, you got me hooked on this. I shared your feelings, and I felt everything. Nella is a very special girl. Even on the other side of the world, I’m one of those people who will watch her grow, together with your loving family and friends. Nella caught my heart instantly. And I love her. PLease, kindly send a hug and a kiss for her from me. Thank you so much for making my day. -Christine
marie. says
thats incredible, you know. you are a life lesson, so so beautiful words and feelings. i’ve cried my heart out while i was reading you. thanks for sharing this so unique moment.
all my life i dreamed about being a mom… i think it stills too early, but i’m damn crazy about kids. you made me think a lot, about my plans and my future. you have remembered me of all the things we just dont imagine… we never knows what the future have for us, but its so true, what your sister said… you have a gift and God did it because you can make it. Even just reading you once, i can feel true love spreading all over… be good to this little bunny and i’m pretty sure she will give you LOT of happiness, love, smiles, hugs and LIFE.
I may not be so easy, but life is never supposed to be. stand up and fight for your beautiful days, you’ll have it all…
I’ll start reading you, and hope i can read the beautiful book of your journey… i will come back here again hoping to keep my heart full of this beautiful love.
here from brazil, i send you a huge hug and hope you all keep healty, lovely and beautiful…
thankz, again, for sharing with the world this beautiful life lesson.
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katrina says
Welcome to the world Nella Cordelia
Congratulations on the arrival of your precious baby girl. She’s beautiful, and she couldn’t have a better family.
Your story touched me, when i was 10 a down syndrome girl, Terry, joined our class in school. Kids avoided her because she was different. She became my best friend, we had a special bond that lasted through highschool. We’ve lost touch now, but she gave me more than i could ever hope to give another person. She taught me a lot. I wish baby Nella a lifetime of love. xxx
JenH says
thank you for the courage and the daring to go where most people would not.
Harry van Bommel says
A friend passed along your blog. Thank you! I wrote a song I thought your family and friends might like: The Human Family is a reminder that we are all brothers and sisters within the human family regardless of how we look, what we do, and what gifts we have to offer. So much of our lives are spent dividing “us” from “them” at home, at school, at work, at play, and within our communities. It is in dividing ourselves that we cause grief to others and to ourselves. We lose the ability to see that each of us has something to offer the other. The song is offered in hopes that each of us returns to the spontaneous and true joy that we felt as infants when we experienced unconditional love and acceptance within the human family. It is #7 on this site: http://www.carelibrary.com/Care_Library/Thank_You_songs.html
Have a great life together! Harry
Anonymous says
God Bless you and your beautiful family. You are in my prayers and a special place in our prayer cabinet. dc
Anonymous says
A friend posted a link to your story on facebook and I am glad I took the time to read it through. Thank you for telling your story. I have worked with many down syndrome kids over the years and they are wonderful! But being 6 months pregnant, there are always the fears that my baby will not be “perfect” and that something will be “wrong” with him. Thank you for being so honest and sharing the journey you went through during this challenging time. Thank you for sharing your pictures. And thank you for showing how much love conquers over all trials. Continue to be strong for your little one as you encounter the trials of life. May you be blessed by the love of your daughters.
Anonymous says
A friend posted a link to your story on facebook and I am glad I took the time to read it through. Thank you for telling your story. I have worked with many down syndrome kids over the years and they are wonderful! But being 6 months pregnant, there are always the fears that my baby will not be “perfect” and that something will be “wrong” with him. Thank you for being so honest and sharing the journey you went through during this challenging time. Thank you for sharing your pictures. And thank you for showing how much love conquers over all trials. Continue to be strong for your little one as you encounter the trials of life. May you be blessed by the love of your daughters.
Anonymous says
A friend posted a link to your story on facebook and I am glad I took the time to read it through. Thank you for telling your story. I have worked with many down syndrome kids over the years and they are wonderful! But being 6 months pregnant, there are always the fears that my baby will not be “perfect” and that something will be “wrong” with him. Thank you for being so honest and sharing the journey you went through during this challenging time. Thank you for sharing your pictures. And thank you for showing how much love conquers over all trials. Continue to be strong for your little one as you encounter the trials of life. May you be blessed by the love of your daughters.
Anonymous says
A friend posted a link to your story on facebook and I am glad I took the time to read it through. Thank you for telling your story. I have worked with many down syndrome kids over the years and they are wonderful! But being 6 months pregnant, there are always the fears that my baby will not be “perfect” and that something will be “wrong” with him. Thank you for being so honest and sharing the journey you went through during this challenging time. Thank you for sharing your pictures. And thank you for showing how much love conquers over all trials. Continue to be strong for your little one as you encounter the trials of life. May you be blessed by the love of your daughters.
Anonymous says
A friend posted a link to your story on facebook and I am glad I took the time to read it through. Thank you for telling your story. I have worked with many down syndrome kids over the years and they are wonderful! But being 6 months pregnant, there are always the fears that my baby will not be “perfect” and that something will be “wrong” with him. Thank you for being so honest and sharing the journey you went through during this challenging time. Thank you for sharing your pictures. And thank you for showing how much love conquers over all trials. Continue to be strong for your little one as you encounter the trials of life. May you be blessed by the love of your daughters.
Anonymous says
A friend posted a link to your story on facebook and I am glad I took the time to read it through. Thank you for telling your story. I have worked with many down syndrome kids over the years and they are wonderful! But being 6 months pregnant, there are always the fears that my baby will not be “perfect” and that something will be “wrong” with him. Thank you for being so honest and sharing the journey you went through during this challenging time. Thank you for sharing your pictures. And thank you for showing how much love conquers over all trials. Continue to be strong for your little one as you encounter the trials of life. May you be blessed by the love of your daughters.
Anonymous says
A friend posted a link to your story on facebook and I am glad I took the time to read it through. Thank you for telling your story. I have worked with many down syndrome kids over the years and they are wonderful! But being 6 months pregnant, there are always the fears that my baby will not be “perfect” and that something will be “wrong” with him. Thank you for being so honest and sharing the journey you went through during this challenging time. Thank you for sharing your pictures. And thank you for showing how much love conquers over all trials. Continue to be strong for your little one as you encounter the trials of life. May you be blessed by the love of your daughters.
Anonymous says
A friend posted a link to your story on facebook and I am glad I took the time to read it through. Thank you for telling your story. I have worked with many down syndrome kids over the years and they are wonderful! But being 6 months pregnant, there are always the fears that my baby will not be “perfect” and that something will be “wrong” with him. Thank you for being so honest and sharing the journey you went through during this challenging time. Thank you for sharing your pictures. And thank you for showing how much love conquers over all trials. Continue to be strong for your little one as you encounter the trials of life. May you be blessed by the love of your daughters.
Amy Parsons says
This is the most beautiful story I’ve ever read….if you write a book about your sweet Bunny, I’ll be first in line. What a heart touching story, I’ve cried the entire time. I have 3 daughters and I am now pregnant. I want to stay updated on your family’s story. Best wishes to you, your husband and your beautiful girls!
jennifergrafgroneberg says
You are a beautiful writer, a beautiful photographer, and you have a beautiful life. Thank you for sharing it with us!
xo
andrea nina says
hello, i just wanted to share my tidbits on this lovely entry.
i was linked to this entry from another blog i follow, and was disclaimed that i “would cry” after reading it. as a mother myself, i felt challenged to see what baby story could possibly make me cry.
i’m going to be honest and say that when i first started reading the first few lines, my eyes rolled, and yet i was still interested in reading the rest. i was expecting to read this lovey dovey “gift from god” and “i love my friends and my husband” bs. well, kelle, i have to say, you stole my heart along with my cynicism by the end of your wonderful entry. you see, my birthing experience with my one and only son wasn’t as nearly uplifting and bright. i went into labor a month and a half early, and was with someone who was abusive. my son also had jaundice, and since he was premature, he had to be hospitalized and incubated for more than a week. of course i was happy when my son was born, but i wasn’t happy about the fact that he was born into a dysfunctional and fucked up family that could never be turned around, ever. i realize now how selfish i was to decide to even keep him.
six months later, my son’s dad and i split, faced with an ugly court drama ordeal. after my son turned 1, he was diagnosed with cancer. the emotional roller coaster i’ve been through since the day my son was born has turned me into an cynical and hateful monster, despising and failing to realize what beauty can come from an upside down life.
you’ve showed me how beautiful life can be despite the shitty circumstances the universe lays on your lap. i don’t have any friends, i don’t have any real support, the only one i have is my son. for a long time i’ve been okay with just having him, but now i think it would be nice to have some friends and possibly a boyfriend or a husband. who knows, i may be typing based on a high your entry ensued. but just know that this entry has opened a new door in my emotional box, and thanks for that.
brees says
What a beautiful life story you have, beautiful girls, beautiful husband beautiful family! I was blessed to have a beautiful boy on 11/28/09, I could feel the raw emotions of the hopes and dreams that you have as an expectant mother as I read your story. Four weeks after giving birth I was diagnosed with Peripartum Cardiomyopathy, pregnancy induced heart failure. While life has thrown us a major curveball, we have adapted and there is nothing sweeter than the love a mother has for a child! I will remember to hold him a little tighter on those days where I am sick and tired. Thank you for sharing your amazing story of love, life and family!
brees says
What a beautiful life story you have, beautiful girls, beautiful husband beautiful family! I was blessed to have a beautiful boy on 11/28/09, I could feel the raw emotions of the hopes and dreams that you have as an expectant mother as I read your story. Four weeks after giving birth I was diagnosed with Peripartum Cardiomyopathy, pregnancy induced heart failure. While life has thrown us a major curveball, we have adapted and there is nothing sweeter than the love a mother has for a child! I will remember to hold him a little tighter on those days where I am sick and tired. Thank you for sharing your amazing story of love, life and family!
Kari says
This has to be the most beautiful Birth story I have ever read. Typing though happy tears! Congratulations!!!
Anonymous says
Thanks for your honesty and for sharing. I have my own little bundle of joy – he’s 13 months old now. And I love him so much, so, so much. Blessings to you and your new journey.
Anonymous says
Thank you! Thank you for your story and your love and great outlook you are truly inspiring!
Stacy says
Thank you for sharing Nella and your story! It took me back to the birth of our son almost five years ago now. He, also has Down syndrome. His beginning and our discovery looked a little different but the ending is the same. You are in for a very very special and incredible journey. But I think you know that. 🙂
Stacy says
Thank you for sharing Nella and your story! It took me back to the birth of our son almost five years ago now. He, also has Down syndrome. His beginning and our discovery looked a little different but the ending is the same. You are in for a very very special and incredible journey. But I think you know that. 🙂
Cinda says
My son has autism, so I understand challenges. One of his baseball teammates has DS, and amazes me every time I see him. He has an amazing and full life and so many friends. Nella will to…you’ll see to that. God gave your girls to you because you all need each other. Blessings to you.
Tonja says
I just wanted to say this is the most beautiful birth story I have ever heard. You have amazing strength. Thank you for sharing your story and your sweet little bunny with the world.
Peggy, mommy to Cason says
What a beautiful story! Thank you for sharing.
You are not going to believe the journey you’ve just started–it’s amazing!!
Congratulations and best wishes!
Peggy
Mommy to Cason, 5 years, and also blessed with a little “extra”
ginabad says
What an amazing story! I’m reminded of my own first baby’s birth and the tears I cried for so long.
And now she’s 7, and she’s in first grade, she a little firecracker, with friends and affection and attitude.
It will be OK but be prepared. Because your heart will burst with love when you see your family embrace her over and over again.
peace to you,
ginabad
mom-blog
Crystal says
This post has really inspired me. I am sharing it with my readers and am referring them to your link.
http://fourcrazychildren.blogspot.com/2010/02/birth-story-it-will-change-you-forever.html
Keen says
Congratulations on the birth of your absolutely beautiful little girl. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
proudmommy says
WOW your blog is AMAZING ! You’re daughters BOTH daughters are beautiful !Truely inspiring for everyone who reads this blog.
Samantha says
What a lucky little bunny to have such a wonderful mother with so much love! You are so blessed. I Love those last two pictures.
julie says
i am blessed by reading this! i appreciate that you were so honest about even those “bad” thoughts–having difficulty accepting her DS. but in your honesty you’re also embracing the hope that God has given. i’m so encouraged! God’s using you to teach us!
Mother of Pinky! says
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this story. Really – thank you deeply from my heart. Your daughters are absolutely precious.
Anonymous says
Wow…just, wow. How blessed we all are that you shared this story with us. Thanks for that. What a gorgeous family, and what a wonderful mother and father for two blessed little girls.
Anonymous says
So so beautiful. Never have a cried so much at a blog entry. Never. I mean haven’t even cried at a film like this. Just well done, words can’t describe how amazing you are.
Andrea and Rob says
Heart-breakingly, Upliftingly, Perfectly written tribute to your soul. You honor your lovely daughters with all that you have to give. Thank you for letting me hear, for just a second, what a life-changing moment sounds like. Your family is just beautiful. Congratulations and I wish you all the love, luck and happiness your new adventure brings. Blessed Be.
Kim says
I don’t know you and found your story through another blogger but I just wanted to offer my simple and heartfelt congratulations on the birth of your daughter. My son was looking at Nella’s angelic face and I shared with him how blessed your family is to have Nella. I also told him that God only chooses special families for these special children. We have eight children and he wanted to know why we weren’t special enough~smile~to have a Nella! She is beautiful, perfect and made exactly as he wanted. Blessings, Kim
Monique says
WOW So beautiful and honest! Nella has so much beauty pouring out of her and she is so lucky for all the love that surrounds her with your beautiful family and friends. Congrats to you on your amazing gift from God. Much love to you
rebecca joy says
Such a beautiful birth story! Your daughters are blessed with such a great mommy and family. Congratulations on your new love!
Brighton says
It’s amazing what that one little addition to a chromosome will add to your life. Our daughter Sara will be 18 in April- she is my compass in life. When people find out she has Down Syndrome they apologize. I always tell them not to- I am the lucky one for getting the honor of being her Mom.
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Adriana says
wow what a beautiful story. My brother has downs and he has changed my life in ways i could never describe.At first we were all devastated but it took about two seconds for us to get over it and fall in love. As a sister of a sibling with downs i can assure it has never negatively impacted my life. I learned compassion and empathy and acceptance and true, unconditional love through him.
I totally understand what you are saying when you talk about wanting to be pregnant again. My son has a very traumatic birth and was not breathing at first. I wrote about the desperation i felt to be pregnant with him again here:
http://justbyliving.blogspot.com/2009/11/ghost-limb.html
im following your blog now!
xo
adriana
Anonymous says
Kelle,
I stumbled across this story on my birth board, and decided to take the time to read it. I am so glad that I did.
I cried my way through your blog, both sad tears and joyful tears. You are an amazing woman, and this is such a trying time.
I first want to say congratulations on your beautiful angels. Both of them. They are amazing little girls, and all of your pictures are beautiful. Your photographer has captured some amazing moments, thank you for allowing us to share them with you.
It is amazing what our children can teach up about life. Your daughter gave you the special lesson in unconditional love. It is so hard to go into the delivery room and have our expectations, however big or small, shattered.
Sometimes the most beautiful things in life are surprises.
Thank you so much for sharing this story with us. Your family is in my heart, and my prayers, and I will continue to read you blog. You are an amazing writer.
Anonymous says
This made me cry more than anything. Your everlasting love touched my heart, and reminded me of a poem I read some time ago, that I thought I would share.
Heaven’s Very Special Child
A meeting was held, quite far from earth
“It’s time again for another birth”
Said the Angels to the Lord above,
“This special child will need much love”
Her progress may seem very slow,
Accomplishments she may not show
And she’ll require extra care
From all the folks she meets down there.
She may not run or laugh or play
Her thoughts may seem quite far away
In many ways she won’t adapt,
And she’ll be known as handicapped.
So let’s be careful where she’s sent
We want her life to be content
Please, Lord, find the right parents who
Will do this special job for You.
They will not realize right away
The leading role they’re asked to play
But with this child sent from above
Comes stronger faith and richer love.
And soon they’ll know the privilege given
In caring for this gift from Heaven.
Their precious charge, so meek and mild
Is heaven’s very special child.
God Bless,
JM
mimi charmante says
comment # 1480. wow.
I just found you tonight and truly couldn’t be happier that I did. You are an incredible soul Kelle – your daughters are so blessed to have you as their mother and their role model. You are on such a special path – each of us are. You world just became so much wider – think of the people you will meet that you never would have. And the fact that you now know how amazing those you love are – I am sure you knew it before, but after something like this, you sound incredibly blessed to be so loved.
I am going to visit the rest of your blog now. I hope to get to know you even better~
much love,
K.
Jelly Wares says
Oh my…. What an amazing story!!! Thank you so much for sharing your journey..
Hugs
Jodie 🙂
Anonymous says
Your blog is being shared on many moms groups 🙂 I was told to read and read it all and wow Im so glad I did. First the pics are amazing, the favors adorable, the personalized champagne glasses I just love and your beautiful even while in labor!
I really appreciate your writing and the honesty that you have shown. I have to agree my favorite pic is of you staring off while everyone else is toasting. I can’t imagine the feelings you were going through mixed with all the hormones as well.
My second favorite photo is your darling daughters meeting eachother for the first time. Just like a typical big sister she is already smothering her ha ha.
I love the strength that not only your husband but Dad show. True men with poise and strength are kinda hard to come by these days. It was refreshing to see your husbands face at ease in all the pictures and I was bawling my eyes out as you told your Dad and his response. Amazingness!
I think that Nella is absolutely stunning!! You and your husband are so blessed. Thank you for sharing your families wonderful journey!
I will forever be looking at my dirty grout differently now. Thank you.
Anonymous says
This is the first time that I have read your blog and you have very elegantly shared all the same emotions I had 8 months ago when our little angel Caleb was born. Nella is beautiful and perfect and will bring so much joy to your family. Congratulations:)!! You have a beautiful family and thank you for sharing.
lisageek. says
I stumbled across this blog and loved every word of it! I am sitting here with tissues all over the place, for I have been crying and blowing my nose the whole time! What a beautiful story, what beautiful daughters, what beautiful photos, and what a beautiful and honest HEART you have beating within you. Praise God!
lauracruz says
This is the most honest, precious, hope-inducing, heavenly post I have ever read. I thank you for sharing your story with the rest of the world and wish you, your little ones and your husband all the joy in the world. God bless you! 🙂
Anonymous says
Congratulations mama, your daughter is just beautiful! Glad you made it through this as well as you did. Wishing you and your family many blessings!
I found your beautiful story here: http://www.mothering.com/discussions/showthread.php?t=1197059 and I thought I would pass it along. This site has been amazing for me!
Claire says
Oh wow, she is simply beautiful…just adorable!! I just gave birth to 25 week twin boys, and they suspected one of them might be DS given that he had extra skin around his neck. So they sent chromosome testing. I was worried, at first, but as the week (before we got the testing back) went by, I really researched and came to terms with the idea of having a baby with DS…I actually began to embrace the idea, as it seems you have!! I began feeling PROUD of my DS baby (even though I didn’t have confirmation that he had DS at that point) and I began planning our lives around his special challenges and opportunities that we could expose him to.
When the testing came back, it showed that he did NOT have DS…counter to everyone’s belief, his extra skin was just that…extra skin of a very very premature baby.
It’s amazing…I was both RELIEVED and also slightly let-down that I wouldn’t get to experience the baby boy that I had dreamed of over the past week in my head…my baby boy with DS.
I am so happy for you and your beautiful angel. She is amazing!!!
Kristi says
Wow! I’m so glad I headed over here from Blondie’s blog!
This is the best birth story I have ever read. And I know EXACTLY how you are feeling. I have a son with PDD (mild autism) and while I didn’t know at birth, I knew around 19 months that something was going wrong. And no one else did. There are many emotions. I am right there with you. I just blogged about my son “one of my blessings”.
I will definately be back to follow Nella and Lainey’s stories! Oh and by the way, what WONDERFUL pictures! Lainey looks like your dh but Nella looks like YOU! 🙂
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Sarah says
How amazing you are to me. I do not know you, but I know that you must be an amazing woman. God sends these perfect children to the greatest people. You will be truely blessed in your life to have such a perfect angel in your family. Thank you so much for sharing your amazing story. And I must say that she is so beautiful!!
Anonymous says
Kelle,
That is the most beautiful and moving birth story, actually the most REAL thing I have ever read. You are truly a miraculious woman and have a BEAUTIFUL family!
God Bless,
Candi
Anonymous says
Kelle,
That is the most beautiful and moving birth story, actually the most REAL thing I have ever read. You are truly a miraculious woman and have a BEAUTIFUL family!
God Bless,
Candi
Ashlea Mello says
Wow! This was beautiful! 20 years ago my mother gave birth to my sister Mariah who has DS. My mom says that she also knew from the beginning that it was that before anyone told her. She was 24 years old. I was 6 at the time but didn’t see her as any different than me as she grew she was a lil slower but non the less my baby sister. The older she got then came the stares, the questions, and the down right cruelty of people who were just down right uninformed and well stupid. I defended her from the time I realized what was really happening I would have and still will fight for my sister. She is amazing and now the Aunt to my two small sons who are 3 and 8 months. They annoy her terribly my 3 year old loves to mess in her things and she is quite particular. So they fight like brother and sister. I would say that she has a moderate to servere case of DS although for a long time as her sister I was sure she was not as servere as she is. I am your daughter in 20 years they will grow and have that sisterly bond but like you as a mother it will be different and she will go through times where she will question why her sister had to have this, why she couldn’t have what the world calls a normal sister… I did and it hurts just like it does a parent. My mother and I can’t go anywhere with out taking her and it hurts my mom’s relationship with me will never exclude my sister and I can remeber being hurt to think of it but in reality if she were normal that might just be that way anyway! I love my sister she is amazing your life will not be with out struggle but it will be beautiful and I am sure you know that good luck to you with your amazing blessing! landysmommy06@yahoo.com if you want to communicate. good luck!
Anonymous says
Absolutely beautiful story. You and your husband are amazing people. Enjoy your life with your two angels. This story is so inspirational. xoxo Stephanie
Anonymous says
Absolutely beautiful story. You and your husband are amazing people. Enjoy your life with your two angels. This story is so inspirational. xoxo Stephanie
Anonymous says
Absolutely beautiful story. You and your husband are amazing people. Enjoy your life with your two angels. This story is so inspirational. xoxo Stephanie
Anonymous says
Absolutely beautiful story. You and your husband are amazing people. Enjoy your life with your two angels. This story is so inspirational. xoxo Stephanie
Sarah says
Kelle, I just found your blog today, and I read Nella’s birth story through the tears that were falling from my eyes. It is beautiful, honest, raw, and I am so glad you shared it with the world.
It struck close to home for me – I had a miscarriage in August of 2006 at 13 weeks. When they did fetal tissue analysis, they found that it was a baby girl who had Downs Syndrome. Although mother nature and my body knew that this little girl wasn’t healthy enough to make it outside of my body, I still mourned her loss. And I mourned the loss of the little sister my older daughter had wanted.
I went on to get pregnant again, with our son who is now 2 1/2…and I can’t imagine life without him. Just as you can’t imagine life without Nella. Things happen to certain people for certain reasons….we just have to have faith!
Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter, and the rich life the four of you will certainly have together.
Hugs
Sarah
Anonymous says
God bless you and your beautiful family. You really inspire me. I don’t know if you really know what a truly wonderful mother you really are but you are human with emotions and it was ok to cry. You have two beautiful blessings next to you and they are just as lucky to have you as you are to have them. Thank you for sharing your touching story.
Anonymous says
God bless you and your beautiful family. You really inspire me. I don’t know if you really know what a truly wonderful mother you really are but you are human with emotions and it was ok to cry. You have two beautiful blessings next to you and they are just as lucky to have you as you are to have them. Thank you for sharing your touching story.
Weatherly says
This is truly the sweetest story I have ever read! Thank you for putting your experience into words and images!
sblady329 says
God has sent you one of his angels to care for,,God Bless her and God bless you,,,,
Ashley says
This is absolutely the most precious, meaningful blog post I’ve ever read. Ever.
What especially got me was what your pediatrician said–“She is perfect.” What a gift from God that pediatrician is! To see every child as perfect. I’m just overcome.
Your attitude is inspiring, and I so appreciate your honest recollection of your emotions. I can’t imagine how many feelings you must feel at the exact same time. So complex, and so overwhelming.
I’m now following you, and you’re in my prayers! God is so gracious to have given Nella to you, and you to Nella.
Huge blessings on your family!
Sarah Broadus says
amazing!!! you are blessed and your life is very perfect. God creates us all in his image, everyone different…but everyone beautiful!
beckyand4littlemonsters says
Thankyou for shareing, your story was so moveing and your daughter is so beautiful xx
Susannah says
This is so beautiful and honest. I cannot stop crying-so many people would be ashamed to tell how they really felt-like it was wrong or something. But it is not, it is normal to feel those things. I admire you and think your girls are gorgeous. You and your family are surely blessed. 😀
Anonymous says
Thank you for these well written words. Thank you for your honesty, I am truly touched by your story and wish only the best for you and you beautiful family.
Summer says
Wow thank you for sharing your story! I am in tears writing this comment! Your daughters are just beautiful! The last picture of your precious baby girl is just that PRECIOUS….
Summer
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Becca says
Such a beautiful story, thanks for sharing… That last picture is just the most precious baby pic I have ever seen. Hope there are thousands more through your journey.
Foma says
God Bless Nella like He’s blessed no other. God bless your family.
Lisa says
Wow! I don’t know you personally, but I know that you are my sister in Christ and I am so lucky to have a sister like you, to inspire me by being such a great role model. Thank you for sharing your story. I know, through every pregnancy God allows me to have, that I will think of your story and be comforted knowing that whatever He has in store for me will be okay…for it is His will and He is Love. Thank you.
AbbyS. says
Thank you so much for sharing your story! Your family is beautiful, SO beautiful. Thank you for reminding me that we are all so blessed to be mommies and we are chosen! Your honesty was so refreshing. My God bless your amazing new family. Nella and Lainey are so lucky to have you for a mommy.
Anonymous says
I have just read your birth story sobbing! You are an amazing writer and you truely took me on your journey. I relate so much to your story, my son, who is 5 has Down Syndrome. You so eloquently described the emotions attached to this life changing moment.
My son is a constant reminder of how precious life is, as your gorgeous little girl grows she will amaze you everyday, I am sure you are already finding this out.
I am so blessed to stumble across this amazing birth story, welcome to the world gorgeous Nella.
Anonymous says
I have just read your birth story sobbing! You are an amazing writer and you truely took me on your journey. I relate so much to your story, my son, who is 5 has Down Syndrome. You so eloquently described the emotions attached to this life changing moment.
My son is a constant reminder of how precious life is, as your gorgeous little girl grows she will amaze you everyday, I am sure you are already finding this out.
I am so blessed to stumble across this amazing birth story, welcome to the world gorgeous Nella.
STG says
Beautiful story – and precious family. Thanks.
– Susan
STG says
Beautiful story – and precious family. Thanks.
– Susan
STG says
Beautiful story – and precious family. Thanks.
– Susan
Thing says
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Sarah Buttenwieser says
What a gorgeous piece. Such congratulations to you & so looking forward to reading about your journey (& for you to live it with great joy).
Real Mom says
What a beautiful story!!!!!
Real Mom says
What a beautiful story!!!!!
Lori Adams says
Congratulations on your BEAUTIFUL baby girl…I was led to your blog through a friend…thanks so much for sharing this story!
Jana says
Thank you for sharing your story. I feel so inspired by your love and conviction for your daughter.
Rachel says
Wow! It’s funny how you just stumble upon these blogs…but I am so glad I stumbled upon yours…your story is so honest and real and it is so good to hear an honest story once in a while. You are an inspiration and truly amazing! Love and hugs to you and your sweet family!
Hrowe says
Kelle,
What a beautiful story you have shared with all of us. My partner gave birth to our second son, Cash, on December 19, 2009 in a blinding snowstorm. We too, were faced with the news that he had DS and are very well aware of all the emotions you felt and continue to feel. And, we too, know that we are blessed to have this beautiful boy in our lives.
Here is his story: http://parenting.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/01/08/a-baby-in-a-snowstorm/
Your daughters are beautiful. Congratulations to you and your family.
ThereseAnn, mom to Natalia says
Thank you for sharing these beautiful moments… I had to stop reading from time to time as I needed to wipe tears away and go hug my unique child. Its quite a journey, and know, always know, you have been blessed to care for the most perfect of souls…they have the power to touch many, many hearts…
Jenni says
You have done more for yourself and your relationship with your daughter in this one post than many parents of children with disabilities do in a lifetime. Dr Foley was right. Your daughter IS beautiful and perfect. But the pain had to be felt before you could feel the love. By letting the pain out that first night you freed your heart for the love, the happiness. May the Lord continue to bless you. And may other parents of children with Downs and other disabilities take a lesson from your wise example. Nella is truely blessed to have you for a mother.
Anonymous says
My son has Trisomy 13. I have lived the life you are embarking on for 11 years. It is an amazing journey, I would not change it for anything. Savor it, it will change you, you will learn and experience so much, so many emotions. Is it easy? No way. Is it worth it? Every second. God bless you and your special family.
Margaret says
I was linked to your story through a board I’m on…
Your baby is beautiful and perfect! You have such a beautiful heart, and such a beautiful family!
I am totally in tears here, after reading this post. What a precious gift you have been given. The baby, of course! She’s gorgeous! I know she will bless your lives in ways you’ve never dreamed of. But also to have watched your family come through like that for you. And to have your heart changed forever.
C says
Thank you for writing about Nella’s arrival. She is so blessed to be celebrated, enfolded, and nuzzled. Congratulations on your sweet baby girl.
I’m remembering the ultrasound and the moments when I knew my little guy was going to have more details in his life than had his siblings. Your eloquence is touching and revealing and full of grace.
Thank you, from another blessed mama.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your journey for others to see. You are so blessed to have such a beautiful family. Treasure each and every moment!
ADKpersephone says
Wow, thank you.
Anonymous says
You don’t know me but I have thought about you and your sweet family for days now. I teach special education and have prayed secretly lots of nights that I could be one of the people that was blessed enough to have a baby with down syndrome. They love like no one else can. You are very lucky. Enjoy every minute! Thank you for your beautiful story.
CatherineCocke says
About 5 weeks ago I almost lost my 3 month old baby boy to basically an aborted SIDS incident. A few days later he developed seizures and for awhile we did not know if he would come back to us, and if so if he would be brain damaged or blind. He has made amazing strides and looks like he is going to be ok. It will be several months before we know for sure though. The emotions you expressed and spoke of in here made me sob bc I know those feelings of intense fear and heartbreak. I especially kept thinking, ‘I want to go back, I want to go back” to the days before this happened. I wanted our old life back. The day that our beautiful boy’s face went blank and no one knew what was wrong with him was the most excruciating agony I have ever felt. I sobbed harder than I ever knew possible. Your story gave me hope and helped me deal with some of my feelings I have been struggling with. We will love our son and protect him for the rest of his life no matter what. Realizing that our child’s life and health are ultimately in God’s hands and sometimes no matter how hard you pray and wish, you can’t change what has happened has been rough. I used to think, “these things happen to other people.” Anyway, your daughters are beautiful and so lucky to have you as their mother. The photos were gorgeous and must mean so much to you. Thank you for writing so honestly. I cried and cried while I read this. It meant a lot to me to read your story. It was forwarded to me from one of my son’s doctors from the hospital. Take care of you and your wonderful family! Cat
Chelle says
I am crying the happiest tears right now. Your post. Your love. Your girls. Everything you wrote was beautiful. It was raw. It was uncensored.
I am oh so happy to have found your blog. You are a beautiful mother-and honest mother-and to me? That’s the absolute best kind.
Congratulations, sweetie. Your girls are so beautiful.
xoxo
A day in the Life... says
She is absolutely gorgeous! Thankyou for sharing your story.
A day in the Life... says
She is absolutely gorgeous! Thankyou for sharing your story.
Pink Haired Momma says
I read your story and tears filled my eyes. Your story is one of the most beautiful birhting stories of love i have ever heard. After reading and crying alone at my computer, I went and read your story aloud to my husband. Nella is beautiful! You are amazing. Thank you for sharing such a touching personal time in your life.
The Mama says
Beautiful and heart wrenching. She is a lovely and lucky little girl. Thank you for sharing.
Lydia says
Love, love your story. Thank you so much for sharing
Julie Jenkins says
WOW is about all I can say this really touched made me think about my 3 year old Ivigayle and how much I need to charish every momnet and be pateint with her much more then I am. Nella is wonderful you are wonderful!!! I only wish I had friends like yours that where and are there for you threw everything. May god bless you your family and all your friends. This was a great story I enjoyed every moment with tears rolling down my face as many others did ……..THANK HEAVE FOR LITTLE ANGELS LIKE NELLA!!
With Love, Julie Jenkins Winchester VA USA
PurdueLiz says
A dear friend, my doula actually, shared your story with me. I am so glad she did. A beautiful story that has touched my heart. And the photographs to go along with it are simply incredible.
I’m going to pass this on, share it with a friend whose oldest is DS.
You have a beautiful, perfect family and I wish you all the best.
Shop with Me Mama says
Absolutely amazing birth story! Your little bunny is a precious precious gift from God! What a wonderful gift you have in her. She is beautiful and your daughters are sooo cute together. You can tell Lainey loves her so much, they will be best friends! HUGS to you, Mama!!!
Mec says
You must have been really loved and you must have chosen to also really love well and deeply, to be surrounded by so many loving friends and family…
And your sister is right… somehow, with your friend’s gift of photography and your gift with words, you have been able to reach out to other people, to other Moms.. and remind them what love is all about. That is Nella’s purpose in this world then, to touch other’s lives through you… I am sure it is such an intimidating privilege, but a privilege just the same…
She is beautiful. And perfect. Both your girls are. You also are 🙂
Paula says
A friend send me the link to this blog because I just found out that I am pregnant – at 47. I have deep fears and I bawled my eyes out reading your bunny’s story. There are no mistakes, only amazing opportunities, and I so appreciate hearing your wonderful words of hope and so much love. She is so blessed to have been born to you. Thank you.
Anonymous says
Kelle,
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story! You are as wonderful a writer as you are photographer. You are an inspiration to all parents out there. Please continue to write of your life’s adventures….you have a new reader! I live in Utah, andI was referred to your blog by a friend of mine in North Dakota, so you are inspiring people all over the country! God bless you and your family!
Love and prayers,
Vanessa
Anonymous says
Kelle,
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story! You are as wonderful a writer as you are photographer. You are an inspiration to all parents out there. Please continue to write of your life’s adventures….you have a new reader! I live in Utah, andI was referred to your blog by a friend of mine in North Dakota, so you are inspiring people all over the country! God bless you and your family!
Love and prayers,
Vanessa
Anonymous says
Kelle,
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story! You are as wonderful a writer as you are photographer. You are an inspiration to all parents out there. Please continue to write of your life’s adventures….you have a new reader! I live in Utah, andI was referred to your blog by a friend of mine in North Dakota, so you are inspiring people all over the country! God bless you and your family!
Love and prayers,
Vanessa
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story! I’m so glad Nella gets to grow up in your family. There’s no better place for her.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story! I’m so glad Nella gets to grow up in your family. There’s no better place for her.
Ali says
Thank you for this beautiful, honest telling of your story. You’ve spread Nella’s joy for everyone to share.
Congratulations.
Anonymous says
As a new mom I sat here and cried as I read your story. I am so happy that you have found happiness in your dear baby. She will bring you lots of joy and God has a special plan for you and her!
Ginger@cottageonrosewood says
I have NEVER read a more beautiful story in my life. You are obviously a tremendously strong loving mother. Congratulations on a very adorable baby. She truly is beautiful
Ginger@cottageonrosewood says
I have NEVER read a more beautiful story in my life. You are obviously a tremendously strong loving mother. Congratulations on a very adorable baby. She truly is beautiful
L.A. says
I only got to read part of the story before I took my nine year old to school, I told my husband before I left,”Don’t touch the computer, I have to finish reading when I get back!” As I was driving to school, I was crying, because of the Great Power of God and how HE changes our lives in ways we aren’t expecting and never imagine. I was picturing a great, white door, illuminated by HIS light, that opened for you and your family the day Nella was born. God’s plans, always better than ours, always bigger, always more amazing than anything we could come up with on our own. I was struck by how beautiful Nella is, just SO beautiful. I love how she already smiles in her pictures, symbolic of how she was created, she will have no boundaries or limits, she will never know them. It is we who are so limited. What a triumph, I wish I could fast forward to the years ahead to see the amazing things Nella will help your family to do for Christ. Glory to Him!
Smoochagator says
Yet another stranger wandering into your world and leaving profoundly touched. I’m pregnant with my first child, and I’ve wrestled (as all expectant moms do, I think) with the worries and what ifs and what-will-I-dos, and at times been certain that I made a terrible mistake in thinking that I might actually be prepared for motherhood. Ha! And then I read a story like yours and I realized that none of us are ever prepared, and that’s okay, because we will find a perfect, sufficient grace in those fearfully unexpected moments.
God bless you and your family!
Andrea says
Oh, there are such blessings in store for you and your family! My sister, Lindsey, has Downe’s Syndrome. The doctors told my parents she probably would never breath her first breath, and advised them to abort. We would never consider that, so she was born…and is one of the greatest blessings to our family!
My other sister Sharon and I have since grown and moved away, and now the two of us “fight” over who gets to have Linz next! In one week, Lindsey will fly out to Utah to spend some time with Sharon. So don’t fear for your other daughter. She has an opportunity and privilege not many others will ever have, and she will love it and be so thankful to have a D.S. sister! God is good, and His way is perfect –always (Psalm 18:30). God bless you, and cherish your little one!
Come see my blog here:
http://www.beinstant.wordpress.com
Andrea
rachel says
This is just beautiful.
You are beautiful, your babies are beautiful.
You are so talented. There aren’t words to describe how moving and touching this is.
Anonymous says
I am moved to tears by your strength. You have changed me.
Thank you and God bless you and your beautiful family.
Anonymous says
My sister just sent me the link to your blog. I can’t tell you how thoroughly I identify with what you went through. I went through almost the exact same scenario on the 18th of December with my daughter as well. We may be on opposite sides of the country and very different in many ways…(I don’t know…), but in this way we are exactly the same. I have tried and tried to express how I felt that day…just how HUGE that day was…and couldn’t but your words put it just right. I feel like we need to know each other. Thank you for the very true picture your words drew. It was perfect. millie.adams2@gmail.com
Anonymous says
Lovely, heartbreaking, wonderful, hopeful and honest. Thanks so much for sharing truth like that.
Anonymous says
Lovely, heartbreaking, wonderful, hopeful and honest. Thanks so much for sharing truth like that.
Bine says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story! Congratulation – Nella is really beautiful! <3
nina says
How beautifully real and touching. Thank you for sharing the depths of your heart and reminding us all to focus our energies on the the things that really matter in life.
xx
twilightbella says
My little girl’s name is Nella too! 🙂 This is really beautiful and you have 2 beautiful girls 🙂
Anonymous says
Any day, I am due to deliver twins…I am terrified! And I want you to know that your story has shown me that anything is possible, and I can handle anything. God bless you and your beautiful girls – your story will help carry me through. Thank you.
Anonymous says
You don’t know me either, and I’m not quite sure how to say the way your story has touched my heart. But my heart has been deeply touched. You and your daughter/s are truly a gift from God. I’m a crier, but was not expecting to be so moved by your story. Thank you for sharing your heart and your journey. It’s bold and beautiful! And I could only hope to find half the strength you have to write this story and share it with the world.
Amanda says
what an incredible birth story. your daughters are perfect, beautiful and so loved. You have so many blessings.
Amanda says
what an incredible birth story. your daughters are perfect, beautiful and so loved. You have so many blessings.
Amanda says
what an incredible birth story. your daughters are perfect, beautiful and so loved. You have so many blessings.
Lara says
Thank you so much. Yours is a lovely story. I have an eight-month-old and I am 41 years old and I knew that if my story ended — no, began — like yours, that the love would come, though my husband was not sure. I am so glad to hear that the love does come, though the beginning of our story is different. My son does not have Down syndrome, but I have been privileged to know some wonderful people who happen to have Down. So much love and so much joy and you get to hold it all. Bless you, and bless us all!
Tawny Lee says
Thank you so much for sharing your amazing story. I’m sitting here with tears in my eyes wondering if I would have been so brave, so honest with myself and my friends and family. You could not have given your daughter a better gift, because without that honesty, you could never have moved forward. You are an inspiration, and I wish the best for you and your wonderful beautiful family.
Anonymous says
Wow. Thank you so much for sharing this story with us all so honestly!
Dana says
I want to thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for sharing your story. I have cried through it, but I love how you shared your innermost thoughts and feelings with us. It’s beautiful. Nella is beautiful. And perfect. And my heart has expanded with love for you and your family. Thank you.
Lori says
This is my first blog comment and I am glad I am sharing it with you. I remember that day so well, in my own life, 11 1/2 years ago. It hurt so much to live that loss back then but the life I have been given in return has made it that pain so worthwhile. Thanks for writing – so beautifully – the surrender we go through those first days. You have so many great moments ahead – enjoy them fully! And when you stand in the kitchen someday ahead,asking “why me” remember, you aren’t alone. You will be back to saying, “why not me” before you know it.
How great o be part of this special club ~Jake’s proud mommy!
Christina says
The world is filled with perfect “bunnies” in what the world would call imperfect bodies. They only come into the most special of families and to the most special of parents. Ones like you. May God bless you and may some who would actually take action to prevent these kinds of babies from blessing the lives of those around them read this and weep and …be changed.
EL says
WOW.. someone just sent this to me.. and all I can say is “wow” with tears. I went through so many similar experiences two months before you. We’ve had our little girl, Taylor now for almost 4 months. We love her so much.. I will be tuning in.. so amazing that you have it all captured the way you do. Erin
EL says
WOW.. someone just sent this to me.. and all I can say is “wow” with tears. I went through so many similar experiences two months before you. We’ve had our little girl, Taylor now for almost 4 months. We love her so much.. I will be tuning in.. so amazing that you have it all captured the way you do. Erin
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EL says
Wow.. someone just sent this to me and all I can say is “WOW” with tears. I am so touched. I went through so much of the same two months before. We’ve had our little girl, Taylor now for 4 months. We are so in love with her. What an amazing thing you have to have had all that captured the way you do. God Bless you, Erin
EL says
Wow.. someone just sent this to me and all I can say is “WOW” with tears. I am so touched. I went through so much of the same two months before. We’ve had our little girl, Taylor now for 4 months. We are so in love with her. What an amazing thing you have to have had all that captured the way you do. God Bless you, Erin
Anonymous says
Wow! Your story is amazing! From a mother and nurse, I loved reading this! You were so honest and raw in telling about your feelings, and how you cried through the night, but that the morning brought Hope! Just amazing! Seriously…I cannot even put into words what reading this means to me. Thank you for being brave enough to share this with others! I wish you and your family all the LOVE and happiness in the world! ~Jessi Six, Idaho
Linds says
I do not know you but stumbled upon your story. As I sat hear reading I cried, and my heart ached, and smiled right along with you. I myself had a son a little over a year ago 1/22/09. And all the emotions that comes along with it, I can remember as if it was yesterday. Your beautiful daughter is just that “perfectly beautiful”! May your lives be feeled with happiness and enough memories to fill up 10 blogs. I am truely touched by this story!
Marta Demartini says
Kella, this is the most beautiful story of love that I have ever read, you are an amazing sensitive wonderful woman, your sister was right, you have been chosen because you have so much love to give.
MrsSpock says
Beautiful story!
Mama Wisch says
So Crazily Insanely Moved by you. Thank you for sharing this. I don’t just think you were chosen to have your Bunny, I know you were. I don’t know you,but I know you are a choice individual. God Bless you and yours.
superstarmom says
First let me say how beautiful your girls are, how perfect. I am a stranger to you and yet your birth story has given me permission to begin healing, after 2.5 years. Our baby girl was also born with special needs and we didn’t know. Every corner, every day brought new discoveries, new delays. We don’t know the reason. I never had an opportunity to grieve. I was forwarded your beautiful birth story by a friend and, for the first time, I grieved. I don’t grieve my daughter, I grieve what I expected for myself and my family. Thank you so much for providing the words I was never able to say.
Your girls are very lucky girls to have you 🙂
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Kelly says
Your blg entry brought me right back to 3.5 years ago, when I had my first daughter. She too was born with Down syndrome. Thank you for writing your experience it was truly heartwarming. I wish lots of love and happines for your family!
The Herrenbrucks says
What a miracle from God. I know you don’t know me…but we met once, I recognize you from your pictures (and your sweet older daughter). We visited while we waited to get blood drawn (I believe you were getting your glucose test done – and I was getting one as well). If I remember correctly, you were with another friend who was also pregnant. (Geez, I really hope I have the right person). Reading your story, was amazing. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing that. It was simply beautiful and SHE is simply beautiful!
Summer says
Congratulations on your beautiful little baby! She is SO beautiful! I loved reading her birth story…I have a little girl with Down Syndrome that is now 14 months. I felt like I was reliving what I felt when I read your story, but it was very therapeutic. It is nice to feel like you are not alone. You said it all so perfectly and eloquently. I am looking forward to following your journey.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing the beautiful God-written story of the birth of your precious daughter Nella. You are an amazing woman with incredible strength! May God Bless your whole family today, tomorrow, and in the many wonderful days to come!
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing the beautiful God-written story of the birth of your precious daughter Nella. You are an amazing woman with incredible strength! May God Bless your whole family today, tomorrow, and in the many wonderful days to come!
Molly says
What a fabulous post that I stumbled upon from a brave mom. As the mom of a child who is also “special” beyond the realms of every child being special, I felt your grief and share in your overwhelming joy. There has to be a mourning of expectations in order for the joy of reality to be fully experienced, a clearing of the abscess of disappointment so it can heal and be filled with the Goodness of What Is. I’m so glad that you put into words what I cannot.
Lisa says
I happened upon a link to your blog and was very moved….your experience so mirrored by own…it has been 10 years since my son Cole was born. He is taught me so much about myself. Today I had let him stay home with Mommy, as he struggles with school. He heard your songs and asked me to dance. So we danced to you and your beautiful girl and to us as we try to smooth away the wrinkles of life. Thank you for letting me have tears today….for the beauty and honesty of your words.
Valerie says
What a beautiful birth story. Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life and for sharing Nella with us! Someone sent me your link b/c recently I was informed that our baby is at increased risk for Down Syndrome (I’m currently 17 weeks pregnant). You have given me hope and a reason to continue to celebrate this gift of life that God is allowing me to carry. Thank you.
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Anonymous says
Congratulations Kelle on the birth of your beautiful little angel. I would like to share with you a poem that was given to me 17 years ago when my daughter was born. Perhaps you have already seen but I think it sums up the emotions which you describe that first night. It has resonated with me for all these years and from time to time I like to meditate on the truth of its message. There have been some very difficult and trying times in those 17 years but I can honestly say that our daughter has brought us much joy and that my wife and I are better people for having experienced raising our little angel. God bless you and your family.
Welcome to Holland
by Emily Perl Kingsley
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience, to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this…
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. Michelangelo’s David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland ?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland ?? I signed up for Italy! All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around… and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills… and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy…and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say: “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away… because the loss of that dream is a very, very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things… about Holland.
Anne says
My precious angel turned 16 on February 12th. Like you I had no idea she had Down Syndrome before she was born. Thank you for putting in words all the feelings and emotions you went through after her birth. I too experienced all the same emotions. You are starting on a fantastic journey. My Carrie has led us to so many places that I never imagined I go!! She is the blessing of my life. Savor every moment!
jean says
What a story of love and grief, joy and sorrow, and acceptance with bountiful love! Thank you for posting with such honesty.
After telling my daughter about the story I just wrote of my 65 year old brother who has DS she sent me the link to your beautiful story!
My big brother has brought so much joy to so many people! His hugs are wonderful and treasured by people all over town . . and further.
May you be blessed with so much happiness with your little bunny, Nella.
Jean
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Anonymous says
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL STORY! I CRIED AND CRIED.MY FEELINGS EXACTLY! WE TO HAD NO IDEA OUR SON HAD DOWNS UNTIL THE NEXT MORNING.HE WAS 2 WEEKS EARLY,5LBS 10 OZ.I DID NOT GET TO HOLD HIM TILL 2 DAYS LATER.THE DR CAME IN THE MORNING AFTER HIS BIRTH AND SAID TO US “YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL BABY BOY,BUT YOU DO KNOW HE HAS DOWN SYNDROME? MY HEART FELL OUT OF MY CHEST,YOUR STORY HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS!! KELLE,YOUR NEW BABY GIRL IS A SPECIAL GIFT FROM GOD,SOMEONE TOLD ME GOD ONLY GIVES THESE BABIES TO VERY SPECIAL PEOPLE…HUGS TO YOUR BEAUTIFUL FAMILY!!
Aaron and Amber says
Wow! Thanks for writing that. You have such perfect girls! And everyone is right, she is just beautiful! Thanks for sharing your heart.
Amber
Diane Aland says
Kelle, first of all you are so stunningly beautiful, and so are your daughters. It takes a special kind of mother to have a child with disabilities, and you are the Mother God trusted with this beautiful baby girl. Your story is so touching, I bawled my eyes out! But you are right, you were meant to take this journey with Nella. She is lucky to have all of you, and may you enjoy this journey of life with her. God bless you and your beautiful family!
Diane
Tiffany says
This is a beautiful story and you are a wonderful writer. I have two little girls as well and I love having 2 girls.
I am sure many of the comments on here sent you to other blogs and moms that can help and maybe answer some of your questions but here is another one:
http://www.my3weddings.com/ This is a mom in the Kansas City area and she has 3 daughters. Her youngest, Peanut has Downs Syndrome.
Tiffany says
This is a beautiful story and you are a wonderful writer. I have two little girls as well and I love having 2 girls.
I am sure many of the comments on here sent you to other blogs and moms that can help and maybe answer some of your questions but here is another one:
http://www.my3weddings.com/ This is a mom in the Kansas City area and she has 3 daughters. Her youngest, Peanut has Downs Syndrome.
andreajoyce says
You don’t know me and I’ve only just “met” you, but I love you. And your Bunny. And your family, your story. I was linked here from designmom and this may be the most beautiful sotry I’ve ever read.
Thank you for sharing.
All my love,
Andrea
Audra says
Thank you so! What a beautiful mother you are.
Audra says
Thank you so! What a beautiful mother you are.
nicole says
ok, so you have like 1600+ comments and mine is just a another drop in the bucket…i am visiting over here from design mom and i have a couple things to share.
first, my daughter’s name is cordelia, we call her dels or delia or delsie or cordelia but the name as you know means “warm hearted” which is perfectly fitting.
second, my journey in motherhood with my second child, cordelia, did not exactly take me to italy and not quite to holland either…more like bulgaria…i don’t know. 6 1/2 year ago cordelia was born profoundly deaf (genetic deafness) and we never knew what that would look like, what the journey would be or what today might have looked like. it was(and is) a tough journey… but having a child who is deaf has made me a better person, a stronger mom and i hope, a more caring friend. it was lonely at first trying to find our way down the path of deafness and now it feels more comfortable. through the amazing world of bionic technology cordelia hears via a cochlear implant and is now is a 1st grade class in the local school…but for 6 1/2 years we worked hard, had innumerable appointments and speech sessions, we commuted 90 miles several times a week for preschool and so on so on. all this blather is to say that even in the moments when the journey look so long, that the people you will meet and the things you will learn will be like shining stars guiding your way. you are blessed, you are chosen and your girls will be blessed to have you as their mom, their guide and their way.
i just saw a video (there is a link on my blog) from the mom2.0 summit and the line that spoke so loud and clear to me (in which i wish to share with you) was ” you need to be brave with your life so others can be brave with theirs.”
peace be with you.
G-Zell says
I am sobbing this touched me so. What a great story! You have 2 beautiful children. Thank you for sharing.
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Anonymous says
Beautiful girl. Beautiful family. Beautiful story. Beautiful pictures. Thanks for sharing the beauty. May God continue to bless you and your family.
Meegan says
Your story is beautiful, and I think even more so because of your complete honesty in sharing some of the hard emotions you felt. God will bless your family, as he Has already begun to do.
iamwoman says
I don’t even know how to express the love I feel for you and your family. A stranger– looking in– you have touched my heart forever.
beyond says
congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter. all the best and lots of joy to you and yours.
beyond says
congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter. all the best and lots of joy to you and yours.
beyond says
congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter. all the best and lots of joy to you and yours.
beyond says
congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter. all the best and lots of joy to you and yours.
Latinalonestar says
Beautiful family. She is perfect!
Anonymous says
Kelle,
I was forwarded a link to this blog post from a friend who had a Down’s baby a little over a year ago. It was her first child and she was devastated. It took her several MONTHS to get to the place where she could see her child as a gift from God. I have spent many hours praying for my friend. She hasn’t told me yet what your post meant to her, but I believe it was sent to her from God and I wanted to encourage you that God is using your story! Thanks for being willing to share it with us.
Renee
Annette W. says
http://therockingpony.blogspot.com/
A friend you’ll have.
Anonymous says
You are are going to be blessed beyond belief!! My adopted sister has Down Syndrome and is the light of everyone’s life! She is so joyful! My dad always said there’s nothing wrong with her, and the only thing “different” about her is that she’s missing the “mean gene.” He couldn’t have been more right! Bless you!!! You are SOOOOO so blessed!
Caren says
You are an incredibly blessed woman. Who could ask for more? Both girls are beautiful – absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this.
Sarah in St. Paul says
Gorgeous, gorgeous story. Thank you for sharing!
Melinda says
Thank you for sharing this story. This was amazing! I’m bawling over the love!!!
khepri says
You are such a wonderfull mom, a wonderfull woman!
Your daughter’s are really lucky to have you as their mom.
Take care
Anonymous says
I am sitting here with hot tears falling down my face. What a beautiful story and what a wonderful family you have. I was so worried during my pregnancy that my baby had Down Syndrome. I can see from your story that we would have been fine if he had, just fine. I would have loved him to bits just the same. Thank you for showing me the light.
sharon says
I’m beyond speechless with an indescribable and positive feeling, of healing. Tho I do not have a DS child, I lost my newborn to congenital heart disease at 52hrs old in July 2009. Thank you for sharing your heart!!
Shelby says
Oh my. I have been brought to tears so many times during this post. This was so beautifully honest and touching. You ARE blessed! I can’t wait to follow your journey with your beautiful new bunny!!!
Many blessings to y’all!
Love, Shelby
sharon says
I guess that may have sounded kind of weird….the love, joy and blessings abounding in such a heartfelt story is what heals me…so I do hope I don’t sound so weird after all.
Sarah says
A friend of mine posted a link to this entry on facebook – I don’t think I have ever read a story more honest, raw, and hauntingly beautiful. You and your family are both beautiful.
I am now following your blog, because I am in love with the way you share life, love and beauty in your words and pictures. It’s something that I apsire to, and I hope that I can create a life story as wonderful as yours.
KatieJ says
Congratulations- she is beautiful- you are beautiful, & your story is beautiful, keep telling it please.
Anonymous says
THANK YOU!! Without getting into too much detail, I am a mother of a beautiful baby boy that was not supposed to live past 48hrs, but today he is going on 2yrs. My life has been so stressed lately that I have been miserable beyond belief. But you, but you made me rethink the things that I should be thankful for. My family. I cried while reading this, I am crying now and I will cry when I have my husband sit down and read this story. Thank you for giving me the true meaning of my life back.
Debra says
I cried over the pure love and beauty of your story. God bless you and your beautiful baby and family!
Anonymous says
This is a wonderful story, I felt the same way with my second son. He was in the NICU for 5 1/2 weeks check out his blog at http://joshies-journey.blogspot.com
Michele says
Your story is beautiful, honest, and engaging. Your daughters are beautiful. God bless your family.
Heather Kendall says
Thank you for sharing your love, your heart, your life. I just read your story to my 16 year old Twin Boys and my 13 year old Son. I appreciate that you have helped them to think about what is most important in life.
God Bless you ,
Heather Kendall
Elizabeth says
That is by far the most beauitful thing I have ever read. And you are so right, you are the lucky chosen one. God honors those with pure hearts…Nella is your gift from Him. You are so blessed. Thank you for sharing such an amazing story. As I read your story, and even as I type this comment, I am rocking my sleeping 3 month old daughter, Daycie. Rocking her, thinking of my other princess dreaming in her crib, and reading your story…my cup overfloweth.
lrbodine says
Thank you for being so honest! This is a beautiful story and I’m grateful that you shared it with all of us. I don’t know you or your daughter but I love you!
Anonymous says
So beautifull, so…. i don’t know what to say!
I’m all cried out
Your girl is beautiful, an so her sister too
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Summer says
What a beautiful family you have. Your girls are beautiful. I have two girls and a boy and they are each unique and have their challenges… every day is different!
Anonymous says
I cried and cried and cried reading your story…….this was such a touching story. I’m so happy for you and the growth and change that will transform you in your new life with your new family. Bless you
The Lesters says
Your daughters are both so beautiful and blessed to have a mom like you. I can relate so much to what you wrote about her birth story (even the parts about wanting to run away and wanting your old life back). Our son is in the process of being diagnosed with autism. We are still trying to navigate this land. I will be reading your blog and praying for your family. All the photos are gorgeous and you certainly have so many memories of the day when you were blessed with that sweet girl.
Anonymous says
I wish, I wish I knew you. Your story is powerful, amazing, and full of love. A friend passed your story along to me and I thought this was going to be a story where things ended badly. You have shown the world that everyone is capable of loving and bonding… that family and friends are the truest fountains of strength.
Your daughter is absolutely, positively beautiful. Good luck to you in the future. The world is a better place with you and Nella in it.
Sarah says
Kelle,
Thanks for sharing. She’s beautiful!
Jen says
Your daughter’s birth story is so beautiful in your complete honesty. I love it. I love your courage and I can’t thank you enough for sharing that.
Congratulations on your two adorable girls!!!
CA International Outreach Teams says
Hi…my friend just forwarded me your blog entry about your beautiful girl.
My wife and I have a son, Matthew (3 yrs. old), who has Down syndrome. Your entry has brought healing to me tonight. You see, as I read your blog, I was catapulted back to 3 years ago to a hospital in Buenos Aires, Argentina when Tracy gave birth to Matthew. I have known that there has been unresolved pain from Matthew’s birth. And tonight, God has used your story to bring just a little bit more healing to my wounded heart. Matthew is the best thing that has ever happened to Tracy and me. Just imagine the love you have for Nella now and compound by a billion. If you would have told me that I would love Matthew this much three years ago, I would have told you that you were crazy. Now, I am simply crazy for my little boy. Thank you for sharing your story and welcome to Club 21!
Jaime Zavala
Soni says
What a tear-jerker THAT was! Wow, what a writer you are, too! Great story – so honest and so good for all mom’s to read. Incredible.
megan says
She is absolutely beautiful, I have always known that God gives special babies to special people. You are very lucky. I sobbed through the whole thing, it is the best birth story I have ever read. Congratulations on you perfect baby girl.
Anonymous says
I followed this link on a friend’s page. At first, I was daunted by the length of it, but my goodness!
What an incredibly beautiful story. You have a beautiful family. Thanks so much for sharing.
The Battles says
BEAUTIFUL, SO BEAUTIFUL …YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, THE STORY IS BEAUTIFUL AND YOUR BABY GIRL IS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL. ~Namaste
Paula says
oh my, oh my… i don’t really know what to say, but i really want to say something. your sister is right – you were chosen. you were chosen to love. i have had that feeling of being chosen for something others might not be able to do – and it filled my heart with so much joy and so much sadness, at times – but i would never – ever – give it back. thank you for sharing your story and inviting us to be witnesses…. i look forward to hearing about your family and your adventures.
Alycat says
Thank you for sharing your story. It was beautiful, as are both of your precious girls!!
Anonymous says
This is one of the MOST beautiful stories I have ever read in my life. Thank you so much for sharing. It is truly a blessing.
And, your girls are absolutely gorgeous!
Anonymous says
Thank you for this amazing story and for telling it so honestly. I am expecting a down syndrome baby girl in 6 weeks and your story is one of the many beautiful things that are helping to prepare my heart and mind for this journey that lies ahead. -Julie Chamberlain
Anonymous says
Amazing story.I have to tell you a friend of mine has a little girl like yours..she did research and started taking loads of amino acids..etc vitamins coctails..nursed her baby grew looking downs free….do rearch..there is much to offer her growth..always love present!
Stephanie says
THANK YOU for sharing your beautiful, inspiring story…and your beautiful, inspiring heart. I WEPT as I read. Your photos are striking; Your story is raw and real and lovely…and your daughter is stunning and sweet. Congratulations to you and your family.
stephanie@metropolitanmama.net
Noah says
Beautiful story, thank you so much for sharing.
I’ve done some work with elementary aged kids with down’s syndrome and I personally think that they tend to be the sweetest and most caring kids I have ever met. You definitely will have challenges in raising a child with special needs, but there are many unique rewards that go along with that as well. I truly believe that God gives special children to special parents.
God bless you in your journey. And thank you for sharing your story.
Anonymous says
Just feel blessed that you are able to have children…there are many people who cannot:)))
mamapoekie says
What a beautiful story, my heart is beating in my throat as I am writing this and I cried through every word.
You write wonderfully.
I wish you all the best
Kirsten says
Beautiful, just beautiful and honest. Your Nella is the luckiest girl to have a Mumma like you! I wish you love and strength on your journey. Thank-you for sharing. xx
Harley says
Your story is amazing and so is your child. My favorite people in the world are DS as I truly believe they are exactly what God intended us all to be like with their innocence, selflessness, unconditional love, unending acceptance of others and unending joy. Oh what a gift you were given and thank you for sharing her with us. She’s beautiful!
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your story, your feelings, your words and all those beautiful pictures. Nella and Lainey are just precious beautiful little girls we fell in love with. Please keep sharing your words, you write so beautiful and soul touching
xoxo
Angelkris says
You don’t know me, but I loved reading your story. Your honesty is beautiful as are your daughters.
Amy AnZ's Mom says
Your daughter is beautiful, congratulations. My son is 16 and was born with down syndrome. I was only 24 when he was born. Reading your story puts me right back there. Thankfully the darkness didn’t last long and our life is filled with light and love. He is a beautiful, amazing young man.
I know your girls will have a wonderful time growing up together. My boys share an incredible bond.
Lisa says
hi, a friend sent me your blog, because my beautiful Caroline was born with DS on August 31, 2009. What an inspiration you already are to me, my husband, and our family as a whole. we had all the same thoughts and feelings, and what took you a day or two to get a grasp of, took us a few months. i wouldn’t change a hair on her head either, and am slowly figuring out why we were chosen to be parents to such a wonderful baby girl. thank you for sharing your story!
Just Add Walter says
thank you for sharing this story. You are an amazing woman and I hope you know that! My niece was born with DS so I have some idea of how you felt at first… but your daughters are gorgeous and PERFECT! God has a plan and although we may not know what that plan is, it is always PERFECT!
Natasha says
I found your blog through Design Mom, and wept as I read your beautiful daughter’s birth story. Thank you for courageously sharing these lovely photographs and your story.
Best wishes and congratulations again!
marlena says
Your story is one the will forever be etched in my heart and mind. How a complete stranger can change your world by simply sharing their thoughts and feelings…far from simple, yet simply amazing! Thank you for opening your world and letting my life be changed because of it.
Aaron and Lindsay says
She is absolutely beautiful!
you are an amazing mother, bless you all!
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your touching story. Nella and Lainey are lucky little girls and your family IS beautiful and perfect.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your touching story. Nella and Lainey are lucky little girls and your family IS beautiful and perfect.
Becky says
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, story, daughters, and family. Thank you for sharing it with us!
Becky says
I just found your blog and think this is amazing. Congratulations on your beautiful addition to your family and may God continue to bless you all with the love you’ve talked about here. Thank you for sharing this with us.
lisarosecarlson says
Your experience touched so..it was so similar to my own. My son Cole is now 10 and was with me when i first noticed a link to your site…as I read your beautiful words with tears flowing he heard your music and asked me to dance. So we danced to you and your beautiful daughter and to us, as we were trying to smooth the wrinkles from his life. My life is so wonderful for having him come to me and bless me.
April says
Your daughters are precious. Congratulations on sweet Nella’s birth! May her life be long and full of joy!
April says
Your daughters are precious. Congratulations on sweet Nella’s birth! May her life be long and full of joy!
April says
Your daughters are precious. Congratulations on sweet Nella’s birth! May her life be long and full of joy!
April says
Your daughters are precious. Congratulations on sweet Nella’s birth! May her life be long and full of joy!
April says
Your daughters are precious. Congratulations on sweet Nella’s birth! May her life be long and full of joy!
April says
Your daughters are precious. Congratulations on sweet Nella’s birth! May her life be long and full of joy!
April says
Your daughters are precious. Congratulations on sweet Nella’s birth! May her life be long and full of joy!
Amanda says
Thank you for sharing your story. I am 3 months pregnant and could not stop crying at the beauty of your story.
Nella is beautiful and you are a beautiful mother.
Christine Garton says
Kelle,
Your story is so beautiful. Isn’t it amazing how therapudic writing can be. This will be THE MOST treasured blog that you will have ever written. You will come back and you will read this over and over. It will make you feel that day all over again and then you will feel blessed for what you have been given.
I too have written our story down. And I cry a bit each time a read it and take myself back to that day.
http://christinegarton.blogspot.com/2008/07/blessing-my-story-of-hope-faith-and.html
GOD bless you and your girls.
Christine Garton says
Kelle,
Your story is so beautiful. Isn’t it amazing how therapudic writing can be. This will be THE MOST treasured blog that you will have ever written. You will come back and you will read this over and over. It will make you feel that day all over again and then you will feel blessed for what you have been given.
I too have written our story down. And I cry a bit each time a read it and take myself back to that day.
http://christinegarton.blogspot.com/2008/07/blessing-my-story-of-hope-faith-and.html
GOD bless you and your girls.
Kathianne says
I am so moved by your words. The real and raw emotions that you shared. I felt them too as I read your story. Life can be so hard. Letting go of the life we dreamed, in order to live the life we were meant to live is the hardest of all. Nella is so lucky to have you as her mama. Thank you for sharing your heart with the world.
Anonymous says
i found the link to this story on babycenter and i was warned it was a tear jerker!
my nephew was born in october, and much like you, my brother and his girlfriend didn’t know he had down syndrome until delivery. i wasn’t there (regrettably) but i remember his first phone call to me right after the birth, and hearing the fear and the disbelief in his voice as he told me “i just don’t know what to do, sis.” and i told him, “you do all you can do. you love him just like any other child and you take care of him because he was given to you.” and when i saw your first pictures of your two daughters together, that sealed it for me, because we have one so similar of my niece (2 year old big sister) with her new brother, beaming. the first time i saw it, i thought it was so beautiful because she just didn’t understand the enormity of the situation, but maybe she does. maybe she understands that he is still her little brother, and he should still be loved just the same.
i guess i had some unresolved feelings, myself, because reading your story and imagining that it was the same for my brother, i have cried like a little baby. it might also be that because i am pregnant, now i feel it more poignantly. i am so glad you found the words to tell the story, so people can read and understand. although my nephew is visibly different from other babies, i still believe he is one of the most beautiful children i have ever seen and i have to believe he was put with us to achieve some purpose with his beautiful little life. he’s such a joy to have around. i’m sure you feel the same about nella.
Darian says
Not only has God blessed you with a beautiful family, but He has also given you an amazing gift of being able to bless us all with your writing. Thank you!
Anonymous says
i found the link to this story on babycenter and i was warned it was a tear jerker!
my nephew was born in october, and much like you, my brother and his girlfriend didn’t know he had down syndrome until delivery. i wasn’t there (regrettably) but i remember his first phone call to me right after the birth, and hearing the fear and the disbelief in his voice as he told me “i just don’t know what to do, sis.” and i told him, “you do all you can do. you love him just like any other child and you take care of him because he was given to you.” and when i saw your first pictures of your two daughters together, that sealed it for me, because we have one so similar of my niece (2 year old big sister) with her new brother, beaming. the first time i saw it, i thought it was so beautiful because she just didn’t understand the enormity of the situation, but maybe she does. maybe she understands that he is still her little brother, and he should still be loved just the same.
i guess i had some unresolved feelings, myself, because reading your story and imagining that it was the same for my brother, i have cried like a little baby. it might also be that because i am pregnant, now i feel it more poignantly. i am so glad you found the words to tell the story, so people can read and understand. although my nephew is visibly different from other babies, i still believe he is one of the most beautiful children i have ever seen and i have to believe he was put with us to achieve some purpose with his beautiful little life. he’s such a joy to have around. i’m sure you feel the same about nella.
erickajen says
beautiful. just simply, one of the most beautiful and heartwrenching and glorious and blessed stories i have ever had the privilege to read. and the pictures are so far beyond gorgeous, i just cant believe it. the pictures alone are worth a million and more words. you almost dont have to write the story; the pictures are so perfect. i LOVE LOVE LOVE the pictures taken by your friend heidi…. im taking those and im using them for inspiration. your beautiful girls!!! 🙂 🙂
Anonymous says
Wow! What an incredible honest and true story of your beutiful, perfect daughter. What a wonderful reminder of our Father in Heaven loving us unconditionaly and giving us life. Thanks for sharing. You are an amazing writer…you should write a book!
shell says
Hi!
I just needed to say Thank You for writing my son’s birth story too!! I have a 19 month old with Down and have never quite been able to write what I feel. I think you literally took the words right out of my mouth. Word for word, moment for moment, heart ache and triumph for heartache and triumph.
What a ride this has been and can’t wait to continue. May God Bless your everyday. But, he already has.
Shelly Cooley AZ
B@B@ says
OMG So beautiful!! i want one just like her!! she is gorgeous!!
Nike Peterson says
THANK YOU, thank you, thank you for sharing this. I don’t have a child with Downs, but I have one with autism, and I know the grieving for the life you thought you’d live and the child you thought you’d raise.
I, like you, say that my son was different before anyone else and wished that I could will it away. The moment our therapist called with the official diagnosis was one of the hardest of my life.
I sobbed. I fell apart.
And then, somewhere, I realized that my little boy needed me to be his voice. Needed me to be his advocate. Needed me to shower him with the love that he might never be able to return.
Thank you for sharing the birth of your beautiful little girl. I needed this today ….
Peyton Grace Jones says
I just wept a thousand tears of joy for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story with the world.
Stephanie Hartman says
WOW I saw this on someones blog and I started to read it and WOW is all I can say you are such a strong women and this story had me crying I Love how true and honest this post was you have not only touch the hearts of your family and friends but stragers as well this is an amazing story and your daughters are so amazingly lucky to have such a wonderful mother like you..
-Stephanie
Stephanie Hartman says
WOW I saw this on someones blog and I started to read it and WOW is all I can say you are such a strong women and this story had me crying I Love how true and honest this post was you have not only touch the hearts of your family and friends but stragers as well this is an amazing story and your daughters are so amazingly lucky to have such a wonderful mother like you..
-Stephanie
Brittany says
I don’t even have words for this. It is unbelievable. You have touched my heart in so many ways! Your daughters are beautiful and so precious. The last pictures brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing Nella’s story. You are an amazing person for writing this. Your girls are lucky to have you as their mom.
Brittany says
I don’t even have words for this. It is unbelievable. You have touched my heart in so many ways! Your daughters are beautiful and so precious. The last pictures brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing Nella’s story. You are an amazing person for writing this. Your girls are lucky to have you as their mom.
stephanie joy says
wow, so honest, real and genuine. thank you for sharing your heart. nella is a beautiful and precious gift from God… she is utterly adorable and i can see how you have fallen deep and hard in love. i have just from reading this amazing post and see the amazing pictures!! many blessings to you as you go down this new and beautiful path. you are inspiring!
Heather of the EO says
I don’t know how I haven’t bumped into you in the blogosphere before…but this is an incredibly good way to meet you.
This is the 1708th comment for some very good reasons: your heart, your grace, your beauty in your story-telling, the way you use your voice to shout love with raw honesty. And also, that baby of yours is reaching out and changing perspectives and lives through your words. That’s part of her joy job, to have it rub off on other people who need joy so very badly. I can even feel that from her right through a computer screen. It is so good.
Thank you for sharing yourself the way you do. It rocks the blog party.
Peace.
Jessica says
Thank you so much for sharing your and Nella’s story. Your words and the photo’s are beautiful. Your Nella is beautiful.
Lisa says
I have a special needs child and I am bawling my eyes out b/c I can remember those feelings. It’s gonna be great and I’m not just saying that. One day you will notice that you just realized: ‘If a fairy with a magic wand came down and said, I will change her into a perfect typical child right now, but you must realize that she will be someone different…do you want me to do it?’ You will say- ‘No! She’s my Bunny- I don’t want her to be anyone different’.
Vanessa says
I found your blog and your beautiful story through Alison at O My Family.
I cried my way through your story. What a beautiful and amazing story and I’m SO THANKFUL for your honesty. Nella is truly lucky and blessed to have a Mama with such a huge heart.
And I absolutely LOVE the picture of you in pigtail braids holding Nella close to you and she’s smiling. My heart is completely melted. So beautiful.
Kat says
You are absolutely beautiful inside and out and so is your family. The photos of the girls together make my heart happy!
Paula Duailibi Homor says
Your are amazing! What a beautiful and honest story.
Lots of love for you and your beautiful girls.
Gina says
I am a speech-language pathologist who has a few students with Down Syndrome. They are my favorites, but I don’t think that’s why I sobbed, reading this. I don’t think it’s because I am pregnant. I think it’s because this is the most beautiful post I’ve ever read. Your baby is perfect. ABSOLUTELY perfect. You are so lucky to have her, and all the support around you. I pray that you’ll have amazing people around you to support you through her education. She really is indescribably cute. 🙂 I’m definitely your newest follower! Can’t wait to see what life has in store for your famiy.
Kendra says
I am so happy for that beautiful baby in your life.! She is gorgeous.! This is such a heart felt post. I am so every thrilled you wrote the truth. You write what it is REALLY like in that situation. The things that soon will overcome. You wrote the real emotions, not the fake ones everyone wants to hear.
God bless you and your family.!
Kendra
natalie says
What a beautiufl fmaily you have. YOur sister was right – you have been chosen to have this little girl because you are an amazing woman! YOur words, pictures and love are inspiring! Best of luck to you and your growing family.
natalie says
What a beautiufl fmaily you have. YOur sister was right – you have been chosen to have this little girl because you are an amazing woman! YOur words, pictures and love are inspiring! Best of luck to you and your growing family.
Jordan says
That is a beautiful story. My best friend has a little sister with Downs. She’s beautiful and unique in her “Jessica way.” She has taught me so much in life and I love her like she is my little sister. Congratulations. She is absolutely beautiful!!
AJ and Dexter's Mom says
This story is so beautiful and brought tears to my eyes. Nella is adorable! I think she’s lucky to have you as her mother.
Take care.
lane4406 says
I read your story and reflect on the day that my daughter Abigail was born. Your story has taken me back 10 years and realize how far we have come or really how far she has come. I never new her potential that day but now she is reading and adding and subtracting. She is also dancing in the most spirited way that has inspired others around her.
Our road has been filled with many ups and downs but it continues to be all well worth it. I now look to the day when she graduates from high school.
The reason I found your blog was because of her dance teacher. Dance was what I put her in for therapy, now it I think it is therapy at times for others.
Someone said to me when she was born that she would teach us so much…that she has.
Enjoy your girls. I enjoy mine every day!
Your photos are amazing by the way. I look for them every day.
Erin says
I came across your story through another blog. First of all, you are an amazing writer. But more importantly, you are an amazing woman to share such a heartfelt story! Nella is gorgeous and perfect in every way and you are an inspiration!
Low Expectations says
What an amazing story. Thank you so much for sharing. Thank you so much for your honesty. Tears stained my eyes as I read your words and my heart ached with your words. I smile and am amazed at quickly you have embraced this situation. She is beautiful regardless and I do believe that you were chosen for this.
bri says
My daughter has a rare chromosome disorder. I didn’t know before she was born, either, and I can relate so much to the terrible tunnel of pain you have to go through first to get through to the other side. God, you are so, so much stronger on that other side than you ever thought! And there are little “aftershocks”, always, and pain like there is pain in almost everything in life that you care about, but it’s just a part and it’s worth it. You are a gifted writer. Congratulations on two beautiful girls!
Anna says
Kelle,
I got to your blog through several links, and I feel so lucky to have found this story. This is the most beautiful birth story I have ever read, and I’ve heard & read my fair share.
Thank you for your honesty. Thank you for sharing your family and your heart.
Blessings upon you and yours as you embark on this new, exciting journey.
Robin says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I came across this on parenting forum… I’m due in Aug. I work with little ones with special needs and honestly the kiddos with DS are my favorite. They are SO loving and truly show the world how to love unconditionally. Nella is GORGEOUS! It was so moving to read your journey to acceptance and to see the love in your eyes even when you weren’t sure you felt it yet. God bless dad, you, and Nella and of course, proud big sister!
Andrea says
That was the most amazing and wonderful thing I’ve ever read. I’m bawling and I still want to go back and read it again. Your daughter is beautiful. I love her name. You are a very lucky mama.
Marcia Lima Gomes says
What a beautiful story. You all deserve a wonderful life. Be blessed!
Krystal says
Your story is one of the most beautiful, touching, inspring things I have ever heard. Thank you so much for sharing this with the world.
Anonymous says
I don’t know you but I’d count myself very lucky if I did!!! Thank you so much for sharing Nella’s story, she is so blessed to have such loving parents, family, and friends. Being a new mom has shown me just how much strength we do have, and just how much love one can feel when you bring a new life into the world. Yet there are still those with stories like yours that make me sit here unashamedly crying my eyes out, because you allow us the privilege of reading and having a glimpse of such extraordinary people like yourself. What a precious gift you have, and what an incredible journey you have started! I pray that journey is filled with many, many happy days!!!!
God bless you and your family (although I see he already has 🙂
Jen says
This is the most beautiful story I have ever read. I am sobbing reading….and yet, I am smiling too. Your daughters are beautiful. Babies are such blessings. Such tiny, life changing, beautiful blessings. Congrats…enjoy every single second 🙂
Jen says
This is the most beautiful story I have ever read. I am sobbing reading….and yet, I am smiling too. Your daughters are beautiful. Babies are such blessings. Such tiny, life changing, beautiful blessings. Congrats…enjoy every single second 🙂
Jen says
This is the most beautiful story I have ever read. I am sobbing reading….and yet, I am smiling too. Your daughters are beautiful. Babies are such blessings. Such tiny, life changing, beautiful blessings. Congrats…enjoy every single second 🙂
Jen says
This is the most beautiful story I have ever read. I am sobbing reading….and yet, I am smiling too. Your daughters are beautiful. Babies are such blessings. Such tiny, life changing, beautiful blessings. Congrats…enjoy every single second 🙂
Jen says
This is the most beautiful story I have ever read. I am sobbing reading….and yet, I am smiling too. Your daughters are beautiful. Babies are such blessings. Such tiny, life changing, beautiful blessings. Congrats…enjoy every single second 🙂
Reel Girl says
wow. really. wow. thank you for this entry. it really truly has moved my soul. this entry has made me re-examine my history. You have truly rocked my world.
Claire says
Oh my gosh, I can hardly see my computer screen because of the tears running down my face. A friend of mine shared the link to your post with me and told me to be prepared to cry. Wow!
Your Nella is one of the most beautiful babies I have EVER seen. She is just gorgeous! Your story is so touching. I truly believe that you have been blessed with a very special little girl. I can see it in her just through the pictures you have posted… she is amazing. Congratulations on her arrival!
Anonymous says
I just finished my way crying through your story. You have an inate ability to speak so clearly straight to someone’s heart. You have a beautiful family and your story has touched me like I couldn’t imagine. I grew up knowing a young woman who had Downs Syndrome. She amazed me on a daily basis when I was younger and when we lost touch after school I often wondered where she was and what she was doing. Well I ran into her a few months ago and she filled me in on her life. She is working 3 jobs, not because she has to but because she likes to be busy. She has an amazing fiance, who she proudly told me has Downs Syndrome just like her, and they have so much in common and can’t wait to get married. Her life is beautiful and I have no doubt that your Nella’s life will be the same, because she has a mother who loves her. Thank you for sharing this story. You are an inspiration.
Ann of the Incredible Gift says
Your Nella is absolutely beautiful!
Your sister sounds like a marvelous woman. I’m so glad you have her beside you, with her excitement and passion. And she’s right.
You are in for the trip of your lifetime with your little Nella. You will laugh and you will cry, you will worry and you will be surprised, but most of all you will be changed forever.
I can tell from the photos that Lainey is a perfect big sister, and Nella is loved.
My oldest daughter was born with DS, and we’ve been on our own version of your journey, but starting 38 years ago. Having her in my life has been an incredible gift.
My daughter asked me to write a book about growing up with DS. I’m not much of a writer. Perhaps you will keep your journal, and write about Nella growing up, and publish a book. That ~someone~ does it, I think, would please my gal.
Thank you for sharing; you write so very very well. And from the heart.
Windy says
Congratulations on your very beautiful family.
Your story is incredible, it is one that I will always remember. It will forever be close to my heart. The tears of many emotions that filled my soul while I lived through your journey are so precious.
You are marvelous. And you are truly an amazing mother.
Thank you.
Anonymous says
I don’t know the words to express my feelings, but I am so grateful that you were willing to share this breath-taking birth story and stunning photography. Please, please consider getting this published as a book. I would love to be able to wrap my arms around you and your family by having your story and photos in my home.
And Heidi, your photography is truly extraordinary and astounding.
Sheena says
You are one special mother. God knows what he is doing, and he wouldn’t give you such a perfect little angel if you couldn’t do it. Keep your head up, and try to remember that Nella is closer to heaven than the rest of us. Don’t doubt that she knows she is loved, she smiles so often and looks so happy. She is beautiful and utterly perfect. God has truly blessed you. 🙂
Dagmar says
Thank you so much for sharing this! You are beautiful and your girls are beautiful. I LOVE that second to last picture of them! My heart goes out to you, it must have been so hard at first to discover she has DS.
Sincerely,
Dagmar
Dagmar’s momsense
carolyn peeler says
You have written such a raw, deeply honest and moving brith story for Nella. As I sit here, a stranger who was linked to your blog by a friend, I have tears streaming down my face and I feel for you, your family and your friends. You surely have a gift and have moved so many with your story and the words and pictures you used to share it. We are told that God knew us while we were being knit in our mother’s womb, and he knows, loves and has a plan for Nella. Indeed she has already touched many in her young life.
Big cyber hugs from this stranger in canada whose heart has been touched by your writing. Your family will be in my prayers as you adjust to a different reality from what you were expecting. Thank you for being so vulnerable and God Bless.
Bec says
Congratulations on your beautiful Nella. Your story is told with such warmth, love, joy and sorrow that my heart is full of love for your baby. Congratulations!
Bec says
Congratulations on your beautiful Nella. Your story is told with such warmth, love, joy and sorrow that my heart is full of love for your baby. Congratulations!
Kim says
What an amazing story. So honest and so beautiful, just like your family.
Suzie Coffey says
You have such a beautiful outlook and such a wonderful story. Thankyou all
Diane says
Thank you. You and your husband are blessed, as are both of your daughters. God bless each of you.
Silvia Fontana says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story! May God bless your family with love and joy! Congratulations on your beautiful Nella.
Shorty says
What a beautiful thing to share. Thank you. You and your family are amazing. Your love is enviable. I wish you all the best. Forever.
Donna says
Nella is a very lucky little girl to have you for her momma. Thank you for sharing her story, your story. I pray that God continues to bless your family and little Nella.
Kelly says
Wow! Very powerful!
I laughed and smiled with your last post about”Holland”. I never wanted to go to “Holland” and always thought those shoes looked so uncomfortable. Thanks for your honesty as I was always afraid to express those words out loud! We take return trips to Holland every now and then but I spend most times in Italy with my 7 yr old son with DS these days. Wish we could get frequent flyer miles! Showed him pics of Nella last night and he fell in love..kept asking for more pics of baby Nella.
Will be looking forward to more in the future.
Anonymous says
Oh my goodness..I just cried my eyes out reading your story!! It brought me back to that place. After my sons birth, I prayed and prayed to God to help me love him because I didn’t want to fail him. Your daughter is beautiful!!! The motto of our family after my sons birth is “Its Going to be OK.” I type this as I listen to the song “its going to be alright” on your blog. God Bless you and your sweet daughter!!!
Anonymous says
Thank you for your beautifully written and incredibly moving story. You are an extremely talented writer (I look forward to reading your book) and clearly an exceptionally good mother. I wish you and your family the very best for the future. As a mother, from Perth, Western Australia, with two under two, I thank you again for your wonderful words and photos which have honestly been life changing for me. You are an inspiration.
Anonymous says
Thank you for your beautifully written and incredibly moving story. You are an extremely talented writer (I look forward to reading your book) and clearly an exceptionally good mother. I wish you and your family the very best for the future. As a mother, from Perth, Western Australia, with two under two, I thank you again for your wonderful words and photos which have honestly been life changing for me. You are an inspiration.
Kaycee says
What a gorgeous heart-wrenching story you have. I bawled. I admired you and you telling of the true story and all you feelings. I am moved and inspired by you. Thank you for sharing you beautiful story, beautiful pictures, and beautiful family.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. You have a wonderful family and I wish you the best. Your Bunny is so lucky to have such great mommy and you are so lucky to have been blessed with this little angel.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. You have a wonderful family and I wish you the best. Your Bunny is so lucky to have such great mommy and you are so lucky to have been blessed with this little angel.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. You have a wonderful family and I wish you the best. Your Bunny is so lucky to have such great mommy and you are so lucky to have been blessed with this little angel.
Blessed Beyond says
What an incredible story! You have a way with words and your pictures are beautiful! But more than that, you do have a beautiful family! It’s prefect! You story and this very post was sent to me, and though our stories are nothing a like and not the same reasons, I have had the same feelings about my 2nd child. (we adopted siblings a fews apart and both being drug babies, my first very few affects and I had it planned when we knew about the 2nd to have the same, but it is much different.) I have said many times, God gave them to me, because others couldn’t handle it. they are my gifts, and sometimes I needed the reminder, and you did that! And the part about your dad’s words and prayers, really made it all sink in, as that is near the words and prayers from my own dad! Thank you again, and Many blessings to you and your perfect and beautiful family!!!
Hugs and Blessings,
Blessed Beyond says
What an incredible story! You have a way with words and your pictures are beautiful! But more than that, you do have a beautiful family! It’s prefect! You story and this very post was sent to me, and though our stories are nothing a like and not the same reasons, I have had the same feelings about my 2nd child. (we adopted siblings a fews apart and both being drug babies, my first very few affects and I had it planned when we knew about the 2nd to have the same, but it is much different.) I have said many times, God gave them to me, because others couldn’t handle it. they are my gifts, and sometimes I needed the reminder, and you did that! And the part about your dad’s words and prayers, really made it all sink in, as that is near the words and prayers from my own dad! Thank you again, and Many blessings to you and your perfect and beautiful family!!!
Hugs and Blessings,
Blessed Beyond says
What an incredible story! You have a way with words and your pictures are beautiful! But more than that, you do have a beautiful family! It’s prefect! You story and this very post was sent to me, and though our stories are nothing a like and not the same reasons, I have had the same feelings about my 2nd child. (we adopted siblings a fews apart and both being drug babies, my first very few affects and I had it planned when we knew about the 2nd to have the same, but it is much different.) I have said many times, God gave them to me, because others couldn’t handle it. they are my gifts, and sometimes I needed the reminder, and you did that! And the part about your dad’s words and prayers, really made it all sink in, as that is near the words and prayers from my own dad! Thank you again, and Many blessings to you and your perfect and beautiful family!!!
Hugs and Blessings,
Anonymous says
Wow! I don’t even know what to say, but these words & photos are the most beautiful things I’ve seen in a very, very long time. It’s crazy to say your proud of someone you’ve never met, but lady I’m so proud of you and your network of support & love. You are so blessed beyond what is possible. God parted the sky’s looked down & hand picked you & your husband for the most joyful ride ever. You are so lucky. So blessed. And the best part is you know it so you can enjoy every single second. Thank you for sharing your story & your love even if you didn’t know you were sharing that 🙂
Anonymous says
Thank you for your raw beautiful honesty! What a beautiful, PERFECT family!! God Bless! 🙂
Anonymous says
Thank you for your raw beautiful honesty! What a beautiful, PERFECT family!! God Bless! 🙂
Anonymous says
You are Blessed among women!
Isaiah 35:5-6
thank you for sharing your life with us..
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you and your beautiful family.
A Fire Fighter Wifey says
“kim said…
This is the most beautiful honest thing I’ve ever read. Congratulations on your gorgeous, perfect, daughters.
February 3, 2010 12:28 PM”
I couldn’t have said it better my self…
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Anonymous says
I have no words. Your story is an amazing testimony. My heart broke and then was healed, all while reading your story.
You have a gift with words and I can only imagine how many people have been touched by them.
Love and MANY blessings to you and your family.
KIM says
You told such a moving story of your beautiful daughter’s birth. For you to be so honest and raw and then to just allow all the wonderful emotions you have for her to run out like that is breathtaking. My Angel will be 13 on Sunday. I wouldn’t change a thing! Feel free to visit our local website http://www.fcdsn.com.
Blessings to you and your family -Justin’s Mom
Heather B says
I don’t know you, but that was one of the most beautiful stories I’ve ever read. Congratulations on this sweet spirit. I know that she will teach you so much about perfect love and happiness. I’m sure she is one of the sweetest spirits in the world. I look forward to reading more about your journey. Thank you for sharing this.
Turducken says
Such a loving birth story. I have never read one so touching. You will be a wonderful mother to such a special little girl.
Anonymous says
That was such a beautiful birth story. Like everyone else I cried. Nella is so lucky to have you and your family. She’s so beautiful. Both your girls are. And thanks for being honest. Good luck and have fun with that baby! 😛
Anonymous says
You are fabulous. Your girls are fabulous. The are the cutest little girls I have ever seen (I have 2 boys). You all are blessed.
Anonymous says
Kelle, You don’t know me. I was linked in through a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend. You get the point :-). My 23 year-old brother has DS. One of the great loves of Lainey’s life, will be her sister, Nella. Its an outstanding bond of love, companionship, trust and gratitude. You and your family have an absolutely amazing journey ahead of you and your story brought tears to my eyes. I can’t tell you how much it warms my heart that not only you are getting Nella, but also that she is getting such an amazing Mom and family. I wish you the best with everything. Much love, Lauren
Patricia says
Amazing, honest, raw. Thank you so much for sharing this story. The photography, the writing, it all touches my heart in ways I can not describe. Nella is blessed to have such a wonderful family and circle of friends and you are blessed to have a wonderful new baby who not only completes you, but will also bring you joys you never expected.
nellej says
She is so beautiful! Congratulations.
Anonymous says
I live in Atlanta. I don’t even know you. My mother in law Kathy Frank sent this to me. I have been crying for 30 minutes over yours story. I’m HONESTLY JEALOUS of your little bunny. Of your little Nella that I don’t even know. I have two little perfect girls and have always thought down syndrome children were sooo very precious. I have always envied people with them for some reason. You are SOO BLESSED. The Lord made that little Nella PERFECT for you. She is such a treasure to him and now such a treasure to you. While this was a surprise to you, it was not a surprise to her creator who made her perfectly in your womb. THANK YOU for sharing your story. It has truly truly blessed me.
Rachel Best
Atlanta, GA
PS: She is BEAUTIFUL! I just want to cuddle her!!!
Joe and Di says
What a beautiful story, thank you for sharing your insights, feelings, fears, hopes, and inspiration! It was just what I needed to hear today. Your daughter is amazingly beautiful and I can tell that she has been blessed with an extraordinary family. I have some dear friends that are having to endure the loss of their baby, born with CDlS, she won’t live much longer http://www.ellastouch.com but I am amazed at what these sweet little children can teach us all about life. God bless you and your family!
staceymommy30 says
You are so honest, strong and beautiful. I will be forever touched by your story of precious Nella. I am also a photographer that started my business out of my love for my son, who is now an angel. I lost my first child when he was 21 months old to leukemia. I know that feeling you speak of, that your sister helped you realize, and it is so true. We are blessed,we are lucky, we are choosen… to see life on a level that not many people will experience. I always tell myself that my precious boy was not taken from me in cruelty, he was given to me for 21 wonderful months to enjoy and to teach me more than I could possibly imagine. Enjoy every second of this learning experience.
In God’s Love,
Stacey Quattlebaum
http://www.naturallywonderful.com
Anonymous says
Your story is amazing and inspirint! Your girls are beautiful.
Lisa says
Thank you for sharing your story and beautiful photos. You are so blessed to have had such a good experience in the hospital, with friends, and with such caring nurses and doctors. My mother-in-law gave birth to a baby girl with Down Syndrome 50 years ago, and her story was very different. They took the baby and told her she would be sent to an institution. My mother-in-law told them no, and she took her baby home, then fought to get her into regular schools back before that was the norm. Gena is now 50 years old. She can read. She can cook. She lives in an apartment in the little town near where my MIL lives. She’s a wonderful aunt to my three boys. Her life is good. And so will be your bunny’s life!
Lisa says
Thank you for sharing your story and beautiful photos. You are so blessed to have had such a good experience in the hospital, with friends, and with such caring nurses and doctors. My mother-in-law gave birth to a baby girl with Down Syndrome 50 years ago, and her story was very different. They took the baby and told her she would be sent to an institution. My mother-in-law told them no, and she took her baby home, then fought to get her into regular schools back before that was the norm. Gena is now 50 years old. She can read. She can cook. She lives in an apartment in the little town near where my MIL lives. She’s a wonderful aunt to my three boys. Her life is good. And so will be your bunny’s life!
sheena says
oh my goodness….you will most likely not get this comment within in the sea of well wishes, but…oh well!!
I am new here…you are a stranger to me….and I have never been so touched. Your words are so sweet and honest, your story is so beautiful. As is your little girl. She is so lucky to have you!
Alexa says
Hello Kelle,
I toataly cried for your little nella, I am sitting in a loft alone in vancouver, waiting for the children i nanny to come home with their parents from a game. I truly love and adore children and belive no matter what they look like or how they may act, they are all a little blessing. Thank you for sharing your blessed story with me. I think i needed a good cry. But something Nella will give you that no one els will is a friendly, surreal, honest and loyal love. Something i have heard about children and people with down syndrom is they allways possess a honest child like inocence. You will have a wonderfull full life with your now complete family. You are truly blessed.
lots of love, Alexa
Alexa says
Hello Kelle,
I toataly cried for your little nella, I am sitting in a loft alone in vancouver, waiting for the children i nanny to come home with their parents from a game. I truly love and adore children and belive no matter what they look like or how they may act, they are all a little blessing. Thank you for sharing your blessed story with me. I think i needed a good cry. But something Nella will give you that no one els will is a friendly, surreal, honest and loyal love. Something i have heard about children and people with down syndrom is they allways possess a honest child like inocence. You will have a wonderfull full life with your now complete family. You are truly blessed.
lots of love, Alexa
Alexa says
Hello Kelle,
I toataly cried for your little nella, I am sitting in a loft alone in vancouver, waiting for the children i nanny to come home with their parents from a game. I truly love and adore children and belive no matter what they look like or how they may act, they are all a little blessing. Thank you for sharing your blessed story with me. I think i needed a good cry. But something Nella will give you that no one els will is a friendly, surreal, honest and loyal love. Something i have heard about children and people with down syndrom is they allways possess a honest child like inocence. You will have a wonderfull full life with your now complete family. You are truly blessed.
lots of love, Alexa
Anonymous says
Thank you SO MUCH for sharing sweet little Nella’s story, and thank you for sharing your tears of sorrow and happiness! We all take the life we were given for granted and you have helped me learn to love my life and all the blessing in it.
Pam says
I am typing this through a blur of tears. You are so eloquent in your telling of this story. Your girls are so lucky to call you “Mom”.
My oldest brother is mentally and physically handicapped. I cannot imagine the pain that my parents went through when they found out that their firstborn was not the “perfect” baby they thought they were getting. In those days, institutionalizing someone with mental handicaps was not uncommon. But my parents refused. They wound up having three more children. And I can say as a sibling of someone with special needs, it has been a blessing. Sure there have been challenges, but my brother has given us the gifts of compassion, perserverence and patience. And not only has he given us these gifts, but he is bringing it to the next generation. My son has displayed more compassion for those with special needs and is not afraid or intimidated by them.
In closing, your family will be just fine. No doubt there will be bumps in the road ahead, but may they be made smooth with God’s blessing.
God bless your family and congratulations on the birth of Baby Nella!
Guru Perp says
Thank you for your courage and eloquence in telling Nella’s story. It is in difficult times that God shows us what we’re truly capable of. Nella has already given so very much, to you, to your family and friends, and to those of us fortunate to have had the privilege of hearing your story so far.
The road will undoubtedly have twists and turns, and you will still have days where you perhaps feel “ripped off” and grieve… please be kind to yourself on those occasions and don’t be too guilty. It’s OK to find it a difficult journey. 🙂
Thanks for your courage in sharing. Bless you all as you grow in love and laughter as a family.
Melissa says
I don’t know if you’ll have time to read 1800 comments with a new baby, but I couldn’t help but add one more…
My little girl Claire was born 9 days before Nella was. We didn’t have a confirmed diagnosis before her birth, but we did have suspicions due to her heart defect. Even knowing what we knew…we did have to say goodbye to the baby we expected and hello to the baby we never knew we wanted! I know there will be challenges, but I am so in love with my girl and can’t wait to see what great things are in store for her.
btw, I came to your post by way of a link on babycenter.com. The DS board there is amazing and is already a cherished resource.
shaner82 says
SO touched…more than I can say. You will love, protect, and honor her, and she will reciprocate. Please remember to take help when offered, and ask for it when it isn’t. You’re the cornerstone of your family, and therefore your health is imperative. Hugs, Jamie
Laura says
What a wonderful and touching story! Much love!
Nina Fiuza says
I’m from Brazil and I just read your beautiful and touching story. The honesty in your words touch everyone who once had expectations over a big round belly. Motherhood is beautiful. We are all blessed. But what touched me the most was what you wrote about your other daughter, and how she taught you to love without prejudice. Children are, indeed, the brightest beings. Congratulations once again.
Nina – São Paulo – BRAZIL
Jaymie says
I agree with the above comment…this is the most beautiful and honest thing I’ve ever read!
I love the pictures, and I had tears in my eyes right from the start of reading.
Congratulations on the birth of your perfect little girl Nella <3
Bert Bell says
Nella is truly an angel dropped from heaven. That last picture of her is so precious…but I have to say my favorite one is the one of you holding her…your are leaning forward and smiling with your braids. But the smile on Nella is so sweet and precious….she was totally aware of the love she was feeling at that precise moment and all she could do was smile that precious smile. I found your blog from a link from another blog I follow. Thank you for letting me glimpse 2 lovely angels. Many blessings & much joy!
Anonymous says
I am overwhelmed after reading this story. I think you are an incredible mother to those beautiful little girls.
Thank you for sharing this with us.
Amy says
What a beautiful baby, a beautiful family and a beautiful story. I love her little smile in some of the pictures. The way you wrote is beautiful, I felt as if I was there with you. Your family is beautiful and perfect and exactly as it should be.
Lindsay says
thank you SO much for sharing!! i love birth stories 🙂
your little nella is just beautiful… such a precious, tiny girl. know that your reaction and emotions were perfectly normal- we’re all human and we can’t deny our human tendencies. the important thing is that you love your baby; that’s all that matters. sending hugs and congrats your way!
Amanda says
Wow. Your story is filled with the true heartache AND love of a mother. I just sobbed as I read this. I had to get up twice before I finished to get tissue. I’m saying that just to express what an amazing gift you just gave me (and others) by sharing this beautiful love story.
And what a gift that Nella is! And good for you for mourning what you thought you lost and realizing so quickly that you never really lost anything. She was there all along.:) That precious baby girl was sent to your family and you must be a pretty special family to have been chosen. Baby Nella will love you back more than you can ever, ever imagine.
Beautiful photos. I will read this over and over again. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing.
(I just happened by your blog tonight, not even sure how I got here! Beautiful mama, beautiful baby girls, beautiful family & friends!)
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Anonymous says
This is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story about your beautiful daughter. God bless all of you.
Michelle says
What a beautiful, touching story. You have 2 very beautiful children.
Michelle says
What a beautiful, touching story. You have 2 very beautiful children.
Michelle says
What a beautiful, touching story. You have 2 very beautiful children.
Heidi says
Thank you for sharing this story. I’ve cried tears with you.
All of my love on your journey ahead. I wish you the happiest of stories.
MiniStylista Magazine says
Absolutely one of the most moving stories I have ever read
The intense joy you have for your beautiful daughters is jumping through the screen
Amazing story x
Erica says
I found this randomly on LiveJournal, and not only are you an amazing soul and mother, both of your daughters are gorgeous and absolutely perfect. You’re blessed and beautiful and I am really happy for you. Congratulations!
Pam says
What a beautiful birth story. My 11 year old daughter walked in while I was reading and saw Nella’s photo where her eyes were first opened and immediately, the “awww”, came out. My 6 year year is on my lap admiring dear Nella and your family. We all think she is beautiful! Thank you for sharing your story. It brought tears to my eyes. What everyone mom thinks, but is too afraid to speak. Thank you. Thank you for speaking out.
Steph says
Having had a beautiful angel with Down Syndrome 4 years ago (on Tuesday), your story brought out the raw emotion I experienced at the time of my daughter’s birth. Your birth story is beautiful, moving, honest, and inspiring. Thank you so much for sharing. Nella is absolutely divine. May she complete you and your family for many years to come!!!
Kayla says
You have one of the most beautiful stories I’ve ever heard. I am so happy you have told it, because I think every Mother and Father who has a child with down syndrome should read your blog. Your daughters are gorgeous and your story about the birthing process is just as wonderful. I hope there are more people like you in the world. People who realize how beautiful life is, if you just look. Thank you for writing your story.
If you are writing a book, I am looking forward to reading it.
Valerie says
Thank you sooo much for sharing your beautiful story, I cried the whole way through it! BOTH your daughters are beautiful!!!
Jessica says
she is beautiful! congratulations, and a beautiful story to share with us! enjoy both of your girls and watching them grow.
Tessa Rice says
What a beautiful story, thank you so much for sharing…
Mommy Hollis says
One word for you…..AMAZING! Not only is your daughter BEAUTIFUL beyond words, but she has the most AMAZING mommy in the whole world! You are truly blessed and I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this story with everyone. I found your blog on accident, but I don’t think it was an accident. I feel blessed just to have read this story.
Mommy Hollis says
One word for you…..AMAZING! Not only is your daughter BEAUTIFUL beyond words, but she has the most AMAZING mommy in the whole world! You are truly blessed and I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this story with everyone. I found your blog on accident, but I don’t think it was an accident. I feel blessed just to have read this story.
Miya says
Lainey really did look just so proud.
Congratulations on those two perfect little girls. This was so moving..
Aidy says
My very close friend Steph who has written on your wall sent this to me. Beautiful beautiful story and I think you have helped her realise the emotions she was feeling 4 years ago too. Thankyou for a true and overwhelming story about Nella and your family.
Anonymous says
I cried at your story, and my family is probably looking at me like I’m insane, wondering what it is I’m doing on the computer that is making me cry so, but you’re story is so beautiful. My heart just seemed to explode as I read your honesty, and it comforted me so much. Your family is beautiful, you’re incredibly lucky. Thank you for sharing your story.
Anonymous says
Thankyou so much for sharing your beautiful words, pictures and more importantly, daughters with us. With tears rolling down my face I am thankful in the little things today. Thankyou for making me see.
Melisande says
Very, very well written and touching. Amazing that you captured all that with photos and your family around. I know the pain of birthing what I thought would be a healthy baby. You captured the raw emotion of it all. Creating life isn’t clean or predictable always. It’s messy and painful and scary and sad sometimes. It doesn’t mean you don’t love your Nella just the same. You’re a great writer. Nella is a lucky girl!
Anonymous says
I’ve just read your story and I want to say thank-you for such a beautiful story. You have honestly approached a subject that is often taboo and I applaud you for your efforts. Thank you and congratulations on your beautiful family.
Anonymous says
I’ve just read your story and I want to say thank-you for such a beautiful story. You have honestly approached a subject that is often taboo and I applaud you for your efforts. Thank you and congratulations on your beautiful family.
Anonymous says
thank you! thank you for sharing. I came across your story through facebook and just couldn’t stop reading. The tears and the smiles passed alternately over my face. Your girls are very very beautiful. I am amazed at your strength. It emanates even over the atlantic over to Germany. All the best to you and your loved ones.
Anonymous says
thank you! thank you for sharing. I came across your story through facebook and just couldn’t stop reading. The tears and the smiles passed alternately over my face. Your girls are very very beautiful. I am amazed at your strength. It emanates even over the atlantic over to Germany. All the best to you and your loved ones.
Sarah says
Just another stranger who can’t leave without saying that I cried reading your post and thank you for your raw honesty. Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl.
kelli says
This touched my heart so much, thank you for sharing this beautiful story with us, i am speechless for how amazing it was to read, and for how true to your emotions you were. You have been blessed with a gift, a gift that will change your life in so many positive ways, thank you for sharing, I wish you and your family many years of love and laughter
Kristen {RAGE against the MINIVAN} says
I’m not sure I’ve ever been through so many tissues reading a blog post before. Your daughter, your story, and the telling of it . . . absolutely beautiful. Your family is radiant.
Julia says
I have never, in my whole life, read a more sincere, beautiful, amazing birth story. Thank you for sharing this. I had puddles of tears when I finished reading. Congratulations to you and your family, for this beautiful little bundle entering your life. -Julia
Anonymous says
While I was reading your story I cried and cried….Thank you so much for sharing it….Your baby is beatiful…My daughter was born on June 2,2009 also with down syndrome…She is our little angel….
Nold Family says
You have a beautiful story and shared it so eloquently and honestly. Thank you and congratulations on your sweet, beautiful family!
Co Captain aka Mommy says
Wow…what a beautiful story. Your girl’s are so precious. Thank you for sharing.
Vanessa says
What an incredible birth story and your little girl is absolutely stunning! You are one blessed mama. Having two girls is wonderful! Enjoy! 🙂
Bobbi-Lynn says
You don’t know me, I also came to your blog through a friend, and I just had to comment. I sit here crying at your story, first sad tears then happy. You are a beautiful woman, with an incredibly beautiful family. God has blessed you all with your perfect little angel, and she is blessed to have you.
How fortunate you are to have such a loving, supportive group of family and friends. Your perfect little baby will be so loved and adored, so she was definitely born to the right family.
I will keep your family in my prayers, your story is so inspiring, and touching.
How wonderful that you can share your emotions so honestly, I am sure you have helped many other women who may be going through similar situations.
God bless you all.
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Theresa says
Dear Kelle,
I just gave birth to my beautiful daughter two weeks after you gave birth to Nella. My dear Mary Catherine was born on February 12, 2010. My husband and I also learned shortly after her birth that she has down syndrome. I find myself coming back to your story again and again as it articulates many of the feelings I had . . . the surreal feeling . . . the inner conflict. And most importantly, the love. I love my darling angel more than anything. She is my youngest child…with 6 older siblings. I felt that your story was very healing for me. Thank you for your perspective, for your faith, and for your honestly. It was so raw and real and immediate. What a great storyteller you are. And your story was so worth telling. I will keep you and your beautiful family in my prayers.
Theresa
incognitomom says
I’m crying. As I read this I felt like I was feeling everything you felt. You are a beautiful woman and mother. Nella is lucky and so are you. Count your blessings for those friends who held you up during what must have been the most painful time of your life. Welcome to the world dear Nella Cordelia!
Anonymous says
wow.. i felt that to the core of my being… what an amazing journey enriching and empowering all in one..
.. enjoy your princesses..
Megan says
you don’t know me, i don’t know you, we will never ever meet, but your story today has touched me so deeply. your honest and open feelings and emotions, and the fact that through all this you have remained so strong. i salute you for you have been blessed with a kind heart and the most beautiful family.
Bless you!
XX
Plushrush says
Beautiful! This is the true meaning of love – when we are face to face with ourself and we choose to look beyond it. Thank you for sharing your heart.
Louise Williams says
that is just so beautiful, so honest, so raw. Thank you for sharing your story with us, I feel priviledged to have been let in. Your little girls are beautiful and they are both very blessed to be surrounded by such love. xx
Sue says
Thank you for sharing your beautifully honest story! You are truly blessed!!
Kimberly Jane says
Beautiful story, beautifully written, beautiful Nella.
Kristin at My Art and the Mom in Me says
There are almost no words that I can write to express what reading that meant to me. You are an amazing woman, honest and true to your heart..Thank you for sharing Nella’s story. She is beautiful.. and you are so very blessed.
A friend of mine shared me a link to your blog.. and I am so glad she did.
Laura says
You are an amazing family, Nella is lovely, and I enjoyed your post immensely~it made me cry! Thanks for sharing~Laura
Laura says
You are an amazing family, Nella is lovely, and I enjoyed your post immensely~it made me cry! Thanks for sharing~Laura
Anonymous says
What a sweet, sweet little girl! She’s a miracle and is beautiful in every way! I have a 3 year old niece with Downs Syndrome and she is so fun whenever I get a chance to see her. Thank you for sharing your story. 🙂
Anonymous says
What a sweet, sweet little girl! She’s a miracle and is beautiful in every way! I have a 3 year old niece with Downs Syndrome and she is so fun whenever I get a chance to see her. Thank you for sharing your story. 🙂
Jodi says
You don’t know me, I don’t know you but I found your blog via a link on a scrapbooking forum and read your story. I am sitting, crying, praising God for your raw honest emotions, for your sharing, for your beauty that is your daughter. Thank you. What an amazing story, so well told and simply so beautiful! May God bless your beautiful Family!
Olivia says
As so many have said already, what a beautiful, raw, humbling story. Telling your story has allowed your little angel Nella to touch the hearts of so many. She is divine. God Bless you and your gorgeous family and the beautiful life you are destined to have together.
Anonymous says
this was one of the most incredible, beautiful things i’ve ever read. congratulations on the birth of your sweet, sweet baby!
Anonymous says
This is so beautiful. My daughter is sleeping but I just want to go in there and snuggle her because you truly reminded me how beautiful motherhood is.
LucyFiftyThree says
This is such a beautiful story. I realize you’re living it everyday, but you made it real for me too and I admire your courage to let it all out. Your daughters are gorgeous.
Anonymous says
my bother has downs syndrome. he is now 23 years old, 18 months younger than myself and my other brother and i would NEVER change him for the world. he is perfect in every way and he makes us see how to enjoy the small things. iam going to forward this onto my mum because i am sure she would of felt very similar thingws to you all those years ago….. i am sure this will make her smile 🙂
Kelly says
i have read, re-read, re-read and re-read your story over the past two days. beauty-full. bless you, your brett, your lainey and your NELLA…
Kim Lindsay says
Kelle, I’m in tears… again… your story so closely mirrors our own recent journey that I have chills.
We welcomed our baby girl on December 21st, 2009; she too has Down syndrome.
You perfectly describe the wave of emotions and feelings that a new parent goes through. Shock, denial, anger, grief, acceptance, hope, but most of all love.
Minutes after we were given the news, we were taken into a room and were told “there were other options” if we didn’t think we were the kind of parents who could handle a baby with Down syndrome. As I held my newborn baby girl in my arms — the same baby I carried and loved for the past 9 months I felt an unbelievable rage — how dare you!
There were many times while I was pregnant when I wondered if one could have enough love for the second child as you do for your first; this was the defining moment. I gazed at my baby girl:
“Love me. I know I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
There was never any doubt, this child was given to us for a reason. A squeezed her so tight; mommy’s here, always.
She has already taught us so much and opened our minds and hearts.
The moment our 2-year old daughter laid eyes on her baby sister, she fell in love too.
Our baby-girl’s name is Kendyl, but in our home, she is more often called “bunny”.
Congratulations from our family to yours!
Janean says
in short: thank you for being honest. you will help thousands as those of us who read your story pass it on in the days, weeks, months ahead.
(hugs to you and your beautiful family)
Janean says
in short: thank you for being honest. you will help thousands as those of us who read your story pass it on in the days, weeks, months ahead.
(hugs to you and your beautiful family)
Anonymous says
What a beautiful and inspiring story! God sure has blessed Nella with a beautiful and loving mother. I believe God gave you and your husband Lainey to be the big sister to Nella, you can tell in her eyes she is so in love with Nella and will always be there for her. WOW, I will definitely be passing this story on so others can be inspired like I was.
Anonymous says
What a beautiful and inspiring story! God sure has blessed Nella with a beautiful and loving mother. I believe God gave you and your husband Lainey to be the big sister to Nella, you can tell in her eyes she is so in love with Nella and will always be there for her. WOW, I will definitely be passing this story on so others can be inspired like I was.
ZDub says
BEAUTIFUL.
You have two gorgeous girls.
Thank you for this.
Anonymous says
After 33 years, my Emily is still the brightest light in my life. That light continues to guide me every day of my life. Nella will do the same for you. When people comment on how amazed they are that I was able to teach her to do certain things, I laugh and say that she has taught me much more than I can ever teach her.
Monica says
This is the most beautiful story….so much sweetness. It broke my little heart for you and by the end it was mended. Congratulations on your beautiful baby! She is so lucky she has you to be her Mama!
p.s. Beautiful photographs.
Anonymous says
Truely Truely Truely Beautiful. How blessed you are!
KylO says
What a beautiful story. I too am blessed to have two girls, 15 & 12 (Annie w/ Ds). I remember the day she was born like it was yesterday, but yet a lifetime ago. Thank you so much for reminding me. You have a beautiful family.
Kyle
Anonymous says
From one mom of a girl with Down Syndrome to another……there is no day that can compare to the one when you realize God gave you an incredible gift…..It’s never been a burden to love someone so amazing, patient, kind and fierce! My heart aches for you when I think of all the wonderful years ahead for you. Each milestone is a celebration. (we had a 40lb. party when she finally hit the big 40!). Each day is a gift! Lainey will learn to treasure the best parts of life and ignore the drama as my oldest did. Through all the struggles, (and surgeries) I’ve never forgotten what a beautiful, bright blessing my daughter is. It’s been 15 years since my little miracle entered my life (I was 23!) and not a single day goes by when she doesn’t teach me more than I teach her. All the best to you and your family. The best is yet to come!!!!
Rachael Smith
“I’d rather had 30 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special”
Sandi H. says
Beautifully written & wonderful photos.. I cried all the way through. I have two daughters as well (one is 6 and the other 2), so I could feel your emotions as I read. I also fell more and more in love with little Nella as I continued to read. She is so beautiful – gosh I love her little smile. The story and photos will always be treasured, and it looks like you have touched many others with your words. Nella is in good hands…. God knows what he is doing.
Jennie says
I don’t even know how I ended up on your blog, couldn’t even tell you…but I am so blessed to have been lead here. Thank you. THANK YOU! For being you, for being Nella’s mother, for your beauty in spirit and in pen. You are an absolute inspiration. She *is* perfect.
Cathy says
This post is amazing. It’s just so beautiful. I don’t know the words to say.
Robin says
Kelle:
There is so much I want to say to you. The first thing is thank you….what a beautiful recounting of your Nella’s birth day.
Though we have never met, face to face that is, (because I know you only from your posts)
we share being mothers, mothers of daughters, women who love all the precious beautiful important little details, all the beauty that is out there, women who love being mothers ( and for me, love being a grandmother) women who love the men who are responsible for our being mothers and the children who decorate our hearts and and lives and are a part always of your souls.
I don’t want to minimize in anyway your initial pain and feeling when you first met Nella and knew she was different than the baby you were waiting for. Because I don’t have a child or grandchild with Downs Syndrome I won’t pretend to act as though I really understand all you are settling in to, but what I can tell you, because I am older and have lived a bit more life with all it’s joys and sorrows is that all children have “special needs” and give you grief and bring you challenges and at the same time moments when it feels like your heart can’t possibly hold all the love and joy and sheer happiness they bring to you. Not all children’s special needs are given a title like DS, but they all require our most passionate love for them, and God’s love coming through us as mothers and fathers for these dear precious little people entrusted to us. They are His first and really just given to us for safe keeping to hold and love and shape into people who are kind and caring and passionate themselves about what really matters. I can tell from your writing that you are that kind of mother. I will be praying for all God’s blessings and mercies for you and your family as you continue on this path of life that is set before you. And you are right about what you said about staying in Holland….or Italy even for that matter…..why, my goodness there is a whole beautiful wonderful world out there and don’t stop until you have seen it all…it is all a gift from God for us. Thank you Kelle, you are a wonderful woman and i have appreciated getting to “know” you!:))
Fowler family says
Wow, what a touching story. Thank you so much for sharing, and not minding that complete strangers like myself read. I wept as I read your account today.
My first son was born 5 years ago with a delivery-room surprise cleft palate, and I remember experiencing such similar emotions. I too grieved the loss of the perfect baby I had imagined all those 9 months. Time heals the heart, and I wouldn’t trade my boys (they both ended up being born with clefts) for anything in the world.
Jo Randall says
I’m from the UK and found a link to your blog on an American forum…
Your hdifficult yet honest story has had me in tears this evening. I wish you all the very best of luck for the future and send my congratulations to you and your family on the birth of your beautiful baby girl, Nella.
Anonymous says
God picked you Kelle!! Thank you for sharing your amazing story. Dell Evans wrote a book about her D.S. child that you should read! I read it when I was in high school and actually wished when I grew up that God would give me a special baby like that….Dell will inspire you as you have inspired all of us! Thank you for touching my soul with your brave, beautiful, miraculous story. God Bless Your whole family…that baby girl is going to bring you more joy than you can even conceive of right now:) Lots of love and prayers coming your way!!
Anonymous says
I have a sweet little “bunny” like you whose name is Madelyn Grace and we are about to celebrate her 4th birthday. She is nothing but a blessing to our family! She brings out the best in every person she meets. You are truly blessed! You did an amazing job painting a window for us to look through to view that moment in your life. I felt the same way! Enjoy every moment of your journey! Thank you for sharing!
Raining Pearls says
This is the beginning of a love story. Your daughters are beautiful and I’m already in love 🙂
Anonymous says
someone shared your story with me… im so glad they did.. thankyou
Anonymous says
someone shared your story with me… im so glad they did.. thankyou
Anonymous says
someone shared your story with me… im so glad they did.. thankyou
Catie says
Wow! May God continue to bless you and your beautiful family! The way you have written this is truly amazing and the photos your friends took of your gorgeous family are simply stunning; such a precious memento of this special time in your lives.
I am deeply touched by your story and wish you and your family nothing but love! Enjoy the enrichment Nella has brought to your lives! xox
Krista says
I want to hold you…and cry with you, even though my pain has LONG disappeared. You’re story is like ours and I hope that you can find encouragement in it as I have found comfort in yours.
Kristen says
“Welcome to Holland”
By Emily Perl Kingsley, 1987. All rights reserved.
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away…because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss. But…if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
Kristen says
“Welcome to Holland”
By Emily Perl Kingsley, 1987. All rights reserved.
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away…because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss. But…if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
Melissa Fontes says
I do not know you…my dear friend sent me a link to your blog…I have never read something more wonderful and beautiful and so perfectly spoken in all of my life. I have just finished bawling my eyes out because I feel like I just relived the birth of my Bailey through your words, even though it was 7 years ago! My prayers are with you during this transition. I remember like it was yesterday…I dont think you ever forget. I dont think i ever want to. Pain and all…there was never a truer and more beautiful and eye opening time in my life. A time where God allowed me to get to my lowest so that he could lift me and my family up to our greatest! I wish I was as eloquent with my words as you have been .. and so soon afterwards…you are truly amazing! May God Bless each and every day for you and your family! He has great and mighty things in store for you on this great journey!!!
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
All my love,
Melissa Fontes
Louisville, KY
melissafontes@hotmail.com
The Rambler says
How do you thank someone you never met for such an amazing expression of love? I am so very truly thankful for having stumbled upon your post.
Both your daughters are absolutely beautiful. Beautiful.
May your lives be long, may it be fun, and may it be your cup always runneth over, even when the grout may look not so nice 🙂
My very very best to you and your family.
Stine says
What a beautiful story! And the most adoring pictures of the little wonder.
Tears are streaming down my face as I’m reading. You have to be the strongest mum ever as you right after birth manage to see the new little person, and not just the fact the your girl had Down Syndrom. I wish the best for you and your family!
tara pollard pakosta says
You are an amazing writer and mother! nella is beautiful! And you are completely blessed, that baby is going to teach the world how to love! Congratulations!
tara
Christine Wilson says
I can’t see through my tears as I write this, so I am sorry for any typos. What a wonderful story and so meaningful to me. I just had a baby boy on 2/5 and my genetic testing indicated that there might be something wrong. We decided not to do an amnio, but I spent many months imagining what I would do if he were born with DS. I hope I would have had the ability to face all my feelings and to embrace all the love that would have come. I wish you and your family all the best- you are truly a beautiful family!
Melissa says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful, honest, experience with others. It is the most heart-wrenching, yet heart-warming story I have ever heard.
Melissa says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful, honest, experience with others. It is the most heart-wrenching, yet heart-warming story I have ever heard.
Anonymous says
I don’t know you but after reading your birth story I had to write you. It has been my pleasure, great joy to work with children with disabilities for more than 10 years! Your story has touched myheart so deep. Thank you for speaking out your heart in love. Your sister is right, you where given such a wonderfully beautiful gift.
Anonymous says
I don’t know you but after reading your birth story I had to write you. It has been my pleasure, great joy to work with children with disabilities for more than 10 years! Your story has touched myheart so deep. Thank you for speaking out your heart in love. Your sister is right, you where given such a wonderfully beautiful gift.
Anna says
I was linked to your post from another blog. Your story brought tears to my eyes. Congratulations on your beautiful, adorable daughters.
Anonymous says
I think you were screwed over by someone. There were lots of ways that you could have found out that she had Down Syndrome.
You have heart than I do, I could never raise a kid like that. I think I would have run.
Amy says
This is the most beautiful, inspiring birth story. Thank you so much for sharing. And congratulations on your perfect little Nella.
Sarah says
Wow – what a moving story. You tell it so beautifully. Congratulations on your beautiful girls. My heart goes out to you and your family.
Jeannett says
thank you for your transparency. and your raw and unabashed love.
i can relate in many ways. different, but the same.
http://gibsonsurprise.blogspot.com/2010/02/perfection.html
In Nevada says
As with many of us, I love your blog. The first time I read it … oh, how it took me back to those first few days. Really, I would say it also gave some validity to shared emotions. Now a year later, I would say – we have adjusted to our new world. That being said, we have great days and forget about her diagnosis and than other times it is rammed back into our reality. I have yet to figure out the real balance but instead just deal with it day by day and enjoy the wonder of pIf I may, I would like to share some of our experiences with you over the past year. I am sure yours will be different but, you may appreciate some foreshadowing. Kenley is our only daughter so, I don’t have any comparison and everything about parenthood is new. We love that she slept through the night early on and until her first birthday she kept that up. All of sudden, she developed some nighttime anxiety. We developed a new routine and she is back on track. I think her ability to sleep helps us keep our sanity. Together, we exercise as a family. That means, she does her exercises and we do ours. She enjoys going for hikes with us and takes long naps in the backpack. My husband puts her in the backpack to wash the bottles and she loves it. We read to her and do flash cards every day. She enjoys it but, prefers to eat the books and cards. She picks up her toys and rolls around for them. Sadly, she lets the dogs lick her face. Although, I don’t like it – she does and I can’t deny it sometimes. She sits up to play. We built a special table for her out of a mandarin orange box. My husband made the leg space a little larger and used his duck tape (every mans tool) to add non slip drawer liner to the top portion. It works great! Because her arms are a little shorter she can sit up and play with toys at her level. Yes, at times she tries to eat this too. She does things at her own pace and we celebrate her accomplishments. One the first things we taught her was to clap. When she does something exciting or accomplishes something, we all clap together. It always elicits a smile. Last night, we out to for Mexican food and she enjoyed the beans as much as we did.
We certainly deal with medical issues but, who doesn’t. No ones body is perfect and so, I try not to stress about her medical conditions. We just deal with them but, I have found many doctors have limited expertise when it come to Down Syndrome and therefore self education has served us well.
Here is what I have come to realize over the past year. Kenley will be different because she is an individual. We will raise her to capitalize on her strengths and love her for the person she is and not defined by her extra chromosome. We plan to take her skiing and mainstream her through school. I know there will be challenges but, when are there not. We just happen to have a window into her future. I know we have the power to work with her, give her opportunities and shower her with love. You do too.
If you have a chance, take a look at my website http://www.downsyndromebutnotout.com. arenthood.
chic080157 says
You have been chosen for this precious girl..I know from reading this thru my tears that you will all she will ever need..God Bless you and Bunny…
Deb 🙂
Angi B says
Congratulations on the birth of your little sweet pea! Thank you for writing, made my husband and I cry tears of understanding and happiness. You have a gift and I hope you continue to share. She’s perfect! angibusick.blogspot.com
da mama says
I just cried for about an hour before I could leave you these comments. I have a two year old with Down syndrome. He is our light, and our life. We have 4 little boys, he is our youngest. He is the most amazing child! You will love every second of her life, and it will help you appreciate the life of your other child so much more. She is beautiful! I cannot believe how similar our stories are!! You will find that there are sooooo many others who felt JUST like you…After all, we are all human! I still cry, I still have my moments; even though I know how wonderful he is! I have a blog too….not as intense as yours, but it is http://www.lovefordownsyndrome.blogspot.com You can meet my beautiful little one!
Rebecca says
Your baby is adorable. Thank you for sharing her birth story.
da mama says
I just wanted o add one more thing…Not only are you a very special mom, but your Lainey is a very special sister! Their love is mystical…I can tell you that my boys are incredible with my son! I cannot describe it. But they are instinctively his care-takers, each in their own way…and everyone who takes the time to watch our family recognizes this miraculas, unconditional display of love…and they always comment on how amazing my boys are with him…it was just built into their souls. I am sure that you have seen this in Lainey…and it will continue through out the rest of her life! God bless!
da mama says
OK…one more time!! I wrote the name of my blog wrong..it is http://www.love4downsyndrome.blogspot.com
Thank you!
The Blog of Finleypotamus and His Little Kierbear says
I am here for the first time and I am crying tears of joy. What a blessed family you have! It’s perfect.
acdc080109 says
What an incredible story. Congratulations on your beautiful daughters.
Anonymous says
I want to say Thank You for your amazing birth story of your beautiful Nella. I cried through your story since it brought up so many feelings and emotions that I couldn’t express 5 1/2 years ago when our Gracie was born. Her birth story is very similar. Our Gracie was born with Down Syndrome and was in the NICU for 3 weeks. The hardest 3 weeks of my life – I just wanted her home. I thank you for being so open and honest. And I want you to know even though I was exactly where you were 5 1/2 years ago emotionally – it is a beautiful journey you have started. Celebrate every milestone she achieves but most of all celebrate her. God has given you a very special girl and she will wrap everyone around her little finger. Thanks for sharing, it has meant the world to me.
Chris from MN
Anonymous says
I’m not one for leaving comments, but I stumbled across your blog and needless to say, I’m hooked. So here I am, leaving a comment….
“love me, please love me. I’m not what you expected but please love me.” this will stay with me forever.
There are a few ways that could have gone. I cry at the thought that those eyes might not have been met with someone who would love her and marvel at her the way that you do.
To me, Nella is pure proof that God exists. She is beautiful and perfect in her own perfectly beautiful way. God handpicked you to be her Mama because He knew that expected or not, you would Love. That. Girl.
How lucky is she?!
And gorgeous?! Those eyes that you describe and capture in your pictures. So full of life! I think that she is going to bring you levels of happiness that you didn’t even know existed!
You will be stronger because of her and she will reach her full potential because of you.
I have to admit, I feel a little corny writing this, I don’t even know you! But as a new mom to a 5 month old, and I’ve learned that there is a whole universe of love that I didn’t even know existed! And it seems that your love universe has a very special Moon Baby in it!
Anyway, if you read this, please know that there is one more person in the world who is cheering Nella on!
Just Shelley says
Dearest Kelle,
I stumbled upon your story from someone else’s blog. The first time I read it, tears streamed down my cheeks and I was so engulfed with all the emotions evoked from your writings. Reading your story made me feel as if I was right there, to feel your pain, to feel your joy, to feel your confusion. Thank you for sharing so honestly. It was gut wrenching.
I’m reading this for the second time now and I can still feel the powerful emotions.
You are one special lady Kelle. I’m so glad you have Brett. Real glad.
Been reading your blog. You capture amazing photos, tell amazing stories – I feel the lurvve….
all across the seas right here to a little country called Malaysia.
I so wish I could meet you one day – I would give you a great big hug.
May you continue to find strength, courage and joy in God.
Much love,
Shelley
Anonymous says
I have some indicators for DS with my baby boy. I spent so many hours crying and just in utter shock… nothing is for sure yet, but I know that not everyone is destined to have a “normal” child…I am struggling with the possibility of being “chosen” to live this “different life”, I admire your courage and sincerity…it has helped me a lot.
Trixie in Kenya says
I just cried and cried. I feel privileged to be let into your life and want to thank you for sharing from your heart. Can’t wait to read more. May you and your family continue to be blessed.
Susan says
Praise be to God that you choose life and are experiencing God’s love and graces through Nella. Unfortunately, over 90% of women who find out prior to birth that their baby has D.S. abort their child from God. May your story reach them, and the Doctors and genetic counselors who advise them to commit such a tragedy.
God’s plans are always bigger and better than our plans!
Jules says
This is the most beautiful life changing story I have ever read. I am a mother to 2 boys and you are strong and beautiful. Your story really hit home. Thank you for sharing this with us. Your girls are perfect and so beautiful.
xoxo Julie
Anonymous says
I was forwarded this blog from a friend at work, as I read this I cried. I read it at work while my intern was busy teaching my class and I couldn’t help but think of how special your daughter is. I am in the fortunate place to be a teacher of students with special needs, I have taught some amazing students all with a disability and know that everyday I am here I am making a difference. The students who have touched my life the most have been two students who both had down syndrome. Both girls had hearts of gold, minds that were full of curiosity and brilliance and a compassionate side that tickled me everyday I walked into class. Both girls are now out of school and remain involved with special olympics and are working- they are breaking down walls every day. You are so blessed to have this little girl that you will find will teach you so much, life is so precious and sometimes we learn this through our children.
You are an amazing writer and as a teacher of students with special needs your ability to express yourself through writing will be and is such a special gift that you will learn to share with so many parents that you will meet that will need you.
Thank you for sharing this story- Julie Lawson
Anonymous says
I was forwarded this blog from a friend at work, as I read this I cried. I read it at work while my intern was busy teaching my class and I couldn’t help but think of how special your daughter is. I am in the fortunate place to be a teacher of students with special needs, I have taught some amazing students all with a disability and know that everyday I am here I am making a difference. The students who have touched my life the most have been two students who both had down syndrome. Both girls had hearts of gold, minds that were full of curiosity and brilliance and a compassionate side that tickled me everyday I walked into class. Both girls are now out of school and remain involved with special olympics and are working- they are breaking down walls every day. You are so blessed to have this little girl that you will find will teach you so much, life is so precious and sometimes we learn this through our children.
You are an amazing writer and as a teacher of students with special needs your ability to express yourself through writing will be and is such a special gift that you will learn to share with so many parents that you will meet that will need you.
Thank you for sharing this story- Julie Lawson
Shelley says
I’m sorry but I must comment. I don’t know you but I am sitting here with tears pouring out of my eyes. My four year old keeps asking me why I’m crying. This is a sweet sweet post. You have such wonderful supportive friends and such a perfect family. She is beautiful and I think your story is amazing. Plus, you are one hot mamma. I love the pics of you and her wrapped in the blanket skin to skin and you’re outside. Good job and I might be blog peeping in the future bc you are such a beautiful writer and this is such a sweet story.
Adriana Stock says
Beautiful story. Beautiful baby. Best wishes for your family!
Desiree Hayes says
With tears streaming down my face I want to say thank you for sharing your beautiful birth story! Congratulations on your new precious girl!
Dag says
So beautiful, your daughters, your family, and story. It is this love that transcends time as we know it, and is eternal. Thank you.
Bill says
Totally and completely emotionally drained, tears flowing down my face, about a gallon, of love, despair, hope and unconditional love all of which you put into words that transcend the computer. Your family is extraordinary and I have been blessed to read this, to share your pain, and your utter and complete joy. I have only a prayer that God bless you continuously and that other people would learn from you example. Oh and your dad, one awesome man. I am guessing that your husband is that as well.
Bill says
Totally and completely emotionally drained, tears flowing down my face, about a gallon, of love, despair, hope and unconditional love all of which you put into words that transcend the computer. Your family is extraordinary and I have been blessed to read this, to share your pain, and your utter and complete joy. I have only a prayer that God bless you continuously and that other people would learn from you example. Oh and your dad, one awesome man. I am guessing that your husband is that as well.
Anonymous says
,,,another child is born,,,sent from the angels and God above,,,to a mama who will continue to wrap her heart and arms around her precious child,,,and to a papa who will maintain the garage making it the tidiest garage in town,,,and to a big sister who loves her baby sister unconditionally, who will always offer up a hug and a kiss even if its not wished for,,,and so nella’s story has begun,,,she is beautiful and the world is a better place for her birth!
Nelson Family says
This blog was suggessted to me by my sister-in-law.
I am in awh by your story of such a beautiful girl.
You see I too recently gave birth to a beautiful girl with Down Syndrome.And as I sit here commenting with my baby by my side the song Baby of mine is playing. I love this song and I think of my little one.
I am so glad there are people out there that I can relate to and can say with all my heart They are precious little children and we are so lucky to have them in our lives. To be blessed with such a sweet spirit. I don’t know what I did to deserve such a precious thing but I am greatful for her and saying I wouldn’t trade her for anything just doesn’t quit cut it. There just don’t seem to be words for it. My baby girl (Tily) was born Dec.30,09.
If you want to see a picture of my precious one my blog is dnnelsonfamily@blogspot.com
Thankyou for your story. It touched me so.
Roberta says
Kelle, my name is Roberta, from Brazil. Congratulations for your story and for your girls.
I cried so much reading your post!! I have a 2 year old girl and I am pregnant of another girl. And hava a mommy blog in Brazil, just like you. And thoght about how lucky you are. God knows exactly what he does.
Congratulations again and the best for your hole beatiful family.
Roberta
http://www.meuprojetinhodevida.blogspot.com
carra3 says
Hi, What a beautiful story and amazing pictures. I found your blog through Pinwheels. I have a little girl, Hannah, who is 4 with DS. Looking at the photos and reading your words brings back memories of her birth and her sweet little baby face. She is doing great so much fun to be around and raise, My family is so lucky to have her. Enjoy your beautiful family. Carol
Jana Kunz says
Wow, that was emotional. Thank you for sharing your story, it was beautiful.
Kiwi The Kreator says
Thanx for this…your raw honesty and sharing both of the girls’ beautiful smiles! Be blessed!
Beth says
I don’t know if I can say anything that hasn’t already been said by one of your readers, but I was touched so deeply by your story. Raw, honest, intense and amazing. I cried for you, I smiled for you — and I sent a link to everyone I know! Thank you for reminding me how important my family is — and for touching my heart. You are an amazing mom. Congratulations on your gorgeous family. You are blessed.
Elaine says
I cried tears of anguish, tears of joy, and tears of empathy for you all and your darling little baby…..I wish you all well, and know that your journey with your girls and family will be full of joy and laughter and tears…tears that are shared with an entire nation. god bless you all xxx
Samantha Suzuki Photography says
Thank you for sharing this. You have reminded me that God’s blessings are always perfect, not always what we expect, but always perfect. Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful, perfect daughter.
Anonymous says
Who knows if you’ll ever see this (wow a lot of comments), but I wanted to show you a post about some sisters I know. http://janalaurene.blogspot.com/2010/03/jennifer.html
Emily Rathke says
That was my story, too. 4 years ago. I cried like a baby as I “lived” through yours. You captured it in words better than I’ve been able to. THANK YOU.
Kylie says
Thankyou so much for sharing the beginning with us. May your story andlove continue to grow with your little bunny – she is beautiful and presious and perfect.
I think that I cried through the whole thing – your story is so similar to friends of ours that had a Downs Syndrome baby – you just have to change your two girls to their two boys. Families of DS babies are gifts from god.
Enjoy her and yur new life together.
Kristin says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful, agonizing, amazing, story. My life is better because of it.
Alicia says
That was beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story and being so honest.
Heidi says
My twin boys were almost born at 6 months of age and the drs told us all the things that could go wrong. They put me on bedrest in the hospital for five weeks. I can relate to the loss of a dream. I wanted a “normal” pregnancy and a “normal” birthing experience. It didn’t happen. It was a weird experience being their mother and not caring that the drs had advised against holding them. The boys were born 2 months early and looked more like aliens than humans. The drs had said they could be deaf, blind, have cerebral palsey and a myriad of other problems. In the first couple of days as I looked at them in their little incubators I didn’t feel particularly attached to them. I too had an older child at home that I wanted to be with. The boys were released after 3 weeks in the hospital and I couldn’t be happier with my life or how its turned out. They are going to be celebrating their 8th birthdays next month and they are just fine in the health department. But I remember feeling very much like you described in your excellently told birth story. It made me cry and brought back those memories that I had of my experience. When you take home babies like I did the drs don’t give you a clean bill of health. You don’t know what you are getting into. So you take ’em home and love them the best you can. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you and your family a life filled with happiness!
Herb of Grace says
I just read this post and cried and cried. I am sending the link to a dear friend who is going to CHOP tomorrow to deliver her daughter who has been diagnosed with a severe heart condition. I know that it will speak to her heart as she prepares for a new and beautiful adventure also.
e.brooke says
Thank you for sharing this! My own heart feels more complete just having read this story! I have never cried this hard for the joy of a perfect stranger and her beautiful baby. All the world needs this real story of love!
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hope4jackson says
Your story is so moving, so real and touching, thank you for sharing. May God Bless your family
K says
loved this story
your daughter is so beautiful and so are you – inside and out
Jenny says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Congratulations on the birth of your gorgeous daughter.
Liz Krueger says
Tears of grief, joy, love and happiness cascaded down my cheeks as I read your story. My daughter is 4 – I’ve been meaning to write a letter to her in her baby book for 4 years…after reading your post the words flooded my mind and I found a way to capture my love for her on paper. Such an enormous tast, I was never brave enough to attempt it … until I read your post and was inspired by your mommy love pouring out. I burst with undying love for my beautiful and healthy children, as well as my husband for bringing me such joy through our babies. Not sure I’ve cried that much in one sitting in years.
I am forever changed as a mom and a NICU nurse from your courageous, honest and loving words. Thank you for giving a voice to LIFE, LOVE and GRIEF.
Bless you and your BEAUTIFUL daughters….they are perfect.
Anonymous says
I cried reading your post. I had a triple blood test and was told I am 1/59 chance of having a baby with down syndrome. I became worried of subsequent tests that I was advised by the doctor to take -2nd stage scanning, amnio etc.
I have been anxious last two days. Your story inspired me that no matter what, the baby one chromosome extra or not is meant to be loved.
Thank you for your story.
Nur Suraya
Malaysia
Simone says
One of the most amazing pieces of writing I have ever read.
Congratulations to you and your beautiful family on Nella’s arrival.
🙂
Anonymous says
Wow! What a touching story. Thanks so much for sharing. I am at the point of my life where my husband and I are debating having a third child or not. Part of me has felt that I have two perfect children. What if we have one with problems. I will mess everything up. Your story makes me look at the posibility of that situation in another light. I would not be messing it up, I just may be a chosen one. Chosen to raise a very special child. Like you are. It sounds to me like God did a great job choosing you and your husband and daughter for sweet little Nella. She is so beautiful!
Marie says
Dear Kelle,
The emotional part of your birth story is so similar to mine. Nella is absolutely beautiful. My little Max is 2 1/2 years old, he’s my second son and I started to understand my life’s purpose the day he was born. I can assure you that Nella is just like Lainey. Just allow time to run slower and to sometimes stand still. It’s OK and so wonderful. You will savour every moment to it’s fullest.
The most profound and uplifting thing anyone said to us when Max was born came from my husband’s great-aunt May, who had already lost both her adult children: “You will never be lonely”. I am passing on this message to you.
Nella will bring you a deeper sense of joy, because everything she will accomplish will be as miraculous as unexpected. And trust me, she will be an accomplished little girl. Bless your heart, Kelle, and bless your family.
Marie Dunn
Burlington, ON
Canada
Beth, Dave and Cori says
wow – what an amazing story! So beautiful and honest and full of love -I’m in tears! life is so beautiful yes… God bless all of you. Nella Cordelia is such a beautiful name for SUCH a beautiful little girl! Thank you for sharing your story!
Tiffany says
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. God bless you, well He already has, but may He continue to bless you and your wonderful family.
Tiffany says
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. God bless you, well He already has, but may He continue to bless you and your wonderful family.
Michelle Rabin says
Thank you for sharing such a personal story in order to make a difference. May God Bless you all and may your life be filled with special memories. Each life is a blessing and your children are surely blessed to have you as their mother.
Meck says
this story broke my heart and then fixed it again. thank you so much for sharing this.
Keowdie says
Congratulations! You have two beautiful daughters.
I have served children with developmental disabilities as a music therapist for 11 years, and I just have to say that you must be quite an amazing Mom. For God to bless you with a child with special needs? I don’t believe that He chooses those families lightly. He gave your family a little girl who will love more readily, more completely than anyone without DS ever could. My experience with kids who have DS has taught me that they are the closest thing to true angels that we have here on Earth.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful (and very honest) story.
Homesick Cajun says
I don’t know many Mother’s that would admit so freely the range of emotions that you went through like you did. This was so brave of you! This is one of the most beautiful, touching stories I’ve ever read.
I wish you would write a book, there are so many Mother’s out there that need to know that the feelings, the emotions that they’re going through are normal. And this entry say’s exactly that!
Nella is beautiful! Congrat’s on the addition to your family!
Tricia says
Absolutely beautiful. I’m in tears.
Rachel says
Kellie~ Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I cried but I’m so glad I was able to read this. Congratulations on the birth of you beautiful daughter!
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Kate says
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. The way you write, the emotion that comes through–it is so touching. Nella is so beautiful and so precious and I know the love she makes you feel is only the beginning of her powerful presence in this world.
Drama Momma says
Thank you for your open, raw and honest sharing of the most real, perfect and intimate moment of your lives. You are so blessed. You and your girls are beautiful from the inside out.
Anonymous says
What an incredibly raw, passionate, beautiful story. It brought tears to my eyes. Such a beautiful family. Thank you.
Anonymous says
Congratulations on your beautiful girls! I have never read anything so full of love before in my life. Thank you for your honesty and the beautiful pictures. They, as well as your family are a treasure.
Jill/OH
Flmgodog says
Oh my goodness! I was not expecting this story at all. I lost twins about two weeks ago and my friend sent me over here through another blog friend, on and on and on.
What an amazing story. I am glad you have your perfect family!
Talk about Rocky eyes…my eyes are so red from Nella’s birth story. Wow! All the best!
Ida says
Beautiful story 🙂 And really nice pictures. You have two beatiful daughters! 🙂
Love from Norway
Anonymous says
You have touched my life. Thank you, and congratulations on your gorgeous girls. You’re an inspiration!
Nella S. says
I’m glad to share my name with a beautiful little girl as you are.
With love from Holland,
Another Nella
Chana says
Sobbing shamelessly. Beautiful words, beautiful story, beautiful baby, beautiful family, beautiful pictures. I can’t remember the last time I was moved to this extent. Your baby chose a wonderful mama. I hope you continue to get the love and support you need. May G-d grant you the strength to overcome the challenges.
Stefany says
Just a quick note to say Thank You for sharing your story.
Anonymous says
kelle, my mother shares a very similar story. at first she was aftraid, with 8 other healthy children to care for…yet, maryagnes didn’t bring burden, but joy. we learned so much from her…she was GIVEN to our family as a gift. Congrats on your beautiful family.
Brandon & Tiff says
You don’t know me, but somebody sent me a link to your blog. I sat here and read Nella’s story. I cried sad tears and happy tears with you. You are a beautiful person inside and out. Your daughters are both beautiful. Thanks for sharing this story. I was uplifted by your love and strength.
Brandon & Tiff says
You don’t know me, but somebody sent me a link to your blog. I sat here and read Nella’s story. I cried sad tears and happy tears with you. You are a beautiful person inside and out. Your daughters are both beautiful. Thanks for sharing this story. I was uplifted by your love and strength.
Erin says
This is incredibly raw and honest, moving writing. I came here from another blog (Sincerely, Jenni) that mentioned you. I read this from beginning to end with tears running down my cheeks.
You’ve told an amazing and powerful story. Thank you for sharing ALL of it. You are a hero and so is your new baby girl.
Two Normal Moms says
5 kleenex. That’s how many it took to get through this story. My heart sank and then sang. Congratulations on two beautiful daughters. May they bring you a lifetime of happiness.
***Ally
Jiminy says
I was brought here from another blog, and i just wanted to comment and say how honest and beautiful your words are. And to say, that in my life i had the joy and privilige of having an aunt with downs syndrome, and I never once was ashamed because from any age she was all i knew to ‘normal’ (whatever that means) and now that she’s gone i miss her more than words can say. So enjoy your life, and enjoy your girls, as i’m sure you will!!
Anonymous says
I was given this link and just read this today. This is the most beautifully written thing I have EVER read. I love the emotion, pictures, and truth to this. You have 2 beautiful and perfect babies.
Nicole says
I am still crying , maybe it’s the pregnancy horomones or maybe your beautiful raw words. Either way your story and your daughter are gorgeous. Thank you for sharing.
Anonymous says
Oh my God I can not stop crying…..your story is a blessing.It just makes me appreciate the small things. She’s beautiful. You are beautiful. Your Family is beautiful. Blessed is what you are. I am so proud of you and your story has opened my eyes to so much. God is good. Thank you so much for sharing your blessing!
Anonymous says
This is what love looks like.
Amanda says
Thank you for sharing such an honest, emotional, beautiful birth story.
Love to all of you!
Anonymous says
What a pure recounting of your precious Nella’s first day. I found a link to your story on Mommy Life. Thank you for sharing with all of us how beautiful your daughter’s life is. I’m sure Nella is going to continue to be a gift to your family.
God bless all of you.
Ashley says
You have so many comments, I can’t imagine you can read them all :). Your birth story was just beautiful and it made me cry. As the mother of a special needs child, I can almost imagine what you felt the day she was born. My son has Autism. The day I found out something died for a moment in me, I think it was my dreams for him. But within days I had new dreams for him and a lot of the old ones too. He is special, he is cherished and so is Nella. God Bless you :).
hannah says
everything i want to say has been said, yet i feel this intense need to write something…
tears of understanding, compassion and joy have been shed for you and your precious family.
congratulations on the start of your beautiful journey.
Anonymous says
A friend of mine on facebook shared your blog. WOW! truly one of life’s most wonderful stories. Congratulations, you daughter’s are both gorgeous.
I am a mom of 3 girls, twins who are 7, and Cailyn who is 3, and just happens to have Down syndrome.
thanks for sharing your story and wonderful photos 🙂
potenta says
i like so much these beautiful children.there are so funny.:)
MttM says
Congratulations on beautiful, gorgeous Nella!
I loved the Welcome Nella champagne glasses!!!
Can you please tell me where you got them? My daughter in law is about to have a baby and I would love to do the same!!!
MttM says
Congratulations on beautiful, gorgeous Nella!
I loved the Welcome Nella champagne glasses!!!
Can you please tell me where you got them? My daughter in law is about to have a baby and I would love to do the same!!!
Anonymous says
Congratulations on beautiful, gorgeous Nella!
I loved the Welcome Nella champagne glasses!!!
Can you please tell me where you got them? My daughter in law is about to have a baby and I would love to do the same!!!
Sasha says
oh my word – I have never seen that many comments on a blog post – then again, my blog is very simple and only people I know read it! I just had to comment here – a friend of mine suggested I check out your blog and I’m instantly drawn and likely hooked! Our babies are just eleven hours apart, both beautiful girls, both with the middle names of someone special, and both happen to have down syndrome! Your story differs from mine, in that I was aware of this before my little Zoey was born – so I got to go through all that emotional stuff ahead of time. Our baby also has a heart defect, she was in the NICU for over five weeks – we’ve had her home for only a week … it’s wonderful! I haven’t read every post, but from what I’ve read it sounds like your little Nella doesn’t have “extra” complications, what a blessing to cherish! Now I’m going to have to go through and thoroughly read every single post on here … where will I find the time? LOL! thank you for sharing – it’s not an easy thing to do! blessings – Sasha
vanilla143 says
Thank you for sharing your life in such a real and honest way. God Bless you and keep you!
Kathy's Blog Spot says
I don’t know how I got here, one of those social networking sites I guess. Even though it was less than 30 mins ago, now haveing read your story, it feels like days since I clicked on this link. I feel like we started this on Thursday and spent the weekend together. Someone suggested this story, someone wanted to share your story with even more people becuase they enjoied it so much and I am so happy they did! Thank you for sharing! As a mother myself, I shared some of the same fears, joys, love, and you wrote it so well! You wrote things people rarely speak about or share with one another but HOPE others feel the same way, HOPE they are not alone and WISH someone could hear them, to tell them they aren’t the only one… Thank you! You have done other women, other daughters, families and mothers a great service! And your photos are beautiful, your family is beautiful. Best Wishes for health and happiness in your future, Kathy
The Random Blogette says
Oh wow! What a beautiful post. I am reading this at work and fighting off tears! My best friend has a little girl with DS and she just turned 2 this past weekend and she is the most adorable thing ever as is your beautiful daughter. Since her birth we have been immersed in the DS world and I love it. I do believe that God sends us angels sometimes and these beautiful little creatures that have DS are those angels. They are so happy and beautiful and love life. Enjoy your journey with her. BTW..I just found your blog and I am definitely going to continue reading.
Tiffany says
Oh, Kelle, you have been blessed with so many things. Friends, Father, husband, daughters. You are a beautiful woman of God – inside and out. Your words have touched my heart and you have inspired me to share my story. Not the same way you have, but to know that God has given me a story to share with the hearts He will open in my life. To help others. My heart cries with yours, yet shares in the unforseen happiness ahead. I love you. God loves you. I will pray for you and your precious family. You have been a blessing to me, and will be to many others. Thank you. Zephaniah 3:17
Nicole says
What an incredibly beautiful story! What a lucky baby, mommy, and family! You have been blessed and will continue to be!
Nicole
The Burpee's says
I was directed here from a friend that has been following your blog, her baby also has DS.
I just had to let you know that your family is gorgeous and you have a truly beautiful way with words (and great photos). Your story hit my heart so hard for you. I love your honesty and your optimism.
May God continue to bless your family in way only He can.
Robin says
That is in the top running for the most beautiful words that I’ve ever read. Thank you so much for the gift of your words. As a parent of a child with some special needs, I can so relate to some of the words that you wrote — and you nailed my feelings down. You are obviously blessed, but more importantly, your girls are blessed.
The Sartori's says
Hi, a friend sent me here and I am inspired. I have written about birth photos on my blog and linked. I was wondering if I could have permission to post a couple of you images as well. Thanks
Brittneysartori@hotmail.com
http://www.whattoexpect.com/blogs/theycallmemommy/falling-in-love-with-child-birth-pictures.aspx
Anonymous says
I do not know you but I feel so blessed that you are sharing your story, including us in your journey & letting complete strangers lift you up when you need it the most. I do not know you & yet, I am so proud of you. Beautiful. Strong. oh so precious.
Anonymous says
I do not know you but I feel so blessed that you are sharing your story, including us in your journey & letting complete strangers lift you up when you need it the most. I do not know you & yet, I am so proud of you. Beautiful. Strong. oh so precious.
Birth Stories says
What a beautiful inspiring story – thanks so much for sharing.
My friend and I have just started a Birth Stories blog.
http://www.birthstories.co.nz
We’d love to share your story on it.
If you’re keen you can contact us at birthstoriesnz(at)gmail(dot)com
We look forward to hearing from you
Michelle and Sarah
Michelle says
Thank you for this, such a beautiful, powerful, brave story. God Bless you and your family. You are an inspiration.
TechnoBabe says
I follow Kulio’s blog and she posted a link to your story on her blog. It is clear how much she loves you and your beautiful family. The photos in this post are poignant and so much love shows openly in all the photos. Your words bring memories for all women who have given birth, the nervousness and anticipation and planning. You traveled a very long journey in one night. Thank you for writing it and sharing it with the world.
>(^..^) says
Dear Kelle,
I like so many others, don’t know you, but found my way here through a shared link. The pure, raw, humanity of your story touched me to my very core. Thank you for having the courage and the grace through which to share it. You and your family are now forever in my heart and in my prayers.
Blessings~
Liz @ LivingMySweetLife says
This is quite possibly one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. Thank you for sharing this. Your family is beautiful.
Liz @ LivingMySweetLife says
This is quite possibly one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. Thank you for sharing this. Your family is beautiful.
Smart Party of 5 says
She is beautiful! Thank you for sharing your amazing story! I cried, smiled and cried some more!! I absolutely love the photos!!
Anonymous says
that was a beautiful story, and you have two BEAUTIFUL little girls. you are truly blessed…
deb says
I have just cried my way thru your story.You have a beautiful family. The pictures are gorgeous. You have 2 amazing daughters, and they will bring you so much joy. I have been blessed with 4 children. My youngest is 4 and she was born with DS. She is the most amazing gorgeous little girl you could ever meet and we are so so proud of her. xx
kaitlyn says
beautiful. simply beautiful.
Dory says
Hi there, just wanted to let you know that I know how you feel – I felt like that when my son was born (DS) he is now almost 7 years old and has always been and always will be – a much loved boy who has taught us so much.
I love all the photos as well – you have a couple of gorgeous girls there 🙂
From Kathi in Australia 🙂
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Anonymous says
This story warms my heart. I cried as I read your story, Its touching and heart felt truth. We lost our son 1 yr ago and we had him for 20 wonderful months. During his first days I remember feeling so much how you felt. He was with us for 20 wonderful months and after his passing I’ve had many nights praying for morning, but this story helps to heal my heart because your daughter is so inspiring and your words, your story and how you look at life is an inspiration. Thank you for sharing this story…look forward to many more nella and lainey as they grow into wonderful women because of their mother..God Bless
gail says
Oh my gosh… your story is beautiful. Your girls are beautiful… and so are you… I am comment 2000 and infinity. My first daughter Teagan, now 6 has Down syndrome. I knew prenatally, and through no prolife/prochoice or religious reason other than I had planned to have a baby, I had her, much to the chagrin of the medical professionals around me, mostly the genetic couselor. Your support was unwavering and incredible… 22 months later I had my 2nd daughter… a so-called perfect, to me they both are. I want to tell you that the sister bond rocks!!! I was raised with 5 brothers, and was unsure. So happy I have my girls — they are best friend, and with Teag being older, the older/younger sister thing teeters. Teagan has changed me as a mom, and in turn made such a better life for her sister. Girl days are awesome… your life is and will be so full with your girls. Congratulations!!! and thank you for putting your story out there. I look forward to seeing you on CNN!! WOW!
bir says
2013 comments!! If that doesn’t tell you how lucky you are, darl, then… 🙂 That is the most beautiful post I have read, and you are so lucky to have so many beautiful, beautiful photos. I know that you will have trying and challenging times ahead of you, and I know that at times it will be hard to feel ‘lucky’. Personally, I’m ‘lucky’ that I got to look into my newborn son’s eye’s before he unexpectedly passed away, because I had what many mama’s don’t.
Wishing you, and Nella, your husband and your big daughter much love ♥
Carolyn says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story, and the photos are fantastic!
Heather says
You story and photographs are so moving, I am just crying reading this. You are such an amazing mama!
Crystal says
I’m sure I can’t say anything that hasn’t been said….the photos are out of this world, and your honesty has moved me today. Blessings on you and your family.
Tabatha says
That was a great blog – a friend sent me the link. I didn’t know when I first started reading that Nella was going to have DS so when I got to that part – it reminded me of my birth story when I was told that my daughter has DS. It’s been 6 years now and there is no good or bad – just daily joys and daily struggles – fears and hopes standing side by side. In the big picture of things, we’re still so fortunate. You seem to have such a lovely and happy family – and a wonderful family of friends. I’m not sure I’ve ever seen such a big group of good looking people to boot! I thought I’d share a You Tube video of my daughter I put up a while ago. It’s at: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tdce2z4swb4&feature=PlayList&p=B1ED3709AB60217C&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=115. You can send me an email if you ever want to talk about the DS community or schooling or therapy or anything like that. There are so many wonderful people connected to the DS community – you now have a wonderful new avenue to expand your friendship circle. Take care and I’m so glad to see you enjoying your blessings… Tabatha
Kelly says
This has to be one of the most inspirational and emotional blog posts I’ve ever read! Your baby is beautiful, her birth story is amazing.
Anonymous says
Your family and your story are absolutly beautiful. You have so much strength, and I truly admire it. Congratulations on this little miracle in your life…and many more to come!!
Anonymous says
Your family and your story are absolutly beautiful. You have so much strength, and I truly admire it. Congratulations on this little miracle in your life…and many more to come!!
Mary Lu Saylor says
Thank you for embracing motherhood and sharing your story. The pictures are just incredible. This is one of the most inspirational stories I’ve read. Tears are streaming down my face as I type this. I have one son who I treasure…enjoy every moment with your very special gifts!
Mary Lu Saylor says
Thank you for embracing motherhood and sharing your story. The pictures are just incredible. This is one of the most inspirational stories I’ve read. Tears are streaming down my face as I type this. I have one son who I treasure…enjoy every moment with your very special gifts!
Mary Lu Saylor says
Thank you for embracing motherhood and sharing your story. The pictures are just incredible. This is one of the most inspirational stories I’ve read. Tears are streaming down my face as I type this. I have one son who I treasure…enjoy every moment with your very special gifts!
Anonymous says
This is the most beautiful, honest thing I have ever read! Reading this made me cry for the first time in 2 years. Your Nella is absolutely BEAUTIFUL! Thank you for sharing her with us. I keep coming back to this and reading it again and again and looking at the pictures of your beautiful girls. What a wonderful gift you have in them! And what a wonderful gift you are to them! Thank you. thank you!
Sarah says
How beautifully touching your words are. Bless you for sharing your story with so many.
Sherrie says
What a beautiful story and what a beautiful family you have! Thank you so much for sharing!
kim says
your post made me cry with sadness then with joy…thanks for posting your story it is beautiful
Chelsea W. says
I just wanted to tell you how much your story truly encouraged my soul!! You have such a beautiful way about you through your wonderful writing…. When I read your story it just brough tears to my eyes uncontrolably crying I finally finished you story and when I did I knew how blessed you little bunny is to havesuch a beautiful,caring, and wonderful mommy she truly has!! God only picks the strong my dear and you have been chosen beause you are strong and you have so much love to give to this beautiful baby !! So go on girl and luve life to its fullest and enjoy your oh so beautiful family!
Amethyst says
Nelle will teach you more than you ever could have thought… about love… about innocence… about the way the human race should be. I have been blessed to have several special people touch my life over the years and they have been the best teachers I’ve ever had.
There may be struggles ahead, but the joy that you will find yourself living within will more than make up for it. Your sister was right.. you were chosen to be the mother of a perfect being… one of complete innocence and beauty.
Gongratulations on your gift.
Anonymous says
This is a beautiful poem that a friend of mine shared after her own experience delivering a special need’s baby. I think it is a beautiful picture of the fact that this baby is a gift and special, even though unexpected.
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like you’re planning a vacation to Italy. You’re all excited. You get a whole bunch of guidebooks, you learn a few phrases in Italian so you can get around, and then it comes time to pack your bags and head for the airport – for Italy.
Only when you land, the stewardess says, “Welcome to Holland.” You look at one another in disbelief and shock saying, “Holland?” What are you talking about? I signed up for Italy?
But they explain there’s been a change of plans, and you’ve landed in Holland, and there you must stay. But I don’t know anything about Holland! I don’t want to stay, you say.
But you stay. You go out and buy some new guidebooks, you learn some new phrases and you meet people you never knew existed. The important thing is that you are not in a filthy, plague-infested slum full of pestilence and famine. You are simply in a different place than you had planned. Its’ slower paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy, but after you’ve been there a little while and you have a chance to catch your breath you begin to discover that Holland has windmills. Holland has tulips. Holland has Rembrandts.
But everyone else you know is busy coming and going from Italy. They’re all bragging about what a great time they had there and for the rest of your life, you will say, yes – that’s what I had planned.
The pain of that will never, ever go away. You have to accept that pain, because the loss of that dream, the loss of that plan, is a very, very significant loss. But if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you will never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things about Holland.
tbonegrl says
God bless you in this journey. I can tell you it is an amazing, heartbreaking, and beautiful one. Thank you for sharing.
Lori says
I have no words that haven’t been uttered by the many, many people who obviously have been touched by you, but I’ll leave some anyway–your daughters are GORGEOUS and your story is just so uplifting. Thank you for sharing!
TAMMY CLARIDGE says
Wow.
What can I say that you don’t already know and what someone already hasn’t said.
I was going to turn in early tonight, exhausted, as I worked the last 2 nights and only slept 4 hours today. But such is the life of a mother as you know, and I wouldn’t trade any of it for anything. But I love to catch up on my friend’s blogs and I thought to myself, a couple won’t hurt. So I went to my one friends and she said she somehow came across your blog and how amazing of a woman you were and the story you shared. So curious… I decided a couple more minutes wouldn’t matter.
I clicked on your link from hers and because I am a very detailed-oriented person and don’t like to miss anything… started from your very first post of current day. I read every single one (not knowing how many that was) to the birth story. That is where I have stopped tonight.
I gawked over your amazingly beautiful daughters, and your gift and talent with photography, and your fits of delight and life, still not knowing your full story but loving every detail as I went along (and guessing in between). And the next thing I knew… it was 3 hours later. Something I don’t mind, because I LOVE hearing and reading and taking part of other people’s lives by nature.
Two things kept occuring to me as I read and read. 1.)I have 3 boys and no girls. How overly blessed you are to have 2 PERFECT girls! I probably paid more attention to every single hat and outfit both of your girls wore, more than anything, because I am SO girly and want nothing more than to dress up a princess of my own. I have always wanted a girl. And hope one day I will. Maybe not by me… but my husband and I have always wanted to adopt one. One that no one else in the world could show the love to that precious soul like we could. I think I can relate to your drug of “love”. I beg people for their girls ALL the time. Not b/c I don’t LOVE my boys… because they ARE my life. But I know what my heart is capable of (just like you KNEW all along).
I have no idea why I am typing and typing except that, my love for everyone I ever meet or come across and the desire to help in anything but even an insignificant way, is always overflowing that I can’t hold it in.
Which brings me to 2.) I am a labor and delivery nurse of almost 8 years. Telling you I wouldn’t trade this job for anything in the world is an understatement. To me, it is not a job. But a passion. A passion to help every single pregnant person going through “their” new experience for the first time (no matter how many kids they may have had.)
It.is.always.a.new.experience. I know you can relate. I have cried and cried with patients, just like I sat here balling at your story. I felt your pain like it was my own as I read your first night at the hospital. And I love all your insights now and then, as you seem to discover yourself even more in your 30’s and what you are capable of and who you are becoming. The refiner’s fire. It is rather glorious… don’t you think?
I have loved every minute of the good and bad that comes with my job. Because it allowed me to be there for people during their most precious, scariest, painful, joyful experiences they would ever have in their lives. I like to think I made a difference in their lives at that moment when they needed someone to pull their heart back off the floor and hold.
You are real. Your pain. Your joy. Your love. And that is why you are the most fitting mom for that little Nellabean and for that Miss Lainey, that I somehow seem to already know now. And you. I seem to know you. And you will forever have touched my life as if I had been your labor and delivery nurse.
Thank you for the gifts you have given me and so many, despite you not knowing what those truly are. I look forward to reading your book…
Shemaine Smith says
What an amazing birth story. Your photos and honest story telling brought me to tears. I’ll be following your journey more. You are a Rockstar and your daughter’s are the most beautiful little girls I have ever seen. So lucky to have a mommy like you.
Kristan says
Thank you for posting your story. I cried through the whole story, happy tears, sad tears, more happy tears. Both of your daughters are beautiful, their mama is amazing, and I wish you all the best.
Jessica says
This is absolutely an amazing story! Someone on Coastie Chicks posted this and so I had to read it! You are a wonderful mom and you have an amazing family! God has blessed you and will continue to bless you! He will not give you somthing you cant handle. Your little girls are sooo cute!
margaret says
Kelle I am in awe of your real honesty, the raw emotion and the sheer beauty of your birth story. I cried and cried and cried my way through your words, your pictures and it was as if I was there in the room with you feeling your pain, celebrating your joy, loving Nella. She is a beautiful and perfect gift from God. You are so right when you said you needed to grieve to get to where you are with Nella today. It’s so hard to let go of the dreams we have for our children and watched them be replaced with something we never fathomed would happen. Through it all you will continue to feel beauty and amazement and wonder that this perfect, beautiful baby who has come into your life will bring new and perfect happiness. The things she will teach you will amaze you everyday. And Lainey, sweet Lainey! How our children in their innocence show us how to love, to trust, to find happiness. I love this story, I love it because of it’s beauty and humanity and because of your grace. God bless your perfect family.
Stacy, Seattle WA says
Thank you for sharing your precious story. My husband forwarded me your blog and encouaraged me to read it. We are expecting this July with our first. Your story is filled with so much raw emotion, courage & inspiration. With tears running down my face, I felt my excitement for my baby’s arrival grow even more. Congratulations on your beautiful Nella!
Connie says
A friend posted your beautiful, bitter-sweet story. Your Nella is beautiful. May God bless your family beyond your imagination with the joy that she brings to your family each day, through the laughter and the trials. Thank you for your raw emotion shared in Nella’s story, the heart of every mother out there.
Alison B says
She is so very beautiful! You are so very, very blessed!
jenny says
absolutely beautiful. Thanks for sharing your story.
george says
Kelle, I am the mom of two young adults with DS, Nick, 27, and Sara, 25. What an amazing account of your beautiful daughter’s birth! You are just at the begginning of an even more amazing journey. Hang on and enjoy every wonderful, agonizing, incredible, uplifting moment. I will look forward to hearing about it from you in a way I could not even imagine when my children were young.
Helen says
Oh my goodness!
Your princess is just beautiful, she really is, but you Kelle, you are amazing. Amazing to have the strength, the talent, the courage and the love to share your story.
I wish you and your family all the love and happiness in the world, sure you are over flowing already!
Tristan says
She is beautiful!!! You are one lucky mama to have that little one in your life. The Lord obviously trusts you a great deal to raise such a special spirit.
camden says
I read the first part of your story in Naples Daily and read the rest of the story here. My heart sank as you told about the news you learned and it is wonderful you shared the emotional healing process going from upset to happiness. It’s raw and honest and you made me weep happy tears. Thank you for reminding us all to love without reservation. Thank you. – Camden Smith, Naples, FL
Quintin's Mom says
You have a writing career ahead of you! What a beautiful, sympathizable (I know it’s not a word) – Ha!, tear inducing, love-growing story! You made me want to be you!
I lost 2 of my babies in the 2nd trimester of pregnancy and then am blessed with a perfect little miracle baby boy. I love my story because it gives me the opportunity to meet people and love more deeply than I thought I ever could.
You are gorgeous.
~Heather
Lindsay says
I read this yesterday & have been thinking about it since. You have worked your way into my heart & your story has helped me sort through feelings of my own. Thank you so much for sharing all that you have. I so appreciate you for doing that. Thanks for your honesty. You have a beautiful little family. The pictures are just wonderful!
Anonymous says
All I can say is amazing. What a beautiful, amazing, moving story.
me says
i could have written your story… in fact i did. but 14 years ago.
i was 17. and i had a baby girl with down syndrome.
your sister is right. “She told me that I was chosen and that it is the most special thing in the world. She told me it was going to be just fine.” we are chosen. and you WILL be fine.
i don’t know if anyone else has posted this, but here’s dan…. dan drinker. he’s so funny and cute! watch the vids one day, it will make you smile.
http://dandrinker.blogspot.com/
(((hugs)))
your birth story brought up a lot of memories. all good, of course.
be well.
Rebekka says
Wow…Beautiful. Your words…beautiful. Your daughter…so beautiful.
mamma bella says
What a beautiful story, I love the honesty you tell it with:)
Laura says
Beautiful.
I am sobbing – Afraid I’ll look like Rocky when I get done writing this.
My daughter who has Downs is 3 and I can’t believe how the time has flown! On the other hand I am so amazed at how reading this brings back so vividly the torrent of emotion that surrounds her birth.
This writing is a gift that you have given to yourself and the world on the moment that only some of us share. The moment when we just KNEW.
And I also remember the moment that I knew that she was PERFECT!
I can’t wait to read the rest of your story so far. To catch up with your life which is captured in such beautiful photos. (So jealous that you have a photographer friend by the way!)
Congratulations on the birth of Nella. Congratulations on becoming her mom!
Best wishes for many happy years with your girls. 🙂
Jennifer says
I am in awe of your courage to be honest and real…thank you for sharing this all with us. You inspire me to be a better, more understanding mother. Your photos are breathtaking. May you and your family live a very rich life together.
Brenda says
Thank you so much for letting me read your story. Beautiful. Amazing. I LOVE the name Nella and she is lucky to have you as a mama!
Amanda says
I read Nella’s story over and over again… she is an angel on earth- thank you for sharing her story. Kelle, you are an inspiration with your words. Your friendships, your family, your babies… all so inspirational. If only everyone lived life so honestly and with such passion.
Thank you for inspiring me.
notminethistime says
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful birth and life story. If you haven’t already, read Expecting Adam: A True Story of Birth, Rebirth, and Everyday Magic by Martha Beck. It will inspire!
kopiwriter says
Congratulations Kelle and Brett on the birth of Nella. She is indeed a beautiful gift from God. Your story has touched and moved me like no other. You little bunny is indeed special, as she will always be cherished like no other second-born child. You’re both lucky to have her and she’s lucky to have you both and Lainey of you loving parents and big sister. Here’s wishing you all love, joy and laughter for many many years to come.
Sham says
you are an inspiration to all women out there. I am about to give birth in 4 weeks for the 1st time. I have so much worries about D.S but after reading your story, whatever the case is, the baby will always be beautiful. Baby is God’s gift to you because God knows you are a beautiful person who will be able to love this baby. I am very very very proud of you. You have the most perfect family and I am very envious of such a loving family that you have together. Thank you so much for being that inspiration to me… 🙂
Sham says
you are an inspiration to all women out there. I am about to give birth in 4 weeks for the 1st time. I have so much worries about D.S but after reading your story, whatever the case is, the baby will always be beautiful. Baby is God’s gift to you because God knows you are a beautiful person who will be able to love this baby. I am very very very proud of you. You have the most perfect family and I am very envious of such a loving family that you have together. Thank you so much for being that inspiration to me… 🙂
Jessi K. says
I loved your story-so well-
written. My best friend shared your blog with me because she knew I’d love it. It was beautiful and heart-wrenching. My son has Down syndrome and is 7 years old. He is the most influential and amazing thing that has ever happened to me, but I remember those first few dark days and am happy to be on the other side. God bless you and your gorgeous family!
Melissa @ Banana Migraine says
What a beautiful story and photographs…such wonderful words. Thank you for sharing it, and your beautiful daughters.
Ariana says
Thank you so much for sharing…I am a 32 year old pregnant with my second baby boy and am 31 weeks pregnant…Your story is amazing, touching and such a blessing. Thank you for sharing with the world. May God bless your family’s future together!
And now…to get back to work without crying even more!
Sarah H. says
Oh my goodness…wow. You did a great job telling Bunny’s story! Beautiful. As a health professional, who has been trained on telling families that same new, it was nice to hear your perspective.
Sarah H. says
Oh my goodness…wow. You did a great job telling Bunny’s story! Beautiful. As a health professional, who has been trained on telling families that same new, it was nice to hear your perspective.
Katie says
You have such a beautiful family. Congratulations on your newest edition. Your story brought tears to my eyes and love to my heart. I hope you enjoy all the gifts both your girls will bring you. And thank you for sharing!
Beth says
I was teary through this whole, beautiful story, but that black & white pic near the end with both of your girls put me over the edge! (in a good way) 🙂 They are magnificently beautiful. My friend just had a beautiful little boy with DS, and another friend led me to your site. Congratulations!
Julie says
so beautiful. i am speechless. you inspire me! your family is beyond beautiful!
mama030 says
Wow, that was moving.. My story was a little different,my daughter is blind. I get what you say about there being a constant reminder.. it hurts. I spend most of my days laughing to the point of tears. and then that day comes when im reminded that my precious child cant see the color red and I cry really hard but then something reminds me how lucky i am and the good feelings come back.. she will be 12 on the 23rd.. and i remember her first bday like it was yesterday.. congrats,and god bless
~~lissa
Jackie says
Thank you. Thank you so much. I am pregnant. My brother in law is 28 and has Down Syndrome. Although I know DS is not hereditary, I was still fearful. I keep telling my husband that I am too selfish to have a DS child, selfish in the fact I want my child to have every opportunity the world can offer. But, the truth is no matter what he/she will still have every opportunity. My brother in law does. He is happy, oh so happy. And loved…but moreso he LOVES so well and so much. Nella will do the same, she will be fantastic and wonderful and beautiful and everything. Thank you. You have helped my fears go away, replaced with knowing I too would look at being the mother of a DS child as an honor. God only gives parents who can handle and love so much it hurts a child with DS.
Jackie says
Thank you. Thank you so much. I am pregnant. My brother in law is 28 and has Down Syndrome. Although I know DS is not hereditary, I was still fearful. I keep telling my husband that I am too selfish to have a DS child, selfish in the fact I want my child to have every opportunity the world can offer. But, the truth is no matter what he/she will still have every opportunity. My brother in law does. He is happy, oh so happy. And loved…but moreso he LOVES so well and so much. Nella will do the same, she will be fantastic and wonderful and beautiful and everything. Thank you. You have helped my fears go away, replaced with knowing I too would look at being the mother of a DS child as an honor. God only gives parents who can handle and love so much it hurts a child with DS.
Anonymous says
Our 3rd child, Tess, was born 1/18/10. Two days after she arrived, they told me that she might have Down Syndrome but couldn’t agree. We tested and yes, our girl has that extra little chromosome. It rocked us. We have stormed the heavens with 2 requests: for us to be strong parents for her and our boys and for her to need as little medical intervention as possible. Both have, so far, been answered. She is ours and there is nothing to do but love, love, love her! I can totally relate to you and admire your grace. God bless your family especially lucky little Nella.
Tracy says
OMG! SHe is soooo beatiful! Thanks for sharing with the world what a wonderful joy she is and what she will be. Enjoy the ride. It is a great one and you are sooooo lucky that you get to experience it!
dig this chick says
I just wanted to be comment number 2077. WOW friend. WOW! The love in this world!
Anonymous says
Such a beautiful story. When you’re a mother of a child with Special Needs everything is one day at a time, one challenge after another, gotta keep going. If you stop and really think of the challenges that are yet to come we’ll shut down and not want to go there, one day at a time.
My son was diagnosed with Autism 2 weeks before my third child was born. Life is hard but it’s worth it, I love them all!!
Anonymous says
Such a beautiful story. When you’re a mother of a child with Special Needs everything is one day at a time, one challenge after another, gotta keep going. If you stop and really think of the challenges that are yet to come we’ll shut down and not want to go there, one day at a time.
My son was diagnosed with Autism 2 weeks before my third child was born. Life is hard but it’s worth it, I love them all!!
Anonymous says
Such a beautiful story. When you’re a mother of a child with Special Needs everything is one day at a time, one challenge after another, gotta keep going. If you stop and really think of the challenges that are yet to come we’ll shut down and not want to go there, one day at a time.
My son was diagnosed with Autism 2 weeks before my third child was born. Life is hard but it’s worth it, I love them all!!
Anonymous says
Such a beautiful story. When you’re a mother of a child with Special Needs everything is one day at a time, one challenge after another, gotta keep going. If you stop and really think of the challenges that are yet to come we’ll shut down and not want to go there, one day at a time.
My son was diagnosed with Autism 2 weeks before my third child was born. Life is hard but it’s worth it, I love them all!!
Sassyfras Studios says
WOW.. I am not sure I have smiled, and shed so many tears at the same time. Your story is so inspiring and beautiful. I am a newlywed of only 1 year and 3 months, and have thought to myself many times, to my shame, what I would do if I had a child with down syndrom. I think it takes a very special person, and God must have known that you could provide more love and shelter for this little angel than anyone else in the world.
That is such a beautiful though, that God thought so highly of you. You are a beautiful woman, and any child would be blessed to call you a mom.
I am a photographer in NC {Sassyfras Studios}, and as one of the “Sassy Sisters” I have to tell you, thank you. Thank you for being so honest, and telling your story.
<3
Cryssi
Sassyfras Studios says
WOW.. I am not sure I have smiled, and shed so many tears at the same time. Your story is so inspiring and beautiful. I am a newlywed of only 1 year and 3 months, and have thought to myself many times, to my shame, what I would do if I had a child with down syndrom. I think it takes a very special person, and God must have known that you could provide more love and shelter for this little angel than anyone else in the world.
That is such a beautiful though, that God thought so highly of you. You are a beautiful woman, and any child would be blessed to call you a mom.
I am a photographer in NC {Sassyfras Studios}, and as one of the “Sassy Sisters” I have to tell you, thank you. Thank you for being so honest, and telling your story.
<3
Cryssi
Caroline says
Kelle, what a marvelous experience it was to read the beautiful story you and Nella and your loved ones experienced together. Thank you for your honesty and the inspiration you are to me and to so many. I will follow your story as it unfolds and precious Nella continues to bring all that joy into your life. She is a wonder. So beautiful!
A good friend sent the link to your story to me and to another mutual friend named Rebecca. Rebecca was deeply moved and changed by things you wrote. She kept asking me if I had clicked that link yet and I was busy, then busy again and again. I am grateful she didn’t stop reminding me.
I mention Rebecca because today she wrote a beautiful story of her own as a guest poster on the Momastery blog about motherhood. I believe that the inspiration and strength she found in your words helped her do this. I just wanted you to know, though you are probably reminded constantly, what a ripple effect you have started and the good you have done and continue to do. Thank you for blessing my life, the life of two choice friends of mine, and the lives of countless others.
Sincerely,
Caroline
P.S. If you ever write a note to Rebecca, would you encourage her to start her own blog? I think she would be such a light to many, many people, just like you are.
Jen says
oh my gosh, this is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. I am sitting here crying from your words and the emotions I am left feeling. Truly beautiful. (also I’m 38 weeks pregnant with my second daughter so I’m a wee bit emotional myself!):)
Although I am a late responder (just found your blog) Congratulations to you and your family!!! I’m definitely going to follow your blog!
http://www.edgertonadventures.blogspot.com
Michelle Bonk says
As another mother of a sweet Down syndrome girl (my babe is 4 years and a bit), I found reading your blog to be beautiful. You put into words so many things I have felt in the past. It was beautiful.
And I also want to share that, honestly, the Down syndrome will become secondary to the beautiful person your babe is and will continue to become. And your family will be all the richer for having your angel in it.
Neha says
The most beautiful story….touching and inspiring. You sure have the two most beautiful daughters! God bless you!
Neha says
The most beautiful story….touching and inspiring. You sure have the two most beautiful daughters! God bless you!
Sarah R. New Zealand says
Thank you with all my heart for the privilege of reading Nellas Beautiful birth story. I have read your story over and over, looked at all the photos and I am truely grateful for all that you shared. Your story has helped me more than you will ever know and I hope you will publish it one day in a book to help others. You have written so honestly and you have given me courage to share some of my thoughts and feelings, as I too am the Mother of a Very Special Treasure. Life with our 9th baby Rebekah who has Down Syndrome is a real joy, but I was fearful during my pregnancy and didn’t know what to expect. If your story could be made available to any parents expecting a baby with Down Syndrome, they would know that despite the shock and grief, they will still fall head over heels in love with their baby.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful family.
shellycoulter says
What a beautiful story. Your family is beautiful & perfect!
COngratulations! Enjoy that sweet new-baby smell! Aww…I love that smell!
Team GZ says
This is such a beautiful story! Thank you for being so open and honest and for sharing it with us! I felt like rode the emotional roller coaster with you. I am soo happy for you and wish the very best for your beautiful, perfect little family!
Carolina says
Absolutely amazing, beautiful, touching… I have no words just tears.. some of joy some of sadness because the way you describe it just reminds me of parts and moments of my own story and what I went true as well. you have inspired me to write my own story, not for a blog, but for my self… maybe that will help me!
God bless all our little “bunnys”
Anonymous says
My baby boy with Down Syndrome is 6 weeks old now. Thank you for sharing your story. My face is wet with tears as I read it. Fifteen minutes after my baby was born, the nurse informed us there were signs of Down Syndrome. I remember thinking no, not my son, this is not the child I wanted. I wanted to turn back the clock and stay in those 15 minutes of pure joy when my husband and I had the perfect baby we longed for. I too spent the first day of my baby’s life sobbing. Now, I can not imagine my life without our baby and in my eyes, he is still our perfect baby. The tears still come now and then and I am still sometimes scared that I might not be strong enough to be his mother. But, every day I fall in love with him more and more and feel he is my destiny.
MZZainal says
Its beautiful and love the pics!
Paula says
Look at how many lives you and your beautiful, perfect little family have touched already! Thank you for sharing Nella’s story.
Tiffanie C says
Your birth story and expierence has moved me to tears…Its so beautifully real. I love how you told your story with brutal honesty of your emotions…A mommy is a special job that not all women are given…be proud to be proud of your little girl! There are some women out there that would give anything to have the gift of carrying a little life… I have never even met you and have oh so much respect for you and love for your family…You seem like a beautiful individual with a great heart! God bless you and your family 🙂
Shan says
I can see by the 2100 people who commented before me that you’ve got a lot of support. Having read your daughter’s birth story to the end, I can see you’re finding your way to a very good place. Still, I thought I might add something, too.
I run a work experience program for high school students who are moderately- to severely handicapped. Some of them have Down Syndrome. Those are the ones I want to tell you about.
When I was a kid, these students went to a different school. The expectations were low, and the family who fully included a child seemed rare. These days my students go to regular high schools. They get braces and girls wear highlights and makeup. The clothes fit… and they’re *cute*. Those superficial observations are just the beginning, though. Now it’s normal to be in love with a child who has Down Syndrome, and those expressions of love are first seen on the outside.
People with Down Syndrome are among my most favorite people on earth. Why? Because they are so loving. And they want to be loved. And they don’t want to be messed around with, so they won’t always put up with crap from other people. And because they are such hard workers. Regardless of IQ, some of my most diligent workers have Down Syndrome.
I could go on and on about how wonderful life is going to be for you, but I’ll try to wind it up here. One last thing I’ll add, I have a son who was born looking completely perfect and normal. He looked like everything I’d expected. As he developed into a child, fairly severe behavior problems began presenting challenges all over the place. It took me a long time to grieve what I felt I’d lost… even as I dealt with whatever came next. It’s a process that might hit you again. Just know that it’s normal, too.
Sending you love and happiness…
I. Holtan says
I have a brother with Downs Syndrome.
He`s 18 years younger than me.
When I visited my mother and my beautiful baby brother at the hospital she told me that he had Downs and then asked me; “Are you dissapointed”????
I answered.. “How can I be dissapointed, he`s my brother and I love him. I don`t care if he has Downs or not…He`s my brother and that is all I care about”..
My brother is now 12, but I still call him “MY baby”..meening that he`s MINE, MINE and ALL MINE… 🙂 , he`s such a wonderful person, filled with nothing but love and I am so lucky to be his sister.
There is said that people with Downs are angels on earth, and that is true….
Linda says
this is such a beautiful and well written story.
Casey says
I’m so glad to have found your beautiful story, you shared your emotions wonderfully. Congratulations on your two beautiful girls
Sessalie says
Your writing is beautiful and a wonderful description of the whirlwind that changes our lives. My son is 6 as of March 1, and is a joy to us and to his 2 older sisters. Know that your writing will be a wonderful blessing to all who read it.
Congratulations on your beautiful children.
Sessalie says
Your writing is beautiful and a wonderful description of the whirlwind that changes our lives. My son is 6 as of March 1, and is a joy to us and to his 2 older sisters. Know that your writing will be a wonderful blessing to all who read it.
Congratulations on your beautiful children.
Elizabeth Angelo says
oh, this story touched me in my heart of hearts. thank you for sharing your beautiful family.
Candace says
I just want to say thank you for writing this. I loved every single letter of every single word you so eloquently wrote.
Both of your girls are beautiful, and so are you.
Candace says
I just want to say thank you for writing this. I loved every single letter of every single word you so eloquently wrote.
Both of your girls are beautiful, and so are you.
Candace says
I just want to say thank you for writing this. I loved every single letter of every single word you so eloquently wrote.
Both of your girls are beautiful, and so are you.
Just Me says
Congratulations on your beautiful girls. They are perfect.
Thank you for sharing them with us. Thank you for sharing your heart.
You have a beautiful heart at that.
Hope says
If someone hasn’t already, I will share this with “A Different Dream For My Child”. Thank you so much for allowing us into this very beautiful world of yours. You have used your gift of writing and your beautiful heart to give us the gift of Nella and I am forever grateful.
Blessings,
Hope
Dawn says
I’m another of a long string of strangers, but I am also the mom of a special needs child, and I work with special needs kids in the high school – my passion for them was borne from my son. I, too, went through a grieving, a guilty feeling for grieving, and then a deeper, more tender, more passionate love for him and his little classmates over the years than I ever dreamed. You will find as Nella grows that she truly is an angel with skin on – there will be no guile, no pretense, just pure love and joy. I have never ceased to be awed by the true beauty of Downs’ kids souls. We will pray for your family as you learn Nella’s unique needs as she grows, but we will also pray a prayer of thanksgiving for blessing your wonderful family with such precious LOVE as your two amazing girls! THANK YOU for sharing your heart so openly and honestly.
MysticBlueRose says
Thank you…for sharing such beauty and passion and love for yourself, your family, the world around you and all of your photography. You touched my heart. You improved my day. You made me cry. Thank you.
Shasta says
This is such an amazing piece of writing, and thank you for sharing your wonderful story. My son has special needs also, and sometimes I need a reminder that after almost 9 years, he is most definitely a blessing in my family!
Sara says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story — with all of the honesty and reality that makes a story so good and so real.
Your daughters are both gorgeous, as are you.
You have an amazing story waiting to be lived and filled with beauty.
carol says
Aww! She’s beautiful! I love her and i love how you have documented her birth story.. May God bless her and let her fulfill her destiny..
carol says
Aww! She’s beautiful! I love her and i love how you have documented her birth story.. May God bless her and let her fulfill her destiny..
Helen says
thank you, today i am humbled and forever changed by your experience. thank you for sharing. i felt like i stepped into your heart for a few minutes and stepped back out.
Chris Park says
This was unspeakably beautiful. I’m a mother of two and I just could not tear my eyes off this page. I’m also a literary agent and if you need any help with getting your book off the ground please contact me. cpark AT foundrymedia DOT com.
Kai says
Amazing story!!! Nella is truly blessed to have such a loving family! Thank you so much for sharing this…I am in tears at my office desk right now…tears of joy for the love that I felt while reading this and more so for the love that your beautiful and perfect baby girl will feel for the rest of her life!
Amy V says
I’m pregnant with my first… the emotion and love that you write with is so moving! Thank you for the love you have for your daughters and that you were willing to share the rocky emotional start as well!
Anonymous says
what a beautiful story and such a beautiful little girl i wish you and yours all the best!!!
Anonymous says
what a beautiful story and such a beautiful little girl i wish you and yours all the best!!!
Jodi N. says
Your daughter’s birth story is truly amazing…wonderfully written! Tears ran down my face as I read your story…I can relate to things you said on so many levels! My son was born with cystic fibrosis, but we didn’t find out until he was a week old. Just like you, we grieved the loss of a “healthy” child. It took some time to get over that grieving, but like you we came to the realization that God chose us to be his parents, because He knows we will provide the care, love, and attention he will need throughout his lifetime! Just like God chose you to be Nella’s parents. Being a mother to a child with special needs is the most amazing and rewarding job ever….as you will discover. Stay strong for your beautiful and precious daughters! Thanks for being so inspiring and for sharing your story! God bless!
judith says
With tears in my eyes I give praise you and your beautiful family. God has blessed you with an two beautiful angels. Enjoy every day and each moment with your girls, you will wake up tomorrow and they will be grown. You are an inspiration to every mother who has held her precious chid in her arms. May God bless you and your family each and everyday. Kiss and hug them for me.
judith says
With tears in my eyes I give praise you and your beautiful family. God has blessed you with an two beautiful angels. Enjoy every day and each moment with your girls, you will wake up tomorrow and they will be grown. You are an inspiration to every mother who has held her precious chid in her arms. May God bless you and your family each and everyday. Kiss and hug them for me.
judith says
With tears in my eyes I praise you and your beautiful family. God has given you two precious angels. Enjoy every day with the girls you will wake up tomorrow and they will be grown. I pray for you and your husband to have a life time of love, laughter and happiness. Kiss the girls for me.
Melissa says
Thank you. A lot.
Anonymous says
i felt as if i was in the birthing room with you. your family has touched so many lives it’s unbelievable. your inspiration, love, family, friends, courage is tremendous! i will follow your story b/c i can’t wait to see your daughters cooking together years to come! there is no stronger bond then sisters. thanks again!
Anonymous says
i felt as if i was in the birthing room with you. your family has touched so many lives it’s unbelievable. your inspiration, love, family, friends, courage is tremendous! i will follow your story b/c i can’t wait to see your daughters cooking together years to come! there is no stronger bond then sisters. thanks again!
Anonymous says
i felt as if i was in the birthing room with you. your family has touched so many lives it’s unbelievable. your inspiration, love, family, friends, courage is tremendous! i will follow your story b/c i can’t wait to see your daughters cooking together years to come! there is no stronger bond then sisters. thanks again!
Jules says
A beautiful story. Thank you sharing.
Anonymous says
You are such an amazing mum to your two perfect, gorgeous daughters!
I’m still in tears after reading your story – I couldn’t possibly had read this without commenting!
You are so blessed and you are such an inspirational and wonderful Mum, I hope that my boys feel the love from me that you so clearly give your girls!
Take care and keep strong!
Oh and you are also an incredible author – that was all written so beautifully!
Anonymous says
You are such an amazing mum to your two perfect, gorgeous daughters!
I’m still in tears after reading your story – I couldn’t possibly had read this without commenting!
You are so blessed and you are such an inspirational and wonderful Mum, I hope that my boys feel the love from me that you so clearly give your girls!
Take care and keep strong!
Oh and you are also an incredible author – that was all written so beautifully!
Anonymous says
You are such an amazing mum to your two perfect, gorgeous daughters!
I’m still in tears after reading your story – I couldn’t possibly had read this without commenting!
You are so blessed and you are such an inspirational and wonderful Mum, I hope that my boys feel the love from me that you so clearly give your girls!
Take care and keep strong!
Oh and you are also an incredible author – that was all written so beautifully!
Nicki says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful family’s story. I am so touched by your experience which you brilliantly put into words.
Love your blog.
Mom In Maine says
Kelle,
You don’t know me, but I just read your beautiful birth story (still drying the tears now)! Your words have captured those precious moments perfectly. Thank you for being so honest, open, and raw with your emotions in this experience. Please keep writing and sharing your story… more moms and moms-to-be need to read stories like this and know that they too will be okay no matter what gift God places in their lives! I do not have a DS child but I have a special love for them just the same! I believe God placed Nella in your family because He knows how much love you have and you will make a great life for her! She is just beautiful!! Heavenly blessings to you and your family as you have blessed my life with your passionate story! 🙂
Mom In Maine says
Kelle,
You don’t know me, but I just read your beautiful birth story (still drying the tears now)! Your words have captured those precious moments perfectly. Thank you for being so honest, open, and raw with your emotions in this experience. Please keep writing and sharing your story… more moms and moms-to-be need to read stories like this and know that they too will be okay no matter what gift God places in their lives! I do not have a DS child but I have a special love for them just the same! I believe God placed Nella in your family because He knows how much love you have and you will make a great life for her! She is just beautiful!! Heavenly blessings to you and your family as you have blessed my life with your passionate story! 🙂
Beks says
Is there another word for WOW?? Thank you from the bottom of my heart for blessing me with your beautiful story.
Laurie says
That was the most beautiful birthing story that i have ever read . you are beautiful and so is your new daughter as well as your other daughter and husband.
God has blessed you with a beautiful gift. enjoy .
TJZMommy, PhZ says
You captured the same feeling I felt when my beautiful Zackie was born…I was shocked, knew the truth before anyone told me…then I felt numb,..then great love- as I still do. Thank you for sharing this with us.
http://www.tjzmommy.blogspot.com
Colleen's Custom Sewing says
Just wanted to say thank you. I’m pregnant with a Down’s Syndrome baby and due in August. I feel so alone sometimes. I have a great medical team and wonderful husband. We are overloaded with medical information and statistics. It’s so heartwarming to read your real life story. You have a beautiful family and are very lucky.
When I found out the baby had DS I asked my sister why God hadn’t listened to me when I had prayed so hard. My brother in law said, it’s not that He didn’t listen, He chose you. That has been a great source of comfort to me.
All of my prayers and best wishes,
Colleen
Anonymous says
your Nella is beautiful! I was linked to this thru a Moms group website in Augusta GA. what an awesome story and I cannot believe your ped is Dr. Jennifer Foley who I recognize from the pics and she used to be my neighbor. How caring and kind she confirmed your suspicions! Peace and Joy to your family!
Meredith says
Thank you so much for your beautiful, honest, and raw story of your life, and the life of your beautiful daughters.
I think we all can (and should admit) that when we are delivering, and our child is born, we pray to ourselves, “Please, please G-d, let her breathe, let her be perfect, let her be everything we’ve dreamed her to be. Let nothing wrong touch her, or harm her. Let her be PERFECT!”
And in your case, both of your daughters are. They *ARE* perfect. No matter what. Because they have you for a mom.
Thanks again for sharing.
Much love, happiness, peace, health, warmth, and understanding.
Meredith
Mom of Madison Grace and Alexander James
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Anonymous says
MY GOODNESS, I am not even pregnant nor do I even have kids, hell I am not even married yet, but I am getting married in June and we have talked about kids, and he has a kid with autism and that worried me and so did D.S that I didnt want to have kids because I didnt think I could do it, but I read your story on aol, and fell in love that I had to check your blog myself and fell in love with it all, you spoke about the real emotions, emotions of wanting to run, run away far! How she looked at you and bore holes and said to love me, chills ran through my body! You are a beautiful person and your babies are even more gorgeous because of this story, I dont even know them and I love them! Thank you!
Anonymous says
MY GOODNESS, I am not even pregnant nor do I even have kids, hell I am not even married yet, but I am getting married in June and we have talked about kids, and he has a kid with autism and that worried me and so did D.S that I didnt want to have kids because I didnt think I could do it, but I read your story on aol, and fell in love that I had to check your blog myself and fell in love with it all, you spoke about the real emotions, emotions of wanting to run, run away far! How she looked at you and bore holes and said to love me, chills ran through my body! You are a beautiful person and your babies are even more gorgeous because of this story, I dont even know them and I love them! Thank you!
Anonymous says
Someone posted a link to this entry on an Australian maternity forum, and thank goodness they did … this is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read, and your ability to verbalise (so pefectly!) your emotions surrounding the birth of your daughter is nothing short of breath-taking. Your daughter is exquisite, and the love you have for her is so intense, it is like looking directly into the sun. Many happy wishes for you and your lovely family.
Anonymous says
I just happened upon your blog through AOL. I sat there and wept and wept while reading about the birth of you sweet little “bunny”.
Our son Connor, who is now 6, was born with Spina Bifida and Hydrocephelus and now has significant autism. I could relate so much to your words, although we found out about his Spina Bifida at my 20 week ultrasound appointment to see if we were having a boy or a girl. The shock was huge and I spent many sleepless nights after researching, worrying, scared, etc. He has been through 5 surgeries and lots of therapy and our life changed forever from that ultrasoud on, but like you, we are utterly and completely in love and feel so blessed to have been entrusted with his care.
I will be reading your blog from here on out. You are an excellent write and bring your words to life for sure and your pictures are beautiful and precious.
Thank you for sharing your story!
Charlene
Anonymous says
We have our own little “bunny”, Trina Grace, born 24 January 2006. She is a beautiful, active, inquisitive, funny, loving 4 year old. And we can’t imagine life without her. Nella is blessed, to have a wonderful circle of family and friends that will guide her on her journey of life. We are thankful your pediatrician is wise and loving and recognized that Nella is Perfect – exactly how God intended her to be. Blessings to you all, and if you would like to share stories we are here to cheer, encourage, laugh and sometimes cry if you need someone. The Waughs, Bill, Liisa, Emily, Alex, Abigail, Annaliese, Nathan and beautifully, perfect, Trina Grace at seven4christ@aol.com
Anonymous says
Your story and your family is beautiful. The photography is unreal, and your honesty is beyond admirable. I was moved to tears by your strength and honesty. God bless you.
Lynda says
… this is absolutely the most touching, beautiful and inspirational story. I just put my two girls to bed and now I feel like scooping them both up and snuggling with them. Thank you for sharing such an incredible story and I look forward to reading your book. Congratulations to you and your family!
Anonymous says
THANK YOU! I am a mother of a child born with a hearing loss. Although he has a different diagnosis than Nella, I felt your feelings. I too longed for someone to tell me it wasn’t so. I too wanted to run away with my “perfect” older child. Yet, like Nella, my son was telling me he needed me to love him. Once I realized he needed me, I realized how much I wanted him. I became his mother that moment. I too realize life is not about hardwood floors. For that I am grateful. Thank you for sharing this journey with the world. I look forward to hearing more about Nella’s story 🙂
Adirondackcountrygal says
Your new baby is beautiful. Good luck to you and your family and may God bless you! I’m glad I found you story and I’m looking forward to watching your girls grow up. The photography is beautiful!
Anonymous says
This is the greatest story I have ever heard! Children are the most precious thing God has given – you are very inspiring and have lots of support from America! Keep on posting about Nella….we are excited to see pictures of her – she is gorgeous.
Anonymous says
This is the greatest story I have ever heard! Children are the most precious thing God has given – you are very inspiring and have lots of support from America! Keep on posting about Nella….we are excited to see pictures of her – she is gorgeous.
Anonymous says
I could not stop reading after the first sentence. Beautiful family and so honestly written. Please do write a book.
Love to you all,
Rita
Anonymous says
I could not stop reading after the first sentence. Beautiful family and so honestly written. Please do write a book.
Love to you all,
Rita
Victoria says
Thank you for telling your story.
My granddaughter Chloe was born with Down Syndrome. My daughter is a wonderful mother.
Chloe is beautiful and she and her mom bake cookies , play music, read, they do everything together… I am so proud of my daughter and my granddaughter.
Chloe is 3 years old now and just became a big sister herself!.. She loves her sister…
This is my daughters blog if you are interested!!
http://lotempio.blogspot.com/
Again thank you for helping me with understanding what my daughter went thru. I know what I felt but your story is her story also…
Victoria
Anonymous says
I could not stop reading after the first sentence. Beautiful family and so honestly written. Please do write a book.
Love to you all,
Rita
Nancy says
This is the most beautiful birth story I ever read. God has chosen a perfect family for Nella. You have touched so many with your inner most feelings. Congratulations and best wishes to you and your family.
Heidy F. L. says
Hello, what a beautiful story is written here. The top of my shirt is wet from so many tears that have landed there. You have such courage and your heart – the love in your heart – is so strong, it comes out in the way you write. It is beautiful – thank you for sharing this with the world. We are in a way, all blessed to have a little peak in your life. And your sister was right, you will be even more than fine. Beautiful daughters. You moved me in a way I haven’t cried in a long time. God bless you & your sweet family. Heidy & baby Arthur
Paula Farris says
Kelle,
Nella is beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing her with us. Your writing touched my heart. I look forward to your book.
Paula Farris
J's Mommy says
I cried from beginning to end while reading Nella’s birth story. My heart was filled with sadness for you and the pain you were feeling… and then filled with joy. She is beautiful and you are SO incredibly blessed. God picked you to be Nella’s Mama…you are such a lucky lady!
Judy J says
I also had a daughter with DS 33 years ago. Reading your story was like reliving parts of mine. I haven’t cried that hard in a long, long time. Our Sarah is wonderful and smart and we are amazed everyday at the things she does and how she thinks. Not to say everything has been great ( like when she took a beer to high school) but it has been just so much better with her.
Kisses for you and Nella.
Emmy Lou says
Dear Kelle, Brett, & Lainey,
This is my second attempt because the first one went somewhere but I don’t know where. This is my first time reading a blog and therefore first time responding. I found you on AOL’S home page and couldn’t stop reading your beautiful story and the fantastic comments.
I was a labor and delivery nurse for almost forty years and saw many births like this unfold but none related so beautifully like yours. Thirty-six years ago, one of my patients delivered her ninth baby who unknowingly had Down Syndrome. In those days, the dianosis wasn’t always as straight-forward. We spent much time talking in the recovery room and,later, a couple of post-partum visits, I think. Then we parted ways, or so I thought. A thank you letter came from Megan’s parents. They told me about her joyous christening and how things were going. The rest, as they say, is history. We became fast friends and they became one of my daughter’s Godparents.
Over these years, I have been so blessed to have been Megan’s “First Friend”, as she likes to csll me. Her smile lights up a room and she has taught so many lessons unknowingly – how to love unconditionally, determination, hope and happiness. I know that no matter how I may feel before I get that ever so special hug, I will feel better and be a better person than I was before our visit.
There is nothing I can add to your beautiful story or the fantastic comments made by so many. I only hope I know where to find your blog because I definately want to stay in touch but, whether I do or not, you and your family will always be in my thoughts and prayers. Each one of you have been blessed in a special way by Nella’s birth and this will be evidenced in so many ways throughout the days and years. Nella has been especially blessed to be born into such a loving family but then that’s how He plans it. Love and God bless.
krysaniasnight says
Wow… silently as I cry. What made me cry about your blog not your words as I didn’t put myself to read because I noticed an image. As I scrolled down I thought I would eventually start reading and then I noticed more pictures. I then started to notice a story being told through just your images. And Oh my god!!! as I just started to feel happy then slighty sad and then I just found myself crying (as I still am) your baby is sooo lovely and beautiful and full of sunshine despite what you had discovered. Made me think about my own first daughter that I had about 15 months ago. And I thought. Those are our little miracles of life that we actually have been given the opportunity to have-hold-love&cherish.
-Melina
Katie says
This was such a wonderful story to read. Both of your daughters are absolutely beautiful. Congratulations 🙂
Lesley says
Wow. What a wonderful story. I love how you told it. It brought back a rush of memories back when my child with Down syndrome was born on March 30th, 1999. I have 4 children now and Lexi was my 2nd child. My oldest daughter was about the same age as Lainey and she had the same reaction to Lexi when she was born. She was just a proud big sister.
Your story will educate people on Down syndrome and how to accept it and cherish it.
Thank you for the wonderful pictures and words.
P.S. I love how you dress your kids! Especially the baby clothes!
Lesley – Scottsdale, AZ
Anonymous says
Gorgeous, lovely; thank you for your story. I sat and wept. God bless you and your family. You are blessed.
Anonymous says
Dear Kelle,
I was soooo moved by your courage in telling your beautiful story! You’re such an inspiration!!!
Congratulations on your beautiful baby daughter and family!
Warm wishes from sunny California! 😉
March 24th, 2010.
Anonymous says
I stumbled upon this blog by accident, and I am SO GLAD I did!
Kelle, your baby girl is so beautiful. Dear God are you ever lucky. I have always had a very special place in my heart for people with Down Syndrome, and so your story has extra specialness for me.
You have been so wonderfully blessed. I envy you so much!
Anonymous says
Beautiful……
Anonymous says
Beautiful……
Laura says
Nella is the most beautiful baby girl and she will bring you more love than you could ever bring her. She will teach you and others more than you could ever teach her and her love will always be the most pure, loving without reason, she will teach you how to love harder and beautifully.
Thank you for sharing your story, it is so honest and I think everyone that reads it will appreciate your transparent honesty.
Anonymous says
You have no idea yet how much love and peace this child is going to bring to your family. The same lack of stereotypes and preconcieved judgments you admired in Lainey’s reaction to Nella–that same unconditional love–is exactly what Nella is going to give you, and the world, every day of her life.
Anonymous says
Your story touched me as nothing has in years. Your beautiful girl!
Anonymous says
Your duaghter is beautiful. I know it must have been gut-wrenching, just looking at her and knowing, but she is a wonderful gift that will continually bless your life for the rest of your life. Down Syndrome is not the end of the world. Many people in this day and age are living with it and leading healthy lives. I wish you all the best in the world.
Anonymous says
Your duaghter is beautiful. I know it must have been gut-wrenching, just looking at her and knowing, but she is a wonderful gift that will continually bless your life for the rest of your life. Down Syndrome is not the end of the world. Many people in this day and age are living with it and leading healthy lives. I wish you all the best in the world.
Laura Jordan says
My son,Tyler, turned 21 March 14. Enjoy…you are in for the ride of your life!!!!
Chelsea says
I had to create an account after read this. I myself most likely won’t be able to have children due to the fact that I am possibly going to require a hysterectomy before my 19th burthday, but reading this brought tears to my eyes. You put me in your shoes, the joy and heartache of this; I cried right along with you. You made me feel like the mother-who-just-gave-birth that I’ll never be. I know that you and your family are truly blessed and I wish nothing but happiness for you guys. And I will most certainly be looking forward to all your new posts as your beautiful girls grow!!!
Anonymous says
I am a single struggling mother to the most amazing and hilarious three-year-old girl, Gigi. Reading your story makes me hug my daughter tighter and inspires me to love deeper. You are an amazing mother. I strive to be more like you. A friend of mine recently gave birth to her third baby, first daughter, knowing that she would only have a few moments with her. She has shared her story in the blog world, and I think that you would be as amazed by the love this mother has for her daughter, as I am for the love you have for Lainey and Nella. I hope you do visit this site, http://www.adalynnediorsdivinejourney.blogspot.com/. And I hope nothing but continued joy for your amazing family. God Bless.
ChristinaSuzanne says
Kelle, thank you for telling your story honestly. After reading it (and crying quite a bit), I felt I had an emotional catharsis and I also felt inspired and grateful for life.
In August of 2008, our first child Hannah Elizabeth was stillborn one month before she was due. Even though our stories are different, I felt a connection to yours. This past October, we were blessed with a happy, heathy baby boy. I am so grateful for him.
After losing Hannah, my life and eyes became open to pain … real, raw pain. I had never felt that. You’re right, life is not about hardwood floors. Thank you for your honesty.
P.S. As I was proofing this entry, I heard Sara Groves come on your blog. I love her! On her latest cd, I love the song “Like a Lake.” I have felt myself become open and aware of so much more pain in life, and like Sara “I am fighting to stay open.” I’m assuming you are a believer … maybe we can share a cup of coffee in heaven someday and thank God for what we don’t understand here on earth. And I’ll have my Hannah. My eyes fill as I write this. Thank you, even if you never read this, for giving me the chance to revisit my experience, cry, and know there is hope and a bigger picture.
Olya says
Dear Kelle:
I don’t know you, but what a beautiful story! I have two daughters too – 2,5 year-old and 5-month old. The tears were pouring, when I read Nella’s birth story. You write so truthfully and beautifully. Life with its beauty and pain … The way you wrote it…I felt like I was there myself. Having given birth to my daughter so recently made it even more real….You are so good and so blessed. With both of my pregnancies I was always worried about my child not being perfect and thought if I knew something is wrong ahead of time, I might have options. If I am going to have another baby, I will always remember your story and embrace my child no matter what.
Your writing reminded me a lot of Sue Monk Kidd (Mermaid Chair, The Secret Life of Bees). Especially her book called When the Heart Awaits (Early Inspirational writings). I would to read your book if you decide to write it. You provide empowerment and inspiration to other people.
I didn’t know you personally, but I feel like I do now…
Sending lots of love your way, and especially to Nella and Lainey,
Olya
ChristinaSuzanne says
Kelle, thank you for telling your story honestly. After reading it (and crying quite a bit), I felt I had an emotional catharsis and I also felt inspired and grateful for life.
In August of 2008, our first child Hannah Elizabeth was stillborn one month before she was due. Even though our stories are different, I felt a connection to yours. This past October, we were blessed with a happy, heathy baby boy. I am so grateful for him.
After losing Hannah, my life and eyes became open to pain … real, raw pain. I had never felt that. You’re right, life is not about hardwood floors. Thank you for your honesty.
P.S. As I was proofing this entry, I heard Sara Groves come on your blog. I love her! On her latest cd, I love the song “Like a Lake.” I have felt myself become open and aware of so much more pain in life, and like Sara “I am fighting to stay open.” I’m assuming you are a believer … maybe we can share a cup of coffee in heaven someday and thank God for what we don’t understand here on earth. And I’ll have my Hannah. My eyes fill as I write this. Thank you, even if you never read this, for giving me the chance to revisit my experience, cry, and know there is hope and a bigger picture.
ran shae says
this was so beautiful. thank you for sharing so honestly. God bless you and your family as you begin this new journey together!
Olya says
Dear Kelle:
I don’t know you, but what a beautiful story! I have two daughters too – 2,5 year-old and 5-month old. The tears were pouring, when I read Nella’s birth story. You write so truthfully and beautifully. Life with its beauty and pain … The way you wrote it…I felt like I was there myself. Having given birth to my daughter so recently made it even more real….You are so good and so blessed. With both of my pregnancies I was always worried about my child not being perfect and thought if I knew something is wrong ahead of time, I might have options. If I am going to have another baby, I will always remember your story and embrace my child no matter what.
Your writing reminded me a lot of Sue Monk Kidd (Mermaid Chair, The Secret Life of Bees). Especially her book called When the Heart Awaits (Early Inspirational writings). I would to read your book if you decide to write it. You provide empowerment and inspiration to other people.
I didn’t know you personally, but I feel like I do now…
Sending lots of love your way, and especially to Nella and Lainey,
Olya
Anonymous says
Your words and soulful pictures are awe-fully beautiful. Nella is blessed to have such rich textures of love surrounding her. Despite her special needs your most precious, most important, most honest dreams for her remain the same as with a child born without DS…you pray she grows strong, healthy, happy, educated to her highest potential, leading an independent life surrounded by family and friends who will love and support her forever. She will have all that. The destination doesn’t change, but the journey finds it’s own most colorful route to get her there. And as you know…you are most blessed and special to be the parents who will usher her through her life. Congratulations and continued blessings to you all.
Anonymous says
I’m reading your beautiful story with tears in my eyes. How blessed your daughter will be to have such love and support in her life.
Your life will be so much richer with this little angel in it. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. God bless.
Kimosphere says
You don’t know me, Kelle, but after reading your post I feel as if I’ve gotten to know you on a deeply personal level. Your story is so achingly beautiful that words fail me. Both your pain AND your joy over Nella’s birth have touched me to the core, and I’m so glad that God gave Nella such a beautiful mommy – both inside and out. Loving your “bunny” along with you, Kim
Anonymous says
nella is really and truly beautiful! makes me long to have another newborn. reading your story brought tears to my eyes. thank you for sharing.
Anonymous says
Thank you for the great story. I have 3 children and my middle child has Down Syndrome. My oldest daughter was 5 when she was born and loved being the big sister. She now is a teacher and loves children with special needs. My son is in college and they both turned out to being caring adults. Keep taking great pictures. Don’t forget you have a beautiful baby. Enjoy her and she will bring joy to all of you.
charlie says
thank you so much for sharing this. i was moved by the quality of your writing. thank you for letting me into such an intimate and beautiful moment in your life. i wish you and your family the very best life you can carry on from here.
i know you will. those amazing hearts of yours are shining like little lights in all our dreams.
charlie
Jenn says
Kelle, you are an inspiration and your girls are beautiful! Your husband seems amazingly supportive as well. Thank you for sharing such a heart-warming story. Lainey and Nella are beautiful!!!! God bless you and your family.
Anne NC says
Dear Kellie,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and the birth of your daughter, Nella Cordelia. I’ve been a Pediatric Nurse for over two decades and have loved and cared for many children with Down Syndrome. I’ve come to believe that extra chromosome contains nothing but love because they bring so much joy and love to everyone around them.
Every parent I’ve met who has a child with similar challenges has spoken of their initial doubts, just like yours, but yet, like you, they know they were meant to be the parents of their child and their lives have been fulfilled because of their children. You and your husband have my best wishes for a long and happy life together for your family filled with joy and love.
Anne NC says
Dear Kellie,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and the birth of your daughter, Nella Cordelia. I’ve been a Pediatric Nurse for over two decades and have loved and cared for many children with Down Syndrome. I’ve come to believe that extra chromosome contains nothing but love because they bring so much joy and love to everyone around them.
Every parent I’ve met who has a child with similar challenges has spoken of their initial doubts, just like yours, but yet, like you, they know they were meant to be the parents of their child and their lives have been fulfilled because of their children. You and your husband have my best wishes for a long and happy life together for your family filled with joy and love.
Anne NC says
Dear Kellie,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and the birth of your daughter, Nella Cordelia. I’ve been a Pediatric Nurse for over two decades and have loved and cared for many children with Down Syndrome. I’ve come to believe that extra chromosome contains nothing but love because they bring so much joy and love to everyone around them.
Every parent I’ve met who has a child with similar challenges has spoken of their initial doubts, just like yours, but yet, like you, they know they were meant to be the parents of their child and their lives have been fulfilled because of their children. You and your husband have my best wishes for a long and happy life together for your family filled with joy and love.
Anne NC says
Dear Kellie,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and the birth of your daughter, Nella Cordelia. I’ve been a Pediatric Nurse for over two decades and have loved and cared for many children with Down Syndrome. I’ve come to believe that extra chromosome contains nothing but love because they bring so much joy and love to everyone around them.
Every parent I’ve met who has a child with similar challenges has spoken of their initial doubts, just like yours, but yet, like you, they know they were meant to be the parents of their child and their lives have been fulfilled because of their children. You and your husband have my best wishes for a long and happy life together for your family filled with joy and love.
Anne NC says
Dear Kellie,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and the birth of your daughter, Nella Cordelia. I’ve been a Pediatric Nurse for over two decades and have loved and cared for many children with Down Syndrome. I’ve come to believe that extra chromosome contains nothing but love because they bring so much joy and love to everyone around them.
Every parent I’ve met who has a child with similar challenges has spoken of their initial doubts, just like yours, but yet, like you, they know they were meant to be the parents of their child and their lives have been fulfilled because of their children. You and your husband have my best wishes for a long and happy life together for your family filled with joy and love.
Anne NC says
Dear Kellie,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and the birth of your daughter, Nella Cordelia. I’ve been a Pediatric Nurse for over two decades and have loved and cared for many children with Down Syndrome. I’ve come to believe that extra chromosome contains nothing but love because they bring so much joy and love to everyone around them.
Every parent I’ve met who has a child with similar challenges has spoken of their initial doubts, just like yours, but yet, like you, they know they were meant to be the parents of their child and their lives have been fulfilled because of their children. You and your husband have my best wishes for a long and happy life together for your family filled with joy and love.
Anne NC says
Dear Kellie,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and the birth of your daughter, Nella Cordelia. I’ve been a Pediatric Nurse for over two decades and have loved and cared for many children with Down Syndrome. I’ve come to believe that extra chromosome contains nothing but love because they bring so much joy and love to everyone around them.
Every parent I’ve met who has a child with similar challenges has spoken of their initial doubts, just like yours, but yet, like you, they know they were meant to be the parents of their child and their lives have been fulfilled because of their children. You and your husband have my best wishes for a long and happy life together for your family filled with joy and love.
Anne NC says
Dear Kellie,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and the birth of your daughter, Nella Cordelia. I’ve been a Pediatric Nurse for over two decades and have loved and cared for many children with Down Syndrome. I’ve come to believe that extra chromosome contains nothing but love because they bring so much joy and love to everyone around them.
Every parent I’ve met who has a child with similar challenges has spoken of their initial doubts, just like yours, but yet, like you, they know they were meant to be the parents of their child and their lives have been fulfilled because of their children. You and your husband have my best wishes for a long and happy life together for your family filled with joy and love.
greystarshine says
I just read your story, and cannot stop crying. It is extraordinarily beautiful, and I applaud your candid honesty. I am currently suffering from a bit of postpartum depression and anxiety after the birth of my second daughter, and I want you to know that your bravery and strength lent me a moment of clarity and hope. Bless you and your family and precious little Nella.
milesmom says
I just read this entry and want to share this with you. The link connects you to my blog. My son was born hard of hearing and I found this on one of the support sites. You may have read this before but I think it is so true.
http://milesmeetsworld.blogspot.com/2008/12/welcome-to-holland.html
Anonymous says
WELCOME TO HOLLAND
by Emily Perl Kingsley
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability — to try to help people who have not shared the unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this …
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip — to Italy. You buy a bunch of guidebooks and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. Michelangelo’s “David.” The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The flight attendant comes and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!” you say. “What do you mean, Holland? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guidebooks. You must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around, and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills, Holland has tulips, Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy, and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say, “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever go away, because the loss of that dream is a very significant loss.
But if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things about Holland
Tony Mikelonis says
Your story is very touching Kelle, I knew as I was reading it, that you are a great mother!
I understand how hard it is to have a disability like Nella’s and how much it takes out of the parent to deal with these hardships. I am 24 now, but as a child I had a learning disorder and had to work twice as hard as the rest of my friends, and classmates just to keep up. I wont bore you with the details though.
Your children are very lucky to have a mother who cares so much, my mother and only parent passed away almost 3 years ago from cancer and not a day goes by that I don’t miss her. I hope your children realize what a blessing you are to be a part of their life as I’m sure they are to yours.
Keep us readers up to date! And God bless you and your wonderful children.
Anonymous says
You are lucky to experience a true challenge in your life and this bundle of joy will indefinitely shape you for the rest of your life.
I hope you become the mother you never thought you could be. Someone so loving and an unexpected version of your life, new and satisfying every day. The biggest and best surprise you could of ever had in store.
Thank you for writing down this blog, I’m only 18 and have never had a child but I understood everything you said in it, and yet am not even close to being in your shoes.
God bless you and your family.
Avni says
Dear Kellie,
My son is 2+yrs now who came into this world with this syndrome & lot of love for everyone. He had to struggle for over 2 mnths to battle with his life in NICU and was on ventilator as soon as he came in.
I’d collapsed when the docs gave me the hint on 10th day.. the blow was too hard to handle.. however I recovered and walked back to NICU to feed him.
You penned down exact emotions that can be captured for a mother who was waiting for the best part of her life and instead saw one of the pregnancy nightmares coming true.
Lot many people tell me god gives it to those who can handle & when I look back I really felt truimphant that yes I was able to handle with smile & few tears.
I now treat life as gaming levels… we were able to clear previous levels and hence given next level with increased difficulty.
JENN says
i have never commented on anything that i have read on line..but your story was just amazing i wish i could be as happy as you are one day.you have so much real emotion and love and your not afraid to put it out their…your family is beautiful..i cant wait to read more!
Dee Dee says
Beautiful birth story, and what a beautiful perfect baby girl.
Anonymous says
Kelle I love your story and how you let out all of your real emotions…my family was blessed with our 5th girl cousin a beautiful girl 6 years ago this month and she makes our family so happy! when we all get together she is the one that everyone is waiting for to run in the door , we cant wait to hear what she has learned and accomplished and it is so rewarding to see her acheive so much! Jaime lynn is so excited about everything in life and it makes me realize how good life really is. I just want to give you reassurance that everyday nella will bring you so much joy and she will be able to appreciate the things in life we take for granted. Trust me from haircuts, to taking the bus to school to the lights at the fair, she gets to experience these things on such an exciting level its beautiful! good luck and congrats on your gorgeous baby girl! Enjoy your girls your in for a fun ride!!
Kayla says
Wow is all I can say! I came across your story on my AOL homepage and it brought tears to my eyes. You are so blessed! Your daughters are absolutley gorgeous!God Bless you and your beautiful family!!
Anonymous says
Thanks so much for sharing your story. My Nella (Whitney) will turn 23 in a couple of months. I too knew…but no one confirmed…just denied trying to make me feel better I suppose. This went on for years and it was more troubling than the truth would ever be. So reading your sweet story & seeing your pictures make me remember and smile all those years ago. She is still the sweetest girl and will be with her Dad and I forever (I’m hoping). She has blessed our lives many times over. You will see this in your years to come.
Anonymous says
I’m speechless. What a beautiful story. Nella is absolutely beautiful. She is lucky to have you as her mother.
Anonymous says
Thank you for being so brutally honest and so breathtakingly loving. I am still drying tears from my eyes, but I feel joy.
I will be praying for your little bunny, and for you and Brett, and Lainey.
You rock, lady.
Anonymous says
Thank you for being so brutally honest and so breathtakingly loving. I am still drying tears from my eyes, but I feel joy.
I will be praying for your little bunny, and for you and Brett, and Lainey.
You rock, lady.
Bill says
You may be interested in watching our feature movie about a young man and woman with Down syndrome trying to make it in the work-a-day world. People with a family member with Down syndrome have told us that our story is very true-to-life. It was made here in Milwaukee on a very low budget. All 157 actors volunteered for free. Our movie got a week’s theater run and won an Accolade Award. You can get it here: http://www.steviemovie.com
LoveNella says
Your little angel is definately a gift from above, and I am certain she selected the best possible home to come to. You are very fortunate and so is Nella. God Bless your family. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I am profoundly moved.
Pam says
I happened onto your story on AOL and loved it so much. My older brother Terry was born with Down Syndrome in 1955. He was my parents 4th child. He had several health problems associated with DS and they were told he wouldn’t live to be a year old. Terry died in 1996 at age 40. I am not quite 3 years younger than him and we were very close growing up. He taught me so much even though he was severely retarded. He taught me to be a caring, compassionate person and to appreciate others for their differences. I miss him very much, and I hope your two girls have as special a relationship as I had with my brother.
Anaciano, Nora, Dani and James' Grandma says
Thank you.
Anonymous says
And it happened,. God said, CUT and the world stopped spinning . He gathered his children so close they shared one heartbeat and He wrapped them in love while the story unfolded. Unexpected pain and joy, a tale about sharing a miracle that may not seem so at first glance. The clinking of glasses, weeping tears of happiness and confusion. Celebrate. Oh yes, it is a spectacular event. Throw out the script. The one about to be written trumps all. Enter: Stage oh so right Nella.
Lily says
Your story (and Nella’s) is beautiful – thank you so much for sharing it with the world. A little late, but Congratulations! Also, the last photograph is absolutely stunning – Nella is such a cutie!
Lily says
Your story (and Nella’s) is beautiful – thank you so much for sharing it with the world. A little late, but Congratulations! Also, the last photograph is absolutely stunning – Nella is such a cutie!
WendyK says
Kelly, I have to say I don’t understand the questions being asked of you about the difficulty of writing on such a personal level—and shockingly, these questions are being asked by writers! As a writer myself, I wonder, for what other reason would one write? Good writing comes from the heart. The best writing comes from great emotion. Was this birth not wrought with great emotion? The question should have been: “How could you keep from writing it?” You will speak for all the mothers out there that do not find their way in life through the medium of writing. How could one ever think of any way of approaching such a task but by being forthright and personal? What good would it do for you or all the other mothers out there to simply gloss over all the things a mother goes through at times like these? There is good, there is terror, and everything in between. All need to be addressed to make any difference, any mark, any point, to even begin to be of any help. Of course you wrote on a deeply personal level, and you will continue to do so in your book. You will use your talent to reach out to the other mothers who do not have those wonderful friends that hauled you out of the abyss that dark night in January, and you will pass along the heart they lent you. You go girl.
Barbara says
Kelle, I loved your story. It is very close to mine. Our son, Sam, was born 1/22/09. We did not know that Sam had DS before he was born. I had all the same feelings you had. Sam has an older brother who loves him unconditionally – just like your Nella’s big sister. It is amazing what you see through a child’s eyes and what you see through God’s eyes. We are blessed – just like you – with our special gifts from God in Nella and Sam.
Connie V says
I believe that mothers of children with down syndrome will have a special place in Heaven. Thank you for sharing.
Anonymous says
I don’t know you personally. Someone forwarded this blog on a message board. I just wanted to say that your story has touched my heart in a way I never imagined possible. Good luck to you and your precious girls. God Bless.
Wani says
I think I went through four kleenexs while reading this post. I understand alot of the feelings that you described. Our was a gradual realization over time as we noticed more and more that our lil Joe was becoming more and more delayed. We still don’t have a definitive diagnosis to explain his global developmental delays. But he is about to turn three and still has yet to crawl or talk, etc. We still mourn the life that we imagined for him. But we celebrate the life he has and do our best to help him grow and develop to the best of his ability. He is a joy and a precious gift to us as I know your Nella is to you. God bless you.
Casey H. Morgan says
Thanks to you for your blog! I wept thankful, humbled tears as I read this. Your journey so different yet something similar to mine. I was expecting a little girl to be born 11/29/08 and who arrived 11/11/08 was a little boy; weak and fragile, not breathing, and developmentally “lacking”; PERFECT yet unfamiliar to me. I couldn’t touch my son, see him or have the opportunity to bond with him in those crucial first hours. He spent his first night in the world in a hospital a town away from me with stragers, while I lay in tears, fear and self absorbed sorrow in my hospital bed. I spent the next 24 days visiting my son in a NICU. In shock, mourning the loss of the perfectly healthy daughter that never materialized, and fear while learning to bond with my struggling angel through tubes, wires and constant clatter in that hospital. My son is now 16 months and learning; growing not by the charts in every baby book, but by his own timeline. Perfect in every way. I’ve learned his perfection is his imperfection. Thank you for having the strength to put in words so much I have felt. I never had the courage to admit that I mourned for the life I was convinced my son would never have, when in part to be honest I was mourning for me, what I was to be missing out watching him do. Truth is, I’m not missing out on anything just as you aren’t. Just as my TJ is, your Nella is perfection! I can see it in the precious little upturns in the corners of her mouth! God Bless you and your wonderful, blessed family!!!
-Casey
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your story with us so deeply and honestly. It is beautiful.
Anonymous says
Just discovered your blog and I am compelled to write to say that I am so humbled and tocuhed by your beautiful story. Your family is perfect and your Nella is perfect. She is an angel and a gift. God bless.
theconfidentmom says
WOW – Incredible and just plain beautiful! What God does in our lives we never know or understand, but it sounds like to me He knew just what He was doing by giving your such a beautiful little girl.
Anonymous says
I’m not the mother of a downs syndrom baby but I have taken care of people with it. These people are from a day and time when parents with a D.S. baby were told to leave them and forget they ever existed. They are in so many ways lost treasures. Everything important in my adult life I learned from them, every simple, forgotten but oh so important truth. I would like to share some with you.
STOP! smell the flowers they are small miricals.
Even the simple things are great accomplishments.
Dinner time IS play time.
No matter what love IS unconditional.
Everyone deserves a smile.
So much can be said in scilence.
And most improtantly … santa IS real!
I feel blessed and privilaged to have spent time with the people that taught me this and so much more. I am lucky to have been reminded of knowledge. Though it seems small and unimportant it is also powerful. Before my time with them I would have blown off or scoffed at such statements but now I remeber them as simple truths that will stay with me through out my lifetime. I am blessed and so are you.
With love,
me
Susette says
I have always known I was not alone but it is always supportive to hear another mother’s story! Few women can feel past the shame to experience the real gift that these extraordinary children offer us…freedom from an un-authentic Life!
You may or may not be interested in our journey towards stem cell therapy for DS…if you are, see my blog: Sophia’s Stem Cell Journey
Blessings, Susette
LoneMeadowLark says
I don’t think there is anything I can say that hasn’t already been said, but I couldn’t not say something after reading this beautiful story. You captured every detail with so exquisitely that I felt as if I had been there. (My husband came in very distraught because he could her me sobbing from the next room!)
Your concerns of how worried you were about your oldest daughter no longer being your only were poignant for me too, as that was something I spent much of my time fretting over. I had nothing to worry about, however, for she is the best big sister her brother could have asked for!
Anyway, I wanted to thank you for sharing this story. You have such a wonderful, beautiful family! Just pure perfection!
LittleBird2002 says
Thank you for sharing your experience so eloquently! I feel as if you captured my own birth story in your words–I shared so many of your same feelings. You brought me to tears remembering those initial dark hours, and the feeling as if the child I had carried for 9 months was snatched away and replaced with a complete stranger. I could also related to having another child at home and how I felt with absolutely certainity that this new stranger will surely destroy his life. Oh, how wrong I was!! My baby turned 8in February. She has brought so much love, life, happiness, and tons of new friends into our lives. I promise you that you are in for a wonderful journey filled with unimaginable moments of utter joy and happiness! I truly believe my daughter is a living breathing angel on this earth. And a constant reminder that there are much more important things in life than wood floors….lol! Thank you for sharing Nella with us. Your family is beautiful! Congratulations!
Anonymous says
Your story is beautiful. I cried because I felt your pain and your joy. I also cried because I know how it feels to have your dreams change. My 5 year old son has Aspergers Syndrome. When we got the diagnosis, our lives changed forever. We are amazed by him and how much he overcomes. Thank you for your story. It reminds me that we are indeed lucky to have such a wonderful boy in our lives! Thank you for sharing your amazing journey! Heidi in TX.
Anonymous says
Your story is beautiful. I cried because I felt your pain and your joy. I also cried because I know how it feels to have your dreams change. My 5 year old son has Aspergers Syndrome. When we got the diagnosis, our lives changed forever. We are amazed by him and how much he overcomes. Thank you for your story. It reminds me that we are indeed lucky to have such a wonderful boy in our lives! Thank you for sharing your amazing journey! Heidi in TX.
Anonymous says
You told a beautiful story about a real life sitation that many parents experience. I admire the way you were able to redefine ‘perfect’ after Nella’s birth.
I don’t know you at all, but you have a touching story that I believe will only bring more joy to your life each day.
chksngr says
Oh, my gosh, your girls are SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL! I love this story. Thank you for having the courage to tell it like it is. Its amazing and uplifting and like a thousand beautiful flowers growing in a field. I LOVE this story! Its AMAZING!! Congratulations to you and your family on your new “bunny”!!!
Mayra says
I cried as I read your story. Thank you for sharing this experience. Your daughters are absolutely beautiful! I love the pictures.
God Bless!
Mayra
Krista Kerns says
Thank you for sharing such an incredible story. You are an amazing mother & I pray that I get the opportunity to have children to love the way you love yours.
In Christ’s Love,
Krista Kerns*
Anonymous says
You brought tears to my eyes reading your story. It makes me want to hug my daughter just one more time during the day, to take 5 more extra minutes to spend with her and laugh with her, to color just one more page of the colorng book, to throw flour in the air when we are making cookies just to hear her laugh. Thank you for affirming the love mothers have for daughters and making me think of how to make just one more moment special throughout the day on top of all the others my daughter and I already have. God bless
Anonymous says
You brought tears to my eyes reading your story. It makes me want to hug my daughter just one more time during the day, to take 5 more extra minutes to spend with her and laugh with her, to color just one more page of the colorng book, to throw flour in the air when we are making cookies just to hear her laugh. Thank you for affirming the love mothers have for daughters and making me think of how to make just one more moment special throughout the day on top of all the others my daughter and I already have. God bless
Anonymous says
I literally sat at my desk for a half an hour and cried at the beauty of your story. My biggest goal today when I leave my office is going to be to go home and hold my Jacob until he cant stand me anymore. Congratulations on your VERY beautiful and perfect daughter! And thank you for sharing what has without a doubt touched my soul. Jen
Anonymous says
Thank you! Very nicely written and such beautiful pictures. Now, if only I could stop crying. There will be days when you doubt yourself or wonder what the future is going to hold for Nella so take the time to relive your journey. To feel those raw emotions. She is just a doll!
Mom to 2 both with DS.
katekeetch says
wow! you are so brave, i cant tell you in words how your story has touched my heart. both your daughters are beautiful and you are too. ill be praying for you and your wonderful family <3
Anonymous says
I have just read the story Of Nella’a Birth. All I can think of is that you are so blessed to have been chosen by God to take care of one of his Earth Angels. Congratulations on coming through the other side of pain to nothing but love and pure joy.
With admiration and respect,
Karen
Matthew says
Congratulations on your amazing gift. She was most definitely chosen for you! 🙂
It’s amazing to think of how the gifts He gives sometimes go without notice. I’m touched to see that you recognize what you have been given.
Prayers for you and your family.
~Matt
Rosbud333 says
Kelle,
Your story touched my soul on so many levels. As a mother of 3, your honest, raw emotions are so brave and I believe your story of love will touch every person who reads it.
You have 2 beautiful daughters – treasure them and know that you will have that life you dreamed of…my youngest sister brought more joy to our family than could have ever been imagined.
Love on Girlfriend and post often so we can all follow the adventures, smiles and tears of sweet Nella’s incredible journey of life.
You are truly blessed
Barb says
You have a beautiful family and friends and I love you even though I just met you. You are all in my prayers especially your little Easter Bunny!
Bev says
Thank you. I dont’ know you but I Just LOVE you. congratulation on the beautiful new addition to your family.
Tanita says
Like so many others who have commented on your amazing story, you do not know me. But I wanted to tell you that I feel like I got to spend the last 10 minutes of my life with you and your story. Thank you. Thank you for your amazing story, and for light that you shine. You shine through this story. In the 10 minutes that I spent lost in your story, I felt the warmth of you and your heart. Thank you. Not only is Nella a beautiful name, but also a beautiful child as well. I will be praying for you and your family, and again, just thank you. This is one of the most amazing articles I have ever read.
Tanner Pemelton says
Like so many others who have commented on your amazing story, you do not know me. But I wanted to tell you that I feel like I got to spend the last 10 minutes of my life with you and your story. Thank you. Thank you for your amazing story, and for light that you shine. You shine through this story. In the 10 minutes that I spent lost in your story, I felt the warmth of you and your heart. Thank you. Not only is Nella a beautiful name, but also a beautiful child as well. I will be praying for you and your family, and again, just thank you. This is one of the most amazing articles I have ever read.
Mrs.set.element says
I clicked on the link an old friend posted, and so I don’t know you. But I’ve spent the last 15 minutes crying. So hard at one point that my first born asked me why I was crying, and if I was ok. I had to explain that I was reading a story about a baby, and that it was sad and happy, and that it made me think of him and his little brother.
So thank you for writing this with such honesty. She is beautiful.
Heather says
Kelle,
Thank you so much for such an intimate, beautiful look at your journey through this wonderfully amazing journey called life. I am so very grateful to have read your story. My love is with you all and nothing can compare ever to the joy I feel in seeing the pics of Nell and especially the light and love of her smile!!! This is one of the beautiful life experiences that be a footprint on my heart always. With so much gratitude & love to you and yours!!!
Heather L
Very blessed we all are 🙂
Susan says
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. I was touched by your words…I could not stop crying. God has blessed you with such a wonderful family! Best of luck in everything you do!
Anonymous says
You have a beautiful family and wonderful friends/extended family. My 9-year-old son has Fragile X Syndrome. We didn’t choose to be in the “special needs world” but it’s very often the greatest group I never wanted to join. You will have so much support through the years as you go along with journey. Enjoy your girls every day! (especially when they’re small enough to cuddle – that is the best!) All the best to you.
Mary Beth/Michigan
KatieButler says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful birth story. Welcome to the world, Nella Cordelia!
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Beautiful, all of it, your story, the pictures and your girls!
Karen says
Brett & Family– Brett, you may not remember me, but your Grandma (Colleen’s Mom Ethel) and my grandpa were married long ago (Milton Gustafson). I stumbled on this through some friends on Facebook. Crazy how I know someone in this story!
Its simply–wonderful. Thank you for sharing. We have three girls, the first of which is adopted. Though different, I can relate to alot of what you write.
Please take care and love those baby girls!
Love, Karen Gustafson-Bryant
mamatree says
Oh, thank you for writing this. I don’t even know where to begin. I sobbed through your painful and honest parts because I remember thinking and feeling those same things. Our son was born with a cleft lip and palate and coded twice during a hospital procedure. His blog is http://www.josiahko.wordpress.com. My husband and I have recently talked about writing his story out for him. Every thought and feeling. So that he can have it. This post just rocked me. I am truly blown away by your words. Wow. Thank you so much for being so real. I am inspired beyond words.
Anonymous says
What a beautiful beautiful love story……and a beautiful perfect baby girl.
Little Nella…..the epitome of Love.
Anonymous says
What a beautiful beautiful love story……and a beautiful perfect baby girl.
Little Nella…..the epitome of Love.
Anonymous says
Each of us harbors secret fears that we may me unlovable because of our imperfections. When your heart expands to fully embrace your sweet Nella, we are all healed. There is hope. The world is a safer and more beautiful place for everyone. Thank you for being yourself and sharing your beautiful story.
Anonymous says
Each of us harbors secret fears that we may me unlovable because of our imperfections. When your heart expands to fully embrace your sweet Nella, we are all healed. There is hope. The world is a safer and more beautiful place for everyone. Thank you for being yourself and sharing your beautiful story.
Anonymous says
Each of us harbors secret fears that we may me unlovable because of our imperfections. When your heart expands to fully embrace your sweet Nella, we are all healed. There is hope. The world is a safer and more beautiful place for everyone. Thank you for being yourself and sharing your beautiful story.
Anonymous says
Thank You Mrs. Hampton.
I am 12 years old and that story made me want to cry.
I will alway remember your blog…
I will look at it to remember.
Praise God
Anonymous says
My word…your words are so expresive of a magical moment in time – sharing is caring – and by sharing you obvioulsy care! Both your daughters are equally special and beautiful – how is Brett managing? He looks so kind and loving… My thoughts and hugs and kisses go out to you all xoxo
Mónica Araúz says
Está preciosa tu Bebé! Felicidades!
jenny says
I’m 16 weeks pregnant with my son Jack who has DS, it was lovely to read your post and may show it to others xxx
ChristinaMyers says
I read this after clicking on a link on Rosie O’Donnell’s website. Thank God I did — you have given me a gift. Thank you for sharing your beautiful family. You are brave and beautiful. I see where you get it — I read some of your father’s comments — he appears to have a loving soul like you do.
KatieShea says
This was beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing. Your rawness and realism drove me to tears.
Anonymous says
I don’t know how I happened upon your blog- but I did and have read all of your enteries up until this one. You have inspired me to be a better person, mom, and wife- and to love more. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish I could convey in words (as you do so well) how reading your blog makes me feel- happy, inspired, and loving my life and family more. THANK YOU!
Maureen says
Hi Kelle — I just read your story. I am the blessed and proud mother of beautiful nine-year- old boy with Down Syndrome. As you already know, all children pose challenges and a child with Down Syndrome is no different. There will be stress and unique hurdles to overcome. But that seems to be the same with all children. We cannot predict the future of or what we might face with any child. BUT, your baby will never be jealous, envious, hateful, distrusting, materialistic, bigoted, or unkind. She will always be generous with her love. I often feel that my son, and others with Down Syndrome, are the best of who the rest of us are supposed to be — that we are the ones with disabilities. My son has made our home a better place and has made me a better and more patient mother. He has reached into the hearts of his older sister and younger brother bringing forth potential they may not have had the opportuunity to express without him. He is the apple of our eyes. My son has a wonderful sense of humor. He is bright, fun, observant, sensitive and full of personality. I know your daughter is, too. God bless you for sharing your story and God bless your family… He already has.
Maureen says
Hi Kelle — I just read your story. I am the blessed and proud mother of beautiful nine-year- old boy with Down Syndrome. As you already know, all children pose challenges and a child with Down Syndrome is no different. There will be stress and unique hurdles to overcome. But that seems to be the same with all children. We cannot predict the future of or what we might face with any child. BUT, your baby will never be jealous, envious, hateful, distrusting, materialistic, bigoted, or unkind. She will always be generous with her love. I often feel that my son, and others with Down Syndrome, are the best of who the rest of us are supposed to be — that we are the ones with disabilities. My son has made our home a better place and has made me a better and more patient mother. He has reached into the hearts of his older sister and younger brother bringing forth potential they may not have had the opportuunity to express without him. He is the apple of our eyes. My son has a wonderful sense of humor. He is bright, fun, observant, sensitive and full of personality. I know your daughter is, too. God bless you for sharing your story and God bless your family… He already has.
Maureen says
Hi Kelle — I just read your story. I am the blessed and proud mother of beautiful nine-year- old boy with Down Syndrome. As you already know, all children pose challenges and a child with Down Syndrome is no different. There will be stress and unique hurdles to overcome. But that seems to be the same with all children. We cannot predict the future of or what we might face with any child. BUT, your baby will never be jealous, envious, hateful, distrusting, materialistic, bigoted, or unkind. She will always be generous with her love. I often feel that my son, and others with Down Syndrome, are the best of who the rest of us are supposed to be — that we are the ones with disabilities. My son has made our home a better place and has made me a better and more patient mother. He has reached into the hearts of his older sister and younger brother bringing forth potential they may not have had the opportuunity to express without him. He is the apple of our eyes. My son has a wonderful sense of humor. He is bright, fun, observant, sensitive and full of personality. I know your daughter is, too. God bless you for sharing your story and God bless your family… He already has.
Maureen says
Hi Kelle — I just read your story. I am the blessed and proud mother of beautiful nine-year- old boy with Down Syndrome. As you already know, all children pose challenges and a child with Down Syndrome is no different. There will be stress and unique hurdles to overcome. But that seems to be the same with all children. We cannot predict the future of or what we might face with any child. BUT, your baby will never be jealous, envious, hateful, distrusting, materialistic, bigoted, or unkind. She will always be generous with her love. I often feel that my son, and others with Down Syndrome, are the best of who the rest of us are supposed to be — that we are the ones with disabilities. My son has made our home a better place and has made me a better and more patient mother. He has reached into the hearts of his older sister and younger brother bringing forth potential they may not have had the opportuunity to express without him. He is the apple of our eyes. My son has a wonderful sense of humor. He is bright, fun, observant, sensitive and full of personality. I know your daughter is, too. God bless you for sharing your story and God bless your family… He already has.
Anonymous says
Oh my, what a BEAUTIFUL story! This link was posted on Rosie O’Donnell’s blog – that’s how I found you. Thank you for sharing your story. Nella is gloriously beautiful in every way, along with the rest of your family. When you’re having a rough day, just remember that God will never give you anything that you can’t handle. Take care and bless you all.
Anonymous says
oh my God, there are hot tears running down my face. seriously, the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. You are an amazing woman, with an amazing support network. Your daughter is so beautiful and so blessed to have you as her mama. God bless you & your family!! and thanks for the courage to share this journey.
Lemon Deb says
my goodness~ i just saw your link on the Rosie site and clicked and read the most beautiful post ~
the photos captured are just Beautiful*
you’re so lucky to have such a Beautiful baby girl*
I know she has shown you more Love than you ever thought you would feel~
God Bless your family*
tf says
love is love. there is no way that you and your family could ever be MORE perfect and beautiful. i am so happy for your love. it makes my heart feel good. thanks.
reenie says
welcome Nella, and welcome Kelle, to many years of cupcakes…….. it’ll be perfect. I promise
pattie says
kelle, how right your sister was that you were chosen. you have a gift and this child will blossom because of what you be able to share with her. in return, she will share her eternal sunshine with you always. thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. always know that you are stronger than you think you are. peace and love to you and your beautiful family.
Terrace Crawford says
Kelle, this is one of the most moving, beautiful blog post I’ve ever read. Thank you. May God bless your sweet family.
–Terrace Crawford
http://www.terracecrawford.com
http://www.twitter.com/terracecrawford
Natalie says
Thank you for opening your world to us, and making this world a better place, I cried my eyes out with you, reading your story. God bless you and your family
Anonymous says
Kelle- Thank you for writing this. Reading about the birth of your daughter made me and my husband recall the day of our daughter’s birth. Sofia also has DS, which we didn’t know before she was born. When we were first told about the DS, the doctor was still stitching up the c-section. It was such a shock, so unreal! She went right to intensive care…and for the first day, I refused to see her. I kept thinking she wasn’t my child, that I didn’t want her. It hurts to write that now….9 months later we are some of the happiest parents I’ve ever met. Our daughter Sofia is such a blessing and we would never have her be any different. We wish you and your family the best of luck…we promise you only happiness with your beautiful Nella!
Jocelyn says
She is beautiful. Her story is such an amazing story. She is so blessed to have you as a mother!
Marcia says
You fortunate and beautiful woman. I made the mistake of not having children. You get to raise a daughter who is angel (Lainey) and an angel who is your daughter (Nella). May you continue to be as honest and “healing” to others as you’ve been in this blog. Thank you.
Lindsay says
I read Nella’s birth story for the first time last night with tears streaming down my face. I was so blown away by your honesty and the love I could FEEL coming from this post. Since then I have not been able to get you, your family and your precious little Nella off my mind. I’ve spent all my free moments today (aka naptime) reading the posts since Nella’s birth and I am just so touched. Nella IS going to change the world. She’s already changed mine. Thank you so much for sharing her with us.
Jodi says
I don’t know your family, but I was recommended to view this story. I can’t tell you how moved I am. I cried my eyes out reading your words, but my tears were with love and joy for you. Your daughter is SO beautiful. I would take her in a heartbeat. Seeing the pictures of her just makes a person fall in love. From one mother to another, thank you for sharing your story. I now feel like if this ever happens to me, everything will be alright. God Bless Nella and your family.
tootie says
Your post made me cry! What a beautiful story, and I can’t wait to read more. Happy birthday to your sweet girl!
MrsB says
I just wanted to say that this is the single most powerful birth story I have ever read. I have four children of my own and I know what it is like to look at your child, still warm from the womb and know that they are different. What I do know though, is that often we don’t choose our babies, our babies choose us, and I think that Nella chose you to be her Mother, because she knew that she needed someone extra special. Much love to you all. xoxo
Anonymous says
She is a beautiful angel from heaven.
claudia says
I have had to come back here 3 times to read and see the pictures and each time it has touched this mom on such a deep level I have sat here and just cried. It is so beautiful and honest and filled with so much love. Thank you for sharing your words and amazing pictures and this story . A beautiful family, your daughters, you are so blessed .. and your perfect little daughter Nella, an angel. May God continue to bless and watch over you all .
Renel says
I felt your pain and then your love through every word. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story.
me says
Wow. God Bless u and ur family
u taught me a lot 2day
Meghan Klassen says
i have no idea who you are. a friend sent me the link to your blog because i am a preschool special ed teacher and i have worked with lots of kiddos with down syndrome. as you already know, you were so blessed to be surrounded by such love and support on nella’s birthday. i wish and pray for all families of children with special needs that they could have this love and support (and beautiful photos!) when their children are born. one of our school parents is actually working with docs here in austin to train them to develop a bedside manner for births of children with special needs. . .to first say “congratulations! your child is beautiful!” before conveying nervous glances or avoiding questions about any challenges the baby might face.
you have such a beautiful perspective, so quickly after nella’s birth. this takes YEARS for many of our parents. but you are absolutely right– nella is perfect, just the child you were meant to have, and she is a blessing to this world. she will teach people compassion, patience, understanding and a appreciation for diversity of ability. CONGRATULATIONS, mama!
Mary Ann says
What a beautiful description of your journey. Our children grew up from nursery days with a little D.S. boy named Joey who is now a young adult. He was a blessing to our entire parish family and now works at a bakery that serves the school systme and other organizations. He is so friendly and good. These children are truly angelic which just goes to prove that God Doesn’t Make Mistakes. And if you haven’t seen the video go here. http://lesfemmes-thetruth.blogspot.com/2009/06/celebrate-life-especially-gods-special.html
Anonymous says
Dear Kelle,
I am sitting here just overwhelmed by your blog about your daughter’s birth. I was 41 when I got pregnant with my son. I’m a special ed teacher and many fears about raising a child with disabilities when I would be working all day with children who were dealing with many of those same issues. Although I really never wanted an amnio, I gave in and had one because I felt at least I would know and be prepared.
As it turns out, my son did not have DS. He is my pride and joy.
After reading your blog though and feeling the gut wrenching emotions you had when Nella was born, I realize that I was afraid for all of the wrong reasons. Nella is blessed to have a mommy who is honest about who she is, how she is feeling and knows that she was given a blessing. Thank you for sharing your story. Every word made me feel blessed and complete gratitude to you for reminding me of what is important.
bless you all,
jill
Brittany says
You are amazing. Thank you for telling your story. Your girls are beautiful and perfect and truly tiny blessings from God! I know that the love you feel for them will only grow with every passing day. You will find the strength to make it through the hard times and the joys of living through the wonderful times. God bless you and your family. You have given me the strength to face whatever might come my way. Sometimes it is the things that are the most unexpected that give us the ability to live our lives better. <3
SJ says
Bravo to you. It’s only the beginning–and my god, what gorgeous photos. What camera do you use??
Congratulations, sincerely. Blessings to you.
SJ says
Bravo to you. It’s only the beginning–and my god, what gorgeous photos. What camera do you use??
Congratulations, sincerely. Blessings to you.
Katy-the-Lady says
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING! One of my friends sent me a link to this post. I am pregnant with my third baby and had part of the placenta tear away at 16 weeks (only 2 weeks ago). When I went to the OBGYN this week things were looking better and most of the bleeding had stopped and we were beginning to have hope…until my Quad screening results came back. I have a 1 in 10 chance that this baby with have Down Syndrome (and for my age it should be only 1 in 800…so this is very significant). We won’t be able to meet with the perinatologist until the 14th of April. Reading your post tonight has given me hope that if our baby does have Down Syndrome it won’t be the “end of the world!” We can love him, just as you have learned to love Nella. Thanks again! Katy
eutra_phalia says
thank you for sharing your beautiful story – what a wonderful, perfect family you have! Much love, Pria
Dr. Deb says
Beautiful.
Just beautiful.
Anonymous says
It’s 8:43 P.M. my oldest boy is at a friends for a sleep over, he’s 4. Gauge is sleeping in his crib, he’s 2 as of 3 days ago. He’s the one who has caused my tears as I read your life here in black and white. He was born with a cleft. I think your feelings of emptiness or my thoughts were what did we do to deserve this are just, they just need to be put in perspective and it sounds like that has been accomplished for you all. I know those feelings as well, it can always be better or worse. I would rather smile than frown, it feels better…lol
Knowledge Safari says
Wow! What an amazing birth/family story! We will be linking your site in a post on the blog portion of our website next week.
http://www.knowledgesafari.com – we are a new social network for parents and families who have children with special needs. We’d love for you to join us to connect with others!
What a beautiful family you have!
Knowledge Safari says
Wow! What an amazing birth/family story! We will be linking your site in a post on the blog portion of our website next week.
http://www.knowledgesafari.com – we are a new social network for parents and families who have children with special needs. We’d love for you to join us to connect with others!
What a beautiful family you have!
Knowledge Safari says
Wow! What an amazing birth/family story! We will be linking your site in a post on the blog portion of our website next week.
http://www.knowledgesafari.com – we are a new social network for parents and families who have children with special needs. We’d love for you to join us to connect with others!
What a beautiful family you have!
Knowledge Safari says
Wow! What an amazing birth/family story! We will be linking your site in a post on the blog portion of our website next week.
http://www.knowledgesafari.com – we are a new social network for parents and families who have children with special needs. We’d love for you to join us to connect with others!
What a beautiful family you have!
Knowledge Safari says
Wow! What an amazing birth/family story! We will be linking your site in a post on the blog portion of our website next week.
http://www.knowledgesafari.com – we are a new social network for parents and families who have children with special needs. We’d love for you to join us to connect with others!
What a beautiful family you have!
Knowledge Safari says
Wow! What an amazing birth/family story! We will be linking your site in a post on the blog portion of our website next week.
http://www.knowledgesafari.com – we are a new social network for parents and families who have children with special needs. We’d love for you to join us to connect with others!
What a beautiful family you have!
Knowledge Safari says
Wow! What an amazing birth/family story! We will be linking your site in a post on the blog portion of our website next week.
http://www.knowledgesafari.com – we are a new social network for parents and families who have children with special needs. We’d love for you to join us to connect with others!
What a beautiful family you have!
Victoria Masterman says
Thankyou for having the courage to share your beautiful heart felt story, you had me in tears.
Congratulations on the safe arrival of Nella, a precious addition to your gorgeous family.
take care xxoo
Jennifer says
Wow is about all I can say! I too have a child with Ds. He turned 4 on January 31. I found out before he was born but I remember feeling everything you felt. Feeling like the child I had been carrying “died” the minute I found out he had Ds. Feeling like I just wanted to run away from the situation. The joy I had felt from those precious baby kicks suddenly brought me grief. I did get better, but throughout my pregnancy he was a diagnosis. But the minute he was born, I said his name and he looked up at me like he recognized my voice and knew I was his mama. From then on I fell in complete love with him. And what a joyous ride it has been!!! Your story brought back so many of the memories and feelings I had from that time in my life. I was bawling through every word but the tears were not the same ones I had cried 4 years ago. No, this time the tears were not filled with pain because now I can look back at that time of my life and say, “WOW! Everything really did turn out ok! Better than ok!” I would never change my little Austin! Best wishes to you and Nella!
Deb says
Kelle,
I just read Nella’s story & my heart has been touched in the most beautiful way…
I feel humbled & honoured to share some of your life. Nella has chosen the perfect Mama to Mother her & she in turn is your perfect daughter. I have no doubt that the road may have some sharp turns along the way… Other times the rises will be gentle and undulating… However, by your side will be your husband & your two beautiful daughters.
Your strength, courage, humility & grace Kelle are special. What came through for me most strongly is your inherent “goodness” & beauty.
Thankyou for sharing this beautiful story, beautiful photos… Thankyou.
with love & Blessings,
Deb (Maleny Australia)
I swear says
Jeez. In a great and wonderful way. Jeez. First let me get the me part out of the way. I cried. Alot. At first because of how scary it would be to know everything would be different than what was to be expected.
You are so strong for just embracing this and moving on to find the joy this baby could bring you.
I wish you the best of luck.
Thank you for making me feel something so real.
tallulahnscarlettsmama says
dearest kelle+family,thank you for sharing your beautiful experience with us.i sobbed,but i am so glad ur darling little nella chose you to be her mama.nella+lacey are the most precious poppets+you should be very proud.i am in love with your poppa by the way!hugs,love+enjoy your girls:0)
Anonymous says
May I share this with my High School seniors? Blessed are you!
jess says
you honor BOTH of your perfect, beautiful girls with your honest and loving telling of your family’s journey.
nearly a year ago, i wrote the following letter to a friend whose daughter was being diagnosed with autism (like mine). after publishing it, i found that it had somehow made its way to a forum for parents of infants with ds. while there are certainly differences in our experiences, it seems that they are far outweighed by the common bond of loving a child. i called the post ‘welcome to the club.’
http://adiaryofamom.wordpress.com/2009/05/01/welcome-to-the-club/
all the best to you and your family and thank you – thank you for sharing your story.
Anonymous says
How could I not share this blog link with almost everyone I know! With or without having a special needs child we all have hurdles we will one day face during our own lifetime and with five children their own challenges in facing this big beautiful sometimes scary uncertain world.
Anonymous says
PS: A special shout out to R Blog (Rosie O’donnell) for posting the link on her website!
She has yet again shared what she loved and opened up yet another window to her eager loyal bloggers.
Kelle you now have an add. fan! Your story was like opening up a new present as a child on Christmas morning. I couldn’t get enough of it to fill my soul and heal some of my minor life pangs. A new window has been opened in my heart due to you…you truly are an inspriation.
I would like to give a shout out to your parents since they must have raised and cultivated gentle loving spirts in their children.
Luvily says
Wow. Tears streaming down my cheeks. Absolutely beautiful. Beautiful family. Beautiful Nella.
Shannon @ Lifelong Impressions says
Congratulations! I loved reading your story. There will be many more beautiful chapters in your life. Through pain & sorrow we grow & our capacity to love, really love, grows exponentially.
Nancy says
Kellee, I am a pediatric Occupational Therapist who works in early intervention. I have some very beautiful families who would really identify with your story and I will pass this on to them. Thanks so much for sharing. Your girls are beautiful and perfect!
Nancy says
Kellee, I am a pediatric Occupational Therapist who works in early intervention. I have some very beautiful families who would really identify with your story and I will pass this on to them. Thanks so much for sharing. Your girls are beautiful and perfect!
TN says
Thank you for this gift.
My New Year’s resolution was/is to do a better job loving my path. It’s not the path I would have chosen, but it’s the path I’m on. I want to love the journey and not waste precious time on wishing for what isn’t and what might have been.
Thank you for sharing your story and reminding me of my resolution. Your family is beautiful and perfect.
Brenda F says
After starting this I had to plug my computer in to keep my battery from stopping. I had to finish, There was just no place that I could stop. This was the warmest, most heartfelt thing I have read in years. I found this off of a blog I have read for years. She is pregnant and has received a lot of grief lately because of her choice not to be checked for ds.It is her baby now and she will love it no matter if the rest
of the world views it as perfect or not. As this baby just may be. Or not. God bless you, your Husband and your two beautiful daughters. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
Brenda F.
Mesa AZ.
Abby says
WOW!! What a powerful story. Thank you for your honesty, your story is beautiful, your family is beautiful.. I hope you all have a wonderful life, you are an amazing family..
zacharysmom says
A friend sent me the blog of Nella’s birth on Friday and you captured every emotion perfectly… so much so that I posted it for all my friends to read and understand what I went through. My son was born January 11th and was immediately taken to the NICU (i had meconium in my water when it broke)to be checked out. Hours went by and he was still in the NICU, a genetist came to our room and asked to speak to my husband and I alone… my heart sank. Our families left the room and we were hit with the overwhelming news. I am so happy to find your story and know that I am not alone, I look forward to your future posts and photos. Your Nella is just beautiful. She makes one of my favorite faces of Zachary… the birdy lip :o)
Beverly says
This is an amazing and most beautiful journey for you, family members and friends. Thank you for sharing it. The sweet little girls are blessed to have you all.
Kelle, you are an awesome person!
Beverly
Laura says
This was one of the truest testimonies of love and family. I sobbed through it and fell passionately in love with your gorgeous family – extended as well as immediate. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing
Anonymous says
I’m not a mother, but a 26 year old daughter. There are so many times that I could only dream of the mother’s love and acceptance you give to your sweet daughters. I beg you to never look at them and ask for more. They are everything they are meant to be, and you are everything they could need.
Jeanna says
what an amazing story! thank you for sharing your honest story! you and your daughters are beautiful!
Claudine says
I am sitting here with tears in my eyes. My little man just turned 4 this past Tuesday. Your story up to Nella’s birth and your feelings were just as mine. I have an older daughter who was 2 1/2 at the time of my son’s birth. I think half my tears were for her. Now, at 6 years old she is so amazing and the most loving child you could meet. Her Kindergarten teacher wrote a paragraph about each student and one comment for my daughter was “Her love for her brother.” That said it all. Your daughters will form the most wonderful bond. The love my daugher and son have for each other is extraordinary. I often contemplate life and the whys and why nots. I truly believe my son is here to bring love and happiness to everyone. His innocence and pureness is a gift. Enjoy all your gifts!! Embrace your family and friends and please tell your pediatrician how wonderful she is. I only wish we were told with such grace. Remember it is ok to feel whatever you feel. You are her mother and only a parent truly knows. My son has taught me what really matters in life. What greater gift is there than love????
Anonymous says
kelle~
i was just passed this and teared up all the way thru your beautiful story. thank you for sharing and congrats on taking the first steps in writing it all down. from here it will flow like honey. she is beautiful and has the most precious name. God is so proud of you!
i have a friend who went thru the same thing you did, 3 years ago this april. she has gone on now to start many charities and help out with them as well. her son was around the same age as your oldest at the time of his sisters birth.
my heart goes out to you and being a mother of children, i can only imagine what you went thru. you are very courageous and beyond all blessed! you have a great network of friends and i know God will use them to see you thru. God Bless my friend, and hold tight.
Queenie Jeannie says
I am only just now finding you and your blog and your story……
Thank you. Thank you for your honesty and for sharing your beautiful story with us! I’m in tears, good ones, at the greatness of our God and the life He gives us.
Blessings for your whole family!
Khali says
Your words have moved me in a way I will ALWAYS remember. How lucky your daughter are to have you, and you to have them. xx
kim @ stellacake says
What a beautiful story. Your Nella is gorgeous and she has found herself with such a wonderful and gracious mother.
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cathiehong says
i’m just a stranger, but came across your blog, and my heart was so touched & pierced by the truth of your words. it truly was a beautiful birth story, and both of your girls are amazing. i’m sure there will be ups & downs in this new journey of yours, but i’m so confident that God’s grace will be sufficient to carry you through them all. How He loves!!
Brittany says
Kelle! Wow, the story of your daughters birth was incredible! I cried throughout the whole thing! I know this has been said to you a thousand times, but I felt like I was reading my own story. You see, my precious little daughter Chiara was born with Down Syndrome 3 years ago. I am SOO happy for you – you are truly blessed to be given a precious angel with Down Syndrome. If you’re interested, I’d love for you to join my facebook Down SYndrome support group. COme share your journey with other moms in the same situation. There is so much to be gained from the support that comes from someone in your shoes! God bless you! -Brittany in Alaska
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Down-Syndrome-Support-wBrittany-Martinez/9838530873
Erica says
This was one of the most beautiful, heartfelt stories I have ever read. I am in awe of your honest words and I so appreciate your willingness to share them. My first born son was born with a heart defect, and your words resonated so strongly with me. My husband and I also feel that it was a blessing to us. He has taught us so much and I would not trade all of our experiences for anything. Thank you again and as everyone has said, your family is beautiful beautiful beautiful. Peace and blessings. E.
Amy says
This was one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read. Thank you so much for sharing it.
Anonymous says
I have a 4 month old baby girl and I am crying so much, not because I’m sad, but because I’m happy, she is such a beautiful little girl, you must be so proud. You were blessed with a very special angel indeed. :o) Love all the way from Australia!
Anonymous says
Dear Kelle,
Thank you for sharing your heart-lifting story that I discovered through Rosie O’Donnell’s blog. I must admit that any pre-conceived notions that even I may have had (and I consider myself to be a VERY accepting person) about DS completely fell away with your beautiful lesson in love and acceptance.
tamara says
Your story is my story, thank you so much for sharing. Just when you think you’re alone you realize you aren’t – my beautiful boy Beckett is almost 3, he was diagnosed with Down syndrome shortly after he was born. He is pure joy and love, he holds my heart. Much love to you and your sweet family. xx
Julia Janzen says
One of the most honest, real, and beautiful stories of falling in love I’ve ever read. I can’t explain it even to myself but I feel changed. Thank you.
Blessing Counter says
Absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing! May God wrap ya’ll up and give you grace in each parenting moment!! I have two boys with cerebral palsy..we didn’t know at birth…but the grieving process was still there and you “voiced” it very well. God Bless!
Angela says
I am not sure how I happened upon your blog, and more specifically Nella’s Birthday story, but man I am so glad I did.
This was so very powerful, I sat here crying as I read it, I felt your emotions and saw God in this post.
You have been given an amazing gift, and I know you will honor God with it.
Thank you, thank you so much for sharing this with me, someone you don’t even know. You touched me.
Natasha says
Thank you for sharing.I couldn’t hold back my tears. You are one lucky mommy! Happy Easter and God bless your family.
KittyGina says
Thank you .. you touched my heart .. I’m crying as I write .. God Bless you and your family always .. You are a very special Mommy .. all my love xXxXx
I look forward to reading more of your blog ..
Anonymous says
MS KELLE… I FELT THE SAME WAY 15 YEARS AGO, MY DAUGHTER CLARA, BORN WITH DOWN SYNDROME, IS NOW 15 AND … AMAZING FEELING, AWESOME.. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS WONDERFUL STORY… LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL INDEED!
Anonymous says
MS KELLE… I FELT THE SAME WAY 15 YEARS AGO, MY DAUGHTER CLARA, BORN WITH DOWN SYNDROME, IS NOW 15 AND … AMAZING FEELING, AWESOME.. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS WONDERFUL STORY… LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL INDEED!
Anonymous says
MS KELLE… I FELT THE SAME WAY 15 YEARS AGO, MY DAUGHTER CLARA, BORN WITH DOWN SYNDROME, IS NOW 15 AND … AMAZING FEELING, AWESOME.. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS WONDERFUL STORY… LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL INDEED!
fnf says
kelle-
what you have written, your honest feelings, your newfound hope and joy, it has touched me. i cried as i read,and i pray for continued blessings and joy on you and your beautiful family!
may the Lord who grants us each life, continue to watch over you and your little angels.
fnf says
kelle-
what you have written, your honest feelings, your newfound hope and joy, it has touched me. i cried as i read,and i pray for continued blessings and joy on you and your beautiful family!
may the Lord who grants us each life, continue to watch over you and your little angels.
Elizabeth says
This telling was so raw, so honest. I am lucky I found my way here. This will be with me forever. I’m about to have to teach a class, and I need to pull it together! Thank you, from the bottom of who I am, for sharing.
Tracy Christenson says
I just happened to stumble upon your blog completely by accident. i was google image searching for inspiration for a piece of artwork…I saw the pic of u and your beautiful new daughter smiling…literally breathtaking so i had to click it and go further. I was drawn to your page first skimming through the beautiful photos and then started reading your compelling story. You have touched my heart with your words and i am now sitting here at work in tears of sadness and joy. God is with us and shows us love and passion in many ways and she truly is a blessing. It is so moving to read your words and even see how others are affected by it. Your story is perfect and so is your baby bunny.
Lots of love from a stranger to your beautiful family
God bless
Bridget says
oh my word. your honesty is so so so inspiring and your story is beautiful and heartbreaking and amazing and wonderful all at once. i just shared it on my blog, linking back to yours.
this story is one of the most amazing i’ve ever read–bravo to you and your bravery for writing it.
your family is beautiful.
Bridget says
oh my word. your honesty is so so so inspiring and your story is beautiful and heartbreaking and amazing and wonderful all at once. i just shared it on my blog, linking back to yours.
this story is one of the most amazing i’ve ever read–bravo to you and your bravery for writing it.
your family is beautiful.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
mrs.g says
Such a beautiful story. You are a strong woman.
sheri bakes says
I am moved to tears. And keep coming back to look at your photos. Thank you for sharing these intimate experiences, both inside and out.
Julie says
Your story has inspired me to create a blog and write a story of my own. I too have a Down syndrome child, Brady who is almost 2 years old. How your words hit home. So true and so amazingly written. Thanks for the inspiration! And from one mother to another, love every minute of your special child. It only gets better!
Julie
Louisville, KY
Julie says
Your story has inspired me to create a blog and write a story of my own. I too have a Down syndrome child, Brady who is almost 2 years old. How your words hit home. So true and so amazingly written. Thanks for the inspiration! And from one mother to another, love every minute of your special child. It only gets better!
Julie
Louisville, KY
Julie says
Your story has inspired me to create a blog and write a story of my own. I too have a Down syndrome child, Brady who is almost 2 years old. How your words hit home. So true and so amazingly written. Thanks for the inspiration! And from one mother to another, love every minute of your special child. It only gets better!
Julie
Louisville, KY
Corinne says
You are truly inspiring. I, too found your story via Babycenter. I read it at work (stupid!) and was crying at my desk. I am a new mommy to a 6 month old miracle and I passed your words on to my other new mom friends.
My dad’s brother had DS and died in March 2007 after 50+ glorious years on earth. It was a remarkable experience to grow up in a family blessed with such a special person. It was incredible to witness his innocence and zeal for life as I grew up and you are lucky enough to take part in the same with your precious Nella.
Thank you for sharing. And thank you for reminding us what life is all about…can’t wait to go home to hold and kiss and squeeze my little peanut.
Danni says
Wow just. Wow.
This is an extremely late comment but just wow. All I can do is just stand her in awe, and applaud you, Nella, your family and your friends for being so strong and so loving. I’m utterly speechless. In a good way of course.
I’m in a really dark place right now, and just reading your story, just knowing that a group of people can be so loving and so caring for one little girl and her amazing family uplifts me. It really makes me feel that there’s more to the world, there’s someone out there that I don’t know, with such an amazing story such as yours. And just, my love goes out to you all and I really wish the best of luck. Both your daughters are so so beautiful, and they’ll bring you so much joy.
This really hits home, though. I can relate to your oldest, Lainey. I was almost a proud sister to a little girl with down syndrome (still am proud of my sister). I was ten when she was born, my mother had prenatal testing at twenty weeks (after a miscarriage scare earlier in her pregnancy), when we found out the new baby had down syndrome. She spent the next twenty weeks up until the birth crying, probably going through the same emotions that you did. I was scared at the time, I didn’t know what this all meant, but I kept encouraging my mother, telling her that it would be a learning experience, and that yes life would be a little different, but in the end we’ll still have each other, we’ll still be a family. It turns out that the test she was given was false, and that my sister was without down syndrome, but just the learning experience it gave us, the roller coaster ride of emotions that we experienced will always change us. We would love her no less if she were with down syndrome than without, and I can see that in you. I know you’ll be a terrific mother to these two girls, just keep being loving and supportive, and you’ll move mountains.
I love you guys. Even though I don’t know you, I love you.
alicia says
I feel blessed to have read your story. This is so amazing and honest. As a future physician, this story has taught me so much. Please know that because you shared, I will be a more understanding and compassionate doctor. Congratulations on your beautiful family.
Anonymous says
I feel blessed to have read your story. This is so amazing and honest. As a future physician, this story has taught me so much. Please know that because you shared, I will be a more understanding and compassionate doctor. Congratulations on your beautiful family.
sashagirl says
What a beautiful birth story! Your bunny is such a wonderful and precious gift straight from God!!! I am amazed at your strength and love. You have a beautiful and perfect family and a whole lifetime of pure joy ahead of you! Congratulations!
My heart is so full after reading your story.
I wish you and your family great blessings!
Milli Wagoner
Alex says
My mother in Naples told me about your story. I found your blog online and I find myself re-reading it every night. I am so incredibly moved by your story and your incredible journey with your two beautiful daughters. I don’t think my spirit has been lifted this high before. Nella is the most beautiful child and I love her amazing smile. She is truly a gift. Which reminds me of a quote a friend sent to me a few months ago: “A baby is God’s way of saying that the world must go on.” Wishing you and your daughters (and Brett) all the love in the world.
Alex says
My mother in Naples told me about your story. I found your blog online and I find myself re-reading it every night. I am so incredibly moved by your story and your incredible journey with your two beautiful daughters. I don’t think my spirit has been lifted this high before. Nella is the most beautiful child and I love her amazing smile. She is truly a gift. Which reminds me of a quote a friend sent to me a few months ago: “A baby is God’s way of saying that the world must go on.” Wishing you and your daughters (and Brett) all the love in the world.
Alex says
My mother in Naples told me about your story. I found your blog online and I find myself re-reading it every night. I am so incredibly moved by your story and your incredible journey with your two beautiful daughters. I don’t think my spirit has been lifted this high before. Nella is the most beautiful child and I love her amazing smile. She is truly a gift. Which reminds me of a quote a friend sent to me a few months ago: “A baby is God’s way of saying that the world must go on.” Wishing you and your daughters (and Brett) all the love in the world.
The Browers says
wow. just wow. i could look at that sweetness all day long.
The Browers says
wow. just wow. i could look at that sweetness all day long.
Melani says
Kelle,
I came across your story from some friends who posted a link to it calling it beautiful and heartfelt and I thought I would have a little looksee to see what they were talking about.
When I clicked on the link, I never knew I would be affected the way it has affected me. I thought I would be reading another ‘typical’ birth story, but I wasn’t to know any differently.
When I started reading I could feel your anticipation, sadness in the realization that your baby wasn’t ‘perfect’, the desperation and then I witnessed something beautiful… something we all witnessed by reading this amazing story.
I witnessed true love. True, unconditional, never ending, never wavering love.
Love from your husband, your friends, your father, your daughter and yourself.
I myself am a photographer and whilst your words hit me, I believe the photo’s hit me just as hard…
That first photo of your beautiful Nella I believe is full of hope – hope that you can love her, hope that you will accept her lovingly into your heart.
That photo of you ‘numb’ in the acknowledgement that life will never be quite as it used to be for many reasons, is I believe the best reflection on your desperation.
But the photo that made me cry the most, the photo that will push me to be a better person and to love without condition. The photo that made me cry, laugh and smile all at once and that will be etched into my brain for all eternity will be the one of the two of you together (you’re in pigtails) smiling.
Kelle, when I was a little girl, I met another girl my age who had DS and I quietly asked my Mum why she was different to all the other girls. Mum explained that when our Heavenly Father sends his Angels to Earth, he makes them look different so that we know that they are special and to take special care of them for him.
I am not a very religious person but of this next statement I am sure: Nella is an Angel from our Father – a heavenly soul who will bless you with love and light that you never knew was possible!
Thank you for writing a blog so beautiful that I want to share it with everyone.
I wish you and your family a very happy and blessed life, with much happiness.
Best wishes,
Melani
Anonymous says
This is the most beautifully discribed story I have ever read. I cried I felt your pain and heartache. I felt like I was right there as you were going through it. Thank you so much for putting it out there for all to read. I know that it spoke to me and it will speak to others. Thank You, and congradulations on your beautiful addition to the family, Nella.
GLENDA CHILDERS says
Blessings on you for sharing this glimpse into your soul. I am sad for your night of grief and glad that joy came in the morning. I do not even know you – but I felt so proud of you as I read this beautiful post.
Ashley says
Thank you Kelle…for taking the time to share your story and life with us…you have no idea how much this simple act can impact so many others….Congratulations on a beautiful daughter and a beautiful life…that some may not understand but you know in your heart how special it truly is!
Love, A honored Aunt of a Nephew with DS…a true angel!
Anonymous says
I’m a 45 year old single mother of three amazing daughters, 27 year old twins and a 21 year old. Reading your story, feeling the pain, the anguish, lastly the all inspiring love for your beautiful amazing daughter, a gift, made me remember what the true meaning of being a mother is all about. LOVE…UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Thank you for reminding me and sharing your intimate story with all of us. God bless you, two beautiful daughters and your husband.
Anonymous says
I’m a 45 year old single mother of three amazing daughters, 27 year old twins and a 21 year old. Reading your story, feeling the pain, the anguish, lastly the all inspiring love for your beautiful amazing daughter, a gift, made me remember what the true meaning of being a mother is all about. LOVE…UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Thank you for reminding me and sharing your intimate story with all of us. God bless you, two beautiful daughters and your husband.
Anonymous says
I’m a 45 year old single mother of three amazing daughters, 27 year old twins and a 21 year old. Reading your story, feeling the pain, the anguish, lastly the all inspiring love for your beautiful amazing daughter, a gift, made me remember what the true meaning of being a mother is all about. LOVE…UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Thank you for reminding me and sharing your intimate story with all of us. God bless you, two beautiful daughters and your husband.
Anonymous says
I’m a 45 year old single mother of three amazing daughters, 27 year old twins and a 21 year old. Reading your story, feeling the pain, the anguish, lastly the all inspiring love for your beautiful amazing daughter, a gift, made me remember what the true meaning of being a mother is all about. LOVE…UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Thank you for reminding me and sharing your intimate story with all of us. God bless you, two beautiful daughters and your husband.
Anonymous says
I’m a 45 year old single mother of three amazing daughters, 27 year old twins and a 21 year old. Reading your story, feeling the pain, the anguish, lastly the all inspiring love for your beautiful amazing daughter, a gift, made me remember what the true meaning of being a mother is all about. LOVE…UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Thank you for reminding me and sharing your intimate story with all of us. God bless you, two beautiful daughters and your husband.
Stacy Biscardi says
MAGNIFICENT! You have no idea how many people around the world will be impacted by your bravery and honesty and spirit, as well of that of your beautiful Nella. If you want to check out the story of how my little boy willed his way into the world, check out: http://stacyssoapbox.blogspot.com/2009/09/coming-down-to-earth.html
All the best and much love to your wonderful family!
Anonymous says
BEAUTIFUL story!!! I could not stop crying through out the whole story!!! i HAVE 3 babies and Iknow how special it is… Your daughter are so beautiful!!! Loved the story.. You should write a story about your journy!!! God Bless you and your angels
Tamara says
You don’t know me but WOW, do I love you and your sweet family! Your heart is amazing and it makes mine smile! Praying God continues to use your story to bless us as He obviously has used it to bless me tonight! Thank you!!!!
Anonymous says
God gave this child to you to guide, To love, to walk through life beside. A little child so full of charms, To fill a pair of loving arms. God picked you out because he knew How safe his child would be with you.
Meredith says
Thanks for sharing your beautiful story. I gave birth to a baby girl the day before Nella was born, and your story touched me very deeply.
John, Dara, & Caroline says
Your story was beautful and beautifully written. Thank you so much for sharing.
grammamac says
Beautiful story, beautiful daughters! This story should be shared ith every new mother and family!
The Mac's House says
Gosh they are both so adorable…… Congratulations on your 2nd beautiful daughter. What a great and loving story. So blessed you all are.
Cecilia says
Wow, you wrote beautifully and honestly. Your daughters are simply gorgeous. You sound like a wonderful mother. I’m sorry this sounds so choppy and inarticulate – I just feel paralyzed with emotion and I don’t know what else to say! I’m glad I found your blog and I’ll look forward to reading more about your life with Nella.
Cecilia says
Wow, you wrote beautifully and honestly. Your daughters are simply gorgeous. You sound like a wonderful mother. I’m sorry this sounds so choppy and inarticulate – I just feel paralyzed with emotion and I don’t know what else to say! I’m glad I found your blog and I’ll look forward to reading more about your life with Nella.
Cecilia says
Wow, you wrote beautifully and honestly. Your daughters are simply gorgeous. You sound like a wonderful mother. I’m sorry this sounds so choppy and inarticulate – I just feel paralyzed with emotion and I don’t know what else to say! I’m glad I found your blog and I’ll look forward to reading more about your life with Nella.
Tammi says
I am in love with this baby. She has taught me so much this morning. Please, please thank her for me. I desperately need what she has to offer. Hope. Perspective. Beauty. Humility. She is all things unconditional. Hoorah for baby Nella!
Stephanie says
what a real, honest, beautiful story. Congratulations on two beautiful daughters, a wonderful husband, a perfect family.
Candice Skinner Photography says
I don’t know you, but a friend posted your story on her facebook wall and after much avoidance of emotional things lately, I somehow forced myself to read something that could possibly have a not so good ending…the title was “This is the most beautiful, moving story. Perfect love.” I wasn’t sure how sad/happy this could be so, I thought maybe I shouldn’t read it to avoid the possibility of facing life(good or bad)…and ya know, life is so imperfect. As the song says, “Life ain’t always beautiful, but it’s a beautiful life” How right and how absolutely beautiful it is. Your daughter is beautiful just like the sweet words you wrote about her. God has given you such a sweet gift. I cannot tell you how moving your story was. Thank you for sharing and bless you and your sweet family.
Liesl says
Thank you so much for sharing and for your vulnerability. I sent this on to my friend, Don Miller. He’d be glad to know you were living out the intention of his book, A Million Years….
God bless,
Liesl
Natasha says
your words have changed my life.
thank you.
Natasha says
your words have changed my life.
thank you.
Jessica says
I came here from a link on a friend’s blog. She said it was a story of true love that changed her life and promised it would be worth my time. She was right. I’ve never read a story like that. I don’t think I’ll ever forget it. It made me cry, think about my own 3 kids and what they mean to me, and helped me remember that we’re all God’s children and He loves us all. May the Lord bless you and your family as you live each day with your wonderful, beautiful little reminder of what His love really looks like. Thank you for sharing your story.
Meeks says
Words can’t explain what I’m feeling. But just know a whole lot of love from New Zealand is coming your way.
I am looking forward to reading about your journey. You write beautifully and your photos are amazing.
Sarah says
Beautiful. Someone posted a link to your blog on my Facebook wall…seriously, the most beautiful thing I’ve read in a while. As a mother, I can feel your pain and your joy. Your honesty is inspiring and I can’t wait to read more about Nella growing up. Both of your girls are gorgeous.
Sarah says
Absolutely beautiful. Your honesty is inspiring. As a mother, I can feel your pain and your joy.
Brenda says
Amazing and beautiful. Girl, you are ages ahead of where I was. My son was in NICU for six weeks with pulmonary hypertension. Almost didn’t make it. He was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy when he was 8 months. And autism when he was 3 1/2. The grieving and period of acceptance I went through took eons longer than yours did. You are completely amazing in how you’ve made the journey so completely and quickly. And accepted unconditionally your child, in all her perfection. And that’s what I truly believe special needs parenting is about.
Big hugs and thank you for sharing your story.
Kelly says
My god, you and your family are so beautiful. I’ve had to rethink so much after being diagnosed infertile (I’m almost 33) and my struggle with IVF right now. I hope that, no matter what happens, I have your beauty of character, honesty, and strength.
Kelly says
My god, you and your family are so beautiful. I’ve had to rethink so much after being diagnosed infertile (I’m almost 33) and my struggle with IVF right now. I hope that, no matter what happens, I have your beauty of character, honesty, and strength.
Kelly says
My god, you and your family are so beautiful. I’ve had to rethink so much after being diagnosed infertile (I’m almost 33) and my struggle with IVF right now. I hope that, no matter what happens, I have your beauty of character, honesty, and strength.
Kelly says
My god, you and your family are so beautiful. I’ve had to rethink so much after being diagnosed infertile (I’m almost 33) and my struggle with IVF right now. I hope that, no matter what happens, I have your beauty of character, honesty, and strength.
Kelly says
My god, you and your family are so beautiful. I’ve had to rethink so much after being diagnosed infertile (I’m almost 33) and my struggle with IVF right now. I hope that, no matter what happens, I have your beauty of character, honesty, and strength.
Mackenzie's Mom says
My older daughter sent me this site and it was so moving. I had a little girl almost 12 years ago and our situation was a little different but the emotions were definitely the same. Our daughter still to this day needs us to do her every day cares for her. She is beautiful and we love her with all our heart. I journaled her stay in the hospital for 7 1/2 weeks and to this day I have not had the courage to read the journal. After reading your story, maybe I can finally get it out and read it. You have a gift for writing but most of all you have a special gift in that little girl. God bless you and your family.
tru says
Congratulations Kelle, Brett and Lainey. Thank you for the gift of this story and the beautiful photos. You have been truly blessed with wonderful friends, an awesome family and a very special Nella! You not only love her and cherish both your little girls, but they cherish you!
Zaugg Blog says
your story of nella has touched my heart so much. Thank you for helping me to remember the most impotant things in life.
Zaugg Blog says
your story of nella has touched my heart so much. Thank you for helping me to remember the most impotant things in life.
Jennifer says
This is the most beautiful blog I have ever read! Congrats on your beautiful girls!
Anonymous says
Kelle:
So beautiful!
Your honesty and love gave me an insight into what my mother must have felt when she gave birth to three children out of nine with disabilities.
There is the shock and disbelief when it happens the first time.
Then the blaiming one’s self when it happens a second time.
Then the fear that it will happen next time, and the time after that, and the time after that…
But, then there is the love and courage to go on.
And — that’s what she did.
My oldest sister had spina bifida and passed after 19 days. (This was before they could help children born with this disability.)
Then, she and my father raised my brother and me. Both of us are legally blind.
Nella is blessed to be born into a family like yours!
She is blessed to be born in this century, when things are so possible for children and adults with Down Syndrome.
May you all thrive and flurish.
Sending you hope, love and courage,
marylea says
Beautiful photos, and an obviously nurturing family in which your little bunny can grow! Loved your story. Thanks for sharing your heart. Love your music playlist, too. God bless you all.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. You have a beautiful family and Nella, well, she’s perfect. God Bless all of you.
Anonymous says
I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face. Your story has moved me so much. The love, the compassion, the honesty, the humanity. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Sending love to you and yours always. Stay true x
Kristen Marie says
trying to see what I am typing, eyes are over flooded with tears….. just a beautiful story, God is sooo awesome….your sister is right, you were chosen to be given such a blessing and gift. Beautiful daughters, both of them..you are blessed and I feel blessed for having read your story. Thank you so much for sharing. My heart is happy. Blessing to you and all of your loved ones!
Jeanie says
Your Nella is beautiful. Just beautiful. I am so sorry for the pain you have had to experience, and the challenges you’ll deal with in the future — but oh, what a foundation you have! Glorious friends, a wonderful husband/dad and a sibling who will grow and learn so very much about life, people, family and what matters.
I’ve walked this journey with my friend who many years after her son’s birth wrote a book called Breakthrough Parenting for Children with Special Needs. In knowing Judy’s story and the others she shared, I learned how rich and full family life can be — even when something so very difficult to understand upsets the cart. I know you will find that fullness, too. I think you are on the way.
Nancy Palmer says
This is a beautiful story! I know how you feel about your daughter. She was given to YOU just like we were given our Kara Faith, but our sweetie is now in heaven. May your Nella enjoy long life with her perfectly picked parents and family!
Norma says
Gorgeous and wonderful, what a blessing! I’m going to follow your blog and the fabulous story as it unfolds. Thank you for sharing!
Norma says
Gorgeous and wonderful, what a blessing! I’m going to follow your blog and the fabulous story as it unfolds. Thank you for sharing!
Katelyn says
Kelle – thank you so much for your honesty. Your daughters are beautiful and each a unique gift from God.
I am 28 weeks pregnant and we have chosen to opt out of any genetic testing and such. While there are fears involved in the unknown, our wish after 2 1/2 years of trying to conceive is to just love the baby that we have been so blessed with. Feeling him kick in my stomach and visioning his smiling face took on a whole new meaning when reading your entry.
Your words and pictures confirmed what I have always believed – that our lives are a gift from God and what we make of them are our gift back to Him. Your selfless sharing of emotion – good and bad – has inspired so many people. Thank you for being so brave. Nella is so lucky to have you.
Thank you and God bless.
P.S. the look on your husband’s face is priceless – you are so very lucky to have someone who loves you and your daughters so much. God obviously knew what he was doing when he chose Brett to be the husband and father of these great women!
Thank you
Kelly says
She’s gorgeous! What a beautiful and touching story. Congratulations!!
Nokaj says
I have no words – absolutely beautiful – wonderful – thank you –
SaharaSky says
Kelle – Thank you for sharing your very emotional and truthful story.
Today is my son’s 5th b-day and I came across your blog through a facebook link. My son does not have DS but other issues.
Through your words I relived much of what I felt – the shock, the desire to put him back or exchange him for one that ‘wasn’t broken’, the desire to run away, the guilt for even having those thoughts, the grief for what was lost, and FINALLY the intense love that only these types of challenges can bring us to.
We are never given more than we can handle. I know it to be true.
You are blessed. <3
Sophie says
Oh my gosh, I LOVE love love love your blog. Every time I read it – and I have read it a few times – it moves me to tears. My little daughter Isabella also has DS, we didn’t know until about 2-3 hours after she was born and your hauntingly beautiful description of how you felt is EXACTLY how I felt. The line where you say she looked at you as if to say please love me even though I’m not what you expected… gives me shivers, sums everything up so well. I promise you she will do nothing but love you & amaze you & make you laugh and smile every single day. Isabella has the personality of 10 kids, she is hilarious, incredibly intuitive, smart funny & sweet, she is also stubborn, fiercely independent & can be relentlessly annoying – like when she calls me 10 million times in a row for no reason at all. She is amazing and has made me a better person. Kids with downs are more like other kids than different. They do everything other kids do it just takes them a little longer to get there. Please keep us updated, I can’t wait to hear more, and please feel free if you ever want to email me privately ‘mom to mom’. Lots of love Sophie & Isabella xoxo
bel says
Kelle I cant believe how hard I cried while reading Nella’s story, my tears did turn to tears of joy though, Nella is beautiful and so are you.
Congratulations on your 2nd little angel, enjoy every precious moment with her, your girls will bring you more joy and love than you’ll ever know, sending all my love and best wishes for an amazing future with your wonderful family.
CupcakeSniper says
what a beautiful story!!!
both your girls are absolutely gorgeous!! and so are you!! God has great plans in store for your beautiful family!!
Katie says
perfect and beautiful. =)
The Marketing Mama says
Thank you for sharing this. What a perfect angel you have been blessed with. What a wonderful story you have documented of how she came to be and how you came to be her mother. Thank you. xoxo
Wanda says
She’s beautiful. Thank you for telling your story.
EllieMayL says
As I sit here listening to my three little girls argue and tease each other, and feel myself beginning to lose patience, you provide PERSPECTIVE. And remind me that PERFECTION comes in so many forms. Congratulations on your PERFECT bunny. You are both so lucky to have been given eachother. And THANK YOU for sharing your raw, beautiful, honest story of true love.
Anonymous says
You are amazing. Truly amazing. I love your honesty. You did and felt everything just the way you were supposed to. Cheers to you, your family and my gosh, amazing friends!!!!!! Nella is one lucky baby to have mama like you, God bless all of you!
Anonymous says
I was able to read most of your story while holding on to my bundle of joy who is almost 6 months old. He was born with jaundice and was in the NICU for 5 days. They were the 5 hardest days of my life but he is just perfect now and such a good boy. I too feel blessed to have been put here on this earth to be his Momma. I just love your story. I applaud you for being so honest as anyone who says they did not have some of those same feelings would not be being honest. You are a beautiful woman inside and out and congratulations on your two beautiful girls. You make me proud to be a mother. Thank you for sharing your story and making me realize that life cannot be taken for granted. I will continue to enjoy every moment but I will cherish them a little bit more now and not worry so much if my floor is dirty or the laundry has piled up. Life is too short.
Anonymous says
This summer my sister gave birth to a little boy, he surprised us all with having Downs syndrom. I remember the phone call word by word. I took first plane I could get and was with them the two first weeks in the hospital. What you write is so beautiful and I can follow every word. My tears are falling and I am so happy I found your blog. Your girls are perfect! Love from Sweden
Anonymous says
Found this entry via a link from KellyMom…such a beautiful birth story, and what an amazing family!
I am speechless for the moment, yet how could I not leave a comment? 🙂 I think Nella has wiggled into my heart, and I have never met her!
I will remember this in my work with mamas and babies in the years to come. I know that Nella’s story will be the one I remember when I have to give similar news to a family- and I will be able to give it with strength and compassion after reading your words and the impact of all those involved in your beautiful family birth!
Meri says
Oh, what a beautiful story. It made me cry. I thought of my little 3 year old niece and how my sister in law must have felt when she had her. Nella is a perfect little baby and how lucky she is she has her parents and a big sister to give her all the love she needs. Congratulations on the birth of your both daughters.
Krista says
Oh my goodness. Words are failing me right now. Please know that your words speak volumes to me. Thank you for Nella’s story. Thank you for your honesty.
Kristin says
Thank you for touching my heart with your story. I am sitting here in tears after reading your words and seeing your photos. Congrats on your beautiful little miracle, and for writing her story. Blessings, Kristin
Marien says
Nella is beautiful in everyway! You have a beautiful family & your daughters are SO blessed to have you as their mother. God bless you all & I look forward to hearing more as your life with your gorgeous angel goes on<3
hezro says
This is an amazing post. I’m sure your honesty is therapeutic. Thank you for sharing with the rest of us and allowing us to grow right along with you. God bless!!
Anonymous says
I have linked this to my facebook to share with other moms. This is so sweet and I feel your emotions in every word you have typed. You are a strong and beautiful woman with two amazingly gorgeous daughters! Nella Cordelia is beautiful in every way, shape and form!!
This story has absolutely touched my heart, my thoughts and prayers go out to you and yours. Thank you so much for writing this. You are a lucky woman to have such a beautiful family! God has blessed you so much! My heart goes out to you Kelle! Thank you again for your inspiring words. I look forward to your book!
Anonymous says
beautiful blog…beautiful baby…amazing mom…thanks for sharing.
Monica Burns says
Nella is truly blessed to have been born into a family that will joyfully accept her and love her for who she is unconditionally. I am in awe of you.
Annie says
amazing. thank you for putting the beginning of your story out into the world.
matthew says
Truly inspiring honesty! She’s an angel and so is her big sister.
Anonymous says
I have never read a birth story like yours…and I have read many. You are an inspiration for moms everywhere, no matter their struggles. Thank you for sharing. You, your husband and your girls are amazing and inspiring…and lucky to have each other.
ErinLee93 says
Oh my goodness, Kelle. I write to you with tears brimming in my eyes. Tears of a fellow mom, tears of joy for you and your pure baby love. She has the most beautiful tiny face. You are all such a gorgeous family.
My story is not the same as yours, but my son was born with a heart condition. No left ventricle. He was swept away on a helicopter flight to save his life with an operation. And then, four months later, another. It’s so confusing to feel joy and pain all at once. He has one more to go and a lifetime of medications. Possibly a transplant when he’s in his 30s. But we cherish every moment, and I can tell you will, too. Many blessings to your family.
Emma Apple says
Wow. I just wanted to say thank you for being so raw and sharing so honestly what you went through. I hope this will help a lot of people through similar pain.
You have 2 beautiful, perfect daughters! Congratulations!
dr Henny Zainal, BC, CHt says
Hugs & Kisses from a indonesian breastfeeding councellor for you ^_^ I helped a mother and DS Baby once.. They.. no.. it’s the baby.. Darrel.. Tought me so much about the meaning of love..
I hope you dont mind if i share your story..
Anonymous says
So, so sweet. Thanks for sharing. I am a Birthing Center nurse. This will make me better.
Mandy says
Wow. What an amazing, beautiful, heartwrenching story. You are an awesome mommy and your daughters are absolutely beautiful. I have two girls as well, and your story has made me want to be a mommy again! Beautiful pictures!
Anonymous says
I cried when i read what you wrote…. the unconditional love you have for your daughters… and how honest you are…… God bless you and your family……
The Fischer Family says
Oh my gosh…I don’t even know where to begin! I’m sitting in the library reading this and tears are pouring down my cheeks! This story is so beautiful and so amazing and wow! I’ve always had a soft spot in me for children with down syndrome (I would LOVE to adopt a child with down syndrome one day, maybe internationally since they tend to be put in assylums when they reach three and then spend the rest of their life there and it BREAKS my heart!)
Thank you sharing this and being REAL about it! So many times we hear the roses birth stories and we don’t hear much about the ones that didn’t go as planned! Nella is beautiful and I will be following your blog now so I can watch her grow! Thank you for sharing this with us!!!
The Fischer Family says
Oh my gosh…I don’t even know where to begin! I’m sitting in the library reading this and tears are pouring down my cheeks! This story is so beautiful and so amazing and wow! I’ve always had a soft spot in me for children with down syndrome (I would LOVE to adopt a child with down syndrome one day, maybe internationally since they tend to be put in assylums when they reach three and then spend the rest of their life there and it BREAKS my heart!)
Thank you sharing this and being REAL about it! So many times we hear the roses birth stories and we don’t hear much about the ones that didn’t go as planned! Nella is beautiful and I will be following your blog now so I can watch her grow! Thank you for sharing this with us!!!
Annie says
What an amazing and beautiful birth story! It left me sobbing in the middle of the night. Your girls are gorgeous! My newest baby girl was born exactly one week after Nella, and my second daughter is about a week older than Lainey. God bless your beautiful family.
Emily says
I read your story from a link posted on AllDoulas.com.
I, too, gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, Josie, who has Down Syndrome. I, too, did not know she had DS until they put her on my belly.
Your story, and the accompanying pictures, are beautiful. They resonate with my memories of my own story so well – except “the news” was delivered to you in the tenderest, most gentle way imaginable. I wish our own pediatrician had shown that much care for us.
I, too, held that baby to my bare skin and prayed for a bond. I grieved for my other three children – hoped they would never feel her life as a burden upon them – and grieved for the loss of the perfect, normal little girl who only lived in my mind.
The day her diagnosis was confirmed and we shared the news, her grandfather, who had a brother with Down Syndrome, gave us the greatest gift – he was holding her, he looked up and said “Congratulations!” with all the light of his heart shining out of his eyes. That was when we became a new family – different from who we were before, different from what we ever imagined ourselves to be – but still happy, hopeful, and… normal.
Josie is 13 months old. I can say she is exactly like my other three children – a perfect fit for our family.
Congratulations on the birth of your bunny-girl! I hope she continues to surprise you as she grows under your love and guidance.
Thank you for sharing your story!
Emily Hilleke
Anonymous says
I am crying, tears for your sadness, and your joy. I have never read anything so beautiful and heartfelt. You are indeed lucky, to have such a beautiful family, and your little Bunnie Nella is lucky to have such wonderful parents. May all your days be filled with wonderment as you watch her grow up, into the perfect daughter you always knew she would be.
Bitsy Baby Photography says
Your birth story is beautiful, your a beautiful beautiful Mama to a beautiful beautiful Bunny. May God continue to give you wisdom and strength for this life journey. I found your blog from Windmills & Tulips in the Blog Party this week! I look forward to being connected through your posts. God Bless you and your family.
Andrea says
Wow! I don’t know you, but I’ve found your story so touching! I had to go to the tissue box twice! This is the most honest post I’ve ever read in any blog! Be so proud of yourself for being strong enough to say what I’m sure lots of other moms feel! Both of your girls are precious. Life doesn’t always hand us the most “perfect hand”, but we deal with what we’re dealt, and you are doing it wonderfully! God only gives us as much as you can handle! Good luck to you, I hope to hear more soon!
Me says
Kelle,
A friend sent me the link to your story. Thank you for sharing this beautiful picture of God’s grace and is everlasting love for us. I had twin boys on July 1 and we found out about an hour after the emergency C-section that Silas has Ds. We can not imagine what grand blessings God has for us through all our children. Your girls are adorable. I will be following your blog to share in your blessing.
Debra – TN
meera says
u are truly amazing..and u are the truly chosen one… hats offff.. loved it and read it over and over and god bless u and her:)
i am a teacher in a school for children with special needs….
i learn a lot from them:)
love them lots
meera
Krystina says
A friend of mine forwarded your blog to me, as I had a very similar experience to what you describe here.
I felt exactly as you did and cried on and off for exactly 3 months. Now I can honestly tell you that before I had my son, I didn’t have a clue about what life was really about or what love really meant. He made me who I am and every day I am infinitely grateful that some higher power thought I was worthy enough to have him touch my life.
Having a child with DS is a crazy, rewarding, tiring, wonderful, blessed experience. I would wish you luck, but you are already lucky to have Nella in your life.
cheri says
HI Kelle,
My friend shared your blog with me. I, too, am the proud mother
of a seven year old daughter with Down Syndrome named Emily. Your blog has been so therupetic for me–even after seven years. We did not know until her birth either and I have felt all those emotions and feelings you have wrote about. I always wanted to write a book about my experience and admire
what you have done. The photos are phenomenal. There are so many things that I can relate to with you–from seeing your clothes you wore to the hospital that brings tears to wanting to run away–to the desperate no-turning-back blue pill. My father was exactly like your father and is today still one of Miss Emily’s biggest advocate. She has changed so many lives but mostly me and her fathers. I totally get your “wood floor” analogy and thank God daily for showing me whats truly important. Oh..I could go on and on and wished
you lived by me so we could chat in real life. Your blog is awesome…thanks for sharing. Much gratitude. Cheri
turning back.
cheri says
HI Kelle,
My friend shared your blog with me. I, too, am the proud mother
of a seven year old daughter with Down Syndrome named Emily. Your blog has been so therupetic for me–even after seven years. We did not know until her birth either and I have felt all those emotions and feelings you have wrote about. I always wanted to write a book about my experience and admire
what you have done. The photos are phenomenal. There are so many things that I can relate to with you–from seeing your clothes you wore to the hospital that brings tears to wanting to run away–to the desperate no-turning-back blue pill. My father was exactly like your father and is today still one of Miss Emily’s biggest advocate. She has changed so many lives but mostly me and her fathers. I totally get your “wood floor” analogy and thank God daily for showing me whats truly important. Oh..I could go on and on and wished
you lived by me so we could chat in real life. Your blog is awesome…thanks for sharing. Much gratitude. Cheri
turning back.
Kelsey Keller says
I stumbled across your blog posting. I read and cried, reliving my daughter’s birth. She does not have DS, but was born 15 weeks early. I remember the pain of my perfect pregnancy ending, and the uncertainty of our future. I also cried because a good friend of mine has a son with DS. I cried better understanding her initial pain and her struggle.
Beautiful! Thank you for sharing.
Kelsey Keller says
I stumbled across your blog posting. I read and cried, reliving my daughter’s birth. She does not have DS, but was born 15 weeks early. I remember the pain of my perfect pregnancy ending, and the uncertainty of our future. I also cried because a good friend of mine has a son with DS. I cried better understanding her initial pain and her struggle.
Beautiful! Thank you for sharing.
Kelsey Keller says
I stumbled across your blog posting. I read and cried, reliving my daughter’s birth. She does not have DS, but was born 15 weeks early. I remember the pain of my perfect pregnancy ending, and the uncertainty of our future. I also cried because a good friend of mine has a son with DS. I cried better understanding her initial pain and her struggle.
Beautiful! Thank you for sharing.
Anonymous says
What an amazing, heart wrenching story. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful daughter with us. Your pictures are breathtaking!
Jen MacDonald says
You were hand picked by GOD to take care of his most precious angel. GOD does not take this decision lightly, so he knew you were special, and that you would love his angel like no one else would. He believed in you before you even knew you could believe in yourself. He had faith in your ability to love above all things. I am a labor and delivery nurse and there are days where I cringe thinking about the environments some of my babies go home to, or the mothers that these babies have to endure. It is down right gut wretching some days. Thank you for your honesty. Thank you for your story, but most of all thank you for realizing that EVERY baby deserves a mommy that loves them. I do not think you are heartless for feeling how you felt. Im sure many people have felt the same way and are so glad to have someone say it out loud. You are an inspiration to those who do not have a voice. GOD bless you and your beautiful family esp. Nella your precious gift from GOD. She is very special and she will bring you more joy and love then you ever knew existed.
Anonymous says
Kell, I’ so upset that I won’t be able to hear you and my Rosie…Is there somewhere to hear iagain???
I live in sunny CA and would love to start getting back into photography, especially for my 4 grandaughters. Can you give me advice on the best camera to get and other devices I need. I had read another post but didn’t see a reply.
I found you through Rosie and I love how she has her favorites, movies, book, games, cameras…and so on. We would love to see all your likes for mothers looking for special items and with same interests.
If I had enough practice time and was ever in FL during some of you shootings, would you allow someone to shadow? I would love to. Or have you ever given any mini classes on photography? Would help so many of us.
I wish My daughters were just like you and your sis. I’m proud you of you both and I’m not even related…..booo I’m 47, does anyone need a lovey, crafty, happy wife way over there???? hehehe
Let your moms and dads know that we love you all. I feel like their becomeing my family in my mind, hehe. Like Rosie says her friend in her mind. The circle keeps turning an ever expanding with love.
I know that you and the babes get much loves from us all, but once in awhile give him a big hug fromall your fans, and that weirds him out just give him a fist to fist thingy that the boys do….funnnnnny.
Many Blessings from Belinda
vans916@aol.com
Anonymous says
sorry should have previewed my last post…..as u can tell I spell bad and with my add, glance by to quickly so it all looks good to me….heeeeeee
love from belinda
Just me says
You have such a beautiful family. I got into an argument with my mother last year about getting an amnio. I told her I refuse to get one. She asked me why. I answered the question with a question, “What would you expect me to do with the information it provides?” I knew the answer by the look on her face. There is no way I could do that. The thought of it made me sick.
Your story shows the raw emotion that does go along with discovering your child has DS. I have the so much respect and love for you for being able to share that.
Yolanda H says
Beautiful. My daughter Isabella “Bella” also has DS. She is now 4yrs old and so full of life and a bit of “sass”…wouldn’t have her any other way tho 🙂 Your blog opened up a whole lot of memories for me of that day in the delivery room and the short weeks following. I numbed myself as well for while, and until today hid a bit inside that inevitably was forgotten. Thank You for the memories and Just want to say you are in for very special, unbelievable and oh so rewarding ride. Enjoy. And again, Beautiful.
krajcarskihunt says
Kelle,
I heard you on Rosie today and wept for you. On October 20, 2004 I was informed that my son, Hunter, was to be born that day with Trisomy 13. I have felt the emotions you described shortly after Nella’s birth. I too was blessed with a fabulous physician who delivered the news looking into my eyes while he held my heart. My son died from the complications of his disorder on October 22, 2004 and though he was only in my arms a brief moment he is forever in my heart. Your friends are golden, I know because it was my friends who literally loved me back to life. I had a 3 year old that needed a mother and until I was healed each of them stepped in to love her too. Both of your daughters are beautiful and perfect and will touch your life forever. You touched mine today in a very special way and I thank you. Blessings to you and yours.
Neisha Noel says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and family. You ARE lucky. God bless you…though I see she already has.
Neisha Noel says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and family. You ARE lucky. God bless you…though I see she already has.
Neisha Noel says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and family. You ARE lucky. God bless you…though I see she already has.
Kat says
I just read this whole post for the first time. I read part of it before and had to stop because I was crying so hard. This time wasn’t any easier. Your story is the same as mine and I praise your honesty. You were able to say the words I was too scared to voice. I have been so ashamed to admit that hours after my sweet love was born I hid in the bathroom unable to breathe. I couldn’t face anyone especially her.I sat in the bathroom crying so hard I thought I would faint. It breaks my heart to think I felt that way.I remember wanting to run, I didn’t know or care where I just wanted to leave and be as far away as possible because I didn’t feel I was strong enough. I think more of us need to be as open and candid as you because we need it. We need to know its okay to be sad even terrified. It hurts to remember the pain I felt on what should have been one of my happiest days, but at the same time I feel its necessary to remember the pain. Just as scars and stretch marks remind us of where we’ve been and what we went through to get where we are, those painful memories from that first day remind us of how far we’ve come. I sit and look into my daughter’s crystal blue eyes and know that she is my soul mate. I know she is exactly who I needed. Thank you for your honesty, I don’t know if you realize it but it truly does help moms like me who have been dealing with the guilt of that first day to know I’m not alone.
Paige says
My mom just emailed me this story and I cried and cried but never wanted to stop reading. I am the older sister to a brother born with an extremely rare disorder, Cardio Facio Cutaneous (CFC) Syndrome. I was 4 years old when my brother, Cliffy, was born exactly on my birthday 2 months premature with too many complications to even begin to count. Doctors said his chance of survival was slim to none.
He is 17 years old just as of April 11th and I could not feel more blessed to share a birthday with a beautiful individual that has taught me an incredible amount of patience, care, and understanding. I could not imagine my life happening any other way. Your little Lainey will without a doubt become the perfect big sister to beautiful Nella. Thank you for sharing your journey.
Franco says
Your story overwhelms me. Thank you for sharing and for being a truly remarkable person.
Anonymous says
(Small world –I came across your blog yesterday by chance, I finished writing my response below to send to you. I came home today and had received an e-mail forwarded from a lady named Julie Kitchen who works in a hospital with your father. What a coincidence that she forwarded me your blog the day after I had already come across it on the internet and had already written the below response to you!)
I came across your blog the other day. I read about your experience in the hospital and wanted you to know that I was there.. . December 3, 2009. I also did not know that I was having a DS baby, we were in total shock. My husband dropped down on one knee when the doctor told him and asked god why he had forsaken him, at that very moment our dreams came crashing down, way down!
I am 33 and didn’t think that I was at risk nor that anything like this would happen to me. My little boy was five weeks early, he had to stay in the NICU for 6 weeks, we didn’t think he was going to make it, he was very sick with pre leukemia cells, a white blood cell count of 200,000 that was forcing his organs to shut down. He was the first baby at our hospital in Lansing, MI to have chemotherapy in 25 years. After chemotherapy he was in isolation with a low immune system. I was not able to bond or hold him for 6 weeks. It was so hard. My husband and I can’t even remember the time in the hospital, we were so devastated. We called it the mental institution because we were so distraught. I felt like I was in black hole also, so much excruciating pain it was just too much to deal with. There was no support in the hospital on DS and my husband and I were so ignorant about it, we really thought our perfect life was over.
I also wanted so much to be pregnant again that very minute; it was agonizing going to the hospital for 6 weeks seeing my son in the NICU while also seeing all of these happy moms going in to have their normal babies. I wanted to run away, but I knew I couldn’t leave my two year old and I couldn’t take her with me. Every minute I contemplated on how I was going to get out of the situation. I felt so bad for my daughter and husband, I wanted my daughter to have a sibling that was her best friend and I wanted my husband to have a little boy that would be just like him. I had so many feelings and every day I just felt so alone and scared. This is so hard to admit and say but there were times that I didn’t want him to live, I just didn’t think I could handle it. Not me, no way! We even had a baptism for him in the NICU because we didn’t think he was going to make it, I almost felt relieved. It just kills me now, but these are true feelings that are real. The doctors kept on saying that it could go one way or another and I know he was waiting on me to make up my mind; he needed me to be strong. I decided that I would face this challenge, but I needed god’s help, I needed strength and I told god in the hospital that I will take the cards that were dealt to me although I didn’t understand why he would choose me. The next day or so later his health had turned around and he slowly was getting better. I felt that god was with me and I was not alone in this.
Things finally turned around for me when I came across this blog called Our Unexpected Journey (http://wwwourunexpectedjourney.blogspot.com/ ). It helped to see a family that somewhat resembled mine, someone who was my age who was ok and happy. My son is now 4 months and I still have hard days, but more happy than sad. He is healthy now, and in remission. I do get scared because I worry that the leukemia cells may come back and what if I lose him someday, but like the DS you can’t look ahead because you don’t know what the future holds, no one does! This experience has taught me to live one day at a time and in the moment. I am so glad that I came across your blog, your family is beautiful. I do not have a blog, but I do have a face book page it is Teagan Leet Drayton I hope that you will find me. Thank you for sharing your story!
Sincerely,
Teagan Drayton
Nine13 says
-Kelle-I’m so proud of you and I just love your story. I’m 5 months pregnant with baby no.2 so you know that my tears are doubled in volume. I’m proud of you for being so brave and honest and I thank you for it. What a beautiful family you have! Good job on Rosie today;I’ve been crying since I heard you! Beautiful story-thank you for sharing it!
Angie says
July 16. 1998 Our Maddi was born. We found out she had DS about a week and a half later. It was the only time in my life I felt as if blood in my body was running cold. I cried and cried. Trying to hide my pain and feeling guilty and selfish at my inability to come to grips with how this would affect my and my family’s life. Looking back I realize I was grieving for the loss of what might have been. I read the poem, “I’ve never Been to Holland” thousands of time. Though my husband and our three other children were a close and loving family; the depth this little girl has added to our lives and those around us could never be penned. I only tho’t I knew what it was to love. It’s easy to love when everything is perfect and easy, but when face with the perceived challenge of how to accept a little girl with DS into our lives, I crumbled. Oh, how shallow was I. A family that was a four sided rectangle, has now become a prism. Reflecting the light of love our daughter and sister Maddi has shown us. Though we are challenged, we would not have our lives any different.
kristen says
My son is Nello, so I have an affinity by name to your daughter Nella 🙂 So beautiful. Your story is honest, heartfelt, perfect. Thank you for sharing, and congratulations on your lovely family 🙂 joy!
Angela Isom says
I was directed to your beautiful birth story from a wonderful friend of mine. I have a 10-week-old baby girl with Down Syndrome named Elly. Like you, I grieved hard at first. I was shell-shocked and numb and angry… and mostly… fearful of the unexpected and of the future. And yet, like you, I realize God has given us a gift so special that few are invited to be a part of this elite club. We are blessed. The way our little girls will transform our lives and all of those around us is a remarkable blessing. We are so fortunate. As a proud wife and a mother of three amazing children before Elly was born, I feel like my life had been a beautiful black and white photograph full of depth and candid emotion. There was real beauty in the stillness and in the predictability of it all. Now, however, I feel like the contrast in that photograph is so much deeper and even more meaningful. There’s color… like those beautiful photographs that are black and white with one single pink rose. That rose is my little Elly and she’s beginning to add color to every other part of my life’s portrait. She’s transforming everyone around her and everything. Praise God for my little blessing. Congratulations on yours.
Elsa says
Thank you so much for sharing your story, Nella’s story. It is absolutely beautiful and heart touching!!! I love your blog!! God Bless your beautiful family!!!
Anonymous says
I just came across this on the internet
http://www.the-specials.com/episodes/1
Thought you might enjoy it…
Jennifer
jenfellwock@gmail.com
Anonymous says
This was a beautiful story to read. I am pregnant with number two and have a two year old who is treated much like your first–perfect, breathtaking, wonderful, and also had a rough start to the world. Reading your story about Nella made me cry so many tears of worry, fear, and finally joy, in realizing how beautiful each birth and child is. What an amazing gift. Thank you for sharing and your pictures are perfection!
Kisses4Kaylee says
Kelle,
Reading your story about the birth of Nella brought me back to my own birth story this past January. My daughter, Kaylee, was born with an even rarer chromosome disorder called Wolf Hirschhorn Syndrome, and I was completely unprepared for the diagnosis. Your emotion was so raw and so real– I know because I have lived it the same way that you did. The difference is that although I do love my child, I still struggle daily to enjoy my little girl as she is and not mourn the little girl I dreamed about. You are a very special mother, and you are inspiring to me. I hope that I can one day look past the syndrome to just accept who and what she is with a smile. Blessings to you and your family.
Laurie
Jill says
My best friend just forwarded me the link to your site. I am so moved by your post and the photos. Your children are beautiful and you are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story. I absolutely love the photo towards the end where you are holding Nella up close to your face and she is smiling. It’s precious. What lucky little girls to have such a wonderful family. Although I cried my eyes out reading through the first paragraphs, I am only crying happy tears to see how loved this little one is, and will be, forever. thank you 🙂
Anonymous says
Incredible. I am reminded of this essay.
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away…because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
Anonymous says
This is the most beautiful birth story I’ve ever read, you have truly touched my life, thank you. Someone once told me that children with ds are so heaven-sent and so close to God that they have been given a body to live in that will allow them to return to their Heavenly Father whole and sinless and perfect. They truly are angels, straight from heaven. She is truly the most beautiful baby girl I’ve ever seen, and you are the most beautiful mother. Congratulations to you and your family!
Heather Peterson says
Hi! I’m Heather…and I work with babies, children, teens and adults with Down syndrome. (I am a speech pathologist for the Down Syndrome Connection of the Bay Area – Northern California) I absolutely love your story and the pictures of Nella. I truely believe that children with Down syndrome bring a joy to those around them that no other child can. I have watched so many families go through similar “tragedies”, only to realize the life changing blessing that they have received. Ever since I was a little girl, children with Down syndrome have been changing my perceptions of life as I know it. I know your daughter will do the same. Please let me know if I can ever offer you any information on feeding/speech/oral motor development for your Nella. Big hugs! -Heather Peterson happykidstherapy@hotmail.com
Lauren says
So – I must say (though I am sure there are about 500 more comments like mine on this post) that this sums up much of my birth experience with my second daughter as well. She was born via c-section and when the doctor held her up over the curtain for me to take a peek I just knew – she was different. The docs, nurses, my husband all celebrated and said she was perfectly healthy. The days in the hospital were agonizing for me because I saw something that no one else did. Even the perinatologists thought she was a normal baby with some funny features due to her prenatal positioning. It took 10 months for my daughter to be diagnosed with a very rare chromosomal disorder. But this feelings that you shared so perfectly were so similar to my own. It is an honor to mother my daughter, Norrah. I feel so blessed. Thanks for writing this post. I am officially hooked on the blog. 🙂
Jenifer says
Congrats, I am a firm believer that we are chosen for special little people, God gave you this gift, and a wonderful gift it is I am sure. I do not have a child with Downs but I had a baby 8 months ago and found out he has some heart problems and it tore me apart, but later I recieved an email that made all the difference in the world that I was chosen for this special gift, and he was chosen for me, we are the luckiest mommys to recieve such special little people. Your story was beuatiful and made me cry. Thank you for sharing with the world. You are amazing.
Nella Wood says
Kelle, your little girl is beautiful and what a beautiful story. I am 50 years old and also named Nella. I can not think of a more beautiful person to share my unusual name. I have a cousin who was blessed to have a little girl with DS. She was truly a blessing to the family and everyone who came into her life. God truly picks from the best on this earth to be the parent of a DS Child. You truly are blessed and given a great gift from God because he KNOWS that he will only trust the VERY BEST PARENTS TO HAVE THE HONOR OF BEING NELLA’ PARENTS. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL FAMILY. I myself have always been told my birth was special because I was born on Leap Year 1960. Nella will have a beautiful life.
Marcie Clare says
absolutely amazing– stories like this really make me feel happy and at peace. . . I too have plans to name my daughter Nella after my auntie 🙂
Tierknee says
Beautiful…Thank you for sharing.
dunski says
thank you for sharing your story. it touched me deeply and even though I’ve read so many birth stories before.. yours is amazingly beautiful – like your girls!
love your blog, the photos and once more nellas story.
Love from switzerland
Beautifully Blessed says
I found this page through another site I’m on. Wow…what a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing this. I started reading it in its entirety, but then I felt a lump in my throat and my eyes became teary and I knew I had to skim…lol. I’m at work and I don’t want to end up a puddle of mush on the floor…been there, done that. Your girls are amazingly beautiful and God has blessed you dearly with the both of them. May He continue to shine down with love upon your family. Blessings to you all…
Marci says
Beautiful story, Kelle. I love your honesty, I love your photos, and I love that you are from Michigan living somewhere warm and sunny (so am I). I went through some post-partum depression after having my son, Charlie, and it’s hard to be honest while facing judgement from others. But it’s worth it to share your story. While my depression was nothing like the journey you’re embarking on, I felt some strings of resemblance as I read your words (especially the running away part). Thank you for sharing your life, Kelle. Please continue to do so.
Marci
http://www.the3phees.com
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Anonymous says
You know i am crying …crying really hard….I am 30 weeks pregnant and the biggest fear of my life is what will happen?
I dont know , i have a younger brother with down syndrome and he is the purest , innocent guy of this world. I luv him and i a m in luv with ur daughter beautiful……….
I hope she is healthy and doing good. You will always be in my prayers.
Anonymous says
Your story of her birth has really touched my heart. There isn’t anything better then the gift of a child from God. God bless you and your new bunny and your entire family. You are a wonderful family with unconditionl love!
Melissa says
I just read your beautifully, honest story. What courage it took to write! I am so very glad you did. I hope you precious little girls are both doing well, and I hope your family continues to grow stronger each day.
Jesse says
Your story is so very touching. It pulls at my mommy heartstrings. What an amazing woman you are. I am new to your blog, and am really enjoying it.
Blessing to you. =)
Anonymous says
I just discovered your blog a couple of weeks ago as well and have been enjoying it so very much. Your story of Nella’s birth is so beautiful and honest. My respect for you is endless. I love your beautiful pictures as well. Thank you so much for sharing with us.
Lynne says
Thank you for making me cry happy tears. This is the most beautifully written, touching story I’ve ever read.
Please, please tell me you really are writing a book…please.
Anonymous says
Kelle, I love this. It is so beautiful and raw and perfect (the writing and the actual story). I read it a few months ago, but I have read it many times since. It never fails to make me cry – and I am 19-years-old and far from being a mother, so I feel like that says a lot. This story is beautiful, and I am so grateful you shared it. You have a truly beautiful family and I know that God picked you all to be Nella’s family for a reason. Congratulations!
Anonymous says
Nella and Lainey are lucky to have such a loving mom and dad. Life wil never be the same, but I guess it will be more rich annd colorful to your heart. Congrats our precious daughters.
Anonymous says
I cannot get enough of this story. I cannot read fast enough…and then I go back and read it all over again. You are an inspiration and full of grace and love. Nella is the luckiest little girl to have a mama like you! Thank you for sharing your story so honestly…I want to look at every ‘normal’ day like you do in hopes of creating a masterpiece of life as you ARE!
Anonymous says
I cannot get enough of this story. I cannot read fast enough…and then I go back and read it all over again. You are an inspiration and full of grace and love. Nella is the luckiest little girl to have a mama like you! Thank you for sharing your story so honestly…I want to look at every ‘normal’ day like you do in hopes of creating a masterpiece of life as you ARE!
Becki says
Your daughters are beautiful. Simply stunning. My heart broke and got pieced back together again, stronger, reading that. Thank you for sharing.
Anonymous says
I was directed to your page from a friend’s blog and I had no idea what I would find.
I read the entire story with tears streaming down my cheeks.
I am not a mother yet and cannot even begin to understand what motherhood must feel like, but your story is beyond gorgeous – as is your family.
I commend you for this big and beautiful journey you are beginning.
Amy says
What an amazing story!! I had to grab a box of tissues as I read through it and shared all those emotions with you. Thanks for sharing your story. I will hug my babies much tighter tonight. Your little bunny is ADORABLE!! Congrats!!
Hugs,
Amy ♥
Ellen says
Beautiful family, beautiful story. Thank you for sharing it, and God bless.
Sybil Reisch says
Thank you so much for sharing this deeply meaningful story, and those beautiful photos! I wrote a story of our son, Jeff who lived with Down syndrome for 27 years, “Journey With Jeff; Inspiration for Caregivers of People with Special Needs,” so that other mothers would not feel they were alone. You have such wonderful friends, family, and a love of a husband. Reading the comments following your moving story you, too, have helped other caregivers to feel not alone. Bless you and Nella, and her sweet sister, and your beloved, as you live out your story of inspiration.
Kerry says
I am interupted from reading your blog by my 7 year old, “mommy, mommy, look at me!!” He just dressed himself in his favorite superhero/dinasour PJ combination. He brushed his teeth and came over so I could smell his clean breath. He gave me a HUGE hug and said “I love you, mommy.”
My son is perfect, like your Nella. Each of these milestones took a little longer. I thought I would never hear “mommy”. I used to chant it by his bed, hoping if he heard it enough, he would be able to say it. Then suddenly, that milestone, and so many others, were reached…then surpassed. You go back to worrying about the hardwood floors and all the other things you thought wouldn’t matter any more. The great thing is, they do matter, because your Nella will be your new “normal”-just like Lainey gave you a different normal.
I have to go, my perfect little boy is calling me to witness another milestone. All the best. Thank you for sharing the kick-off of your journey.
Anonymous says
Tears are still falling, but they turned from tears of sorrow to joy as the story continued. Thank you for your honesty in sharing such a personal and beautiful experience. Have no doubt that you have touched many and will continue to do so as will your incredible daughters.
Anonymous says
That was the most amazing birth story i have ever read, it really touched my heart. Thank you for sharring it. What a beautiful family you have..Love them & cheerisg them !
Kami says
Wow! This post is beautiful. You can just feel the love. Thanks for sharing your sweet story. I now want to share your post with two friends of mine who I know this will touch.
Thank you.
Anonymous says
Reading your blog just took me back to my own birth experience, 7 years ago. We didn’t know our daughter had Down’s until after she was born, and I went through all the same emotions of mourning your “normal” child, only to come to the realization of what a blessing our daughter really is. Reading your birth story felt as though you were in my head – and that I am not alone.
My daughter Shelby is AMAZING – just as Nella is – I really look forward to reading more about your journey in the future.
Corine says
THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR BEAUTIFUL STORY – YOUR BEAUTIFUL BABY!!!
YOU ARE SO BLESSED! 😀 GOD LOVES YOU VERY MUCH!
Corine says
THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR BEAUTIFUL STORY – YOUR BEAUTIFUL BABY!!!
YOU ARE SO BLESSED! 😀 GOD LOVES YOU VERY MUCH!
marta says
am crying happy tears for you. what love, what beauty, what an incredible genuine story. i love the part about the big sister loving her tiny sister. with such a heart of innocence and unconditional love. the exact love we should all have. oh what a lesson you’ve given us. bless you and your darling family. xo.
Sherri Scott says
Our beautiful Shelbi is twelve years old now and it has been a wonderful journey so far. The love and joy she brings to everyone she encounters will certainly be an experience for you too. You have let the world in on our little secret ~ WE are the blessed ones!! Thank you for your gift of words! God bless you and your lovely family.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. A few years ago, a close family member was diagnosed with a non life threatening, but still devastating disease. I had heard long ago something I never forgot. Someone told me that even when something “bad” happens, it’s a blessing and that you will become a better person for it. Well, I laughed when I heard that and said “Yeah, right.”
Years later, after dealing and coming to terms with the disease of a loved one, I can honestly say that it DID make me a better person – having gone through so much despair and anguish, I have learned to let go and be happy for the things I have.
Your daughters are beautiful, each in their own way. I’m so proud to be a fellow mother, trying to do the best with what love and abilities I can give to them.
You will be in my thoughts for a long time. You have renewed the belief that there is good in this world. It’s people like you and your loving husband that make things so much better – for everyone.
I am forever grateful to you, stranger. Thanks again for this beautiful story.
Cindy says
I want you to know how much your blog means to me. A good friend of mine sent me Nella’s birth story because of our situation. I was due in a few weeks and was starting to get anxious. Your story put everything I was feeling into words and gave me insight of what was yet to come. I am so thankful that we knew ahead of time and had the chance to prepare ourselves (and read your story). You made me feel like my thoughts weren’t crazy after all. They were normal! Thanks to you, I processed a lot of it before he came, and I truly enjoyed every moment of the arrival of our new son. Jack was born on Feb. 9, and just like your doctor said, he is perfect! I continue to read your blog daily. It’s nice to see someone else going through this in such a positive way. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!
Stephanie says
Stranger here…….but I felt like part of your story was my story too. My Owen boy was born with Down Syndrome last May and although the first night in the hospital was probably one of the worst nights of my life, I wouldn’t trade that peanut for the world. He’s the best thing I’ve ever done.
Thank you Kelle for putting all of those emotions and feelings into words that I have never able to.
Lyme Girl says
You don’t know me, nor I you. But your story has truly touched my life. Thank you for sharing. We are all traveling a difficult road in different ways, and each story, honestly shared, leaves a lasting footprint of faith to endure faithfully to the end with courage and strength. Happiness isn’t found in a specific place, time, or space. Happiness is a place found only through the heart.
Sarah says
She is beautiful! My younger sister has DS (almost 20 years old now) and my mom went through the same emotions you did, but I like Lainey was the big sister and she was my baby sister and I loved her (and still do) with all of my heart. She WAS given to you for a reason. She will change your life! What an amazing blessing you have been given. My heart is so happy for your family and for what the future holds. Love, Sarah
Jen Lebo says
I was sent your blog by my SIL. She thought I would love your blog/site as I am a portrait photographer too. I cried through your whole story, and of course, just like everyone else, fell in love with Nella. Your story is precious. Thank you for sharing it. Thank you for sharing Nella with the world. She is so beautiful and I look forward to following your blog and watching how God uses her to touch those around her.
Thank you again and enjoy your precious girls.
Peter, Jill, and Parker says
Beautiful story. Had tears running down my face as I could feel your pain and happiness all in the same story. She is beautiful. Such love from all your family and friends.
Mrs T says
She is so beautiful. Both your girls are. Thank you for sharing this.
Kenzie LaRae says
That was incredible. Heartfelt. Honest. Beautiful. I cried, I got chills, I am amazed. Thank you.
And what a beautiful family you have! I am so excited to read more.
Susan says
I just found your blog and read Nella’s birth story. Thank you for sharing. You are a beautiful writer. So thank you for that too.
I cried when I read the story. Not sad tears; but tears of joy for all your story represents. I loved your dad’s perfect words: “That’s okay. We love her”.
And thank you, on this quiet normal spring morning in my life, for the reminder of what a gift and miracle our children are. Of the beauty and purpose of our job as parents. Of the depth of love we learn we are capable of in the moment are children arrive in our lives.
Today, because of your blog, I pledge to love my two little girls harder and stronger. I pledge to honour them just a little bit more. I pledge to thank the universe that they chose me, everyday. I pledge to see past the hazed daily frustrations of parenthood to the crystallized bright light of love that these little souls are. And to see, really see, the incredible blessings that I have.
So basically, thank you.
And good luck. And God Bless. I have a feeling you’re going to be just fine. You’re going to be awesome. In fact, I suspect you already are.
Anonymous says
You have know idea how much you have just helped me realize that I’m not alone and my DISASTOROUS story is truley a blessing. You are so strong, brave, and beautiful. I hope that I can become more like you. And your girls are gorgeous!
Beks says
Wow, I wish I knew you in person. You are someone that anyone would want to know. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful.
Anonymous says
This is incredibly inspiring, well told, beautifully documented. You are a talented writer–please keep up your blog; I love reading it.
Nella is the cutest little thing I’ve ever seen.
Thank you for posting.
Kristin says
your story is near and dear to my heart, our son Blaze was born with Edward’s Syndrome, aka, Trisomy 18. We had 2 precious days with him. I miss him so much. Each moment is one to treasure. Blaze gave my heart wings, and your story and the honesty gave me comfort. Beautiful and perfect.
Marija says
She is a gift. Delivered carefully to a family filled with strength, character and poise.
Marija
Moxie Momma says
Kelle,
Thank you for sharing that part of your soul with the rest of us. What an amazing story you have to tell and what an amazing circle of family and friends you had around you that beautiful day.
Although my story is certainly different, I can relate to having a child that you didn’t expect, that you weren’t prepared for. I didn’t get my dose of reality until my son was much older. Looking back I can see the signs before the age of 6 when he was diagnosed with Tourette Syndrome and OCD.
After a long journey through what, for me, was like a twelve step program I have come to love my son for who he is and I’ve stopped trying to fix him, because I have learned that he is who he was meant to be. I firmly believe that my son chose me because he wanted to teach me some deeper lessons in life.
Your children are beautiful and are very blessed to have a mom who accepts them for who they are. Just as you are blessed to have been chosen to be their mom.
Believe,
Michelle McGee
http://www.moxiemomma.com
Bethany says
Dear Kelle,
Thank you for all of the beauty you bring to the world: your daughters, your writing, your photos, your essence.
With love and admiration,
Bethany
Bethany says
Dear Kelle,
Thank you for all of the beauty you bring to the world: your daughters, your writing, your photos, your essence.
With love and admiration,
Bethany
Bethany says
Dear Kelle,
Thank you for all of the beauty you bring to the world: your daughters, your writing, your photos, your essence.
With love and admiration,
Bethany
Brittany says
My darling sister shared this with me today…she was so inspired and touched by your words…and now I know why. You are such gifted writer- I was deeply moved as I read Nella’s birth story. It was absolutely beautiful. I just gave birth to a little girl just 4 weeks ago so the childbirth experience with all the incredible emotion is still fresh! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and feelings – the things you have gone through to reach the place you are at now…it lifted me up and inspired me to be more loving, more happy, more grateful, and more flexible. It is so obvious that you truly cherish the calling of motherhood and I love that. I feel the same way! Lainey and Nella are truly blessed to have you as their mama. Good luck and have fun with those two sweet girls!
Anonymous says
You have written down on paper, everything that I felt when my beautiful little boy was born 2 and a half years ago, but was afraid to tell anyone but my closest friends and family. Thank you!
Regina Schmutte
Lexington, KY
dsack.org
Anonymous says
You have written down on paper, everything that I felt when my beautiful little boy was born 2 and a half years ago, but was afraid to tell anyone but my closest friends and family. Thank you!
Regina Schmutte
Lexington, KY
dsack.org
robin g says
My Alexander was born with Down’s on January 12th. Also a surprise. A wonderful miracle of a surprise. I felt a kindredness to you in reading this birth story. A longing to meet. To be in the company of another mother who “gets” what it is that the universe gave us in these special little bundles. And it comforts me to know that, in many ways, we have met. And we are not on this path alone. I look forward to following your journey on this blog as I dance on my own journey as well. Congrats to you and your beautiful family.
Pege Yates - Community Director says
What an amazing story….. I’m 14 weeks pregnant and just passed on the option of the triple screen… after having a 38 week stillbirth and three beautiful children after, god’s plan is not mine to alter.
Thank you for sharing and letting others know a mother’s love and how nothing can change it.
Anonymous says
Your story is amazing. Very brave of you to be so honest. You could really teach people something. My heart goes to you and your beautiful family, as I continue to wipe the tears from my face.
Shelley says
I am so happy that you told your story. I am a NICU nurse and have been present when families are told that their baby is not “perfect”. I have always said that God choses parents for those children, special parents. You are a special mommy and God chose you. He knew it would be hard at first, but that you would envelop Nella with your love. Nella is perfect, created in his image and chosen for you. Congratulations!!
Shelley says
I am so happy that you told your story. I am a NICU nurse and have been present when families are told that their baby is not “perfect”. I have always said that God choses parents for those children, special parents. You are a special mommy and God chose you. He knew it would be hard at first, but that you would envelop Nella with your love. Nella is perfect, created in his image and chosen for you. Congratulations!!
Shelley says
I am so happy that you told your story. I am a NICU nurse and have been present when families are told that their baby is not “perfect”. I have always said that God choses parents for those children, special parents. You are a special mommy and God chose you. He knew it would be hard at first, but that you would envelop Nella with your love. Nella is perfect, created in his image and chosen for you. Congratulations!!
Lindsay says
Congratulations on your beautiful little bunny! This is one of the most beautiful stories I have ever had the pleasure of reading. I pray and wish you a lifetime of love, health, and amazing experiences with your gorgeous family!
Lindsay says
Congratulations on your beautiful little bunny! This is one of the most beautiful stories I have ever had the pleasure of reading. I pray and wish you a lifetime of love, health, and amazing experiences with your gorgeous family!
Ingrid says
this story – it’s absolutely moving. your daughter is simply beautiful. congratulations!
~KS says
I just found your blog… I am a law student and have been in the libary for hours, studying away… and someone said, “You have to read this story.” So I stopped by and I read. And I sat in the library and cried, and cried, and smiled, and cried some more. Your story is beautiful. You are beautiful. Your family is beautiful… and Nella, well, I couldn’t imagine her being any more perfect.
Thanks for sharing this with so many of us… you have touched my heart.
~KS says
I just found your blog… I am a law student and have been in the libary for hours, studying away… and someone said, “You have to read this story.” So I stopped by and I read. And I sat in the library and cried, and cried, and smiled, and cried some more. Your story is beautiful. You are beautiful. Your family is beautiful… and Nella, well, I couldn’t imagine her being any more perfect.
Thanks for sharing this with so many of us… you have touched my heart.
Stephanie O. says
My friend just sent me an email telling me that I had to visit your blog….Reading about the birth of your sweet daughter was absolutely moving…Blessings to you and your family….
Carly says
simply uplifting ~ welcome Nella x
Amanda Arnold says
beautiful. you are amazing. your family is lovely. “A Child Shall Lead Us” for sure.
Amanda Arnold says
beautiful. you are amazing. your family is lovely. “A Child Shall Lead Us” for sure.
JodyM says
The story of Nella’s birth is one of the most beautiful, honest, raw, heartfelt and joyous things I have ever read. Congratulations on your sweet perfect baby girl.
Anonymous says
I don’t know how I ended up on your blog, but I am so glad I did. I was in one of those, “Woe is me…” moods and was angry at my husband for no real reason while I cursed at the pile of laundry, the dirty dishes, and the long to do list that always seems to be following me. Reading Nella’s birth story filled me with love. Love for my wonderful husband, love for my crazy and handsome boys, and love for my chaotic-yet truly blessed life. Thank you for sharing your heart with strangers. Sending you endless blessings and a kiss for beautiful Nella.
Angel says
Oh, how I know your story. I know it frontwards and backwards like we shared it together, just at different times. I have angel too and she is 3 1/2 and could not imagine our family without her. When reading yor story, I am telling you…. we shared so many of the same emotions and feelings. I would love for us to talk someday. God is so good and He does not make mistakes. I learned so much about myself through this and I’m telling you, God exposed some cleaning up on my part!! Sure.. it gets hard, but life is hard and there are no guarentees with anyone one of us. My story has brought my closer to God and made me a better person!
Your daughter is beautiful and a true gift from God! Don’t fall into the trap from the enemy, hold on to your family and live your life!
So proud to have read your story!!
Anonymous says
Gosh! What a beautiful story! Nice picz!
erinmcpatrick says
Beautiful story, beautiful girls, and beautiful family. Thank you for sharing.
mamamode says
Your touching, honest words remind me why I need to be thankful for life’s challenges. It’s those challenges that shape, change and teach us.
Thank you, Kelle, for sharing your story. You are blessed!
iselin pettersen says
aw, cute story:) you have a beautiful daughter.
MartheSlask says
You made me cry and you made me feel kind of safe. Thats what it is all about. Love. Thank you.
Marte says
Your little girl, she’s so beautiful!
She is going to give you so much joy and happiness. A child with downs I must say are one of the best gifts a person ever can get.
Of course, it will be hard times to, but the good times will make it worth it.
Congratulations, I’m sure you’ve had some wondreful months with her, and looking forward to lots of more!
Anonymous says
wow, that was such a beautiful story! I could feel the pain, and the love and the happiness. It was all there, all at once. It was beautiful. Your daughter is beatufil, both of them. Yor are also beautiful!
I wish you luck, may you and your beautiful family have a happy life. 🙂
Love from me.
Maja says
this is amazing. You are amazing.
Ana says
WOW. I admire you
Ana says
WOW. I admire you
Ana says
WOW. I admire you
Megan says
Kelle, if you had been nearby while I read Nella’s birth story you would have heard the sound of my heart cracking wide open. I sat there in front of the computer screen while the tears ran down my face. Thankyou for helping me grow as a person, and for sharing your precious Nella with the rest of the world.
Anonymous says
Your words have so much power and beauty, your story moved me to sobs and I am so greatful to have read your pain and joy because it is real and it is special, just like you and your gorgeous family. There are reasons for which we have been chosen and you have a gift of many! How truly lucky you are!! Bless you and your sweet sweet family.
Marte says
Wow, what a strong and moving story!
I’ve read it serveral times now, and still tearing up by it.
You should be so proud, you have two amazing girls!
I wish you and your girls all the best in the future!
Love from
Marte, Norway
Marte says
Wow, what a strong and moving story!
I’ve read it serveral times now, and still tearing up by it.
You should be so proud, you have two amazing girls!
I wish you and your girls all the best in the future!
Love from
Marte, Norway
Marte says
Wow, what a strong and moving story!
I’ve read it serveral times now, and still tearing up by it.
You should be so proud, you have two amazing girls!
I wish you and your girls all the best in the future!
Love from
Marte, Norway
Yngvil says
Beautiful story from the mother of a just as beautiful baby. You seem like an amazingly strong woman and you should be proud of that. Not everyone would have handled such news as good as you.
Good luck and i hope you and your family will share a lot of love and happiness in the future!
Mona says
What a beautiful blog,ur daughters are so cute:)i wish u all the best:)
Linda says
This is the most beutiful story I’ve ever read! I cried, smiled and falled in love with both of your girls. They’re so lucky having you as their parents… 🙂 Nella is perfect – just perfect..
Anonymous says
That’s a beautiful story, I feel better about my situation knowing how healthy and happy everyone in your story is. I have two boys instead of two girls and its wonderful to know that they can be happy together.
Anonymous says
That’s a beautiful story, I feel better about my situation knowing how healthy and happy everyone in your story is. I have two boys instead of two girls and its wonderful to know that they can be happy together.
Anonymous says
That’s a beautiful story, I feel better about my situation knowing how healthy and happy everyone in your story is. I have two boys instead of two girls and its wonderful to know that they can be happy together.
Expat Mom says
What an amazing story and one that is so special. I know only a little bit of what it’s like to get what you never expected and it’s hard.
Your daughters are both so beautiful and I have to tell you that I used to work with Down’s Syndrome children and some of the most amazing people I’ve ever met were born with it. I think you will find that Nella surprises you ever step of the way . . . she’s going to be amazing. And Lainey is going to learn SO much from her and have a whole new appreciation for everyone around her as she grows up with her sister.
Anonymous says
This must be the strongest history since birth that I have ever read, or heard about. It really makes me think what’s important in the life. It’s impressive to see how you are handle this situation, and I just want to wish you a happy future with your two beautiful daughters.
Marie Amanda says
This is the most beautiful birth story. You are a insperation Kelle! Your little babygirl is NYDELIG as we say in norwegian(beautiful). I am so glad i read this story! Makes my heart melt.
Thank you for sharing this.
Love Marie from Norway
Anonymous says
Your daughter is so beautiful.
My aunt have downs syndrome too, and i’ve never met a person with so much love and joy as she has. She is 50 years today, and still healthy and strong.
You should be very proud of your daughter, and i think you are. She loves you.
Lena says
Dear Kelle.
First: forgive my English, I’m from Norway.
I just wanted to thank you so much for this amazing and beautiful post. I don’t think I’ve ever cried as much as I did reading your story. It’s just so heartbreaking, but at the same time wonderful. I hope as many as possible reads this, and I can promise you that I will show this to as many I can.
you seem like an amazing mother, and I envy your every second with your family.
I can’t find the words to describe what I felt reading this. It was honest, and you didn’t try to hide your feelings.
I wish for you guys a wonderful future, with as much love as even possible. Both of your girls are so beautiful, and the pictures are incredible!
Good luck, and thank you again, this really made me think.
Lots of Love, Lena.
Daniele says
Wow, still getting comments on this. It is that amazing! Just wanted to thank you again for letting us into your life Kelle. I have been having “a day” today. I’ve been in a funk since I got up early this morning, groggy from my 8 month old thinking she’s a newborn again and waking up every 3-4 hours the last week or so. I keep blaming my “funk” on sleep deprivation.
I am filled with a ton of anxiety today, the kind that makes me nauseous… because our baby’s cardiologist appt is coming up on Friday. She goes in every 3 months to see if the hole she has between the lower chambers is closing or changing. At any one of these appts we may hear the words open heart surgery and it just makes me want to cry even saying it. I start to really lose composure in these days leading up to the appts. Anyway…I’m just having a hard day and I wanted to tell you that I came to your blog as my way of bringing myself back. That is how powerful your words are…people turn to them for comfort and that’s what I did today. Spent my girls’ entire nap reading your old posts, I just knew that it was what I needed for perspective.
I feel calm and happiness wash over me as I read all of your “cozy” posts on family and love… and I feel so grateful for all I have. I’m not kidding that my life has been bettered since coming across your beautiful family and beautiful blog and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for that!
theresa says
Kelle, I find myself coming back to you site now for the 2nd day in a row. I was reading the OMG Mom blog, who is a friend, and she directed us to your page.
Your story inspires me. You are so honest and real but there is a tremendous amount of hope and love in your writing.
You and your family make this world a better place to live in. Thank you for your story!
Therese H.N. says
I just wanted to say that you have such a beautiful daughter! Congratulations 🙂
Of course there will be hard days, but you will always get through them, just think over how much you love your daughters, and you are lucky 🙂
GTA Mom says
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GTA Mom says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. My oldest brother has DS…he’s 48. I owe him for any noble and honourable characteristics that I possess…
Sonja says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story! Your girls sure have a wonderful mother: your love for them just spills out of your writing. <3
Anonymous says
This story is beautiful. Coming from someone who has two little cousins with autism, one severe, this warms my heart. It is people like you that inspire me every day while I’m sitting in college classes learning how to be a special education teacher and help these little miracles. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and your perfect little girls with the world.
Chelsea says
What a moving and beautiful story. You are an encouragement to all of us. Your children are very loved and blessed to have you both as parents. God did choose you to be their parents!
Julie says
Thank you for sharing your story..for being honest and saying the real feelings. Your daughter may be downs..but she is adorable! Well done you! God Bless you all.
Anonymous says
Wow. Simply beautiful. I was in tears with every word in that inspiring story. Nella is God-sent…she will bring so many blessings to your life. Thank you for sharing your love and your life.
Melissa Cooper says
You have told this story with such beauty! I just wanted to say that as I scrolled down through the last pictures, my 4 year old son said “Awww, look at that pretty baby, she’s so sweet!” All he saw was how beautiful she is. She is so beautiful, and you are so lucky to be her mama 🙂
Tia says
thank you so much for your raw transparency. it is a rare sweetness to enjoy. And, thank God for Nella and your beautiful family story.
Kristina (Norway) says
This… it’s so beautiful to read! You hare two beautiful daughters! And i couldn’t be more happy for you and Brett! I wish you, and the beautiful family of yours all the luck and love, a beloved and happy life! This is amazing, and it shakes im my heart to read!
YOU are amazing, and strong!
Anonymous says
Wow. I read this through tears. Not tears of sorrow, but tears because you expressed so honestly, so purely your story. It is beautiful as is your family. You are all beautiful and the love you have for them is so evident in the words and pictures you share.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your very personal story. You are a wonderful mother. Your family is blessed. You are loved in Virginia.
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing your very personal story. You are a wonderful mother. Your family is blessed. You are loved in Virginia.
Jen says
I rarely leave comments on blogs I drop in on, and I rarely come back for more.
With your blog, I’ve done both. Thank you for sharing your passion for life with me, your ability to see the beauty and the colors and the happiness.
Congratulations, Kelle. Your girls are perfection.
Tonya says
Beautiful, amazing, honest…loved it! So glad I read your blog today! You and your girls are beautiful!
MamaM says
Thank you for this.
MamaM says
Thank you for this.
KARA says
Hello Kelle and all your family.
Wow I needed to find your blog today, I am a first time Mom with a little boy who is 15 months old, long and short of it my little boy is “special” thats what they are called here in the UK.
I have no idea what is wrong with my son, many doctors have looked and tested and noone knows, he is beautiful and perfect to me but it has taken me time to say that, my son has many conditions, including brain damage, CP and a undiagnosed condition which mean we just don’t know what his life holds, he is just shy of 6 months and is still like a little 6 month old. But he is my baby and like your beautiful daughter, his family love and except him no matter what.
Last week i decided I wanted to write a blog to go through the pain, hurt and hppy times I have inside but did not know if this was ok, seeing your blog today has made me realise YES so thanks for your inspiration.
Big Hugs and Kisses from the UK and enjoy.
KARA says
Hello Kelle and all your family.
Wow I needed to find your blog today, I am a first time Mom with a little boy who is 15 months old, long and short of it my little boy is “special” thats what they are called here in the UK.
I have no idea what is wrong with my son, many doctors have looked and tested and noone knows, he is beautiful and perfect to me but it has taken me time to say that, my son has many conditions, including brain damage, CP and a undiagnosed condition which mean we just don’t know what his life holds, he is just shy of 6 months and is still like a little 6 month old. But he is my baby and like your beautiful daughter, his family love and except him no matter what.
Last week i decided I wanted to write a blog to go through the pain, hurt and hppy times I have inside but did not know if this was ok, seeing your blog today has made me realise YES so thanks for your inspiration.
Big Hugs and Kisses from the UK and enjoy.
KARA says
Hello Kelle and all your family.
Wow I needed to find your blog today, I am a first time Mom with a little boy who is 15 months old, long and short of it my little boy is “special” thats what they are called here in the UK.
I have no idea what is wrong with my son, many doctors have looked and tested and noone knows, he is beautiful and perfect to me but it has taken me time to say that, my son has many conditions, including brain damage, CP and a undiagnosed condition which mean we just don’t know what his life holds, he is just shy of 6 months and is still like a little 6 month old. But he is my baby and like your beautiful daughter, his family love and except him no matter what.
Last week i decided I wanted to write a blog to go through the pain, hurt and hppy times I have inside but did not know if this was ok, seeing your blog today has made me realise YES so thanks for your inspiration.
Big Hugs and Kisses from the UK and enjoy.
KARA says
Hello Kelle and all your family.
Wow I needed to find your blog today, I am a first time Mom with a little boy who is 15 months old, long and short of it my little boy is “special” thats what they are called here in the UK.
I have no idea what is wrong with my son, many doctors have looked and tested and noone knows, he is beautiful and perfect to me but it has taken me time to say that, my son has many conditions, including brain damage, CP and a undiagnosed condition which mean we just don’t know what his life holds, he is just shy of 6 months and is still like a little 6 month old. But he is my baby and like your beautiful daughter, his family love and except him no matter what.
Last week i decided I wanted to write a blog to go through the pain, hurt and hppy times I have inside but did not know if this was ok, seeing your blog today has made me realise YES so thanks for your inspiration.
Big Hugs and Kisses from the UK and enjoy.
diane gibbs says
I am 37 and unfortunately do not have any children. I feel like God has placed a warm place in my heart for people with down syndrome. You know what He has shown me. These people love like Jesus, they understand what love truly is. They are His angels on earth and you are picked and are so lucky to have an angel come from your body. You have been i am sure and will continue to see God (love) in your daughter Nella. She will be your constant reminder of how to love. What a blessed story. keep sharing. you inspire many with your honesty. Your sister’s words were right on. Take care of your angel. Congratulations,
diane gibbs
mobile, AL
Anonymous says
Thank for sharing your story. A friend sent me the link and I love every word you wrote. I believe that you have been blessed with two beautiful daughters and you are very fortunate. For several reasons the window of opportunity has passed for me, but I will always regret not having a baby. I guess god didn’t plan it for me. I love your story and your honesty. You have helped many women who have and will live your experience. You have many gifts to share. Thank you for sharing this one with us.
Anonymous says
31 year ago I gave birth to a son with Down Syndrome. I was not as lucky as you though…a strange doctor announced ‘the baby appears to be Mongoloid’ as he backed out the door. But the emotions you shared with such clarity were my emotions. I kept thinking this is all a dream and when I wake up it will be different. A word of advice from things I have learned over the years. Be certain to have your angel’s hearing tested – 2/3 of all children with Down Syndrome have hearing losses that would cause a ‘normal’ person to need special education if not corrected.
Your love will continue to grow despite any obstacles you might face and the love you get back from your special child is more than you can ever imagine…and that remains throughout life. Many members of my family have gone into special education because of my son and each family member has become so enlightened to the real value of life. God bless you, your family and all of your loving friends.
Anonymous says
kelle- thankyou so much for your beautiful writing. you have managed to describe so honestly the beginning of such a incredible journey with your daughter.
i too have a similar story….and i have struggled to describe it. to let it flow out of me onto paper in the way that you have. so eloquent. so honest. so LOVELY!
my much anticipated, much wanted, much adored 2nd baby emily, has down syndrome.
i wish so much that i had such beautiful photos of her birth. i do have them, but the are in my mind, and they look amazing- not like the grainy, wobbly, unflattering ones i have in my album that struggle to convey the emotion, the love and the pain of those early hours in my arms.
thankyou thankyou so much.
i am convinced i should also begin my own story.
much love and respect-
maz ballantyne
christchurch
new zealand
Anonymous says
Congrats on your beautiful miracle. Your strength is inspiring and you have the two most beautiful daughters I have ever seen. God bless you and your family.
Anonymous says
Hi dear!
I just LOVE you and your family!
Romans 8:28
We are assured and know that [ God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] FOR GOOD to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.
Gods blessings from Norway!
P says
In my fantasy I see a just world,
Where everyone lives in peace and honesty.
Nella’s namesake poem says it all.
You are changing the world, bringing us all peace guided by your every word and with the support of your network including Nella’s grandma who is her other namesake. Support and love abound, great to feel.
Everyone handles stress differently, even us on different days! Sometimes we do projects too but others focus on them (remodeling the house, building and cleaning). It is all good and beneficial.
We don’t want life to be all about the diagnosis. Balance is important in all families. You have it, treasure it.
Martha beck has a short essay in one of the National DS foundation books from the early 2000s. It discusses five myths about DS. It’s a quick read for new parents and accepting or not testing pregnant readers.
There is a lot to do but with faith, little to fear.
Also read the foreword and my journey section of http://www.imdownwithyou.com and join the Facebook page or fan club. If you have a connection to Down syndrome or not. The photographer DOES NOT besides his own life experiences and intuition.
Sam says
Congrats on your little bundle of joy, and all the adventures God has in store for your precious family.
Your story brought me back to when my son was born. I dealt the same way, and when the sun rose the next day all I could was rejoice. God gave us our little piece of Heaven, a true glimpse of his unconditional love. Your oldest daughter is going to know what true joy looks like, and it’s all because of your newest addition.
Congrats again, and God Bless.
Nicole says
thank you for sharing your story and your pictures…my little man with DS is almost 7, but reading your story brought me back to the day I had him…wow, I wish I had read a story like yours back then…you will touch so many with your beautiful words and let others know that they are not alone in their feelings… the good and the “ugly”! Enjoy your precious little girls!
Sandy says
Thank you! I don’t know what else to say. Thank you for sharing your beautiful family with the world and thank you for sharing your amazing journey. Most of all, thank you for being an amazing mama.
Michele says
I just read your birth story and I am just overwhelmed. My youngest daughter was born in August when I was just 26 weeks pregnant. What you said about wanting to run away rings so true. I remember thinking that night that maybe it would be easier if she passed because there was so much struggle ahead of her, with threats of infection and of major complications. I could handle it then, that day, but not if I knew her for longer. Not one day longer. Luckily she made it through, and came home and is thriving at eight months. There are still questions in the future of whether she’ll catch up in certain areas, but she is our perfect little miracle, just as Nella is yours. Thank you so much for putting your whole story down on paper. It has obviously touched so many people–those that have similar stories and, I’m sure, people that don’t even have children.
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Kaitlin.Brown says
You don’t know me, but you have touched my heart beyond words. I pray that I have half of the strength you do.
Anonymous says
We found out that our little one may be born with DS. You have given us so much hope. Thank you.
Raechel says
Oh my goodness, your story moved me. You have two of the most gorgeous daughters I’ve ever seen, and to read your story, I don’t know … it just moved me. Thank you so much for sharing.
Anonymous says
your friend wearing sunglasses, holding your sweet girl under the lights. Her love for you,and her love for your baby jumps right out of that picture.
thanks for sharing.
Jacqui says
Nella is so blessed and you were chosen. I am a mother, too, and you have written the most amazing blog I have ever read. I am inspired, and I feel like I have witnessed the true meaning of being a human being ~ to love. Thank you so much for the gift of sharing your story, I will return to read your blog over and over.
karen says
My friend just sent me the link to your blog…your photography is amazing! and your story is compelling! Blessings to you and your sweet family. KT
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My name is Alena says
One of my friends sent me a message on Facebook with a link to this post, she told me “Ready to bawl your eyes out? Check out this birth story.”
I thought she was joking. I’m not the type to cry over a birth story.
I’ve been proven wrong. You’re story had me in tears.
Your daughters are both absolutely beautiful. I can’t imagine the strength you had to call on that first night. And the amazing friends that stood by you.
I hope to G-D that if I ever need them, I have friends & family like yours.
You are an amazing woman & a wonderful mother. I am inspired by you & your story.
Thank You
*Expecting our first bundle of job 6/8/10*
HunDuddle Hussy says
now SHE, that nella pretty, is super dreamy.
u are one lucky lady. squeeze her extra tight for me today since i can’t 🙂
thank you for your story.
Anonymous says
I just spent the last 10 minutes reading and crying my eyes out…I love how honest you were. I would have felt the same way. She is beautiful! You are very lucky
krystal says
WOW…all I know to say….
This is so real and so beautiful. My heart was touched. You’re story has me in tears…Isn’t it amazing at what God shows us through the things we go through in life? You are amazing. Your words touched me more than you will ever know. I’m a new mom and I had no idea how much love I had to give…You have inspired me to write my birth story. Thank you for being raw and laying it all out. Nella is amazingly perfect and Lainey is beautiful and sweet. Love all your photos. I’ve just recently bought a Canon Rebel and hope to learn how to edit real soon! Love capturing real life with my baby boy…
Thanks again Kelle!
Shannon says
This was simply beautiful to read, your story is a wonderful one and both of your girls are gorgeous. I wish you all the best!
Gry says
Hello Kelle.
I cried.
She is beautyfull.
Downs children have a love and a joy in them, that is like no other, you will see and be amazed time and again :o)
That is one special little girl you have there (well two ofcourse), congratulations here from Denmark 🙂
And thank you for sharing.
Luna says
WOW! I dont even know you and i am still sitting here in my livingroom in cold Denmark and crying! You write so beautiful and your storie is inspirering! Your daughters are gorgeous and i wish you all the best!
Love Luna
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Mands says
What a beautiful…well..you know words can’t express what it felt like to read your story. Probably like words could never truly tell your story. It has to be felt..lived..to understand. I wept as I read it. I don’t know why. I am not affected by your reality the way you are. I don’t have a child with DS but…something in your words touched me deep. “Love me..please love me..I know I am not what you expected but love me.” Even now the tears fall as I weep for this truth that cries out from every soul at some point or another. We all just want to be loved for who we are. Thank you for being brave enough to share this truth. You will never know how it…healed my heart. Thank you.
Julie says
Congratulations on your beautiful, perfect daughters. You are embarking on a wonderful journey of joy and love like you’ve never known. Your family well know so many new blessings because of wonderful, sweet Nella! Thank you for sharing your story with such honesty.
Colette says
Kellie, what a beautiful and honest account of an experience I know so well. Your story struck a chord with me, remembering when my little girl made eye contact with me and ‘told’ me it was going to be ok. Charlotte is almost 5 and reading your story brought me right back to my own experience. It isn’t always easy but mostly it is wonderful and I wouldn’t change a thing.
Anonymous says
Thankyou for sharing such a beautiful and inspiring story, I cried and cried all the way down in little New Zealand 🙂 We all worry that our baby is going to be okay and how we would cope if it doesn’t turn out quite as we expected – but we would because it’s our child and we would love any of our own flesh and blood regardless. Nella is a beautiful little angel – look at the special message she has already carried across the world. All the very best to you and your lovely little family – thanks for giving me a really meaningful life gem to take with me on my own journey xx
Anonymous says
Thankyou for sharing such a beautiful and inspiring story, I cried and cried all the way down in little New Zealand 🙂 We all worry that our baby is going to be okay and how we would cope if it doesn’t turn out quite as we expected – but we would because it’s our child and we would love any of our own flesh and blood regardless. Nella is a beautiful little angel – look at the special message she has already carried across the world. All the very best to you and your lovely little family – thanks for giving me a really meaningful life gem to take with me on my own journey xx
vie says
I was hoping to stumble upon an uplifting story this evening, as I am hoping to be a mother but am experiencing a lot of pain, with little success, in my journey to become one…anyway, I found you. and Nella. and Lainey. and I am so, so happy to have found this story. It is just what I needed. Thank you and so much love to you and yours.
Anonymous says
This is the best thing I have read in a long, long time. May God bless you, keep you safe and protect you and your family. Absolutely GORGEOUS! Beautifully written, and beautifully shot. Fantastic. All the best to your beautiful, lovely, loving family and friends,
Rachel
JDM says
So beautiful. Such a beautiful story about a beautiful baby and a beautiful mother. You are so honest and so true and the photography of you shows another truth. The amazing love you feel. The amazing mother you are. I am going to follow your blog. Thank you for sharing this.
MellyMel says
I came across your blog and am so touched by your story! What a wonderful and honest story it is! You have a gorgeous family and are a wonderful person! Your family is blessed to have you!
Maja says
Dear Kelle, your blog was recommended to someone on a forum, where I lurke. I read a bit, jumped to the birth story.
And I cried. Because of the Love. Honestly, right now, I’m sooo tired, I haven’t slept in days, because my baby girl is waking me up constantly. And I get so upset and angry with her.
Reading your story reminded me, what a gift motherhood is, and how blessed we all are with our children. Thank you. You are a really beautiful person, from the inside out.
And you are one yummy mummy 🙂
Crystal says
beautiful story, beautiful baby, beautiful love!
Sarah says
I was on face book this morning, on my status it said im up at 5 30 am second morning in a row, been up past 12 with my youngest daughter, My friend sent me this link to your post and told me to read it. I have spent the morning ready and changing nappies, coming back to your post every chance i could i cant tell you how you have inspired me. You are truly an amazing mother. Thank you for sharing your story.
Tears and tears i felt for you but in return i feel nothing but joy to feel that love you have for your daughter a love you will only know!
Thank you again.
Sarah xox
Anonymous says
Kelle, I’ve been following your blog for quite a while and just yesterday got on after a long while and just wanted to tell you what an amazing person and mother you are. Lainey and Nella are two lucky and very lovely little ladies!
Donna 😀
Tricia says
Our sweet baby girl was born on April 27th. After she was born, my husband sensed that something wasn’t right by the reaction from the doctors and nurses. He even whispered in my ear, “She looks kind of like she has Down Syndrome”. I immmediately dismissed it. It wasn’t even a thought that something like that could happen. The following morning, our pediatrician gently broke the news. My world fell apart. This cannot be happening to us was my thought. I felt all of those emotions that you described in your blog. It felt like I was reading about myself as I was reading your story. Our baby is only two and half weeks old right now, but my heart has been on a much longer journey than that. I am definitely a different person now. I have a new outlook on life and love. I feel honored and blessed that God would choose us to watch over her. We are blessed! Thank you for telling your story. And for telling so beautifully! Tricia
Anonymous says
Wow…. All I can say is that this is the most amazing birth story I have ever read… I’m just a teen, certainly not a mother, and won’t be for a long time. But when the time comes that I do become one, I will remember you and this amazing story of love. You already are the best and most caring mom on the earth, and I hope you know that. I read a few of the comments, and it seems like more then just a few people want you to write a book… You writing is absolutely beautiful, just like your two daughters, and I really think you should consider continuing. Thank you so much for sharing this.
Anonymous says
Wow…. All I can say is that this is the most amazing birth story I have ever read… I’m just a teen, certainly not a mother, and won’t be for a long time. But when the time comes that I do become one, I will remember you and this amazing story of love. You already are the best and most caring mom on the earth, and I hope you know that. I read a few of the comments, and it seems like more then just a few people want you to write a book… You writing is absolutely beautiful, just like your two daughters, and I really think you should consider continuing. Thank you so much for sharing this.
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MC says
I teared up while reading your story. When I finished, the tears came. What an incredible, beautiful, honest story. Thank you for sharing it. Your family is beautiful and I wish all of you all the happiness in the world. xo
Anonymous says
I’m an aspiring photographer and have fallen in love with your work. It’s absolutely beautiful.
Your story however is so much more. I work at a camp in the summer for children with special needs. I absolutely love it. Mainly though I am writing this because I want to say “good job mamma!” Often at camp I see children who’s parents checked out on that very special birthday. Children who packed their own bags, bags with single shoes, no toothbrushes and no pillows to sleep on during their week at camp. While I am so thankful that their parents allowed for them to come to camp, I get so frustrated at the same time.
Simply I am just saying thank you and keep it up. I’m proud of you for making that decision to still be the best mommy you can be.
Cris says
Kelle…thank you so much for your beautiful story. I have a 2 1/2 year old girl with downs (we like to call it ups). Your story was like reliving her birth. It was amazing. My husband summed it up when he asked me why I was crying after she was born. He told me that we were chosen. He said she will make us better parents, our kids better people and us, a better family. How right he was. She is a celebration of life
EVERY DAY! How blessed we are to have been chosen! Much love, The Nesbitts
PineappleBabble says
What a beautful mommy, baby, and family. And what an amazing post. I’m proud to say I was able to stop crying long enough to type this.
What a blessed adventure you have before you. I wish you all of the joy in the world.
XOXO Rachael
@PineappleBabble
Kalisha says
I just read your birth story and I think you are such an amazing person. I am sitting here at my desk in tears. I pray that God rains blessing on you and your beautiful family.
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Randi says
That is the most beautiful, honest story I’ve ever read. Thank you for sharing that … that beautiful baby will bless you in a way that no other baby could. My youngest is named after a little girl with D.S. – she is amazing and a fighter and all that is good.
MaggieMae says
Thank you for sharing your gift and your life with me. The story and the photos are AMAZING. She is absolutely beautiful.
I’m on this same journey with you… because God made plans for me too. Though I could not think it possible, this love deepens every day. My boys are 5 now and I love them more deeply than words can express. More deeply than I did yesterday and the day before.
Congratulations on your beautiful new daughter and on the amazing journey you’ve started. Enjoy!
Amanda says
Raw, honest emotion. Pure beauty seeping through every word. This morning your story, Nella’s beautiful story touched my heart. Thank you for sharing it Kelle.
John Brown Rose says
I’m a complete stranger from all the way in NZ…but I have been in tears over the beauty of your story. Your an amazing Mumma and I’m just praying for huge blessings on you and your family and this beautiful little girl Nella.
samantha says
there is thousands of comments posted…
but after reading this, i just had to comment.
the tears were streaming down my face, that is the most amazing heart wrenching story i have ever read!
she is perfect, an angel, a beautiful gift! and your story was beautifully written, and honest, i loved it! and will now become an avid reader of your blog!
xxx
Little Pinwheel says
I fight back the tears, mostly tears of happiness. To read such a beautiful, hopeful and fearful birth story brings me so many emotions, but mostly I feel happiness. You are a beautiful mother and reading this I kept saying, “she is perfect.”
enjoy your lovely girls xx
Jill says
I feel so lucky to have been able to just read that.
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. Not being dramatic or anything – that was beautiful.
It came straight from your heart.
Anonymous says
Hi. I live in Australia and just wanted to let you know you are an inspiration, an amazing, courageous women. You have left a print on me for life, a reminder to cherish all I have and every moment with my 6 month old daughter Charlie. If only a small percentage of people held the values and strength you do we would live in a better world. My daughter and I thank you for opening your heart and letting us in. Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful daughter Nella. Veronica & Charlie x
Melissa says
This was a very emotional story for me to read. My daughter was born in March with severe/profound hearing loss. It was a complete shock to us. We were given a wonderful poem called, Welcome to Holland.” Google it… it is worth reading.
Your daughters are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story.
Meredith says
Beautiful and honest! I have a similar story with my little own little angel Macee. I cried right along with you as I was reading and remembering my own experiences with my precious little Blessing! She is now two and will soon be the “big sister” as baby will be here any day:-) It has definitely been a different journy, but I wouldn’t change it for anything! I truly feel honored to be Macee’s mom! Thank you so much for sharing!
Amanda says
So beautifully written – a real touching account of your daughter’s birth. So beautiful – I have tears in my eyes. Nella is beautiful xx
Elizabeth says
so much love ………….
goodwitchglinda says
There just aren’t adequate words…thank you for the beautiful love story.
Loreni says
Hi Kelle, I don’t know you but I know your story because it also happened to me. My son Miles is almost 9 months now and he is Heaven! I am a better person because of him and I can’t imagine life without him. He is perfect is so is your Nella. Congratulations and thank you for sharing. You brought tears to my eyes….we heal but that initial pain is always there with us.
I recently started blogging about my life with Miles. You can check it out at http://mylifewithmiles.blogspot.com
-Loreni
Brittany @ GreyGreyDesigns says
Kelle, I think you are amazing. I just found your blog today thanks to my sister-in-law and I, too, have a special needs baby. Greyson is 2 and has Tuberous Sclerosis. He suffers from developmental delay in the same ways that DS kids too. But, I wanted to tell you that I feel that you have somehow reached into my soul and understood me and how I felt in those first weeks/months of dealing with his diagnosis like no one else has. So many things I have read in your blog have resonated strongly with me. You are right, we can’t predict the future and we really wouldn’t want to. No day but today. You are SO brave for putting your feelings out there and I thank you for doing that–for all special needs parents. Your babies are beautiful and perfect!
The Flight of the Moody Family says
Kelle,
You do not know me but a friend of mine just told me about your blog tonight as I told her of some struggles and emotions I have been experiencing.
Your story is just amazing and so beautiful. As different as our situations are, I truly know the emotions you felt for your daughter.
Unlike Nella, who has three chromosome 21’s, my son is missing one.
I think the emotions run the same in any given situation like this and you handled them so wonderfully.
She is just a beautiful and perfect little girl.
That is always what I call my son as well, PERFECT. No matter what imperfections or complications God gives us, he does it for a reason.
There is reasons as to why these children where chosen to be with you.
You are an inspiration.
I am so glad I found your blog.
sarah
~ValianEfforts~ says
I keep coming to this incredible story. As a child with Special needs I have to thank you for showing the raw emotions that you feel when you finf out your child has a special need. You still love them, and you always think they are perfect, I cried the first time I read this in deep appreciation for you, your family and the strength you had to write this. I want you to know I keep coming back to your blog because of how amazing I think you are as a mother, a wife, a person and a photographer. You have the most BEAUTIFUL children, each with their own unique personalities and features, and I love reading everything you write, if there is one thing I have learned from you, it’s to cherish the little things in life, to find joy in the uncomfortable, to stop and take an extra minute to smell the roses. Thank you so much for sharing your stories.
Aimee @ Ain't Yo Mama's Blog says
This is, by far, one of the most beautiful and touching birth stories I have ever read. What a gorgeous and blessed family, each and every one of you.
-Aimee
Mommy Needs a Vacation says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story. This is the most amazing birth story I have ever read or heard of. God bless you and your family!
Helen McGinn says
There are no words….simply, beautiful. x
steph says
your honesty and love will directly effect how wonderful your daughters lives will be, and how they will effect others around them in life 🙂
Susan says
Kelle, a friend of mine told me to read your blog and it’s already one of my all time favorites. I braced myself to read the birth story of Nella and it has just rocked me to the core reading it. I feel so moved and impacted by it and I’m not even a mom! I keep saying to myself, if she can go through this with such beauty, grace, elegance and honesty, I feel like I could go through some trials as well.
I’m supposed to be working on my final essays for my seminary class, but I am going to your blog as a “break”. I went back to reading for seminary, read something, and just felt so compelled to share it. Ephesians 1:4-5, 9-10 reads, “4For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love 5he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will. 9And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, 10to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment—to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ.”
The author I am reading commented, ‘In this sense Scripture does not describe salvation as “creation-plan B” or the new covenant as a rescue operation. Being saved, being in convenantial relation, is God’s first and only eternal plan of creation. He spoke it into being by his Word, gave it life by the Spirit and brought about its historical realization in Christ as the fulfillment of “the mystery of his will” and his “plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in him, things in heaven and on earth.”
May seem like random seminary readings, but as I read that God’s original plan was to rescue us from brokenness (not the back up plan when we screwed up) I thought of you and Nella. Not because you have screwed up but because you have shared such honest brokenness, and God’s plan from the beginning of time was to redeem that and use it for good. I pray that God uses your small wonder for amazing things and that YOU my friend would experience blessing in the mean time.
You are such a beautiful inspiration to us, really. Keep using your gifts to share with the world and with your precious little family. Thanks Kelle.
mandiegirl says
This is such a beautiful story. 🙂
You have such a sweet precious girl!
Ky • twopretzels.com says
I stumbled upon your blog today and I’m in tears.
Bless you and your little ones.
Amy says
This was beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your bunny’s story with us. God Bless you and your family.
Jessica says
What a wonderful mother you are! God truly trusted that you would be the perfect mother to love and cherish your sweet baby girl. Thank you for sharing your story…
dynajenn says
I don’t even know you, but I love you. What a gift you have given me.
The Gomez Family says
This is truly the most beautiful birth story I have ever read!!! The way you tell it is amazing!!!! I admire you for your courage!!!! Congratulations on your beautiful family!!!
Anonymous says
She’s a beautiful baby…a beautiful story just beginning for you and your family. Bless you all!
Caroline says
I just found your blog and reading this post brought tears to my eyes. You are such a beautiful person.
Kimberlee says
I have Ella, age seven with Ds. Her birth story is very similar to your daughters. You’ve told it well. Thanks for speaking to my heart and to countless of others’.
Manuel says
Thank you for writing this beautiful story, you put into words all the feelings my husband and I had when Ismael, our baby with DS was born a year ago. We both cried while reading it. Your photos are great and reading your stories is inspiring. Greetings from Queretaro, Mexico!
Keri Mae says
Oh my. What could I possibly say on top of 1000+ comments?! Your photos are amazing. I just cried through it all. It brought it all back for me. When I brought Ruby home I even deleted my entire blog because I needed the space. I’m writing again, though. Would you like to meet our Ruby? She is almost two. God bless you. I wish I could give you a hug. Really.
With love,
Keri Mae
http://www.kerimae.com/search/label/Ruby
Tracy Williams says
What a proud momma. Your story is real and honest and perfect. I’m so happy for your family and your perfect daughters. Thank you for sharing and reminding me what true love is all about.
Anonymous says
What a BEAUTIFUL story… thank you so much for sharing. You have such a beautiful family, I hope you realize HOW lucky you are.
Anonymous says
A touching story. I do feel for Nella though. When I look at the birth pictures and see the expressions on everyone’s faces, all I see is disappointment that Nella wasn’t born perfect. It is wrong of ANYONE to assume that their baby will be born perfect, you should always be prepared in the back of your mind to accept the worst. You didn’t have any tests done which you could have, and ultrasounds don’t always show up DS and other complications.
Heather says
I came to your blog via Annieblogs.
Thank you for posting this and being real. I cried along with you as I read this, but more than anything, my heart overflowed with joy for you. What a beautiful story.
Jamie Willow says
this was amazing to read. my heart was full the whole time. and so were my eyes.
your pictures are amazing and truly capture the love.
Lyndee says
I have lost a baby and bore four who are grown now and I have 6 grandkids. I work with physically and mentally challenged babies by being a helper to my friend who fosters and has adopted precious ones. I know the shock and the knowing you speak of because of my husbands diagnosis of parkinsons and dementia of the Alzheimers type. I caretake him and try to work through the unfairness and meanness of the disease all the while trusting God for that day. Blessings on you and your sweet lovely family. May both your daughters bless you and your husband abundantly with her love and the enlarging of your hearts!
Saundra says
Thank you for opening your soul and putting yourself out there for all of us to witness. I marvel at your ability to put your deepest feelings into such beautiful words. That, in itself is a gift. Your Nella is beautiful, as is your entire family. Your sister is right, God chooses those special people to have special children. I had a “different” child, who is now 23 yrs. old. There were many times of challenges and trials and me asking God “why me”. He then reminds me that nothing He does is in vain, and though we don’t have all the answers to why things happen like they do, He has a plan and He knew that baby before I did. My son’s challenges allowed me to witness to others and to have a heart for other children like him, eventually working in special education classrooms. It opened up a new and different community for me to be involved with, to understand, to be a help to.
God will lead you and teach you, and through your Nella, bless you.
JulieP says
This is the most true and honest blog post. I am touched by a mother’s love and always her proud sister. She is most certainly going to be a very loved child! xoxox
JulieP says
This is the most true and honest blog post. I am touched by a mother’s love and always her proud sister. She is most certainly going to be a very loved child! xoxox
Anonymous says
Your daughter are both so beautiful. I was linked to your story by a dear friend with s grown daughter with Dowbs and have many friends with Downs Children. And they are all so special. So pure and full of love. YOu are truly Blessed. And your daughters are too to have you as their Mom and the obvious love you are surrounded by. Congratulations on God choosing you to be so special to entrust you with and angel. Lahney is going to be just as close if not more than you ever even imagined.
Anonymous says
Hi Kelle,
I was forwarded Nella’s story b/c my son, 4 yrs old, also has Down’s Syndrome. I applaud you for being able to put into your emotions into words so soon after her birth. It is still so difficult to admit that, had I been able to hand-craft my son, I wouldn’t have chosen Down’s Syndrome for him.
I want to give you encouragement for the future! There will be difficult days ahead, both emotionally and physically. But joy will far outweigh sorrow! Blessings to you and your family. Kari
Janet says
I know this was very difficult for you to write, but I am so glad you did. You describe all of the things that I have been feeling since our special daughter was born 2 weeks ago but have not been able to express to anyone. I am glad to know that I am not alone in the feelings that I felt the day our little girl was born and the feelings I have for her today.
brunettebeachgirl says
I’ve never had the chance to read your blog before, but it was linked to a forum post from a woman who found out today that her baby may have downs syndrome.
That being said, I have just cried for 15 minutes as I read the most beautiful and raw birth story ever. You like bunny is beautiful and I am so proud of you and your little girl and I don’t even know you. Congratulations on your beautiful and perfect family.
– Amanda
Sandi says
I had heard about your blog from a few friends and I had to see. I am so very glad I dropped in for a visit! Your girls are the epitome of perfect. I have just finished Nella’s birth story, and just like that, you have captivated me. As I write my own blog and books, I am loving what you have written. I will be catching up on the rest of your blog as the days go on. Thank you so much for being out there.
All our love,
Sandi, John and Hunter (T21)!!
Little Billies says
I have NEVER read something so beautiful! May your journey with your bunny and your big girl continue to filled with joy and wonderment and you experience in its completeness and fullness with a reminder of the preciousness and gift that life is.
Anonymous says
Such a courageous woman & such an honest story. Be proud of your strength.
Mrs. Cline says
I think this is the 4th time I’ve read Nella’s birth story. And every time, the tears fall down my face and I fall in love with your sweet girl and you. YOU are an amazing mama.
Anonymous says
Your honesty was much appreciated. Just shows that you can plan and prepare and get your makeup just right and buy all the little accessorized thingies and fate steps in and shows you what’s important.
Léa says
thank you for telling your story. It was really touched and blessed. L~
Anonymous says
This brought tears to my eyes..absolutely beautifully told.
Christina Anglum says
What a beautiful, honest, amazing story. Thank you for sharing it. Your daughters are beautiful. You have really touched my heart. <3
Echo says
Thank you so much for your honesty in the telling this. Your story has touched my life & given me something wonderful to share with any mothers I know who face the challenge & wonder that you did with such bravery. Thank you especially for the pictures. I think I have never seen the face of God so clearly in a baby’s face as I do in your daughter’s. May He bless you all.
Echo says
Thank you so much for your honesty in the telling this. Your story has touched my life & given me something wonderful to share with any mothers I know who face the challenge & wonder that you did with such bravery. Thank you especially for the pictures. I think I have never seen the face of God so clearly in a baby’s face as I do in your daughter’s. May He bless you all.
Anonymous says
I have just been pointed in the direction of your birth story and I have never read anything so raw with emotion and beautiful in my life. Nella is perfect and gorgeous and you are an amazing woman
Anonymous says
I have just been pointed in the direction of your birth story and I have never read anything so raw with emotion and beautiful in my life. Nella is perfect and gorgeous and you are an amazing woman
Anonymous says
I have just been pointed in the direction of your birth story and I have never read anything so raw with emotion and beautiful in my life. Nella is perfect and gorgeous and you are an amazing woman
Anonymous says
I have just been pointed in the direction of your birth story and I have never read anything so raw with emotion and beautiful in my life. Nella is perfect and gorgeous and you are an amazing woman
Anonymous says
I have just been pointed in the direction of your birth story and I have never read anything so raw with emotion and beautiful in my life. Nella is perfect and gorgeous and you are an amazing woman
KaiTLyN says
I am not sure how I came upon your blog – but I have been loving reading your summer posts! I just now read Nella’s birth story for the first time, and I have to tell you it moved me so much. Tears poured down my face because you were so honest with the emotions you experienced during her delivery. It was beautiful – and so is she 🙂
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Jocelyn says
Wow. I admire your talent for articulating your experience. On September 5, 2006 I too gave birth to my baby boy with Down syndrome. I never thought I could find the words sufficient to describe my feeling of the experience. You have inspired me! My birth experience feelings were so similar! Thank you for sharing your raw feelings. I sobbed as I read. It really brought me back to my early September morning! I look forward to reading more of your blog. Hope to see you at the Down syndrome conference in Florida this summer!
aliwilbur says
Kelle,
I had to leave a comment just to tell you that I’ve been where you were and have gone through extremely similar emotions. I found out when my son was 4 and a half that he had autism(high functioning). You grieve, HARD. You want to run away. And when the dust settles, you love that child so fiercely it hurts.
Feel free to visit my blog and see how I am celebrating my amazing child.
http://www.friendsofwilbur.wordpress.com
Andrea says
I am so inspired by you.
I had my daughter, Eva, on Dec 22. She joined her older brother, Noah, who is five.
Every truth you told, about having expectations, about how fear gripped you when you realized nothing was happening the way you thought it would, telling yourself not to cry when your beautiful daughters finally met… I understand your emotions perfectly. You are a reminder to me to be grateful for the beautiful life I have, no matter how much it might veer off course. Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing!!! I look forward to seeing the good things I’m sure you will do with your life.
Kimberly says
Kelle, I found a link to your story from a mommy I know. This mommy is special to me because I have photographed the birth and passing of two of her children over the last two years. You touched her and that means so much to me.
I wanted to also comment to you because, while I do not have ds children, I did have children with birth defects. I can relate to your story x2. (back to back years, not twins) I remember the moments the nurses had that nervous look but tell you everything is fine. I remember the moments of the doctor coming in and telling you that you have a special little person. I remember those very sad nights when i was overwhelmed with my sick child. I also remember falling deeply in love and willing to do any and everything for them as the doctors took care of them. I have been truly blessed by my little girls. They have shown to many the meaning of perseverance.
Many blessings to you and your family.
Lisa says
Kelle,
Thank you so much for sharing your story. You have a beautiful way with words, and your pictures are gorgeous. Lainey and Nella are lucky to have such a loving mama.
Sincerely,
Lisa
PS – I have a “Lainey” too. My 5 month old daughter’s name is Delaney and we call her Laney.
Gail says
I adore your writing and your honesty. Thank you for gathering the strength tho write and share your incredible story! Your family is BEAUTIFUL!
jenny says
this is, by far, one of the most beautiful and moving stories that i have ever read. in a world where down syndrome children are often treated as unworthy, you have reminded us all that they, too, are deserving of love- complete, infinite and unadulterated love. they are different in one sense- yes, but if we would stop and view them with a different perspective, we would call to mind that within them lies a soul… and that- that makes all the difference in the world. thank you for your candidness and thank you for sharing your inspiring story.
jenny says
You have my vote on the O network! I passed it on to others as well!
Anonymous says
Maybe this has already been posted in the 2347 commments ahead of mine, but as the temporary guardian of a young male soul born with a birth defect, I don’t think God gives children with challenges to those not able to guide them through those challenges. He saves what other people call “special” for the ones He thinks are special.
Anonymous says
Maybe this has already been posted in the 2347 commments ahead of mine, but as the temporary guardian of a young male soul born with a birth defect, I don’t think God gives children with challenges to those not able to guide them through those challenges. He saves what other people call “special” for the ones He thinks are special.
Anonymous says
Maybe this has already been posted in the 2347 commments ahead of mine, but as the temporary guardian of a young male soul born with a birth defect, I don’t think God gives children with challenges to those not able to guide them through those challenges. He saves what other people call “special” for the ones He thinks are special.
The McHam Family says
A friend turned me onto your blog and I am very grateful she did. I too have two beautiful girls with the second one having down syndrome. While she does not look downs in the face just yet she does have many of the other attributes of downs. She was also born with two heart defects. I know the feeling you had right after delivery. I just knew something was off. I did not know right away that she had downs but I did know that something in my heart told me that things with our beautiful Karter were not right. I do believe I several out of body experiences that day. I look forward to keeping up with your blog as you undergo some of the many struggles that we will also endure! Thanks so much for this wonderful story!
Tara McHam
http://www.themchams.blogspot.com
Juniejuniejune says
hi, I had the pleasure to read your birth story. I thank one of my Nesties for posting the link on our WCF Board (Thenest.com). I am at work and was realy curious what got her crying (when she said she’s not a crier). So I read it, I read your blog. As other would say I read it and felt every moment of it. I was in tears but was able to keep it from falling (I didnt want anyone from work to see me crying afterall I shouldnt be on another site anyways lol). My husband and I are trying to conceive and its exciting but at the same time scary, afterall it is a life changing journey. i will be honest I get scared of possibilities like that who wouldn’t its not as much as what would people think but if I would be fit for that kind of situation. It is a serious matter, will I be strong enough. Your story is so inspiring and I salute you, husband, your little girl, your family and friends. Your sister is right, you have been chosen and God knows you will not let him down, you will not let Nella down. If you do not mind I would love to follow your blog. Take care and God Bless you always.
Beth says
I don’t know where to begin. I’m speechless.. All I can muster at the moment is just to tell you how beautiful your story is. Thank you for sharing it with us.
MochaTrina@Me So Hongry... says
Thank you.
stina says
my keyboard is soaking wet and it’s hard to type!
you are an amazing, brave, beautiful person… thank you for having the guts to balls out, 100% share yourself and your family’s story with all of us.
I love your perfect little girls. they’re both such pretty little things.
xxoo
Farmgirl Paints says
I just found your beautiful honest blog. I am so completely refreshed by your transparency. Thank you for sharing your story. It blessed my heart more than you know. Congratulations on your perfect little family. I look forward to getting to know you all:)
e.louise says
Kelle,
I just came across this post via another blog and I am wiping tears from my eyes. This is perhaps the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. Your two girls are absolutely beautiful and perfect.
Thank you so much for sharing your us. May God continue to bless and watch over you and your family.
Amaya says
Thank you so much for exposing yourself in such an honest way. Your beautiful story has been a source of comfort for my friend after learning last week that she is pregnant with a DS baby. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
Amy Bennett says
Hi there – I came across your blog by way of a friend. I have a 5 month old little boy with a severe congenital heart defect – he’s spent most of his life in the hospital. And I have a sweet 3 year old little girl. I could so relate to all of your feelings surrounding the birth of your daughter and I just sobbed reading the story of your girls meeting. We, moms of special children, have truly been given such a beautiful calling in life. 🙂 much love to you…
PheMom says
Congratulations, from my entire heart on your special baby. I have so much more to say to you, but I will email you personally. If you have time, I’d love to hear from you – I would like our daughters to be ‘bloggie pals’ since they were born so close together with DS. You are amazing and I just wanted to tell you – don’t forget it, even when it gets hard.
Tracy says
loved every word of it. tears on my face. i love that there are people in this world just like you. beautiful birth story. lovely pictures. can’t wait to follow more…thank you. truly.
ashdonne says
Thank you so much for telling your story…it took guts to be totally honest about your emotions and I applaud you. You have an absolutely beautiful family!
ashdonne says
Thank you so much for telling your story…it took guts to be totally honest about your emotions and I applaud you. You have an absolutely beautiful family!
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Carrie says
My husband introduced me to your blog a few weeks ago…he wanted me to see the photography to get some inspiration for our family blog. Little did I know how your journey would make me reflect on my family and my childhood…I have a 23 year old brother with down syndrome and Kelle, he’s the light of our lives. He’s witty and sarcastic and hard-working and a million other adjectives. He is 5 years younger than me and growing up, being different was not an issue, nor an option, in our house. Anything I did, my parents made sure he could, too. I’m sure you’ll find an immense amount of joy in raising your girls to do whatever they want (well, within reason!). My husband and I welcomed our first baby in November 2009 – a little boy named Wakefield. While I was pregnant, my doctor suggested I visit the prenatal clinic for the series of 3 down syndrome screening tests. Although it’s not passed down or inherited, she just wanted to see the results. I completed the first of three and thought to myself “Seriously? You’re seriously going to do this? And for what? If he were born with Down Syndrome or any other disability, it wouldn’t change anything. We would still have him, still hold him and still give him all of our love.” So I stopped. As I’m sure Lainey will appreciate some day, having a sibling with Down Syndrome makes you see the world so differently – in a good way. You’d know just how to tackle it and just what to do if it happened to you. My brother is talented (he’s the national record holder in the 50m backstroke for the National Special Olympics), he’s funny (his quick come-backs are pee-your-pants funny) and he’s handsome. There are some with Down Syndrome who can do more than my brother; and there are some who can do less. But it doesn’t really matter as long as he’s given the opportunity! Nella is beautiful – and you’re lucky. But I’m sure you already know that. 🙂
Anonymous says
I read your story here and I ask myself this…when your beautiful daughter Nella gets older and reads how you felt about her the minute you knew that there was something not right about her, how do you think she will feel?? this saddens me.
Anonymous says
I read your story here and I ask myself this…when your beautiful daughter Nella gets older and reads how you felt about her the minute you knew that there was something not right about her, how do you think she will feel?? this saddens me.
Kiru says
Hi. This is my first time reading your blog. I cried… i cried like a baby. Its the most beautiful blog i have ever read. I love the pure honesty you have shown in your words. Nella is perfect and she is beautiful! Congrats!
Legacy2000 says
This is beautiful. God or the universe or chance or whatever you believe in has done well in placing this beautiful child with such a wonderful mom, dad, and big sister.
The Mommyologist says
WOW. I don’t even know what else to say, but WOW. I have never read a more beautiful blog post and I will never forget this one. It was nothing short of amazing.
Emma says
I’m not entirely sure how I got to this post but I know it’s taken me half an hour to read it through my tears!!! Your family is completely beautiful xxx
Donna E. says
hi…this is my 2nd comment here on your blog… i may be one random stranger’s comment but i just wanted to let u know this story really touched my heart…
take care and God bless 🙂
Mal says
i’ve just stumbled onto your blog and with tears streaming down my face I write a comment.
Congratulations on the birth of your gorgeous daughter, another one to add to your beautiful family!
Your honesty in what you were feeling and still are feeling is inspirational to read and reminds me of how precious life is…you have been blessed with a new life, one that may have challenges ahead (but what life doesn’t).
I look forward to reading more of your families adventures…
Anonymous says
i bawled as i read this story and my precious little boys were asking, “mommy, why are you crying? Why are you sad?” all i could think was, i take this life and the lives of my boys for granted and that needs to end. your story opened up my eyes and my heart to the love i should be allowing to pour our of my soul but i have been too caught up in life’s trials and tribulations to enjoy the here and now, the beautiful moments and the beautiful reality that life is amazing–it is a miracle. satan’s biggest goal is to get us to forget that. thank you for sharing your story. much love to you and your family. i am so thankful to have new eyes.
Anonymous says
i bawled as i read this story and my precious little boys were asking, “mommy, why are you crying? Why are you sad?” all i could think was, i take this life and the lives of my boys for granted and that needs to end. your story opened up my eyes and my heart to the love i should be allowing to pour our of my soul but i have been too caught up in life’s trials and tribulations to enjoy the here and now, the beautiful moments and the beautiful reality that life is amazing–it is a miracle. satan’s biggest goal is to get us to forget that. thank you for sharing your story. much love to you and your family. i am so thankful to have new eyes.
Me & My Boys says
Kelle,
Nella’s Birth Story moves me to tears over and over again. Your words are amazingly strung together and illuminated by beautiful photographs.
It is Art.
I find myself revisiting this Story time and time again. Our stories are different, but similar.
On January 6, 2010 I gave birth to my son Patrick – the long awaited younger brother to the first Light of our Lives, Luke. I couldn’t wait for Luke to have a younger sibling, and a brother, my God I was beside myself with delight!
And then Patrick was born — so very very very sick. He spent 4 months in the Newborn Special Care Unit. ( you can read about him here: http://dreamswishesansweredprayers.blogspot.com/ ) Patrick is our miracle. His nurses at Yale-New Haven Hospital say he’s one of the greatest miracles they’ve ever seen.
I am inspired by your story, your honesty, your transparancy.
mpence says
What an amazing birth story! As I read it, I cried! I also have my own disabled child, though I didn’t know she was disabled until she was almost 2…until then, she had a ‘developmental delay of prematurity’ and would ‘grow out of it.’ When we got the news she had cerebral palsy and would always be disabled…I went through so many of the same emotions that you did…the questions, how, why, is this really happening, what about my older children, etc. Then the guilt over feeling these things about your own precious child…coming to that point of seeing the beauty in your child and accepting them for who they are and realizing it is who they always have been whether you knew it or not!
You have so beautifully put into words so many of the things I felt yet was almost afraid to let anyone know that I felt…thank you for sharing your precious, beautiful baby girl with us! Congratulations!
Anonymous says
Wow.. So honest.. This is truly the most beautiful and touching story I’ve ever read… I am only a teenager and your story made me cry! Your kids are absolutely gorgeous. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. I will never forget it! God bless 🙂
Anonymous says
Wow.. So honest.. This is truly the most beautiful and touching story I’ve ever read… I am only a teenager and your story made me cry! Your kids are absolutely gorgeous. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. I will never forget it! God bless 🙂
Anonymous says
Wow.. So honest.. This is truly the most beautiful and touching story I’ve ever read… I am only a teenager and your story made me cry! Your kids are absolutely gorgeous. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. I will never forget it! God bless 🙂
Anonymous says
Wow.. So honest.. This is truly the most beautiful and touching story I’ve ever read… I am only a teenager and your story made me cry! Your kids are absolutely gorgeous. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. I will never forget it! God bless 🙂
Tracita Linda (Tracey) says
This is the only birth story I’ve ever read that resulted with a knot in my throat. You’re so open and honest, so human and I think all your readers and friends could associate with that. Your girls are truly a gift from God and I pray your strength each and every day b/c I know that just as your daughters grow daily- so have you.
Thanks for sharing this story. God bless your home.
Dawn says
Tonight I was led here and I know in my heart that I was meant to come across your blog (life can be so strange that way) and read Nella’s Amazing Birth story… so beautiful, raw, honest and full of love… thank you for sharing this story of Nella’s beginning… it makes a person reflect on what is most important LOVE. You, your family and friends seem to have such a wonderful energy… it shows through your gorgeous photos and beautiful writing… I wish you all the best journey in life.
Love and Light…
Dawn
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing all the emotions you felt after she was born. I just recently found out that the child I’m carrying has DS and have been devastated. I love what you said about borrowing the hearts of others while yours was breaking. That’s exactly how I have felt. And although I am still experiencing a lot of pain of what I thought was going to be, the support of others has been truly amazing and very helpful during this time.
Nella is absolutely beautiful. your story gives me a lot of hope. Thank you again.
Anonymous says
Thank you so much for sharing all the emotions you felt after she was born. I just recently found out that the child I’m carrying has DS and have been devastated. I love what you said about borrowing the hearts of others while yours was breaking. That’s exactly how I have felt. And although I am still experiencing a lot of pain of what I thought was going to be, the support of others has been truly amazing and very helpful during this time.
Nella is absolutely beautiful. your story gives me a lot of hope. Thank you again.
Chrissy says
I haven’t been able to cry in a long time and your story is filled with such raw honesty, emotion and love…how could I not be filled with so much emotion and not spill over with tears for the new friend I’ve found, who I will probably never meet, but keep in my prayers (with my own two little “bunnies”) every night. God bless you and your precious family!
Anonymous says
Thank you for sharing this story with me. I have cried and shared with you and remembered the births of my three daughters. My eyes have been even more opened to the joys of children with special needs this year as I have a gorgeous girl in my class who brings joy to me (her teacher) and to her peers every day that she is in our classroom. May your daughter be this same blessing to those around her.
Anonymous says
I found this accidentally through someone else’s blog, and I think I was meant to read this. I’m a teen girl and I have a little brother who has Down’s. I cried the entire time I read this. Thank you so, SO much for writing this. It touched me, really and honestly somewhere deep down. Congratulations on your amazing baby.
monkeetrouble7 says
speechless. That was the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. Thank you for sharing your story. Your girls are beautiful!
Anonymous says
wow…that made me cry…I think that baby came to the right family!
farawayalh@aol.com says
Kelle, I have just experienced, with no fewer words and feelings, what you told in your story when my daughter was born, July 8th, 2010. I felt like I was living my daughter’s birth over and felt an immediate understanding and bond with you. We, too, have a two year old Lainey’s age. She expressed her love unconditionally the moment she met her new baby sister. We have much to learn from our daughters. They will teach us much more than we can ever teach them. Look at what we’ve learned already. Our families are blessed. And my tears still fall. Amy
Anonymous says
what a beautiful, open, inspiring story.
Your girls are so lovely.
Dina @ 4 Lettre Words says
Beautifully-transparent. I applaud your honesty, and I pray you are all having a wonderful Sunday. XO!
Tira J says
Dear Kelle, I just recently found your blog today by some random act of internet surfing, and have only just begun with reading your daughter’s birth story. As I finish wiping the tears from my eyes, I am going to share your blog with one of my dear sweet clients (I am also a photographer) who just recently gave birth to her second child, and he has DS. He is one handsome little guy and is very healthy. You can see images of him on my site. Finn is a true blessing. Thank you for sharing your journey.
*LLUVIA* says
I’m in tears! It’s the most beautiful birth story!
Jes says
Beautiful!!!
Honest!!!
Real!!!
Emotional!!!
Thank you so much for sharing your story!
You are inspiring!!
Erin says
I just now came across your blog, read your birth story and blinked away tears. What a gorgeous, honest account of your emotions, thoughts, fears and love. My husband and I are waiting to adopt a child. I have had to wrestle with the fact that our child may not look like the one in my mind’s eye, and yet I truly believe that God will choose the perfect baby for us, and we will be his/her perfectly chosen (not perfect!) parents. Thank you so much for sharing your story and the photos of your beautiful family.
Kasai says
Your girls are as pretty as you are 🙂
You got a nice story, a very inspiring one 🙂
Stay Happy! God Bless your Family.
Kasai says
Your girls are as pretty as you are 🙂
You got a nice story, a very inspiring one 🙂
Stay Happy! God Bless your Family.
Gail says
Your story brought tears to my eyes…and I’m still moist with tears. What a beautiful story. I am 5 mo. pregnant and have wondered what it would be like if our baby had d/s. I know I would experience some of those emotions you did….but seeing what the other side looks like, somehow I know that the Lord would be there and that He would have given us a gift. Thank you for sharing your raw, true emotions. You are such an inspiration of love, beauty and hope.
God bless you and your sweet husband, and sweet daughters,
Gail
Mirela says
A Nella é tão linda!
Muitas alegrias pra essa família abençoada! 😀
Parabéns por esse perfeito milagrinho!
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Nella is so beautiful!
Happiness to this blessed family! 😀
Congratz on your perfect little miracle!
The Diaper Diaries says
This post has WRECKED me. I came over from a link on another blog and had no idea what I was about to read. But God has brought me here.
Before I was a mom, I was a pediatric physical therapist and many of the children I worked with had Down’s. Every single one of them captured me heart so fiercely and I discovered what I know you have.
They bless the lives of everyone around them so richly. So much so I have known families who bore a child with Down’s and went on to adopt another. I wish more people would understand what a blessing they are to this world. Cleary God is using you to help do exactly that.
Not Jane says
Thank you so much for sharing from your heart. I can’t tell you how it will affect me – you are a wonderful mother, writer, woman. I am so grateful I stumbled onto your blog.
DHeid says
Thank you for sharing your story. We are blessed with a 6 month old beautiful baby boy with Downs. Jernie has blessed our lives so richly! You put into words exactly what I’ve been feeling over the past 6 months! Thank you so much….it’s nice to know I’m not alone. Your words and pictures capture the true meaning of life. I’m pretty sure your lil Nella and our lil Jernie will be dating some day. :^)
Anonymous says
I found your blog because a friend of mine posted it on facebook, and although I’ve only read this entry, I have to say it is beautiful.
It’s so beautiful because it’s HONEST. So many women paint the picture that motherhood is perfect when deep down we all know that like everything else in life, it is not. From moments like these when you just don’t think you can handle it to the times when your two year old just won’t let you take that much needed nap and all you can think is “Why did I have kids?” No one ever says these things out loud for fear of judgment but we all think and feel this way from time to time. The fact that you posted these feelings for the world to see is inspiring. We all have feelings we’d like to not have, but the fact is, we can’t help it. Knowing we’re not alone is priceless.
Chrissy says
Kelle, I’ve been reading your blog for months, admiring the gorgeous pictures of your beautiful daughters and your home and your life. And you have been an inspiration to me.
But today is the first time I’ve read Nella’s birth story, and I have to tell you that I have such admiration and respect for you.
You wrote this story with such raw honesty. You so bravely shared your feelings. You weren’t afraid to admit that you were scared and heartbroken. And then, you realized how blessed you are. Seriously, it’s a beautiful story.
Your blog is without a doubt the most inspiring, uplifting thing I read everyday. Thank you for being you, and for sharing your beautiful family with me.
Anonymous says
Thank you for your story. You have touched me and reminded me of life’s beauty at a time when I needed it.
maria marra says
This was truly the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. I am leaving you this comment with tears running down my face. Tears of sadness, joy, compassion, and most of all understanding. My younger brother, Vincent, was born with Down Syndrome. Every emotion you described, every heart wrenching feeling of guilt, anger, confusion, happiness. :)…. we went through this in our family. It was like I was hearing my mother re-tell the story of Vinny’s birth. As you already know and are experiencing each day, your daughter is the biggest blessing. Growing up with my brother has given me the opportunity to be a better person. To understand special needs, to be compassionate, loving, knowledgeable. Children with special needs make you a better person. They bring such a meaning to life… there I go again.. lol.. I’m crying again.. sorry if I am rambling, but i’m sure you get my point. God bless you and your gorgeous family ;)… you are truly blessed. As my mom says, you were chosen. God knew what you could handle.. and he gave you a special gift because he knew you would be the best mother for his precious angel 🙂
Jessie-Lee says
How honest. I truly commend your honesty; never think it as a fault. You have two beautiful daughters. I wish you all the best.
Alyssa Restivo says
Amazing. I loved your story. I cried when I read it. I felt like I was reading my story. Everything that happened right after she was born was exactly what happened for me. I felt like you had put my emotions into words and I really needed to read them.
<3
Anonymous says
I just sat and read this beautiful and honest story and felt so moved…what a perfect breath of Heaven, indeed. Thank you for reminding those of us out there of the importance of unconditional love. Congratulations!
Stacy and Little Miss Hope says
What a touching beautiful story!! You are in inspiration to Mother’s all over the world and you have truely touched my heart!! We also have just been surprised with one of gods little wonders and she is beautiful. We’ve been through surgery at 4 hours of age and just recently heart surgery and finally after 58 days she got to come home from the hospital for the 1st time. Your story is so touching and encouraging, I look forward to following little Miss. Nella’s amazing journey!! Thanks for sharing your most intimate emotions and love and tears with us.
Stacy
trina says
hi,my name is trina and i love the photos of your beautiful family. i share many thoughts and emotions with your story. i sat and cried because of this. thank you for sharing!! my son brian is three and he is super delicious and totally awesome. luv t
trina says
hi,my name is trina and i love the photos of your beautiful family. i share many thoughts and emotions with your story. i sat and cried because of this. thank you for sharing!! my son brian is three and he is super delicious and totally awesome. luv t
Megan {Honey We're Home} says
I haven’t read anything so honest and pure in a long time. Thank you for that. Your family is beautiful.
Megan {Honey We're Home} says
I haven’t read anything so honest and pure in a long time. Thank you for that. Your family is beautiful.
nina Cash says
What a beautiful story of a precious little one. Thank you for sharing.
nina says
What a beautiful story of a precious little one. Thank you for sharing.
nina says
What a beautiful story of a precious little one. Thank you for sharing.
nina says
What a beautiful story of a precious little one. Thank you for sharing.
Anonymous says
What a beautiful story of a precious little one. Thank you for sharing.
nina says
sorry for so many comments i didnt know how to leave one as this is my first ever. so i tryed all the options sorry.
Anonymous says
Dear Kelle-
I don’t know you and just found your blog on the internet looking up information about Down’s Syndrome. I felt compelled to comment on how beautiful your story is. Your pictures and words move me, from your birth story to current photos of your lovely family.
I am pregnant with my second child and have been given a relatively high risk of DS. I have been so distressed. But reading your blog has made me realize that it will all be fine, no matter what. I keep coming back to your blog to see your beautiful girls. Thank you so much for sharing in such a wonderful way.
Kate
Anonymous says
Dear Kelle-
I don’t know you and just found your blog on the internet looking up information about Down’s Syndrome. I felt compelled to comment on how beautiful your story is. Your pictures and words move me, from your birth story to current photos of your lovely family.
I am pregnant with my second child and have been given a relatively high risk of DS. I have been so distressed. But reading your blog has made me realize that it will all be fine, no matter what. I keep coming back to your blog to see your beautiful girls. Thank you so much for sharing in such a wonderful way.
Kate
SarahinSC says
What an amazingly honest gut-wrenching story. Thank you for sharing it so beautifully!
the mommy says
Today your story – your life – was a gift to me. Reading this through blurry eyes and tearful smiles has touched my heart and reminded me of life’s truest meaning.
Love.
Thank you so very much…
the mommy says
Today your story – your life – was a gift to me. Reading this through blurry eyes and tearful smiles has touched my heart and reminded me of life’s truest meaning.
Love.
Thank you so very much…
Elizabeth says
Kelle,
I just found your beautiful blog a few weeks ago, and really dove in this afternoon. I read your first daughters birth story first, and just absolutely fell in love. I also wrote a birth story for our first little boy, and just loved reading it as I’m 6 months pregnant with our second little boy and love love love reading about babies being born. Then I read your second daughters birth story and I cried and cried. You are so inspirational, and ah-ma-zing. I balled like a baby when I read the part when your daughter came in and taught you unconditional love. How unbelievably amazing and beautiful is that? That she was just proud of her baby sister, my husband was sitting next to me watching golf and I started telling him about what I just read and I almost couldn’t get it out. There is nothing better than a child’s love, and I have never ever been compelled to post a comment on a blog I’ve read before- and not that you need it it is without a beautiful story you can tell that by how many people you have already touched. I just needed to be another post. Love Love LOVE your blog, your story, your beautiful daughters and I am so blessed to be just a teeny part of your families life.
Liz Williams
http://www.thewilliamsstory.blogspot.com
Jenna says
So many people sent me your blog after we got a few red flags on our blood work the other day. I’m thankful they did, because this is a story worth hearing! Thanks!
Anonymous says
This story is beautiful – thank you for sharing this with the world, even people as far as South Africa… truly an inspirational story of a mothers love…
All the best to you and your beautiful family…
With love from South Africa…
Tash
Alastair says
I think this is a great story and reflects the true joys which can be found whatever life throws at us.
We need to do all we can to ensure that people with Down Syndrome and I am launching a world record attempt for the world’s fastest bed to raise awareness about Down Syndrome. This attempt is being made in association with the the Auckland Down Syndrome Association who have made a video to help promote the attempt – see the video here
I need to raise some more funds to complete the build of this equipment – you can donate via the Sponsor Me application on Facebook
Anonymous says
Your blog came to me from a co-worker of mine who lost her son two years ago. And two years, 3 months ago I gave birth to my 2nd child. He has down. Like you, i wanted to go back. I wanted to go back to the night he was conceived. God and my friends were crazy to think I could or want a child with DS. I spent the first two months of his life in agony, on the internet researching all the “what ifs”. It wasn’t until my co-worker’s son passed away at 60 days old, that I realized there is no such thing as a normal child. He changed our life, not us changing him. And we’re lucky, he is healthy. No heart surgery, no breathing problems. He started walking at 22 months. He signs and speaks a few words. With every milestone he reaches (now working on eating more table foods) we celebrate like it is Christmas. I can’t believe I was ever so sad. I told my husband tonight how much I wish I could go back…to the day he was born, when they suspected down. And I would say, “Yes, so what? Give me my beautiful boy and let me enjoy him.” The truth is I wasted so much time being sad for the son I thought i deserved. The one who would grow up to be a doctor, a football player. I remember asking for one wish two years ago. I wished he didn’t have DS. And now, I wouldn’t change a thing about him. I am so in love with both my children. And Kelle, like your 1st daughter, mine was so proud to be a big sister. She had no prejudice. Just that she loved him, long before I knew I would. Kelle, You will get through this. Take a day at a time. Enjoy her. She will grow up fast. Living with a child with down…you live in slow motion. The benefit is we got to enjoy our son a little bit longer [than most] as a baby and that’s cool. He is the most loving child I’ve ever known. I wish I could give you my email or cell number. If you figure out how to do it securely, let me know. SB
diddylove says
You are a great momma, which attracts me all the way from Singapore. Reading up your story, cried together with your words as my heart melts. Both your daughters are beautiful, joyous and sweet.
I love your photography and will stay tune with your blog!
Take care
xoxo D
Jaclynn_kyuss says
Such a beautiful blog. Very well written. Thank you so much for sharing! Congrats on your baby girl!
Anonymous says
This is the first time I have ever seen your blog, it was suggested on a pregnancy board. I must say that I am truly honored and blessed to have read your birth story and am extremely moved.
You have touched my heart and my soul, you and your wonderful family.
Your daughter is amazingly beautiful and wonderful. She is such a gift.
My cousin came into my life 18 years ago with Pfieffers Syndrome, but I remember the day she was born and remember her mothers agony when they saw her…and over time I watched all of us evolve into more amazing loving human beings, because of the wonderful gift God had given us.
May God continue to bless your family.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Anonymous says
This is the first time I have ever seen your blog, it was suggested on a pregnancy board. I must say that I am truly honored and blessed to have read your birth story and am extremely moved.
You have touched my heart and my soul, you and your wonderful family.
Your daughter is amazingly beautiful and wonderful. She is such a gift.
My cousin came into my life 18 years ago with Pfieffers Syndrome, but I remember the day she was born and remember her mothers agony when they saw her…and over time I watched all of us evolve into more amazing loving human beings, because of the wonderful gift God had given us.
May God continue to bless your family.
Thank you for sharing your story.
CharmedFrog says
What an absolutely wrenching, inspiring, beautiful, encompassing, magical, post. I felt I needed to comment as this post and your beautiful blog will rest with me for a long time. Congratulations, and thank you.
tanyetta says
Beautiful!!!!!!!!
Anonymous says
Thanks for sharing your story. Your daughters are both beautiful.
modernhostess says
Your story was so touching. Thank You for sharing your beautiful story.
Amelia says
This is the most beautiful and touching story I’ve ever read, thank you!
You are lucky to have such a beautiful bond with your beautiful little girls.
Tree says
My dear sweet Lord! This is my first time reading your story, since I just found your blog a couple days ago. I admire your honesty so much! What an absolutely beautiful account of your true feelings, and of the special gift you were given with Nella. WOW is all I can say. I wish you and yours all the joy and happiness in the world!
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sara r. says
I just found your blog- I love this post so much! Our daughters were born on the same day, actually! I wish that I could write something so beautiful to describe her first moments in this world.
Sue says
Kelle,
Just read your story for the first time today. Oh how it takes me back 18 years ago when I had my first child. Jonathan, meaning a gift from God! Yes, he was also born with DS and oh how precious and perfect he was not what I was expecting but oh how wonderful. You really know how to put in words those first few waves of emotions of how one feels when they have been given an unexpected gift as a child with special needs. If I had a button to push and make my son “normal” what ever that is, there is no way I would push it. My little man set me free in so many ways that I did not even know I was in need of. This little gift from the hand of God is a gift you have not even begun to unwrap, enjoy the process. You are not lucky my friend you are greatly BLESSED!!!!! Anyone can do the normal think only a few of us get such wonderful treasures from the hand of GOD!!! You have the privilege of raising the most precious child you could imagine. Do not stress out over the process enjoy it and be thankful for each day. Our son just graduated from High School and the joy that boy has given me none can compare. You are BLESSED and let Nella be who God created her to be perfect in every way maybe not to our world but oh how perfect to the heart of GOD!! Your sister in motherhood, SUE
Anonymous says
You are a very strong woman!
I went through the same, when i was only eighteen years old! We are so blessed to have our special babies in our lives 🙂
Anonymous says
What an amazing, amazing story and a beautiful family you have. Thank you for putting all of that into words. 🙂
Christine says
I just stumbled across your blog and so glad I did. Your birth story is so beautiful and I think speaks volumes in so many, many ways. Your daughter is really beautiful and perfect. And that sweet, sweet little face–melting my heart. 🙂 Can’t wait to read more.
Ellie says
I just found your blog and I was move to tears by the story of Nella’s birth. I look forward to reading more of your family’s beautiful story. Thanks for sharing.
D. Argenti, RRT, RpsgT says
thanks for sharing your birth experience with all of us. your story is so touching a beautiful. god bless!!!
lil misses' mama says
i newly came across your blog. beautiful does not even begin to describe your story, your words, your wisdom, your candor, your lovely family…
lilmonkey29123 says
this is the most touching story i have read.by you doing this you have helped someone else get through the pain they have.you have a VERY BEAUTIFUL FAMILY!!!my neice passed in Sept from digeorge syndrome at the age of 1 and it was very hard goin through that.THANK YOU FOR YOUR STORY..
Lisa says
I just read your story and am standing here crying. What a beautiful story, beautiful family, beautiful daughters. You are so blessed to have this plus the amazing friends and family you do. The pediatrician included! I love the picture of Nella and you outside towards the bottom of the blog where you both are smiling. What precious angels you have!! Both of your daughters are amazing teachers of love. I am going to go hug and kiss my 5 week old son in the other room now…
Anna says
Today I’d like to share a very special story about the wonderful life of our friend’s son who was born with DS and how much he touched everyone around him with love and joy.
This child was an absolute blessing in so many ways. He loved talking about his favorite things, “Superman, Firetrucks, etc.” The fire stations in town all knew him by name because he visited them often.
Last year he passed away from pneumonia at the age of 62. Yes, 62 years of a spectacular life with parents who loved and guided him through life.
He brought a smile to everyone he met. He is deeply missed.
You can imagine how deeply moving it was when the fire stations from all of the surrounding stations showed up for his funeral with their shiny firetrucks to lead the way and say their final goodbyes.
What an honor it has been to know this special man who brought more joy to the hearts of many than I can ever describe here.
Needless to say he will live in our hearts forever :o)
Anna
Angela, Mom of three says
You have a way of writing that is completely poetic. What a blessing for your girls to be able to grow older and look back on such beautiful words that have captured such special events in their life.
I cried when I read this blog… not my first of yours, but definitely the most moving. You have me hooked on your words. They make me feel like other Moms in the world are really experiencing the same highs and lows as myself (a Mom of a two-year-old girl, and one-year-old twins, boy and girl). Life has swept me away in this blessing of Motherhood, but I am comforted in your sweet understanding and ability to express yourself.
From one Mother to another, hugs and love.
Angela
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Between You and Me says
it’s a beautiful life you have.
The Kooky Queen--Rachel says
WOW, I just cried reading that! SO beautiful! We all want our babies coming out “perfect” but sometimes we discover a different kind of “perfect.” And she is! I recently saw this sweet song about an older brother singing about his little sister with DS and I was so touched!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9b7y9UYt_fM&feature=player_embedded
Those sweet little children are so innocent and perfect. LOVE your post! Thanks for sharing!
LL INGRAM says
I’ve never read anything like this before. It was beautiful. It was so refreshing to read something real and honest and so endearing.
Many Blessings!
Rhiannon says
Thank you so much for sharing such an honest and heartfelt story. I went through a very similar experience 11 months ago when my son was born with DS. My experience was slightly different because we didn’t know for sure when he was born, there were some signs which lead the doctors to suggest testing, but during the week that it took to get the results we had bonded with this amazing little man. Even though we knew there was a chance he might have DS, we still believed that it wouldn’t happen to us, the test would come back fine and life would go on as we had hoped and dreamed. When we were told that he did have DS, it was devastating, we spent days trying to accept this life changing news, how it would affect our life, our three year old daughter…much like what you went through.
Anyway, I just really wanted to say thanks, for sharing your story, for giving me the chance to look back and remember those early days, and to experience all those emotions and feelings that led to the overpowering love I have for my special little man now.
sandra says
Kelle,
Did you know you had the power to change many lives including mine? You did exactly that.
I found out that my daughter had Down Syndrome when she was four days old. I was devastated and did not know what uncertainty lay ahead of me. I had a high stress job as a lawyer, I was in a blended family and I now had this news on top of it. But I realized how much I was thinking of ME and not her and then things started to change.
My husband was my rock because he loved Chiara from day one. I did too but I was struggling with the news and dealing with all those crazy hormones!
Chiara is Italian for “clarity, light and brightness” and is pronounced KEE ARR AH. She lives up to her name.
My friend sent me your blog and it hit me down to my core. It was like I was talking to you personally because so much of what you said resonated with me. Thank you for your honesty, your gift of articulation and your warm, big heart. Your daughters are beautiful and you make a gorgeous family.
Thank you for touching my life and showing me what a blessing my daughter is. I love her to pieces and every day she makes me smile. She is my angel, as many Down Syndrome children are. They have so much to teach us, don’t they?
From my heart,
Sandra
Florida Mom says
Hello, I am a nursing student and my instructor book-marked this page so that we could get a better perspective of the delivery process and birth complications. I would like to thank you for sharing your experience. I learned a lot from reading about your delivery.
Tiffany M
Vanessa says
Your 2 beautiful and precious girls serve as reminders that God is SO good! =D
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April says
A beautiful story and a beautiful family!!
(Found your blog from digthischick)
dandelioncc says
wow. thank you thank you thank you for sharing your story. bunny knew just what she was doing when she picked out her family. love.
Mishe@EatingJourney says
I am sobbing…for so many reasons. For the imagined pain, anguish, raw emotion. For the silent strength of your husband. For the grace of your eldest.
For the beauty that you presented. Thank you so much.
KJ says
You will never truly know how your courage has empowered all of us. In particular, you cannot completely understand how your story gives hope to those of us who are afraid of moving forward for whatever reasons and fears the creation of life has dealt us – thank you. Thank you so very much, and congratulations on such amazing blessings!
Cheryl says
Wow. I haven’t cried that hard in a long time. I think your post hit home with me, because I’ve always been scared that my children would be born with DS. I know that my reactions would be the same as yours. I felt what you were going through. But I know now that if God blesses us with a child that has DS then I will be ok. You’ve helped me release a fear that I’ve been holding on to. Thank you 🙂
15after7 says
This is the most beautiful thing. She’s the most beautiful things. I’m so thankful I stumbled into this blog. My heart’s about to burst!!
brandyreneebruce says
Hi there! I just read your story in the latest issue of Parenting magazine. I cried and blogged about it and my friend told me about your blog so here I am! You have such a beautiful family. God bless.
http://www.brandyreneebruce.wordpress.com
Michel Le says
I feel blessed that my mother-in-law forwarded the link to your blog to me to read. Your post reminded me so much of CJ Dates’ song, “Change Love.” You should check it out on itunes!
Have a joyful and peaceful day and bask in the EXTRAVAGANT love God has blessed your family with!!
Alysia says
You have been my inspiration the past few days. I have a similar story as you. I have a son turning 2 and just had a son with down syndrome. This was a surprise to us as well. It has been a rough month but reading your blogs have helped me feel not so alone and help me to look at things in a more positive light.
Jenene says
I read your beautiful story with tears in my eyes. Our stories are so very much the same, from the expectation, wondering does she and feeling of disappointment, to guilt of the tears I shed for days, weeks! No ones story have I read that mirrors my own so much. With the exception that within a year we found out her older siblings have autism… and that is where our stories part ways.
I should write it down and you have given me the courage to do so. If I can strengthen my heart to do it 🙂 You are so very strong and I fell in love with your family and friends. I wish I would have had a friend to keep the camera rolling during an unexpected blessing from God.
Dawna says
Thank you for sharing your story! I also want to add that your photos are some of the most beautifully taken ones, I have ever seen. I’m sure have such adorable subjects helps.
Stopping by from SITS
The Millennial Housewife says
Your daughters are so beautiful. this might be the best post I’ve ever read. I’m sobbing sitting here. You are so lucky to be blessed with such amazing girls!
Stopping by from SITS. Happy I found your blog.
terrid614 says
what a beautiful amazing story. you are so blessed and your pictures tell a thousand words. you have a beautiful family and an amazing support system with tons of friends and family. i am so happy to have found your blog. blessings, ~terri
Colleen says
This is probably one of the most beautiful, touching things I have had the honor of reading. Thank you so much for sharing your journey so honestly and beautifully.
Sarah says
Your daughters are beautiful and your story so far is amazing. Like so many have said your story really touched me. You are an amazing writer and you capture the picture, literally and figuratively, so well. Many well wishes towards you and your family.
Becky says
Hi Kelle…I just read Nella’s birth story (I came over from the thing on SITS- which I’m new to). I just had to comment because I’ve never cried over a blog post, but that was beautiful! Your strength is inspiring.
Liza says
There are so many wonderfully amazing things about this story. Your only child becoming a big sister (I have a 3 month old daughter – this hit me), your joy that turned into agony and then into love, this journey of yours. It’s so beautiful. It’s so…full of LIFE. And I don’t mean “life” in the sense that it’s usually used in that statement (vivacious, etc.), but more that it’s full of what life has for all of us – ups and downs, personal struggles and triumphs. And all in one story.
I found you today because of SITS featuring you and I will most definitely add myself to the thousands of people who have been shined on by your blogging light.
Miss Rhei says
Gosh… what you have written left me with tears in my eyes. That was a wonderful, a beautiful experience. Few hours before giving birth to my son, I was in denial. I can’t be a mother yet but when I saw him, that little boy who hungered for my milk and that look in his eyes, I know he’s mine, he’s my baby and he’s gonna make me the best mother. Ooops, I just remembered then after reading your story.. I so love it and for sure I’m going to read more of your posts…
RAnnDom says
wow! Kelle, you have an amazing story and conveyed it so well – I could almost feel your pain, and then your joy. Congrats on your beautiful family – you truly are blessed! I found your blog via the SITS girls and am so glad that I did!
TeamOSM says
I just read your story in Parents magazine, and a friend of mine, who thought her second son would be born with DS, told me about your blog. I cried like a baby reading the article, but this is the whole picture! I cried even more reading this entry.
Your honesty in this post blows me away…and it’s what I loved most about the article. What you felt? It’s what I imagine I’d feel if I were in the same situation. Thank you for your honesty. Your family is beautiful!!
Tamsyn says
Nella’s birth story is honestly the most beautiful and heart-warming birth story that I have ever read. I read it twice, tears streaming down my face. You’ve reminded me that even when things don’t go as planned, we have so much to be grateful for. You truly are blessed.
BB says
Beautiful! Thankyou SO much for sharing. I have a 17 month old daughter with Willaims Syndrome – we didn’t know she had it before her birth. She spent a lot of time in NICU and the first year pf her life crying! I thank God for the wonderful support you have – it has taken me a long time to realise that my daughter, Anna, was meant for me. I wanted to go back to before that day so many times – back to being mummmy to my beautiful boy. We didn’t have positive support – just a family sad, scared and ashamed of a disability and it takes so much stength to be strong on your own! I’m so glad you’ve had people to carry you through. Nella is beautiful and perfect – and made by God just for you and your wonderful family! xo
Leah says
This is such a beautiful birth story. I couldn’t stop crying. I hope you all are well and still so happy.
Emma jane says
Hi, I don’t know who are, I’ve never seen you or heard of you before, and i just cried and cried and cried when i read your story! it is the most beautiful amazing story i have ever read and i thank you for writing it and allowing us into the very private and painful memory of yours. Your daughters are beautiful! Nella is amazingly beautiful!
I wish you all The best
Emma jane.
http://www.emmajaneforever.blogspot.com
Tiffani says
This touched my heart more than I could ever say and inspired me to write my own story.
I became pregnant at the age of 18 and about four months through my pregnancy the doctors told me that there was a great chance that my baby girl one would have Down’s Syndrome. The chance of someone of my age having a child with Down’s is one in a thousand… and I’m that [proud] one. I can’t even say how many prayers I prayed that God wouldn’t allow me to go through such a challenge, but I have a thankful heart that he did.
Our angel is now 16 months old and she is the greatest blessing of my life: Eliot Marie. It took me twenty years to learn the true definition of love. Now, instead of praying for God to change her, I’m praying for him to make me more like her; with unfailing, faithful love and a heart that loves all.
Rebecca says
Thank you for putting words to my heart and my story, while telling your own. My son was diagnosed with autism just a few months ago, and I felt all those things you did when my suspicions were confirmed. When I was told that our lives would change forever. But I, too, was given hearts to borrow when my own was broken. I’m still journeying through healing, but other moms like you inspire SO MUCH HOPE. Thank you. A thousand times.
Holly says
I found your blog today and clicked on the start here……Was near tears as I read your story. It was almost like reading my own. Your photos are beautiful. Your words were so real and honest and totally took me back to our birth day.
My Jake is now 11. Every day is an adventure. There are still days I want to crawl up in bed and cry. There are times I watch other families and wonder what it must be like to have only typical kids. Most days, he makes me laugh, he makes me happy, and he makes me proud. What a ride!
Thanks so much for sharing.
Holly
Amy says
What a beautiful post, and beautiful baby! I’ve sat here reading with tears streaming down my face. I am in awe of you and your family. God bless you!
Tillie says
a friend posted your birth story link on twitter…I was engulfed. I’m crying at my desk at work but reading your story is totally worth it. I know God put you in that beautiful little girls life because you are strong enough to handle it. BOTH of your daughters are BEAUTIFUL. thanks for sharing your pain, your love, your life.
Mama Mia says
Your complete honesty makes this post so beautiful and so moving. Both of your daughters are gorgeous. You are very blessed.
keight dukes says
i am 8 months pregnant with our second, a little girl, and stumbled upon your story in parents mag while being huge in the tub. i got out sobbing telling my husband that i couldnt do it if our baby was born with DS. his little sister is 24 and has DS and i know and have heard some of the challenges but also the beauty of her story. i went back today to find your name and google you hoping, so hoping, for a blog. i love how much more hope there is in this version of your full story. when i finished reading this post, i thought, i could do it, i wouldnt run away or keep her just to keep people for judging us. thank you for this beauty (in every sense).
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Candy (Mama Lion) says
i just found ur blog via SITS and just read Nella’s birth story. It is truly one of the most amazing pieces I have ever read. Sitting here in tears. My goodness. I love ur blog. You are beautiful. Your girls are beautiful. I am ur newest follower. xo
Aja says
This is just so beautiful. I recently read your story in Parents magazine and was just brought to tears.. then came across your blog through simple blog hopping a few days later! I’m so glad I did.
What beautiful daughters you have. Such a sweet little bunny!
nate's mum says
I love this story so much. Thank you for sharing it.
Amy says
Wow, that’s very raw, very real, and very wonderful. Thank you for sharing your family with us. I’m crying at my desk…with admiration, love, all those *good* feelings that make you cry.
When I found out about our daughter’s (CP) diagnosis, so many expectations/dreams/hopes evaporated. It is difficult to bear, that first realization that things will be different than you first imagined.
But it’s that type of life experience, that type of love experience, that really shows a person what is truly important.
My favorite picture is of Lainey as a big sister…a picture is worth a thousand words, no?
Leah says
Was just pointed here from somewhere else and had to say thank you for sharing this beautiful story. Clearly Nella is as lucky to have you as you are to have her.
Jeni says
Thank you for this a million times over. I cannot begin to tell you what a beautiful story it is to read.
Melissa says
This was the most beautiful blog post I have ever read. You are a true inspiration and so lucky to have your sweet family. I just found your blog from a friend’s blog who has a little boy with Down Sydrome. My eyes are swollen from cying reading this post. You are an amazing lady! So lucky to have two sweet little girls who love you unconditionally!
love
melissa from s.c.
Molly says
I just read this again, because I needed to. 🙂 Thanks. It puts life into perspective so much. And then we, the mothers of special littles, go forward to hold the hands of other parents and caregivers.
God bless you, Kelle, and your family. Again, and again.
1year365photos says
This is gorgeous. SO gorgeous. The writing. The photos. The openness.
All of it.
I’m in love with your family, and I have mascara dripping down my face.
There are no words.
annelise says
Kelle, I’ve just come across your blog by clicking-clicking-clicking through others before settling here. I read this post before any of the others (which I plan to do, from start to finish) and I’ve just got to tell you what an absolutely gorgeous post it is. I don’t think I’ve ever read anything before that was told with such beautiful honesty. I’m at work right now and my eyes were full of tears – I work on reception so I was praying that no-one came in 🙂
What adorable girls you have. I can’t wait to read more about them and look at more of your lovely photos. I am definitely your newest follower.
Thanks for sharing your story and I’m sure it will continue to touch people all around the world for so much more time to come. x
Tiffany says
I know you get so many posts. Every time you get anew one, it’s emailed to me. Your story brought tears to my eyes and this is my second time to visit your blog. I recently watched a video on Facebook that also touched me and reminded me of your story. I hope it touches your heart as it did mine.
In Christ’s love,
Tiffany Edens
Tiffany says
Sorry, I forgot to leave the link. My little girl awoke asking for more water. 🙂 Lee-Ellen: Gods Plan
http://www.youtube.com
In Christ Jesus’ Love,
Tiffany Edens
starrlife says
Hi, I’m her from My Name is Sarah’s blog post about you! I have an 11 year old daughter, Kayli, who has Down Syndrome and she is the love of my life. Although we weren’t born in a hospital with all those friends around us and no pictures your story brought back alot of what it was like and was very beautifully told! Come by and see my pictures of my girl!
larajanepark says
This is the most real, most beautiful story I have read in a very very long time. I’m ever thankful to my friend Katie for linking you to her blog so I could find this to read today. It’s just about love. Sometimes it takes some Nellas and Mamas to remind us that it’s just about love. Thank you so, so, so much for sharing your story.
Alexsandra Trawick says
This is such an inspiration…I cried tears of joy for you and how blessed you are.This little angel came to you because you are so full of love. Heavenly Father is proud of you.For sure. Thanks for sharing.
jan says
You are so blessed…..precious pink bundles of joy, awesome family and friends, and a super supporting husband! You’ve got the WHOLE world in your hands and YOU are a ‘special” one!
shawn says
well…i cant remember how i came upon your blog. but i did. and am very thankful for it. i started reading your last two blog posts you have posted. i am so amazed by your writing and the love you have for your daughters. i really feel connected. which i find sorta odd because i dont know you…maybe i feel a connection…im a new mama. i know that feeling now…the love of your children.
today at work…my mind trails off and i thought of your blog. i read the top and it says start here first. this is where i am now. i just finished reading your amazing nella birth…DAY story. i was in tears and still am. you have a beautiful soul. and seem very strong. i thank you for sharing. nella has my heart…she has the most sweetest face. she looks like she has an old soul. take care. continue to spread love, peace and light.
Emily says
Just read this post for a second time. And bawled a second time. I have an amazing son born a month after Nella who also happens to have Down syndrome. I found this post a week after we got home and it gave me so much hope. Now, Owen himself gives me hope everyday. I guess I just want to say congratulations on the beautiful family you were given, and made. And thank you for letting the grieving process not something to be ashamed of but learned from. It is nice to be a part of something so wonderful.
kellihahn says
kelle,
A couple weeks ago, my friend recommended your blog to me because I have a huge obsession with blogs (weddings, kids, still life, you name it!) Tonight, I finally got a free moment to myself and though that I might check it out.
I was hooked the moment I started reading the story of the birth of Nella. I can’t begin to imagine how you felt during it all, but I know that it must have taken the courage, strength, and faith of a warrior. You are an inspiration to me as a strong woman and thank you for sharing your story with me and the world. Both of your daughters are BEAUTIFUL and you are now my inspiration in life 🙂
Thank you 🙂
KateY Johnston says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful and touching birth story. I have been told that our baby has a 1 in 2 chance of having Down Syndrome and as I near our expected due date I am getting more and more nervous about how I will feel if she does have Down Syndrome. I want to love her so much and your story has just been such an honest and beautiful glimpse of both the heartache, pain and love that I feel even now as we wait and pray for strength to love our little girl Hope with unconditional love no matter what. The pictures are wonderful and I’m so glad I stumbled across your blog! God bless you and your family.
Emily says
What an amazing story and what a strong woman you are to share this with the world.
Thank you for sharing!
Corners of My Life says
I came to your blog on suggestion of Betsy at “My Five Men”.
Such an amazing heartfelt story. Little Nella Cordelia is one lucky little girl.
Heather says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful daughter’s birth story. I had never been to your blog before, so I am a little behind;-) I can’t tell you how beautiful it was to read what your doctor did for you when she gave you the suspected diagnosis. My son was diagnosed with CP when he was 7 months and my story is much different. No love, no tenderness, no compassion. What a blessing to have a doctor who held your hand, got down on the floor and loved you. You have beautiful girls and I love your thankful attitude. I can’t wait to read more and catch up!
itssleanneee says
You are absolutely beautiful and brave. My roommate and I read through this with tears in our eyes as we admired how real and honest you are. Your daughters are both gorgeous and without even knowing you, I can tell that you are going to be an amazing mother to each of their unique needs. Thank you for sharing your story so honestly. Your display of raw emotion was breath taking. May God bless you and your family.
Cindybrown says
I was led here by Betsy and am so glad. This story touched my heart so much and you tell it wonderfully. You have 2 gorgeous daughters!!! I work with special needs high school students. It is the most rewarding thing I have ever done. They have taught me so much about life and so much about unconditional love!!! Thank you for sharing your story!!
thesewingroomandmore says
Kelle, I am beyond touched by your story. It was so real, so beautiful, so fragile, so strong. I love your friends, your pediatrician and everyone for loving you through the hardest moments, and I don’t even know any of them. What I do know is that God wanted you to be Nella’s mommy, to love her and cherish her. You have a rare and beautiful heart and she is blessed to call you mommy. Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you.
The Hale's says
Thank you so much for sharing your story! It is raw yet so beautiful! You were meant for Nella! God always knows what he is doing. His timing is perfect!
Matthew Derek Kohler says
I ready your story and found myself in tears! I have a 22 month old with Down Syndrome and love him more than anything else in the world.
I look forward to hearing how you doing!!
a.j.g. says
Thank you for your bravery and honesty. This will be a blessing to so many mothers, even to those who have not experienced what you have. As I’ve read and looked at your pictures, I’ve cried and cried, both tears of sadness and joy. God bless you and your perfect little family.
mryrecon says
Kelle,
I had a friend refer me to your blog to read your entry regarding empowering girls. As it happens, I went to the birth story first and as I sat in my office reading, I cried like I haven’t cried in a long time.
Like you, I have two girls and the youngest was born with cerebral atrophy. We did not know about her special needs until she was around 13 months old. She is now 15, almost 16, and the light of my life. No one else makes me smile the way she does.
Enjoy your girls, God has given you a precious gift. They are lucky to have such wonderful parents.
Mary
JayneSees says
This is honestly one of this most beautiful things I have EVER read. Thank you for sharing such and intimate time with strangers like me. As I sit here with tears streaming down my face, I am so thankful for you and your family. I don’t have DS, but I was born with Cerebral Palsy, and had a mother who I don’t think has ever forgiven me for being different. When she had two other “perfect” children, her disdain became all the more apparent. Thank you for loving Nella and seeing her perfection. I wish you and yours all the hope and love in the world.
Shaela says
This post – this beautiful love story of you and your daughter – is why I love blogging. This is why I have faith in humanity. 🙂 Thank you for sharing this. God Bless-
Fakharuddin40 says
Such happy events comes seldom in one’s life. Congratulations to you and your adorable daughters. We can save humanity by loving it and take caring for it.
Gifts to Pakistan
Joannah says
Beautifully told. Nella is perfect, and I have a feeling that she’s going to have a wonderful life.
Be blessed.
Johanna says
I just found your blog and was completely moved. Thank you for sharing your story and your amazing photography. Your daughters are beautiful. I am so inspired.
irishtwinsmommababybook says
I thought your face and your beautiful girls’ faces looked familiar because I read your story in Parenting magazine.. I think. I cried reading this entire post. You are blessed. God never gives you more than you can handle– and He thinks you can handle A WHOLE LOT, sista! 🙂
Best wishes to your beautiful family!
the man. says
Reading your story makes me SO proud to call myself a mama. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story with such honesty…this is love in the most pure, true form. And a good reminder to forget about the wood floors…
xoxo
the man. says
Reading your story makes me SO proud to call myself a mama. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story with such honesty…this is love in the most pure, true form. And a good reminder to forget about the wood floors…
xoxo
The Gotbeters says
Congratulations on your sweet daughter. A friend of mine sent me your blog and your birth story is beautiful! We just had our 3rd, a little girl, we have 2 older boys. My birth did not go as planned and she has been pretty high needs since she got here. Now 5 weeks out I am grieving what I thought would be, sad for not remembering her cry for the first time and not shedding tears as I did with the boys… Several quotes in your story really spoke to me and I believe I shed tears of healing along with you. Thank you for sharing!
The Gotbeters says
Congratulations on your sweet daughter. A friend of mine sent me your blog and your birth story is beautiful! We just had our 3rd, a little girl, we have 2 older boys. My birth did not go as planned and she has been pretty high needs since she got here. Now 5 weeks out I am grieving what I thought would be, sad for not remembering her cry for the first time and not shedding tears as I did with the boys… Several quotes in your story really spoke to me and I believe I shed tears of healing along with you. Thank you for sharing!
The Gotbeters says
Congratulations on your sweet daughter. A friend of mine sent me your blog and your birth story is beautiful! We just had our 3rd, a little girl, we have 2 older boys. My birth did not go as planned and she has been pretty high needs since she got here. Now 5 weeks out I am grieving what I thought would be, sad for not remembering her cry for the first time and not shedding tears as I did with the boys… Several quotes in your story really spoke to me and I believe I shed tears of healing along with you. Thank you for sharing!
The Gotbeters says
Congratulations on your sweet daughter. A friend of mine sent me your blog and your birth story is beautiful! We just had our 3rd, a little girl, we have 2 older boys. My birth did not go as planned and she has been pretty high needs since she got here. Now 5 weeks out I am grieving what I thought would be, sad for not remembering her cry for the first time and not shedding tears as I did with the boys… Several quotes in your story really spoke to me and I believe I shed tears of healing along with you. Thank you for sharing!
stampinjane says
You are an amazing, incredible woman with an ability to share innermost feelings with words so eloquent. And your sister summed it up so beautifully. You were chosen to receive a gift so special, by a loving god that knew exactly what His child would need to live a worthy life. You are blessed and also are a blessing! Not many can make that claim. Cling to His Promises and know that He does not make mistakes; He is perfect and you are greatly loved! Thank you for sharing such a sweet, emotional experience that has touched so many!
Gretchen says
Thank you for this beautiful and honest record. I feel like someone finally put my own story into words. It’s been 4 years since my own little girl surprised us with her extra chromosome and it feels so cathartic to cry with your story. I’m so glad I found your blog. Thank you.
Teisha says
I should not have read this at work – how am I going to explain these tears? Beautiful story.
~stacy says
thank you for sharing so much of yourself… thank you
Amy says
I just discovered your blog via apartment therapy….
it’s 9:26pm on a friday night, my hubs is sick sleeping in the next room, my 7month old baby is sleeping in my bed, and i am out here in the living room on my laptop with tears of joy streaming down my face at the discovery of a blog I am now instantly hooked on. Hooked on because you can actually see the love breathing in the words you write….Thank you for this beautiful beautiful love story.
Muskrat says
wow. congrats to your family!
Mrs E says
I am new and just read this… I cried…I smiled…I fell in love with your girls. BOTH of your girls.
I am hooked from just one entry.
Charlotta Ward says
Kelle, I am lost for words..
It has taken me more than an hour to read your incredible story of Nella. It is beyond beautiful and you are so brave for writing it. To so openly share and bare yourself.
I am silenced in admiration of your strength and beautiful soul.
It is such a genuine pleasure to have ‘met’ you.
Nella is gorgeous! What an angel you are holding in your arms and what a privilege it will be for you to see her develop into the woman she is meant to be. I can’t wait to read your posts along the journey.
Hugs from the bottom of my heart!
xx Charlotta
ME duhh says
oh she is beautiful and perfect never let anyone else tell you anything different. I was born with a hearing loss and i’m proud to be different.
Life as the mother of 4 says
This was honest, raw and wonderful! I want to give you some advice, because I have a cousin with and a dear friend whose daughter has Downs Syndrome, push for full inclusion from the beginning. It’s very important. Good luck!
Grace says
i found your blog through twitter somehow & i am crying. absolutely amazing story. I am moved beyond words!
Rilla Ahern says
I am so glad I found your blog. I JUST read your article in a parenting magazine at a spa having no idea you blogged. I cried while reading the article but couldn’t stop. What a beautiful story and Nella is GORGEOUS! I can’t wait to follow your blog!
Patty Fountain says
Hi, I just read your story I found through a blog and I was able to share this story with my little 8 year old son who saw me reading so I teach him about special kids like your little sweat angel. I would love to read your book when you publish it. You are a great mom and the people around you are all good great people. God continue to bless you and your family.
Patricia in The Bahamas.
Tracey VanSickle says
Beautiful story. I absolutely cried my eyes out. Thank you for sharing.
Mel says
Wow, I cried all the way through your story. So beautiful and your daughter is beautiful too! She looks like she knows more about what is going on than anyone else. AN old soul. Precious. Thank you for sharing your journey!
Paige says
I just happened to stumble across your blog today at work and I’ve been memorized by your story and your posts. I’ve sat here at my desk with tears in my eyes and I can’t tell you how much this has moved me. You and your husband are truly blessed with your two girls and I am so thankful I came across your blog today.
mummaof6 says
I’m sitting here on the other side of the world reading about your beautiful family and I have tears flowing from my eyes, the honesty in your words is amazing and heartwarming. May your lives be filled with love, laughter and happiness. Your daughters are blessed to have such an incredible mother
kelly says
i truly believe that special needs children are sent here to teach us how to love unconditionally.i love your story and anyone would feel the exact same way. i am sure you have heard the story about landing in holland. you just didn’t know you wanted to go to holland!
thanks for sharing!
Mindy says
I love your story. Thank you for sharing. Your girls are beautiful!
Mindy says
ps. I’m new to your blog, so I’m not “caught up” yet, but I thought you might enjoy this story from a fellow mommy of precious baby with ds.
http://veryunfinishedproduct.blogspot.com/2010/09/in-my-shoes_30.html
Heather says
You have shared your story so beautifully! What a joy! Thank you for your honesty and willingness to speak your experiences and allow strangers to glimpse into those tender moments.
Circus Princess says
WOW. I’m in tears and so filled with love and hope I’m not sure how to express it. Your story is inspiring and uplifting, and yet so honest and raw.
Congratulations on your perfect family! Much love from a new follower who found her way here via Miss Ruby.
Nichole says
This is my first time reading your blog and your story is amazing! My sister’s story is almost identical to yours. She has three beautiful daughters and the middle one was born with DS. No one knew or even suspected until she was born. I can tell you that she is the light of our entire family.
Your story is beautiful, it is raw, it is real and I know that even as an aunt, I experienced some of the same emotions you did.
Your family is beautiful, and your daughters are perfect!
Much love!
Karlala says
So eloquently written. This birth story is candid and genuine. Your beautiful lil’ girl brought so many tears to my eyes.
Much happiness to your stunning family.
lvseal82 says
Kelle…I love her so much! From the moment I laid my eyes on her 5 minutes ago when I was introduced to this blog by a random friend link. Thank you for bringing Nella into this world as she has made it such an amazing place to live! Laura Z.
Michelle says
Thank you so much for blogging and allowing us to read it. I found your blog on the Bump. I read your last 2 posts, and then skipped to see the first post after Nella was born. I am 10 weeks pregnant, incredibly nervous. But after reading this, I just know that we can handle whatever happens. Thank you so much for a little courage. 🙂 God bless your adorable family!
Candice says
I just found your blog and I will be adding it to my google reader. One of my best friends growing up had DS and I see so much of her in your daughter. She is beautiful and will bring much joy into your life!
Snappy Di says
She Is Beautiful.
Your words are just so beautifully honest. I think that many mothers of special needs children feel all of the feelings you have experienced but most are not honest enough to put it out there for the world to read.
You are a refreshing spirit!
Di
Dan & Mary Lou says
I stopped by to vote for your blog ( thenks beth) and came upon the most touching story I have ever read! Your family is beaautiful! God has blessed you…
Courtney says
What an amazing and beautiful birth story.
Your daughters are beautiful and perfect.
Such a touching story.
Sarah Lulu says
Oh dear God how blessed do I now feel having read that beautiful journey of love and birth.
So now someone else loves her (and all of you) in Australia.
Joede says
I was directed to your blog when it was posted on a message board to a mom who just found out her 5day old son has DS.
Your story made me weep..emotions all too familiar!
My oldest daugther, who will be 18 years old in January, has Down syndrome. We did not know until she was born. I was 19. Our first child, it came as a shock. Numbness was never a word I used to describe my feelings, but it is definitely a word I should have used. There was numbness..so many thoughts going through my mind I couldn’t comprehend any of them.
Numbness which turned to joy over this beautiful baby girl that we had brought into the world.
Thank you for your beautiful story!!
Sarah says
Thank you for posting your sweet Nella’s birth story. We have a daughter with special needs too…cleft palate, heart defect, brain injury, brain developmental difference, and no diagnosis. I know exactly how you felt…so scared, and so in love, and paranoid. BUT, our story was a little different, as I didn’t get to be with our little Arlie Mae until nearly 5 hours after birth, due to an emergency c section. Isn’t it amazing how far you come in such a short period of time, though it feels like forever. Arlie Mae has had 4 surgeries, and just turned two. She is not walking yet, but every day I see little glimmers of progress. She is perfect too, just like Nella. So glad you have support. It’s hard, but it’s amazing that these little girls have chosen us to be their parents. We truly are blessed. It is my job and I do it gladly! Blessings to all of you!
Tina says
I have been a reader for many months now, but I make a habit of reading this story once every week or so. It never fails to inspire me and reassure me about life and how precious it is and how much we have to be thankful for.
Kelle, this story is so gut-wrenching, heartbreaking, inspiring and healing all at the same time. Thank you for doing what you do because it sure is special and magical.
Happy Thanksgiving.
xx
Teresa says
It is as a river flows from my eyes, weeping as I felt your every emotion as I read your moving words. The beauty of knowing that your little bunny Nella was sent to you leads me to romanticizing thoughts of your Nella pointing you and Brett out to God and excitedly requesting for you both to be her parents on this earth…I would even love to imagine that her older sister, Lainie while still in heaven with Nella played together and said to each other, “I’ll see you soon.” I can almost see them embracing before Lainie’s spirit was sent forth into your womb, birthed forth and as the sands in the hourglass poured forth, she waited patiently for her sweet connection from heaven, named Nella to come forth.
What a beautiful story and I am so blessed that my sister sent me your blog address…I praise God for Who He is! He brings us through circumstances both small and great so that we will always remember how Great He Truly is! No matter the storm or sun shiny days; the beauty of our God will never fail!
You and your family are so lovely!
God bless you in the name of Jesus!
Teresa
Amanda says
I NEEDED to read this. i have a very similar story complete with the loss of a child. The only difference is my baby was one day old when they came in and told me he had Cerebal Palsy. I felt all of those things that you did and I cried and cried. I still do. I loved him with all of my heart the minute I met him. Today, 20 months later, his normal has become my normal, but I won’t say life hasn’t been full of challenges. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s important for mothers like us to know that there are others who know this experience, this feeling, and this aching love for your “special needs” child.
God Bless You!
Shana says
I’ve been reading your blog for a little while now, and this is the first time I’ve read Nella’s birth story. Tears are streaming down my face. They were sitting on the rim of my eyes up until the phrase:
“Oh love me, please love me – I know I’m not what you expected, but please love me”
She and her sister are such lovely little girls, and you are a wonderful mother. You touched a deep chord with many of us with the aforementioned statement. So many of us know that we are not what was expected, but our heart longs to be loved.
You are so blessed and honored to be the mother of this little girl, and she is so blessed to have your sweet, unconditional love.
Jeremy, Lindsey, Ella Grace & Major says
Nella is an absolute doll! I could love on her for hours! Congratulations on this little gift from God!
Ashley Lock Photography says
Just finding your blog today and now I sit here with a tear soaked shirt! The most honest, beautiful and heart-warming story of sweet Nella’s birth. What a beautiful family you have!
klp919 says
Wow.I don’t know where/how to start. I’m in it..in the battle, the journey , right now ….I gave birth to the most beautiful angel in late Oct. with DS. Your words helped me take away the guilt, the guilt of wanting to run away…literally! I have a little 3 yr. old and yes I compared her as being” perfect, normal” to our new angel who is nonetheless just as perfect but I couldn’t see it. She’s still in the NICU and it’s been 5 weeks. I can only say I wish we were friends .Maybe our paths will cross? You are an inspiration even if you didn’t set out to be. Wow..how God has used you and your angel already.I’m still crying out to God, screaming, doing the ugly cry but nonetheless loving my baby. I just want her home now so we can begin “real ” life together and surprise so many with victories. She is already whole! God has promised us that for sure.
Thank you! Thank you!
Kerri
klp919@aol.com
CoachBahieh says
this is amazing. beautiful. true and raw.
but I am sure you know it already!!
http://bit.ly/ifeuZp (I linked it here on my blog…)
xoxox
emilyechard says
My cousin, Hannah, suggested that I check out your blog the other day after I created one myself. I have an organic chemistry test I should be studying for, so naturally I chose to check your blog out this evening and I read Nella’s story and some of your other posts. I wrote a post about your story and how it touched me. I’m not yet into the groove of blogging, but if you’d like to read my post, here it is… http://crumbsofconsciousness.blogspot.com/2010/12/warning-open-waters-and-deep-feelings.html
Tikki says
sobbing. this is beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
ForensicMama says
I cried my heart out reading your story. My family blog is at http://mymommyology.blogspot.com – I’m too lazy to sign out of this blog. Bless your heart, telling Nella’s story. I loved it. 🙂 You are so lucky to have her.
Aunt Kristina says
I cannot express how touched I am by this story–tears are pouring down my face and I am just so proud that someone was able to tell the truth. The honesty of plans that aren’t met–instead, they are altered better than we could ever imagine. How we react with sadness and frustration but end up seeing the love and hope. Thank you for sharing this. Your daughters are so lucky to have such a wonderful Momma.
Erin J-K says
This is such a powerful post. You are a very strong woman and Nella’s birth story is profoundly moving. Thank you so much for sharing it.
Tanis says
Your story made me sob, laugh and fall in love with my own children all over again. Nella is truly blessed to have you for her mother (and all of you as her family!) Your honesty is heartwrenching. Thank you so much for sharing your pain, but most especially for sharing your LOVE!
Ben & Kaley says
This is by far the most incredible story I have ever read. It reached me to a depth of my soul I never knew could be tapped into by reading a story. I feel like I was in the room with you…the friend that held you and kissed your forehead in your worst agonizing moments. You are a precious and beautiful soul. An “amazing mother” just doesn’t do justice. It’s no wonder that you are surrounded by such beautiful people – YOU are so incredibly beautiful – and you have birthed a baby girl who is just as beautiful – maybe more-so. 🙂 Thank you so much for being vulnerable & sharing EVERY emotion. I felt it all. Love, Kaley Kiewiet
mk says
I just read this with tears streaming down my cheeks. How brave and honest you are. Thank you so much for sharing this with me. Your girls are beautiful and so lucky to have you as their momma.
Emma jane says
Hi,
Your story is utterly amazing.
I was wondering if you would let me share with other mothers on kidspotsocial.com.au beacuse i know they would just adore it.
I cried everytime i read this.
(smiles.please@live.com.au)
(www.emmajaneforever.blogspot.com
Gretchen says
Kelle- What an amazing gift Nella has been given, with you being chosen as her Momma. You are an amazing lady and she surely will be blessed to have you as her Mom for a lifetime.
As for your sharing of Nella’s birth story, it truly is amazing. I as others stated had tears rolling down my face, tears choking my breathing and a husband questioning from across the room if I was o.k. 😉 That is a testament with how you have connected with your blogging readership through your journey, your truths, your pain and agony, as well as your pure utter joy once you opened up the door to all God has in store for you when you claimed Nella as your beautiful perfect angel. What an incredible journey this will be for your family and for Nella to be such a well loved member of this wonderful family God chose to bring her into to. He surely knew what He was doing when He chose you for her parents.
I do believe Kelle, that there is a bigger plan in all of this. You have literally reached thousands through telling this story. This emotional roller coaster, raw, beautiful, painful, joyful and very real birthing story. A book would need little editing from your equisite writing style, and would benefit and reach out to so many more that could benefit from your story. You’ve touched me to the core through just 2 blog posts, as I’ve been encouraged to take a peak at your blog from Becky at FarmGirl Paints, as she featured you today as one of her blogging favs. I had to come over for a minute, and it’s now been 2 hours and 2 posts later. I will for sure be adding your blog to my blogroll, as you are a gift to all that take the time to share in your life and journey.
Thank you for using your God given talents to His glory. The glory of loving and blessing those beautiful children that He has blessed you with.
Peace to you on this day!
Gretchen
Samantha says
Hello Kelle, all the way from snowy London.
I have just read your blog about Nella’s arrival… I went through this experience nine weeks ago, when my baby boy Freddie was born. I was like you – I knew as soon as I saw him – although it took several hours for the ‘official diagnosis’. I love my boy to bits and I wouldn’t change him for the world. It’s early days though and good to read other people’s stories. Having a diagnosis of DS can seem very lonely and isolating. I envy you having all your friends come to the hospital and being told then and there. I am still telling friends, mainly as they come and see us, so they can meet Freddie first and then find out about this DS – I don’t want it to be his ‘crown’.
The photos on your blog are beautiful – the one of your daughter meeting her younger sister and your comment about unconditional love made me cry – also the beautiful pictures of (I think) your sister hugging Nella for dear life!
What a precious little darling you have(have precious darlings I should say)!
Happy Christmas, Samxx
Lindsay says
I randomly came across your blog and just wanted to tell you that your girls are beautiful and that is a wonderful story. I applaud you for being honest about your feelings, it must have taken a lot to tell it. Thank you for sharing it with us 🙂
lisa says
Your story moved me so much. I have no words that are tantamount to share. Your raw and honest emotion, not holding back, is the most courageous I have ever read. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and your beautiful family. May you all have a very Merry Christmas.
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Heather says
I sat reading your blog drinking my coffee with tears rolling down my face …
Your story is beautiful, your girls SO are beautiful, and your pictures are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story. 🙂 Heather
hbizzalful@blogspot.com
The Starkers says
Wonderful! Beautiful daughters! I actually read your story in a baby magazine some months ago. Then today a friend had the link to your blog on her blog. I started working my way back until I came to Nella’s birth story and immediately recognized the picture where everybody is toasting while you are in the back. I cried more the second time reading it. There is so much emotion in it. And I too believe she was chosen just for you and your family without a doubt.
Melissa says
What an amazing birth story and so proud of you! I can’t even begin to fathom how hard that must have been and will be. My favorite cousin has a lil boy with Down Syndrome – Max. He is an amazing little gift. They have done everything under the sun to give him the best life he can have and also prepare for his future – if you need any advice or just a fellow parent to share stories with let me know and I can put you in contact via email.
TK Kerouac says
this is a beautiful, honest, heartwarming story. Not much of a crier, but this post did it for me. Looking forward to read about your journey.
Pam says
I just read Nella’s birth story for the umphteenth time and boo-hoo’d the whole way through as always. I have never commented but thought I would today when I realized that today is your birthday. I hope you are having a wonderful day. Hugs and kisses to Nella and Lainey.
christy says
Dearest Kelle,
With only a few weeks left before I deliver this sweet baby boy I carry now, I am obsessed with reading birth stories. I remember coming here almost a year ago to read this story.. your story.. Nella’s story. For some reason today I felt the need to read it again. So here I sit, in a puddle of tears. My heart is swelling with joy and elation for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your life and thank you for a year full of inspiration in mine. Happy Birthday and Happy New Year to you sweet Kelle.. may you find peace and fulfillment looking back at 2010!
IWASNTBLOGGEDYESTERDAY says
followed a friends link here and glad I did.
WOW over 3000 comments!!
Its because its the most beautiful,honest birth story ever written. You write so well,the photos are just beautiful.
Thankyou for sharing this beautiful story. I cried, not because nella is not the baby you were expecting, but the outpouring of love from your family and friends. You are loved well girl 🙂
And the reminder of the beauty and excitement of giving birth,thanks for the memories.
I’m looking forward to reading your families journey.
Dena says
Beautiful, beautiful story.
Raina Dawn Events says
Kelle,
I came across your blog today because a girl I work with was telling me to check out how you used blogger to format your blog and I use blogger as well. Next thing you know I am reading it and crying. Today my husband is at his great aunt’s funeral in Cleveland, Linda was 64 with down syndrome and she passed away on Sunday. We were so lucky to see her just days before she passed and I was only lucky enough to know her for the past couple of years, but she brought so much joy and love into their life, Linda was the most beautiful blessing! I forwarded a few photos of Nella to my husband and mother to cheer them up and smile, since your daughter Nella is just beautiful- you fall in love with her just from the photos! : ) thank you for sharing and what a perfect day for me to read your post. Thank you!
Jay says
Bless you for accepting the responsibility and privilege to love your precious baby. I cried so much as I read this story. So honest, so moving.
Shannon says
I just had a friend refer me to your blog, and I instantly fell in love with all of you…I had to stop reading three times because my eyes were just full of tears. You are the perfect mommy of those two little darlings…God never gives us more than we can handle and I know Nella has the perfect mommy. xoxo Shannon @ Pipsqueak Couture
Dana says
Thank you so much for having the courage to share this amazing and beautiful birth story. Our Sofia was born on 1/3/10 and we, too, feel so blessed to have this amazing little girl in our lives. I only wish we lived closer so Sofia and Nella could have a playdate to celebrate their birthdays together:-) Warmest wishes, Dana
priest's wife says
What a beautiful story0 just found your blog
rachelannelewis says
What a beautiful story. And how brave you are for sharing it with such honesty.
You have a new fan!
Heidi says
I have a “little bunny” too … He’s 7 years old, and the youngest of five boys. He had pneumonia, heart surgery and lung surgery by the time he was 3. He’s funny. He’s LOVING. He’s exasperating. He’s brilliant with anything involving where his favorite DVDs or tortilla chips are hidden. And I wouldn’t trade him for anything. Thanks for sharing your beautiful story.
P.S. Invest in an iPad. Best thing I’ve found to get my Bunny to communicate, learn writing and letters, practice finger dexterity and memory skills.
Humor Girl says
I’m forever changed. What an inspiring and beautiful piece of art. THank you.
jasperwalls says
wow – just read the birth story. i was led to your blog by a friend. my son Shawn has Ds and just turned 4. he is my 3rd child – of 3 sons. i am crazy about your blog and will keep coming back. my story is quite different. we had no idea our Shawnie had Ds until he was one day old. i looked straight into his eyes and didn’t have a clue. he stayed with us in the hospital room the first night – but a nurse had suspicions the next morning. and then the roller coaster went wild. thank you for your advocacy and awareness work. it is remarkable. nella is delicious.
Nuha Sofiyan says
The honesty of this post brought me to tears. It takes courage to share a story like this and you did it so incredibly elegantly. I was hooked on every single word. You are incredible.
If you don’t mind I’d like to place a link to this on my blog.
xoxo
Nuha Sofiyan says
The honesty of this post brought me to tears. It takes courage to share a story like this and you did it so incredibly elegantly. I was hooked on every single word. You are incredible.
If you don’t mind I’d like to place a link to this on my blog.
xoxo
Heather :: AFD Jewelry :: says
What a beautiful, amazing story. Not quite sure how I stumbled upon your blog but I am so glad I did. Your girls are both beautiful.
-Heather
Gabby / Gypsy*Diaries says
I have no words. I have tears. I feel for you and I’m so happy for you! Thanks for sharing this amazingly heart wrenching and beautiful story. Best of luck to you and your beautiful family!
xxx
http://gypsy-diaries.blogspot.com/
Kathryn says
I just found this post thanks to it being linked in another post that was tweeted by my friend… and I cried my eyes out. Thank you so much for posting your family’s story. I think if my mother ever wrote about my younger sister’s birth, it would sound very similar to this. My sister will turn 19 this year, and she is my number one favorite person in the entire world. As the big sister, I can relate to your older daughter’s pride in having a little sister. I cannot remember – I was only 4 at the time of her birth – but my mother tells me that I was on cloud nine because I had a little sister. And over the course of our lives we have shopped together, painted nails together and baked together. It’s been wonderful.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for putting it so beautifully.
lngshr6 says
I don’t know how you did
it but you did…you told my story without being there except for a few minor changes and the fact my son was born 9 years before your BEAUTIFUL little one!!
Thank you for telling your story!!
mama of 2 angels says
such a gift from God. perfect in every way. congratulations on your newest addition. beautiful pictures as well.
Linds, Clint, Hunter & Scarlett! says
Nella must be the luckiest little girl in the world!!!
How lucky is she is surrounded by amazing, loving, wonderful people?!
Never, ever have I ever been so touched by a story…I can see why she chose you as her mama!
Wishing much love, laughter and sunny days to you all xx
Sparkle P. says
Your story is amazing honey… You are amazing. You have a gift of words that leave hearts spellbound everywhere… And your beautiful photos speak volumes… Just the way they are supposed to……….
Shae says
My.heart.belongs.to.Nella. What a sweet, sweet story! I’m so glad I came across your blog.
Sara says
thank you thank you thank you…how God has used this story to bless and encourage me. I so needed to read this. Thank you.
Michelle Sheldon says
OMG, i am speechless! You are an amazing woman! What a beautiful blog post . . . and the photos! It feels like I was right there with you . . . cheering you on. I absolutely agree that YOU and your family were chosen! God knew you would be the perfect family for this perfectly beautiful baby. 🙂
Thank you so much for sharing!
Jessica says
I have never read your blog before, but I am glad I did. My grandma had a child with DS long ago and was told to put her in an institution. There was nothing hopeful about her birth. My grandma didn’t give her up and never gave up on her. She lived a full life and accomplished so much. She is the reason I am getting my Masters in Special Education and I love helping families of kids with disabilities. I am sure Nella is going to have such a wonderful life and will make your life so full! Good luck!
Margret Maria says
what a beautiful story, I cried my eyes out, God bless your familly and friends :,)
Miss Jewells says
I came across your blog by chance, but I am forever changed. Your words are so eloquent, your story so honest and real. I sobbed while reading this – for your pain, your fear, and most importantly your joy. Thank you for sharing this story. I know I’m merely one of many who follow your blog, but I am moved by the messages you share. Thank you!
RisenPhoenix says
Your daughters are both beautiful and perfect! Thank you for sharing.
Caitlin says
Hi, my name is Caitlin. I don’t know you, and you don’t know me, I came to your blog from Little Lesiw, and I just kept scrolling down and read this story. If you wouldnt have told me, i NEVER would have known your baby has down syndrome. Even in her one year old pictures, she still doesnt look like she has down syndrome. My friend has 3 daughters, 2 of which have down syndrome. she posted about this article on her FB page. i read it and it really brought a whole new light onto down syndrome for me. dont let the title scare you…if you have time you should read it. my favorite part is when Jesus talks about this child being forever innocent.
http://www.renewamerica.com/columns/kondrich/110116
you have a beautiful family!!! :o)
LiLing says
Very beautiful. Both your story and daughters. I felt as if I was there with you as I read your story. It must have been awesome having to welcome your gorgeous little one with so many loved ones around you. Congratulations to you lov! 🙂
Belly Monster's Mama says
I was directed here from another site, interested in reading your story. I started crying from the minute Kate started singing, and haven’t stopped since.
I would say I don’t know you, but after reading this, I do. I know your heart. Your huge, incredibly honest and real, overflowing heart. And I love you. You, Lainey, your bunny, Brett, the pediatrician, your friends, all of you.
I needed this today, needed to have someone hit me with beauty and reality so hard, it knocks the wind out of you and makes all else fade to black. You did that for me today, with the beauty of your words, your soul, poured out on paper. You made me realize what is important, and you made it ok for me to feel how I’ve been feeling about things.
This is life. Good and bad, right and wrong, take it or leave it. And it’s all up to your perception of things as to how you determine what is and what isn’t.
Thank you for helping me shine the light on the beauty in my own life today.
This is life… I’ll take it.
Tracy says
God’s definition of perfect and beautiful isn’t the same as ours. You have been blessed with a unique opportunity to take a glimpse through the eyes of God and see perfect as He sees it.
I can’t remember reading anything which made my heart swell and eyes tear like this. You (and Nella) have touched my heart today and I thank you.
Siany says
Oh wow I’ve just cried my heart out reading your post. I have 2 boys and your photos and description of the excitement, the giving birth and your pain afterwards was so real. I felt like I was here with you in the delivery room. I was heartbroken for you. Yet you falling in love with her was so uplifting and beautiful. And she is beautiful isn’t she? I think you are right. I think you were meant for each other x
Jenny says
heh… great story…
Lindsey says
I absolutely loved your take on your story… It’s raw and it is almost exactly what anyone could imagine that day would be like whether or not people would admit it. There are many blessings in store for you!! Thank you for sharing!
Allison Harms says
Hi there. I really loved this. I mean really loved it. I don’t think I have ever cried so hard at a blog post, movie or anything.
My sister has downs. I am struggling to type about it because after reading your words, the wound feels fresh. I loved reading it, don’t get me wrong, but it hits very close to home.
Oh, and your other daughter. She will be fine. Awesome, even. I know you know that. She will have a tender heart, passion and willpower. She will love extra deep because she has a sister who is different. She will be great. Trust me.
Thank you.
thefaeryinn says
I have no idea what to say. A friend of mine shared this story on facebook, and I just read it. Your precious, beautiful story. And I cried. And I’m about to cry again.
Thank you. THANK YOU, for sharing your story.
((hugs))
Abi P. says
I cannot believe I didn’t find your blog earlier. Your story was so beautiful. I cried, and I have never done that while reading a blog & while looking at beautiful photos that truly touched my heart just looking at them. Thank you so much for sharing this with the world. I am now a blog follower & look forward to seeing your family grow.
Leahchambers says
Thank you for sharing. 7 years ago my sister and best friend found out that the daughter they were expecting had Downs. When she was 7 months along and visiting me she lost the baby due to a heart defect. Later that day I held her hand as she delivered her little girl, a still birth. Her name was Cadence Christine and she was beautiful. I held her with my own two hands. Unfortunately, I didn’t have my camera with me at the time, nor in those moments did my sister want pictures taken. In hindsight, she wishes she had pictures of her sweet little angel. It’s been seven years and although I think of Cadence often, I haven’t cried over her for years. Until now. Thank you for sharing.
Leahchambers says
Thank you for sharing. 7 years ago my sister and best friend found out that the daughter they were expecting had Downs. When she was 7 months along and visiting me she lost the baby due to a heart defect. Later that day I held her hand as she delivered her little girl, a still birth. Her name was Cadence Christine and she was beautiful. I held her with my own two hands. Unfortunately, I didn’t have my camera with me at the time, nor in those moments did my sister want pictures taken. In hindsight, she wishes she had pictures of her sweet little angel. It’s been seven years and although I think of Cadence often, I haven’t cried over her for years. Until now. Thank you for sharing.
sreid410 says
Thank you for sharing your beautifully raw story of your bunny’s birth. I am happy for you and the opportunity you have been given. You remind me of what’s truly important in this world, our children, their health and happiness. Your family’s story is a tender example of how are most challenging times are our most triumphant. From deep in my heart, thank you<3
Katherine Jeffries says
Thank you so much for writing this. I had a challenged brother growing up, and I saw my mother’s heartache through you. But he is irreplaceable and I love him with all I’ve got, and I know I would be so heartbroken to have a child with the challenges he had, but I know, because of how you put it and how I had the chance to stand in your place for a moment, that I would love, love, love that child no matter what. You are an amazing and beautiful woman and the kind of mother I hope I can be. Thank you, thank you for sharing this.
jeniholland says
What a beautifully amazing story. Being 4 months pregnant, these are the things I worry about. You always have that nagging feeling of “what if”. But, you handled a very tough situation gracefully. I know it probably didn’t seem graceful at the time, but a lot people wouldn’t have had the strength and compassion you did.
You are a strong, beautiful woman with a perfect beautiful family. You are an inspiration to so many mothers.
Thank you so much for sharing the story of your daughter’s birth.
Jessica says
Tears, tears, and more tears. Thank you for sharing.
Asun says
I am so moved by your story.
I can’t even start to imagine what you must have felt and yet… I wished that was me, writing the story I have just read.
Like you said, life is not about wooden floors. It’s about love and family.
We long SO MUCH for a baby… and after 5 years of trying and two precious lives lost on the way, here we stand, childless.
You are so lucky and so blessed.
Embrace your gorgeous family and enjoy every second of it.
May our good Lord always be at your side, as He has always been.
Love,
Asun xxx
Yvonne@ Beadsyy's Diary says
An amazing illustation of Nalia’s birth story. I love the way you wrote and expressed your emotions. Love the photos too. Definitely brought lots of tears as I read. You are a truly amazing mom and women, Kelle! Definitely an inspiration for all moms out there.
Holly Lynn says
Wow! I don’t have adequate words to express how profound and touching your daughter’s story is. This is something I will treasure for ever, I’ve already referred everyone I know to read this. Thank you for reminding all of us how beautiful life really is. You write with excellence and honesty, I am new to your blog and can’t wait to read more.
Catrina says
Beautiful and she is just beautiful!
Karen says
What gorgeous daugthers you have!
Thank you so, so much for sharing your love and your eloquence.
wednesdayswithmalou says
You and I share a birthday, and you wrote this beautiful post on my son’s birthday, so our babies almost share a birthday too. 🙂
This really spoke to me…my firstborn, my daughter, died before she was born. No one knows why. I remember wishing for, begging for, her to be ok, if only she just had some type of “disability” instead, I would lover her just as much. I just needed her here in my world. But that wasn’t meant to be. Reading your account makes me feel like what could have been with my Malou Amelia. I still wish it was.
But for some reason, on the eve of my second baby’s birthday, I came across this beautiful post of your beautiful Nella, and it gave me comfort. Thank you for sharing.
Elizabeth says
Wow. I just stumbled upon your blog, and I was instantly hooked. You wrote this so beautifully. I’ve been in tears through it all because your story hits very very close to home!
Nineteen years ago my family was blessed with an angel from God in the form of a baby girl with Down Syndrome, and I am that baby girl’s big sister. I was close to Lainey’s age when she was born, and like Lainey, I thought she was absolutely perfect from day one. Like you said, we don’t have long phone conversations and we don’t go shopping together, but the bond I have with my little sister is so much greater than that! Your little Lainey has so much to look forward to! Being my sister’s big sister is by far the most fulfilling role I’ve filled to date. She has taught me about love, compassion, simplicity, and acceptance. I truly believe that we are all meant to live like Nella and my little sister because in the great scheme of things true compassion is much more important that intelligence and coordination. Families like yours and mine are blessed beyond imagination. What a beautiful journey you are beginning! Take it all in and live it to the fullest!
Happy first birthday Nella!
Trogden says
I found your blog because a friend of mine is subscribed to it. For some reason, I decided to read this blog. I don’t even know you but have cried the whole time I read it. When you write that book, please let me know. I can’t wait to read it. And your daughters are BEAUTIFUL!
Amelia says
Ohhh I cried reading this. Look at her. She is BEAUTIFUL……………
What an amazing family you have.
Amelia says
Ohhh I cried reading this. Look at her. She is BEAUTIFUL……………
What an amazing family you have.
pixel perfect pixtures says
You are so honest and so beautifully real… What beautiful love the Lord has blessed you all with… Nella is beautiful little girl and I’m sure she has added so much love to your perfect little family…. No one should never be considered normal… what’s normal is to love and be loved. Good job to you mama 🙂 I see from their faces you did what is normal 🙂
Lexi says
I love your story. I read it a couple of days after my baby was born. We found out when Abby was born that she had Down syndrome, too. And, while I thought your story was so beautiful and the pictures were amazing, I could not identify with it. My story was much different. I felt okay from the beginning- and as the months have gone on that resolve- the peace, has started to fade. It’s kind of like your story in reverse. Acceptance then pain. Abby is 8 months old now and I just reread your story. So many things I needed to hear. So many things I can identify with now. It’s hard. but it’s SO worth it.
Thanks for all that you do in advocating for our little miracles. I’m grateful that you’ve taken the notoriety you’ve been given and done something SO good with it.
Lexi
mostlytruestuff.blogspot.com
ljb44 says
My cousin and best friend’s daughter just had a baby born with Down Syndrome. My daughter found this site and sent it to her and I think it helped tremendously. Nella is beautiful and I love her name. God knew what she looked liked before she was conceived and has special plans for her. Good luck and God’s blessings on Nella and her family. She will bring you much joy.
The Doke's says
Wow, I am in awe of your blog. you are so honest and real. loved it! thank you for sharing!
LykkeLee says
Thank you so much Kelle, you Are truely a wonderful woman And mother. I Thank you from my heart for sharing yours And Nellas story, so honestly and with such an open heart. This makes it so beautiful and inspirering to me. I am greatful. Aswell as I am filled with joy and happiness for you. The love you feel for Nella is so visible that. I can feel it in my heart.you writing Nellas story down is the greatest gift to me. You both inspire me to love more. Be present, see feel and enjoy the moments of my life more. Thank you for letting me be a part of your so intime story.
( i stumble upon your blog by ” accident” and I am glad I did, it made me realize things, see this from a different perspective, yes your story wok me up.)
Love Hannah Julia Lykke and my daughter (5 month) Aliena from norway.
Meghan says
Thank you so much for sharing this. You are a beautiful writer and what an amazing story of your little girls birth. Nella is soo beautiful (I love that photo of you in the braids smiling with Nella’s smiling face against yours – you were meant to be together).
Congratulations! You are so lucky to have such an amazing and perfect family 🙂
Gen Santanelli says
This is indeed the most beautiful and inspiring words I have read in some time. You have an exquisite spirit and gift within you and you gracefully found a way to reflect it in possibly everything you do. Thank you for sharing this story of you, your little beautiful bunny, Lainey, Brett and your incredibly amazing and loving friends! You have added such warmth to my day. Thank you.
Breanne says
wow. this was such a beautiful story and Nella is so beautiful. What a blessing it is to know that God trusted YOU with the life of your beautiful baby girl. Thank you for sharing this.
-Breanne
Mindy says
My best friend of 30 years sent me your link week’s back. It’s taken me this long to open it. Thank you for stirring those emotions that 9 months later are already being pushed back. While I was learning your story…I was reliving mine and being truly inspired by your honesty, love, and perseverance.
Julie F. says
Well, I certainly couldn’t read that with a dry eye.
My mother always says, God never gives us more than we can handle. He chose you to be Nella’s mom and dad, and from the love in your hearts… I think He did a pretty good job choosing :o)
Lill says
Hello
What a fantastic story,and what a cute babygirl:)
I found a link to your blog on a norwegian blog and i love it!
Best regards
Lill
MarnyAlice♥Kalas Mystiske Hjørne says
Hello!
I have just read your story, and it really touched me!
Congratulations! She is SO beautiful and perfect!!♥
How wonderful to have all theese photos from the birth-in Norway it is not usual to include the family like you do, so normaly it is not taken as many pictures from the birth moment.
Enjpy the baby cuttle time☺
Hug M♥
Mehgan says
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Mehgan says
As i finished reading Nella’s story, I am filled with tears. That was beautiful. I am not sure I have cried like that in awhile. I have always been curious to know what a parent goes through when they find out their new precious baby has an illness or is somehow different. That was so encouraging and I want to encourage you to continue that bond of love. God has big plans for you and your family. Dn’t be afraid to dream big.
Jen says
I just found your blog and am in tears. You are a very talented writer and you told Nella’s story so well.
My story is similar but has a very different ending. My daughter, Madelyn Rose, was born very sick and we had no idea. I totally understand wanting to go back to the before when all you were was an excited expectant mom. My little girl only lived for 14 hours and had so many facial deformities I often wonder what my first thoughts were and hope that I loved her above all else.
If you have a chance, stop by my blog and read the whole story. I am not a great writer but I hope I honored her life with my telling of her story.
Blessings,
Jen
Lizzy says
randomly tumbled upon your blog. this story is so beautiful, raw and HONEST and I thank you so much for sharing your emotions with us.
My Secret Rooms says
Now I too took part of this story.
How strong you are, how brave and how loving.
I cried tears of movement all through and I came in to your blog “backwards” and has been following it for some weeks, so I knew already of both your truly beautiful, cute, wonderful girls.
Nella is so adorable I just want to hug her!
The birth story, is something that I believe takes a whole lot of bravery to share, thanks for sharing.
It makes me realize that the story I have, that defines my life, is still to share. I haven’t dared share it yet, in a blog I mean.
I guess I must be afraid of rejection or being judged.
You are so inspiring.
We share a birth date, December 29, and even though we are strangers, your words in this blog means a whole lot to me, every week.
Thank you so much!
And congrats to such a warm and beautiful family. You really deserve it.
/Anna
Country Girl says
All you need is love.
And you have that in spades, my dear.
Melinda says
I just wanted to say – I have been following you for a few months now. I have always loved your little blog. 🙂 But I feel horrible that I had never read this post. (even though at the top of your blog it says ‘if your new, start here’) lol. You are an amazing woman. Wife. Mother…God has truly blessed you. And BOTH of your girls are soooo beautiful! I pray all the happiness and blessings from God come to you in your lives. 🙂
Caz (The Truth About Mummy) says
Wow. So beautiful. As I wipe away the tears. Wow again .
Amy says
Boy, did I cry my eyes out reading that! What a brave and beautiful thing to share with the world.
My brother has DS, and while he is an adult now and living his own life, I never forget the braveness and openess he shows the world every day of his life. What you will learn from your wee poppet will overflow your soul so much, I can’t even describe it.
Thank you for sharing xxx
Tove `blogg verden says
Beautiful story and theese picture is amacing!!
Hug from Tove
North- Norway
The Ahlswedes says
Wow, this is such an inspirational story. Thank you for sharing your raw feelings with the world. I cried when I read this as I shared a portion of your pain. What compassion and love you have. Thank you for this.
CarolJL1 says
Wanted to share this: I am in awe of you, your honesty, your family & friends, and your ability to capture and communicate such a special moment in your lives!
Having stumbled upon your blog, I feel privileged to have shared such an intimate human moment with a complete stranger!
Warm, good wishes to you & yours, Kelle!
Lisa says
You have truly touched my heart. You have the sweetest family, and I love the honesty in your story. ♥
Rich says
Wow, I love your honesty. So many people would have left out the fact that they wanted to run, and just pretend like they never thought it. My wife was up reading this and bawling last night and she felt compelled to post it on facebook, and here I am.
Keep writing! You are gifted in it. I hope my blog is a blessing to so many people like yours is. Keep that grateful heart, God has given us so much grace, there’s no good reason to be ungrateful. God bless you and your family!
jessashcher says
I just wanted to say thank you for your story, I cried all the way through it. God never makes mistakes, this precious daughter was meant for you and she is perfect just the way she is. She is so beautiful, I wish I could just give her a big hug. Children are so precious, each and everyone of them. God chose you to be her mother because he knew that you were deserving of such a wonderful child and God knew you would give her all the love and care she needs. He trusted you with this precious life. God Bless you and your family in everyway possible.
JaneHastyPhotography says
Wow! Thank you.
Ashley J. says
I’ve already commented before, I just wanted to say…
I have read this story over and over and over, and I could read it a million times more. My heart aches for you, yet I’m crying tears of joy. This is truely the most beautiful thing I have ever read.
It’s a year later, but congratulations mama. I’m so happy for you!!
Jenniy says
She beautiful, you have been blessed by two beautiful little girls. I cried, and I sympathized. I have a special needs baby, I knew when I saw him that something was… different about him. I’ve cried, I’ve screamed, and I’ve loved him with everything I am. Our children teach us things every day, some of us get a special teacher, the ones that teach us that no matter what happens, no matter what doctors, or anyone else tells us, we love them and will help them do the best they can, with all we are. I love all three of my children more than life. My youngest has taught me more in his 3 years of life that anyone could ever teach me.
southernoracle says
Hi, Kelle,
My sister sent me here today to read your story because less than 2 weeks away from our due date we have been told that our daughter’s tongue looks enlarged on the ultrasound, and that it may be an indicator of DS. After having waiting so long to conceive a child and losing one very early in pregnancy, I had just now settled into the feeling that everything was going to be okay this time. Now I feel like I have had the world snatched out from under me. I know what you mean about wanting your old life back. I keep wishing I could go back 2 days to when I felt excited about labor and finally holding our daughter, instead of the raw place of grief I’m inhabiting now. I thank you so much for your honesty in what you felt. I have been feeling so guilty for no longer being excited, for wondering if I can love her when she comes or if I will just feel nothing. Everyone keeps telling me all the reasons why it’s probably just a scare and that she’ll turn out just as I imagined, but I’ve never found myself to be that fortunate. I only hope that if our girl is born with DS I can come through it with the kind of grace that you have, and give her all the love and care that she deserves. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
The Fitch-Jenett Family says
I just saw this on a friend’s Facebook page and read it. I sobbed through just about the whole thing. I’m not a big crier. I *am*, however, the Mama of a very special little boy who has a very big heart (that doesn’t pump blood very well). I want to go back and read it again when I can see the pages through the tears. The moment of disbelief, of re-writing the future we think we have planned for our child, is so…intense. I’m so sorry that you know this pain and the breaking wide open that comes with us.
You are the very best Mommy for this little one. She picked you. I know that about our little Simon and I am forever changed for it.
With so much love,
Jaime
Lindsay says
I just heard about your blog today, as my friend directed me to this post in particular. Beautiful, beautiful writing. Beautiful, beautiful girls. You are one blessed woman!
melissa says
Please know that your story has moved many hearts. You are truly blessed: not just with a wonderful husband, two beautiful daughters, an amazing family and adoring friends, but also with a loving spirit, an accepting heart, and an ability to embrace changing expectations. Your future is bright.
When Lainey gets a little older, you might look into a program called Sibshops (Sibling Support Workshops). They are terrific for helping children (usually 7-11) have fun outings and a chance to share their positive and negative experiences with their siblings with typically developing friends who also have siblings with disabilities. A fantastic organization.
http://www.siblingsupport.org/
Blessings to you and yours. Thanks for opening your heart to so many.
Danielle says
I adore your writing and your honesty in telling your sweet Nella’s story. She is beautiful–along with the rest of your family.
Krista Lund says
with 3000+ you certainly don’t need another comment, but i have a strong need to post one. words are lost on me. your story is beautifully written and i admire your honesty and don’t doubt that you were meant for each other. i can feel your love.
Lyndsey says
Yours is such a beautiful story. I am not a mommy yet but work as an Early Interventionist with children who have special needs and disabilities and their families. I hate the part of my job that means parents have to lose the future they envisioned for their child but am so proud of all of them as they adapt and become their child’s biggest advocate/cheerleader/admirer. Thank you for writing your family’s story and sharing it.
Trinity says
I never read blogs.. I was catching up on pictures on Country Mouse Tails, my dear friend, and happen to see your link and read this story. I just wanted to congratulate you on your perfect family. I love how you documented it and the pictures are wonderful, very touching. Thanks for sharing this with the world. Your journey will be full of blessings and smiles and I wish you the very best in life 🙂
Trinity Walker
Azemina says
i am new to your blog…this story made me cry…a lot! it is very beautiful and inspiring…thank you for sharing your amazing life’s story and your amazing girls…they are very lucky to have you and you are very lucky to have them
Jaime says
I don’t know you in person, but I know you. I was you 14 years ago. Except I was a scared, 19 year old girl who had no idea the blessings ahead of me. My Zack came to me on 7/6/96. He was 8 weeks early and we had no idea what to expect. When I found out he had Down Syndrome, I cried because he wasn’t the “perfect” baby I had imagined. But the nurses in the hospital gave me a book (I wish I knew where it was now) and I never looked back. We took the challenge head on. My husband and I love being the parent of a child with Down Syndrome as well as two other “normal” children. Thanks for sharing your story. I hope to see many more.
T.J. & Becca Wuth says
My friend JoAnn said there was this blog I JUST HAD TO READ!! I have read it, and have just turned into a big blob of mommy mush!! Not sure when I will stop crying these happy tears. I want to smother Nella with kisses, and I want to smother her momma with kisses for the brutal and beautiful honestly that she was willing to share! You are blessed, and now we are blessed!
liebe says
She’s beautiful! Thank you for being brave and sharing your very real story.
Elana says
Oh my goodness. I just stumbled upon your blog, and haven’t had much time to actually read through many posts, but I skimmed through this one, and you brought me to tears. You write so eloquently and beautifully, and the photographs of your family are stunning. You have two, beautiful daughters. I admire your strength and the love that you have for your family. I wish you the best!
mvi says
Photo to paintingI had a really nice photo canvas made from one of our favorite baby pictures. They turned my photo into a oil portrait canvas!
BB Writes says
Hi. You don’t know me. I just came across your blog randomly, and I just finished reading your beautiful birth story. You can never know the inspiration you just gave me. I am so blessed to have read your story. I know that God has such great things in store for you, your family, and your perfect girls. I will keep you in my prayers always. Thank you.
Katie Rose M. says
I’m new to this site…I am at first struck by how quickly your site took off…how many millions of people want to read about your life, and now I know why you have become so famous so fast and I wish I could know you in real life. Your story struck my heart today as I read your words about Nella. I cried buckets of tears as I saw your heart smeared all over my screen. Thanks for your honesty, for sharing Nella with the world. As I paged through pictures of Nella, I saw so many similarities with my own daughter…her obsession with the streams of light coming in from the window…her low tone stance and precious precious, almost melodic face that turns my eyes instantly toward heaven. Thanks for sharing your heart so mothers like us have something to look forward to reading (when we get the small chance).
Lisa and Laura says
This post made me cry. It’s just so beautifully written and so accurately reflects what it feels like to have a child. Thank you for putting this out there. I have no doubt that it has helped many, many people in their hour of need.
emily says
I began reading this story in tears and have ended with a huge smile. How blessed you are, how strong you are! You have a gorgeous, beautiful family!! May God bless you abundantly always. Thank you for sharing your amazing, inspirational story.
Sarah Daugherty Photo says
What a blessed little girl to have a beautiful soul for a mama! Congrats on your lovely family!
Jennifer says
Wow, I just read your story and I must say you have an incredible testimony! God is so good and your family is so beautiful. Not long ago I lost my baby due to the affects of Trisomy 18, which led to still birth. It was incredibly hard, still is, but it’s amazing how the Lord turns circumstances that we may not expect or understand into some of our biggest blessings. Even though I have spent most of my life serving the Lord, and have read the story of David in the Bible numerous times. For the first time in my life I understood how David felt when he realized he was losing his son, and I think I probably prayed like David prayed! After losing my baby I was done with the idea of having more children but in my heart I wanted another baby badly. The Lord certainly restored my loss, I gave birth two years and one day later to a baby boy! I am stronger and a little wiser than I was before. I lean on God for understanding more than I lean on my own understanding now, and my life is fuller than I ever imagined it would be! Just when we think we have it all figured out, God shows us so much more! God bless you and your family, thank you for sharing your incredible testimony. Reading it tonight has blessed me so much!
MelancholyandTea says
I just had to leave a comment to your blog! It is soo beautiful!! You are so lucky in life! Not just because of your beautiful house, your loving husband og beautiful kids, but because you can recognize how lucky you really are!! you and your family are down to earth <3 When I read your blog, I really do not feel bad for you having a child with downs, I think you are lucky 🙂 They have this way of seeing things that is just golden, maybe we are the “challenged” ones? Being reminded about everyday is a blessing 🙂 And thankfully, she is more healthy then most kids with downs, and that is really and amazing thing 🙂
Thank you for your honesty and your blog 😉
Jeanette
Balicinta says
I read this last night with tears flowing, dripping on the floor. I re-read this again today and again, tears dripping onto the floor. What a beautiful, honest and lovely story. The whole time I read through this story, I just kept thinking what a lucky little girl Nella is to have a mummy like you, to be in a family like your’s. Thank you so much for sharing it with us ♥
Sian Mummy-Tips says
Wow, What an amazing story and so beautifully written. You words make me want to scoop up my own girls and hold them tight forever.
xx
Laura says
This is just beautiful. Two gorgeous girls1 congratulations. xx
Kimberly says
Wow. Thanks for sharing your and Nella’s precious story. I am totally new to your blog, which was recommended to me by a sweet friend, Allison Jaquier. I am 24 weeks pregnant with our third little girl. My sister went through a similar birth “surprise” 7 years ago. Her Sadie was born with Epidermolysis Bullosa, a rare genetic skin disease we had never heard of. Sadie passed away at 9 months of age. Our family has never been the same, but I am grateful for the awareness, compassion, and love for others Sadie taught me with her short life. I was able to read your blog and finish it unafraid of the unknowns of this and every pregnancy. Who doesn’t want to know your joy and love? There is no telling how your sweet story has changed the outlooks and therefore the lives of countless friends and stangers. Thanks again. Lots of love to Nella and your whole family.
Kimberly Hong
Hunter's Mummy says
As I sat here reading your birth story I thought I wonder if this is how my Mum felt after she gave birth to my brother. I have never asked her she felt those precious moments after he was born. He is now 25 years old & I think it’s time I asked her.
Your story is beautiful, heart renching, emotional & overwhelming. I had tears welling in my eyes remembering the excitement I felt the moment I realised I was in labour with my little man 8 months ago.
I can not wait to read more of your blog & see how your beautiful Nella grows into a wonderful little girl.
Well done.
Bec.
Now to join your blog.
Abbey says
I stumbled onto this and completely fell in love with it. I bawled through the whole thing:) tears of joy. your children are gourgeous!
donna says
I don’t comment. I don’t tear up. Welcome to my first of both. You rock, thank you.
Samantha says
I do not know you and I’m not a mother, but I wanted to let you know how amazing your story is. I cried almost the entire time, both in sadness and joy. I wish you all the best that this world can bring you and your beautiful family. 🙂
neimanmarxist says
what a beautiful story. it so touched me.
mrszimm says
This post is one of the most honestly, beautiful things I have ever read. My dear friend’s son was unexpectedly born with Down Syndrome this past July. She has never fully shared with me her emotions (I’m sure it is difficult to share with someone who hasn’t experienced it)that she experienced upon his birth. Even though you are two different people, reading this post made me feel closer to her. ANd, feel more competent in how to make sure she feels my love for her and her amazing little boy. THank you.
kat says
My daughter shared your blog with me. I lost my son, Joseph, at 25 weeks. I cried all over again. What a beautiful blessing you have. Thank you for sharing your heart with me.
Kat
Tobler Bunch says
No better way to capture the essence of love than through words and pictures! Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of what unconditional love looks like!
chambanachik says
I love your story. I love the hope, the tenderness, the rawness. And I love your honesty through it all.
Kayla says
Your story is amazing, I cried and smiled then cried some more. My sister has severe Autism, I understand the hurt it sometimes brings. The way people look at her when we are out. People are mean.
Your bunny is the most precious thing ever, this story has touched my heart tremendously. You have done such an amazing job. You are an amazing person, and you are truly blessed. I have been around many people affected by down syndrome, they are the nicest and sweetest people in the world. You are so amazing to accept it fully, and embrace it.
Your family is beautiful.
Brandon says
I am so wonderfully pleased to read such honest, wise words from a parent blessed with a child with a disability. I have worked with adults with disabilities for many years and parents like you are the ones that give their children all the opportunities in the world. Children with parents like you have beautiful lives, know joy, and prove to the world that they don’t have to prove anything! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being honest, courageous, and so wonderfully human. You are the parent all such special children need and deserve!
Me says
What a beautiful, touching, painfully honest story. You shared in such a way that we can feel your joy and pain all bound together, and at once. Thank you so much for sharing. Your daughters are both perfect and beautiful.
Love,
Brittany
Beth says
I just found this link from another blog. This is literally the most touching, beautiful story I have ever read. Congrats on your two amazing little girls. I look forward to following your journey.
billicummings says
You’ve lit up my world with your cosmic journey. Thankyou so much, xo
somedayisnotadayoftheweek says
i just cried while reading this – what an incredible experience. your daughter is gorgeous. and perfect. and you are incredible. what an amazing family!
lj says
What an amazing story! Beautiful parents for beautiful children.
Best of luck to you.
Liliana
Sonia says
Kellie I have just sat here reading your story literally sobbing. You summed up exactly how I was feeling when told that our baby premature son had Down syndrome. So many emotions, so hard to admit to yourself, let alone others. Heartbreakingly it has been nearly 5 years since he passed away, but I wish for every day that he was here, Down syndrome or not.
Congratulations on your gorgeous family, your girls are both so beautiful. I will be looking forward to following your blog.
Warmest wishes, Sonia xx
gogetem says
Thank you very much from the deepest part of my heart and my soul that didn’t know it existed until it just read this story about your beautiful second daughter. That part of my heart and soul cried for the emotions you went through and for my own situation – I cannot have children – I was born with a rare condition. I thought I had grieved for my pain, but I released something that was deep deep inside me, and got to share your birth story. You have such an exquisite way with words, thank you thank you thank you for sharing this. I will never know what it means to be pregant and give birth, but sharing your story of learning to love your new daughter really opened me up to loving myself even more. Thank you. You are loved. xxx
K :) says
Well, it is April of 2011 and I have just read your beautiful story. As the tears stream down my face, I am overwhelmed with the love and beauty that your words have expressed. Truly one of the most inspiring,honest, and charming tales of birth and love. Well done.
Bobbi says
i cannot thank you enough for sharing your story. it was one of the most meaningful and significant things i have ever read. thank you thank you thank you.
and ALL of the very best to you and your girls. XO
Jenn A says
OH MY!! I’ve been reading your blog for quite some time, but I’ve NEVER read Nella’s birth story. Tonight I did. My husband and I are expecting our fourth child, and I have cried and cried and cried as I have read your story because I cannot imagine what you’ve been through. Your pictures told so much of your story. Thank you for sharing! You have two very beautiful girls!! God Bless You!
Deanna Freeman says
What an amazing family. I cried so much that my children were concerned about me. Your family is so beautiful and complete. You have a true talent in how you write about and share your experience and adventures. Thank you for letting everyone into your life so they can appreciate just how amazing and precious it is. Keep blogging and we will keep sharing your adventures with the world so everyone can stop, step back and appreciate the most important things in life are about family, love and falling in love with our children. Hugs to you all. Deanna and her family xx
newmama2010 says
I’m sitting here wiping away tears! Your family is beautiful and I wish you nothing but joy and love! SN: You wrote this on the day that I gave birth to my little girl!
Kristen says
Honestly, that was the best story I have ever read. Ever.
KeishaCory says
I just found your blog and your story of Nella is so beautiful. I felt so much reading this and admire your honesty. I know this is going to be a lovely journey for you.
J says
It was suggested I read your page by an understanding lady on one of those baby forums.
I received some pretty frightening results after my NT scan on Tuesday and I’ve been crying ever since. Partly because its just not fair, partly because I’m in 2 minds about which way to proceed with the pregnancy. I’m 37 and this is my first (and last) pregnancy.
I should say I WAS in two minds…. until I read your page. It was so…. umm strengthening (?) to finally hear someone say it’s not easy, it’s sad, it’s terrifying and it’s just plain hard but at the end of the day it’s still love. So now I know that whatever the final outcome might be, when our baby finally arrives it will be loved no matter what.
THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART x x x
Jessica and Morgan says
i’m about to graduate nursing school. i just read your story and just cried and cried (even woke my roommate up!)… i’m going to remember these words, your heartache… anyone i come in contact with throughout my nursing career i hope to love well in the midst of their pain and tears. i hope to never become calloused to my job or to emotion. thank you for having the courage to write this.
-psalm 34:18
Hannah says
This brought tears to my eyes, it is so beautifully written! And both your daughters are adorable:)
Emma BS says
I stumbled across your blog and was absorbed into your story; you tell it in such a raw beautiful way it makes me want to reach out and hug you all the way from my home here in Australia.
Thank you for sharing such an important time in your life with me. Your daughters are gorgeous and lucky to have such a caring, sensitive mother. I wish you all the best for the future, may it be filled with health and happiness.
regards
Emma (mother of two)
gogetem says
In response to “J”, your message reminds me of my response to this amazing blog post. I cannot begin to imagine just what u are going through. I wish you love and light on your journey. It is amazing how Kelle Hampton has shared so much beauty in her words. I am unable to get pregnant, and I have been grappling with this for sometime. But I know I will adopt or foster or perhaps go through surrogacy. Kelle’s blog lifts my spirits every time I read it.
Ember's Mommy says
I read your and Nella’s story in a magazine I believe a while ago, but just came across your blog tonight (ok, this morning lol).
Nella is so beautiful, and I loved reading your story.
La La says
Your daughters are breathtakingly beautiful! Congratluations.
Tia says
i have sat here & cried my eyes out for you & your heart. sad tears & happy tears. you’re amazing & brave.
Laura says
I was in Naples for the first time ever this past weekend and I passes the hospital and thought of you and Nella, the beauty which happened there. Thank you for sharing your story, I love reading about you and your girls.
Thank you for sharing Kelle, you are a beauitful person inside and out 🙂
Niecey says
I cried.
“I will never forget my daughter in my arms, opening her eyes over and over…she locked eyes with mine and stared…bore holes into my soul.
Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
That’s the line that got me.
Thanks for this honest, raw log of such a personal moment in your life. This has touched many people. Your little Nella is making an impact on the world already! How many have softened so many hearts so young?
Ella's Mommy says
WOW! Someone who know exactly how I feel:) I have a daughter with DS that is 17 months old and you put everything into words that I feel. Thank you so much I am not sure if I sried harder when I had her or when I read this blog. Thank you so much.
amanda says
You are an amazing mother. This story made me cry, and it is beautiful. You are beautiful and so are your children <3
ohnoitsjes says
Your family is beautiful, especially your little bunny. You are so unbelievably strong.
Vivian says
Wow, I actually cried reading this. Your story is so heartfelt and the way you told it was truly touching and emotional, it’s like I was there! You are so amazing! Truly an inspiration.
She is beautiful btw =)
crystalhunter_78 says
Kelle,
I just wanted to tell you that I cryed for 20 minutes after reading Nelle’s birth story, as I sit here and hold my, now 8 month old baby boy with D.S. The feeling I had when his Daddy and I first learned of the characteristics that brought on the suspicions…are so similar to those you had. It is so inspiring for people to see that there is that time of heartache and depression…and sadness and everything else a parent goes thru when they find out of there miracle that is Down Syndrome. You are very inspiring and the pictures are beyond beautiful! I look for to reading more of your blogs. From one DS parent to another…God Bless!!
Vanessa says
Kelle, first of all, congratulations for the beautiful family! I’m from Brazil and came across your amazing blog through a friend that just had a baby. I chose to take a look at it because of the beautiful title. And it was such a beautiful surprise when the first pic I saw was Nella’s! She’s so beutiful and joyfull! One of my aunts has DS and she’s almost 50 years old. She’s the most emotinally intelligent person I know. She sees and understands things no one else can. It’s amazing! And she expresses herself in the most funny way. We (the nephews) even started a dictionary of her expressions. You and your family are so blessed! Thanks for sharing such a strong beautiful moment.
Life in Rehab says
Well, as you’ve undoubtedly seen now, you aren’t alone, and we all react differently when we find out we have a challenge ahead. I think I cried all the way through this post. Your daughters are amazingly beautiful, as are you, and you’re going to share some very cool milestones in the coming years as they both amaze you.
I have three children; my two oldest, my sons, were both diagnosed with autism. I was told the younger boy, my Thom, would never speak or be potty trained. Diapers for the rest of my life. The older one was high functioning and I could expect more from him.
Whatever you do, never listen to this kind of trash. I sure didn’t.
The boys are 18 and 19 now. Sam graduated high school with a 4.0 last year and will be starting college this Fall on a scholarship. Thom graduates in June with a 3.5 and will be attending college with his brother. He completed the driver’s ed course recently and will get his learner’s permit over the summer. He can talk, has his own website, uses power tools, and is hysterically funny. Oh, and he was potty trained by 4. He cleans the bathroom now as one of his chores.
Sam’s friends have no clue he has autism at all.
Pop over to our blog sometime if you want to see what’s in store. Special needs children teach you volumes, mostly about how capable they are.
Wobbe007 says
Hi Kelle, A friend sent me your blog for a number of reasons. I am almost finished a book, more about infertility and IVF but finishing with the birth of my son Oscar – who has Down Syndrome. I am a couple of weeks off finishing my book and then I want to try and get it published. My friend thought your blob might inspire me. I have just logged on and have read merely sentences but scanned all your photos and my heart is already touched and I am sitting here blubbering remembering everything I felt when Oscar was born just looking at your photos. I can’t wait until I have the time (in the next week) to read and explore your website. Your photos are beautiful and I can see your babies are beautiful. What a lucky family to be born into by the looks of things. Kind regards, Lucy Jessup – Manly, Australia
Renuka Arun says
Kelle,
After 1.5 years of your precious Blog post,I am landing here.
I am an Indian and I live in Cochin,India.
I have ever read something like this in my life.
I have a daughter who is 1.5 years now.
After reading your blog, I want to be a better mother.
You and your family remember in our prayers.
Liz says
I came across this blog (I think from a photography link) but this post felt so real to me. My 2nd daughter was born with Turner Syndrome. We had no idea that anything was wrong with her during my entire prenatal visits. Sadly, with chromosomal anomalies, it means that there are usually other problems and she was diagnosed with a very severe and life threatening heart problem (HLHS). She passed away at 7 days old, but the moment they told me something was wrong with her I felt exactly as you did. I felt empty and kept wanting someone to tell me it wasn’t true. The part where you wrote “I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me” seriously hit home. Your child is so very beautiful and I absolutely love this post. Thanks for sharing.
Marie says
It was so moving, so hard to read and it had me sobbing through the entire blog. It has special significance to me, as my younger sister has downsyndrome. My mother went through those same emotions, she too knew that her baby had Downsyndrome the moment she saw her, she went through those same emotions. I sent the link to her last night and she shared with me that she too imagined a perfectly normal baby before my sis was born and went through grief at the same time that she fell in love with and bonded with my sister. They are, to this day incredibly close and always have been. And my sister, now 30 years old, is living a fulfilling and happy life. She’s been married for 3 years now to a man who also has Downsyndrome, she holds down a part time job and they live in a place of their own. Of course, her life will always be different than ours – she will always need a lot of support from my parents, and one day from me. But with that support she thrives and she is a joy in all of our lives.
-Marie
Sharon-The OKI StampQueen says
I just discovered your blog–and read Nella’s birth story! I am going to short out the keyboard with all the tears. I have a great friend who has a Down’s daughter, too. And yeah, she’s beautiful and perfect! I shared part of your story and linked to my blog-hope you don’t mind…do you have a book? Also became a follower! Blessings, Sharon
Heather says
Thank you so much for writing this and sharing your story. It has touched me deeply. My love goes out to your perfect family.
kinos says
Excelente noticia!! Thx x la informacion facilitada, y seguir asi ya que es una pagina estupenda y gracias a ella estamos al dia.
pd:Salu2 desde Ofertas ADSL Vodafone.
Rafa says
Desde España, Gracias por su texto, gracias por sus sentimientos. Gracias.
(From Spain,. Thank you for you Text. Thanks for you feeling, Thanks thaks. And good luck for her two beauties
Asisette says
Kind Regards, giving your baby huge doses of love will be returned all your life multiplied by thousands! Because DS people are the purest heart humans.
All the bests
Francisco
J says
What a moving moving story! From Spain, I wish you, your husband and specially your two little girls the best!
Supreme says
This is the most beautiful story I’ve ever read. I cried while I read it. Life is too good to live it in fear and love is the only thing that beats fear. Love is the key to happiness. Congratulations on your family for being able to be one, filled with love and honestity.
MargaretR says
What a beautiful story! I shall try and follow your wonderful life together as often as I can.
Sweet Whimsy says
Your words are wonderful. Nella’s story is so beautiful, you tell it so well. She certainly has one sweet, cute little face! I’m so glad to have found your blog, you are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts for all of us to read. Blessings to your lovely family, I look forward to following you here to read more!!
Leandra
http://thewhimsicalsweet.com
growingupandtryingtogetitright says
My parents have been blesses by volunteering at a school for adults with down syndrome. They are the lights in my parents eyes. There hearts know no bounds and the endless loves and hugs are so sweet to hear.
The founder of the school wanted a place for all DS kids to continue to grow, become independent and show the world just what they can do. The dream is that in the coming years a dorm will be built and allow the students to have a place to call home. They all have jobs and are quite proud of their paychecks!
While I haven’t given my parents grandchildren yet, they have about 30 at the school that constantly becken them over for hugs and chats.
Your Nella is beautiful and she will have a story to share as she gets older. They are quite special aren’t they? The immense love they have for each other, their families and teachers knows no bounds.
Bron says
I cried.
You moved me with your emotions — that space between expectation and reality — you nailed it.
This is SUCH a beautiful story of new motherhood.
This is a story every parent-to-be should read.
Congratulations on… everything 🙂
Melanie says
I’m in tears. Oh my–this is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read in my life. What an amazing journey and story. Nella and Lainey are so blessed to have you as their mother! And what beautiful girls they are. Thank you for this.
<3
Annette says
Thank you so much for this beautiful, wonderful life that you’ve let me a part of for just a moment. My littlest niece has just been given to us to love and cherish and to teach us about this new world we’ve never been to. Our family, like yours, knows that love is all there is that matters–nothing else. I’m so astounded sometimes that every one doesn’t know. It’s what Jesus spent His whole life here on this earth trying to teach us. Enjoy!
Abby and Promila says
Oh, what a beautiful story. What a beautiful family. I have sat here, sobbing as I read this, after my best friend urged me to read it. Sending love from Georgia, Abby
Pearly Queen says
Your story is beautifully writeen and deeply moving. I just got to the end and my 3 year old girl climbed on to my lap and looked at the pictures of Nella. “Who is that?” she asked. “I love her.” You have a special family and they are lucky to have you as their mother. I wish you all great happiness in your lives together.
Melissa says
I just found your blog & i love it! Saw this link under popular posts &, because i am obsessed with birth stories, had to read! 🙂 Both of your daughters are BEAUTIFUL! I love this post – you’re so honest & real & i love that. I love that you shared how Nella’s birth impacted you.
I love that last pic of the girls together. 🙂 So sweet. I am kind of jealous of Lainey’s eyelashes in that pic. 🙂
Congrats on such a beautiful family! They are so cute & so lucky to have you as their mom!
And thanks for reminding me that it’s not about wood floors HAHAHA! We have some terribly ugly green carpet, so i could always use that reminder. 🙂
While My Sailors Aweigh says
I found your blog today and have laughed and cried as I read thru your posts. I have never seen a more beautiful family and especially a more beautiful little baby girl. As a mother myself, I couldn’t help but to cry as I tried to even imagine the emotions you must have felt that day. I have never met you, and may not ever meet you, but you have changed a piece of me forever and have inspired me more deeply than I even have words. Thank you so much for sharing your story…
Michele says
Wow……cried and smiled all at the same time. What a beautiful story to show how you felt and how you now feel. You touched my heart today.
dinahbrookspix says
Kelle — I read the wonderful note you wrote to my dear friend Emily D. on her blog, and came to yours to read your story. Tears are pouring down my face, but you have blessed me so — as I’m sure you have so many others. Thank you for the gift of a vulnerable heart. I will be following you faithfully from this point on. Blessings, dear unmet friend.
Brandi says
Absolutely the most beautifle thing I’ve ever read. Truly. You just took me back to the day when I was five months pregnant with my baby girl and I got the phone call that forever changed our lives. Changed me as a person and mother. Made me a better person. thank you for your amazing writing and honesty! Your girls are adorabl!
Melinda says
Kelle, I don’t know if you will even see this comment because this post is was written a while back. My sister is a photographer and stumbled upon your blog and sent it to me. As I scrolled through your blog in amazement…. I found your story here of Nella. I read this almost as if I was reading my same story of my little Addy Kate… she too was born with Down Syndrome… unknown to us or anyone else!! Your story is beautiful & it has inspired me to write out my life changing day…. when Addy Kate was born. A day that also changed my life forever. I had so many overwhelming feelings too…. I consider my self blessed and completely chosen “special” by God to be Addy’s mom. She is a gift that I can’t imagine not having. I thank God for giving her to me everyday! She brings a smile to my face every second I look at her. Thank you again for sharing such a beautiful & moving story.
jguybrwn says
my friend who is also the speech therapist to two of my three children told me i had to read your blog. my oldest son who is 4 has downs and my yougest my daughter has williams. reading this sotry all i could was cry. it made me go back to 4 years ago and remember having those same feelings hearing those same things come from the pediatrician. it really is life changing. you are blessed with a beautiful family and your blogs are a true joy to read!
Jen says
Your incredibly beautiful birth story broke my heart but it was mended, as yours was, by the end. Thank you for having the courage to share your inner most feelings and struggles. Mothers need to know it’s okay to process all kinds of emotions – not just joy. You needed that dark period to allow light in. Now you have two perfect daughters and Nella’s story will touch the lives of so many. Thank you so much for sharing.
Samantha says
She is SO beautiful! She is so lucky!
chris51022 says
I came across this blog and was drawn in by the words on your page. Your post brought me to tears thinking about my little boy who is now 4 months old. After a miscarriage I become pregnant with him and my husband and I were so ecstatic. I was in love with him from the moment those little blue lines showed up. We talked about what we would name him and all the things we would teach him with our 5 year old and 3 year old. I remember those raw feelings of pain when at a routine ultrasound coupled with a blood test we found out that the chances of us having a healthy child without downs syndrome was nearly impossible. I was alone and had to drive the hour back to my husband and two babies. I bawled hysterically and hated myself thinking that there was something wrong with me. As terrible as it sounds I thought maybe it would have been better if I had miscarried this baby also. I came home to not only my immediate family but my aunts uncles cousins my grandmothers anyone who my husband could get there on short notice. I was so upset with him at the time. I wanted to be alone wallowing in my pain. I wanted to curl up under the blankets and never come out. But looking back he did exactly what I needed. My brother took my kids put to play in the yard so and I cried with my family. They told me how much this wast my fault, how much they would love my baby no matter what and no matter what the outcome we would love him because he was ours. They were right. While my beautiful baby boy was born perfectly healthy I knew after the first week of finding out what could be that I wanted to be his mom and I loved him just as much as my other two. You are amazing and it will be hard but she will teach you so much and you are lucky to have her. I just wanted to put this out there because even though my ending was different I remember those feelings, the gut wrenching pain. The guilt about crying over your child because they weren’t what you hoped they would be. Then picking up the pieces and realizing that it’s going to be ok no matter what life throws your way.
Fredda says
This has to be THE most beautiful birth story I’ve ever read. I had to take a break in the middle of reading it here at work because I was crying…not because your beautiful girl was born with Down Syndrome, but because of the love and blessing she has become in your life. Your words touched my heart. God bless you and your family.
Becky Nakashima Brooke says
You are a beautiful person and you have a heart of gold. Thank you for being so honest. Nella is gorgeous and you were meant for eachother.
Becky Nakashima Brooke says
You are a beautiful person and you have a heart of gold. Thank you for being so honest. Nella is gorgeous and you were meant for eachother.
Annabelle says
Kelle,
I have followed your blog for many months now, but I have never brought myself to read your whole story. So today was the day and while reading it, I felt like I was there, that I shared in the moment that you were experiencing right then and there. I love your way with words and how you express yourself. I enjoy reading about you and your family through your blog. You’re a great mom, wife, and friend to all you’ve encountered. Keep doing what you do because we love it! Thank you Kelle for helping realize to “Enjoy the Small Things”!
Annabelle says
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thethinkingmom says
Just found your blog through a friend. What a beautiful story. Your family & photos are utterly amazingl. Thank you for sharing!
Nate's Mom @ Nate is Great says
Holey beautiful entry! I stumbled upon your blog because other people mentioned they follow you. Beautiful words and all true. My sweet boy is wonderfully perfect and unique, too – he was diagnosed with autism at 18 months. He’s two years old now and our world is filled with therapies and more appointments than most adults have in any given business week. Every milestone Nate achieves was hard earned and we celebrate them. You are right: wood floors is not where it’s at. Celebrating life and our accomplishments and love within it is what it’s all about. Look forward to reading more of your entries! – Nate’s Mom @ Nate is Great
Whitney Dupuis Photography says
I know this is an old post, but I just came across it tonight. I cried throughout the entire story. It is such a beautiful story and she is such a beautiful little girl. How blessed you are to have two such perfect daughters.
A Mom's Choice says
God send loves to us in all sorts of packages. A baby is a precious gift and shock is understanding when things aren’t as we think they will be. Congrats on your beautiful baby girl!
NOBODY says
So beautifully written. My sister gave birth to a perfect little DS boy two years ago. She also knew immediately, even to the objections of the nurses. I have never been closer to heaven when I hold that boy. He is perfection and sweetness in every way possible. He has changed our lives. My children (4,6, & 8) adore him, and they are better for knowing and loving him.
Our family’s response was similar to your sister’s we felt lucky, chosen, so blessed. I loved reading about your different journey and how you ultimately come to the same conclusion. Nella is a gift, and she is blessed to have you.
Chifuru says
Dear Kelle,
I have now arrived here as I started reading your blog right from the very beginning. I read your blog post three times now and I could not stop crying. Especially when you wrote about Lainey meeting Nella for the first time, it absolutely hit me.
I think this is the most wonderful blog post I have ever read and I am so curious to know how everything went on in your lives.
I do love your blog so much. Wish I had these wonderful writing skills that you have, wearving words togehter perfectly.
I think you are a wonderful person!
Beate
Carter's Momma says
Your story of your little angel is just so very touching to me. I read every word and felt connected to each and every thing you said. My little boy is 2 years old now, but suffers from Mitochondrial Disease. It’s very hard for me to look back on hospital pictures and newborn pictures because my world was oh’ so perfect and I had not one worry in the world…and when my son was 6-12 months old, we knew something was wrong. That feeling and fear is so heart wrenching and raw. My son still has not met even one milestone and has went through so much. But through it all, we love him more than life itself. He is our angel! I just wanted to tell you how inspirational and touching your blog is to me!
Malon says
Dear Kelle,
What an amazingly, honest story! I take my hat off to you for being able to live trough your emotions so deeply and what great friends you have for being there for you. Nella chose the best mummy to grow up with (and Lainey too of course).
I am gratefull that I found your blog, as I needed that example of embracing feelings, especially the raw and overwhelming ones.
Thank you!
Madelon
yogajenni says
Wow I have finally recovered from the tears after reading your most amazing birth story. Your vulnerability is both encouraging and amazing. Your daughters both beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this very intimate moment in the life of your family. I hung on every word your so eloquently wrote and am left broken open and wanting more. I do hope you publish that book one day, I am certain you will have many followers.
Enjoy your journey as a mother to two beautiful babies and congratulations to your family.
Much love,
Jennifer Young
Ottawa, Canada
Victoria says
Hi, your story is beautiful and I know exactly how you felt because I felt it at around 6 months and then it was confirmed when my son was 8 months.. I have a gorgeous ( and not because he is mine) son who turned 4 a few weeks back. We were told he would never walk, talk, and would be a vegetable.. Well our son has the most amazing soul, he understands, walks in a walker he may not talk or sit ( yet) but his eyes show us that he is driven and will get there. Even if he doesn’t we will carry him if we have to. As iwrite this he is laying right next to me, and he is just so pure and perfect, I cannot imagine my life any different. He has taught more then everyone combined.. He has taught me that no matter how bad you think you have it, you still have it better then not having it at all… I know that you are strong thanks to your daughter and life will adjust…may god bless you.
Laura H says
I have been reading your blog all day… I love your photos! I love photography and have been into it more since my boy arrived 11 months ago…
What I wanted to tell you is, your blog has made me cry, they have been happy tears! I love how you write, I love how your little girls are! You are blessed to have such a wonderful family! I agree that the most important thing in life is the love that you give and not the wood floors!
wildchild says
i know i’m super behind, but i just found you through one of my favorite blogs. this story is so beautiful. i couldn’t even imagine all of the emotions that you’ve been through since the moment you saw her even until now. but it seems like you’re doing alright. you’re loving her and that’s all she needs. how strong of you and of your husband. what a brave baby she’s gonna grow up to be.
Jes says
I have followed your blog for a little while now, anxiously awaiting updates. You are the only blog in my reader I absolutely “must read” every morning, because it touches my heart a way no other blog does. Your blog describes completely the life I want for my future family. Nella’s birth story is beautiful. I thank you so very much for sharing all of it.
HDurrant says
Hi Kelle.
I have recently found your blog and I think you are a special lady. I have enjoyed your story. You have a sweet family. Thank you for sharing. Please let me know if you every need anything.
Helen
HDurrant says
Hi Kelle.
I have recently found your blog and I think you are a special lady. I have enjoyed your story. You have a sweet family. Thank you for sharing. Please let me know if you every need anything.
Helen
Suzie Bell Photography says
I saw your pin on Pinterest about Dollar Tree and having your children pick gifts themselves. Once I saw the bookstore pics, you had me. I just finished reading Nella’s birth story and cried the entire time I read it. Not tears of sadness but because I know the joy you have and will experience with this special little girl. I had a cousin “Ruthie” who was Downs and she was amazing. her name was April Ruth, but everyone called her Ruthie. Ruthie was born with Downs and a hole in her heart but she lived an amazing life. They have such great spirit and love and they share it unconditionally. I love that you are a photographer as well. I am as well but you have a great way with words and evoking emotion. If you haven’t, I strongly encourage you to write and publish your life with Nella and your family. I know others would benefit from your experiences. Much love and strength to you. God has graced you. ~Suzie
Lindsey says
Kelle,
I can not begin to tell you how blessed I have been by Nella’s birth story. It is absolutely one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. Your authenticity is so refreshing. She is one lucky little girl to have you as a mom. God bless your beautiful family!
~Lindsey
Allison H says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It has really touched home for me. In the last two weeks I have gone from planning a low risk home water birth, to going into preterm labor at 28 weeks, to finding out our first son (first pregnancy at 28) has doudenal atresia (defect in his intestines, basically the plumbing is blocked), causing extreme excesses of amniotic fluid, spending almost one week in and out of the hospital and finding out one problem after another. Yesterday we found out the results of our amniocentesis, our only and first son, has down syndrome. Not only will he face major surgery in the first 24-48 hours after birth to correct his intestines, at least a month in the NICU, but also very likely he will be born prematurely, and he will face a lifetime of challenges that come with down syndrome.
While dealing with all this, I have been secretly trying to deal with the emotional aspect of feeling as though I am somehow responsible or wondering whether I would love this little guy of ours. My husband has already decided that it does not change a thing about how he feels about his “little buddy” but I wish it was easier for me. With all we have been through, the surgery, and not being able to take him home for at least a month, whether I would reject him as my son.
When I read your story. I wept with every muscle of my body. I know I have the potential to love my baby. I am going to take the ultrasounds I have hidden far away from view, post them up where I can see them and write “Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
Thank you
maddysmomma says
I just have to say as a RN and as a mom that you melted my heart. We all have ideas of what we expect our children will look like or will do/be…but really they are just ideas…I have dealt recently with a family with a child with DS and she is beautiful her innocence amazing! I myself had a preemie with her own set of issues and I wasn’t able to breastfeed like I dreamed and she puked ALL the time and i remember asking why me…we had appts 3 times a week and wt checks and luckily at 25 mos she is doing great still on meds but great…I was told by our ped. and our friend that GOD gives you what you can handle and what the baby needed for them to thrive…GOD chose her for you and he knows you will love her….the love that a DS child gives is like no other…they are always blind to the cruelities of the world and always so loving and forgiving may you see that side that I have known in the 13 yrs I have worked with them…she is beautiful and most importantly healthy!
CONGRATS
Thistle and Thyme Farm says
I just came upon your page by way of another blogger page. I am sitting at work crying. I am so encouraged by your words of strength, by your words of wisdom. I know you spoke from your heart and said what you needed, and it was truthful, honest and deeply moving. I must thank you today for putting it all in perspective. When we think life hands us nothing but sour cherries, we need to cast our good ingredients in and let it become something of greatness, embrace and love what we are given. I am truly a better person for reading this, you have given my negative thoughts a place to go, AWAY….praise your family.
Kego says
Thank you so much for putting this out there Kelle. I can totally relate I just had a wonderful baby boy in March who at birth was diagnosed with DS. I was distraught. I have now come to see him as the blessing he really is to me and my family. But it took a while to get past the why me I wish I found your blog sooner made me cry from start to finish but it was very well written. Thank you again for sharing your experience you are very lucky to to have the famliy and friend support that you do. Its a pretty tough road with out the support
Mandy Crandell says
This is the most beautiful and honest story I have ever read. <3
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Noah's Nest says
I just came across your blog recently… I’ve gone through over hundreds of blogs and I’ve fallen in love with so many but your story with Nella is by far the most beautiful of them all. It was REAL and TRUE. YOUR FAMILY IS BEAUTIFUL. Perfectly beautiful. Your words inspire you must know that. 🙂 Thank you for sharing this.
Melissa M. says
What a beautiful, honest, emotional, amazing story. I stayed up until 5 a.m. finishing this post. Thank you for sharing your heart with us.
Jazmyn Alexandria says
This is honestly the most amazing birth story I’ve ever read. Like I’m I’m seriously sitting here crying and I’m sure if my fiance was here he’d probably be looking at me like I was crazy. This was beautiful!
ashlee mabe says
I have tears welling as I read this… I could feel your emotion and pain. Thank you so much for sharing. I truly appreciate it and want you to know that it has opened my eyes to be more thankful for every day life and the blessings, little or big, that God pours out to us every day. He is soo good and yes, I believe and know you were chosen to be Nellas mommy. She is PERFECT and just beautiful. God bless you! You truly ROCK!
Jamie says
This is the most beautiful story I have ever read.
I love your poems and quotes and your inspiring strength.
Congratulations!
R says
I read your birth story every few months, just to remember…somehow it rejuvenates me.
Regina
Mom to Bobby, 3 1/2
Bun Bun Makeup Tips says
Beautifully written. Thank you for sharing your story with the world. Bless you.
theoregontail says
There is nothing I can say that hasn’t already been said. But I just wanted you to know that your beautiful story touched my heart. What a gift you give others to share the human experience, freely, as it should be.
Theresa says
If there is such a thing as a miracle…this is it! And the lovely photos of the beautiful family and friends you share have left me speechless. I think you lit up the world with love that day.
The most important sentence for me was… To be loved…is the greatest feeling one can ever feel.
And I believe that’s why we’re all here. To know love and to give love. You’ve experienced something so many never will and you, your family and friends are truly blessed and your love has blessed all of us. Nope it’s not in the floors.xoxo
Kristy says
Hi. My mom posted your Bunny’s story on her FB page and told me how you summed up her thoughts concerning me like no one else ever did … as an older sister to a girl with Down Syndrome.
Julie (my sister) is the youngest of 4 and won’t hesitate to tell you that mom and dad saved the ‘best for last’. With great wisdom (God inspired for sure) my parents told the rest of us – age 6 and under (I was 3) that Julie had the extra chromosome but that we were all effected by Down Syndrome. Our family would be different, Julie was going to be different, she was going to need us.
At age 3 I didn’t know all that that meant but I sure was happy to have another girl in the house … my very own sister! And I got to be her helper. She needed me – me! 🙂 We did her therapy together as a family. My parents even got her a baby sitter when she learned to walk and took the rest of us out to celebrate because it was our accomplishment too.
I felt so important to have a sister that was different. That was 35 years ago and I am still so stinkin’ proud of her you just might not believe it. But it’s true. Check out her website and see for yourself what a wonderful young lady she is.
thelovechromosome.com
It’s true we don’t shop for clothes like other sisters and I didn’t talk much about boys with her, but we do cook together and talk on the phone and laugh and I wouldn’t trade any bit of her for someone else. She is my sister and I love her exactly as she is.
Thank you Kelle for your honesty and for sharing your beautiful pictures with us. I will pray that you will continue to be fully aware of the blessings (huge and minute) that God showers us with.
Kristy Tennant Hickey
~ proud big sister & mother of 4 little cutie pies (age 5 and under)
Mamahen says
We just delivered our second son 12 days ago and my birth story is exactly the same as yours. I look forward to reading your blog and starting our lives with our new bundle of joy.
Tiffany says
Beautiful. Raw and filled with truth and emotions.
The first picture of Lainey with her sister, that smile of pride (yes, you described it exactly- she looks so proud) made me cry. Cry because of the beauty. What love. What beauty. If only the world could have Lainey’s love.
Nella is so beautiful. Just so very beautiful.
You are so very blessed!
Melissa says
There are 3250 comments before mine, so I don’t imagine you’ll ever see this. But I can’t *not* comment.
I clicked on your blog via a link from Chantelle – Fat Mum Slim. She spoke of her joy at meeting you at BlogHer.
I will send her a letter next, thanking her for this post. It is honestly, truly one of the most beautiful I’ve ever read.
You are blessed. And your daughters are blessed to have you as their Mama and Brett as their Daddy. You are all blessed, clearly to be surrounded by the people you are surrounded by. I’m in love with your entire (extended) family and friends. For getting you through that hardest of nights. For guiding you until you heart was ready to open all the way for Nella.
You’re a wonderful writer. I see that in just one post. But you’re clearly more. A wonderful mother, wife, daughter, friend. You clearly inspire such love in other people and it came back to you when you needed it most.
thank you for writing this. I don’t have a child with Downs Sydrome. But I have 2 autistic sons, and I remember the night I first somehow ‘knew’ exactly what i was dealing with with my eldest (he was 14 months old, and I was certain. It took me another 4 years to get a diagnosis). But I remember the feelings, my brain trying to take in the sheer magnitude of what this would mean, while my heart simply opened up to hide him inside. Before I was ready to voice the words to anyone else.
I’m not making sense. It’s 1am here (I’m in Australia) and I’m sick. But I just had to tell you how beautiful this was.
I don’t think I’ll ever look back now I’ve found you.
xxxx
Melissa says
I’m sorry. I wrote Downs instead of Down Syndrome. And I should know better, I have worked with several children that have Down Syndrome before.
No excuse but that I am tired and legally blind. Typos are becoming a regular thing.
Joycee says
Just as Nella changed your life forever, this post will be in my heart and mind from this point on. I cried, and cried and cried. I was that person holding her in the pictures. As mother’s we have a bond an understanding of all things woman. I didn’t start reading this first, but now I understand why you have the ability to cut to the core, to write in depth. Give Miss Nella a big kiss from this Nana…
Robyn says
I have read your blog for a long time, but finally just read this entry. I love it and love your love for this precious girl. Almost five years ago, my best friend had a baby with DS. I got there right after they took the baby from the room so they showed me her picture…I knew immediately. But could not tell her. I just began to pray for her. As a friend, I remember watching her go through all of these emotions when she was told the next day. Now, Rachel is the best thing that ever happened…Thank you for showing what a blessing these children are. I love every single picture you put of Lainey and Nella…thank you for your precious blog.
Bourg Family says
BEAUTIFUL!!!
Lora says
so amazing. beautiful words and more importantly, you can see your beautiful mama’s heart. God chose her to be your daughter and handpicked you to be her mama. reading this story gave me new resolve to be a better mother to my little ones. thank you so much.
Candy says
Amazing beautiful cried all the way through it story! So glad a friend posted a link on FB and I can now follow your blog…your girls are beautiful and your heart just a beautiful thanks for sharing your family story with us.
Siesta OC says
I’ve re-read this story! I love it! Your friends, your words, Nella’s crocheted bonnet, your dad’s prayer…Dr. Foley. GOD’S HAND is on this story – this life!
Jordan Marie says
I love your words. You made me cry. You’re an amazing person! Thank you for sharing your story this day and all the other days!
New reader,
<3xojo
phlor01 says
It took me exactly two weeks to read your blog from Day 1 until Nella’s Birth Story again.
My friend introduced me to your blog and sent me the link to this page. Little did I know, that day would change my routine. Every single day, I crawl back to your page and read (I started from the beginning and loved every moment of it), breathe and loved with your every single word. I fell in love with Lainey and told my friends I would bring my kids up the way you did Lainey when I have my own.
And comes the story of Nella….I cried bucket of tears when I read your post. Cried harder the second time I read it. She is a beauty. She is just perfectly at home with a family that is so full of love.
Thank you for your blog. You are such an inspiration.
Kelle, You Rock!
GingerEm says
Kelle- we’ll never meet but I’m in awe of your wonderful birth story. My friend had a little boy with DS 2.5 years ago and struggles daily- I will share your story with her. Your gift of words, your truth and your beautiful family are an inspiration. I have 5 children myself and I know how busy and exhausting life can be- sometimes it’s time to give thanks and be grateful for what we have- I look forward to following your blog and thank you, emmaxx
Vanessa Jergensen says
The most beautiful and moving blog post I have ever read to date. Thank you so very much for sharing your story. My heart is moved and filled to the brim.
As a fellow Mama, I’m so blessed to read your journey. You are so brave and beautiful.
Thank you, thank you.
theparkersperher says
Hi, I just read your story and cried from the beginning to the end. What an amazingly open, honest and loving woman you are. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Sending much love to your entire family.
Allison says
I shared this post with my mom after I saw it. It opened my eyes to things I’d never realized about my mom and what it was like for her when my sister was born. I sent her the link, and she started reading your blog, too. My mom died in May, and it makes me happy I got to share this with her and have conversations we maybe otherwise wouldn’t have.
The Stones says
I just read the birth story of little Nella. She is beautiful and you are an incredible, amazing, spectacular example of what an ideal mother could be! It made me cry and touched my heart in a huge way. We are currently awaiting genetic testing results as the Drs. believe my 2.5 month old son has a syndrome. We aren’t sure what it is but I can relate to all of your emotions. I pray that I find the strength that you have and can share as much love as you do with my children. You are an inspiration!
Deb says
I know this post is older and you probably don’t read the comments anymore but I just had to say how much this post touched me. My son was born 5 months ago today. I had a water birth and when the doc placed him on my chest I KNEW, I KNEW he had Down Syndrome. I told my husband who didn’t see it at all. I asked the nurses who informed me that they were some what concerned but I would have to wait for the pediatrician to check. 2 pediatricians later no one was willing to confirm the diagnosis for me. We can’t tell for certain he has no definitive markers, I was told. 10 days later the karotype would confirm what I already knew was true. 5 months later I am at peace and life goes on and it is good!
Madgeekgal says
I don’t know what to say, I don’t know how to tell you how much hope you have given me, or how much love you and Nella’s story have filled me with.
My precious baby may have Down’s and this whole story has just given me so much hope.
I connected so much with what you said about grieving for that perfect child you longed for, It hit me so hard that I burst into tears and wept for the whole story.
You have reminded me of something I forgot, that no matter what, this is our child and this is her life, we are blessed to be mothers and that is what is right and true.
Thank you so much for sharing this with the world.
I am blessed to have been given the chance to read it.
Madeleine
Madgeekgal says
God I almost forgot to say Congratulations! you have a beautiful family, I can not wait to read more about your amazing lives.
xx
Michelle says
What an amazing story! May God bless you and your family!
Jennifer says
story bittersweet story to share. Thank you for your candor. As a woman in her late thirties trying to get pregnant for the first time I am worried I may become mother to a baby with disabilities …due to my age. After reading your story I feel more comfortable with the emotions I am experiencing as well as more confident in my potential to deal with such beautiful challenge. Thank you!
Steph In NOLA says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. That last pic of newborn Nella smiling is JUST BEAUTIFUL! I became a mommy in May and can’t imagine life without my sweet angel. It was a long journey and I’m so relieved that she is finally here and healthy despite being born early and spending her first days of life in the NICU. Blessings!!!
Meredith Resnick, M.Ed & MA says
I just stumbled up on your blog and am captivated by you, your family and your writing. I will be a follower, for sure. What a wonderful blog!
Thank you for sharing yourself with so many.
Best,
Meredith
~ Meredith From A Mother Seeking
http://www.amotherseeking.com
A Mother Seeking…
fiwa says
I just popped over because of a link on The Frugal Girl’s website, and wow….
I’ve spent the morning reading your story, and it’s beautiful. Thank you for sharing. I feel like I’ve been changed in a small way this morning.
Lifeasmummymax says
I actually got here from a pin on pinterest of your adorable Nella ive never been to your blog before but ill definitely be back :). I really have no words that you haven’t already heard in the comments above mine but i just wanted to say. It is amazingly written and the pictures are just gorgeous!
Kate says
I, too, came from Pintrest. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of the begining of your blessed family. I plan to continue reading about your journey.
The Empress says
I have read this over and over so many times.
But never commented because there are over two thousand already here.
A book.
Yes.
A book.
Because there are a lot of us special needs moms out here, that need to know there is joy in this.
Even if at first we’re disappointed, and people will sometimes whisper and nudge: there is still joy when you end up in Holland.
I love this.
micehlle says
i just found your blog. and i must admi his storymoved me to tears. my son was born 11 yrs with a cleft lip and my emtions ran just like yours. when he was 3 he was hen diagnosed with Aspergers/ i re-lived everyone of those heartbreaking emotions again. guilt, denial, acceptance//thank you for putting into words what i couldnt.
Leslie says
coming over here from beth’s (be yourself, everyone else is taken) blog, to read your beautiful story for the first time. reading it through tears, of course… you tell the story of beauty from ashes, a story common to all of us, yet different, because we all experience it in unique ways. and because you tell it REAL, it joins us together in our journeys through pain, on the way to JOY. God bless you and your family, and your beautiful beautiful girls.
Kelly says
This is so beautifully written! My husband and I read this together tears rolling down our face. There is so much real emotion in your words and photos. Congratulations on your beautiful daughters!
Shannon says
Amazing! Thank you for this! Congrats on your AMAZING daughter, and your beautiful family.
Thalita Dol says
what a beautiful, real, deep and touching birth story!
Your Nella is SO BEAUTIFUL, she is indeed perfect! May God bless you all, always!
hugs from Brazil
Shannon says
I only just read your birth story for the first time a few days ago and it is so truly beautiful, honest, and inspiring. Your baby Nella and your family inspires me to be a better person, to endure, and to love. Thank you.
Whoz Your Doula says
Beautiful…. The love you express for Nella and her sweet smile at the end took my breath away! thanks
bearybearybaby says
your story is real, touching and amazing. i cried as i read it. Nella is beautiful and blessed with an amazing mother and family! i wish all the best things for the 4 of you and thank you so much for sharing!!
=)
Annie@A View On Design says
gee after 3284 comments, do you still have the energy to read another one! Phew, what a story, and I started out reading it thinking “no, I won’t cry – I won’t do that” and low and behold, it got a bit teary there in the middle, specially the bit where you just knew, before others. What a wonderful story to tell, and the best bit is you keep telling it thru your blog to this day. Well, I didn’t see my DD diagnosis of autism coming, not like you did, but it’s never been anything doom and gloom for me. Like you, I just see beauty, and it’s so easy to forget her disability. What a great way to tell your story, I love it, I may do the same about my relationship with my 3yo DD too one day soon. You are an inspiration, there is no doubt.
Congrats and best wishes, wish I could hug your bunny too, and her gorgeous big sis. (ok, I’d probably hug you too!!)
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Christina says
That is the most beautiful thing that I have ever read. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
Morgan says
Wanted to cry reading this…LOVE it! 🙂
buzymama4 says
You are so brave and articulate! I myself gave birth to a beautiful little girl with Down Syndrome 6 1/2 years ago. Often I have considered writing down my experiences, but didn’t know where to begin…I don’t think I could have done justice to Brooklynn’s story half as eloquently as you did with your little Nella. Like you, we were unaware of her diagnosis prior to her birth, and it was a roller-coaster ride waiting for the results to come back. Also, like you, I found myself loving my daughter, yet distancing myself, until I was able to come to terms with everything her diagnosis meant. Today, I can’t imagine a life without her. She inspires me and challenges me everyday. Before my daughter, I never wanted to be known as ‘so-and-so’s’ Mom…I wanted an identity of my own. It’s so unimportant now, and I am proud to be Brooklynn’s mom. You have touched my heart – forever. Bless you and your family. Little Nella is a lucky girl to have you (but not nearly as lucky as you are to have her)! Welcome to Holland! <3
janet says
i realize you already have 3,288 comments, but i had to say something. just found your blog and have been reading post after post…i’m hooked. i cried my eyes out reading this one. it’s beautiful, honest and amazing. thank you for sharing your story!
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Aloisa Smith says
I read your story on ” corriere della sera”, a famous newspaper from Milan. I think that your princess are so beautiful, I love your photos and I love your children! Io non so se tu riesca a tradurre perfettamente le mie frasi in italiano, ma non so descrivere le emozioni che provo. Sei una mamma a tutti gli effetti, Kelle il mio cuore è con te e con la tua bambina. Il tuo amore per lei è infinito, e questo è notevole.
TRB Holt says
I love this story….and you!
Terri
Geralyn says
So honest, real, and beautiful. Just the way you are. Your daughters are incredibly blessed and so are their parents.
Chelsea Coleen says
this is the most amazingly honest beautiful post i have ever read. your girls are beautiful.
you are beautiful
Unknown says
I loved your story I had tears in my eyes all the way. I have a brother with D.S. and he is awesome and I love him so much! he will be 21 in Jan.2012!
I loved all the pictures especially the 4th from bottom up.
You are so blessed!
Nella is Beautiful!
Molly says
That story was so beautifully written. I just found your blog and this story brought me to tears…I could feel your joy and then your grief and then your hope. What lucky girls you have to have you as their mama. Amazing.
ezrazoe says
wow what an incredible story. And that is one beautiful baby… and beautiful little girl.
Stephanie says
First I want to start off by saying you have a beautiful family. Nella is ADORABLE and so is Lainey. I know exactly what you felt like when you had Nella. I to have a 13 month old that has Down Syndrome (Isabella) and I was not aware until the day she was born. It does take a lot to adjust and you are scared at the moment then you realize how AMAZING this little person is that has been growing inside if you. I would not trade my daughter for anything in the world, not even a “normal” child. I love her just the way she is. I am obsessed with your blog and with all the progress that Nella has made.
I will continue to follow the blog as it helps me see others with the same struggles and prosper as well.
Thank you 🙂
melody-mae says
I have no idea how I found your blog but, I did and I just need to tell you how beautiful this love story is. Just. lovely. truly.
blessings,
melody
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melissa loves says
This is my first time visiting your space and I want to say that it is an absolute privilege to be here & hear your story. I don’t have the words to say how honored I am to have read it and how incredibly beautiful it is. Your two little ones are absolutely beautiful and adorable and they have a beautiful mama. I can’t even imagine how hard this was for you to put down in writing…to do the journey justice. But, you did and again, I am honored to have read it. Have a beautiful day- to- day with your beautiful family.
xo
Melissa
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Liv says
Thank you so much for honestly sharing your journey and Nella’s incredible birth day story. I feel so privileged to get a glimpse into the beauty of your world. Bless Brett for his silent strength. I’m a new follower, first time mum of an almost eight month old, and stumbled across your blog from some random late night browsing, with a link from a fb page I liked. Please keep sharing… pretty please if you like. Much love from the east coast of Australia xx
courtney - larking. says
Thank you so much for this post. I can’t believe you wrote it with such presence of mind just a week after Nella’s birth. Your honesty and fierce love for your daughters brought me to tears. Thank you so much.
Christie says
This was beautiful kelle…so honest and from the soul. I have a son with a mental illness so while his illness does not show on the outside – as your beautiful daughters – I can empathize with the emotional roller coaster that our Mother minds put us through. Thank you for sharing.
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Ella says
Just….wow. Amazing. Thank you for sharing her story, and yours, with us. She’s simply beautiful!
Lilly says
I’m so glad I had the chance to read this. It is beautiful. Nella is so precious.
Thank you so much for sharing your story and for being so honest.
Alli Aars says
She is so beautiful. And so are you, inside and out.
Samantha says
You are a lovely writer! Birth stories are always so fantastic to read, and this was exceptionally perfect. You shared a side of grief that not many people see, and it was wonderful. Writing is such an amazing way to work through our moments of grief, however big or small and move on to sweet happiness. I am so happy for you and your family and happy that your little girls have such a wonderful mama who loves them with all that she has…the mama that God wanted them to have. Thank you for sharing.
Me says
Thank you so much for sharing your story – I battled to read at times because of the tears in my eyes.
Wishing you all a wonderful life together.
Have a fantastic day !
Me
Beautiful Mess says
I stumbled across your blog on accident.I read this post with tears in my eyes the entire time. Your an amazing writer and mother. Your daughters are beautiful! God chose a very extraordinary woman to be Nella and Lainey’s mama.
I love the pictures from this weekend in San Diego, your a great photographer as well. I can’t wait to follow your family on their journey.
Whitney says
I stumbled across your blog today through “blogs of note” and found this post at the bottom of your most recent one. It’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read and it made me cry. Your girls are gorgeous and you are a wonderful mommy!
Gertrude Tamade says
I found this blog and am captivated by every story and every photograph. This one made me cry. You are truely chosen and blessed. I will share this with my family. Greetings and blessings from Papua New Guinea.
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jessicabruen says
I do not know you, but I happened upon your blog. Just wanted to say that this is hands down, the most beautiful story I have ever read. She is breath taking, just so perfect.
Jennifer says
I read the whole thing, looked at every picture. And cried the whole damn time. Beautiful. You have a strength I wish I could find in myself. Thank you for this story. I cried but it lifted my spirits in a way that I can’t explain. God bless you and your family.
Cindy Production says
holy beautiful baby…
Little Notebook says
Found your blog on Blogger’s Blogs of Note…followed the “Start here if you’re new” link and I’m SO glad I did. How beautiful…what a breathtaking (literally), amazing story. Enjoy your life with your two gorgeous little girls!!!
Chubby_Barbie89 says
For one… I cried… This is a beautiful story. It’s so real. I feel that I could really feel your emotions through your writing.
For two… Your daughters are so beautiful! You are very fortunate to have such a beautiful family..
I feel very inspired after reading this beautiful story. I work with individuals with all shapes and sizes of abilities. I believe that people with DS are some of the most beautiful and fun loving people I have ever met. They are just phenomenal.
Wishing you and your family the best!
Amy says
Thank you so much for an incredibly honest account of your birth process! If only we could all be so forthcoming…
I can’t read all 3,000 comments but has anyone recommend the book “Expecting Adam” by Martha Beck? Another honest and humorous account of a parent who gave birth to a baby with Down’s Syndrome, but it focuses on the pregnancy.
Best wishes for your family!
Halie Renee says
Such an incredibly beautiful story. I enjoyed reading it because of your honest, truthful account, even when things weren’t “flattering” or “perfect” for you. I cried multiple times reading this. I feel like I know you now. You and both of your daughters are truly beautiful.
Karli says
I first read the shorter version of your second daughter’s birth in a baby magazine while i was pregnant. I cried. For so many reasons, i cried. The first tears came when i saw the black and white picture of Nella, the tears came because of her amazing beauty that the magazine could not contain. Her beautiful little face. She looked like an angel. I then cried looking at the picture of your loved ones drinking celebratory drinks while you sat there, blank faced. I cried for the confusion and pain you must have been feeling. I took the magazine to my boyfriend immediately, and said “Look at this beautiful baby”. Your photographs are amazing and i’m so excited to have found your blog. Yours was a story that resonated. It stuck with me. You have an incredibly beautiful family, and it appears that you have an equally beautiful life.
acd01c98-0fbd-11e1-a068-000bcdcb8a73 says
Thank you for your inspiring words. They give soo much hope!! I came across your blog, as I was looking for informations about DS. My nephew was born with it. He is now 7 weeks old, and it’s all very new to us, as none of us has ever to do with that. We were in a shock, as we learned about him having DS. By know we accept it and take life as it comes. It’s amazing, but he enriched our life in so many more ways!! And reading your story also gives so much hope and looking forward to the future!!
MamaBear says
Thank you for your beautiful story! If every OB and pediatrician read this, I can only imagine the drop in abortion rate and the increase in love and acceptance on that first unbelievably scary day. I can only wish my pediatrician treated me the way you were treated. We were simply told (without even looking in our eyes), “I’m so sorry….your baby has many physical signs of Down syndrome.” I wanted to punch her in the face. How dare she be SORRY??!!
Ironically, that was part of what gave me the courage I needed to get through the day. I’d be damned if anyone was going to be sorry for me that I just gave birth to a beautiful baby girl.
I’m proud to say that we are the proud parents of a beautiful 3 year-old with DS and two big sisters. Our little angel has enhanced our lives and brought on more love than I could ever imagine. She continues to teach me every single day about perseverance, love and acceptance. If I could do it again, I would CHOOSE to have a child with DS.
Thank you for helping to spread the word, being honest and for giving that next set of parents all the courage they need.
LeiShell says
I have never read anything so beautiful and heart felt in my life. Thank you for sharing♥
Zoey H says
The tears are pouring. Just beautiful.
Darkstarwoman says
You are so very brave and honest. Your a great mother and your girls are so lucky to have such unconditional love.
Thank-you for sharing your birth story. I cried.
: )
Kcup Drawer says
Love you to much. thank you for your share.
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GettingChinky says
i sat in bed crying all morning reading this – and I am not exactly what you would call the crier type. You’re way with words are so incredibly whimsical and honest. I feel like I am your friend who experienced all of this with you. Nella is beautiful. You’re life is beautiful. I only hope that one day my own life will be just as fulfilled.
Jennifer Bridges says
wow…stumbled onto your blog via pintrest. this is such an amazing story. I was hooked immediately. your honesty, your fears and your love are so clear and truthful. thank you so much for sharing. you girls are all strikingly beautiful too! how did your husband get so lucky?
Leslie says
I don’t know you, but I wish I did. You write with such honesty and beauty. Thank you for being open about your experience. God bless!
Garza fam says
Your daughter is absolutely beautiful. I too have been blessed with a sweet precious little angel with DS, Reyna. I believe that god only gives us things that we can handle. That little girl needed a family that could love her unconditionally and hat was yours. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope to see you at the ds convention in washington in july 2012.
ErinOrtlund says
In 2004, I was pregnant with our first child. The AFP test revealed a higher chance of Down Syndrome, high enough that we were offered a detailed ultrasound and an amnio. We had the ultrasound, but declined the amnio, due to the miscarriage risk. We planned to keep the baby no matter what. I was still anxious about the possibility of Down Syndrome. It was through reading blogs of mothers like you, and posts at places like Babycenter, that I came to clearly realize what you so eloquently communicate here. If my baby had Down Syndrome, there would be anguish, depression, fear….and then, there would be love, and joy and acceptance. We waited 5 more months until the birth to find out our baby girl did not have Down Syndrome. With my next pregnancy at age 34, I refused all screenings for Down Syndrome, because I knew it would be OK either way. Thanks for what you’re doing here. Both of your girls are absolutely gorgeous!
Lucy says
Seriously amazing. So raw, honest and truly beautiful.
Five of US says
I have always heard that only a special sort of person is given a baby with down syndrome to raise. I believe that with my whole heart after reading your post. You were honest, but in your struggles you found your true self. The you that is full of unconditional love. I’m so glad I read this. Your daughters are so blessed!
Groupdmt says
Awesome Photos and the postings r too good .
retouche de photos
Mrs. Robinson says
Wow. I found your blog because Whitney at The Sunshine Days nominated you for The Versatile Blogger award. I’m so glad she did…I just read this story and sat at my desk at work and was completely moved.
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful and amazing story.
William and Tiffany Strong says
Your story brought so much joy to my heart. Thank you for posting it. You are one amazing mother, and your daughters can feel that each time you hug them. God Bless you!
~A mother from Utah.
Jenn Zori says
This was probably the most powerful blog I’ve ever read. Touching, moving, ground-breakingly beautiful. Your story is one of inspiration, hope and a true example that God makes no mistakes in this world. God Bless your family and may he give you the strength to keep writing and smiling….always.
fiwa says
I’ve read this post before, but I wanted to come back and read it before Christmas. It’s just that beautiful, and leaves me with such a good feeling every time. Wishing you a blessed Christmas. 🙂
Marissa says
Beautiful story. I found your blog a couple months ago and have enjoyed the small things with you. 🙂 although, my life is many steps behind yours i look forward to connecting with you while i read your posts and dream of the unknown future ahead of me– excited for God’s plans and how he works in our lives in great ways. so excited for your book to come out. thank you for sharing your heart. god bless you and your beautiful family!
mydaddymydaddy.com says
My wife introduced me to your blog today. What an inspiration, a gift really. Thanks to people like yourself who have opened up your whole life, I’ve recently decided to do the same thing from the perspective of a daddy. Thank you so much and I can only hope that someday my stories inspire someone to do the same. Bless you and your beautiful family.
Funnyface says
I don’t know you but somebody post in Baby Center your story. I read your story when I was on my first trimester, and I read it again now that I am only 10 weeks away for the L day. It always bring tears to my eyes because is such a wonderful story. I think you are a great example that good is bigger than the bad things we hear in the news all day. Your family is beautiful.
I am not much a religious person either but I do believe that is in us to be better and be happy. Enjoy and have a good year.
Lindsay says
It is rare to be so touched by a stranger’s story. Usually, triumphant or tragic stories strike an emotional chord, but your story danced on my heart. Thank you for your honesty, and thank you for sharing your beautiful daughters with others. I feel so inspired by your reminder of the things that really matter in life. THANK YOU.
Suzie Yoder says
she is absolutely BEAUTIFUL. I cried through your whole story, so beautifully written. you are an inspiration. A million congratulations to you and your husband. your daughter is a precious gift.
Gigi says
Kelle, I love your blog and have followed for some time. I adore your beautiful girls and the beautiful life you are creating for them. Seeing it chronicled in your blog is such a pleasure.
In Nella’s birth story, you’ve expressed feelings that I’ve been unable to express myself. My baby appeared healthy when he was born, but three days later he was diagnosed with a rare metabolic disorder. Due to the brain damage he sustained, we were told that he’d likely be low-functioning. I cried and cried to think that my life would be so changed…I asked “why me?”…I wanted to go back to my perfect pregnancy and my perfectly healthy three year old son and our “normal” life. After my baby’s diagnosis, I was numb…just going through the motions. I loved him so much. But I didn’t know if I was up to the challenge of raising a special needs child. After a day or so or grieving, heart-renching sobs, it was as if a little light was turned on inside me. I knew that I wanted him no matter what and I didn’t care what I had to do to make his life the best it could possibly be.
So, thank you, Kelle, for your words. They mean so much to so many.
Bridggi5 says
You touched my heart so deeply & expressed some of the exact emotions I felt when I experience my first son. Although he did not have DS, I believe I had post partum in a huge way but I know I wouldn’t have traded any of it for anything. He completes me & our family & I love him. Thank you, thank you, thank you & prayers for you and your family & friends who are some serious rockstars. I believe I will find it in my heart to blog about my experience 🙂
Young Mum says
Thank you for this. I can’t stop crying. Your family, your words, your bunny, all so beautiful. What a miracle is a mother’s love.
Andrea says
Beautiful story. Thanks so much for sharing.
Cano Family says
a friend of mine referred me to your blog and wow! i just read your birth story, i need to write Josephs. i had a post birth diagnosis as well and i remember feeling all those feelings as well. your girls are beautiful!
Anonymous says
My name is Jessica, I have a 9 month old baby girl with downs as well and I truly feel like I hit the lottery with her. What caught me a bit off guard is her dad’s name is Brett as well, and I was also born on December 29th! This story REALLY hit home! =) Congrats on being chosen by God to be an extra awesome mommy! And thank you for all the lovely pics!
Ben Stein says
Thankyou. xox
Teresa Langston <3 says
She is one of the most BEAUTIFUL babies i have ever seen!!!
Angela says
Wow! That was amazingly beautiful. Thank you for your honesty and what a lovely family!
Cathy says
Every feeling you described, i felt them with you. Magnificently written. I could feel your relief as you wrote. God bless you all. What a gift!!
Alisa says
she is just beautiful. beautiful and perfect. Your birth story / this blog post is one of the most moving posts I have ever read. Blessings to you and your family, you are an inspiration.
Carin says
Oh Lordy! I can’t remember how I found my way over to your blog, but I did and… God bless you! You are definitely right right mother for this sweet girl! I have tears streaming down my face as I write this. Thank you so much for sharing your story! It’s beautiful!
Christie says
Oh Kellie, thank you so much for sharing your story. I could only feel love for you, your little bunnie, and your family as I read it. I am so proud of you for writing it and you will truly be an inspiration for other moms out there. Your story is beautiful and honest and just so real. Thank you.
Mayra says
oh kelle i dont even know where to begin, i feel that by reading your blog i have known you for years even though i have never met you in my life. First of all you are an amazing mother/writer/woman! I am a 19 year old girl from california who doesnt know what career she wants to choose or what she wants to do in life, but one thing is for sure i want to be a woman like you. I look up to you! My idol isnt a singer, a model , an actress, a reality show star or a radio talk spokes person, its you! Women/mothers like you are the ones who inspire me day by day, who teach me to be a better person, human being and who make me want to grow and be the best mother i can ever be. You do not know how much you and Nella have changed my life! i now know that i want to do something, be one, and be part of a change, i aspire to be a research doctor not only to help everyone but to help children like Nella and children with different diseases and disabilities. I want to help the children have a better future. From the children who have down syndrome,autism, cancer, to the ones who are discapable! I want to be the change! I want these daughters and sons of great parents like you & your husband to have a future. I dont want them to be left behind, i want them to be begining. Children like Nella are beautiful! They are just like any other child!! They were born the same way and made the same way as any other child in this world! Every child in this world deserves the best! Kelle you are my idol, there are no words to explain to you how much you have touched my life! Both of your daughters are amazing, they are real lucky to have parents like your husband and yourself! I have cried and cried reading your blog! And i can not wait to have your book in my hands!
Christina says
What a beautiful story and family! This really did touch my heart! I work with individuals with developmental disabilities and they definitely have a special place in my heart! I could not imagine what you have been through but from reading your blog it is apparent that you’re truly an amazing woman!
mumwhothinkstoomuch says
This is an amazingly beautiful story. The first I’ve read on your blog, with so many more to explore. Thank you for sharing.
Meagan says
i get it. i understand those sorts of feelings. i was even mad at you while reading this post. and i very thankful to have come across Nella’s story – cause tonight i needed to be reminded how fortunate i am to be alive today and every day! your little Nella & the story you provided for us here is a great blessing, Thank You for sharing!
Emily says
This is the most beautiful birth story I have ever read. I’ve read it several times both here and in Parents magazine. I’ve loved watching Nella grow up the last two years and like so many others, fall in love with her even more with every picture you post. Thank you for sharing htis story. You have inspired me to not take life for granted. Happy birthday, Nella and Kelle!
Brooke @ www.Getouttamyheadplease.com says
Your Birth story is very similar to mine … my son was born with a birth condition that left him missing fingers … I felt the same way in the hours after he was born its all such a blur to me and alot of the time I wish I could go back and change those first thoughts because now at 3 1/2 he is My miracle and I wouldn’t want a day to go by without him next to me … we are the LUCKY ones yours sister was right we were chosen to be MOTHERS to these amazing children . I always tell everyone I can that Im lucky because I truly know without a doubt what “unconditional” love means, I always wonder before Preston was born if the people who had children that were “different” really did LOVE them the same and I feel silly even letting that cross my mind because now I know of course they do and they most likely LOVE them more because of the things that make them unique . Well I could go on and on .. but wanted to comment and let you know how wonderful it is that you documented this. <3 your newest follower Brooke
Miss Mina says
Nella,
I cried with you. I cried through every sharing of your pain, grief and joy.
My son Benjamin Matthew was born with Down Syndrome. He was my first. I had no idea, and I was numb when the doctor told me because I only knew just a little about the condition. All I knew is they moved him to another hospital because the one I delivered at had no NICU.
He gave me 20 precious months of his life, love and his innocent unbiased joy. He would have been 15 this year. I have been so blessed.
I now have two beautiful boys, with no DS, and they know they have a big brother who watches over them.
My mother who is Middle Eastern, sheltered me from a lot of the archaic views of her peers. She is still my rock and my biggest cheerleader and supporter.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story, and if you would, please, kiss Nella, and her sister, for me.
Thank you
Sara says
Thank-you for bravely telling your story. I pray God continues to flood your family with his overwhelming grace, love, and strength.
Julie says
A friend of mine forwarded this post to me and I am so thankful she did. I can completely understand the words and feelings you shared as I recently gave birth to a daughter with Downs. I bawled as I read every line because your words resonated so deeply within my soul. I cried out of comfort too knowing that there are others out there who have had to grieve the birth of a child. While I am still in the grieving process, I am sure that in time God will help me understand his purpose in all of this. I know that our daughter, Nadia, will be a light to us and to all those around her. I also know that there’s nothing within her that needs to be changed..only what is inside of me. Thank you for your transparency.
flamingo says
Read this tonight after a challenging day.
How beautiful and so, so moving!
I had to stop several times to just weep. I felt for you through it; thank you so much for sharing this life-affirming story!
Brigi says
Your life is wonderful, you are so inspiring. You are graceful and give strength to all! Beautiful!
Ellen says
Found you through a pin and cried through several posts about your daughters. You remind me of what’s wonderful about motherhood, you inspire me to write more from my heart and you are prayed for by this mom. Thanks for keeping it real – your family is beautiful, thanks for sharing!
tommye says
You are an amazing writer and an even more amazing mother. I look forward to reading more. (AND a phenomenal photographer)
Giliane says
oh my this is amazing!! I admire you so much! my greatest desire is having a family and my greatest fear is having a baby with downs syndrome, I honestly don’t know how I would take it, but your story gives me hope and I thank you for that!
Stephanie says
This is so incredibly moving, just so beautiful. I am so new to your blog, and feel so lucky to have found you. Just a beautiful perspective. You should be so proud.
Lindy S. says
I’ll not read any more of your words while whiling away the hours at work, because I don’t want to have to explain to my boss why I’m crying at my desk. How do you tell someone that you’ve just read the most amazing story ever, written by someone you don’t know, had never even heard of until 10 minutes ago?
Your babies are gorgeous, and you’re beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing your experience with the world!
Helene says
What a beautiful, honest and inspirational birth story. Such a moving story that bought tears to my eyes. Nella and Lainey are so very lucky to have such strong and amazing parents like you both. You truly are inspirational and both of your daughter’s are adorable, you should be very proud x x
Helene says
What a beautiful, honest and inspirational birth story. Such a moving story that bought tears to my eyes. Nella and Lainey are so very lucky to have such strong and amazing parents like you both. You truly are inspirational and both of your daughter’s are adorable, you should be very proud x x
Helene says
What a beautiful, honest and inspirational birth story. Such a moving story that bought tears to my eyes. Nella and Lainey are so very lucky to have such strong and amazing parents like you both. You truly are inspirational and both of your daughter’s are adorable, you should be very proud x x
Sheri says
Your words are so beautiful and so moving!!!!! Just like your sweet little girls. Thank you for sharing this beautiful, amazing story with us!!
Melissa Boudreaux says
I’m not sure how I stumbled across your blog, but it was the outdoor tea party that brought me in. I left the tab open a week and finally got back to look over it. The eclectic and beautiful everything. Of course I saw your gorgeous blessing Nella and thought she might have DS but then I saw the “new start here option” and I went there. I just read your birth story. I had tears in my eyes. I love your Nella and I’m so thankful she has you. Much like your sister and pediatrician, I agree she is perfect, beautiful, you have a huge gift and it will all be fine. I know my daughters are blessings but I’m a bit envious that you were chosen for such a special blessing. You have been given a remarkably beautiful gift. You, your husband and Lainey are blessed beyond measure to have Nella, as is she to have you all. Thank you for sharing the story of her birth. May God continue to bless you all. You are a beautiful mother and your daughters are both beautiful and perfect. God Bless, Melissa
Tom, Danielle and Lincoln says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful and honest story. She is beautiful and had me wrapped around her finger from the first second I saw her picture. Thank you for sharing her with us.
ClassiclyAmber says
I absolutely, positively LOVE this!! I just stumbled across your blog today through Pinterest, and am in love with your whole family. You are sooooooo INCREDIBLY blessed!!! Oh goodness. Been crying my eyes out!! I look at your beautiful daughters – both of them just as much as the other – and think what a wonderful family. I can’t help but think of all the sweet children who have been aborted because of a potential Down Syndrome prognosis – and what a shame that is. These children NEED their parents…they NEED to be loved just as much as anyone. You are doing an excellent job, my dear! Excellent. What an inspiration! Whoo! =-D
Amy says
Just beautiful! I cried through out the whole post!
LaurenBarham says
This is one of the most searingly honest things that i have ever read. You are a beautiful writer and a quite obviously beautiful mother.
J.Lopez says
Today I read your story and the pain an joy you have endured. As I read on I can only imagine what was going through head. I am 4 in a half months pregnant with my first child. That doctors told me he has down syndrome.before they told me I knew something was wrong when the nurse kept coming in and out the room to look for a doctor to tell me the news. Like you I couldn’t remember what was going on like it was just a dream and I would soon wake up. But it wasn’t and reality started to set in quick. I left the doctors and headed home in disbelief. As I walked through the door everyone was waiting to see what the doctors had said I just couldn’t deal with any of it and said ” nothing I need to go to the restroom.” so I closed the door and heard as my mother walked in and said the news. Which only made everything more difficult for me as I heard everyone cry. I layed in the bed thinking Crying and wondering what I had done wrong, wondering why God would do this to me. I asked myself I If was being punished for a wrong I might had committed. Many family members circled me and told me everything would be fine I was chosen for something special and only God knew why. But I just couldn’t understand why it had to be my baby. I tell you this because I have read your story over and over and as I read the first time I cried and wondered if I would feel a disconnection with my child as you did. I was scared to read on as if you would be tellin my own story. When I read this it made me feel a lot better and more secure of my situation. You have been an inspiration and you give me hope for a new beginning with my child to be. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for publishing your story for all to see. I wish you and your family the best.
MaNiC MoMMy™ says
Just found you. HOW DID I JUST FIND YOU? (Well, your book, but seriously, HOW DID I JUST FIND YOU?) AMAZING. WHAT A GIFT! YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS A GIFT!
micheta1004 says
truely a beautiful story. I’ve never been so touched before. when you talked about crying, I cried with you. and as you got happier, I feel I did to. you handled this so well. she’s a lucky, beautiful, little girl.
nigelmyfireplace says
Thank for writing the beautiful story of Nella. You, your family and your baby are beautiful and are spreading a little of that beauty in the world. Thank you for not keeping Nella to yourselves.
Six months before you my wife and I set off in much the same way down (no pun intended) the same road you are walking. As you wrote so eloquently it was not the road we expected and so we too began the journey in tears, and although sometimes we lose sight of where we are going and are forced to clear the dust from our eyes with occasional wash of tears, the road has been more joyful, beautiful and wonderful than I could ever have expected. Our daughter, Mystery is her name, has changed the world in me and around me and I am deeply grateful for her. She loves so richly, delights deeply and enriches everyone she meets. She is already a game changer. She too has been blessed with 2 heroic older sisters and a remarkable brother-they got me through the week of her birth. If you would like to read her story I wrote it on my blog http://www.nigelmyfireplace.wordpress.com her story is tagged with her name. Mystery. May Gods love and blessings reach out and touch you today as you live a life filled with all the good things he has for you. Nigel Desmond.
THE GARDINER'S says
Wow! You are truly an amazing woman! I cried and cried through the entire thing! Thank you so so much!
Caroline M. says
That is one gorgeous baby. Genuinely, I think my heart skipped a hundred beats just looking at the photos. But this story is also beautiful and honest and an amazing journey for me as a parent, as well. Lots of love to all of you.
B2B Sarah says
I just had the opportunity to read this post last night and have thought about what you wrote through the night and this morning. Your post was beautifully written, filled with raw and honest emotions. Congrats on your two beautiful and perfect little girls!
Searching For Simplicity says
I think this is the best birth story I have ever read. It touched me on a level I can’t even begin to describe. Beautiful!!
upsidedownbethlehem says
Thank you ever so much for sharing your heartwrenching and heartbuilding journey with the world. It is inspiring, raw, beautiful, and stunning.
Brianne says
Thank you so much for sharing this. I will never forget it.
★ nic ★ says
Thank you so much for sharing your story!
I haven’t been touched by any (birth) story like I have been by yours!
I envy you for your ability to share all your feelings here and tell this incredible story of your stunningly perfect bunny!
Thank you… That’s all I can write right now. I really needed this! <3
Brookelyn says
Youre story just broke my heart. It was wonderful. Everything about love & heartbreak & sorrow all in one. But it was great & i commend you on the wonderful person you are. Im pregnant with my first…and i hope im half the mother you are.
Carrie says
I don’t know you, someone just sent me a link to this post because they know I love birth stories, but I just have to post and tell you that you are amazing. This is literally one of the most beautiful things I have EVER read… I’ve been bawling for ten minutes now!
Anyway, thank you for sharing your story! Your daughters are so beautiful and so lucky that you are their mama. 🙂
d2e3a1da-37da-11e1-9017-000bcdcb8a73 says
I came to your blog via Gina at Fitnessista. I dont know if you will read this as the post is from a while ago but I just read Nella’s birth story and cried and cried and cried. It was gut wrenching and so beautiful. My life would not be my wonderful life without my Aunt Margie. She is 46 years old so I do know life without her (I am 30). She has Down syndrome. Her and my mother were always best buddies growing up and at a time when children with Downs were only institutionalized, Margie was raised at home, went to public schools, treated as the rightful member of the family and community she was. She was and athlete and held a job. She is funny and caring and stubborn! She is now quite weak and leaving us from certain common to Downs health problems. My family and anyone who has ever know her is beyond devastated. She has impacted and bettered more lives than I could ever.
When I read the part in her birth story when you said she looked at you as if to beg you to love her, I died inside. I beyond empathize and understand. Your beautiful children will have an amazing life and you will too having them as the children you were ALWAYS meant to have. I’d give up anything to have more time with Aunt Margie. Thank you for your blog today, I needed it!
Melissa says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I found myself anxious as you led into your experience, praying so much that all would be well. When your darling girl emerged, I almost laughed as I learned you were blessed with a beautiful child with Down Syndrome. My beautiful sister also has Down Syndrome, and I can not imagine life with her in any other way.
I got caught and honestly choked on my breath as you so honestly shared your troubling feelings..how to love her..how to be her mother.
It was such a bold and honest look at what a surprise she was to you, and I am shedding tears of joy looking at your gorgeous photographs of you, your little bunny, her adorable big sister and her dad, who just seems to have quietly accepted her as he would have in any circumstance.
Know that you have been blessed. Your plane was bound for Paris, but it landed in Holland..and what beautiful things await you in Holland. (that is from a story..not my own..but the story relates to being blessed with such a special child). I am excited to read more of your story and even your book. Thank you for the peek into what must be a very full, rich life.
Melissa
Traleliushke says
Dear Kelle,
I’m not a mum yet, I don’t know how would I feel in your situation, but I’ve read this story with tears and smile on my face at the same time as it’s the most honest story i’ve ever read, I think.. You can choose your job, man, place to live, but there i always some things you just need to live with. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Your daughters are wonderful little sunshines!!!
Wishes, Vaida
milliganga says
oh my as I read this blog that was sent to me by a friend I cried tears of joy. This is one of he best reads I have read in awhile. I have to say you are so blessed! Your baby is so beautiful! God has chosen you to be that little girl’s mother for a reason and may he be by you and guide you while doing so. He will bless you beyond measures untold, for she is a child of God and perfect in every way. Hugs to you and your family and congrats on the new baby.
themilligans says
oh my as I read this blog that was sent to me by a friend I cried tears of joy. This is one of he best reads I have read in awhile. I have to say you are so blessed! Your baby is so beautiful! God has chosen you to be that little girl’s mother for a reason and may he be by you and guide you while doing so. He will bless you beyond measures untold, for she is a child of God and perfect in every way. Hugs to you and your family and congrats on the new baby.
sunshine says
I discovered your blog yesterday. It is like a book I can’t put down. I have wept through what I have read. Cried happy tears, and sad tears, and I feel for you tears, and inspired tears, and broken tears. Your words broke through my “I am strong” facade. Broken, I mourned. Mourned for the seven years I have tried. For the pain, hope, love, and disappointment. I finally let myself hurt for the fact that at 27 my friends and siblings are having babies and I can’t. For now, I shall love my nieces and my best friend’s babies. And I will hope with a renewed heart. Thank you.
Leslie says
As a gift from God, I stumbled across your blog and Nella’s birth story. I can’t wait to read your book. First of all, gorgeous family! Secondly, my sister in law is 32 years old and has Down Syndrome. She is sweet, hilarious, determined, and stubborn as a mule. Our children adore her and didn’t even realize she was any different at all until very recently. I was so touched by your story because it is so similar to the story my mother in law tells of their D.S. surprise. Only it was the early 80’s and my father in law didn’t even know what D.s. was. So you can imagine the confusion. She told me about crying every day for years, “just for a minute” because she realized what Kylene would miss, but then she realized how much our family gained by seeing things with “brand new eyes.” Your family is a blessed bunch and I can’t wait to read your story!
DesertChildAZ says
I can’t begin to describe how much your story has affected me and changed my mindset. I’m 41 and having my second child. I’m high risk but I don’t want to risk a miscarriage by having an amnio. I’ve had the other non-invasive tests, but they aren’t entirely accurate. When we couldn’t get insurance approved on a new expensive – somewhat experimental – blood test that apparently has 99.9% accuracy, we had to decide what to do. Pay for the test or pass on it. I was terrified that we might have a DS baby until I read your story and shared it with my husband. We went from it being a choice to accepting that it could be a difficult but acceptable given…instead of considering the deadline for the alternative, we simply said “Knowing wouldn’t change anything.” Nella is an inspiration to us and I always call her my “favorite little girl in blogland”. Thank you for your impact on my life, on my choices and on my relationship with and faith in God. Though the additional tests now put us in the 1:3200 range, I’m glad that if our child is born with DS, that I’m comfortable with that. God Bless your family.
DesertChildAZ says
(P.S. We had the standard “additional” non-invasive test (ultrasound, further blood test) but never did the new experimental 99.9% accuracy test because after reading your story, we didn’t feel that knowing would change the course of fate so why spare the $1900 expense for the new test? )
Nicole says
such beautiful little girls and a beautiful story! I can’t wait to read your book! Thanks so much for sharing.
Michelle says
Thank you for sharing your story. You have been blessed with a precious little gift and she is so incredibly beautiful and lucky to have been given to such a loving family. Your courage and strength is so admirable. You will all have such a beautiful life together!
xx
Marcy Smith says
WOW thankyou so much for sharing your’s and your families story. It was honest and beautiful … those girls are very blessed to have you as a mum 🙂
danemi1 says
wow!!!Once I had started reading I just could not stop – I thought things were stressful at the mo – on a merry go round that just doesnt stop – children, hubby, work, cleaning, running errands you name it – all the tales of an everyday working Mum – there I was thinking my word will things ever calm down…how ashamed do I feel now – I have read your story with such I dont know dept of feeling – how and what you went through – your honest true way of conveying it all and we have never met but I felt so what is the right word honoured I guess that you had shared your journey – and how you went from expecting the “normal” to realising how much love, beauty and joy this special little girl can bring and the way your big daughter/sister hadnled it – we can all learn so much through a childrens eyes. I am sending you such humble hugs – what a truly amazingly wonderful family – thank you for sharing this – all I wanna do is go and wake my children, love them and hug them and let them know how much I love them – who cares about a dirty ktichen floor – it will wash – these precious precious times that we spend with our children should be engrained forever in our hearts – I salute you and your family – with lots and lots of love Elaine xxxx
Kadie says
Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you and your family. You are blessed and i know that your children are lucky to have you as a mother.
Anonymous says
Nelle is the most beautiful baby I have ever laid eyes on, I could just hug hug hug her!!
In life all we really want for our children is happiness and I do believe that the Lord knew you could provide her with that despite a beautiful indifference.
Baby Nelle deserves you, as do you her.
Thank you for sharing your story, Kelle. You’re such an inspiration and I wish you and your family all the best in life!
Ann of the Incredible Gift says
Nella is beautiful and perfect. *hugs and smiles* Both your girls are.
Your story, linked on FaceBook by my cousin, took me back 40 years to the birth of my daughter, Margret, her diagnosis of DS and the emotional roller coaster of the first days.
I finished reading with tears in my eyes and a smile on my lips.
Margret wanted me to write a book to tell her story, Growing Up With DS, but I’m not much of a writer. I think you should keep blogging, and edit all your stories into Nella’s book. *more hugs*
Ramblings says
Such a beautiful story and so beautifully written x
Vanessa says
I am obviously reading this years later, but this was the most beautiful, moving piece I have read in a long, long time. Your words painted a true picture of what your heart was feeling. Bless you and your precious family. Thank you for your amazing story.
Strictly Stylish says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story! I have read hundreds of blogs and I have never commented on a single one until today. Your story touched me like nothing else ever has. You are an amazing person.
Thank you for this story!
motherbabychild says
I saw your pictures on Pinterest and clicked to see what a unique shot, and was lead to your blog post. Oh my goodness what an emotional roller coaster you have just taken me on. I thought that I could not imagine such an experience (being so disorientated after delivery, fear of what you know and dealing with it quickly because it is as God willed), but I feel like I lived it with you in just a few minutes. Your friends have captured it all so beautifully. I’m going to end here and browse your blog a bit more.
Hugs & Blessings!
Annie says
I’m sure that I’m one of millions that would say this. I’m 3 months pregnant and referred to your blog on recommendation from Frugal Living NW. The announcement of your book I thought I’ll see what this woman has to say.
What a BEAUTIFUL post, story, writing, it is strictly amazing – I bawled and bawled – but not out of sadness – out of hope. This is truly the story of love and what every woman feels and thinks and worries and wonders. THANK YOU – Thank you for sharing – for remembering – for being so raw and so wonderful.
Washer Mom Val says
Beautiful.
Melissa at Tall Blonde says
Visiting your “place” from Katie over at Loves of Life recommendation.
This is a beautiful story and brought me to tears several times reading it.
You have a gift for words. Congratulations on your beautiful family and thank you for sharing.
Kristi says
This might just be the most heartfelt, gut wrenching HONEST blog entry I have ever had the honor to read. I am in awe of your ability to share such intense raw emotion & unabashed honesty. I keep thinking about the strength & courage it must have taken for you to write your “truth”, good, bad and everything in between. As Mothers we are held to a completely diff. standard than any other group. We aren’t supposed to admit our shortcomings or let it be known that we aren’t the “super woman” that we are expected to be. To be able to admit your heartbreaking struggle over the loss of what you had envisioned is beyond strength. I can only imagine the amounts of guilt and confusing emotions running through you that first night, which, I am sure happens to be one of the longest of your life. This brings to mind the saying “The truth will set you free”. Having shared you inner weakness and heartbreak with anyone willing to read had to be completely terrifying for you. Much like a salt shaker dangling over an extremely open wound, not knowing if, under pressure the top would come off and flow unrelentingly over and over and over. Instead, the opposite seemed to have happened. It’s your honesty, bravery and ability to tell your “truth”, without censor that has resonated with thousands in ways you can’t even fathom. Now, with the release of your book & as word spreads I am sure that number will undoubtedly rise & once again immeasurably change the course of many more lives. Your story & the effect it has had is def. a gift from God, through you to all willing to listen. I Thank you for being a soldier. I Thank you for all of the Mothers who have struggled in many diff. ways but been to ashamed to share their own truth. God bless you and I pray you take comfort in knowing that you have made a difference in this world. Your honesty & ability to share uncensored has helped to make this world a more beautiful place. Your Mother & Father should be extremely proud of the Daughter they raised. May God, in his love continue to bless you & guide you through this journey. XO
Janet says
Thank you for sharing the story of moving through grief into great love for your precious bunny!
Karen says
I am struggling to find the words to write to do justice to how I feel right now after reading your story. While I cannot totally relate, there are many parts of your story that are all too familiar to me of my story. When my daughter was born last March I was diagnosed with severe post partum depression, so bad that I would have been hospitalized had it not been for the fact that I did not have the desire to hurt myself or my baby. One of the hardest things about telling my story is the honesty of it all because with honesty comes the vulnerability of shame, guilt, and embarrassment. It is in that honesty, like yours, that makes it authentic and real and relatable. I could go on about what our stories have in common, from not remembering moments and even days to wanting to go back to being pregnant when life was still “normal.” Although I am leaps and bounds better than I was I still am not completely healed and I still work on my PPD every day. I know how hard it is to relive that time by writing your story so thank you for pushing through that pain in order to share it. You are touching so many lives- mine being one of them. You are an amazing woman and mother and I am honored to have a glimpse into your journey. Choose joy each day even when it’s easier not to and rest in the inspiration that you are to so many.
MsMidge says
Wow. I was just recommended your blog for a good read. Knowing nothing about you or your life/family. I am sitting here (in Australia) at work, my job as a “disability carer” that I have had for 16 years, and have to wipe tears the whole way through reading this post. I am currently assisting 4 wonderful and amazing human beings, who just happen to have been born with Downs Syndrome, to live their lives to their fullest potential. And they make me smile every single day. I look foward to reading more of your posts and I KNOW that life must be full of joy for you! Thank you for sharing.
linseypatrice says
When my baby cousin was born with DS I just remember my Mum sobbing on the phone to her brother. Thank you for helping me to understand some of that emotion. What an amazing story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
yoganinja says
your story is amazing. and your daughters are beautiful. I work everyday with special needs adults and I can’t explain how they touch my heart and teach me about myself and the world and love. i wish your family all the best . and thank you for sharing your story.
nzTash says
Hi Kelle – I unexpectedly discovered your blog a few weeks back and have been absolutely captivated! Thank you so much for sharing your life – your words have really touched me, so honest, raw and inspiring. Your beautiful precious wee girls are simply delightful, and they are so blessed to have such a strong, courageous lady like you as their mama. What wonderful family and friends you have – everyone now has a wee place in my heart. I ordered Bloom a few days after finding your blog and eagerly awaited its delivery! There was much excitement as it arrived yesterday morning way down here in New Zealand – some 8000 miles from Florida – its beautiful and I haven’t been able to put it down. Love and hugs x
It's a Beautiful Life... says
Kelle,
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. I want you to know that Dr. Foley was absolutely right. Your Nella is perfect and beautiful. You have been blessed with the most precious gift that God can give you! You have a beautiful family. I am so glad I stumbled upon that book review for Bloom. I bought the book and, literally, could not put it down. It is one that will be reread and shared many times.
xoxo
Courtney
marianne leonora says
wow,i am moved to tears. what a litle wonder of god she is. soo beautiful and perfect. and sooo lucky to have you as her mom!
greetings from norway, Åsne and mother of five.
http://www.marianneleonora.blogspot.com
Yaseen Abbas says
Welcome to this world you little guest when you grew up don’t forget your mother. On every occasion give love and gifts to your parents.
Because they need you ans you need them.
gifts to pakistan
gifts to pakistan
gifts to pakistan
Yaseen Abbas says
Welcome to this world you little guest when you grew up don’t forget your mother. On every occasion give love and gifts to your parents.
Because they need you ans you need them.
gifts to pakistan
gifts to pakistan
gifts to pakistan
jovana says
thank you.
Kandice says
I don’t even know how I found your blog, but I did. And I just read this post and I am lying here in my bed, sobbing and wiping the snot from my nose. This was one of the most beautiful, inspiring, love-filled blog posts I have ever read. Now I’m going to have to go back through and read all the way to the beginning. Thank you for sharing your gorgeous family with us and for your beautiful honesty.
CyndivdB says
Reading this has made me sob ungaurded tears – you are truly an inspiration. Your honesty, clarity and powerful love has overwhelmed me. May your little girl continue to be a shining light in your lives. You are blessed.
Thank you for sharing your pain, sadness, happiness and above all, your love.
Mary A. says
Thank you so much for sharing your story! You have two beautiful daughters and reading about them has been a tremendous blessing. Earlier this week, my husband and I found out that we’re expecting another little girl- and that my quad screen came back with an elevated risk for down syndrome. It’s not a definitive diagnosis, but it definitely has given us a great deal to think about. I felt so many emotions in the time span of that one prenatal appointment. My thoughts went from envisioning my two perfect little girls playing together to will I be able to handle this? Because of this blog, my thought process has now shifted back to envisioning my two perfect little girls playing together- regardless of whether our daughter is born with down syndrome or not. 🙂
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Alyson says
What a beautiful story. I found this page through a Facebook site – it was posted on a comment for a new mom looking for support because her daughter has Down Syndrome. I hope you realize that your bravery is helping others to cope, come to terms, and explore their emotions. What a gift you have given to other mom’s whose little ones are diagnosed with something foreign and scary to mom. And what a blessing you have in that amazing support system! Thank you for sharing your journey, mama…you have blessed us all with it.
Adriana Hartley says
I don’t know I found your blog – but am so lucky I did. I love your soul and how you write and how honest and authentic you are. Your life story is beautiful and thank you for sharing it and touching others. Namaste.
nicole addison says
she is the most beautiful little thing i’ve ever seen. that smiling face! congratulations, what an inspiring story. best wishes for your amazing family.
amycornwell says
This is absolutely beautiful. Tears flowing down my face, you’ve written your story so perfectly. God bless you all!
lbianc says
Thank you so much for sharing your story/journey with us! Finding your blog and reading your story came at the perfect time…I have been struggling with my daughter’s diagnosis (Patricia 4 mo. old). Less than 12 hours after she was born, my OB and a pediatrician on call walked into my room (just me and her) and let me know that she had Down Syndrome – I was shocked at both what they were saying and that they would give me that kind of news without anyone there to support me. I was devastated! However, later that say, a CHOP cardiologist came to let me know that she had Pulmonary Valve Stenosis and thought that she had Noonan Syndrome(which ultimately was the correct diagnosis). So I am still dealing with all that has happened (including heart surgery at 2 months) and trying to let go of the perfect little girl I had in my head before Patrica was born. Reading your blog (and eventually reading your book) has already helped me to try to look at things differently!!! Of course I love my baby more than life itself, but I need to be in a better place for me and my whole family. So thank you again for opening up to everyone and helping so many people…you certainly did that for me!
Lisa Griest (lbianc22@hotmail.com)
Natalie says
Kelle I’ve read this post so many times, and continue to share your blog with my readers, but I’e never commented, so here goes.
This post is nothing but pure white brilliant love.
Nella is such an amazing, strong, funny, beautiful little girl – it’s quite strange to look back at her entrance to this world. I wonder what you would tell the you of two years ago now, knowing all that now know.
Thank you for the sunshine that you share – you a free and wonderful soul.
Irene Western says
I’m on page 194 of “Bloom”…and sweet Nella is peeking at me! Your story has made me laugh and cry and reflect…and relive the moments when my babies (now 21 and 16!) were born! I LOVE your “village” of support and love you have! I’m torn now between wanting to read, read, read it constantly and taking it s-l-o-w and savoring all that you want us to learn from this wonderful story! THANK YOU for sharing you with us!
Adrienne says
Just came across your blog through a friend and I was blown away by your story, your photos and most of all your words. Growing up with a brother who has Down’s Syndrome, I can tell you that you will have rough days, but the love they display will far outweigh anything else. Your doctor sounds like an amazing person and I am so glad that public perception has advanced so much recently. My mother was told by her doctors that my brother would never read, write, walk, talk or eat on his own and should be institutionalized. He does all of that and so much more. I look forward to seeing what Nella’s life has in store. God Bless…. 🙂
Daniela Stevens says
Sheesh!!! How good are you? Blessed beyond words imaginable. Big sister never knew the difference and oh how she adored her instantly!!! This story is priceless, thank you so much for sharing your life with us. Much love Xx Dani
Melissa Sweet Society says
Thank you so much for sharing your amazing story, you are an amazing woman with so much love to give your precious girls… And that’s all you need, love! Whenever in doubt that’s all you have to remember. I have a child with Aspergers/chromosome abnormally and I knew when he was born something was not right but relieved when I found out what it was. Through all the grief and early intervention the thing I held on to most was how how much I loved him… now he is a beautiful 8yr old boy xxx
MystaRei says
I love your story and I think sweet little Nella is so so cute. I love her little face! I think when I had my son I felt i was in a similar space- i had envisioned something so different to the lanky skinny stressed out baby they showed me before taking him to the nicu. I felt guilty for not feeling that overwhelming love that everyone describes but have found as the days have passed and we’ve gotten to know each other my love has grown and i can’t picture life without him now! I seriously think breastfeeding him has helped us to bond also. Congratulations to your family though, i hope you’re all settling in as a family of 4 🙂 xxx
Liz says
What a beautiful story, Kelle! I discovered your site through another blogger I follow and her recommendation was to read this post first. I read it with a heavy heart & tears streaming down my face. You told the story beautifully and Nella is divine, perfect and so incredibly blessed to have been gifted into your family. God knew YOU were the right people to love, nurture and raise her.
I look forward to following your blog and your story as you walk this path called life. You are an inspiration!!
David says
We just found out today that our Daughter has Down syndrome. She was born last week. She is our first. Two of our friends recommended this blog. It helped a lot to realize that everything that we have been feeling is normal for our situation. Thank you for writing your story.
kristenklingbiel says
Kelle,
Your blog post was a reading assignment for a class I’m taking. I have no idea how my professor came across it but I must say I’m glad she did. Your story is one of redemption so beautiful and moving. Thank you for writing. Even strangers are praying alongside you, and this one is going out to buy your book today.
Warmest wishes from Wisconsin. 🙂
Angela Donvenekham says
I really related to your story. I have been through something very similar except my son has very mild facial features and his DS was not detected at birth. I remember feeling the same feelings as you and I remember how dark that time of my life was but we got through it because we loved our little boy more than the world.
You were very lucky to have a doctor that was so loving and caring when you got told the news. We weren’t so lucky and we were left feeling empty and cold.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I cried throughout the whole thing.
Kelly says
I sobbed through your entire story. I wish I could put my words together like you do. Just beautiful.
Nani says
This is amazing. Love how you describe all those feelings. You were honest, deep, and loving. I just cried my eyes out. I believe Nella chose you to be her mother, she knew you were going to be the perfect mother for her. Congratulations!!!
TheAlmostFoodie says
I stumbled upon your page from Harper’s Happenings. I am so glad I did. There are no words for the emotions I felt reading Nella’s Birth Story. Your honesty was refreshing. God bless you and your beautiful family.
simplycontemplating says
What a beautifully painful story. In college I used to babysit for a student wives group and one little boy named Sammy had down syndrome. He was my favorite little guy and taught me so much about life. I loved that boy. May God bless you and your family on your journey.
mimtessa says
Hi, Thank you for sharing your story. I found a link for this blog via momastery.com
The date you wrote this captured my attention. On January 29, 2010 I gave birth do my daughter, Brynn Tessa Foley.
Sadly, she did not have a heartbeat. But, she has changed my life as any child changes her mother, and I am so grateful for the experience.
Muhammad Atif says
Its really nice story about wonderful gift, Send gifts to Pakistan from UK.
Katie Meg says
My friend led my to your site- and I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for telling your story. She sent it to me because I have a 33 year old brother with Down’s Syndrome. We are in the process of adopting and feel like God may be getting at some places in my heart long hidden; trying to open it up more to being fully open to adopting a baby with Down’s Syndrome, if that is His plan for us. I don’t know for sure, but many “coincidences” seems to be lining up. For now, I will soul search and open palms up. Read Nella’s birthing story, and the hidden places of grief and crazy hope start to open. Thank you.
Aleksandra S. says
You are simply amazing. Great foto!
Pozdrowienia z Polski 🙂
Muffin says
Tis is an amazing story. Thank u so much for sharing. About 18months ago I gave birth to a stillborn baby girl withturner syndrome. I’m sure I cryed just about as much as you, but can’t imagine the pain you felt knowing you neede to raise this child. I cried reading this whole story and my heart ached for you. But you wrote the words so delicately and gracefully that I felt as though I was in the room with you feeling every emotion you felt. You are truly a blessed woman to have this opportunity to raise this child. God has something grand in store for you and Nella. Thank you again for sharing.
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Sarah says
This was the most inspiring blog post I have EVER read. {and believe me, I’ve read a LOT of blogs} Thank you for showing me what really matters in this crazy world. We need more people like you.
Anuu says
Truly amazing!! Your girls are so beautiful, real blessings from God!! 🙂 They are also blessed to have a beautiful family 🙂 God bless your family abundantly!!!
joanne bryant says
I loved this story. Came across your pictures on instagram. Nella is so cute- I found myself thinking what a blessing it would be to have a downs baby. And then I decided to visit your blog. Nella’s birth story was so moving. I understand the feelings you described in the beginning, followed quickly by so much love. My daughter was born with a cleft lip and palate. I faced similar short-lived negative emotions followed by overwhelming love upon meeting our sweet baby girl. We are enjoying every minute. And it seems like you are too. Lucky girl, sweet Nella. She has touched so many lives without even trying! Keep sharing your wonderful story.
Sonya says
Thank you for sharing. I cried a lot because it was so much of what we felt when our daughter was born 9 weeks ago. Thank you for giving us a glimpse of this new world of parenting our precious Glory may look like.
Ann says
What a moving blog. But you have 2 lovely little daughters, who are loved and love each other, they will enjoy their cupcake making/playtime/growing up togther.
Hugs.
Saving4Five says
I’m 32 and 13 weeks pregnant. I’ve often wondered what it would feel like if something was wrong. I hope that if that happens I am even half as strong as you. I cried though your whole story. Nella is blessed to have you as a mommy. Thank you for telling your story and being real. I wish you all the luck in the years ahead.
Karen P says
You were chosen to be her mama; you lucky girl!! ( I will not cry anymore and I so love your story)
Fiona says
Your daughters are gorgeous. And your friends and family are amazing! You are one blessed woman. Thank you for sharing this story.
The Beauty Bandits says
this was honestly one of the most beautiful stories i have ever read….thank you so much for sharing <3
Marcella Fisk says
Such an amazing story!!! Thank you so much for having the courage to share your experience… And Nella is beautiful!!
SP says
Hi, I cried all the time while reading the story of the birth of your little girl. I have a 18 month little girl,named Dorothy (means gift from God), who was born with hand deformity. About half of her right hand is missing have only one ‘normal’ finger on that hand. And we, as you, only knew it at birth. Besides, at birth her hormone levels were all over the place and the doctors couldn’t even tell us for 100% if she a boy or a girl. We were sitting at the side of the hospital bed, trying to find out what to tell our friends and relatives during the week (waiting for the DNA) we can’t say if it’s she or he. They were taking blood samples from her ‘good’ hand every day to check out the hormons. I remember telling the doc in tears to leave her hand alone, and take the samples from her feet. You are in a different world just after the birth. Since than she grew into the most beautiful little girl. She manages very well with her ‘bad’ hand. I feel so blessed that I had her. Without her I wouldn’t experienced a lot in life. I wish you the best. Love, Suzanne
KittenKC says
What a beautiful story! And you really are special b/c you were chosen to be this beautiful little girls mother. Not to be too religious, but God would never hand us more than we can handle. She is his blessing. Congratulations on your beautiful family!
Olivia Cole says
I love this so much. Thank you for sharing your story with us (I just found your blog through Pinterest!). My nephew is 9 months old, & he, too, was born with Down Syndrome, & it was a complete shock. I am a nurse, and I knew as soon as I looked at his sweet face. You do grieve over the loss of what you expected, but then there is this perfect, precious, amazing, sweet, beautiful, HAPPY little soul that God has entrusted to our family (& yours & many others), and I feel such gratitude. We worry about what his life will be when he is older, when he starts school, & he has some health problems, but mostly, there is joy & love & gratitude. <3
Christine Marie Fanestiel says
I can’t tell you how touched I am by your story. You didn’t sugarcoat the truth about how you felt and what you went through. Until you’ve been through an experience or been close to someone who’s gone through an experience like this, you just can’t understand the trials and tribulations that parents with Down Syndrome children go through.
A close friend from church gave birth to a little girl with D.S. and they ended up spending weeks and weeks in the hospital when she was born because she had a hole in her heart (that thankfully God healed without the need for surgery) and she needed a feeding tube and more. It was a very trying time for them, especially while trying to make their 3-year-old little boy still feel important. Seeing them so broken was tough but we just had to have faith that God had a plan.
Slowly she healed and God worked His miracles on her and the family. Now she is a beautiful 4-year-old little girl and every time someone sees her a huge smile comes to their face. You forget all those weeks of fear that she might not live through the night and all you see is happiness.
Life isn’t always easy, you have bad times along with the good, but, with a little faith, you make it through.
Jenna says
Thank you so much for sharing your story!! I’m pregnant now with our fourth. My husband and I felt strongly about this soul coming into our family. I often think about this sweet baby being born with a disorder. Your story puts me at ease. Knowing that it’s an opportunity to be a momma to such a special soul. I can’t wait to hear how she is doing and the rest of your precious crew.
Sarah McMurray says
Kelle, I found your blog on Pinterest of all random things…but I have to tell you reading your story about your beautiful family and sweet little Nella rocked my world. It reminded me that each of us is perfect, as we are; we have so much deep value and preciousness…I needed that reminder. Thank you sweet Nella, for reminding me. Prayers and hugs to you all! Congratulations!!
mommab says
Thank you for sharing your most private thoughts with the world. I too am a Mom of a special needs child. The fear, the joy, how it changes your whole world and becomes something entirely different than you imagine, but you wouldn’t change one second of it. God doesn’t give you any more than he thinks you can handle. Have you ever read “Welcome to Holland”? I hope all is well with you and your beautiful family!
Seth, Ash, and Arailia Hendrickson says
I found your beautiful story! You have inspired me! As tears run down my face I feel the love of this precious little baby! She is such a beautiful baby!! Thank you so much for sharing her and your story! I know it will touch many hearts as it has touched mine so greatly!!!
Becca says
She is sooo beautiful! SO BEAUTIFUL. Both of your girls. Nella is a sweet, sweet blessing. I’m so grateful to have read your story. A reminder of everything to be grateful for.
Leroy says
your daughters are gorgeous!
my 21 year old big brother has downs syndrome. i promise you — i’ve never met anyone with a bigger heart than him. if there’s one thing i’ve learned from being with him and other kids with downs it’s that they are the most loving people. your daughter will unconditionally love you, the rest of your family and the friends she will meet along the way. i know there will be difficult times but there will be even more beautiful times. you are both lucky to have each other.
Mommy says
I have read this beautiful story before, but today the Dr. told me that there is a very large chance that one of my twins, my baby b will have down syndrome. I knew I had to read this again, because I have to be there for my child, no matter what. I lay here in my bed, and need a new pillow for tonight as mine is now soaked in tears. Thank you for your beautiful words, God bless your family and precious nella cordelia.
Kayleigh Gilman says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I’ve cried a thousand tears. You inspire me.
themrsscott says
this is possibly the most beautiful story i’ve ever read. thank you so much for sharing. your girls are beautiful and precious gifts. you are truly blessed.
Unknown says
You are the perfect momma for sweet, sweet Nella.
Lauren Perry says
Thank you for sharing this. I think a lot of parents would not want to share the emotion that would come along with the shock of shattered expectations, and would instead share only the love and joy that comes from a baby… no matter how that baby comes into the world. Your story is extremely powerful and I hope that any new parents with babies who aren’t “normal” will read it and know that they are not alone.
AmyClark says
I found this through pinterest. Wha an amazing story of courage, love, and acceptance. I just cried and cried while reading this. It was heart wrenching, but very beautiful. Thank you for sharing your bunny’s story. She is a beautiful baby girl.
CherryTrigg says
You have wonderful and beautiful girls. I am so touched by your story… I am having trouble conceiving and I am getting older and Downs Syndrome risk get higher with age, I am now 34. Your story has touched me so profoundly and makes me realize that no matter what, our children are gifts
Rachel Helms says
Such a beautiful story! Bless your heart. May God bring you much love, laughter, and joy throughout this journey. Nella is such a beautiful and perfect baby girl and she is so lucky to have been blessed with wonderful parents. Thank you so much for sharing your’s and Nella’s story and for being an inspiration to others!
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elle says
Kelle, I have not cried this much for as long as I can remember. From the moment I read “love me. love me. I am not what you expected, but oh, please love me”, tears streamed down my face and I sobbed out loud for the rest of the read. You are an amazing writer, and so inspirational reading every detail on how you got through it all from the moment you realised Nella ‘wasn’t what you expected’. I am currently 22 weeks pregnant with my first Son. The thought of him being born with D.S has crossed my mind plenty of times, and wondering how I would cope. But your story has inspired me, to realise I CAN and WILL love him no matter what.
Thank you so much for sharing such a heart-wrenching yet beautiful story with us all.
You are an incredible woman with 2 gorgeous little girls.
Elle
Kat Downs says
This is why women should have babies when they’re YOUNG. You know, they have tests that could have found this defect. *shakes head*
Ashleigh says
I stumbled upon your blog while I was doing research in preparation for my daughter’s birth after learning she would have Down syndrome. Your blog has been very inspirational. Leila joined our family last week and we are very much in love with her and are looking forward to watching her grow up strong and beautiful. Thank you so much!
Gianluca Gentili says
Forgive my bad English but I really wanted to leave a message in your blog. Marco, my son, was born last June 4th and it has the DS. I’m still full of pain and anger althought all bad thoughts seem to go away when I hold my little guy. My bigger son Alessio, he’s 8 years old, love him. My wife seems to have left all the bad thoughts behind, I still have to reach this goal and I have to thank you about your blog. It’s amazing the way you write down your feelings and show through the pictures the way Nella is living a really good life full of good things and love. I also love photography but since a couple of week ago, I wasn’t in the mood of taking pictures anymore, now you get me inspired again. I wish you, Nella and all your family and friends all the best world has to offer. Gianluca from Rome (IT)
kisimyran says
What a beautiful, beautiful thing. thank you so much for sharing, tears are rolling and my heart is overflowing with happiness for you and your family, although we are strangers you are the proof I needed that honesty and love are the only things needed in this world. I wish you and your wonderful, beautiful family all the best and continued unconditional love, health, and joy.
AmandaJJones says
You are an amazing and brave woman. This has to be the most beautiful story I have ever heard. Thank you for this.
Rebekah says
I now know why i was awakened at 4am. I checked momastery, and that led me to you.
Its been almost 12 years since this day for me, and reading this post had me heaving silent sobs into a paper towel, for a very long time. (staying with friends and fighting to keep quiet.)
The picture of your face right after the pediatrician delivered the news. I know that face, and the thoughts behind it. And your husband, so tender. It broke my heart yet again.
That raw gratefulness as a daily reminder is such a gift. I barely remember my life before Cade, it was horribly perfect.
The sentence I tell friends often,
“For the rest of our days, we will keep each other broken and whole at the same time.”
Thank you for this early am grace-filled reminder.
Rebekah Lyons
http://www.qideas.org/blog/to-cade-and-the-eight-percent.aspx
Ashley says
Kelle,
As I sit at my desk at work, I am completely overwhelmed with emotion. A coffee break on pinterest turned into a journey with you and your family. Since I was little, my biggest dream has been to be a mother. Of course we never know what life has in store, and at 25 I have at least a few more years before I will begin “trying.” My biggest fear has been to have a child with health complications because I waited too long. Statistics show that having children after 30 greatly increases this chance. At first, your story terrified me. By the end, I felt so much respect, hope and love for your journey and your candid way of sharing it that I realized, my fears are irrational. Thank you for sharing. Both your girls truly are beautiful! Congratulations. <3
Ashley
Deniece Carmean says
I’ve heard about your story from my daughters for a long time. I’ve seen your book and I follow you on IG. This is the first time I’ve read your story. It is beyond moving. I felt a few of those tears when my grandson was diagnosed with Autism. But we are all so blessed and thankful. Thank you for sharing your story of Nella.
Deniece Carmean says
I’ve heard about your story from my daughters for a long time. I’ve seen your book and I follow you on IG. This is the first time I’ve read your story. It is beyond moving. I felt a few of those tears when my grandson was diagnosed with Autism. But we are all so blessed and thankful. Thank you for sharing your story of Nella.
Amanda says
This is the most beautiful, honest, and moving story I have ever read. My heart broke and burst for you.. you have an amazing, blessed journey ahead.
Unknown says
The journey of a mothers heart. Knowone is able to understand the depths of our soul when it come to OUR babies. Your journey is just beginning and the life you will share with your sweet baby. I love what you have done here. I am the mother of a fallen hero. My jorney with my son is complete on this earth. If I had only written my thought down over the years they would bring me comfort now. Shawn’s story
Lcpl Shawn P Hefner – Hico’s Hero -CNN iReport
ireport.cnn.com/docs/DOC-449090
http://www.HicosHero.org
healing for you and others in the written word – thank you
Robin Hefner
Proud Gold Star Mom
LCPL Shawn P Hefner
Megan says
She is absolutely gorgeous!!!! I am in awwww! And I just wanted to thank you for being so honest and real.
Amy Belmonte says
I know there are over 3000 posts and your probably wont even see this little one ( lol) but i am a 23 year old who is struggling with alcoholism. i just came across your story and i cannot stop crying. i love your daughter already. she is an amazing miracle and your family is beautiful on the inside and out . I hope i can overcome this disease and have a family as beautiful as yours one day. god bless you and your family . <3 amy
PollyKlein says
Thank u so much for sharing …. I Love the pictures your Friend had taken. Nella is so cute and delightful. Best wishes for you and your two Perfect Little ones!
Katie says
I don’t know you and I’m not even entirely sure how I stumbled upon your story but I wanted to say thank you for sharing such a beautiful blog. You are an inspiration.
Keryn says
You’ll never read this–comment 3,500 and something–but I just had to write how grateful I am for your honesty, for your story, for your skill at writing. My night of sorrow happened at the 20 week ultrasound, and it was a different diagnosis (spina bifida and hydrocephalus), but it was real and raw. Your description brought tears to my eyes because it was so true, all of it, and now I can’t imagine life without my little almost-six-year-old…but I wanted to run away, that August afternoon, with my two older kids and my perfect pregnancy and my idyllic life.
Yet that is the life I have–well, with five kids now–wonderful, perhaps not as idyllic, but infinitely more meaningful. And you brought it all back into focus for me with your words. Even between homework and we-have-scouts-so-pick-up-your-shoes and all, I am so grateful for my blessings.
Thank you.
Just Jen says
What a beautiful, amazing Love Story you’ve written here. A unique wonderful love story, the beginning of a new life in the birth of beautiful Nella, the love of her sister and the love of her parents along with all whom love and support you. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful, raw, honest moment from your life.
_Eve_ says
What a truly beautiful story.
My little sister Stephanie was born when I was 3.5 years old and she has been by far the biggest blessing in my life. She has Downs and everyone I know can’t help but love her. She is so full of pure love and joy. She’s got a personality that lights up the room and a memory that will get you in trouble.
Nella is precious and Lainey looks like she will be a great big sister. It’s really a blessing to be the big sister of some one with DS.
Your story, like many commenters, sounds much like my own Mother’s (which I learned the particulars of many years later).
It can be very painful to love someone so much who will face challenges. I can’t fathom it from your position, but I do have an idea. However it sounds like love abounds in your household. I am so glad to read stories from people like you. You are deserving of many blessings.
Auntie Ali says
I am in tears. Tears for the unconditional love you have for your children. May God bless you all with endless love, patience, hope, faith and may every day be as beautiful as the next.
Sincerely,
A touched reader who stumbled on your story. I’m forever changed.
hikerchica says
Kelle,
I don’t know you but I am 4 months pregnant.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is both incredibly inspiring and breathtakingly beautiful.
You are so blessed.
-Jen
Ann says
This story is amazing. Thank you for writing it. The funny thing is, I am due January 29, 2013 and am reading this years after you wrote it. And loving every word you said.
Thank you for sharing your honest story. It is amazing.
queenOprincesstrio says
Your story is wonderfully written.
And your precious baby is the most beautiful I have ever seen!
What a sweet journey you are embarking on! Much love from a stranger as you get on your way!
Kelly Loves... says
I love your Bunny’s sweet baby smile. Your story brought tears to my eyes.
I am so proud of you for instinctively knowing that you had to mourn your loss of what you imagined in order to be ready to celebrate with a free and open heart.
I’m a mom of 5,3 with special needs, I understand how important it is to allow ourselves some grace.
Patty says
I just found your story today and was so touched by it. I will be sharing your post with good friend of mine is a momma of a beautiful little girl like your Nella who is about the same age as she is now. She too is a beautiful brave momma of a perfectly beautiful gift of a daughter just as you are.
Your words are so beautiful and powerful. Tears were streaming down my face as I read…your account took my breath away as you shared your mourning of the loss of the baby that was envisioned and how you fell hard in love with your beautiful Nella.
Thank you for sharing your story and the deep places in your heart with us.
Kate Sanders says
That was such a heart-warming and beautiful story!
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Katiebttns says
I saw a link to your story on Pinterest, and as a nurse who works in a birthing center and the neonatal ICU, I was drawn in by a picture of Nella with a caption of “incredible story. warning: break out the tissues before you start reading!”
To be completely honest, I started reading, realized it was going to be long and selfishly thought, “I don’t have the time for this.” So I just scrolled through, glancing at pictures, until the words “down syndrome” popped out at me. I immediately scrolled to the top and started reading every word. It was after nearly five years of working with children who have developmental delays that I went to nursing school to do more for this population, so to see my passions coming together pulled me right in.
Thank you for your honestly, your courage, and your willingness to share this with the world. After realizing that little Nella must be nearly three now, I wouldn’t be surprised if you have seen this or if someone else has posted it (over 3500 comments!), but I feel compelled to share it with you nonetheless:
WELCOME TO HOLLAND
by
Emily Perl Kingsley.
c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this……
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away… because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
You have two beautiful, wonderful daughters. And they have one beautiful, wonderful mama. Thank you so much for sharing your story, Kelle.
Karlene Hamm says
Beautiful!! Cried like a little baby!! What a blessing you have!!
Cahli Heath says
Such a beautiful story. Your daughters are perfect. They will both grow to be beautiful intelligent and strong women. You are so blessed. Thank you for sharing your story and letting me cry with you and feel the pain you felt and the joy you will continue to feel. May God continue to bless your perfect family!
Madi says
Wow. I just read the whole birth story and I nearly burst into tears myself. But I am so glad Nella was gifted with parents like you and I can’t wait to hear how God is going to use her life! I met a little boy with Down Syndrome this summer and you could instantly tell. But I also talked to him and he was very fun to be around! Nella’s life will not be the usual- but that’s what makes life fun, right? She truly is a beautiful baby!
-Madi
Dayna Hickman says
This is beautiful. I cried. The fact is that my cousin has DS. She had/has many more health problems than your baby, but my aunt chose to love her anyway. Precious. Precious. Precious.
vww says
Congratulations on your two beautiful babies. You are an amazing Mum to have told your story so honestly. I know it will give support to others who are going through the same emotions.
Sarah B. says
What a powerful and beautiful story. Your heartbreak, your acceptance, and your love was wonderfully placed down here. Nella is a lucky girl and you are a lucky mama with two beautiful children.
I Sell Shakes says
Wow…what an amazing story. I am in love with baby Nella, you, your family, your friends, your dad! LOL! I pray so many wonderful more stories and blessings for this precious little angel God has given you to raise! With this kind of love around her…she will be a ROCK STAR!!! Thanks for your courage to share!
Paige says
I sobbed as I read the beautiful words you wrote. The honesty was incredible, and the pictures of your beautiful girls were inspiring.
Shea says
I just found your blog today but feel like I’ve read this birth story before. It’s possible one of the other blogs that I follow shared your story back when Nella was born. Anyway, just wanted to say that Nella’s birth story was absolutely beautiful, just like her! 🙂 I’m now off to read more in your blog!! 🙂
mikechat says
What a BEAUTIFUL and inspiring story. My heart is touched in so many ways. May God bless you and your precious family, your girls are gorgeous!!
S Sinha says
You are such a beautiful family! God bless you all.
victoria kelly says
I think you are amazing. This story warmed my heart. Your honesty is truly beautiful. My mother left me and my four siblings at a young age and I have always been afraid I’d do the same. Your story has shown me the power of a true mother’s love and I am truly inspired by you.
Jenn says
I came through your blog through your most recent post about DS awareness, and immediately clicked on your birth story. It was beautiful. Powerful. Amazing. — I am a new mama myself and this is such an amazing testament to love, its inspiring. Thank you for writing this. <3 Nella <3
Rebecca Rivas says
What a beautiful story…my older brother has down syndrome. When he was born he was taken away from my parents and the doctor suggested he be institutionalized. They said (hell) no! He is the best big brother I could ever ask for. I’m so glad times have changed and there is acceptance and love waiting for babies with down syndrome. – RR
Susan Struck says
Congratulations! Thank you for writing this beautiful story of love.
Tracy says
What a beautiful story, thank you so much for sharing…You are such a special person
morganramirez.com says
Wow! This is absolutely beautiful. Im at a loss for words. Your family is perfect!
alilacole says
You don’t know me but i found this page on pinterest. I had a similar experience with the birth of my second child. I had a perfect pregnancy and a perfect delivery but right away I felt something was wrong. My baby boy didn’t act right, always slept. He was rarely awake and i kept trying to get people to realize something was wrong. When my son was 4 days old he stopped breathing while in my husbands arms. My whole stopped!!! I screamed for him to wake up and slapped his feet and finally he started breathing. 2 days later we discovered he had epilepsy. It took a while for me to accept that my perfect world was changed now. He is now a healthy 2 year old and he has been seizure free for 19 months. I am so grateful god chose me to be his mother:) You are a strong woman and I am so blessed to have read your story.
Ashley Keheley
Coley says
I’m not sure how I stumbled upon this story, but let me tell you, I am so glad I did. Your bravery, courage, and love came through in every word. Thank you for having the strength to tell this beautiful story. May God continue to bless you and your beautiful family!
AliciaG says
This is the most beautiful story. You are so honest and real with your emotion! I literally am at work crying after reading how amazingly beautiful this story is. Your little girls are very lucky to have you as a mother! Congratulations on your beautiful little bunny, Nella! I look forward to reading more from you!
Jeremy and Naomi says
Wow, what a wonderful beginning to your story with so much more greatness to come! You and your daughters are BEAUTIFUL! I cried thru your whole story!
I come from a family of 10, I’m #8, my mom had a “surprise” pregnancy 7 years after #9 and my youngest sister has DS. I was only 9 when she was born so I didn’t understand, I didn’t understand why my oldest sisters were crying and upset, I got she was different but not really how. I remember being proud of my sister and very protective of her over the next several years. We had so much fun together growing up, quite the little personality:) She is going to be 23 this month and what a fine woman she has become – so much love and so very thoughtful of others:) Anytime I see a child with DS I instantly feel love for them and feel the urge to cry, not out of sadness but because they have such a special spirit they just touch my heart. Blessings to you and your family! hugs:)
Julianne Donaldson says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. You lifted my soul and reminded me of what is really important in life. God bless you and your sweet family.
Brandi says
Welcome to Holland! I’ve been here for 17-1/2 years. I’m a mom to 4 kids (20, 17, 14, and 5). My daughter is 17 … she was born with Spinal Muscular Atrophy. It has only taken me 2-1/2 years to find you and say hello … and welcome you and your beautiful family!!! I held it together reading Nella’s birth story … until the very last line. Then I lost it. Completely. You are so very right … you were chosen because Nella needed someone just like you to be her mommy. You will form a bond with Nella that, believe it or not, grows stronger and deeper and more complete each and every minute of the day. You will know her better than she knows herself. You will know her better than you know YOURself. You have been blessed with something very powerful … you are now able to see all of the little things that everyone living in that “other” place will never be fortunate enough to see. Those of us in Holland appreciate EVERY little thing … and then some. We are able to take things slower and breathe EVERY little thing in. Life becomes much sweeter for us here. Of course, NO ONE believes this at first … but the longer you’re here, the easier it is for you to see that Holland is a very special place full of the greatest group of people on Earth. And there truly is nowhere else you would rather be. Welcome to my Holland family!
Brandi says
I just have to say that I’m LOVING reading all of your posts. I do believe that your blog is officially my most favorite one. I started out with Nella’s birth story, but quickly see that you’ve embraced Holland and are showing the world how beautiful life is here. Thank you for sharing your experience!!! I’m going to enjoy getting to know you and your family through your blog.
Kelby Lou says
I stumbled upon this this afternoon with only the hopes of being distracted from midterms. Little did I know, it would completely change the way I look at life and opportunity. Thank you so much for telling your story (and Nella’s, of course!). I am in undergraduate school, hoping to go on to medical school to become a pediatrician, and it’s stories like this that only make that passion stronger. I am thankful for children like Nella, who make you realize what this life is truly about – showing the unconditional love of Christ to others.
May God bless you and your beautiful family.
YariBella says
All I have to say is that your family is just perfect! God bless your girls, your husband & you =) Your story brought tears to my eyes, not sad ones, but ones full of happiness to hear your story. I am only 24 years old but I hope that if that were me one day that I would be as strong as you.
GOD BLESS! <3
Alta Robinson says
I feel truly blessed just to have read your story. You and your family are amazing. Your friends are so strong and supportive. You are all truly blessed. Thank you for sharing. Please continue to post. I would love to see how your family pulls through. Such strength…Such heart…Such love…
Tina Iliff says
I just found your story on Pinterest. I have to tell you that I cried all the way thru. I truly think this is the most beautiful story I have ever heard. You really touched my heart and I just want to say that she is perfect in so many ways!
Tina Iliff says
I just found your story on Pinterest. I have to tell you that I cried all the way thru. I truly think this is the most beautiful story I have ever heard. You really touched my heart and I just want to say that she is perfect in so many ways!
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Meaghan Williams says
I know this is a few years too late but you’re story is very touching. My baby sister was born with down syndrome 9 months ago and the emotions you described were experienced by us as well. Thank you for sharing
Nicole Stoen says
Beautiful, inspiring, lovely words. The honest, raw truth of your experience is so moving. I am certain that your daughter will have a beautiful life because of her loving family.
Cinde says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I have tears in my eyes and have been reminded of what truly matters in this life… family and love. Best to you and your sweet family.
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Tracey Howard says
Such a beautiful love story, you are truly an inspiration. I thought you might like this:
Welcome to Holland
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this……
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”
“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”
But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay. The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away… because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But… if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.
Emily Perl Kingsley 1987
Brian Pla says
God bless you and your beautiful girls. As I wait for the birth of my daughter soon as the unknown looms as a possibility because of a genetic precursor… I almost refused to read this blog. But I am glad I did, I now know that I am ready for whatever God gives us. I now know that I will love her no matter what.
Thank you for sharing your story with us, I felt every pang of emotion as I read. It was hard not to cry at work… thank you for your strength and your love.
That is what I felt most of all, felt it in my own chest, in the depths of my heart, I felt your love for that child. God bless her and you. Thank you.
Lexy says
I don’t know you, but I think that this is the most inspiring, precious story. Thank you so much for sharing your story, you are amazing and I feel blessed just hearing it.
Emmy says
I’m so glad you shared this story. I want to share mine with you quickly – I am the younger sister of a beautiful woman with down syndrome. She is the sweetest, kindest, most loving soul I have ever had the grace to know. Yes it’s different. Sometimes rough. But know that the more love, support, and energy you put into her, the more joy and love she will give back to everyone around her.
You and your family are so blessed to have her in your life (as I’m sure you know now).
Congratulations on your gorgeous and amazing baby girl.
misty Crawford says
Was setting here sipping on my morning coffee and multi-tasking with my 2 1/2 yr old and pinning some stylish outfits for my imaginary wardrobe, I happened by the most beautiful photo’s of a sweet baby girl. Feeling strongly compelled to read on and I did with tears and tissues. What an incredible, beautiful, heart felt story. What a blessed mother you are and what blessed children for God to give them to you! Thank you for sharing your story and for touching my life in ways you will never know!
Ashley J @ MommyByDayCrafterByNight says
Thanks for this beautiful post. It made me cry. As someone who grew up with ds in my family, it makes my heart beam to meet others who feel as blessed as I am to get to be a part of their special lives. It’s such a blessing. She is an angel… Enjoy your little bunny. xoxo
PaperFlora2 says
…and a beautiful story it is!!
God bless you and your amazing family.
Sarah says
I found the link to your story on Pinterest. Oh my goodness it is the most beautiful birth story I have ever heard. I am expecting my first baby after a miscarriage earlier this year. I’ve been so afraid of all the unknowns, wondering if my baby would be healthy and if this one will make it, not trusting my body to do what it was designed to do. I am no longer afraid. Your story changed my life. Congratulations on your sweet angel. God must love and trust you so much to send such a sweet spirit to your home!
The Erickson Five says
THANK YOU! Your story is Beautiful! I Cried so hard! Last Fall we lost what would have been our 4th. I would Rather have had a baby that had Donws Syndrome or something else than to have lost ours. You were meant to be her Mama and she your daughter! May God bless you through out your lives and be a Beacon of Love and hope. God Bless.
bdschad says
Just found your blog tonight. What a beautiful story. Love seeing pictures of your little girls now. You are very blessed!
Ashleyplus2.5 says
I saw your story on pinterest and had to read it. Tears fell as I scrolled down the page and read your beautiful story. They fell even harder when I looked at the beautiful pictures of your family and all those precious moments that were captured. You are such a strong mother and don’t ever thing other wise. You have 2 beautiful daughters and so much to be proud of. Congrats to you on your amazing little Bunny and I pray nothing but happiness and memories for your families future!!!
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Clare says
At first, I was heartbroken and mad when I started reading this blog post. I was upset because my sister was born with cerebral palsy. While that is not the same as D.S, it still bothered me. I was upset that It was that hard for you to cope with your daughter being born with down syndrome, and the fact that you wanted to run away from it and said how sad you were. BUT then, I continued reading your post and saw how you over came those feelings.
I know it may be hard to realize at first, but you were given such a beautiful gift. Many women aren’t able to have children, and you were one of the lucky ones. Cherish it. Nella needs you and your love. She is one of the most amazing things that can happen to you. I wouldn’t be the person I am today if my sister was never born. Though she is different than the “norm”, she is absolutely amazing. She sees life as a privilege, she sees struggles as easy obstacles, and she sees acceptance as something easily attainable. Nella will grow up to be a beautiful young lady and will one day thank you for everything you do… I am so proud of you and all you have overcome. I wish the best for you and your family and a great life for Nella.
Clare says
At first, I was heartbroken and mad when I started reading this blog post. I was upset because my sister was born with cerebral palsy. While that is not the same as D.S, it still bothered me. I was upset that It was that hard for you to cope with your daughter being born with down syndrome, and the fact that you wanted to run away from it and said how sad you were. BUT then, I continued reading your post and saw how you over came those feelings.
I know it may be hard to realize at first, but you were given such a beautiful gift. Many women aren’t able to have children, and you were one of the lucky ones. Cherish it. Nella needs you and your love. She is one of the most amazing things that can happen to you. I wouldn’t be the person I am today if my sister was never born. Though she is different than the “norm”, she is absolutely amazing. She sees life as a privilege, she sees struggles as easy obstacles, and she sees acceptance as something easily attainable. Nella will grow up to be a beautiful young lady and will one day thank you for everything you do… I am so proud of you and all you have overcome. I wish the best for you and your family and a great life for Nella.
Melissa says
My heart sank…and the tears poured in…by the way my eyes poof up like rocky’s too!! Your sister said the most important words …you were chosen…that you were, she is blessed to have a mommy like you! If there were only more people like you in this world it would be a much more better place…you give hope.
sibel rodriguez says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story….calling her “bunny”, I like it…it conveys so much love…I have cried so much, but the tears are full of joy….Your pictures speak a thousand words, thank you for sharing them with everyone.
Rosie says
You don’t know me I stumbled across your post through the wonderful pinteres. God truly blessed me by letting me find this! You are an incredible mother! As much as God has blessed you by giving you your girls he has given them by giving them you as their mother! I am the guardian of another incredible “unique” gift of God and at 13 she’s beautiful, funny, and the most helpful genuinely sweet girl I’ve ever known! Thank you for your story! God bless you, Bunny, and your entire family!
Rosie says
You don’t know me I stumbled across your post through the wonderful pinteres. God truly blessed me by letting me find this! You are an incredible mother! As much as God has blessed you by giving you your girls he has given them by giving them you as their mother! I am the guardian of another incredible “unique” gift of God and at 13 she’s beautiful, funny, and the most helpful genuinely sweet girl I’ve ever known! Thank you for your story! God bless you, Bunny, and your entire family!
Amber Ellen says
This is the third time I have read Nella’s birth story and it still makes me cry. I had a similar experience with my son, and your story has helped me look at the positive & beautiful and learn & laugh at the tough moments when I remember that day.
Thank you so much xo
Kate says
I am crying so hard at how beautiful your story is. I don’t have children with DS but both of my girls were flagged for increased risk in the womb, and I had to wrestle both times with what that life would be like. You have discovered the joy and beauty of that life. Thank you for your honesty and for your bravery in sharing your story. Love and blessings to you, Nella, Lainey and Brett.
laura says
wow. i just found your blog reading your pumpkin carving party post. then i saw the if you are new start here & i clicked on it & have cried a bucket of tears as i read this amazing story. your story. thank you so much for sharing. we are awaiting the birth of our third child in may (after much difficulty with previous pregnancies & our son born at 29 weeks suddenly) i can identify somewhat with your story. i look forward to reading more of your blog & thank you for taking time to do it. just wanted to say thank you. laura
Mikkiwin says
I think you are amazing. You’re family is so lucky to have you to inspire their lives. Both of your girls are absolutely stunning! I have to say, every person with Down Syndrome I have ever met exudes unconditional love that the world could use a lot more of! A true reflection of Jesus Christ’s love. I so very much appreciate your story, especially your honesty. You have an amazing talent for writing and a very perfect family and I know you all will continue to be blessed beyond your imagination!!!
Rae says
I NEVER cry from reading stories, no matter how sad they are. This brought me to tears. I am sitting in my college library, reading this and all I can think of is..how unbelievably wonderful and brave you are. I cannot imagine it being easy dealing with (at first, at least) a newborn with Down Syndrome. Your daughter is gorgeous, and so is your eldest daughter. Such a beautiful story and family. I wish you guys much happiness!
Lacie says
You have thousands of comments already, but I wanted to say something. Your story brought me to tears because it sounds very similar to how my mom felt the day that my sister Justine was born with Down Syndrome.
Not only was I crying for your pain, but for the happiness I am so excited for you to have. My sister is now 22 and there have been challenging times, but she is the constant ray of sunshine in my life. I am in the same position as your little Lainey. The oldest child with my sister Justine right after me. I feel SO blessed to be her big sister and would not want it any other way.
The same goes for my family. In fact, when their third child was going to be born, my mom found my dad praying that the child would have down syndrome.
I am so excited for you to experience the large amount love that only these special sort of spirits can contain and share with the world. No one else can love that way!
MamaFeather says
Your words- fear, joy, pain and true love- are astoundingly beautiful. Thank you for sharing all of it.
Zenna says
This is one of the most beautiful stories I have ever heard. The lesson you have taught all of us through this is one so profound it leaves me speechless. Life isn’t about the small things like the weather, the traffic, the stress, ect. It’s about love. And how could you ever care about anything else when you have that absolutely beautiful, perfect blessing in your arms every day. Your family is so strong. The world could really learn something from your family and that darling little Nella.
Kory says
Nella is so beautiful and I absolutely love the photo of you and her smiling, it absolutely captures the love and bond between you.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story, your beautiful pictures and your beautiful girls with the world.
Annette Zapolis says
I am the older sister of a disabled child. Our Catherine, endearingly called C.C., has changed my life in so many wonderful ways. She just turned 23. She is happy, loving, has friends and loves animals. Her life has been difficult at times, but the simple joys we often miss in our “normal” busy lives, make her happy- and thats all that matters, because thats what life is all about.
Ashleigh Spagnuolo says
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read on the internet. Your honesty…there are no words. Your little darling angel girl is so lucky to have you for a mom…but you are also so lucky to have her.
Meagan Phillips says
I have not had kids yet but never even thought of something other than the joy of having a perfect child. Your story was amazing and opened my eyes to real life and not just day dreams. I admire your raw honesty and I appreciate it. Thank you so much for sharing your story and blessing so many people with true love.
Meagan Phillips says
I have not had kids yet but never even thought of something other than the joy of having a perfect child. Your story was amazing and opened my eyes to real life and not just day dreams. I admire your raw honesty and I appreciate it. Thank you so much for sharing your story and blessing so many people with true love.
Katie Boscarino says
Thank you for sharing your birth story! I cried as I read it – in all your honesty and heartache. Thank you for being real and opening up this part of your heart, so that others may hear the story of your precious baby girl. May God bless you and your family!
Mama J says
You are so incredibly blessed. Your family is beautiful and Nella is such an amazing gift. She is so special she has an extra chromosome! Congratulations! I have two boys and both were early and spent time in the NICU. My youngest is 10 months old and spent the first month of his life in the hospital, but I wouldn’t change anything. God doesn’t give us more than we can handle. I wish you so many wonderful years of happiness with your girls, family and friends.
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Erika Cannaday says
A dear friend of mine recently was told her baby may have Down Syndrome. They weighed the risks and the possibilities and continued the pregnancy. In her subsequent research, she found your blog and I know it gave her comfort. She prepared for the “worst” and hoped for the best.
Her baby girl was born with Down Syndrome earlier this week. I don’t know how to be there for her other than to encourage her, remind her of her daughter’s beauty and wonder, and to listen. So reading your blog has helped me too. I cannot be in her head and cannot imagine what she is feeling, but I feel like I can better support her having just reread your birth story.
Thank you for being courageous enough to share. Thank you for showing all the beauty behind the pain. Thank you for helping her and thank you for helping me too.
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This made me cry and smile you have such a blessed little family and I really enjoyed reading this story thank you so much for writng your birth story and being willing to share it with others.. God Bless you.. If I ever have kids I hope I am as brave and strong as you.
Ellie Loton says
Kelle, this is the most beautiful story I have ever read…I cried through the entire thing.
Nearly nineteen years ago my younger brother and I eagerly awaited our new baby brother or sister. I remember being so happy when I heard she was a girl (my three-year-old brother was not so impressed, as he wanted a boy!). And when our grandparents took us to the hospital to see her it was exciting and wonderful and oh-so-special!
It didn’t take me long to realise she was even more special…my baby sister had Down Syndrome and my mum made sure that even though I was four years old I would understand from the beginning that people might treat her differently…that we had to take extra special care of her because she would need our love and support even more.
I can honestly say that Amy is the best thing that’s ever happened to my family. She has driven me up the wall more times than I can remember…but that’s what sisters do, right? Just by simply being who she is she has made us better people, opened our hearts more to love and acceptance, has given more love than anyone else I know. She is quirky and a little bit different, but she’s so full of joy and sweetness that everyone she meets falls in love with her. Mum had to fight harder for her than she did for my brother and me to make sure she was treated fairly and given the opportunities she needed to help her. Mum always told me she knew when she was pregnant that Amy would be extra-special; I think she awaited her birth with her mama-bear instincts on red-alert to fight for her baby!
Amy finished high school last week. She was so ready to be done with school even though she always enjoyed it. She has special tutoring at home for practical money knowledge, guitar lessons and most especially painting, which she has taken to really well (no way I could do what she does!). I’m so proud of my baby sister…even though I will never swap clothes or shoes with her (because she’s so tiny compared to me!), or have conversations about life the way I can with my brother or friends. She has made me such a better person than I would have been without her, and for that I will always be grateful.
So yes, although it will be hard for you sometimes, although it will be hard for Nella herself sometimes…it will be worth everything! She will make your family so special…will be the little gem you never even knew you needed. Treasure her, because there will be no one else in the world like her!
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mcalabu says
Oh my goodness, I cried reading your beautiful story. I could relate yo so much to it, I was there when my grand daughter was born, I knew the moment I saw her, and she was rushed to the NICU because they knew she had a heart defect. I never cried when our little Faith was born, but I cried later wondering if she would survive, wondering what her life would be like. My daughter and her husband didn’t have a lot of time to think about the Ds, they were so concerned about her survival. That was over 3 years ago, it is a beautiful journey and we and your family are indeed blessed.
jenhall says
I happened upon your blog on pinterest and I thank the lord I did. What an awesome spiritual experience. Thank you for sharing it with me. My heart is so full of love for you and your family and I’ve never met you, God is good. Your little one is the most beautiful baby. She is so lucky tks have come to you. What a blessing. May god could continue to bless your life.
Tammigirl says
I love you for sharing your story. It’s pain and fear and bitterness and beauty and gratitude beyond measure all baked together. It’s delicious!
Moncia says
THis is the best story ive read in a really long time. I am an ultrasound student and see some pretty sad things some times. It makes me so happy to hear tat god chose you as her mom. I have always thought that babies with down syndrome were some of the most beautiful babies with the biggest hearts and so joyful. I wish the best of luck to you and your family and I honestly thing your daughter is one of te most most beautiful little girls ive ever seen. she looks so full of life. And again its go good to hear uplifting stories like this.
Destiny says
Just found this story on pinrerest and wanted to thank you for writing it. I am currently 24 weeks pregnant w my 4th (a boy) and have been put on strict hospital bed rest due to pprom. The doctors are giving scary news and neonatologists are preparing me for what lies ahead w an extremely premature baby and reading your story helped me to admit to myself that I am terrified of having a baby that is “not normal” and once I did, I just felt a peace that I don’t care what his life looks like, as long as he has the best chance at the best one he can have! I honestly do not feel afraid anymore after reading this! Blessings and blessings and blessings on u and your family for your courage to write the deepest most hidden things in a woman’s heart! Thank you!
Lynda Dickens says
You are an amazing woman and your story really moved me. your daughters are both so beautiful and lucky to have a loving mother like you. Nella is such a beautiful angel and this story brought tears to my eyes. stay strong.
Kevin Oswald says
My wife and I began the journey of life with a beautiful daughter with DS over 20 years ago. I was told at the time that one day we’d see it as a blessing. We have and it didn’t take long to see it. It is and continues to be an amazing journey.
Pink Bee says
Kelle,
I ran across this story on pinterest this morning and it touched my heart like nothing has ever touched it before. I sat here reading your story and tears fell from my eyes about half way through. You have a beautiful family and a beautiful daughter. Thank you for sharing your story. Life is truly a blessing and I feel like I may have been taking things for granted for so long and your words humbled me this morning. I love your blog, and again, thank you.
Ashley
Karmen says
Beautiful story of a beautiful little girl! Thank you for sharing it with all of us.
Kate Rodwell says
what a perfect little princess she is
El Cascabel says
I never cry but I just did reading your story. Your story will prove to be an inspiration for many. God has given you a gift! God bless you and your beautiful family!
Amanda Burch says
Thank you for posting your story, you have no idea how you have helped me to view my pregnancy. Im 16 weeks and just found out that my son will have down syndrome, your story has helped put more of mine together. And help me to realize that no matter what there are ppl in life to help you through it. thank you love.
Just Wild About Teaching says
amazing story…thank you for sharing it…just realized this was posted so long ago…cant wait to see her being a big girl =)
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Kellie-Marie says
this is seriously, the most beautiful story i have ever had the privaledge of reading. your story has changed my outlook on life. i cried throughout this entire story. congratulations to your beauitful family.
Monika says
I stumbled upon your blog looking for party ideas. Can I just tell you how amazingly beautiful you are inside and out and how gorgeous your daughters are! Thank you for your honest, beautiful love story. You had me in tears to read such power of love and joy in your heart. Congrats on your blissful family!
YOU ARE SUCH A POWER HOUSE! Nella and all that you know are better people because of your amazing spirit and example!
THANK YOU FOR SHARING your personal moments. WOW!!
Ofa Atu,
From FLORIDA
SouthernHeart says
Somehow…I found you and your precious bunny’s story and how glad I am I did. Beautiful, powerful love story. Your daughters are absolutely beautiful!
Blessings,
Dianne
http://www.sweetjourneyhome.com
Stephanie Harrigan says
I’ve been following your blog for a while but this is the first time I’ve read the story of Nella’s birth. Just beautiful… it totally made me cry at work. 🙂
Natalie Hall says
Wow, what an amazing love story. Thank you so much for sharing your incredibly beautiful, emotional and real journey. The photographs are absolutely beautiful. You are so strong and your family is perfect just the way it is! Congratulations! ;0). -Natalie
Emma Elliott says
I have only just read this through link from a friend, you are amazing and strong and your story is beautiful xx
quietbpd says
What an amazing story. You and your family and new little baby are amazing people. I wish you all the very best. X
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Crystal Abbott says
Thank you so much for sharing your story with everyone. I’m 29 years old and hoping to have a little one someday and in all honesty, I have always worried about the possiblility of having a child with DS or another type of disability. I worry about loving the child the way he/she deserves to be loved and whether or not I would feel differently for them, but after reading your blog, you have taken a lot of those worries away and shown me how beautiful my child will be no matter what. I look forward to reading all of your blogs. God Bless you and your family.
jiffy says
beautiful… the story, your family, your girls… thanks for sharing
Brandy says
Boy did I cry. Partly connecting, partly from a fear I remembered. She is absolutely beautiful and lucky to have such a wonderful, accepting mother.
Alex says
This is so amazing. This happened to me also. And I’ve never been able to express it like this. My little guy passed away after a week in the NICU and I was so wrapped up in the grief of his loss that I’ve had a hard time articulating the tornado of emotions I felt when he was born and they told me he had down syndrome. I am so sad to not be a part of that world. But, I am grateful to read this and remember that week of my life.
Alex says
This is so amazing. This happened to me also. And I’ve never been able to express it like this. My little guy passed away after a week in the NICU and I was so wrapped up in the grief of his loss that I’ve had a hard time articulating the tornado of emotions I felt when he was born and they told me he had down syndrome. I am so sad to not be a part of that world. But, I am grateful to read this and remember that week of my life.
Nelly says
I came upon your blog by chance and I have to say this is the most beautiful and touching thing I’ve read. This was such a touching reminder of the unexplainable bond between a mother and child. Thank you for sharing.
Monica says
She is beautiful. I love the pic of you kissing her cheek and her eyes are looking at you, and the pics of you and her skin to skin. oh and those pink booties she’s wearing with the Dr, OMG. She is gorgeous and she looks like you. What a blessing!
Jen Angel says
This was one of the most beautiful stories I have ever read! What a beautiful gift you have been given! I appreciated how honest and heart wrenching real you were. You talked about all the things that people don’t know and some will never understand. You are a hero…many blessed years to you and your family!
nadia mah says
thank you for being so honest and openly vulnerable. i admire how courageous and strong yo are. you and your family are beautiful.
Keeley M. says
My mom’s sister has down syndrome and moved in with my family when my nana went into a nursing home. I was seven and had enormous struggles with people in our lives. She, even now that I am seventeen, is the most loving, beautiful person I am lucky enough to know. The ignorance of others towards her has just brought better, more compassionate people to me. Your older daughter is absolutely blessed just as your whole family is and, really, everyone she comes in contact with. My aunt, Kay Girl, is 44 now and my absolute favorite person in the world and truly my hero. Please post more about your lives together. I would love to see! Congratulations!
Keeley
KelseyB says
This is a truly beautiful story.. My younger brother has d.s and I couldn’t of asked for a more perfect brother.. My mom always said kids like this are gifts.
Christine McCluskey says
Even if Nella had been born without Down Syndrome I would have loved you for describing your desire for and birthing of a child in such loving detail. I want kids, but I feel the world is so full of fear and apprehension about having them. I feel so refreshed at having read about your experience, because you truly wiped away my fear. Thank you so much.
lost in thought says
What a beautiful story…that isn’t even the right word for it, because it is so real. I truly admire you for your courage and blunt honesty in the retelling, and I wish I could wrap my arms around you and engulf you in the biggest hug ever! I have two little boys in the NICU, born 10 weeks early on Halloween morning…my first-born weighed 3 lbs 7oz, my second weighed 1 lb 14oz. They were passed straight into the NICU. I never got to hold them, kiss them, nurse them. As a new mom-to-be I also had built up in my head some beautiful expectations of how it would be…it is so hard when you have to completely abandon those expectations and face your new reality. But you do. Somehow you adjust. And I have learned to love my tiny, perfect angels just as you have learned to love Nella…past all the stereotypes. Somehow they teach us the meaning of unconditional love and we are so much better for the learning. I pray that blessings rain down on you and your beautiful family, from now until forever. Thank you for touching my heart with your love story. ~Heather
Joan D. says
Dear Kelle!
What an amazing Love Story!!! I want to thank you so much for sharing your Entire story. 25 years ago I had a similar situation with lots of feelings of doubt & insecurity about being able to handle a child with disability. I never told anyone these feelings because I felt like such a Bad Mother to even have these feelings. I have held it against myself for all those years. It has haunted me at times. You have freed me of those feelings! You have showed me that it is a normal reaction to a very emotional situation. I did Not judge you like I did myself. I can now forgive myself & realize that it was Not horrible to have those feelings. I have reached out & told somebody about this too. I feel so free now of that horrible guilt. By sharing your story honestly you gave me an amazing gift!!!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!!
A very warm & grateful hug to you!
Joan
Jourdan Richardson says
i sobbed throughout this entire story. i sobbed because i witnessed this in May of 2010. My aunt whom i am very close with had had a normal pregnancy, just the same as her other three. she was 37, so she had to have the genetic testing and all of that fun stuff. everything came back completely normal. on May 11th we get the phone call that miss clare madelyn had been born at 8 pm. we were ecstatic and couldn’t wait to meet this little miracle. then we get another call at 6am, and it is my aunt sobbing, telling us that clare had down syndrome, and had heart and lung complications. we immediately packed up the car and drove to milwaukee as fast as we possible could. my mother and i had to be there for her. when we arrived clare was getting aspirated for the second time because her diaphragm had filled up with air again. when we finally got there, she was the most beautiful baby i had ever seen. and she didn’t even look like she had DS. she looked pretty normal. i had a hard time accepting it. i swore up and down to myself that the doctors had it wrong. the next couple days were good. clare had looked like she was improving and would be just fine after she had a heart surgery in a couple months to repair the two holes in her heart. But about 10pm on the 13th, we get a call to come to the hospital immediately. clare had taken a turn for the worse. my aunt and uncle called a chaplain to baptize her, and i was named as her honorary godmother. (i couldn’t become her actual godmother because i wasn’t catholic). we left soon after to let my aunt and uncle spend the last few precious hours left of clare’s life alone with her. she died early in the morning on the 14th.
so cherish your miracle. she is beautiful, and she is alive. my godbaby isnt and i think about her every second of every day. <3
Heather says
This is by far one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I cried tears of sadness and pain for you and then sheer joy. Blessings sometimes come in the most unexpected (but amazing) packages. My love to you and yours.
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carmel says
What a beautiful story-well done for sharing, not many of us would ever be as honest as you have been. You’re daughters are so lucky to have you. Good luck with your journey
Witkowski Family says
What a beautiful and moving birth story; I’ve shared it on my own blog because I think everyone should read it. Hope things are well with your family xo
Jessica & Shaun says
Thank you for writing this. Thank you.
Mandy says
I just came across this story thru Pinterest. I have to say that I cried so hard while reading your raw emotional words. I felt pain too and my heart broke, but the unending love that I felt coming through while reading this, the raw unbridled emotions, well I can honestly say that you are an inspiration. Baring your soul like that to the world couldn’t have been easy and I admire you for your strength and honesty. Your Nella is absolutely beautiful and sucha peach. I wish you and your family all the best in the world, much love!
kailsanne says
I stumbled across your blog on Pinterest. Someone shared that your story was inspiring and beautiful. After reading, those words don’t do it justice. I realize that this is now almost three years later, but I feel compelled to tell you that the honesty, and emotion, and love was perfectly shared and understood and felt. I can’t wait to read the rest of your blog because I can’t wait to learn something else from your beautiful family.
Bows, Bags, and More says
I am so touched by your story. I know God gives us many trials and struggles and in the end he brings us so much joy. She is so precious and sweet. This last picture just makes me want to snuggle with her. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for being honest in everything that went on. Both of your girls are so very beautiful.
Lotti says
What a truly beautiful story, and thank you so much for sharing it. …. Heavenly Father has his hand in all things. How blessed you are.
Dana says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story and the pictures of your beautiful daughters. You are so blessed.
Georgina Castellucci says
Thank you SO much for sharing you story – you have no idea just how much you have touched so many people so powerfully. Thank you thank you thank you!!!!!!!!!!! (Also sobbed through this.)
Your daughters are so beautiful and are lucky to have such a wonderful, honest, caring mother. You eldest teaches us all something and your sister – her words are so true.
hersplitends.com says
I just found your post from a link on pinterest and I have to tell you how inspiring, honest and beautiful your story is. Your daughter’s are the most precious things on the planet!! You have made me see a very different side and strength to women that have gone thru similar things that you and your family have. Cheers to a beautiful story and thank you so much for sharing!!
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I am on this page because another blogger linked this post to their site and I am immensely grateful. My heart is full of emotions right now and I feel so blessed to have read your beautiful story. Your family is exactly as it should be. The tears I’ve cried (and still crying) are happy tears. Congratulations again!
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I’m sitting here typing through a steady stream of tears that don’t seem to want to stop…your beautiful story touched me more than I can possibly say…and I think it changed me a little bit for the better. Thank you for sharing it.
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Clint says
Thank you for posting. I saw this on Pintrest and I’m so grateful I stumbled across this beautiful perfect story of REAL emotion and REAL love. It is beautiful and I hope to stumble across more stories of your girls being silly and growing as best friends. Your amazing and you are the perfect fit for little miss Nella. Congratulations!
christin joy says
first time ever to your blog. a friend sent this to me and all i could do was cry… for the pain you felt, for the joy you felt, for the family you have… thank you for being so honest. thank you for writing one of the most beautiful birth stories i’ve ever read. as a woman who is struggling to get pregnant, i appreciate that you were real with your feelings. and i love everything that you wrote. thank you so much! congrats (i know, i’m a little late) and i look forward to reading more of your blog!
Allyson Langworth says
What a beautiful revealing and true heartfelt story. Many people would not be brave enough to write honestly as you did. I cried my way through the entire entry.
Your girls are precious. I truly believe like your sister said…you were chosen for a reason to be Nella’s mom-family, embrace it just like it seems you did.
Thank you for sharing your birth story, very inspiring!
Allyson
cindy says
Oh my, I just found this blog this week. Kellie, thank you so much for your transparency! I have traveled a road that is very similar, and it is so good to know that I am not the only one. I would, at times feel guilty because my daughter is so healthy and perfect, but yet was so difficult to deal with. My daughter has anxiety, depression and ADD. We have finally, at age 11, have gotten her diagnosed and treated (medication, unfortunately) to a point that she a JOY to spend time with. Now if we could just do something about adolescent attitudes! Thank you again, for your transparency!
Heather Isaac says
WOW. What a brave moment to share every ounce of your soul. Precious. You have no idea how many people you have touched….forever.
Thank you for sharing!!!
LOVE,
Heather Isaac
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SmithShack71 says
The photos are a little breathtaking. The words are incredible. You did really well. I felt like I read them straight off your heart.
This is going to maybe sound crazy, but, when I sat down to look around your blog, and landed on this, I was having a hell of a peak of a day with pms and peri-menopause, and my heart doing its palpitating thing it does. I tell you, I was in a foul mood.
Now, I’ve read this, and I feel peace.
Peace.
My heart didn’t even palpitate once while I was reading! Still hasn’t. This story was medicinal!
You’re truly a gift. Your girls are truly a gift.
-Angie
Angelika Vahanyan says
I just had to tell you how proud I am of you. I just realized your post is 3 years old but i still had to post my comment. I am glad to still meet people like you and your daughter who reminded me that true meaning of love still exists in many of us. Sometimes it feels like our society has been fallen under this ridiculous media influence about what’s perfect & beautiful and what’s not. However, perfect is in the eyes of the beholder. Your beautiful story moved me in so many ways. It took me some time to read your story because I was crying through out the entire reading. I think you are beautiful inside and outside and nothing in this world can break you even when you feel otherwise. You have to remember you only live once. You have to make sure you live the happiest and make your loved ones around you the happiest as well because you’ll only feel the happiest when you bring them the happiest. I hope what I just said made sense. This is why I don’t write. You are a great writer and I encourage you to keep going especially when you have such a beautiful and timeless story to fill our hearts with.
Thank you and HAPPY 2013!!!
Maegan Noble says
Your story was so heart-wrenching and beautiful! I cried with you as I read your story and I finished it smiling. You are such an amazing mother and it is obvious that you have a wonderful, supportive network of friends and family to help you every step of the way. Wonderful parents like you and your husband are the people that help raise awareness for those of us who don’t fully understand. Your Bunny is a blessing, and bless you for sharing the beautiful story of her birth! <3
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Shelly Pendergrass says
Thank you for sharing your story. Mine is much different but it is so encouraging to hear your precious words!
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Thank you so much for your story. It’s so honest and beautiful. I cried with you, tears of understanding. Your love for your children is inspirational. I wish you and your family health and joy!
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Shannanigans says
I’m nineteen years old and never have been a mother, but your beautiful story has struck me like no other. You have a heart of gold, thank you for sharing this wonderful journey of yours with others. I do not think I can adequately describe how touched I am by you and your family, and how happy I am for you all. I’m sending love and blessings your way!
Jared & Savannah says
You are an incredible momma and have 2 gorgeous daughters. Love those babies with everything you’ve got! Thank you for your beautiful story!
Cortney says
This post… there are no words to describe how much it affected me. Thank you for sharing your true feelings and for helping us see how real it all was. Your baby is almost 2 now & I plan on reading much more of your blog but… wow! Thank you! God bless you & your beautiful family!
Courtney Butler says
I cried reading your story! Thank you for sharing! The pictures are amazing and both your daughters are the most beautiful little girls I’ve ever seen!! God Bless you and your family! He made her just for you! Perfect and Beautiful in every way possible!!
Shauna Pugh says
My sister has a son with Down syndrome. I was there for his birth. I remember every detail, maybe better than the births of my own children. I could tell the second I saw him. It was torture to watch the questioning and disconnected eyes of my sister. I was frustrated that the nurses wouldn’t just tell her. I was there as the photographer. It was hard, but it was beautiful too. He was beautiful! And he was perfect. And 4 years later, he is such a huge part of all our lives. And he’s still beautiful and absolutely perfect!
I loved reading your story! Cried like a baby. Thank you so much for sharing!
elisangela says
just found your blog, not sure how I got here but once I started reading your birth story I couldn’t stop – tears are flowing right now and one can tell how much love goes in your life/family – thanks so much for sharing
Emily says
This story is so touching to me 🙂 I was about the age of your oldest daughter when my sister with down syndrome was born, and to this day she is the most important person to me! I pray you and your family have many blessed years with that sweet girl and congratulations 😉 if you get the chance, read the poem about Trip to Holland 😉 it’s about when children are born different and how you face it 🙂
Emily says
This story is so touching to me 🙂 I was about the age of your oldest daughter when my sister with down syndrome was born, and to this day she is the most important person to me! I pray you and your family have many blessed years with that sweet girl and congratulations 😉 if you get the chance, read the poem about Trip to Holland 😉 it’s about when children are born different and how you face it 🙂
Heather Christensen says
Quite possibly the best blog entry I’ve ever read. I can only imagine the depth of what you felt that night she was born, but I allowed myself to feel a bit of that, and the joy in the day that followed, and the revelation you experienced during meeting of your daughters. The newborn pictures of your daughter are so beautiful and warmed my heart like nothing else. I’m 35 and do not have children yet. I’ve been trying to read a lot about Down Syndrome lately…just in case. I know my chances are elevated. I can’t tell you what a comfort reading your story has been to me. She’s just such a beautiful girl. I know it’s been a couple years now, but congratulations on being “chosen”. You are so lucky.
Peggy says
Thank you for sharing such a deeply personal, yet painful, yet, as you said DEFINING moment in your life. And thank you for sharing your sweet, precious baby girl! She truly IS beautiful!
Cassie says
what a beautiful life you are living. I have never visited your blog before but I am so grateful to have been led here today. You are inspiring and your honesty is incredible. Thank YOU for sharing your story. Nella truly is a blessing for us all. Let us never forget that.
Kayla says
What a beautiful story. I just discovered your blog and was so touched by how you share your heart. My cousin has Down syndrome and is in her early twenties now. She is such an amazing lady and so full of life. I am about 6 yeas older than her so I remember when she was born. Growing up with her was so much fun. She is always so happy and makes you really see the true beauty in this world.
Thanks for sharing your story.
Kayla
Aly says
in tears here. what a beautiful, honest, hart wrenching, amazing love story from beginning to end. one for the books for sure!
Alicia Flett says
Wow this is simply beautiful <3 and yet so true I’ know u don’t know you but I’m certainly proud of you and your for being so strong for your family and just my personal opinion that your little “bunny” has one of the purest hearts out there as she sees everything with such comparison and love emotion and you are simply blessed to share that with her congratulations on your bravery to tell your story and share it with the world to read I found it to be simply beautiful as are you precious little angles.. Children are a gift from above and anyone that is able to have a baby is blessed with one of life’s most amazing gifts!!!
Alicia Flett says
Sorry some spelling errors compassion not comparison
XOXO Jenna says
I think that you have truly captured that raw emotions that all special needs parents feel. I found out that my son was Autistic (mild) at the age of three. My daughter was born right behind him and I realized at the age of 4.5 that something was not right with her (blank epilepsy)– the dreams that you have for your children totally changes.. thanks for capturing that hurt and healing. She is beautiful in every single way.
Rachel Findley says
Wow. Beautiful! congrats to you and your family you are truly blessed. With love like this both your children can’t help but be lovely! I have worked with individuals with disabilities for a year and a half now and one particular friend of mine with downs has taught me so much about love, happiness, and kindness. I wouldn’t trade his friendship for anything in the world.
Sarah Bryant says
wow what an amazing gift of hope you have brought 🙂 thanks for sharing…I definately cried God Bless
Emma N. says
She is so beautiful.
Emma N. says
She is so beautiful.
Emily says
Thank you so much for sharing your story… oh so many tears, beautiful tears…
emily (australia)
Y Mama says
Your story is amazing, your words incredible, your honesty refreshing. I can’t wait to read more!
Stuce says
You wrote so openly that I felt as though I knew exactly what you felt, as if that is even possible. It’s a beautiful story, a sad story, a happy story. I cried, I felt for you. I wanted to make it better, and I don’t know you. Thank you for sharing.
NCFashionista says
Your story is so touching I’ve cried the whole time I’ve been reading…Nella is beautiful gods perfect creation as a mother of two girls myself I understand how you feel maybe not completely but I felt so mad at myself when I had my second daughter for changing my two yr olds life after she had been out baby for so long I didn’t want to hold my baby so I understand how you felt…but god never gives us anything we can’t handle and he knows you are going to be a wonderful mother to her that’s why he gave her to you….I wish you all a life filled many more blessings and I will stay tunned hopefully to see how beautiful Nella grows!!!
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Mrs. S says
She is BEAUTIFUL and so are you! <3
Ann says
Thank you for sharing your story. I haven’t met your Nella, but I love her. I have a little brother who has Down Syndrome and he has brought more joy and blessings to our family than we could ever explain. We all have an automatic love for individuals with Down Syndrome. They are a very special gift to this world. I know you will come to know this more and more with time. Your sister is right in that you were chosen. Bless you in your endeavors in mothering such wonderful, beautiful girls.
Nicole says
I found this post on pinterest and i just have to add my thanks to the thousands already posted! Thank you for your honest, wonderful post! Enjoy your perfect daughters and know there are so many out there happy for you and praying for you!
Kimberlina says
this is the most amazing birth story I have ever read- My mother is a behavioral specialist and my biggest fear was always having a child with DS… i always told her I didnt have the patience that she did, that I would never be able to “deal” with it. 2 weeks ago I had the privilege of caring for the sweetest 5 year old with DS and she truly changed my world – I fell head over heels in love with this peanut in the matter of minutes. Her confidence, and just pure happiness for life brightened up my day the moment I saw her. I envy you for your honesty and courage to write your raw emotions down. Good luck with your gorgeous girls – they are both blessing and you will learn so much from them <3
Chelsea Dotson says
You are gorgeous, and your girls are gorgeous. This made me cry; I could feel your emotion, beautiful writer. Your sister said it perfectly: you were chosen for this role. You’re obviously a wonderful mother and woman, and you can handle an obstacle such as this. It will be a fun variance to the ‘perfect’ life. You will experience wonderful things. Congratulations, and thank you for sharing.
Kayla Casa says
I came across this on Pinterest last evening I absolutely had to read this story, this is a real life story and its beautiful And this mother is amazing, and her children are beautiful and perfect in everyway, may God bless your beautiful family.
Kim @ Mrs. Hs Resource Room says
A beautiful story. Your daughters are lucky to have you for their mama. You are an inspiration to so many mamas that have had children they didn’t expect. I pray God rains down abundant blessings in your life!
kstock13 says
I came across this story and I’m glad I took time to read it. It is so touching. I’m not a mother, but I am an aunt of three beautiful girls and they are my world. I was crying the whole time I was reading this story. I am filled with happiness that you found love for your little girl. She is beautiful and I know she is loved by many.
Alicia Tirrell says
I just read your story…and I am …what are the words???
As my husband and I are starting to think about having kids, in the back of your mind you always wonder, “What if?”
What if my child isn’t what I expected, What if they are born with disabilities, What if I can never be the mom they need me to be?
This story taught me that those “What if’s” aren’t important. Love is important. Family is important. Learning and Growing is important.
You are so incredibly brave for expressing your true feelings when it comes to this matter. And I applaud you for having the courage to do so! Thank you, so much, for sharing your story. It has truly changed my life.
Sincerely,
Alicia T.
crafty-stamper says
I read your story with tears and will say you have two beautiful daughters to be proud of
carol x
writeforsanitysake says
Your post brought tears to my eyes!
I am not a mother but your story took me on a very amazing and heartfelt journey.
Nelly is such a beautiful baby!! I love all her pictures, really.
I have shared your story on my blog, and I hope that others will learn great lessons from it, just as I did.
God bless you, with love!
ashley holloman says
You are so inspirational. Thank you for being honest about how you felt then and how you feel now. Its amazing how human emotions work. You are truly blessed and there is something definitely very special in store for you and your family. Nella is beautiful and I know that the good Lord has great things in store for her. Thank you for sharing your story!
C says
What a beautiful story. Crazy enough, almost three years later I find your story while (from The Netherlands) looking on Pinterest for new things to do with my kids. I have two beautiful sons, “normal” on the outside and just their beautiful selves on the inside. I have been ashamed of my thoughts about me wanting everything to be different, easier, normal! But your story opened my eyes and my heart. It is ok to feel that way! Thank you so much for being so very very honest about your feelings and doubts. Bless you and your family.
Amber Miks says
I found this story through Pintrest. Honestly it is one of the most amazing stories I have ever read. You are absolutely that little girls hero. So honest and true and strong and brave…I could think of a million other words to describe how I feel after reading this story. And yet, I still can’t seem to think of the perfect word to sum it all up. I’m almost speechless because how I feel is so much more bold than any word that exists. You inspire me. & there is no doubt in my mind you already have and WILL inspire both your daughters to be extraordinary just like their mama! Bless you and your entire family & friends who have been there along the way! 🙂
Laraf123 says
There is nothing I can say that hasn’t been said. But I’ll say it anyway. What a beautiful story…a precious daughter…an exceptional mother and wonderful family.
Kathrine MacMillan says
This story is absolutely beautiful. We all have out own ideas of what “perfect” is, and God shows us that everyone is made perfectly in His image. Thank you for being so raw and honest.
Cindy Munson says
Your story is my story. Only I was just barely 20 years old. When my son was born… He was whisked away. The nurses and Dr’ s told me there were some concerns. He was blue. He was tiny. And he was Down Syndrome. I knew in my heart because I had just finished the peds round in nursing school. The hardest part was telling my family and friends. We even considered giving him up for adoption. But the more I held him and listened to his little squeaks, I fell in love with him. He won my heart. He was beautiful. Blonde hair. Blue eyes. Peaceful. Since then he has had many heart surgeries including two mitral valve transplants . This was my 20’s. Jump forward 22 years. I am now 42. I’m a teacher. Have a masters degree and two beautiful daughters and my son Tyler. He is an angel on earth…. My angel. Your story is touching and one I can painfully relate to. Thank you for sharing.
Meliss says
I knew right away, too, that my daughter had Down syndrome when she was born. I knew intuitively beforehand that if I ever had a daughter named Brigid, she wouldn’t be normal. She is seventeen years old now and has brought more joy than I could ever have imagined. You are very special to hold this “key”, as your sister sad. Not everyone is as lucky as we are.
Mike M says
I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I am in tears reading this. I have never felt so proud of someone I have never even met. Your strength and your love is so evident in what are, I’m sure, hard words to write. I love how your sister put it – you WERE chosen and I am thankful this precious angel has you as her mom! God Bless you and your beautiful family!
Katy says
Your story – and your family – is beautiful. Thank you for your honesty and for sharing the very personal story of your daughter’s birth!
Romantic Savy says
Just found your blog and I am truly moved by this post. Your story is so real and beautiful. I am 6 months pregnant with a baby girl, so as you can imagine I shed many tears while reading this. She truly was meant for you and she is just beautiful. You’re very blessed.
Shannon Delaney says
I just found your blog and was truly moved by this post. I read the birth story a few days ago and just can’t get it out of my head. Thank you so much for your honesty. You are a beautiful soul and I wish you and your lovely family nothing but the best.
Liz says
I just finished reading Nellie’s birth story. It’s beautiful. My husband and I adopted a our daughter (Mary) at the age of 1 (she’s now 5) who has Down Syndrome. So, although I can relate to you on some level of having a child with DS, I can never relate to you on the level of giving birth to a child with special needs. So, thank you for your perspective. It touched my heart. People often say to us “Mary is so lucky to have you two as parents”, but we quickly correct them and say “No, we’re the lucky ones. Mary brings so much joy and happiness into our lives. We can’t imagine life without her”. May you enjoy each moment with Nellie and remember that she is truly a gift to you.
Amanda says
I stumbled across your story on Pinterest..
This is possibly the most beautifully written, honest, and tear-jerking post I’ve ever read. I know it’s three years late, but congratulations for your beautiful little girl. And thank you for sharing your story.
Eblend says
I just wanted to say that I am so glad I stumbled upon this. I am only 16, but I am so in love with kids with Down’s. My best friend’s little brother has it, as well as a little boy in my church who I watch almost every week. Tears were streaming down my face. I’m so glad you realized her beauty and worth. They are priceless, and never cease to bring a smile to my face. They are the most lovable, and more important, loving people I know of. I’m so excited as she grows and you see her develop into a wonderful, marvelous, bright young girl. She will be such a blessing to everyone around her, and is such a fabulous gift from God. Thank you for sharing, and I pray that God will bless you and your family in the days to come 🙂
Sthrngal says
As a mom of a very active little downs boy, your story reminds me of his birth. I don’t know who was more scared, him or me. LOL, just kidding. I was without a doubt. But looking at that smile, his little hand reaching out and grabbing mine was just wonderful. I later wondered what I did to be picked out of all the people to be his mom. How i got so lucky. I don ‘t know but I am so glad i did whatever. There is a poem “Welcome to Holland” that is just, well if you haven’t read it, you should. Thank you for sharing your story! She a precious, perfect girl.
jamie lanae says
Thank you for sharing your story. The Lord must truly trust you to send a daughter so dear to him to your home.
c.darwin says
Such an amazing and refreshingly honest story! Thank you for sharing. Your entire family is so beautiful and I wish you all the best.
c.darwin says
Such an amazing and refreshingly honest story! Thank you for sharing. Your entire family is so beautiful and I wish you all the best.
Danielle Rayeski says
What a beautiful story. The honesty is so appreciated. I became a mother for the first time almost a year ago and was lucky enough to have a healthy baby boy. ( I thank God every day) Every mother carries that fear during a pregnancy. You were chosen for a reason and I don’t think your baby could have been any luckier than to get you as her loving momma. I don’t know you personally, but I feel so proud of you. The world is better because of the love in you and your family’s hearts. Congratulations and god bless!!!
SGG says
Sweet, sweet girl… your story is precious as well as your family. Knowing that your sister is so right. God chose the perfect parents. Thank you so much for sharing.
Kristina says
Thank you SO much for sharing. I can honestly say that’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read. What a privilege and an honor to hear your story. Your honesty is beautiful. You are gorgeous, this story you’ve shared is proof that beauty comes from within. Blessings to you and your family. ~Kristina
my cherie amour says
Wow, your testimony is so mind-blowing. Praise God for ur beautiful girl. And I’m sure Jesus will bless u and ur family so much more, He has great things for Nella. And thank u for sharing cos it’s gonna bless so much more ppl than u will ever know.
Lynna Gore says
So I’m sitting here at work, working on re-doing folders, and wandering aimlessly online for something to read – on pinterest no less. And I found your story. Thank you. For sharing your emotions so honestly. This is one of the most beautiful, raw, incredible things I’ve ever read. As I went to refill my coffee cup, I had tears in my eyes . .. reminded once again how blessed I am. And how blessed you are. . .
Smokering says
I just read your wonderful story, and my nineteen-month-old boy toddled past the computer screen. His eyes lit up, he pointed at the screen and crowed “Baby!” in great delight. So I put him on my knee and we looked at Nella’s photos together. He’s a big fan. 🙂
Wishing you strength and joy!
Jessica elle says
I am in tears. This is a beautiful story. You are an inspiration to me <3
Ryan Michael says
Congrats!! I found your story through Pinterest, and just want to say that my BFF’s little brother has DS. He’s 26, and I have known him his whole life. He is the happiest, most joyful person I know! He LOVES life, has a million friends and several girlfriends, he tells me. Even as a kid, I never felt bad for him – that’s just who he is. He knows nothing different, and I’m sure he could care less. He’s a handful, but we love to relive the hilarious things he does and says (like trying to “free” all the animals at the pet store, putting a frozen burger in the microwave for 99 minutes, or telling me about his girlfriend with “eyes like mine” (aw, how sweet) and “a mustache like mine” (wait…what!?!?)). Thank you for sharing your heart and for inspiring your readers to be better moms!
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transport7800 says
So amazing! When I was in the 4th grade my best friend got a new baby sister..I call her Ju-Ju. I remember recognizing the Downs when I first looked at her and back then they wanted to put her in an institution because that is just what they did. But her Momma wouldn’t hear of it. Her Daddy died just 14 short years later and Grace dedicated her life to Julie. Little did I know that I would become Julie’s legal guardian 31 years later. She is not 52 and still with me and because of her most of my family works as independent providers for developmentally disabled adults. They are the most loving, forgiving people I know. Your story touched me because of the honesty that you shared and yet I knew before I got to the end that Nella would win you over and you would realize the gift that God gave you. Bless you and your family, the best is yet to come..:)
Elizabeth says
Thank you for sharing your soul. I read this three times straight in a row and as I did, I felt my heart expand. Your sister was right, you were chosen.
Jerusha Borden says
I don’t know you, or even how I came across this beautiful post. Pinterest, maybe? Anyway. I loved your story. I understand those tears. I may not be mom to a blessing with DS, but I remember those hot tears, confusion, dread and fear when my son was diagnosed with autism. Never to be a “normal” child. But he has been nothing but a blessing to our family and we couldn’t be without him. Congratulaions on the birth of your sweet and beautiful Nella. Be blessed!
mlowryphotography says
AMAZING and BEAUTIFUL story, thankyou for sharing your thoughts and feelings, tears came to my eyes and smiles came to my face! you are a wonderful mother of two beautiful girls, best wishes to you and your little family xx
Myken Hassler says
Wow, just wow, I found this blog on pinterest and I though I would read it, just for kicks. You are an amazing person, your story is beautiful, and your children are incredible. Your honesty truly astounds me.I hope they grow to be as strong and loving as their mama. You are a truly inspiring person.
God Bless
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Hannah Hutslar says
I realize this is an old post, but I wanted to let you know how much it touched my heart. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are an amazing woman.
Miange says
I just want to say that is the most beautiful story I’ve ever read. I believe God chooses us for a purpose in everything he does and he chose YOU to be Nella’s mommy for a reason. God bless you and your whole family. You’re all beautiful!
SOFIA says
Thank you so much for wrist inf YOUR beautiful story!!!
There are tears in my eyes because you described things that I didn’t know how to write down.
I send to you and your family and friends all the love I can think of
mom says
I love this story. Your feelings you shared we’re so real and raw. I cried and your story is so powerful and loving. Thank you for sharing your story.
Reem I Simply Reem says
Your story has touched so many hearts n soul…
This post is the most beautiful post ever. . THANKS for sharing. .. you are the most loving n strong of mom.. And Nella is the most beautiful, perfect and lucky baby. ..
God bless
Wilson_family says
Omg. You are an inspiring woman. I do not judge the feelings you had. I as a mother know how you feel about your baby. But, my nephew has down syndrome and I too remember holding him and crying for hours. I love all my nephews like my own, and it hurt to know he was different. But now he is 3 and the most amazing little boy ever 🙂 I couldn’t live life without him. And honey, your daughter isBeautiful. I hope to one day have a daughter 🙂 she is absolutely adorable 🙂 *virtual snuggles with your cute little bundle* 🙂
Jules says
This is the most beautiful birth story I have ever read.
Anonymous says
I never post comments on blogs, but I felt compelled to write something after reading your story. Thank you for sharing your birth story. Very powerful. I just had a baby 6 weeks ago and was up in the middle of the night feeding her. I came across your story from a pin on Pinterest. I started reading and couldn’t stop, even after I finished feeding my daughter and should have closed my eyes to go back to sleep. I hung on every word and picture and couldn’t stop reading your beautiful story. It sounds like you are a great mother to your oldest and that you will be an amazing mother to your 2nd daughter as well. Congratulations to you. You sound like an extremely strong woman. You were chosen for a reason to raise these little girls, and it sounds like you’re going to be incredible. Not only that, but it sounds like you’re surrounded by a beautiful cast of people who love you and your girls dearly. You did it! And you should be so proud of yourself.
K.T.V. says
Her story is beautiful, thank you so much for honestly sharing it. God keep you, all.
Sandra Rakovic says
Thank you for sharing this painful, yet inspiring journey ….I wept reading through it as if it had been me who just gave birth to that precious baby girl…you and your family are in my thoughts 🙂 will be checking back for updates and photos!
Erin says
Just read this story again for the umpteenth time…still so beautiful. Blessings to you and your family and congrats on the birth of baby dash!
The life of a single mom... says
Thank you for sharing this. It touched my heart. Your family is precious and beautiful. Congrats on your beautiful Nella! What wonderful blessings God has in store for your family.
Unknown says
What a beautiful story and what beautiful children!! You ate blessed!
aLongtheway says
Dearest Kelle,
I have come to your blog today to look for your newest birth story/announcement, but I cannot come here without reading this most extraordinary piece of writing which is Nella’s birth story.
I have to tell you that it is the most inspirational, and beautiful piece of writing I have ever read…it is my go-to for when I need a “pick me up”…the love, and incredible strength, from you, your family, your friends and the adorable Miss Nella is so uplifting.
I wish you and your beautiful family all the very best! Thank you for your sharing & writing & pictures! xx
S says
I’m a NICU nurse and have taken care of many beautiful babies with Down Syndrome. I truly believe that extra 21st chromosome gives them an extra dose of sweetness. They are amazing people from the moment they’re born.
Cindy says
I just found your blog through an instagram photo or two of your newest baby boy! (I just had my first baby, a boy too. Having a son, is amazing, huh?). He is so, so cute! And your girls’ love for him is clear in your photos/blog. I clicked the link about ‘if you’re new, start here’ and I CRIED when I read about Nella’s birth story. I mean, really genuinely, cried. Like had to step away from the computer and return to finish. I can’t wait to dive into your blog more. All the best and many blessings to you.
MiamiMom says
WOW. Your story brought me to tears. God bless you and your family. It takes an unimaginable amount of courage to dig deep in your heart to relive your story and share it with the world. You are an amazing woman, and your girls are angels from Heaven. Thank you so much for describing the strength of a mother’s love. Amazing.
Stevie says
Your girls are so beautiful! You are one lucky mama! Good luck on your journey and all the happiness to you and your family!
Gabrielle Klein says
I’ve been crying for a lot of tragedy in my own life lately. Your story reminded me what was truly important. Your girls are so beautiful, and you are so blessed. 2 years ago I was diagnosed with a painful disease that will be with me the rest of my life. My family has tried everything to “fix me”, but we’ve recently started accepting this new life. Our new normal, as my father says. I’ve learned to be grateful for the little things, because the big picture is scary and somewhat traumatic when you look at it overall. It takes a strong mother and father to cope when something is “wrong” with your child. Similar to how my parents have learned, you and your husband will too. Your older daughter will learn to be an even stronger protector for her little sister, like my older brother has for me. It’s a different life. Things will be difficult. But when you come through the hard days, you’ll be closer than ever. Choose to revel in the positive, instead of how many negatives there are. I want to congratulate you on your new addition to your family. She lives up to her beautiful name. I’m so excited for you, and am definitely looking forward to more updates! It is a beautiful thing when you can love a child with something different about them. I believe there is even more love for us, those that have something bigger to deal with. You are clearly a wonderful mother, and I’m so happy that that little girl was placed with you, because you can deal with it. You can flourish and make her life beautiful. I wish you all the luck in the world for those darker nights. And again, congratulations.
Jennifer Gilbert Settle says
What a beautiful post. You are such a wonderful mama.
Jennifer Gilbert Settle says
What a beautiful post. You are such a wonderful mama.
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Courtney says
I just stumbled upon this entry and your blog for the first time while thumbing through Pinterest, and although it has been 3 years since you wrote this, I have to leave a comment to let you know: I don’t think I have cried like that in years. I am newly 30 and still waiting to have children of my own, but this spoke to my heart, my secret inner monologue, my fears, and my hopes in so many ways despite not being a mama myself… I feel like I met you tonight while reading about Nella, and like I was reading the words of a dear friend. Not only have you done justice to this beautiful baby’s first moments with your amazing words (and gorgeous photos), but you have obviously ‘met’ so many other women who were as moved as I am through your courage to share. Thank you for changing my perspective on a night when I was guilty of thinking about my own wood floors.
Chris Taney says
Thank you for your honesty throughout the entirety of this post. Few people would be okay with sharing your thoughts on the matter from beginning to finish (preferring to seem the hero instead of allowing their fear to show). That’s the kind of thing that will make you the perfect mother for your baby. That’s the kind of honesty that will allow you to find true, unrestrained love for your child and blessing. You hold in your arms one of the greatest gifts a parent could ever receive.
Claudia says
What a beautiful birth story. I cried so much while I was reading it. Both your daughters are beautiful.
arnyjoh says
your little nella is so beautiful..i can not see one fault with her looking at her photos..just peace and beauty..
i loved the wisdom words from you sister..that you were chosen for this little one..she is so blessed to have been born into your family..she will always be that special princess..loved even more for who she is..
you are heros!
Dana Lyn says
Thank you for writing out your beautiful daughters story. I was truly blessed by it. I think my explanation is too much for a comment, but maybe at some point I could share it with you. Your children are beautiful and you are a wonderful mother and woman. Thank you for sharing yourself with your readers.
Smish says
I just bawled my eyes out. Yes, you did it, you told the story. I can’t stop crying!
051c11fe-840c-11e2-a518-000f20980440 says
This was on pinterest and I clicked an read and now I am literally crying like crazy, I just had my first baby in December and I remember looking at him making sure that everything was okay, I could never imagine what you felt. I am so inspired by you your an amazing person and an angel <3 God bless you and your beautiful family <3
Stephanie Arnold says
I know this post is from a while back and you’re probably going about your day to day life being a busy Mama, loving life but I just wanted to take a moment to share with you (old or new) that your story is beautiful! I am not yet a Mother- just a nanny for 2 amazing children and a first time Auntie to be. I long to be a Mom one day when the time is right and I have to say your story is so encouraging and empowering, and your daughters so pure and gorgeous and I can’t wait to be in your shoes one day! YOU. ARE. BLESSED! Thank you for sharing!
whimsygizmo says
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. God bless you and your husband, and BOTH of your perfect, precious daughters. THANK YOU.
Hannah H. says
Wow!! What a beautiful story!!! I just stumbled upon your blog and I cried my eyes out reading your post. Thank you for your honesty. And thank you for cherishing your precious baby! God bless you and your family.
Rachel Singleton says
I realize you wrote this 2 years ago, however I wanted to let you know it was beautiful, raw, and down to earth honest. If you get a chance read a poem called Welcome to Holland. I live by that poem everyday with my little miracle. Than you for sharing what most of us are afraid to.
dirtyhousehappykids says
I just want to say thank you for putting your story out there. Our circumstances are very different but as I read your story it was like I was reading my story…I loved it and you’ve inspired me.
I would love it if you checked out my new blog…I’m trying to find the humor in being a stay at home mom 🙂
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lisacng @ expandng.com says
Thank you sharing your heart, and only a week after Nella was born. Both the pain and joys. Your story brought tears to my eyes and swelling in my heart.
Amanda Taylor says
I cried. Real tears. That never happens for me. Not like this. I was truly moved by your post. Congrats on your baby girl.
Gimp says
As a special ed. teacher, I’ve always had a place in my heart for children with disabilities and their families. Your story gave me a whole new perspective on the emotions a family experiences when accepting this and makes me love and appreciate my job that much more. Thank you so much for sharing your story and bless your beautiful family.
Christine says
Beautiful story. I love birth stories, and this by far the best I have ever read. Thank you for posting it.
Cristina Vasconcellos-David says
I don’t know you but yet I feel like you are the most real person I have ever “met.” What a beautiful story. Your family is so perfect and I thank you for sharing your experience.
Pitú says
i´m only reading this today. I´m from portugal and I found your blog with a image in pinterest! Congratulation by your lovely princess :)*
A Lam says
I’m a complete stranger, with tears pouring down my face, reading your birth story… true love and unconditional friendship is what we are here to give and are fortunate to experience. Nella is gorgeous and has a purpose in your life and in the lives of all us that stumble upon your words that you wrote so long ago. Courage and tons of love to you, Brett, big sis and Nella.
A Lam says
I’m a complete stranger, with tears pouring down my face, reading your birth story… true love and unconditional friendship is what we are here to give and are fortunate to experience. Nella is gorgeous and has a purpose in your life and in the lives of all us that stumble upon your words that you wrote so long ago. Courage and tons of love to you, Brett, big sis and Nella.
Rebecca Ulmer says
Such a beautiful story!
Rebecca Ulmer says
Such a beautiful story!
kristina reeher says
May God bless you and your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing your story….I’m crying tears of joy for you.
Jackie says
This is truly wonderful, I don’t know you but I love you, and you have a perfect beautiful family and such amazing friends..x
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Natalie Welsh says
Amazing story! I cried all the way through it. What a beautiful family you have and a beautiful journey you are all embarking on. 🙂
V says
What a beautiful, beautiful story, the words the pictures are just so beautiful and touch the heart as if one was there with you. Your children are beautiful and are lucky to have you for their mommy as you are to be there momma :). I pray that God continues to bless and care for your family and that you continue to write! You are making a difference in this world <3
sunnyside says
A friend sent this blog to me. My oldest daughter, Grace Adeline, was born over 13 years ago. She was not diagnosed until that night at 2 am. I had felt like I had the heart for a special child and had told my husband that I felt that way before we married. What a delight to have that special package come as Downs Syndrome. I was scared but delighted. What I decided in the ensuing days is that my goal for my daughter was that she would be happy. And I thought, “I have a better chance of this child being happy than any other.” She has been incredible. Incredibly loving, and incredibly selfish. Incredibly capable, and sometimes limited. Incredibly inspiring, and incredibly human. But I love to watch her. And I love to see how she changes the world around her. She brings out the very best in others without even trying. She is honest, unfailingly honest. And she loves without condition; she has no boundaries. I wish you the best with your beautiful girl. May you be strong, loving and a tiger mother.
Jennifer says
I cried the entire time! Very well written and Thank You for your honest REAL feelings. We all have them and I am so thankful you shared. Much love and prayers for your journey.
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Oh my god this was inspiring. I cried at the end. Sometimes the unexpected challenges in life are the best parts. You are a very, very strong woman and I admire you so much. What a tribute to humanity’s love. I was recently diagnosed with perimenopause and thought that it was the end of my youth, the end of my enjoying life. But then I watched a wonderful documentary called “Hot Flash Havoc” that really opened my eyes that I can still enjoy life and live one. Your story gives me so much encouragement that life will go on, that things will end up okay, just like how “Hot Flash Havoc” helped me to understand this. If anyone is interested, you can check out “Hot Flash Havoc” here: http://bit.ly/11XQcWS
Christy Garrett says
Thank you for sharing such a personal and inspring story. Nella is blessed to have such a wonderful family.
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missy says
I would be intetested in reading what your husband was going through too. Thank you for sharing.
missy says
I would be intetested in reading what your husband was going through too. Thank you for sharing.
mrshannahadams says
This was one of the most beautiful and moving stories I’ve read.
I have worked as an interpreter in Labor and Delivery and have witnesses the birth of hundreds of children and I can honestly tell you your baby girl moments after birth is one of the most beautiful newborns I have seen. She is still beautiful and just two years old!
Thank you for sharing and I look forward to purchasing your book.
amarshallphotos says
Love and hugs to you and your family. This is such a beautiful story of life.
myrrha says
Dear Kelle and Brett,
I’ve only just read this shining-star story of the arrival of Nella. I am choosing not to read the other comments because it’s quite likely I’ll be saying something that has already been said, but I want to express my heart-felt honest response to your story.
In the space of a few hours, I’ve read two stories ‘randomly’ about the love for a child with Down Syndrome. (the other was here; http://www.danoah.com/2013/04/in-honor-of-carissa-3.html )
I’m a 46 year old mother of 5, grandmother of 7 and our family cared for dozens children of babies and toddlers over the years including many with developmental challenges. We also worked for a Christian organization that provided holidays for people with Developmental Challenges. The best training in life for our own children happened by their constant involvement with people with physical and/or developmental challenges. Each person in my family can say that some of their favourite people and friends are those who happen to have an extra chromosome.
Thank-you for sharing your raw and tender, passionate and redeeming story.
The gift of an angel. 🙂
Danell Allen says
Wow! You spoke to my heart and at point took words from my soul! My son jayden surprised us 3 years ago being born with achondroplasia, a form of dwarfism. The words you spoke I felt… Now 3 years later jayden is an amazing 3 year old who I wouldn’t trade for the world! Your daughter is ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL! We were chosen to be parents of children with differences, to help teach the world about acceptance and compassion. Thank you for your story, I feel truly blessed to have read it!
Caitlin says
My mom just introduced me to your blog! I’m in love! You and your family are amazing! As the youngest sister of 3 girls (the middle sister, anna, having DS), I can tell you, Lainey is in for a blessed life! Having a sister with DS has shaped the person I am today! Like you said, her love was unconditional! These special people have a way of teaching us to love EVERYONE for who they are and where they are! I decided to become and SLP because of the struggles I watched my sister overcome! there were definitely times growing up when i thought my parents were catering to anna, but now as an adult, I know she was treated just the same as me and our sister! she just needed a little extra help, and my parents would have given me that help too, had i needed it! you and your family are in for such a treat with the best yet to come! Thank you for sharing your story with such beauty and truth! God Bless!
Hanna says
Wow! Donna, I just read this as cried and cried and cried! You are such an amazing mother!!!! This story is beautiful and your honesty amazing! I love this! Thank you!
Fernanda says
What a remarkable story.
You have touched my heart as a mother. Your honesty and transparency will no doubt touch the hearts of many more to come.
You clearly embody the essence of what it is to be a mother, unconditional love.
I love how you referenced nursing as something that helped you bond with your sweet girl, it truly is a gift God gives us to have such a literal connection to our children through nursing.
I will pass your story along, I know many many many can learn from you and what you have learned along the way.
cschmoller says
Absolutely one of the most beautifulist things I have read…thank you so much for sharing such a real uncut story…thank you for being honest. Your story is very touching. My tears are tears of joy for you. You’re a amazing mother! GOD BLESS
kathy says
You are correct when you said you have been chosen, chosen to raise this SWEET gift from God. She is so adorable. I am grateful to you for shring your story. Some of life’s challenges are tough to handle, but we can grow stronger through that opportunity.
{{{HUGS}}}
Kat
femmegypsy says
Wow wow wow – crying buckets of tears at work. This is the most honest, raw and beautiful blog post I have ever read. You are an inspiration and have such a beautiful family! Well done on a perfect piece.
Came here via “Raising Men” and cannot wait to catch up on all your blog posts and will be an avid follower from here on!
Just beautiful.
Katie Anderson says
I must chime in amongst the over 3,000 comments you’ve gotten thus far. This is the most beautiful and blessed story I’ve ever read, it’s as if you were speaking for me. Speaking my life, my fears, my thoughts.
Being 27 I don’t have kids yet but I’ve always thought about that day when I do and honestly I’ve thought “what if my child has DS? will I love them just as much? what can I do to avoid this?” On and on the questions always come to mind. But you my friend have given me hope, shone a beautiful light, told a life changing story about this possible scenario that I’ve been thinking of. Even though I have no idea if you’ll read this (as you’ll be busy loving on your daughters I’m sure) but I truly wish we could meet, have coffee and I could personally thank you for this amazing story. I’m going to save this on my computer for future times so I can come back to it and be reminded that love is possible – no matter the situation. And as I cannot give you a hug or buy you a coffee all I can say is thank you Kelle. Thank you.
Elisabeth Burke says
I enjoyed your bunnys beautiful story. 🙂 I cried and then I smiled. She is beautiful and you have a beautiful family and gift. God bless you. 🙂
Elisabeth Burke says
I enjoyed your bunnys beautiful story. 🙂 I cried and then I smiled. She is beautiful and you have a beautiful family and gift. God bless you. 🙂
Amanda Colibaba says
Thank you so much for sharing. I came across your story today and after I began reading, I realized that I had read your story before. It is a truly moving experience you have shared and I think many people are comforted by your story. It’s one of my favourites!! 🙂
Pinggal143 says
Thank you so much for sharing this. I too am a mom of a special needs child. I didn’t know that there would be anything wrong with my son, except that I had to deliver early. Your experience is, in many ways, a lot like my own. Its hard to explain to people who have not been through it. But you tell it so well and so beautifully. Reading it gave me so much comfort, even 13 years after the fact. The one thing I know is that a special needs child is a true blessing. In these last 13 years, I have really come to learn how lucky we are to have these children in our lives. God bless you.
Unknown says
Thank you SO much for sharing your birth story with us. My little (she just turned 40!lol) sister has Cerebral Palsy and it’s only since becoming a mother myself that I have begun to understand the emotions my mom must have felt that day. Those who aren’t blessed with a special needs person in their lives have no idea the thoughts and emotions that come with that blessing. It’s comforting to me to hear your perspective. Your girls are so blessed to have you as their mama! <3
-Tonya
Gina Primavera says
As a sister of an Autistic child, I remember those first moments when I truly understood the journey we were going to take through life was going to be so much different than I had imagined, difficult. I felt a sense of shame that I wasn’t just accepting from the start. Now, he is hands down the most important person in my universe. I have learned more about love, life, and myself through his eyes and his art. I wouldn’t trade him or our journey together for anything or anyone else. I’m not sure if I made him feel accepted or adored or even appreciated, all I felt was guilt initially. The first time I saw what some people call my family’s “situation” from an outside perspective, I made a vow that I would stop feeling guilty for being confused and rattled by this unique little creature, and just embrace him and maybe even study him a little bit. How could I possibly love someone that I can’t communicate with or understand. Well my mission was to know him better than he knew himself an love him more than any human could love another. i succeeded. I spent years, alongside him trying desperately to find a place in his world, while his therapists eagerly tried to find a way to yank him out of his comfort zone to better communicate with “the real world”. While selfishly questioning my affections for my brother, it never occurred to me that I was confusing and weird to him. The same doubt I initially felt for him, he felt for me. There is no abnormal or unacceptable when it comes to the love of a child. I felt and related to your emotions while reading this and for the first time in 14 years didn’t feel guilty for how I once felt. Thank you for this honest and beautiful story. It is more touching than you know. My Johnny was hand selected with a purpose and hand delivered to my family to open up some of the most pigheaded and narrowminded people known to man. He was created to challenge us and teach us to see the beauty in anything and everything. He has graced us with humor, charisma and so much love. I hope the world can one day see the world through his eyes because he shares a glimpse with me and it’s more incredible than one can imagine. I wonder how I could ever have doubted him. Thank you again for sharing. Your Nella is a beauty with so much love around her. Now she even has fans 🙂
Drea says
This was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever read. Ever.
Heidi says
You are a very special, choice woman. And I am so touched by your beautiful story. Thank you so very much for your honesty. As I looked at these pictures all I could think was, “There is a God, and he has a plan, and this is proof.” God bless you and your perfect daughter!
PrettyINpink says
This is the most beautiful story I’ve ever read in my whole life . I’m 21 and in my first trimester I have a 2 1/2 year old who is my best friend my whole world and you had me balling at the face painting nevermind the rest of the story. You make everything real I’ve never thought about what if my baby has this or that I’ve just expected perfection and health.. I’m glad you dealt with your emotions the way you did you needed that and it makes it okay because we all feel like we need to be perfect from the start and truth is were not. The part about your 2 year old holding her sister so proudly without any judgment touched me dearly. You have a beautiful family and an amazing story <3 thank you for sharing
Victoria Dart says
This was so beautiful. I cried and smiled throughout the whole story. My youngest sister is special needs and it has been a beautiful and challenging experience for my whole family.
Leslie Germain says
Hello. I came across your story from a pin on pinterest. I wanted to share that my brother and his wife’s second daughter was also born with Down’s Syndrome. They did not know before her birth (like you).My brother was the one to realize that something wasn’t right. As upsetting as that day was (I guess more of a shock – the unexpected) she is a beautiful gift. She is 3 1/2 now and such a joy. I love her so much. Hope all is going well with your daughter. thanks for letting me share.
Lauren McNeese says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I cried and cried while reading this. You are very strong & I can honestly say I have the same fear but really there’s nothing you can do other than love that sweet innocent baby. I wish your family the best of luck in life 🙂 your story is so inspiring! 🙂
SuZ @ NYTMBlog says
Thank you for sharing this. Your honesty is beautiful just like your daughters.
Tracy King says
That is the most beautiful love story I have ever heard.
Rowena says
I’m just visiting after you got a mention on another blog, your story is beautiful and your daughters are too. My sister is pregnant and they know the baby boy will be Down syndrome, it has been tough but she is due in September. Im going to love my little nephew so much x
hjurgelis says
This is so beautiful. So honest. I cried. I feel so blessed to have read this, and have had your thoughts shared with us all. None of us could even imagine what we would think if we received a different baby. But knowing that this is what God wanted, knowing that this will make you a better person, that all you really need to do is love her…. it is a blessing in disguise.
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beckylyn says
Your beautiful story tugs at my heart in a way I never thought possible. I can’t stop crying. Your family is beautiful. I know your lot isn’t easy but I know it is beautiful. Congratulations, and happy mother’s day mama.
Donna L. Murray says
Thank you so very much for your beautiful story…I can imagine how difficult yet cathartic it must have been to write such a personal journey. I had a baby at 29 weeks who was hospitalized for 4.5 months. He was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy pretty early on. I can totally relate to your words and wept through the entire story-your words expressed what my emotions were, 11 years ago. My son, Cole is the light of my life and I feel so blessed that God gave me the privilege of being his mom. Blessings to you and your family! Your children are blessed to have you as a mom!
Barbara says
I cried as I re-lived my experience through your eyes. My daughter, who also has Down Syndrome, is now 25 and has been a joy to us and to all who know her! We are part of a privileged group and no one who has not experienced this can totally understand. THANK YOU for putting into words what most of us cannot!
Rusti says
My heart is overflowing with joy. Your girls are both so beautiful and perfect, what a blessing. You are so encouraging and full of love. I love your honest heart! God bless you and your wonderful family.
Jennifer Ledlow says
So beautiful! So many tears and so much beauty. Lucky Mama :).
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Laughingface says
I came across your story this afternoon on Pinterest. You have done a beautiful job expressing all the range of emotions we mothers go through at times like this.
We have a 24 year old daughter with Down’s Syndrome. Her birth was a bit more traumatic since she had some lung issues and has some GI issues also. She spend her first 10 weeks in intesive care. She is now a very bright, loving and VERY indpendent young woman.
Every child is affected a little differently with Down’s so I don’t know where you and Nella are and how she is doing. I hope fantastically well! Rachel reads at about 4th grade level and has very definite ideas about what she wants to do with her life. She wants to be a journalist! She writes and draws a lot and makes plans. Rachel has two older sisters who lever her tremendously. Growing up with her has helped them develope into compassionate and caring young women.
My only words of advice to you is the more you treat her just as your other daughter the better it will be for all of you. We want the same things for all our children. A rich and happy life. Your family sounds wonderful. Best wishes and much love to you all.
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MzJessicaxo says
What a truly remarkable story. I stumbled upon this from pinterest and while it took me 3 hours to read whilst I was busy at work and trying to “hide” the browser I just had to finish it. Your girls are beautiful, stunning, and very well loved! I firmly believe that God made the perfect decision by giving you your “bunny” she needs you, and you need her 🙂 Very very beautiful, all my love.
Elise Blasengame says
I don’t even know if this comment will be read…especially since this your post was written over two years ago, but I stumbled across this via Pinterest when I was four or five months pregnant with my first, my son, Soren.
Well, my son’s birth story ended up being very very similar to your daughter’s. We had a home birth, but it was very obvious at birth that he had DS, and we had no idea it was coming. He’ll be six months old tomorrow, and reading back over this, makes me remember the night he was born, so vividly, and honestly, I reacted very similarly to you.
All that to say, thank you so very much for baring your heart and posting this. I think stumbling across it initially was God’s subtle way of helping prepare me for my beautiful unique son, and coming back to it now, makes me feel less guilt for how I felt that first night. So thank you.
Gina Kronebusch says
Your blog made me smile. The love you and your family have for your daughters will make them amazing people. As a special education teacher, I can’t thank you enough for just giving your extra special daughter love! That’s all she will need. 🙂
Grace Ryan says
I’m fourteen, and this touched my heart so dearly. I cried like a little baby. I love this story so much . What a beautiful family
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Karlee Hren says
This is so beautifully written. I am so grateful you had the courage to be so honest. I truly believe that children with Down Syndrome or other special needs are God’s most cherished souls. You are so fortunate to have one of those souls in your life. Your photo of you and Nella outside where she is smiling has to be one of the most precious photos I’ve ever seen. You are a strong and loving mother and I wish all the best for you and your family.
Shea Harrelson says
I was searching the Internet for luau party ideas… little did I know that thirty minutes later, my life would be so touched by a stranger’s story of unconditional love. I saw the picture of your BEAUTIFUL daughter with the party pictures and fell in love with her! I believe she is one of the most beautiful children I have ever seen… and then I read your story. Thank you for your honesty and transparency. God gives us everything we need and all who need us. Bless you and your gorgeous family. I will follow your blog.
Nicole P. says
oh my goodness gracious. i just read your story and it is so beautiful. nella is gorgeous. i feel such a lack of words right now.
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Amber Zerth says
Wow. Just wow. Your story is so beautiful an so touching. I can only imagine the amount of pain you felt at first and then somehow all that pain and agony just transformed into love. Beautiful, pure, motherly love. Unlike any other. I am so blessed to have had the opportunity to read your sory. This, although it may have no direct impact on me or my life, is such an inspirational story. One about unconditional love and the beauty of life. Although it may seem distorted it is all beautiful and perfect in its own unique way. I pray for a happy life for you and your entire family. And thank you for such an amazing, inspirational story. God bless.
Libby Looney says
Your sister was exactly right. You have been chosen to be Nella’s mama for a reason and she will bring you more Blessings than you can imagine. Thank you so much for posting this and for the raw honesty of this beautiful story. Bless you!!!
Bekki says
What a beautiful and amazing story! I am truly moved by your raw honesty and emotion! I am in tears but not sad tears – tears of joy for you and your family. Thank you- I am due in 2 months and was noted at last ultrasound with DS markers and I had several days of raw emotions…that I too feel guilty about. BUT…you are right- God chose you and gave her to you and you to her…thank you so much for the remindner!
Agent Apple says
The bunny baby, Nella, is absolutely gorgeous.
I hope that beautiful child has a chance despite having
such an ungrateful and self absorbed mother. It was an honest story. Honestly pathetic.
Laurel Hammond says
I just found this. I am sitting at my desk with tears running down my face. I am not a mother. One day soon I would like to be. You just put words to my greatest fear. Then you gave me hope.
Jake Tyree says
You have a beautiful daughter. I know how hard is to have a baby with special needs but at the same time it is such a blessing. These children are angels. God bless you and your family.
Elizabeth Schmeider says
Reading this beautiful story, I cried, almost like I have never cried before, my heart filled with everything possible… I thank you more than anything for posting this story. You are the most wonderful woman – I have no idea how I ended up reading this story, but couldn’t be more thankful. I have never been so thankful for the small things in life…
TLMitchell says
Truly one of the most honest, beautiful, emotional things I have read in a long long time. HUGS you’re amazing. Thank you for your story!
Jenni Blye says
I feel like you are the only person in this whole world who could possibly understand me. Our daughter was born with Spina Bifida. We did not know before she was born and I went through/am going through that same feeling of grief. I wouldn’t trade my Katie Joy for anything she is the cutest most wonderful 3 month old ever and our 3 year old adores her, but getting the news that day changed my world forever.
Lori says
Her name is like a song…
You are so beautiful both inside and out. Bravo to you for being so candid and able to move through all of that. All of that pain. And break out to the other side, the side of love. Not many people have that kind of courage. You did. Being so completely honest with yourself and let yourself move through it. Your story is inspirational.
Lizzy @ Lizzy's Luggage says
Thank you so much for telling your story. Your honesty is beautiful, and I hope you are loving your blessed life with your bunny 🙂
XX, Lizzy
Home and Heart says
I just wanted you to know your story is still inspiring others! Thank you for sharing it. I cried my eyes out. Your daughter is beautiful.
My son youngest was born with dwarfism, so I understand a bit. As you know, the child who is not “average” provides much joy, in many ways you never expect! It only gets better.
Bless your hearts!
Crystal Ouellette says
beautiful! thank you for sharing!
Unknown says
My brother has Down’s syndrome he is now going to be 21 they are the biggest blessings from God out there! Your daughter is absolutely beautiful!
Unknown says
I came across your birth story on Pinterest and am so glad I took the time to read it. I found it not only beautifully written, but honest, poignant, and raw. I cried my eyes out! Thank you for sharing the journey you traveled emotionally. I have found so many mother’s want to keep quiet about the not so perfect feelings because they are made to feel it’s wrong to have those feelings. I am sure that Nella will love to hear her story one day. Your daughters are absolutely beautiful.
Viv says
I only just read this but wow did it blow me away!! This year I had the ultimate experience of teaching a child with DS. Before I used to think “those poor parents”. Now I think “how lucky those parents are”. The reason kids like this are called special is because they have a way of getting into our hearts and filling us with such an amazing feeling. By having my experience he has taught me to be a nicer, more tolerant person and every milestone was a conquest. His occupational therapist told us not to expect too much development but boy did he show her!! Reach for the stars!! Your darling daughter will bring you so much!! Enjoy!!
Love and best wishes
Viv (N.Ireland)
Lori says
Hello there, I am new to your blog and even after reading just a few posts thus far, I am enchanted by it– and your precious family! I just now read Nella’s birth story and, you already know this by now but she is SO beautiful! And your writing is magic! I was thinking “She should write a book!” But apparently you already have, LOL! Warm wishes, Lori
Carla C. says
My only advice is teach her to behave as you would Lainey. I’ve worked with “special needs” kids, and they are smarter than most people give them credit for! But I’ve seen parents who feel… guilty? or whatever and they don’t teach their kids to behave. As if allowing them the freedom to be horrible is a repayment for being special needs. Teach her! Your baby is beautiful and a blessing! Congratulations!
Aja Ouellette says
I clicked on a link on Pinterest that brought me to your blog and this story. I have never read one so well written. It melted my heart and made me fall instantly in love with your baby. You are a strong woman and I hope to have the strength you did if I ever need it some day. The best of wishes to you and your perfect family. 🙂
Melissa Turner says
I’ve only just found your blog today, by accident, on pinterest. I’m in love. Your bunny, you and your family, all beautiful, true miracles.
As I sit here with tears in my eyes, I’m reminded again as to how blessed I am as well. Thank you for that reminder <3
Evelyn Curtis says
What a beautiful baby girl! You are so blessed to be entrusted with one of God’s very special spirit children! Congratulations on your growing family!
Nicole says
Wow, did this ever pull at my heartstrings. I’m currently pregnant with my second daughter. My first is going to be 2.5 when the second is born this coming October. I was told that my little girl had an abnormality show up on her ultrasound that could link to down-syndrome. I’ve been told it is extremely rare that it will happen. I was offered testing to confirm, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Either way I feel it will be our daughter and we’ll care for her. But, even though the possibility is slim, it’s always in the back of my mind. Thank you for posting your story. No matter what happens in my situation, you’ve already been a pillar of strength to me. Thank you. 🙂
Devon Whatley says
A nurse in our NICU told me about your blog. I just read your story of Nella’s birth and it was heart-wrenching. You put on paper how our Abigail got here. After she was born, I too just “knew.” I’m sobbing at my desk because I really haven’t relived this day in awhile. Reading your story reminded me of how raw it all is, 8 weeks later. After Abigail was born, I held her, but then they took her to the NICU for oxygen. She lived there for 2.5 weeks because they thought she didn’t eat enough. She’s now very healthy. I’ve also read a couple of other posts and am glad to know that I am not alone in my feelings. THANK YOU!
Frøken Steinsdotter says
The best birthstory I’ve ever read.
So glad I found your blog, it’s pure magic and your photos takes me to beautiful places.
Will follow you and your familiy, looking forward to more sneakpeaks into your life.
<3
Frøken Steinsdotter says
And I really hope you don’t mind me using a couple of your pictures in this post:
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I wanted to share your blog with everyone that visits mine. So I wrote about the magic your stories and photos are.
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Beth says
My heart. I think it just exploded at the beauty of this story. I’m crying and my cat is looking at me like I’m crazy. SO much love for you and yours!
Bethany Dadisman says
God bless you.
My Life Story says
I just read your story and let me tell you it is the most beautiful thing i have ever read it made me cry and you are such an amazing person… Your daughters are both gorgeous!!!(:
Joanne Konst says
AS a cousin of a Down syndrome child (gone for 45 years but never forgotten), I am so impressed with your story! My aunt kept her son back in the day they automatically took them away and institutionalized them. He was a joy, possibly the best person that ever touched my life and my heart. May your children bring you the happiness you truly deserve. May Nella bring you the love that Ralphie brought us.
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T Cheyka says
Congrats to you both! Nella is a very beautiful little soul. God works in mysterious ways and I truly believe that he was preparing you for your little miracle the night you walked into that bookstore. He sent you an angel so that you would become the person you were meant to be! Love and Hugs to you, sweet Nella and your family <3
Clover Bug says
There is a documentary out there I think you’d enjoy. It’s called Monica & David and it is available on netflix. It might hit a bit close to home for you, but I hope it’ll give you some hope as well. Your little girl is beautiful by the way and I wish your family the best.
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April Mendoza says
Amazing story. Your girls are beautiful!
Unknown says
I realize this is an old post, but I just found it now. It happens to be on a night I am taking care of my aunt Katherine and her roomate, Lupe. They both have Downs. I have spent my entire life surrounded by my aunt Kathy and people like her. I grew up wondering why everyone didn’t have a family member with Downs. To me, she was normal. Sixteen years ago, I happened to also fall in love with a man who had a family member with Downs. His uncle, Daniel. We both have spent our entire lives surrounded by people with Downs, visiting them at their workshops, meeting their friends, having them over for weekend slumber parties. Having “special” people in our lives is the “norm” and nothing out of the ordinary for us. When we decided to have a baby and got pregnant in 2011, we were strongly encouraged to get special tests for Downs Syndrome, because it ran on both sides of our family. We declined, because we did not care if our child had Downs. It simply never occurred to us that it would be an issue. We figured, if anyone should be blessed with a Downs baby, why not us? We had a healthy baby boy who did not have Downs, but I know that if a future baby does, I will be able to seek the support from people like you. And it is something that is already a huge part of my life and I could be prepared for. Your daughter is an absolute angel. God bless you.
Unknown says
I realize this is an old post, but I just found it now. It happens to be on a night I am taking care of my aunt Katherine and her roomate, Lupe. They both have Downs. I have spent my entire life surrounded by my aunt Kathy and people like her. I grew up wondering why everyone didn’t have a family member with Downs. To me, she was normal. Sixteen years ago, I happened to also fall in love with a man who had a family member with Downs. His uncle, Daniel. We both have spent our entire lives surrounded by people with Downs, visiting them at their workshops, meeting their friends, having them over for weekend slumber parties. Having “special” people in our lives is the “norm” and nothing out of the ordinary for us. When we decided to have a baby and got pregnant in 2011, we were strongly encouraged to get special tests for Downs Syndrome, because it ran on both sides of our family. We declined, because we did not care if our child had Downs. It simply never occurred to us that it would be an issue. We figured, if anyone should be blessed with a Downs baby, why not us? We had a healthy baby boy who did not have Downs, but I know that if a future baby does, I will be able to seek the support from people like you. And it is something that is already a huge part of my life and I could be prepared for. Your daughter is an absolute angel. God bless you.
Lmmcmah23 says
This is one of the most beautiful perspectives I have read about having a child with a disability. Thank you for being so honest and helping others see into your life. You are amazing, as is Nella!
Angela Blagg says
What an amazing story of such a beautiful blessing in the end!! SHES AN ANGEL!! SUCH A BEAUTIFUL BABY!! GOD BLESS YOU ALL. AMEN.. THANK YOU FOR SHARING, SUCH AN INSPIRATION!
Brittney Barclay says
Beautiful <3 I cried…. I have a disabled brother and I know that feeling of wishing you would just wake up and them be ok…. Little Nella is so sweet :))) I wish I could hold her :))))
Paris Sutton says
I just read this as cried and cried and cried! You are such an amazing mother!!!!
Paris Sutton says
I just read this as cried and cried and cried! You are such an amazing mother!!!!
Lexi Behrndt says
I am sobbing reading your story. This is SUCH a picture of beautiful, unconditional love.
“Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
Nella is a gift to you. I hope more people– parents and future parents will see this and learn to love their child in such a way. Such a blessing and a gift.
Thank you deeply for your words.
Lexi Behrndt says
I am sobbing reading your story. This is SUCH a picture of beautiful, unconditional love.
“Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
Nella is a gift to you. I hope more people– parents and future parents will see this and learn to love their child in such a way. Such a blessing and a gift.
Thank you deeply for your words.
Lexi Behrndt says
I am sobbing reading your story. This is SUCH a picture of beautiful, unconditional love.
“Love me. Love me. I’m not what you expected, but oh, please love me.”
Nella is a gift to you. I hope more people– parents and future parents will see this and learn to love their child in such a way. Such a blessing and a gift.
Thank you deeply for your words.
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KelliRea says
It’s so uncanny how similar our story is, yet different as well! I remember first reading this beautiful love story when I was expecting my first daughter. It brought me to tears, in both painful and joyous ways :). We gave birth to our Charlotte September 2010, and quickly planned our growing family…we wanted more! Fast forward to November 2012. We’re expecting!! Exactly what we wanted :). This time was different. Lots of morning sickness, and not as tired. For sure it was a boy. Week 16 rolls around, and I receive a call from my OB/GYN. The call no mother ever wants to receive. The screening came back…our new baby has a 1:3 chance of having Down syndrome. We discussed what to do next, and we opted for the non-invasive maternal blood test to diagnose. That day changed my world forever. I didn’t eat, sleep, stop crying for the long 9 days it took to get our results. I blamed myself. I researched…and came across your story once again :). It was like a hand reaching out to hold, letting me know everything was going to be okay; leading me into the light, out of the darkness that consumed me. For that, I am forever grateful. 9 days passed and it was confirmed; our baby, in fact, had an extra 21st chromosome…and…was a GIRL!!! Though I had just joined a club i never thought I’d be a part of, it felt like a ton of bricks lifted from my heart…I was ready to move forward. Your blog really helped in me moving forward :). Daniella is now 2 months, and is doing so amazing!! Her sister is so in love with her, and so are we. I still follow your story, and it really inspires and gives me hope for my girls’ future :). In fact, we have already talked about our next baby :). Of course I’d really like to have a boy, just so I can see both sides of the coin, we’d be happy with either! THANK YOU for being so open, and candid with your story and feelings…you may never know how you’ve touched my life, but I assure you, I’m forever changed 🙂
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OMG! Your story made me cry!God Bless you and your little perfect baby Nella. She is blessed to have a mother like you and you are blessed to have a little girl like her. God is all about unconditional love and that what he gives you. Your little girls are perfect! Im still crying, this is the most beautiful story I have ever, heard and the most beautiful birth. God Bless you and your family.
Stacy G says
This is so beautiful. I have never read such an amazing story. Nella is so Lucky to have such an amazing mom and your family is so lucky to have her!
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ladybug says
The most beautiful story I’ve ever read. GOD has truly blessed you with a beautiful gift to this world. Thank you for sharing.
Leah Kovach says
I ran across your blog today. You seem like such a genuine and loving person. This post brought tears to my eyes. Thanks for sharing this story I am so inspired to know that there are beautiful people in this world like you.
Laura says
What a beautiful and inspiring story. I have no doubt your precious little girl will bring you endless love and joy. She is beautiful.
Laura says
What a beautiful and inspiring story. I have no doubt your precious little girl will bring you endless love and joy. She is beautiful.
Jillian Altfest says
Thank you for your beautiful and honest story. Your daughter is truly blessed to have been brought in to a world with such a loving family.
I don’t have children of my own, but I do teach a Special Education Preschool and Kindergarten class. Half of my students have DS, and your story has given me a new insight into what it is like for parents and the process they went through when their little guys and gals were born.
TheCorbinStory says
I found your blog posted on FB by stillbirthday.com and I wanted to share something with you..I was a special needs mom too. My son was born with heart defects that we didn’t know about till he was 5 days old. The shock of that was world shattering..and then we got the diagnosis of William’s Syndrome too. I grieved for months, about all that he would not be able to do, how he would be different, what we had lost. It is one of the most difficult times of my life. (thecorbinstory.com)
This poem helped me through that time. It still makes me cry..I hope you like it as much as I do.
“Welcome to Holland
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability — to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this…
When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans… the Coliseum, the Sistine Chapel, Gondolas. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting. After several months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives.
You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland!” “Holland?” you say. “What do you mean, Holland? I signed up for Italy. I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.” But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay. The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place full of pestilence, famine, and disease. It’s just a different place.
So, you must go out and buy new guidebooks. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met. It’s just a different place. It’s slower paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around. You begin to notice that Holland has windmills. Holland has tulips. And Holland even has Rembrandts. But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy, and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life you will say, ” Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
And the pain of that experience will never, ever, ever, go away. The loss of that dream is a very significant loss. But if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things about Holland.”
Love to you dear.
Nicole Feeney says
Thank you for sharing this. Our baby girl Shelby was born on 10/8/13, diagnosed with a congenital heart defect and whisked away from me to Children’s Hospital in Boston. The first time I held her was on 10/15 the day before she had open heart surgery. On 10/17 we learned she has a CHARGE syndrome a chromosomal disorder that causes among other things deafblindness and retardation. I am feeling everything you wrote about. Thank you for the hope you gave me.
Jade says
What a sweet little girl, can´t take my eyes of her! Thank you for sharing this wonderful story of love and joy!
Jade
Sara Jones says
Your story was told so beautifully.
I work with grown ups who have intellectual disabilities and have seen first hand the difference between an incredibly loving and accepting family, and a family who was not capable of fully accepting their child.
Both of your daughters are so incredibly blessed. Those at my work with D.S. are some of the most kindhearted people you could ever encounter, and having such loving parents will only enhance that.
I am in awe of your strength.
kim Frein says
I came across this blog while having a very bad day feeling sorry for myself mourning my mom. I have to tell you I have never read such a beautiful story. I have four children and I. Not sure I would have the strength to keep going. I can barely do it now. You have beautiful friends and family which leads me to believe you yourself are a beautiful person . Those girls are so so lucky to have you for a mommy. congrats!
kim Frein says
I came across this blog while having a very bad day feeling sorry for myself mourning my mom. I have to tell you I have never read such a beautiful story. I have four children and I. Not sure I would have the strength to keep going. I can barely do it now. You have beautiful friends and family which leads me to believe you yourself are a beautiful person . Those girls are so so lucky to have you for a mommy. congrats!
KS Photography says
I love this so much. The most beautiful and raw thing I have ever read. Thank you for sharing.
Melanie says
What beautiful life experiences God has now entrusted you with. Your Nella is beautiful and far more special than one can even imagine.
Thank you for your story.
I sit here, 39 weeks pregnant, waiting to meet my very first little princess after 4 princes. How touched I am by your story of love.
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Sally Giorgi says
Thank you for sharing and saying what many of us avoid. Your sister was right- Nella Ida special and how blessed we all are to know her through your loving eyes! Cheers!
Sally
Sally Giorgi says
Thank you for sharing and saying what many of us avoid. Your sister was right- Nella Ida special and how blessed we all are to know her through your loving eyes! Cheers!
Sally
Sally Giorgi says
Thank you for sharing and saying what many of us avoid. Your sister was right- Nella Ida special and how blessed we all are to know her through your loving eyes! Cheers!
Sally
Marzenna Almendro says
This is the most beautiful story I have had the pleasure of reading. It’s put a new perspective on life! Thank you!
Lindsey Peterson says
She is Truly Amazing!!! You guys are sooo blessed with such a cute lil girl I truly wish I could meet you guys I just finished reading The book Yesterday I was wonderful God Bless you All and Nella
Melody Miramontes says
OMG, I just cried. This is so beautiful
Samantha says
typical new mom… forget the booze, give me COFFEE!! lol that was me 🙂
Meg says
Oh my gosh. I am…I just…wow. I don’t even know how to express what I feel. That was THE most amazing, beautiful, PRECIOUS thing I have ever read. That baby girl is gorgeous, and her pureness just shines through. And you are so very brave to be able to share your story so honestly. I don’t know many people that would admit that they had negative feelings in a situation like this, even though those feelings are as much a part of the journey as the positive ones. To me, telling your whole story and not just the good parts, makes you a better person and a better mother. I am so glad that your precious girl has parents that appreciate her and recognize her as an amazing little person. Sending love your way. Congrats Mama!
Jessica Miner says
What an amazingly beautiful story. My heart goes out to you, mother to mother, woman to woman. I have two boys and a girl, and both of my boys are autistic. I can relate to your mixed emotions. Even through the frustration and confusion, I am reminded every day of how extraordinary they are and how lucky I am to be their mother.
One thing I heard that has stuck with me is, “God gives his most difficult battles to only his strongest warriors. ” Love as hard as you can and everything else will fall into place. Best wishes.
lisa avila says
I dnt have a special needs child but i think all these kids with down syndrome are so precious. Love ur baby girl with all that u have an nvr let her feel what u felt that 1st night.She will make ur life so beautiful just like u wanted her to make it. Maybe she’ll make it much more beautiful than u cud imagine. I’m sure there are other mother’s in the same position as u but are afraid to tell there story, nd by u telling urs mayb they won’t b so afraid to start there own story. Much luv to u nd ur family. Congrats on ur beautiful girls may god bless u with tons of happiness n much luv
Jennifer Croft says
Congrats! Your story is so beautiful and so is your family! I cried for you tears of joy of course! Blessing to your family!
DM'sMommy says
OMG! I’d like to blame my tears on hormones but damned if I don’t really want to. I’ve got tears running down my face and a stuffed nose b/c this has been the most beautiful thing I’ve read in a long time. God bless you and your family. You’re daughters are beautiful!
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Thank you for sharing your story! It brought tears to my eyes but filled me with so much happiness 🙂
Michelle Schneidmuller says
This was so heart-warming and beautiful.
My boyfriend was arrested the night I had my daughter (emergency c-section, it was his last night of freedom and he showed up at the hospital drunk. Oops!) and all my dreams of the “perfect delivery” were shattered. When my mom tried giving me my daughter for the first time, I told her I didn’t want her and the feeling has haunted me for 14 months. I blame my shifting hormones and the stress I was under but it still makes me sad thinking my first words to her were “I don’t want you.” You’re little is absolutely beautiful and your bravery at telling your story is an inspiration. Thank you.
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I’ve never read anything you’ve ever written until this. It was a random link from a friend. But I need to tell you that this is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read in my life. It was honest and open and raw and amazing. It was everything anyone could have feared and loved with the birth of a child. This story, this experience has carved a mark on me and I can honestly say I will remember this forever. You have touched the heart of a complete stranger, and I will never be the same.
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She’s beautiful! Loved your story!!!
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Nothing says
I know this post is a couple years old, but someone put a link to it on Facebook and I had to comment.
I have a cousin with DS that’s 10 years older then me. When I was young, I didn’t understand what that ment and, to be honest, she kind of scared me a lot of the time. We didn’t live close together so I didn’t see her a lot, and still don’t, but I learned a lot from her.
My other cousin and I weren’t always as nice to her as we should have been… I think it was mostly frustration on both our parts that caused it, since she usually couldn’t understand there were times the two of us boys just wanted to do our own thing. On one occasion, when I was about ten, one of the two of us said something particularly scathing that I know now hurt her deeply (I don’t remember which of us or what was said, but that’s not important). Instead of crying or running to her parents, she just looked at us and said, “It’s ok, I still love you anyway” before hugging us both and walking away.
That one simple phrase, uttered by a woman that so many will never see as such, helped me get through more then anyone will ever know over the years. She taught me the power of forgiveness, which would get me through years of bullying in my teen years. Sometimes what you think at first is the biggest curse or burden you could ever have is really the best blessing you could ever want.
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In the last few pictures of your journey with your lovely baby girl, my heart was filled with so much warmth. She is so beautiful. The way she smiles when you do is just the essence of what it’s all about to be a mother. My daughter wasn’t born with DS but she was born with an abdominal defect that almost took her like while she was in my womb, and several times when she was born. She is different from other kids and yet I always remember that when I hold her, look at her, spend time with her…I make her smile in a way no one else can…She does the same for me. It fills my heart and soul to see your family so kind, loving, open and accepting of something that most people would be afraid of or shy away from. You and your family are wonderful. You have two beautiful miracles, a wonderful husband and you all shine.
Stefany Salinas says
OMG my heart , my heart its just beautiful , God choses us to do work for some people it might be tougher than others , he has blessed you with TWO beautiful angels . Your story has seriously touched my heart and i wish you the best.
Bek says
This is the most beautiful and real thing I have read in a while. I wish you and your gorgeous family a perfect and happy life. I hope Nella’s first Christmas is magical!
Love from the UK
sebernard says
Nella is absolutely beautiful!!! My youngest daughter has a good friend with downs. I can’t imagine Sammy not being around. She is brilliant, sweet, and very caring. She also gives the most amazing hugs!!!
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God bless, you and your beautiful family:)
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heathet sauls says
Yew are one AMAZZZING woman, mother, & wife. I can understand every single bit of yer fear and concern but that’s exactly what it was….. concern. Yew were that PERFECT mother all along thru it all. Everything you experienced that night & everything u thought & said is what makes you such an amazing person & mother. God gives u no more than u can handle but I truly believe he will force u to yer knees sometimes, & I truly believe he does to force u too stop, think, replenish yerself, and move onto new beginnings! Yer story is truly amazing and I kno u will NEVER be the same. Oh how lucky u REALLY ARE BECAUSE SHE IS BEAUTIFUL AS EVERR, they both are
<3 My brother has downsyndrome but is jus as sweet & jus as caring n smart as anyone else! They are blessings to the world n I kno that you will learn a lot from her. -Heather:)
Kathy Newlun says
Thank you so much for posting your story. You truly don’t know what a inspiration it was for me.
pootsinboots says
Oh my, I shouldn’t have read this at work. =) I am in tears for you…but not the way you think. I became a momma five months ago, and the birth experience was so not the way we planned. But William was born just fine, and I learned then that to be a mom is to let go of all your plans and expectations and just love them fiercely with all of your heart. Your blog absolutely captures that notion. It is a beautiful, honest and emotional account of letting go of expectation and trying to just be a mom. I’m sending you and your family all the love in my heart and the best wishes for your extraordinary journey together. May your days be blesses always.
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Wishin' Away says
when we got Aidens diagnosis as microcephaly, we were told he would be ” severely mentally retarded”. My heart broke. BUT as hard as it’s been, it could have been so much worse and he is one of the four best things that have ever happened to me. The other three are God, my husband and our daughter. I cried t he entire time I read this because I know what you were feeling. You have two gorgeous girls. The are perfect and they were given to you because God knows what you’re capable of. My heart is with you and your beautiful family.
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when we got Aidens diagnosis as microcephaly, we were told he would be ” severely mentally retarded”. My heart broke. BUT as hard as it’s been, it could have been so much worse and he is one of the four best things that have ever happened to me. The other three are God, my husband and our daughter. I cried t he entire time I read this because I know what you were feeling. You have two gorgeous girls. The are perfect and they were given to you because God knows what you’re capable of. My heart is with you and your beautiful family.
Staci Hollis says
Absolutely beautiful. Congratulations Mama. You’re one of the strong ones God chose to watch over his special angels. Blessings to you and your family.
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I am so moved by this, I read, I cried, and I was completely touched by your story.
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I am so moved by this, I read, I cried, and I was completely touched by your story.
Andrea Gutierrez says
This is a beautiful amazing story! And know that you are blessed. The Lord chose you to care for his preciius gift. It will be challenging but it will bring many rewards. I am an RN and I say that for the only only significance in telling you that I care for many patients. And patients with Downs I have special bond and love for. They are so sweet, and love unconditionally. She will bring you so much happiness in your life thank you once again for sharing your story. God bless you and your amazing family ♥
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This is a beautiful amazing story! And know that you are blessed. The Lord chose you to care for his preciius gift. It will be challenging but it will bring many rewards. I am an RN and I say that for the only only significance in telling you that I care for many patients. And patients with Downs I have special bond and love for. They are so sweet, and love unconditionally. She will bring you so much happiness in your life thank you once again for sharing your story. God bless you and your amazing family ♥
Sierra Young says
i know this might seem strange coming form a thirteen year old but what you have is undeniably special.
i am just like your oldest daughter, i have a downs sister. her name is Aleah, and it has been hard growing up where people don’t understand. where they mock her and treat her diffrently. the sad thing is she never understands. Its scary growing up knowing i can possibly have a child with downs when im older and married, because i know what its like to take care of a child with downs. but because of this i am happy. your entry gives me strength and joy. i know now that even though i may end up with a child with downs i am going to be happy. Downs children like my little sister and your daughter are awesome. and they are so innocent in their hearts i cannot tell you how manny times i have came home crying and my little sister cuddles me and would ask me if i was okay. she fills my heart with undeniable love. she is forever my little sister. forever mine.
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Oh my goodness, what a beautiful, beautiful story, thank you so much for sharing!
Alexandria Skinner says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I have shared it, as well, with my local La Leche League group. When I once was a LLL leader, many years ago, I sometimes would speak with Moms whose stories had not gone the way they planned. It might be an emergency cesarean, a hospitalized baby, a depression that wouldn’t go away, a baby born with Down’s Syndrome. Sometimes life takes our dreams and, like kneading bread, folds them and reshapes them into something different than we expected. But that story can be beautiful, too. Thank you for sharing how healing and comforting it was to nurse your little love. For truly, there is so much more to the joy of breastfeeding than just “milk”. I once read that God gives his most special little ones to the most special parents (and big sister). The journey will be different than the one you imagined, but I know it will be beautiful as well as having different challenges. Blessings on you and your family!
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janie says
Congratulations on your newest girl! She is blessed, you are blessed. You will be amazed at the trip Nella will take you on. My Tom, my birth child with DS changed my life forever. Because of him we adopted Ben to be his brother. Another baby boy with DS who needed a home. That was 23 years ago. We now have adopted nine kids, all with DS, all beautiful. God has taken us on such a journey! Yours is just beginning….
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Congratulations on your newest girl! She is blessed, you are blessed. You will be amazed at the trip Nella will take you on. My Tom, my birth child with DS changed my life forever. Because of him we adopted Ben to be his brother. Another baby boy with DS who needed a home. That was 23 years ago. We now have adopted nine kids, all with DS, all beautiful. God has taken us on such a journey! Yours is just beginning….
Women! Let's Learn From Each Other! says
A truly honest, heart warming story. Raw emotion so well communicated. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
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Chaz777 says
Nella definitely choose the right Mommy for this incarnation. God got it right too, creating you.
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Nella definitely choose the right Mommy for this incarnation. God got it right too, creating you.
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Keisha P says
This is the first blog I’ve ever read and it’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever read! I love you’re honesty! Because of my age (over 35) I was afraid to have another baby due to the risks of DS, but you have inspired me! It doesn’t matter what the risks are. If my heart is telling me to try I should try. If things don’t go as planned and my life is changed it will still be a blessing, and I will still have a child that I love dearly!
Congratulations to your family!
Chantel Bwalker says
wow thank you so much im in tears your precious moment was so like mine my son is now 6 and was born with kleefstra syndrome but at first they thought it was down syndrome i related to your moments so much and felt relieved that it was normal for me to cry like that and to feel the way i did your words are amazing you have great talent in expressing your moment with us thank you so much you really made me feel better i always felt guilty that i had felt that much pain but now i feel that i had to feel like that to love my son more then anything :)thank you
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Becky D says
I just read ur story. I laughed and cried. I am a mother of two – a girl (1 yrs old) and a boy (5 yrs old). While trying for a family I had 5 miscarriages, 2 failed IVF’s and 5/6 (I have lost count) failed IUI’s. You need to know that u are blessed with what u have. Nella is a gift to all. Love her, cherish her and give her nothing but joyous memories to grow up w. she is beautiful just like her mom. God bless u both.
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Kayde Reynolds says
Kelle,
I just finished your book….I’m. In. Love. Your family is such an inspiration and the realness that you share, the vulnerability you allow your readers to see is breathtaking. It it’s so refreshing to read raw emotions as opposed to the blanketed ‘rose-colored’ version that society pressures us into. I felt like I was in conversation with my best friend and experiencing life with her. Thank you for changing me. I feel as though something inside shifted and I am a better person because of you. For all the “hell yeahs” and tears….thank you.
With Love and support,
Kayde Reynolds
L Yunis says
I came across your website quite by accident, researching about tea parties for my own daughter. Thank you for sharing and being so honest. I believe that at the end of our lives we are accountable to one question, “How well did you love?” This applies both to the people that we sought to love and to those that were sent for us to love. Be empowered by how well you have loved the daughters that have been sent for you love. They have no doubt brought out the best in you. Massive virtual hug, L
kuhh:) says
This is a beautiful story. It is real. i LOVE that you didn’t sugar coat anything. You were 100% real about how you feel. Your children are both very beautiful as is your story. Thank you for your strength <3
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Samantha Mascott says
Thank you so much for telling your story. My mom lost a baby late in the pregnancy when I was four and we were told she would have had Down’s syndrome. I always wonder what it would be like to have a D.S. sibling. I know I would have loved that sibling no matter what but I still wonder about the experience we missed out on.
I am a volunteer with a Respite Day that my school puts on every year for special needs kids in the area. This year I get to spend my day with a four year old little boy with Down’s syndrome and I am so excited.
Your story is inspiring and wonderful because even though I love all children and find them special in their own way, you never know how you will react when it is your own. You made it okay to not be perfect. Thank you again. You are a great mom.
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Also, I would love to see updated photos of your beautiful family!
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This is the most beautiful birth story I’ve ever read. It’s so raw and powerful and honest. Thank you for sharing. Enjoy that beautiful Nella girl!
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*~JennD.'J.M.J.'~* says
I found your story on the very day that our own daughter had given birth to her firstborn son. He does not have Down Syndrome, but like all children, is a true blessing from God.
Your story is touching and sweet and very beautiful…I’m sure that your little Nala (and your other daughter) will continue to be the blessings that God has always meant for your life…may He keep your family in His Heart forever.
*~JennD.'J.M.J.'~* says
I found your story on the very day that our own daughter had given birth to her firstborn son. He does not have Down Syndrome, but like all children, is a true blessing from God.
Your story is touching and sweet and very beautiful…I’m sure that your little Nala (and your other daughter) will continue to be the blessings that God has always meant for your life…may He keep your family in His Heart forever.
Kristine Sylvester says
There is a wonderful, one-page story that was given to me when my autistic daughter was young called, “Welcome to Holland”; you may be familiar with it. Your story reminded me so much of that, the expectations fighting the reality. I am so proud of you. Thank you for sharing in such a detailed, human, and vulnerable way. God Bless You and Yours.
Bee says
I realise I’m four years late to the party, but I had to comment because I was moved so much while reading this. Your honesty and your love is inspiring, and I am sure that reading this post will have helped countless parents in similar experiences. I am utterly bowled over, and I think your family are just lovely and gorgeous. Hooray for you guys. I hope I can face the unexpected in my life with similar courage xxx
Denim Laras says
Ohhh.. I verry happy to see this Pic..
I wan have a baby but…
Im Sad…
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AnnElise says
Before you had Nala I’m sure you would have found this odd. But I’m sure you’ll understand. My sister has Down syndrome and FAS and she has been such a blessing in our lives As a baby we had to feed her with a tube that ran down her nose and into her stomach, she needed an oxygen tank too But there is no more perfect of a girl anywhere She is such a blessing and I tank god every day that it was my family they called when she needed a home. P.S. she’s nine now and we’ve learned some great tips. 1. Your house will never be child safe again. They are incredibly smart and will figure out the new lock before you will. 2. Downs kids tend to wander off and explore. 3. They are little Houdinis 4. As long as you know that they CAN do just about as much as anyone else, it jus takes time, they WILL blossom. 5. Keep her active downs kids tend to be overweight so this is extra important( partially cuz they don’t know when they are full, moderate what she eats) 6. Learn sign language. They cant communicate as well.(we use the basics like food drink potty etc. it also will help them learn to talk. Signing time DVDs are really good although super annoying. 7. Don’t ever let someone tell you she can’t do something. The school told us that my sister would never be able to read or write. So we’ve been teaching her and she CAN
My sister can walk,write, and is learning to talk better everyday. We also know several other downs kids who I adore. Have fun with your little ones 🙂 I’m so glad you were blessed with that little bundle of joy. Even if she’ll be a handful.
Pammy86w says
Reading this again 4 years later and it’s still amazing. Such a beautiful, real story. She is such a beautiful little girl. Much love to you all 🙂 xxx
Annonamouse says
I’m in college now, so I’m not even close to having a family of my own. My senior year of high school, I had a free period, so the scheduling counselor filled it with an aiding period. In my school, there is a special program dedicated to kids with learning disabilities. My job was to go into the classroom and help the teachers teach. I was something of a tutor to them. At first, I thought this was going to be a really weird and uncomfortable experience for me, but things changed after awhile. I saw how the teachers treated the kids like normal people, how they praised them when they did well. The other girl who was aiding with me was in the same spot as me, but we helped each other. I learned that those kids were some of the best people in that entire school. They didn’t judge someone by what they wore, or how they talked, or what they liked to do. They just liked you because you were nice.
I think that Downs Syndrome isn’t so scientific. I think it’s easier than that. Sure, maybe the child might have trouble trying to understand technical things, but in return, they are free from judgement. They have the ability to spread love and kindness through other people. I think that’s what makes them so special.
I’m still scared if in ten years I have a child with this challenge. I’m afraid of what to do, how I would handle it. You are a role model to me. I think because of reading this, I’m not so scared anymore. I hope that I can be as loving as you are. So, I guess I owe you a thanks, then.
Good luck with Nelly. I can guarantee she will bring you countless giggles and joy. She has so much love surrounding her. She’s a lucky little girl. You’re a lucky mom. 🙂
Gypsy Heart says
This is an incredibly beautiful and heartwarming story! You have a real gift for writing. I just found your blog via the Rwanda trip and so happy I did! You have beautiful children and you two are very special parents. Thank you so much for sharing!
xo
Pat
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erin statz says
Thank you. I am in the hospital just delivered our third son and going through the same thing as you did. I don’t even have the words yet… Just tears. I hope to have my own words soon. And my own pictures. Thank you for sharing so that us others know we are not alone.
Ernest Zick says
Saw your blog….YOU…understand the beauty of life itself…YOU…understand that your daughter is the newest miracle within your life. Enjoy her…grow with her…learn from her…She will teach you so much more than you already know. I know because I am the proud father of a 25 year old young man with Down Syndrome.
Lauren says
Ugly crying like a baby over here. Amazing story, so raw and real. Can’t wait to catch up on your journey, I have a long way to go
Liz Aquino says
I just saw this post and I couldn’t help but read it while I was in the office. I was fighting off tears as I read through and even have to take a step back and a deep breath before I continued without letting a tear fall and let my work colleagues ask why I was crying.
I have always dreamed of having a perfect little boy when I was pregnant. But when I first saw and held him, I knew something was wrong. I remember telling myself that he’s normal but I knew that somewhere down the line, the other shoe will drop. Getting the confirmation that my son has indeed Down Syndrome was so painful for me that I cried buckets of tears and went through the process of blaming myself even. And I know the feeling of wanting to run away, to turn back time and change things if it was remotely possible and have that perfect baby that I envisioned to have.
My son is now a 15 months old and there is never a single day that I regret having him in my life. He is my heart and my soul, the love of my life. He is the reason why I strive hard on being a good Mom to him because he is special and he is perfect just the way he is.
Thank you for sharing your wonderful story.
Mary Depp says
I stumbled upon your blog this morning as I was searching for children’s Christmas party ideas. I saw the images of Nella and wondered if that absolutely gorgeous baby had DS so I started exploring and I just read your beautiful story. I’ve never commented on a blog before but I have to thank you for sharing and inspiring me. I’ve never read anything that has brought such tears… and Nella is the most beautiful baby I’ve ever seen – and I have 3 cute ones myself. God Bless you all.
emily says
I just watched a video you linked in a more recent post, where Nella is sitting by a pool in her little bathing suit–she is beautiful! Seriously, she could be a model… That color in her eyes and just her whole sweet little face. What wonderful babies you have.
La Table De Nana says
Such a beautiful story..♥
Beautiful little girls.. mommy..sister..daddy..words.
Nana says
I absolutely loved this article! I am a “Nana” of a 9 year old DS little princess. She was a “surprise” at birth as your little one was. We wouldn’t trade her for a typical little one now or ever! It was a “gut-punch” when she was born because it was unexpected, but oh, what we would have missed if she wasn’t who she is! We are so blessed to have her!
mallory says
What a beautiful story. I’m in tears after reading it. Nella looms like such a sweet baby. I wish you and your family all of the best. God Bless
Karyn says
Your story is wonderful, it teaches us many things not only how unexpected things in life that knock us down, scare us or surprise us can turn out to be the best things God ever blessed us with but your story also teaches us the true story of Mom’s and how they love no matter what!! Your story also went deeper to see how God expects people to act, behave and love–the way your family, friends and you loved each other, stuck together, supported each other and prayed for each other—WOW! if our world would do that, can you just imagine??? May God continue to bless you, love you, encourage you and use you for His glory and may those angels God has given you always be covered in His love and protection and their sweet parents hugs and kisses. To your husband, what a man–the baby holding your finger picture was the day she took Dad’s heart–same as my son, now 18, took his dad’s heart. May God make you a wonderful daddy loving those girls and showing them how men should treat young ladies and be the example in a dad all girls need & want (even when they act later like they don’t—there is nothing like a great daddy). My prayers and love are with you all, I am humbled, honored and inspired by your story—keep it going! Proverbs 3:5-6
Jodi says
Such a beautiful and inspiring story. Wow. Thank you.
Carrie says
I love your dad’s “that’s okay.” Our 2 year old son was just diagnosed with Autism. (The night I *knew* I cried the ugly cry all night too….for all the reasons….) And I have so much love and gratitude for the people who say “that’s okay.” A few people have said “I’m sorry.” I know they don’t know what to say…. But thank you God for the people who say it’s all okay. Thank you so much for sharing! Truly.
bell says
Thank you for sharing so openly… first thought “Two angels met here on earth”
She has changed your life. And you sharing. Your story. Will change. Many.. my heart is aching with joy and feeling. Alive because. Of you sharing. Your family. Story.. may God bless you and your family. And amazing friends
Bk says
Such a beautiful story. You have beautiful daughters.
Joy says
You wrote so beautifully and openly about the birth of your daughter. I have just read your story on Pinterest and the honesty of what your wrote made me cry. Your story was life affirming and I am so glad that there are people like you in the world. I hope your life journey as a family is filled with love and wonder.
Beth Kelly says
and you did so beautifully. I love your story and your daughter is picture perfect. love her name especially. thank you for sharing
Katy says
Third time I’ve read this birth story and I cry EVERY.TIME. Such a beautiful and inspiring and REAL story. Thank you for sharing.
Suni De La Torre says
This was an amazing berth story I have ever read. I am glad you’re Nella’s mother for she couldn’t have picked a better one. Others may think our kids are not perfect but they are perfect for us for they show and theach us what no one else can. We learn more from our children than we do with anyone else. And with the right partner its always better. I am glad I read this beautiful story for it had me in tears and I could feel the unconditional Love growing from the moment you layed eyes on her. May the Lord bless you and your family with so much happiness. And thank you for sharing this with us.
Emily says
I am reading this post for the second time. I read it when I was 36 weeks pregnant with my first baby in 2012 and I am reading it again at 36 weeks pregnant with my second. This pregnancy has been very difficult. We were told our baby had a 50% chance of having a genetic disorder or heart condition, or both, at our 12 week prenatal visit. I thought of your story immediately. I wanted all of the tests. I wanted to know. I needed to prepare. The tests came back negative but there is always a chance that something was missed. The anticipation of this birth is guarded, something I feel horrible guilt about. With my first, there was only joy and happiness and overwhelming hope and wonder at this stage. The fact that I don’t feel the same this time scares me and breaks my heart. I am so thankful for your story because you came through the darkness and fell in love. Thank you for sharing it and for keeping it online all of these years.
Alexa REyes says
I CAME ACROSS YOUR BLOG THROUGH PINTEREST… I DO BELIEVE HEAVENLY FATHER GRANTED YOU A TREMENDOUS BLESSING BY BECOMING A MOTHER, BUT ALSO THAT YOU ARE A SPECIAL WOMAN TAKING CARE OF ONE OF HIS MOST CHERISHED ANGELS.
MY SINCERE ADMIRATION AND WARM AFFECTION FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.
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Kelsi krajniak says
This story…
Your story has touched me in more ways than I can ever say. This might seem strange but is there any chance I could share my testimony with you?
Elizabeth smart says
Amazing story. You have a beautiful family!!!!
Christina says
Your honesty is refreshing, your story is inspiring and your passion is beautiful.
Thank you.
Dawn says
Such a beautiful story
Ell says
Just beautiful. Thankyou for sharing your story. I am truly touched.
Brittany says
I just wanted to tell you how much your story has moved me. I am currently pregnant with a little girl (my second child) and a girlfriend of mine has just had a little boy born with Down syndrome. As a parent you picture every possible scenario and pray your baby is ok! I have an adult friend with Down syndrome and she is one of the most precious people I know! As a parent tho the idea of this challenge seems daunting but your raw emotion and absolute love makes my heart both break and melt. Thank you for sharing this.
josefina says
Your baby is an ????…beautiful and perfect. May she guide you with her beautiful light. God bless her.
Jana says
Thank you so much for telling your story. I too have felt the pain that you have felt and it’s an amazing feeling to know that I’m not alone. We were blessed with our special bundle Anna only 3 weeks ago. Again thank you.
Molly says
What a beautiful story and beautiful family. God’s amazing grace shines through your journey.
Pat says
Your little girls are beautiful! And you’ll be a wonderful mother.
Christina says
Absolutely beautiful! I cried like a baby reading your journey. It’s a reminder of how precious our lives are, but most importantly “LOVE” fixes everything! Thank you so much for sharing.
Kim brown says
What a beautiful story, I have a downs sister and believe God gives theses lovely children only to special people. What your daughter does not learn in life is not worth knowing God bless you and your family and thank you for sharing your story. Please write your book it would be a best seller xxxx
ERIKA Castillo says
This story completely amazed me. I’m going to be honest I cried so much! I have an older sister and her name is Carolina. She has down-syndrome. There were many thoughts running through my mind. I began to wonder if this might have been how my parents felt when they had her 31 years ago. What I know today is that she is loved and we are blessed to have her. I really enjoyed reading your birth story.
Victoria says
I’m 20 weeks pregnant and just found out last week that my blood results came back positive for possible Down syndrome. It’s definitely not something you’re expecting to hear and I’m trying my best to keep living my pregnancy happy and waiting anxiously for my sons arrival, no matter the outcome. Today I have my 2nd ultrasound so they can check for abnormalities. I’m scared, but mentally prepared to be told the results were right. Reading your story made me cry tears of joy and sadness but mostly joy because it gives me faith that I can get through this. ❤️ thank you for sharing your story!
stella says
i just read this today, and all i want to say is, i love you. and your heart, i wish you a very happy family. and i am excited to see how your beautiful daughters are.
Julia Hoover says
I feel so priviledged , through your writing , to have experienced something so deeply personal, and inspiring, and so incredibly beautiful. Your telling of your story has made a mark on my heart that will not be forgotten. I can’t imagine the number of people this has helped. God Bless you and your beautiful family.
Rose Giuliani says
Dear Kelli,
Thank you for sharing your family’s story.
God has chosen you to give a special little girl to love. She is God’s creation for a blessing for you and your family.
Nella will be the one who will love you all in such a special way. She will love you when you are feeling unlovable, she will love you when you mourn, when tragedy and confusion fill your life. She will smile and hug and make you know that she is constant and will always hug and love you. You truly are blessed!
Joyce B says
So beautiful you are in spirit with your baby… Love how you see into your daughter with holding the baby…seeing the wonderful warmth of a child who really shares her love to her sister … she is angel holding another angel… love is always so beautiful…. ♥
Dottie says
Awesome, sweet story. She is just beautiful. Your an inspiration to
so many others. May the Lord bless and keep you and your precious family and shine His light upon you and give you peace. Thank you for sharing your wonderful experience. Be blessed
Theresa says
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story
Christina @There's Just One Mommy says
Raw, honest, and so beautiful.
Tears are streaming down my cheeks. You have 2 beautiful little girls.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Meg says
I cried reading this. What a beautiful, inspirational story of a mother’s love! Thank you for sharing this!
Nina says
Beautiful! Thank you so much.
ROBIN says
Thank you for sharing such a poignant and intimate part of your life. God bless you and your beautiful family. You have touched me in a way I cannot express. You are loved and prayed for by myself and countless others.
Kazmi says
Kelle, i am not able to speak even a word after reading your story, in my office, just sitting and starring at my computer screen as if it belongs to heavens, such heavenly words made me and my surroundings so spiritual that i am no more the part of this world, at the moment. i belong to Central Asia, and i am not good at writing something that can explain my feelings, especially in English, as it is not my mother tongue. But i really impressed by each and every word of your’s ( Nella’s Birth) story. I am a father of daughter in same age of Lainey and my wife is again expecting (4th month). I really felt the pain inside my heart while reading all this and cried and cried and cried. i don’t know what is all this, Am i fallen in love with you or Nella? But it is the truth that i really love the that strong relation that bonds you with Nellas an eternal affaction and love and unbreakable relation,you have had from the Almighty God. Congrats for being so lucky, for being the mom of Nella. And i guess that God has chosen you for Nella because you have that quality of being not only a mom of her’s but a perfect mom, of two little beautiful heavenly fairies. No one else deserve them. God is great whose selections are always perfect. I will let my wife to read this strange story of a great mom when her soul was breaking into pieces, and dreams were fading, and how her motherhood empowered her soul to overcome her grief and become so calm and peaceful, SOLUUUUUUTE. At the end, i am sure that you are in the list of luckiest persons in the world for being a mom of Nella and Lainey,… Stay blessed
Andrea goss says
I love this story, it is just like my own. Except, that we had twins, 1 with DS and 1 typical to go along with their 2 yr old sister. What a whirlwind! They are 9 & 7 now, & I can’t imagine anything different.
Heather says
I’m not sure how I found this blog, but I left this screen open last night before I went to bed. I cried with you, through to the end. You made me feel what you must be feeling the entire time. I am sorry that you felt crushed. I am thrilled that by the end you felt especially Blessed. You are Bless to have your Bunny. Nella is too, to have you.
Sandy says
There is a book by Erma Bombeck called motherhood the oldest profession. Read the chapter about special mothers. It’s been five years I hope your life is still blessed and you sound like a remarkable woman. Sandy
Rebecca Flynn says
Wow! What a beautiful story! You really need to write a book. You’re a wonderful writer and a beautiful person! God bless you.
ANEESA says
I hope I can get a copy of your book at our library in SA.
Such a beautiful story. God bless you & your family for raising sweet Nella.
Anna and Elisabeth Linzey says
What a beautiful story! We cried through most of this, because we experienced the same thing as you have described just three years ago. We do not have our story published, but we are privileged to be the two oldest sisters of the little angel in our life, adorned with that special extra touch of Down Syndrome. Our little guy is such a joy and delight, a ray of sunshine in our life and we wouldn’t trade him for the world! We did not know he had it until he was born, and we had feelings of hurt, confusion and overwhelming sadness as well. But our dear father turned our focus to the providence of our loving Heavenly Father, and tenderly speaking to our mother, saying, “God knows I am going to need him, Will you take care of my little buddy for me?”. The pictures you posted of Nella brought back memory after memory of our little Daniel when He was born. They are precious! Keep loving that little one! God has an extra special plan for her!
Courteney Patton says
Your little Nella is absolutely beautiful. Congratulations. Thank you for sharing this heart warming story.
Marcia says
You have been blessed…people with DS love unconditionally..and you have been chosen to be this beautiful girls mama.
My aunt has DS and we love her ohh sooo much!
DEBBIE says
I don’t even know how to describe the feelings your story brought out in me. You are an incredible writer and an even more incredible human being. I am still crying. I am a mom and I could relate to everything you described. Those little girls are so lucky to have a mom like you. I am so glad I read this. Thank you.
Christine torosian says
I read this years ago when it was first published. Today I was talking to a friend whose cousin just delivered a daughter with DS very unexpectedly. She is the third child for this family. But I am sure her shock felt similar to yours. Your story, your honesty, touches my heart every time I read it and I can’t thank you enough for sharing it. I am blessed with three children myself and your love and devotion to your children is nothing less than inspiring and beautiful. I am so glad I was able to share your story with another mother who may find solace in your words. God bless you.
Karen M. Roth says
What a beautiful tribute to your precious babies. Thank you for being real about it. I love what your sister told you, it is so true.
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They are both very beautiful. May God bless you and your family in this journey through life together. {{{hugz}}}}
Elizebeth says
You have a two beautiful angels god bless you all . This was a beautiful story of Nella and your family very heart warming. May life bri g you happiness always
Lisa Jones says
Wonderful story. You are a great writer and your whole family is beautiful x
Linda Waugh says
your girls are adorable!
Erin godinez says
Absolutely beautiful story. Thank yon so much for sharing, I’m inspired by your honesty and vulnerability.
Sandra says
really he looked so cute and loved
Grace says
Beautiful!
Beautiful family.
God bless you all.
Joan mc says
I initially opened this story because I thought the baby in the photo was so incredibly cute, and wondered what her story was, and had no idea she had Downs. She’s such a wee precious cutie pie, and I’m happy you have found each other, and have your happy ending. What a lovely family.
Wholesome Joy says
What a beautiful and heart wrenching story. Our pastor and his wife’s 7th child (2nd boy) was just born 5 weeks early and they found out he also has DS. But like your precious little girl He’s beautiful! They were both made in the image of God and given to the family that needed them most! God’s blessings on you and your family. 🙂
Nelida Medina says
This is such an amazing story. A year ago my mom gave birth to Valentina so also was born with down syndrome. We did not know that she was a down baby until that moment when she came out. The moment mom saw her she know that she had the syndrome. I can so relate to this story with my baby sister. We were all crying in the hospital when mom said dont you see she has down syndrome. I couldnt believe it but we loved her from the begining and my dad couldn’t understand why had God sent her. She is such an amazing baby thay dad feels unworthy of her. She had jaundice too and she spent the first month in the hospital. We were told that she was going to need help to teach her how to eat. She started eating at 6months and also said dad at 6 months. God is so such a loving father and has shown us how much he loves us by sending us babies like Nella and Valentina who’s lives are priceless.
Sharon quezada says
This was amazing to read. I just had a baby girl 2 months ago and reading your story made me appreciate her to another level. The way you describe how you anticipated your daughter’s birth and how well you planned it and how much you were looking forward to her made realize how lucky we all are. I know you didn’t expect her to have down syndrome, I love how everyone was so supportive and loving. I wish I had had that kind of support and love during my pregnancy and birth. All my lregnacy i had no one to talk to or plan her homecoming or even have a baby shower. I didn’t feel loved or wanted and k thought my baby was not loved or wanted by those around me either. When my baby came, no one was there. Not a single “friend” came to see me. It was just my wonderful mother and boyfriend who were at the hospital. No on else. One person called me, but that was it. And I had never felt so alone, the days I was in the hospital. But I didn’t realize the main reason for me to be happy was the fact that my baby was here! She was born and healthy and beautiful! And I didn’t see that then! And now I cry with your beautiful story because even though your baby had down syndrome, you were in the present and loving her and taking her in. I wish I had that experience giving birth. My baby is here laying on my chest as I write this, and I have never been more thankful for her than now. Thank you for sharing this beautiful story. I wish you all the best for your beautiful baby and family.
Cia says
God Bless you. I am tearing up from such a beautiful story. What a gift she is and what a gift your story is. Thank you so much. You’ve blessed me with this story of your beautiful little bunny and my heart is also so full of love for your entire family.
Lesley says
I feel blessed to now be a part of the celebration of Nella x
Cali says
I stumbled across this on Pinterest and I must say your story melted my heart! I’m the proud Mother of 6, 2 waiting in heaven & 4 here on earth and your story truly inspired me! Blessings & Prayers to your family ♡
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Es hermosa esos niños son una bendiciones de Dios.yo tengo un hermanito asi y es muy amoroso,cariñoso le gusta todo limpio tambien cuando va a comer y si estas alado de ellos siempre te estan acariciando.felicidades por esa princesita tan hermosa que m dieron ganas de abrasarla,Besar la y acariciarla esta tan hermosa y muy Bonitas fotos
Felicidades ala hermana ya va a tener con quien jugar y tambien a ustedes por esa dos bendiciones k son los hijos.Que Dios siempre bendiga su hogar y a su hermosa familia y muchos besitos a esas dos preciosa hijas que tienen,saludos desde Merced California
Alex says
I am so wrought with so many emotions at such an intensity… Your story… Your little bunny’s story, I have never heard or read anything like it. The love you two share, the fears in the beginning mixed with sorrow and agony that, with a new day, brought such intense feelings of joy and something very few ever experience; a true bond. Through out this story I felt as If i was standing right next to you, as if you were telling me this story with your own voice. I felt every single one of your emotions and felt your joy.
But I have never seen such a beautiful soul as your little bunny… from the moment she began to grow inside you and to the point of her coming into this world from the safety of your belly and seeing you for the first time… A love that strong could never be replicated or broken. She is so, intensely and wonderfully beautiful. How lucky you are to have been chosen by her, by your baby, Nella, to love and protect and care for her all her days and even after. Your family and your friends are so wonderful and unique, so much loyalty and love when you needed it most.
I have never read a story like this, birth or otherwise, the intensity and the emotion and the oh so joyous ending… It’s surreal. Congratulations to you, Kelle, congratulations to your heart and your mind and you soul. The gift you have been given, is the greatest of all. And she’s yours forever. Completing your gorgeous family and that little hole that rested in your life until she had crept into your heart and curled up wanting nothing else, but you.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart I thank you, for allowing us into this part of your life, letting us stand with you in that hospital room and be there when Nella blessed us all with her presence, and when you learned to love her with everything you had, because she was perfect. Thank you.
May many wonderful and joyous blessings come to you and yours. And may your bond be forever and into the depths of eternity with your gorgeous baby bunny.
bella says
beautiful mother and child
Isabelle Joy! says
This is amazing! Your story is so unique, and so real. I believe and pray over this beautiful family of yours as it grows and grows. Parts that made me tear up, filled me with joy, and I loved the pictures. This is what happens when real life takes place and “unconditional love” shows us that there are no limits to compassion when, first, God gives us the strength to do so, love. To knit a blanket of love around Nella I pray, and your journey will be amazing.
Angelia says
Hi. Thank you so much for sharing this! My children were both born after age 30. They did not have Down’s but we faced other challenges. It was so nice to read about all the support you and your family have. I did not have that. I felt quite alone and abandoned with my babies. Now, they are thriving and I have trouble letting them go. ???? thank you again for sharing your blessings and making it ok to say that as moms, sometimes we are unsure what to do.
God’s Peace,
Angelia
Christina Graham says
I cant tell you how much your story has meant to me. Nella is so blessed to have you and the lord makes no mistakes, he picked the perfect mom and the perfect daughter. I have always feared this in pregnancy, but just like you I know that I would love my child. At least I pray I would be as good of a mom as you. Thank you
KARLA says
What a beautiful and inspirational story! How blessed is Nella to have you as her mom. She’s a blessing to you and you are a blessing to her. She is beautiful and sooo sweet looking.
Betty Franklin says
What a beautiful story. I am a Mother of a Special Needs Child. He is not Downs and we did not find out till he was a little older, but I love him to the moon and back. He is a handsome 36 year old now and I could not be prouder of him. God Bless you and you little on and the rest of your family.
Tammy says
God gives special babies to special people. Those are words my mom said to me 20 years ago, when my son was born with Recombinant 8 syndrome. He has been the biggest blessing ever. You will be the best mom ever, and Love more than most will know. GOD BLESS YOUR FAMILY.
Elizabeth says
Your story is the kind of story that shows the true luv only a mother knows. As a mother of two precious little girls and as a mother who went through a very emotional time after the second baby I have a slight understanding of ur emotional journey. Thank u for sharing ur story. My heart is full this day!!
Dianne says
Thanks you so much for sharing your beautiful story. It’s such a loving inspiration!
Lake Lili says
You don’t know me and I came across your story on Pinterest. Today is the 6th anniversary of this posting and I can only begin to imagine the joy and the love, the song, the cookies, the dress-up tea parties, and all the up and the downs and all the mayhem of your family. I am the parent of a child with special needs and I remember with clarity the day that a woman at a party dismissed my child as being that “special needs kid” as if every child is not special and every child does not have needs that that challenge us as parents. I can only pray that you and your husband, Lainey, Nella and any others who have joined your family in the intervening years are living wonderful, loving, and fulfilling lives, blessed by the Grace of our Heavenly Father.
Genna says
I’m a pediatric nurse and I can easily say that these precious gift from God babies who the world sees as different are really the greatest gift to us all. These kids make me smile every time I walk into their room. These are the kids who bring rays of sunshine into the pediatric unit on the darkest days. And, outside of work every time I see these precious kids I’m reminded of God’s never ending love for us. Kids with Trisomy 21 remind me that love knows no bounds and that we should all love freely as they do. 🙂 I cried all the way through your story, thank you so very much for sharing.
Barb says
This child will be full of love. You and your family are so lucky that you get to experience this, every day will bring a new source of wonder.
Julia says
You are great…i love your story,i’ve got 2 girls and i would do ANYTHING for my little angels!!!good luck….
bryana says
hi i really love your blog!! Very inspiring
i designed a t-shirt to support down syndrome.
kindly check.
https://teespring.com/supporting-trisomy21
i think your followers would love it. Cheers
-bry 😉
Bryslin says
This is a beautiful emotional lovely story I can’t tell you how much it made me cry and it is just the sweetest thing ever i can’t wait to here more about the precious little bunny you should write a book about this
barbara says
You’re so damn brave.
Cristi says
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story! Your girls are so blessed to be surrounded with so much love
Des says
Thank you for sharing your story! What a beautiful, kind, loving momma you are to your precious little girls. I had tears streaming down my cheeks throughout the whole story (you’re a fantastic writer by the way!) and was reminded of the fact that we are indeed chosen to be moms to our children. Thanks for being such an inspiration of choosing to love. 🙂
Sydni hall says
your guys story is touching to my heart. God bless you all
Bijo says
Heart touching. Nice story. Nicely explained about the relation between mom and child.
Rachel says
This is so beautiful… Congrats on your beautiful family. This story has welled my eyes with tears. Its amazing how our emotions can change for the better when we look at what we have with love in our hearts.
Karen McLendon says
I loved your story. We will keep you in our prayers…I have custody of my two oldest granddaughters. They both have DiGeorge syndrome. They are perfect and unique and I would not want not to have them….
DWOO says
I truly enjoyed your story it was heart wrenching and yet so beautifu. God, make no mistakes and when your first baby was born and was sick you made a request of God to take care of her and you would do anything for her to be healthy And God knew before you made your request that you was the right mother for Nella.
God always put the wright people in our lives. This is why we can’t pick our parents. On Nella’s birthday give her a great big & loving hug for me, and if she had her birthday, still give N8ella, tha hug.
God, bless you & yours now & forever. ????????????????❤????????????????????
T henderson says
Well done ! Your daughter is beautiful, such a geougous face! Nella is so lucky to have you both as parents because you can see how much she is adored. God bless you all in the future and give that angel a hug from me.
A says
Beautiful.
I too have wished for the happy moments before knowing life was going to be different. You expressed that so beautifully. And life is different. But amazing and wonderful and chaotic and routinely mundane as well. I am grateful for that.
Blessings to you and your family.
Breanna says
What a beautiful story!!! I have a special needs daughter. I too was so very lucky that she chose ME to be her mother. I wish you and your family all the best. You are a beautiful writer! I hope you continue to write!
valerie mcLeod-ferraro says
I found this on Pinterest and cried my way through your beautiful story of a mothers love. Having 4 children of my own I “suffered” through being told my oldest daughter, Kendra probably would not make it after her birth and my fourth child McKenna , was deemed “sightless” after 3 months. That one, I brought to the attention of my doctor having already come to grips with it. Something in a mother seems to know early on. I was lucky, both turned out fine. Kendra was on a heart monitor 24/7 for over a year and McKenna being seen by the Manhatten Eye Institude in N.Y. to UCLA in Ca. regained sight
after 8 months with no explaination. Your story reminded me how I would
have sold my sole to make them better. It is now 21 years later and you brought back every one of my emotions. I thank you for reminding me how small the other things are in comparison and how every day I should remain grateful. Your love will carry you through and the support of friends and family are immeasurable . Your story was a gift to me. God Bless you and your sweet family.
Elizabeth says
I’ve read this post several times and each time I end up in tears. Beautiful.
Leah says
My aunts sister has down syndrome and is the most beautiful,loving,caring person that I know so I know that Nella will turn out that way too ☺
Toula says
Darling…I have just read your story…I have been crying all the way through the reading. You are simply gorgeously great! I realise it’s been some years now…I imagine your two princesses have grown up to two beautiful young girls by now – be proud!!! Keep smiling and feel blessed every single moment! I am sending you my love and the best of wishes for you and your lovely family!
Iris Lopez says
I am in awe of all the love coming through your words
Mari says
In from Glennon. I am a bit of a language junkie, especially when it comes to naming, and I could not help but notice:
The “Nella” in “Nella Fantasia” means “my”. And Cordelia (invented by The Bard himself) could as easily mean “jewel of the sea” as “heart of a lion”. I choose to think perhaps it’s the latter.
Which means you effectively named her “my lionheart”.
And that is beautiful.
Very belated congratulations.
Donice says
As a teenager I was a caregiver for two children with downs syndrome they showed me unconditional love. They sti hold a piece of my heartb15 years later.
pamfabulous says
I found you from a Pinterest picture, a dual image of a mother holding her newborn. Then I read your story. Of course I cried. Then I looked at the date, and I got to jump ahead six years to see pictures of you and your girls at a Florida aquarium. And I cried again because I got to see how beautiful you all are together and it is true, your little Nella Fantasia is really thriving, and beautiful, and funny, and a great sister.
Thank you for sharing your vulnerableness and strength.
Jenna Acasio says
I loved the poem in the beginning. Your story is so beautiful and the pictures really capture your individual experiences. Thank you so much for sharing. I loved reading this post.
cj says
I read your eloquently written story with smiles and tears.Sad tear for the loss of dreams and happy tears for all the love that surrounds your family and your little Nella. Dream dreams for both of your beautiful,precious girls. Their lives have touched,will touch and bless many.
Madison says
She is beautiful. Both girls are. I wish the all the best of wishes.
Maria says
You have been chosen by God to take care of His daughter here on earth! We love her and you, blessings!
Nikki says
This baby is beautiful. This story is beautiful and hard and lovely and gut wrenching. Your story made me remember what it felt like to be told that there is something “wrong” with your newborn. Thank you for the reminder! It’s all going to be okay.
Carla says
DS babies are God children, made in his own image. I cried and cried reading your story. I guess she a big girl now.
Savanna says
This was truly a blessing and beautiful story you have a beautiful family!!! God bless you all and thank you for sharing this loving and inspiring story!
Heather says
Thank you for sharing your story. It’s hard to be vulnerable and express your true emotions, especially when the expectation as a parent is that you have unconditional love for your children no matter what. I cried reading about your journey, I smiled at the photos, my heart ached deeply for you and for your “bunny.” You are so fortunate to be surrounded with so much love and support. Having people who allow you to be real without judgment is a beautiful gift. Your bunny is a beautiful gift! Yes, your life will be forever changed but she is perfect. Best wishes to you, your daughters and your family. Thank you again for sharing your story, from one mother to another this has touched my heart. Looking forward to the next chapter of sharing.
Katey says
Oh my goodness. This story brought tears to my eyes. You have such a beautiful soul! You have a beautiful family your story has touched me.
Keep your head up. God never gives you more then you can handle.
Dustin says
She is absolutely beautiful! Both of your daughters are beautiful! I’m sending your amazing family all of the love and happiness I can. Thank you for sharing this amazing adventure with all of us. Lots of love! ????
Iris says
Such a beautiful baby, bless her, and she is lucky to have a beautiful mama,dad and big sister.
You are amazing, I wish you and your family and friends happiness and joy and love
Bless you
leigh white says
My heart goes out to you, Never forget that little bundle you hold in your hands is a GIFT from GOD meant just for you and he is making you stronger GOD will be by your side as she grows LOVE LOVE LOVE her with all your heart and sole
Carla says
I am soooo inspired by your story!! My heart resonates with yours!! All the fear… all the love… i dont have a ds baby but I have had to learn to let go of dreams of my baby being perfect.
Jessica says
words can not how incredibly touching this story was thank you so much for sharing!!!! <3
mary says
We go pick up our little girl today July 2, 2016. We finally get to bring her home from the hospital. Cora Allison Heerling born June 24, 2016. My husband told me the day our daughter was born and when he first saw her he knew. I saw it too. He said he spent the time after her birth walking alone in the hospital hallways by him self. Just yesterday we got the official news on the preliminary report that she has DS. And I told him that morning and in the afternoon he told me what was happening with him and the grief he feels. I then found your story and I shared it with him and photos of your Nella. It really helped him and I. He will do his own story as well and find his peace with it.
Thank you Kelle!
Raquel Coria says
She is beautiful
Shar Mullaney says
Oh my goodness! I’ve just read Nella’s birth story. Her story is beautiful. She is beautiful (and one very lucky girl to have you, Kelle and her daddy Brett as parents)
There are no mistakes and she is perfect. Love following you and your family on instagram. X
Shar Mullaney.
Ella says
She is gorgeous!
Bridget says
Absolutely a wonderful and amazing story. Thank you for pouring your heart out. Nella is beautiful and perfect, and it was wonderful to see so much healing happening in such a small amount of time. Thank you for sharing your feelings and experience, you are an inspiration!
Rachel says
Kelle,
I cried through your entire post about your baby Nella. I just wanted to thank you for your beautiful story retelling your feelings for the world to see. You put your heart and soul out there and that’s not easy. I am amazed by how well you overcame the shame and allover negative aspect associated with DS. It took me a lot longer, but then again, Rosie was born 18 years ago, and even in less than 2 decades, things were different then. It took us longer to realize that our DS loved-one is a blessing beyond our dreams, she is a gem of a person. She writes poetry, and has a unique spin to her poems. She’s a dancer as well. We are so thankful for her!
I am the proud older sister of an 18-year old DS girl. Our parents named her Roselynn when she was born, I was 9. But around the time she became a teenager, she insisted that everyone call her Rosie instead. There’s not a soul who knows her, who doesn’t love her. She is so full of joy and blesses others with her presence.
alie Kabba says
thanks for your inspiring story. got a daughter that was born about five months ago and she has got DS. we were devastated but since for us in Africa it is seen as a curse, but your story has given us hope.
thank you.
Britanny says
It’s been a while since I have checked in… I remember it like it was yesterday, just 1 month shy of delivering my son, chatting with all my fertility friend girls, when I first read your story of Nella just a day or 2 after you wrote it… with tears streaming down my face….. just 25 days later my son would be born… I followed your family and your adventures for a couple years… I can’t believe how big the kids are getting! Just know that your still in the hearts of some after all these years… I’m glad your still writing. I can’t wait to catch up!
Keonna Scott says
Beautiful story! She’s absolutely gorgeous and I’m happy you shared your story with us.
contact says
Great article. I’m experiencing a few of these issues
as well..
Lynn says
4:01 AM. Found your story. Read it. Loved it. Feel encouraged to keep going through difficult times with our firstborn, 34. We never know where life will take us.
Jennifer Reil says
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I just found out Tuesday that the little girl I am carrying (baby #7) has Down Syndrome. I am a roller coaster of emotions right now, but your sweet story gives me so much hope!
Terri says
Your story is truly about love it is an amazing love story. Be Blessed
Lori says
thank you thank you thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I cried the whole way thru. I feel privileged to have been let into such an intimate and special moment in your life. God bless your beautiful family <3
Samantha says
Hi Kelle, today I stumbled upon your story and it deeply touched me because I have similar story, I nearly lost my first child who is affected by AEC syndrome. I hope one day I can share my story and message to the world like you did! You and your special ones are our inspiration.
Eileen Wollam says
Going through something similar with a different diagnosis but reading your first day is like reliving my own. Your strength and optimism is encouraging and I strive to find that happiness and click of unconditional love. My daughter was born with a heart condition and we almost lost her during her open heart surgery. We were in the hospital for seven weeks and unfortunately suffered many of the complications that could happen given her condition. Now at home I’m still suffering from ptsd and post partum depression as I watch her struggle to survive outside of the hospital walls. How? How did you find the strength? Thank you for being strong enough to put all your feelings in writing so that someone like me could read and find someone in this world to relate to.
Harleen Purewal says
This is a powerful and beautiful story. It shows how much love they have for Nella, that they did not see anything different in her. Nella was born into the right family, she is blessed with a great mother, sister, and father. I believe that Nella sister will always have her back without any concerns. Nella will have a fun life.